Psychological Projection & The Soul | Individuation & Occult Discipleship

[@Inspiriments888]

I found myself at a crossroads as a Cap/Sun, Cap/lilith, Scorpio/8th house(to name a few that are relevant to this topic) and it dawned on my that the Oroboros was a symbol/totem/token of where I was stuck... Intellectual dissection of my soul, a seemingly covert/overt masochisticly obsessed desire to find out everything "wrong with self aka shaddows, and im the world, the pessimistic, overly draub intellectual narcissism that was enveloping me as if the very innocence and soul of curiosity was fixed in a scope of the world and self as a mad scientist's experiment gone awall in hoping to fix but cutting deeper & deeper until the awareness of the mechanical/transactional/cold and alchemical work was stuck in a loop of entropy and sophisticated theoretical esoteric ideations where my consciousness was like a yoyo on a pendulum of choice... Do I want to ride with the Loving/Graceful, Creative Mother GOD in Unity of the Cold Masochistic/Dogmatic Father God of Hard knocks and a belief that suffering is the way, that I in some way was both in charge of my actual growth down to thoughts manifesting all the way to being shown time and time again how Life could twist me into Dr Strange Nightmares at will... So my point is I realized intellectual analysis is siging up for an infinite experience of masochistic covert suicide under the quise of growth through self inflicted, shame blame, guilt and endless contraptions to gain worthyness when it was there all along. End of rant... I'm not sure if it made sense, but I felt the urge to share. Thoughts?

[@soulsciencebyrisa]

@@Inspiriments888 I think I’m following… Yes, intellectualism can become a dissociative problem. Capricorn too can be a heady sign and the lower limitations of the mind come into play. It is true that excessive rumination esoteric knowledge becomes a trap of self-preoccupation at a certain point. The key is for such analysis to always be grounded in the simplicity of the immediate daily life and a strong earthly connection to what is immediately in front of oneself. Attuning to the environment and being productive with steps forward are ways to prevent mental neurosis from settling in. This is why the simplicity of service is also so important - that is, getting the attention off oneself!