Pulling myself out of a depressive episode ☔️ - Living with Schizophrenia - reset routine 🧹

[@Tolya1979]

Kimberly, the opposite of depression, or mental illness in general, is connection. Making a video like this is a positive start. You are helping people all over the world learn and empathize with your story. Is there a library or coffee shop near you that you can go to and spend some time? Don't worry. You definitely may be able to hold down a job and work in the future, and make some money. You may also be able to find that special someone. The important thing is to hold on to hope, as we all are. You are making an important start by having this KZbin channel. Best of luck to you, and have a great week.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and have a great sunday! 🥰

[@theartofsydia6740]

Beautiful words🫶🏾

[@Gavriela.1234]

Hey girl feeling you 100% right now. Let s fight this. We are strong❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! we really are! 💚

[@Gavriela.1234]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@lauragreen2008]

Another soothing and calming video. I lurch from depression with no energy to high energy anxiety where I have to keep moving to calm my brain. I'm shifting to high energy right now, but you always calm me and make me feel welcome in your world 😊

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you that makes me glad to hear! 🥰

[@cynthiahurlburt2819]

Today's goals you achieved. 👏 👏 👏 Love your cats. They are comical and compassionate towards you. You deserve a homemade matcha Latte . You have encouraged me to read. Thank you. Be gentle on yourself. Your vlogs help to understand a life living with schizophrenia. You are very kind and caring. Quite the teacher you are. 🐈 🐈 Your vlogs are not boring in the lease.❤😊

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Cynthia! 🥹 have a nice day! ❤️

[@Gurpreet_Basra]

Getting out of a slump is a great achievement. Been here before. Keep going.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@jeancardoza4442]

Sweet vlog as always. Love to see your cats lounging and being part of your videos. There is a lot of beauty in your videos: your cats, your cooking, your home decor. I think it's wonderful that you've read so many books recently. Maybe you needed some time to relax, chill with books. ❤❤ You have a beautiful heart. Thank you sharing with us. I think we can all relate.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you jean! 🥹❤

[@Bamgeutcutiepie]

jeg har savnet dig 🥰 i mean it. i have been wondering how you are. I am proud of you for doing a video and doing all your things, as you avoided. but still pulling yourself out or trying. it's chronic with folks like us schizo's right ..... i know how you feel! but you are a huge help for me. i think if Kimberly keeps fighting this illness, so will i 💕💕💕💕💕 i can't believe you read so many books this year! so cool. i tried to read yesterday. then one page in, i gave up. my head just can't 🥴

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Oh thank you! 🥹 it really feels nice having the cleaning done… it’s really hard with negative symptoms trying to manage daily life sometimes ♥️ as for reading, it took me almost 5 years before I was able to read again sadly… hope you have a great week and again thank you for your lovely comment! 🥰♥️♥️♥️

[@pinky-27]

Hi Kim I love this video ❤ Wonderful work! Very inspirational!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! ❤️

[@uuuuhgggyg3267]

tack för att du pratar öppet om din sjukdom

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Tack för att du tittade! 😍

[@WWS322]

Funny thing is I always thought your house looked very clean! My apartment is very dusty and I don't clean much of anything but the kitchen. I read for most of my life and concentrate on music now, playing guitar. Good video.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! and no, I still have a messy home from time to time! 😊

[@pianno55]

Dear Kimberly, thank you for another great vlog - warm and soothing as usual 😊 I can totally understand how hard it must have been for you to do all these things despite depression. I know people usually think being depressed means you are feeling sad when in reality it feels like all of your life energy has been drained from you... Wishing you well and sending regards from Croatia 🤗

[@Seaturtle45778]

Hi Kimberly, before you were diagnosed did you use to read books?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰 sending you some well wishes from Sweden as well! ❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

yes I was quite the bookworm then also!

[@madelinegrace7575]

Kia kaha e hoa, ngā manaakitanga ki a koe. Beautiful vlog as always Kimberly. I hope you are feeling better

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Madeline, that means a lot to me! take care you too!🥹 ❤️

[@emmelinesprig489]

❤️❤️ I read Agnes Grey a few years ago, then listened to it on audiobook again this year. Such a great book. It spoke to me much more deeply than any other book from that era. It’s so motivating to watch you tidy and clean! Which I need because my home is a true disaster currently. Thank you for sharing 😊

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you emmeline! 🥹 I really liked Agnes grey and I really hope the tenant of wildfell hall will be just as great! ❤️

[@harleenkaur436]

Love your videos , peaceful ,calm n motivating ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! ❤

[@rose-mariearonsson193]

Go kväll😊 Bra jobbat känns ju så jäkla härligt när det äntligen blivit av. De blir klart nån dag. En grej i taget... Livet går vidare. Kämpa på❤❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

tack så mycket Rose-Marie! och ja det känns skönt att ha fått allt gjort! ha en fin kväll! 🥰❤️

[@dudaantuneskloss3173]

Ver o seu vídeo me deu um conforto enorme para o dia de hoje. Espero que você esteja melhor!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! ❤️

[@johnconstable8512]

good work on your cleaning! the apartment turned out very clean and fresh

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you!! 😊

[@missmaryhdream6560]

Hell there, you show us how you cope, with the conditions, that are so difficult. I tried crocheting, it's working, I love creating, Take care and I love listening x

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@frankieharvey4353]

Hi Kimberly. Thank you for your videos. I find them very very soothing and inspiring. I recently came out of a depressive episode, and it's been hard to get motivated as well.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for watching! 🥰

[@sofiamuller4027]

Loved your vlog and the booktalk, as always! Glad you are getting to feel better. I can relate so much. Best wishes 🌸

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! 🥰 🌷

[@SueB42]

It was a good day! Your cats are beautiful and very good comfort for you I can see.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@Holly858]

I'm so glad you decided to post your video. I can relate to your being tired and sleeping alot as Iam going through that myself right now. It's wonderful to be able to communicate with someone else that's going through the same thing. I want to thank you for having the courage to make these videos which helps give a voice to the many that aren't able to. I loved your book review as I love to read also! I hope you enjoy the rest of the week and I look forward to your next vlog.Please don't feel pressured to post as taking care of you is more important!❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you holly! im glad you think my videos are of some use even if its just to be real about mental illness.. have a nice day and I wish you feel less tired soon as well! ❤️

[@Holly858]

I love your videos so much and helping bringawareness to mental illness is just one small part!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@Holly858 thank you! 🥰

[@CousinAAE]

I'm glad you were able to get motivated. It was nice to see your progress. Keep at it and more power to you. Cats are so beautiful. 💙

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! glad you liked it 🥰

[@Sonia-ut2ie]

Hi Kimberly! I love your videos and vlogs, i struggle with many things you mentioned in this video. I just wanted to say I adore your channel. I also wanted to say I’ve read “no longer human” recently and I agree haha. The narrator can be so irritating but I guess his loneliness is sometimes relatable. Thank you for sharing this video, even if it’s sometimes hard to talk about these things. I hope you have an excellent day today ❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you! 😍 and you have a great one too! ❤️

[@catastrophicblues.]

❤saludos desde Argentina ! Lindo video 😊 mucha fuerza para seguir adelante

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@Andrew-ly5uy]

Nice video! And congratulations on meeting your goals! I would like to read/study more often. It's a good way to be in a meditative-like state. :)

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@ariahathaway5517]

Hi Kimberly... I REALLY understand your situation... I have regular episodes of complete disassociation as part of my coping mechanism. I want to get into reading more but I find it hard to concentrate. I really like the book title 'I am not human anymore'... I feel like that myself haha but from what you say it might not deliver. Well done on your cleaning, it always feels like a huge mountain to climb but so good when it's done... I need to do my bed too... Thanks for keeping it real, it makes me feel not so alone with my illness, much love to you ❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you Aria! 🥰 it took me year before I was able to read again, so don't feel pressured. and im glad you don't feel as alone because of my videos, mental illness can really make you feel alone... have a nice day! ❤️❤️❤️

[@ariahathaway5517]

Thank you so much Kimberly... Yes you are right I need to be patient... I might start with a really thin book 😊have a nice day too ❤️❤️❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@ariahathaway5517 🥰

[@gypsyskyy9451]

Hi Kimberly! Girlfriend, you knocked it out of the park! I'm so glad you powered on and didn't delete it. I too have those issues of cleaning on a regular basis. I've found its best to pace myself, and youre doing that. I cant do all the cleaning in one day either, and I live in a tiny apt. Im the worse with laundry because Im on the 6th floor and the laundry room is on the first floor, there is an elevator, but sometimes I just cant get to it, I am feeliing so drained. I cut back my Lexapro and it has helped a lot. I was feeling like a zombie and so lethargic. You alwasy cook such simple and tasty food! I love your book reviews too. I am going to read Agnes Grey thanks to your review! You look great also and your hair is always so beautiful! I love you too! Hugs from Mary Ann . . . .🤗❤💜💛

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you so much Mary Ann! 🥹❤️ and I feel you on the laundry, even though I have my own washer and dryer I still have trouble actually finding the energy to put a load in.. 😂 I hope you will like Agnes grey as much as I did! I hope you have a nice day and I wish you the best! ❤️❤️❤️

[@gypsyskyy9451]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks Kimberly! Wish you the best too and a good rest of the week and weekend! 💖

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@gypsyskyy9451 Thank you and you too! 🥰

[@Aven-Sharma1991]

For me the best part of this video was when you were doing the dishes. For me? The dishes are therapeutic and relaxing, I used to do the dishes at home but my mumma kept yelling at me to not use so much water 😂 As for the language which you usually talk in, that’s nice to know and it’s good to keep your mother tongue alive. I used to work at a restaurant for over a year and used to communicate with my fellow countrymen in our native language but then the boss heard it one day and didn’t like it. Part of the reason why I wasn’t happy working there

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

haha thank you! what is your mother tongue? sad to hear that your boss didnt like it, I feel like speaking more than one language should be more appreciated. 🥰

[@Aven-Sharma1991]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria: It’s called Hindi and it’s from India, India has 2 offical languages and 22 officially recognised regional languages, however if you count up all of the languages in India then it would calculate to over 1,000

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@Aven-Sharma1991 yes I have heard of hindi! oh wow I didn't know that there where so many languages in india! Have a nice day! 😊

[@Aven-Sharma1991]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria: Thank you ma’am, take it easy

[@PammyJ6107]

Hello Kimberly, think of this channel as a way for you to get support from your subscribers. Sometimes, life is just shitty and it is ok to talk about it. I also can relate to feeling overwhelmed with household tasks that you have stopped doing when you are unwell. Everyday is a new day to do a little bit of something to get things back on track. I wish you strength to keep going on the tough days, always enjoy watching your videos...have a great day!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Pam! I wish you the best also and you too have a great day! 😍❤️

[@neviscojsemdelaldriv]

I wish you the best, Kim! Stay strong! :)

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and you too! 🥰

[@hayleyprice8345]

One step closer to doing what you want

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

yes! 🥰

[@asgo7320]

Love it when you talk about books! Do you still paint? What about those coloring books for adults? Have you tried them? It's very therapeutic.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

glad to hear! 😍 as for painting no, I haven't really painted in a while now sadly. might need to see if I can buy some coloring books? could be a way to still be creative? 🥰

[@jenniferloeb9659]

I have such admiration for you.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow thank you! ❤

[@LouiseFalt]

Take care ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

❤

[@karlheinz7564]

tack så mycket för den här videon. i feel less alone in this. i love the book collection and art stuff as well! do you do any videos in Swedish ?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

tack själv för att du tittade! 😍 and no, i dont do any videos in swedish but i have some really old ones that are still up 😊

[@originalvonster]

Have you heard about project Gutenberg? They have lots of older classics that are in the public domain for free download. Or do you prefer to hold a physical copy of a book?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

No I haven't! thank you, i'm definitely going to look that up! 😊

[@vegandolls]

we need a book tour, lady!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

there is an old one! 😊

[@larahporter8123]

Wooow!! 5 books?!? I wish I had the discipline to read at least 1 in a year

[@Kimberly10477]

Great job motivating yourself to do chores! I procrastinate when it comes to chores. So tedious. lol I wish you could go out with friends or your sister. Maybe get your hair done or make-up. I imagine you getting your picture professionally done. You standing with flowers and trees! Your cats are too cute. My family has a cat also. I love animals. Take care and be good to yourself!💞☺

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥹 and you too take care ! 💖

[@elkanelson6099]

hi! I am a recent subscriber- can you please share the recipe for the brussel sprouts dish you made in this recipe? Thank you!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Hi! this is the recipe I used! www.dietdoctor.com/recipes/brussels-sprouts-and-bacon-in-a-creamy-parmesan-sauce ❤

[@MarleanSweden]

P.S. 15 books? Im on 12 atm. Im just trying to get through my bookshelf.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

haha 😂

[@ullaskoglund9926]

♥️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

❤️

[@Agnes_B96]

Do you think that the medicines cause you to sleep that much and have low energy or the schizophrenia? I am just curious. It happens to me also when I am depressed.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

I do believe it's both but sometimes one more than the other, schizophrenia comes with negative symtoms as well which can affect motivation, energy and depression. And having meds that also cause tiredness doesn't really help... but I do find that it usually comes in waves. 😊

[@pyenygren2299]

7:10 Världen behöver se på Ior. 🥰 🥰 🥰

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

ja! 🥰😍

[@Nancy-ow9wy]

You're so cute❤even i am struggling alot these days, i am not schizophrenic but diagnosed with bipolar disorder and traumatic brain injury so yeah 😢battles😅 Ps: you're books collection are awesome ❤🎉

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰 I'm sending you some well wishes! hopefully we both can get a break soon! 🥰

[@Nancy-ow9wy]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria exactly Kim

[@alterdstate]

Hey how are you?How much do you think the meds make you depressed?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

hi! i'm not really sure how tired they make me but I do notice a quite a difference if I don't take my meds for a day but i'm not really sure how much since I haven't been off of them for a longer period of time. but they do definitely contribute to the tiredness alongside negative symtoms from schizophrenia...

[@alterdstate]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria yes i experience that too, it kinda feels like i am not alive. Are you enjoying the summer btw?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@alterdstate sad to hear! 😔 and no, not really, summer isn't really my season 🙃

[@johnconstable8512]

your nail look great, you are laughing, and you spoke for 25 minutes. i think you are leaving depression behind :)

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

HA I have an air compressor out in my work shed and I brought it in the front porch and put a fan in the window and just blew the whole room out. All the dust off everything and out of the baseboards and out the window bye bye :) See laziness has its genius lol. You have a lot of competition for views on youtube and here you have made washing the dishes watchable. I honestly don't know how you do it. Some people are just photogenic and charismatic and people want to watch them and I think you have that quality. I think you could even be an actor because you have no trouble having a camera on you. Or a voice actor but I have no idea how to find that kind of work. You could do a voice part for a kid's cartoon or something. My hope is that some kind of work will present itself when you get going in that art school. You just never know; there was a guy on youtube who had an MFA who did a video on making shoes. He learned how to make shoes in school. You are very creative and for all I know you will find a workaround for that schizophrenia that will afford you a contented life. You are doing a lot to de-stigmatize schizophrenia and thereby making it easier to manage for some people I am sure. Now that's an enormous contribution and accomplishment right there. You won't know how far you can go until you get old and look back on your life. You may have to take forced periods of rest and illness management but the periods in between may be full of progress. Remember the period in high school when you couldn't get out of bed and couldn't graduate, and look at you now. I see progress and I hope you do too. Excruciatingly slow, but progress nonetheless. Right?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Oh thank you! Yes the progress has been slow and it has had me (figuratively) punching the wall sometimes. But I love making videos even though they're not always high quality or despite not having a "real" camera. But knowing my videos has helped someone is just the icing on the cake to keep me going when I doubt myself. Because I really love the creating process.💚 Also! Thats is a genius idea to use the air compressor for dusting. Made me laugh this early morning. 😊

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria Yeah I got the 48 Laws for the same reason and couldn't get very far into it. It looks like the kind of book that was floated by the author's agent and a publisher saw it and said Yeah I can sell this if you finish it and we'll make it a little controversial so here's what I need...so on and so forth.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@engleharddinglefester4285 You are probably right about that, just the title alone is probably a selling point to some market..

[@zahra7755]

Wow, you're really pretty

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you! 🥹

[@abdulazizalfaleh8395]

How you are so fluent in the English language how long it tooks for you to learn?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

i have been learning English ever since first grade in school 😊

[@MarleanSweden]

But you need to read One door away from heaven! It IS a feel good book, I swear. Give it a try!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

i will, perhaps I could read it between "no longer human" since im not really feeling it with that book 🤔😊

[@orangepulp392]

Watching from the mental hospital 😔

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

I Wish you well! I hope you feel better soon! 😔💚

[@peterantonsen3539]

Du lagar god mat😋👍

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

tack! 😍

[@nathanielmitchell4174]

I think you're a very beautiful and wonderful woman.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you!

[@pyenygren2299]

Ja, jag kommenterar på en gammal video eftersom jag tycker att du förtjänar en uppmuntring.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

tack så mycket! 🥹

[@estefania5140]

Sorry you are going through this .. can you seek therapy I have found helpful . Xoxo

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and I already have a therapist! 🥰