Pure OCD Symptoms: It's NOT Your Fault

[@djibg2721]

Yep, that feeling of "only if I could be someone else." Sucks....I've been there hardcore.

[@ecrouse4081]

Pure OCD is absolute Hell. I can go for months without being triggered and then I hear something horrible on the news and them BAM! Right back to square one.

[@DiegoMartinez-tu9rt]

True. I hear sad stories and I start having intrusive thoughts about the person or child that passed away

[@anabelfontanella7000]

Me too I have pocd and it is so horrible. The news triggers me bc just two days ago there was a cardinal who sexually abused children in the church choir and I was so disgusted and repulsed and then the pocd set it. I'm just sick of this, I want it to end.

[@starkillerz6235]

​@@anabelfontanella7000 That's really tough. Hope you have better methods of dealing with it now 😊.

[@markferraro5250]

hey Chrissie and all the OCD community did you ever notice when you wake up in the morning you feel ocd free for about 60 srconds they the f------ ocd will actually boot up and then you say its another day of battle feel better Chrissie

[@avinashpersaud8857]

yeah then u doubt if you have it thinking u are the who giving yourself ocd

[@Internetarroganz]

@@avinashpersaud8857 Yes so true and then you doubt ocd and everything else

[@hassanbinshahbaz9893]

You are absolutely right, than after that I wonder may be I don't have ocd I just think about it and the day start with same thoughts of yesterday

[@celcravero]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this...You're very strong, never forget that. You're a warrior. And you're awesome. Remember you're not alone. We are all in this together. Keep fighting 💗💗

[@fr33skillerz50]

I’ve been watching your videos a lot , I’m a 16 year old male and I’m suffering from hocd /ocd and anxiety. I cry a lot unexpected because thoughts come and go like the rain. I don’t want to feel like this when I have my whole life ahead of me. I’ve always liked girls and had girlfriends and never wanted a boyfriend. And I have groinal responses and it’s hell. Your videos give me a peace of Mind

[@markleitch6005]

FR33 SkillerZ take it easy mate , u sound exactly like me years ago

[@fr33skillerz50]

Mark Leitch hi mate I’m really struggling I’m super depressed with this hocd the ocd thoughts feel so real

[@markleitch6005]

aromley 👏👏👏👏

[@Internetarroganz]

How are you now?

[@mackensieavery1603]

FR33 SkillerZ Are you diagnosed with HOCD?? I’m not but Ik I have it.

[@ivantsarevitch337]

OCD sucks so much. I suffer POCD and I hate it, I was sexually abused as a 8 year old and when I turned 18 I started to feel anxious around children. When I talked to someone about my sexual abuse, they replied with "did you take therapy about it?" I said no. And then my POCD started. It wasnt my first time with ocd tho because years ago I had trans and sexuality ocd and had to cope with it. My groinal sensations are killing me and making me feel like a twisted fuck. One of the people who knows about my pocd and sexual abuse first tried to groom me and then blackmailed me to leave social media , so I felt like a fucking criminal. I sometimes think suicide is the only option , because in my future I only see that one day I will snap and do something stupid and bring shame upon my family.

[@starkillerz6235]

Hey how u doing these days? I've suffered from pocd. Not at all because of anything abusive done to me, honestly its because i encountered some disturbing shit online i wish i never saw, and hate myself for finding myself in a position for seeing it, coming across it. My ocd made me overthink like crazy, wanted to kill myself many times, still going though it abit now. Wanna know how you are doing now, feeling better? Either way idk you but know seem like a perfectly good person 😊, you deserve a life of peace. Don't let those bastards drag u down 💯. Much love.

[@oldfashiondragon]

I've went to my doctor he started me on medicine and has told me to do art twice a week. So it's getting better

[@kylehill9121]

I don't usually get emotional, but when you said "you don't deserve this", tears flooded. Guess it just shows how much pain and anguish this really causes.

[@andresperez5503]

You have become a source of inspiration and strength for me! I have suffered since a teen from HOCD, later on also from ROCD and Existencial OCD. You have helped see that I am not alone, that others understand and know my pain and the mental torment OCD puts us through. That OCD is truely a monster in so many ways but that we can be pushthrough and break free of all of its lies! Thank you so much and God bless you!

[@ranapaloma]

is anyone also having the issue that when the intrusive thoughts kick in or before, you think you're welcoming/motivating them like "hm what could ruin my mind today, what could top the horrible thoughts i had yesterday?" and also when you are ruminating and then almost consciously try to cancel the thoughts out by thinking "well it would be worse to think about XYZ" and then you believe you chose and provoked even more new horrible thoughts?

[@alexandraestre1731]

I know exactly what you're talking about

[@deannawilliams7892]

I cried with you and thank you for letting yourself be so vulnerable on camera. There's so much I'd like to say but it would be the legnth of a novel. Anyway I have pure OCD and hrm OCD and even after 30 years of having it it still grabs me in it's clutches. Thank you for everything you do ❤

[@selenaduarte9041]

You are a strong person, and even though OCD is hated. You have become such an Amazing person because of this. :)

[@seamstress4401]

Thank you for this powerful video. It made me cry. I wish I could be as honest as you with others, but few people realize how much I suffer and the ones that do cannot really understand. I sometimes get confused as some people say OCD is a lifelong condition and others say we can totally recover. I feel down sometimes and put pressure on myself that I am not fully recovered. Thank you once again.

[@luisholguin7344]

Chrissie has been very helpful. The struggle is real ! You made me tear up . Love ya

[@hannasajdak2965]

I hadn’t any of your videos (yet!) before watching this one and it made me cry. You’re very real and I’ve never found someone that understood me on this granular of a level. I knew I had OCD but I didn’t realize it applied to more than just physical actions, so it makes way more sense now (I thought I just had internal anxiety and external OCD). I’ve been through so much, but the clouds do part for me at times. Maybe even to a lucky extent. I’m going to watch more of your videos. Thank you for telling me it’s not my fault.

[@Bazongaz13]

Thank you so much. I've been going through a tough time and this helped me be hopeful.

[@KyndalSarah]

Thank you so much, I didn't know this was going to affect me as much as it did until i was bawling my eyes out. I hope you continue to make these videos to share your experiences, I think they are so helpful to the community. By the way I like your banana picture!

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I didn't know this video would have such a huge effect on me either! I seriously started it out thinking it would be a jovial, positive message of hope and then I was bawling my face off! Thank you for being here!

[@SE-zd1wc]

Chrissie Hodges Iam so impressed whit you and I think they should give you the Nobel Prize for Mental health.Your love is so great it makes me believe in humankind.Thank you so much Chrissie whit love from me❤️

[@dyonnejp7171]

OMG.....I started crying toooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel better and I can move forward.

[@everythingsbackwardsmb3004]

Thank you so much for your videos. I really needed this tonight. I have pure o and panic disorder and am currently going through yet another health oriented obsession...(rabies...I know...stupid!) But this made me feel less alone. Please keep strong and thanks for the words of inspiration.

[@gabenelson6220]

Thank you so much for this video. I really, really, really, really, appreciate it. You helped me out a lot today. You are awesome! Keep up the good fight! And best wishes.

[@traciwolfensperger9815]

My 10 year old son has pure O. And it means so much that you have shared this

[@WhoIsModernDoll]

THIS!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!

[@sirsam3279]

I understand you thank you for sharing I needed to hear this Thank you 🙏 God bless

[@Mel2023.]

Have a wonderful holiday Chrissie! You have been an amazing help to me in video and peer counseling!

[@lucianaabril1799]

I completely understand you Chrissie ❤ I wish I could give you a hug (hope that doesn't sound creepy haha).

[@carsonkoenig9710]

Thank you for sharing this and for going with the flow when you started to get emotional. It enabled me to access some emotion and cry because it really resonated with me.

[@saritatomer9486]

I m crying crying and crying in loneliness I have panic attacks at the same time people don't consider it as a problem I m just alone in my struggle 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭I want to be like any one alse

[@stephentreanor5044]

That’s how i felt about xmas and new year however I dealt with it painfully but sometimes cheerfully but I got through it 😊. I really enjoying your videos Chrissie. Xx

[@xaviarmarshall6281]

Hey I am a 17 year old male and I have what I hope is hocd...i have been going threw this for 2 months..it was triggered due to a smile but yea a smile that I had when my friend said he was gonna write a song about me...ik stupid but that what triggered me..then I fell into the never ending cycle of checking and telling myself I'm not gay...seeinh my reaction to different erotica and real people is this hocd..i just don't know anymore man....

[@sswildlifevideos]

I'm sorry to hear this friend. HOCD was my first manifestation of Pure OCD when I turned 18. It was triggered by a person checking me out in a college dorm. SSRIs and ERP helped me but right now I'm in a bad relapse after a breakup with my gf, not of HOCD but of intrusive sexual thoughts. Stay strong and I wish you the best.

[@saritatomer9486]

Chrissie that pure soul is not good they r playing with us he comeout as fake some to make money u r such very nice person u r very brave

[@j.pdoyle7171]

First I wanted to say that I think you’re very beautiful. not only outside but inside as well. My OCD is pure O. I have had many obsessions and have managed to overcome them all except one. I suffer from occasional sleep paralysis and I fear sleeping because of it. I don’t know if you have ever experienced this, but it can be frightening. I don’t know how to handle it and my brain tells me that I’m in danger every time I sleep. Have you had anything like this? Then I had a psychiatrist tell me that well, when you were asleep you’re paralyzed anyway just don’t know it and that Only made my obsession 1 million times worse. This is like a mental puzzle. And I don’t know how to let myself relax enough to sleep. I’m so sleep deprived now. What do I do?

[@travellersph5890]

I'm suffering from OCD scary intrusive thoughts, 😢

[@racinjeer7059]

Have you ever advocated for someone who had Insomnia/OCD? I find that ERP is difficult; in other words, an exposure to insomnia might actually worsen the disorder. I also have checking OCD, but that is in check, as it were! I hope you can help, thanks!

[@rubalsinghdhaliwal1360]

You are doing a great job, your videos are helpful

[@c.k.1958]

Chrissie this video was so helpful thank you xxxxx

[@traces2807]

I'm here because of a flare up after years of well managed OCD. Right now the obsession is being punished by God for those intrusive, unwanted thoughts. Or not being able to cross over when I die because I've lived most of my life in turmoil and anxiety. This can prevent your soul from moving on. Great. 😢

[@deanwong5915]

Thank chrissie for your video god blessed you

[@ankytesh]

Hi Crissie your videos are very informative. I want to know that is their a difference between excesive worry and pure o ocd

[@janeporter3376]

Ps.. the book by sally m Winston and michael seif. Recommend !

[@XmasGhost]

Pure O is an absolute pig. My mind tells me things which are untrue, but there is always doubt. OCD works on doubt and fear which causes anxiety. I only have to use something that other people will have to use and it's contaminated. My goodness sometimes I only have to look at something for it to be contaminated! This illness is exhausting constantly trying just to accept without actually believing.

[@grace0336]

I literally felt like I was paralysed in bed because of how bad my OCD was

[@saritatomer9486]

I m diagnosed with OCD at age of 30 idont remember the day when I have OCD but I clearly know that I have OCD when I was in class8 I have intrusive thought for my grand mm other in law I can't able to solve anything though I feel bad about. Her there is a kind of thing that has a guilt l m feeling tourture from my mind and people from outside but I can't help it

[@saritatomer9486]

A pure soul in other person body say them I m thinking this and that I m trying my level best but can't able to convert my thought into positive about my grand mother in law

[@saritatomer9486]

Right now I m feeling that something bad will happen to my family I m feel with guilt shame tortured and fearfully at the same time po ani attacks come again and again and I'm feeling exhausted people start hate me

[@zaltanameyer1322]

What about karma? Can we make a video about that?

[@emilialachanas8782]

can you please do a live video?

[@aaronestrada5583]

Chrissie I have a question I haven't done ERP yet from a professional psychiatrist but is ERP like exposing your self to like sexual images like pornography to deal with the intrusive thoughts until it doesn't affect your anymore or it something different because i don't think I could do anything like that with out having a panic attack.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

ERP is desensitization of the fear you are experiencing, so yes in theory that is what it is, however when you are working with an experienced expert in treating OCD, they are very strategic in helping you learn to manage the anxiety while working up a hierarchy. It is not 'just go watch porn and deal with it'. It is a long process and it works.

[@aaronestrada5583]

I get that it's a process to get there but don't people react sexually to sexual things despite what content it is like I have the groanial response. I'm just scared because I have exposed my self to homosexual pornography before my heart was jumping out of my chest and I experienced the groanial syndrome it felt like it was so much stronger then actual arousal I just want to still have faith in ERP despite my past bad experience with exposure. After I exposed my self to these images they stuck in my head for weeks and months I still get flashbacks and it causes me distress when I'm out in society or being intimate with my girlfriend. I'm just scared that this is not OCD because of my past experience with exposure. I'm sorry for being really explicit or discouraging towards the treatment I'm just terrified that the first 22 years of my life was a lie and that ERP won't help but I hope to God it will.

[@aaronestrada5583]

Either way thank you for helping me stay alive this long you are a huge inspiration to me I've bought your book and almost finished with it. I've been suffering for 2 years because of being verbally harassed by a past co worker that was homosexual and couldn't take a hint and resulted to me reaching out to Hr I never was homophobic or had anything against homosexuals had past acquaintances and friends that were gay. The harassment started this unwanted obsession and last year had me on verge of suicide before finding your videos. I will follow your advice despite my anxiety and uncertainty it's my last hope. Your are a incredible person and hopefully one day I'll meet you at one of those OCD conventions to thank you personally. God bless you Chrissie.

[@stevesanders6855]

Great!!!😀

[@traciwolfensperger9815]

Thank you

[@wildfire3989]

I would like to ask1- I want to be friends with someone who has violent thoughts ocd, and not make her feel bad what should I do during the o c D attack she gets?

[@stephentreanor5044]

I’ve got this at the moment, when am U going to get better!?! Ffs this is so fucking shit 😭😭😭 I feel so fucking hopeless at the moment

[@c.k.1958]

Thank you xxxxxxx