What Did I Do to Deserve OCD?

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I based this video off my blog and also off many things I wanted to talk about that I've been through as well as many of the clients I work with go through. You are not alone, no matter how much it feels like you are! If you want to read the blog, here is the link: battlingtheocddemon.wordpress.com/2017/09/21/i-am-a-victim-of-ocd/ As always, thank you for being here and supporting awareness of Pure OCD!

[@lavarp1613]

Chrissie Hodges/Pure OCD Advocate Hey I think I have OCD I was telling my therapist how my thoughts were and she said they were normal cuz everybody has those thoughts but I keep having the same thought over and over I have relationship intrusive thoughts where I constantly feel like I'll cheat I'm my partner I felt that way in the past and I was crying in my room in the door because my mind kept telling me that I'm a cheater and I'm going to cheat and I felt like a horrible spouse 😔 and no I never cheated in that relationship but ever since that relationship I felt the cheating thoughts come over and over and constantly have the thoughts over and over whenever I try to date someone else

[@petermelgar5935]

Hardest thing for me is justifying whether every thought is mine or whether it’s the illness I sometimes seem to lose my identity constantly but this helps so much thanks for being the voice for souls suffering from this and too scared to even come out and say this

[@stephentreanor5044]

You ain’t alone on this Peter, I often think to myself what the fuck is going on?!? Am I really thinking this stuff these thoughts why the fucking hell I am having these things, things, stuff going through my fucking brain/my mind is it really my ocd etc etc

[@arstixs1118]

how's your condition today? i'm battling with ocd right now

[@jamorganic9084]

OCD has been so crippling to me since I was a young child. I've had many different types of OCD without realizing what was happening. I used to have terrible intrusive thoughts about killing my family and my pets and stealing things at the store. I was terrified to leave my house and thought I was a monster and that I couldn't control if I stole things or hurt people. It was such a scary time of my life (I was only in elementary school!) I've had compulsions as well which were not as mentally taxing but still such a pain. I haven't told anyone about my OCD and I know I need to seek help but I don't know how to. Your videos help me a lot. I am so grateful. I used to be very religious but my OCD has caused me to lose my faith on multiple occasions which really really makes me sad. I can't believe that I dealt with this for so long and didn't know what it was. I have hours, days, and even weeks of complete bliss and happiness without any OCD thoughts or compulsions and then it's almost like someone flips a switch and I get into these terrible ruts where my mind is just attacking my body and I do not sleep at all and I become a very different person due to my OCD and anxiety where I can't leave the house.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

Thank you for being here. I hope that you are able to get the evidence based treatment of ERP to help get it all under control!

[@gisellealberto4226]

I’m watching your videos because they’re making me calm and your energy is absolutely beautiful! I think I have OCD ...POCD to be exact...but also OCD about taboo things and almost everything triggers an intrusive thought and I just miss the person I was 4 months ago. It sucks and it’s total hell...my anxieties have made me become numb as well so it almost feels like my mind is convincing me that I am that though I know I’m not...i want to take medication. I wish goodness for everyone who deals with this and everyone in general. Much love to you!

[@MultiMagnumforce]

Doctor for OCD told me that it's most likely something from your childhood that triggers OCD. Not sure if it's true but if it can help someone out there find out why someone gets it then that's great.

[@cameronclausing4785]

God bless you! Everything you say speaks volumes to me. We have shared many similar life experiences. I have currently relapsed into my OCD and Deppression due to trying to reduce my medication. Your videos are truly a blessing.

[@hermionegranger9214]

I’m 13 and everything points to OCD, but I’m to scared to tell my parents because what if they think differently of me or what if they think I’m different or even worse they bring me to a therapist and they say I don’t have OCD!! I mean I hate OCD but also it scares me to think that I don’t!! Can someone please help?!?

[@ivana2205]

Talk to your parents I'm sure they will understand😇

[@riyadhsueeiti5292]

13 ears old was the epitome of my OCD, I reached puberty by that age and all the themes of sexually repulsive, violent, blasphemous thoughts overwhelmed me, this age literally an age of complete shock, struggle and hitting rock bottoms, so please seek medical help or family support..

[@carkrueger]

What a terrific message! A blessing.

[@mahlononthemoon2728]

You helped save my life

[@LuvOreo.]

THANK YOU AGAIN!! Listening to you brings tears one second and hysteric laughing the next! Finally, answers! And I'm the same age! So glad you found out earlier! Thanks for swearing too! I need the emotion!

[@mozmateus]

Hi Chrissie! i know that you probably won't see this as this video was posted ages ago but I totally relate to what you're saying. I've had intrusive thoughts for 3 months now and it leaves you traumatised. It feels like i've had these thoughts for years - they've calmed down now however - it feels like there are 'remnants' of these thoughts (p intrusive thoughts and trans intrusive thoughts + thoughts related to harm and scrupilosity). I'm scared that these thoughts will come back though as they felt so intense and real.

[@stephentreanor5044]

I absolutely fucking love your stuff, your videos and all that kind of stuff. Thank you Chrissie. Xx

[@youngomzonline]

I just love your videos Chrissie! You are so amazing and down to earth. OCD/intrusive thoughts sucks! But with the right support we can live life without mental illness ruining our lives! Thank you for your videos. They are very helpful! X

[@simabagheri4747]

Thank you for having courage to be so open about ocd. Your videos are great support for all sufferers including me:) thank you ❤️

[@TB-ux8by]

Your videos are AMAZING! You are so real and compassionate! Thank you for all that you do!

[@winnmarr6840]

the awful thing is that, whenever you have a spark of stability and "you are like magically free of ocd and pristine in your core thinking", it is like having a powerful engine which spurts ideas and enjoiment for things, like a ferrari. Most of the time you feel like an old small , not revisioned schrot, with the brakes on and a smoggy polluting engine running in the same time. All the magical thoughts and sparkly emotions for life are drenched in filth.

[@travellersph5890]

OCD intrusive thoughts almost kills me, i got anxiety from it, i'm crying everyday

[@DK-hy2fs]

I have been in and out of private hospital. They were scratching their heads and attempted a misdiagnosis. Only yourself speaking to my moment by moment lived experience has demonstrated too me what is happening.

[@moulee7448]

Very painful...I feel so much anger for having got this disorder... I don't know where to show these anger...

[@melissahoward7532]

You're so beautiful. Inside and out. Thank you for sharing this! !!

[@jefferycaudill7664]

hello chrissie, I have had harm intrusive thoughts for over 40 years, ouch. Up and downs. I am looking for a great therapist in sw florida. Sarasota or anywhere with in a 30 mile radius. Any help would be appreciated. thank you so much. You have helped me so much the last couple of months. God bless.....jeff

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I'm glad we've connected over email!!

[@amy-janequinton3193]

I feel like I’m being punished. I’ve struggled alll my life since a child. I had my first panic attack at 7. I’m now 35 😅 we need a break man!!

[@mamabutterfly9778]

Thank you for your videos.. you help me so much.. you are amazing!

[@zovi3363]

Thank you for making this. I can really relate xx

[@kristiecreech7116]

the only reson im responding to you is because your name looked like good luck.. because its my girlfriends name... what kind of OCD do you deal with id really like help with mine

[@DK-hy2fs]

Thank you Chrissy. I may engage the therapist you seen.

[@nabilsh9347]

you make me laugh in each video of yours.

[@DK-hy2fs]

I am sorry for freaking out here on your wall Chrissy.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I did not see all of these posts in real time, however I can tell that you were really struggling. Suicide is very serious and it feels a bit helpless to read these comments knowing I can't do anything to help. I hope that you've been able to get the help you need and get to some treatment that will give you some relief. Please update me that you are okay.

[@DK-hy2fs]

Chrissie Hodges/Pure OCD Advocate Hi Chrissy, yes I am ok. I am with family about to go into private hospital again. You are the only person I have seen in ‘real life’ who is describing my condition moment by moment. I have gone though the whole process of misdiagnosis- the lot. I have no doubt whatsoever that I am experiencing out of control obsessions thoughts. You literally describe back to me my own experience. I am consumed with the very fear you have dealt with- amongst others. I have worked out that it is a anxiety disorder- as I end up in a full blown flight or fight panicked state of dread and terror- for me it seems to concern other people’s perceptions- I fear being seen as something I am not. I am willing to pay to speak with you and will likely arrange to do so soon. It is too important. This condition is completely debilitating and it has been with me- undiagnosed for many many years. I just want to thank you for your work- it is life saving.

[@persevere6326]

Anyone listening......please respond as I’m so confused. I had harm ocd as a child.... it went away around age 23... 27 years later, under intense stress it cane back.... absolutely terrified me and almost destroyed my life. Is it common for ocd to leave and then come back decades later or is it just me???

[@kiwikiwi8683]

Scott Corey Yeah it can come and go whenever it pleases. Ocd is rude

[@kultcore]

That's exactly what I'm asking myself

[@armandogarrine2191]

thank you for this video!

[@wildfire3989]

I have 4 things to say:1-there s a new movie called pure o 2018. 2- what intrusive thought do you get out of the banana behind you?😆. 3- . How does flirting and normal lust interfere with ocd?

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I have heard about that movie! I think it is based on Rose Bretecher in the UK. I hope it does us justice!! hahahahahahh If you only knew how many people comment about the banana! hahah!! Flirting and normal lust absolutely gets mixed up when you are dealing with OCD. How could it not!?!? Your brain is telling you that there could be danger surrounding sexual thoughts so it is really hard to not trust your brain but to know that it doesn't seem right! It isn't uncommon to question everything--even the good stuff :( It is a beast of a damn illness!

[@fckyouall9895]

I'm so ashamed of my ocd and anxiety.. I can't even go on dates :/

[@IAmMotivation123]

Heidi Oivo I'm scared of dating a girl now cause I don't think I'll be attracted to her physically and mentally and won't be romantic

[@jacobparson1114]

@@IAmMotivation123 hey it's been a year how are you feeling?

[@IAmMotivation123]

Jacob Parson I’m doing great I don’t have hocd anymore sometimes i will get a few thoughts but it’s gone.what about you?

[@jacobparson1114]

@@IAmMotivation123 I've dealt with it pretty bad for 8 months straight and i found out how to deal with it almost 2 months ago. I'm doing alot better I kinda want to go and date woman. But I feel like I might not be ready yet and I fear my ocd will get in the way. I definitely know I'm straight it's just a pain dealing with this crap you know.but other than that I'm doing better it's mainly just anxiety.

[@jacobparson1114]

@@IAmMotivation123 And that's great for you man you give me hope!

[@saritatomer9486]

Hi Chrissie I m SA I m from India I have intrusive thoughts it is like hell

[@justcheckin_in]

You are awesome

[@stevesanders6855]

Great!!!