Pushing Through Depression

[@sarah0315-]

I think the best way to deal with mental illness is to see it as a physical illness, in the sense that it deserves and requires the same attention. You mentioned when the dark cloud gets too heavy no amount of journalling can lift it, which I think is just like how someone having an asthma attack can't just "breathe deeper" to feel better. This should lift some of the shame everyone feels when they have to hospitalize themselves or up their medication :)

[@SheWhoComesAtNight]

To the Cross family, we are coming out of this valley of depression together. Collectively we are a community of love, honesty, joy, strength, and support. 🤗❤️🤗

[@antoniaathawilliams7]

Leah's voice is very gentle and soothing. Like a yoga instructor or a counselor.

[@DollarTree259]

U have 2 beautiful babies who need there mama and a husband who needs u . I admire that u can get on here and humble yourself . Keep taking your meds keep going to groups do what ever u need to do to be u u r loved and needed and never feel as u r a burden u r a beautiful black woman who is blessed and highly favored..

[@sarahfranks901]

You look beautiful. I am a believer and fight to even get out of bed. Recently I had one of the worst episodes I’ve had in a long while and wanted to just give up. But Gods grace is sufficient. Thank you for your bravery to share your story.

[@kazinamimi]

Hello Leah! I'll apologize in advance for the length of this "comment", but we're in the same boat, and so I hope this will give you strength, comfort and "make a difference"! For your family's sake and of course for your sake, I'm so grateful to God that He has allowed us to continue to have your love, life and vitality on this side of His Heaven. We have suffered in my family with depression and mental disfunction whose onset is mainly from chemical/hormonal imbalance... My mother tried to end things with pills in her late 30's after the birth of my younger brother. She's still with us now in her 80's!! So there's hope! My younger bro. I mentioned above though didn't make it - - but the "jury is still out" as to whether or not there was foul-play. I've struggled with the "Bad Dance", that's what I call depression, but I'm able to keep things together by God's grace 1st of all, knowing that my life is HIS - -not mine. When I submitted to the truth that ONLY GOD gives me my next breath, I figured that if I'm not taken up in my sleep or knocked out by some kind of disaster, then God is going to give me the strength to make it thru the day that He woke me up to live thru, and that He has a purpose for me! ...And, as long as I eat right/healthy, get my B-12, B-complex vitamins, occasionally eat 2-3 Brazil nuts (they contain selinium which help with calming the mind and reducing "brain fog" & confusion) and OCCASIONALLY drink caffeinated drinks ("occasionally" meaning once over 2-3 days every 6-months!!!), "I've" been able to keep my "Bad Dance Demons" at bay. I will keep you in my prayers, Leah! Prayers that you will find YOUR "thing" that allows you to put your living in God's hands only. The adversary doesn't mind pushing as many of us off the edge as possible... And I suppose, a little of my fight to stay alive comes from knowing each day the Lord gives ME is another kick-in-the-behind of the one who is only trying to rack up "see I told you so" points against God. Keep the faith Lady Leah! Your babies need and deserve to have BOTH parents as they grow up... I'm speaking from watching my younger brother's children grow up without the wonder of the amazing person he IS!

[@whereisthelove7401]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I too have experienced depression to where I had to seek counseling and yes take medication.. I believe depression is THE most dismissed, misdiagnosed medical conditions out here. Depression is multifaceted and its hard to recognize it at times or if you're in a depressed state. Ive just realized i have been dealing with it most of my life. And im still dealing with it. Thank you for your bravery in speaking on it. I think a lot more of us need to learn how to recognize it and acknowledge and admit tgat we are at battle with it without the fear of being judged.

[@brendashort3294]

Hey, there Leah glad to see you up and about. Missed you while you took your break. Hope you feeling much better now. So, glad to hear your uplifting voice. You look so beautiful and your skin has a glow. I'm still praying for you Leah that you keep getting better and better. Thanks for sharing a video and so glad to see you smile again. Be strong girl and God bless you and your family. Loved ❤ this video. Take care and stay positive. 💖👏👏👏💖

[@smittenkitten2512]

Thank you so much for being so brave and sharing your story.

[@shancareyg]

I like your voice its soothing. Glad to see you pushing thru. Rooting for you!

[@wholevibetribe]

Shan G I agree!!!!!! I love her presence!

[@cwhit8481]

I hate that someone would take the time to be ugly towards you in here. You all are very intelligent and helping this online community. Much love family 😇

[@missqlalah]

❤❤ to you! You are meant to live & love for your children!! I understand depression. I've had it since I was a child. My daughter's father had bpd & npd. He recently committed suicide. She'll never know him & one day I'll have the burden of telling her what happened. When we become parents our lives don't belong to us. We owe our children the best of us. I'll be praying for you Lady!! Your life is beautiful & worth much more than you can possibly know. Xoxo

[@firesign4297]

I have never!!! Heard ...Anyone put Depression in such a perfect!!! way and so eloquently! 🙇🙏🙇❤ thank you🙇🙇🙇❤

[@sharonadams2858]

P ♡U ♡S♡ H PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS. YOU'RE HEALING & DELIVERANCE IS COMING. UPLIFTING THE PRAYER REQUEST.

[@rhondacrawford1283]

Hey Leah much love from Chicago!!! I love you

[@fattidiliberta]

just two words from Italy: THANK YOU .....

[@dawnbudd2915]

I missed your live stream, but wanted to join the chorus of voices expressing my gratitude for your presence and offering of yourself to the world. Thank you for your vulnerability and helping so many to *not feel alone.* Our heads can be scary places sometimes. Thank you for being open about the reality of dealing with mental illness. My word today is Present. Here today, now. In the present. I hope you can feel the power of your Present today. Lots and lots of love for you.

[@jessicanavarro2192]

Leah you just putting words to all this is profound. For all the dark clouds you’ve been under you keep shining light. I’m so glad you are putting this out there. You don’t have to be or do anything, just expressing what people feel out loud is a gift. 🦋🌺🌸

[@fdoctor79]

Rooting for you, Leah! Declaring wholeness...body, mind, and spirit! Not missing or lacking anything! Grace & Peace!

[@jaymitchell7027]

There is a calmness and tranquility about your voice and spirit, Its hard to grasp that you are battling this illness. May God continue to hold and heal your mind. I pray the best for you and your family!

[@niab.3600]

Hey Leah! I'm glad to see your face! You haven't lost any of your glow! You radiate. I'm praying that you continue to persevere & take it from moment to moment. Your global KZbin family is behind you guys all the way!💕🤗

[@NiViBee]

Nia B. My name is Nia B too

[@LG-kx8xl]

❤I'm so proud of you helping others while helping yourself. It's a brave & loving person who thinks of others even in the midst of your own trials. Right.....no one can replace you. You are very special & needed by more than you realize. There aren't enough kind & considerate people but you are one. YOU ARE A BLESSING TO MANY❤

[@redboneshoneypot2960]

I'm sorry I missed you Live but I am so happy to see you again. I love you Leah!

[@denchichisholm5]

Hi Leah glad to watch you channel. You're such a caring and compassionate woman. Just want you to know that God got you. DON'T let the devil try to make you believe anything else. He tried it with me once, but the mercy of God delivered me. Be bless. God loves you and so do I. Love from Brooklyn NY.

[@andreaholder-bent3118]

God bless you Leah! So glad to see you back. Keep it real, Leah. One word for today - gratitude! So brave and strong. Even if you do not feel like you are. May Our Lord continue to sustain and bless you, Laguardia and your beautiful family. Rest in Him. Always. No matter what. It truly helps.

[@kovussanctuaryjules8625]

I missed your live stream again. 😖 but I need to say you look radiant! ❤️ and I love the tapestry in the background.

[@yvonnehamright5964]

Hi Leah. So glad to see you. You've open my eyes to the symptoms of depression. Thanks for being open. I pray that you are completely healed, delivered, and set free.

[@Moondancer_15]

Thank you so much for that beautiful prayer!! May God bless and keep us all.

[@akwaabab8504]

How are you Leah? I hope very well. I don't know if you have already mentioned this in your videos, but I thought I would mention that I read that plantcentric/plant based diets help with moods, as well as moderate exercise. For me, walking helps a lot. I eat mostly vegetables now, no dairy or meat and I don't feel bloated all the time. :-)

[@firesign4297]

👍👍😊

[@wholevibetribe]

Keep fighting Leah! Your testimony will help and empower others! You have significant purpose!!! Praying for you continuously!!!

[@ororodrf4150]

Leah, Girl...I'm so happy to see your "back in the saddle"😁🙋 I've been praying for you, and I'll continue to do so. I wish you self-love, happiness, and a peace that surpasses understanding, Sis. God bless you for sharing your struggle.

[@ladycapricorn]

Keep pushing Leah, we love and are praying for your continued good health. Peace, love and Blessings from🇯🇲🇯🇲🇯🇲🇯🇲

[@Peachyqueen23]

Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I am in the hospital recovering from surgery and can't stop crying...no one to talk to and I open KZbin and see your beautiful face. I'm still sad but this is helping me get some perspective, especially the reminder that your babies need you.

[@brendashort3294]

Chelse Cook Hey, there Chelse hope all went well with your surgery. Praying you recover soon so, you can go home. Take care of yourself Chelse and stay strong girl. Have a blessed day!!! 👏👏👏😀 Bye...

[@kirstina3813]

I really like what u said about making the choice of "staying here" for ur daughters even if want to leave as example of loving self and others. When my depression bad, even though i did not think i good mom i knew daughter would b negatively efected if i chose to leave this world I still struggle, know will continue to but now rarely think of leaving. Thank u so much for sharing your experience/thoughts is gift to me and others.

[@msshortt4]

Leah it's so great seeing you well. Your strength and your smile really help me to deal with my depression. You are so amazing

[@positivitlytiff3819]

I've learned that negative energy is every powerful. So I try not to feed into it. I try to not be angry it does nothing for my spirit. Everyday is a battle trying to say positive.

[@kazinamimi]

tiff2 max - In this day-and-age in which we live it IS the stronger one who can remain positive! You stay strong too Ms Tiffany(?) Maxine (?) God's grace makes us overcomers!

[@positivitlytiff3819]

Ima Walker thank you

[@firesign4297]

AMEN!!🙇🙏🙇❤ Beautiful Prayer😊 Beautiful You❤...Thank You🙇

[@xlady418]

Hiiiiii Leah We are praying for you. We love you so much!!! By HIS STRIPES YOU ARE HEALED!!! It is so great to just see you, and smiling. One moment/day at a time My Sister!

[@zelenaxtc]

Hi Leah, I am a huge fan of your husbands channel and just found yours. Let's just say I'll be binge watching your videos the next following week or so. First of all, the bravery you have within, your family has, will be rewarded heavily. I myself suffer from extreme depression to the highest degree after certain trauma etc, I know what it's like. I know how lonely it can be, feeling like you live in another universe/reality from others sometimes even. I saw your husbands recent video and I could barely breathe. All I did was close my eyes and pray for you for a long time, and will continue to do so. I wish I could do more. Sending you so so so much love, healing energy and prayers to you and yours. Bless; Gabbie.

[@queentwana8360]

Hello! It's wonderful to see your smiling face and hear you voice. We are so glad that you are better. We will continue to uplift you, your family, and everyone in prayer. Stay blessed ❤ Queen.

[@nedraenglish6362]

I am so proud of you! Blessings to you my friend. Peace.

[@nitenitenurse713]

Sending you love from Texas! Keeping you and your family in our prayers! Keep pressing into the Lord and He will give you rest and strength! ❤❤❤

[@LG-kx8xl]

❤Hi Leah!!! You are so sweet & such an inspiration. You've made my day as soon as I saw your smile.😁 MY WORD FOR THE DAY IS: VICTORY! It often comes through a battle or test/trial but all that matters is the result. After, you come out stronger by putting your faith & strength to the test. 😁 Love you Family!❤

[@Dorilana]

Hey Leah! It's so nice to see you have a channel on the side (sorry, my first time here). It was nice to get to know you on a better level. Thank you for sharing. You are a brave woman. Let those words sink in! I genuinely see you as that. And apparently so many others watching do too. Take that with you. YOU ARE STRONG. You are loved ❤️. Kick some butt mamma! 😉😊

[@crystal2991]

Hey Leah, I love you and your beautiful family. I know when dealing with my own depression medication and family support was important but my faith in God Almighty and prayer really helps me cope. I know it's a struggle and I'm praying for you and your family everyday. Stay blessed and not stressed!

[@rysss6580]

Ms. LEAH!!! You look so relaxed today!!! #keepdoingwhatudoing #loveMs.LeahAlways 🤗🤗🤗😉😉😉🙋🏾‍♀️🙋🏾‍♀️🙋🏾‍♀️

[@LadyKay9190]

Thanks you so much for sharing your experience with the world. Your words really resonated with me and, while I hate that you've dealt with depression, it's nice to hear someone vocalize many of the things I've felt. May your life be filled with so much love and light that it spills over into everything you touch. ❤️

[@mrs.notundertsoodatall6722]

Great to see you Happy. You are a beautiful mom and smart lady with love surrounding you and I wish nothing but the best for you.

[@eccross]

Nice to see you fighting through. Our Heavenly Father has ALL the answers, rely on Him for your strength and healing. Love you Cuz.

[@cherylmorrison3494]

Leah, I pray that everything goes well for you and your family. We are all rooting for you to stay strong! God bless you.

[@Moondancer_15]

Totally relate to not wanting to be on FB. I see others doing things with their lives and their children and grandchildren and it just makes me sad and frustrated with myself that I'm not doing more or don't have the same people in my life. It wasn't until I heard you describe the frustration is coming from comparing and feeling less than as a result that I realized why I was bothered when looking on FB so thanks for clarifying through your experience. We all have different things that get us through and various things that upset us or make us feel low and we need to identify what they are and try to eliminate the negative. Also everything on FB is bright and shiny and rosy and exciting and perfect when it really isn't... not entirely anyway. Most people put their best selves out there and in a way it masks all the other stuff that people go through. You just have to remember that it's not reality, at least not the full reality of their lives. Everyone's going through something. I hope to get back to a place where I can look at FB and not compare or at least not be upset at what I see because I don't see it in my own life. And then blaming myself only makes me feel worse so it's a vicious cycle that I can't seem to get out of. The guilt is absolutely overwhelming and consumes me about everything so not being able to get out from under this depression makes me feel even more guilty because who else is going to help me besides me and I can't do it... I'm not being successful at handling this. Then I think well I'm the one losing by not seeing my family and friends activities and highlights on social media. I can't find a way out of it entirely. I've always loved roller coasters but not the one I feel I'm living my life on at this time.

[@nancyarmstrong9142]

Hey Mrs Leah Cross glad to know you are doing wonderful thank you for checking I love you your kids and your funny husband keep up the good work we're cheering for you

[@gwendolynjones9607]

I missed you Live. But so glad to see you. I've been praying for you. You look so radiant! I have to say I've learned a lot from you.

[@nursenicole1999]

Amazing to listen to your thoughts. You look amazing. Keep focusing on loving you. You are worthy. You are enough. Your husband and kids love but God loves you more. He made you perfect exactly the way he wanted you to be. When negative thoughts come to mind. Say get back Satan. You will steal my joy. God bless you and your beautiful family.

[@miryoku7]

I Love you Leah, I'm so proud of you. You're doing great. Keep taking it step by step. I'm praying for you always.

[@muchadoaboutkovu]

Therapy IS hard!! And it’s so true connection with others who struggle in similar ways is so helpful. It gives you an extra boost to know you aren’t alone. Yoga is sooo awesome! I’ve been slacking in doing yoga but every time it’s sooo wonderful.

[@elizabetharmstrong4108]

Hey Leah, I'm so happy to see your smile. Hope all is well and know I have been praying for you and your family. 😘😍

[@goldenstar9379]

Hey Leah ,so glad that you ok ,please be strong sweetie for those beautiful kids and handsome hubby , what you going through is a very hard thing but Hey ,we are survivors. Iam dealing with my own mental issues here ,just found out about it like a month ago but have it since I was seven but not knowing it ,am a 49 years young lady , it's very hard and frustrating knowing about my illness only now but it shows how strong we are if we can deal with it without know we have it . Baby girl you're my rock and I admire you for your strength .Remember happy days are here now and this too shall pass .Be strong and be bless ,mwah

[@cynthiasclosetplusasmr]

Hi 👋🏾 Leah! It’s so good to see you. You look amazing. We love you so much❤️

[@stellamary204]

My gosh you are strong! Keep going Leah you got this!

[@Shae_Is_Here]

You are so inspirational! Keep up the GREAT work Leah and I enjoy your videos. It really helps to know I'm not alone with this depression thing. Love, Shae ❤

[@cwhit8481]

I am glad y'all took a break from regular vlogging. As wonderful as it is to watch your family vlogs, I feel better knowing you will able to get the quality break and care that you need. Praying that the Lord gives you deliverance from each evil hindrance that weighs you down. In Jesus'name, Amen!

[@mosue3200]

Leah, exceptional discussion! Thank you for sharing and your honesty. I'm so glad you're much better. 🙏

[@annieoakley2141]

COME ON JESUS......Hey Leah..... You look GREAT!!!!!!💁BE BLESSED

[@chryllaird]

❤️❤️❤️❤️ So glad you are doing better, Leah!!! Depression is so hard. I appreciate and love your tranperancy and honesty. Rootin' for you ma.

[@gem2148]

You are amazing Leah, you have amazing insight, I want to thank you so much for those talks, for your transparency and authenticity, you bring up and explain so many good points that I relate to so much and actually light up in my mind 🌺

[@leereneecee]

Hey! You are a gem! Weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning! You can push through! Love you Ms. Leah!

[@SariShares]

I know your struggle. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Hugs beautiful Leah!!

[@facefearfocus5718]

Am from Uganda I always pray for u and ur family.... I trust in God and He's in control over ur life.

[@CeCeW51]

Hello Miss Leah. ...another powerful video. I'm so glad you're feeling better.

[@rosenides6418]

You. Are. Brave, strong and beautiful! Thank you for sharing in honesty and truth. ❤🙏

[@CherieulaJ]

The Lord is near to the Brokenhearted, & Saves the Crushed in Spirit....💕💕 Prayer changes things. God knows the exact hairs on your head, He knows your pain, & Loves you unconditionally...💕💕 I am in total agreement with a lot of your live participants...Social Media; It can be a very selfish place...Narcissism grows there. It's all about "Me". The person who posts, yet doesn't care about what you post, very rude & self-centered. A plethora of Opinionated people. I have decided to Encourage💕💕 Care about others, lift up someone else, share as many positive things that you can. Try not to take other's comments seriously.. if it were a confrontation, it would be a different story.📖 Try to remember: You are loved, God loves you, & so do I! Be well, & Happy 4th of July! 🇺🇸🇺🇸😉💕💕

[@LG-kx8xl]

Cherie E. Johnson My answer to the negative people & naysayers is this "There but for the Grace of God go I". It could be any of us & if you haven't been or are now dealing with it, as my Grandma used to say "Keep Living". It means life at different times can be hard & no one is exempt so we ALL should be considerate, kind & understanding. If it's not us then be involved by being helpful. We can't exist alone & can't call ourselves human if we don't care about others. My prayers are with Leah & all on here with whatever you're going through. Let's pray for one another!]❤

[@wholevibetribe]

Cherie E. Johnson yes He is!!!!!

[@lydamahdi5512]

May Allah give you all the strength you need. You are loved and beautiful

[@SteffB87]

Praying for you!! You all are an inspiration and i pray for you guys success and great health all around!! I'm glad to see your face leah!! Such a beautiful smile and heart

[@RaspyMommy]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey! You're wonderful, beautiful, and have so much support. Keep your head up.

[@Kahlil7886]

Blessings to you and your Family Leah! I'm so happy to feel and see your strength. Im extremely grateful that you have such a wonderful support system in LaGuardia and those Beautiful baby girls. Thank you for continuing to care for us too! We appreciate you!💚

[@joannhopkins7411]

Hello Leah stay strong And keep fighting the struggle is real I have been fighting for years keep your head up.

[@zadettamae5206]

Sorry I missed the Live Chat, but, thank you for sharing. You help me think and learn! God bless you💕

[@Kawaii_Rockie]

We love you Leah!

[@user-pf1fe1sn5k]

Hi Leah, I have had similar issues with depression. I used journaling the way you do for many many years...letting out my feeling. And I still do this. However, my new process is taking one negative idea and rerwritng it in the positive. The purpose is to get clear on how untrue a negative idea is. And that somewhere I chose to believe something that is not true.... For example: People don't like me.... To: Lots of people like me... I discover thru journaling about this 1 false idea that I was really really bad at choosing friends. Also that those exps/ ideas showed me something I didn't see about myself for decades. I asked myself the who, what and where and discovered that Lots of people really like me and that economics had a lot to do w/ it. Finally I skip a lot if the people who seek me out and make better choices. I have done this on hundreds of issues... I hope this helps....Leah. The therapy sounds so good. I

[@MyeastFair]

Hey Leah I'm so glad that you are doing better, thanks for the update 😊

[@31shandra]

Thank you for sharing your story. You’re amazing women❤️🙏🏾

[@Kayrenar]

So glad to see you! I pray your strength in wellness!

[@jonathanclark914]

Thank you for sharing your truth. You are a Beautiful Queen with a Beautiful family. Stay focused and prayerful.

[@jelanappeal970]

Congrats Leah and May God continue to Bless YOU

[@traceec4897]

I'm glad to see you! You look great! Still praying though ❤❤🙏🙏

[@mizukieizan]

😍❤ YOUR SO STRONG AND AMAZING!

[@rosagilian8547]

Be encouraged therapy will be a great help. Will be keeping you and family prayer. Therapy really helped me.

[@Fran8299]

Good Luck Leah. Praying for you and your family.

[@SuheilySu]

We are so glad to see you! (Sorry I’m sooo late) Sending so much love your way! You look RADIANT btw ❤️

[@lisaparker8960]

I missed your live.. but you look Great! I hope you are feeling as good as you look! Thank You for your engagement and sharing.. it really is helpful.. more than you could imagine 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💖💖💖

[@Nothing_ToTalk_About]

Leah!!!! So glad to see you! Sending my love, prayers and positive energy your way! ❤️

[@dianasharpe2688]

You look amazing Leah!!! So radiant and beautiful!!!

[@KC-ti4hr]

You’re so strong and so brave for sharing your story. God bless you and your beautiful family 😊

[@jaybird1301]

🤗so happy to see you Leah! Praying for you sista

[@SandraGibbs]

God bless you Leah. I am praying for you.

[@shellireads5249]

I hope that you are doing better. You and LaGuardia are inspirational.

[@Moondancer_15]

Yessss ... I hate making people worry about me especially when I don't know where the end of this is. Especially my youngest son who deals with anxiety himself and then has to worry about me going through this. I cannot handle the guilt so I just don't say anything anymore about it. The last thing I want to do is make his life more stressful. As his mom I feel that it's my responsibility to avoid that at all costs if I can. At the same time I want him to understand what I'm going through. This is all just one vicious cycle and I don't even know why I'm making comments on videos that are years old and no one will ever read. Maybe it's just therapeutic, I don't know but sorry for anyone who's wondering what my problem is and why I would bother. I just feel so pathetic commenting on KZbin to no one but maybe it is helping me a little? Whatever works right

[@mindanelson5388]

Good to see you Leah. Continue to be strong sista girl. ♥️🌹😀

[@buttersc0tchez]

Leah. I hope you are doing amazing and I hope you can get some more help. You are in my prayers