Rachael

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Rachael, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse in Connecticut.
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[@Raychillipepper]

Hey everyone, I’m the person in the video. Hello hello (: I want to thank Mark for giving me the opportunity to really tell part of my childhood, a life I tried so very hard to extinguish. All my life, I wanted to be believed and I wanted to grow into someone that not only would be on the track to heal, but would help my son live a life that would never be close to how I experienced mine. When you grow up with parents who are unhealed and damaging to everyone around, you understand (or try to understand) how they would ever hurt you or the people you love. Life has gotten easier and I’m finally in my dream career of being a tattoo artist. Im finally in a place where I can feel my wings open and all my wounds are healed. I may be scarred, but everytime I look at my little boy, I smile and and internally feel myself hold back a cry he wouldn’t understand right now..knowing one day he will watch this video and ask questions. He will watch this and understand why I tried so hard to be better than anything I could’ve ever been offered as a child. Scottie, when you’re old enough and you read and watch this… I want you to know that I love you so very much. You are the greatest thing to ever exist in this world and I hope you get to do whatever you want to do in your life (even if its being in a shark cage to finally meet a great white shark lol). You, my sweet bebae, are the reason I’ve taken every single generational curse that has been given to me and I’ve never been so thankful to be able to dismantle and rebuild something greater than us. You are the best thing, that’s ever been mine. Thank you, Mark. Thank you SWU. Take care and I love you all.

[@ajb.mercado6045]

Hi Raechel, God bless you. ❤

[@elscheib]

You're wonderful and you should be very proud of yourself. I believe it would help your sister to microdose as well, if not macrodose. Shrooms are so beneficial for that. Maybe someday she'll be able to come to terms with what she went through and you both can build the relationship that was stolen from you by the trauma your father caused. Never stop being who you are, you're so incredibly strong and beautiful. ❤️

[@JFAK1967]

Big love and power to you and yours🙏

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

Mark profited off you silly goose, he doesn't care about you or any other junkie.

[@carissamatthies8693]

You are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

[@LittleStrangerChas]

Shame dies when stories are told in safe places.. or something like that. Thanks for what you do Mark, its amazing.

[@Whiskey_Jane]

Grief demands a witness ❤

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

Deep voice, small tits, fat. NEXT

[@clancykeegan748]

Amen to that 🙏

[@Bootchair]

It checks out

[@user-qn1kz7dk3t]

Or when enough money is offered 😂

[@kassiemontedoro4637]

This young woman is so intelligent and well spoken. She truly is a survivor and is very impressive.

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

You are so selfish for trying to PROFIT off your trauma. Mark is also pimping you out for KZbin views. WAKE UP!!!!!!!

[@sshhxxu]

Yes, she's such an incredible young woman!!!

[@faith_9677]

Well, she speaks well to the fact that she's clearly worked hard on herself, and these are the insights she speaks of.

[@lisakrieg3076]

I give her so much credit. She really came through. Bless her and her son🙏.

[@tw7231]

Really? Did she come through for her childhood friends who were trying to expose her RAPIST father and SHE COVERED FOR HIM? This bch is a complete fkn nut job. Dellusional and full of unearned self praise

[@imaz2616]

Not putting her son on internet out of attention is a sign of a wise mother....

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

You are so selfish for trying to PROFIT off your trauma. Mark is also pimping you out for KZbin views. WAKE UP!!!!!!!

[@jkatttt1699]

Putting your kids 9b the internet vefore a certain age shoukd be ILLEEEEEEGAL!!!!!!!

[@dane2379]

I have never heard such pain and trauma told in such an eloquent way before. There were moments when it felt like I was listening to a poet the only way to deal with such terrible things at that time being to weave the grief into words that sound just as raw as they were genuine.

[@yeetnama9094]

Yeah, just called HUSSLING lol

[@leneo1731]

@yeetnama Sre you saying she's lying?

[@morningmom6]

Yes! Beautifully worded!

[@sheri023]

@@leneo1731 it sounds like she is telling someone else's story. It may be some form of dissociation.

[@shellysara3934]

I know right? We know that her healing has begun because she is able to be matter of fact. Some people have the idea that if someone is able to be articulate, then they must be lying. In fact thee exact opposite is true. When we are well into our healing process we are able to talk about our experiences coherently. Again, Thank you Rachael. 💝💜💚

[@joannasunday]

I feel such love for this girl. She's carrying a ton of trauma but is very self-aware and strong. ❤

[@tedijune6759]

@joannasunday; ❤💯

[@iJuanGutierrez]

❤️ 💯

[@QueenYak]

💔

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

You are so selfish for trying to PROFIT off your trauma. Mark is also pimping you out for KZbin views. WAKE UP!!!!!!!

[@KatieDidsThirstForThrifting]

Proud of her for breaking the cycle of abuse! I pray she and her son have a blessed road ahead. ❤️

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

You are so selfish for trying to PROFIT off your trauma. Mark is also pimping you out for KZbin views. WAKE UP!!!!!!!

[@elisabethsalmon4107]

Amen...from your lips to God's ears...🙏

[@tomakafrankconlon3207]

God sure has selective hearing.

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

JESUS IS A HOAX!@repentandbelieveinJesusChrist4

[@weevolvetogether]

Don't pray. Donate resources.

[@beebee2781]

You remind me so much of my Dad. He was also molested at a young age, as well as being sold as a young boy. He began having many flashbacks when I was born. He was the best Dad, despite the fact he struggled with what happened to him. He broke the cycle and I am so thankful for him. He also helped many other victims heal, because he so deeply understood their pain. We need stronger laws against pedophiles. They do so much damage.

[@Raychillipepper]

I needed this comment more than you know.

[@rheapelkey9265]

Much love ❤

[@ednafernandesyi]

Thank you for sharing your story it shines hope to many.

[@SpiritualWarrior96]

I totally agree pedophiles doesn’t deserve to live .

[@xoxoxok]

What pedophiles needs is harsher sentence

[@Rachel-im6yj]

This young woman really kicks me in the heart. What a beautiful soul, her courage, and her ability to love after all the pain is inspiring. Thank you, Rachael and Mark.

[@KatelynnWestbury]

I have the absolutely pleasure of calling Rachael one of my good friends. I am so happy to have met her and hearing this makes me realize how truly resilient she is to have gone through dark shit but break the cycle and come out a beautiful person. That takes an insane amount of emotional intelligence that most people can’t begin to comprehend. I love you so much and you’re awesome for sharing your story to help heal yourself and help others . ❤️❤️

[@saphire9823]

Shes incredible

[@ariasworld9991]

❤

[@Lyndanet]

Rachel seems like she can be beautifully honesty and that really makes her so special of a person. It’s awesome that you are able to be a friend that acknowledges the challenges she faced and who honors her strength. You’re both so lucky to be friends ! Wishing you both great joys.

[@dezzmaan5079]

This woman is a WARRIOR. The strength she possesses is something we should all yearn for. I myself felt every bit of this. She was so articulate in the way she describes her life and her struggles, her traumas. She really paints a vivid picture of her life in a way where even if you don’t have the same trauma or pain… you can feel it. I myself have even learned a thing or two about myself - things I can takeaway from this story and apply to my own life.

[@PrimateProductions]

I wish I had been half as articulate as you were in saying this about this girl! 😊

[@ow3wells]

She is a survivor, she somehow didn’t fold along with all the trauma she has been through.

[@cherishmariexo]

You said it all! She is AMAZING & so much stronger than she even knows she is. What a BEAUTIFUL human being. Just Wow! 🥰❤️

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

Deep voice, small tits, fat. NEXT

[@ivaloowilson3524]

Well said✨️

[@ashleyharris3294]

She literally set here and unpacked years worth of hurt and trauma. She is so smart and well spoken. I wish you the very best

[@samanthaquintana7622]

I can not fathom how a parent won’t believe that their child is being molested by their significant other when it is STRAIGHT FROM THEIR CHILD’s MOUTH. It just blows my mind.

[@carolseven3802]

It’s terribly common predators prey on weak, uneducated or undereducated women or woman who were victims as well. An addict who comes with accessible children is a perfect match.

[@berniekatzroy]

Same here. I'm no psychologist, but ik this much, people trick themselves into false realities when all the evidence is there and more often than not people don't do whats right, and the cycle continues.

[@MISS.SWANKY]

It’s really sad

[@BeccaJean415]

I experienced this. My mom's bf used to climb up the 2nd floor to my sister's room, she'd see his face in the window and pee herself scared under the covers. I did not live w/ them. But I've learned that my mother denied it ever happened to protect herself. She just couldn't admit that something she caused could cause her kid pain. To this day, "it never happened". He kept coming back around til he became too unhinged drunk & high. She quickly moved on.

[@ashleyromero5302]

Rachael has a beautiful yet somber poetry to her speech. It's incredible how she is reconciling her past, and seeing the big picture with such empathy in order to heal. She's amazing to me.

[@Spicyweins]

You know it’s a good interview when Mark barely has to ask any questions. She’s well spoken and articulated. May she thrive in peace.

[@Amar1338]

She’s hyper intelligent. Her comprehension and analysis of her own trauma is just impressive. I believe she’s so ahead of the game where her healing is concerned. In addition; I think she can help many victims of the like hell she endured.

[@Les2point0]

I think everyone on the planet needs to see this. She’s hardly the only one and the story is so tragic. Thank you for telling your story.

[@vanessasworder]

❤❤❤ yes beautifully said….I was thinking the same

[@shellysara3934]

I agree, she's lovely and I believe her. ❤

[@vanessasworder]

Yes we believe you Rachel 💗

[@tutorialjunkie1]

I agree totally. She should write a book about her life.

[@bagelman10]

She speaks so artistically. The way she speaks so highly of her son, and passionately about her pain-I can feel that. I hope she finds the peace she so deserves.

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

She speaks like a junkie.

[@Mmc6301]

Thank you Rachael for telling your story. You are truly helping others to heal alongside you. Takeaway GEMS: "I wanted love so badly from a place that didn't exist which was myself" "You can't hold yourself back from the traumas that you've had, but who you are and how you treat people after is 100% your responsibility" "It is your responsibility to make sure you heal so you don't bleed on those people"🙏🙏

[@jackandlill]

Incredible truth - so profoundly spoken!!

[@marcusrobinson1778]

Absolutely captivating. Truly one of the best videos yet. Rachael appears to me to be one of if not the most thoughtful, deepest, caring people that you have had on.

[@shamelessly.shannon]

There’s something about her… her authenticity.. her ability to vulnerable.. her intelligence.. her ability to look at the ‘whole picture’.. I think she’s destined for greatness.. one of, if not, my favorite interviewee..

[@ArayaLight]

Shrooms help with that

[@williampopper59]

I found her exhortation for all of us to pursue our healing very inspiring!

[@jrd_711]

Being so vulnerable and still so confident in your story, probably makes you one of the most powerful and smartest people I’ve seen. Even if it is over the internet, I feel your pain like it was standing right in my room. I feel for you because I understand your frustration and hurt. I’m with you. You’re not alone. I pray for your happiness and for your peace. Blessings xxx

[@angeliqueprice5274]

She is one of the most powerful people in the world “a storyteller” and she speaks incredibly well!! I really care so much and the fact that she knows how to articulate herself so well makes it even that much more moving and understanding most importantly. She is a survivor and mother. I love her sister and auntie… she is everyone and everything that all of us love and have at least one of. I love you Rachel.

[@thwapper12]

I have the honor of knowing this amazing woman and have known her since she was a young girl. She is so brave and such an amazing person, who I love very much. I'm so proud of Rachael. She was so nervous the day she made the trip to NYC to do this interview.

[@racheldavies111]

What an incredible woman I am in awe. Breaking the cycle and giving her son a mum to be proud of. One of the best episodes I’ve watched.

[@leesh2684]

So nice

[@hattyburrow716]

This is a clever and thoughtful young woman. I hope she finds a place that deserves her.

[@bamafan762]

Jesus she's such a Beautiful woman and you can see she carries the hurt from years of mental and physical abuse. Wow her story is so touching.

[@mrs.noodles]

Nothing but love and mad respect for Rachael. This is the hardest cycle to break and she's showing up every day and doing it.

[@bartledoo]

I'm sure her story hits home for a lot of people who see this video. Rachel is such a strong person for being honest about her circumstances. I wish the best for her.

[@davidnowicki4024]

Floored by this. "I was raised by the internet", my heart goes out to you and your family.

[@augusthavince8909]

Empathy for everyone, even for the little girl in the sister she hates. Holding it together for everyone. I hope Rachael is not lacking in any support as she does.

[@SMEller84]

She's wise beyond her years! So well spoken, and incredibly in tune with herself and her trauma. An absolutely incredible, captivating interview.

[@earlhunt8164]

This is perhaps one of if not the most powerful of your interviews and interview subjects. Rachael is mesmerizing in her telling off her story. She has obviously spent a huge portion of her life trying to put the pieces of her life together in a form that makes sense. Amazing!

[@HostileMike]

Man I hope this girl can get some peace. That is so horrible. Good job on her for providing a better life for her kid. Kids change everything. I hope she finds a way to get past it. ❤

[@haileyquick9854]

Wow, so beautiful. Almost sounds like a monologue from a movie, poetic in a way. She speaks so eloquently about such ugly experiences. I pray for true peace and joy for the rest of her life

[@mariaager1924]

I came here to say that. Sounds like an acting class. Rehearsed.

[@lindsaycargill2032]

Thankyou mark for doing this project you give us purpose. Meaning a reason to breath. We're not lost forgotten ppl from society anymore. An the stories man the stories are raw an real an this helps more than you know. Soft white underbelly is a breath of fresh air an let's society know we are here an we do matter. Thankyou mark you have left an imprint on the world.

[@TigerLilyNo13]

I had sexual trauma & it really taught me how strong I am. Like her, I also raised myself. I’m proud of you, Rachel. I love your spirit & strength. 💕

[@livelauflace]

“I would eat Donnas trauma” wow that was a powerful statement. Wishing this beautiful strong woman all the happiness in the world.

[@Shimmantha]

I hope you write a book about your life and your story. You have such an important and inspiring story that needs to reach as many people as possible. Your resilience and determination is inspiring and I truly hope you continue to grow and heal and over time let go of some/ a lot of your torment. Hopefully today’s interview has helped a little. I wish you all the very best I hope you continue to move forward and find your inner peace again. I wish all the. Very best in life. Best wishes from Tasmania, Australia ❤

[@kidecree444]

I appreciate her so much. When she started speaking on her son I got chills. You always want the best for your children an I’m just glad she did her healing an continues to practice healthy and positive intent. You can see she falls back into her triggers but she immediately jumps out an puts a positive aspect to it. Shes awesome. Family is what you make it.

[@baghodler508]

My fiancee was raped by multiple people when she was young. She is the same way when it comes to self sabotage and believing she doesn't deserve to be happy and have a nice life. We all deserve happiness and love

[@klassic215]

Wow absolutely

[@PrettywithPistols]

I noticed you didn't say ex-fiance . That's very telling of your love and patience for her . Prayers and happiness for you both.❤️

[@baghodler508]

@@PrettywithPistols I'm definitely learning patience in this relationship. It's not easy, thank you for the kind words

[@Buttaflyy_]

Babygirl is a great storyteller. I pray she heals and continues to grow💕

[@mosescola4174]

God bless this woman and may she overcome her struggles.

[@meb250000]

My god. My parents used to make me take out the garbage and I thought they were the worst parents in the world...everything is relative. Good to luck to her...she has a great personality.

[@srjacks]

Same here, we all come to found out they chores and everyone has a role to play in a family.

[@Trump4prisonxxx]

Deep voice, small tits, fat. NEXT

[@marathongirl27]

@@srjacksthe point wasn’t about chores. The point is as a child we thought our parents are being strict or mean by assigning chores while other children are being sexually abused and dealing with the trauma affects as adults.

[@tinasmith7630]

@@marathongirl27 How can u even sting the same 2 scenarios in the same sentence. Polls apart.

[@jaqiofalltrades]

​@tinasmith7630 I understand your point, chores and grooming are worlds apart... but trauma is trauma, period. You cannot compare trauma. Trauma registers in the body all the same! Now, can you compare events and judge them for how different/terrible/moral they are, absolutely!! Even that though, is an opinion, relative to each. But you cannot dismiss someone's trauma just because YOU don't think it's traumatic. Nobody gets to tell someone whether their trauma is valid. I learned this is my early 20s, I had a horrific childhood and would dismiss or invalidate other people's trauma because "mine was worse" but then I started really healing. That's when I learned it doesn't matter what the trauma is, no matter how silly it may be to others, the body receives it and processes it the same. We have to acknowledge that and stop comparing and competing what is worse. There is no comparison.

[@kjprice1443]

She has such an eloquent descriptive way of explaining her life. All the best for your continued healing.

[@sisterkalipso]

Good morning SWU fam. Lifting Rachael up. Her resilience is a breath of fresh air

[@Thebiggest1isme]

Rachel, you’re so strong despite your trauma. Continue to move forward on your healing path to fix the broken pieces. Your sisters will come around after they start their healing journey❤

[@truesavings1988]

Proud of you Rachel, that takes incredible strength to unload. Prayers for your healing and your spiritual journey in this life. Travel well.

[@cringirl]

What a wonderful outlet for this incredibly strong woman! She has been carrying all of this for so many people. That is exactly what it takes to break the cycle. She is doing so much work in one lifetime, and knows it. Excruciating, but really important. Thank you again, Mark.

[@dwade6322]

Prayers to anyone who had to endure this horror. 🙏

[@cherishmariexo]

Wow. You took my breath away! You are a SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SOUL!! And you are so strong & inspiring! Your spirit shines so brightly when you speak! This was one of the most stunning interviews I think I've ever seen. You are a gladiator, girl!! Please know that you really, really are, SO Amazing!!! My God. You left me breathless & in awe - Every single person in your life that has hurt you, taken from you & caused you so much pain WILL answer for their evil one day, even if it's not in this life. - And they do NOT deserve you!! They never did. You are an extraordinary human being!! .. and they will NEVER, ever, be able to take that from you!! God bless you, dear one. 🙏 Keep shining bright 🌟 Much love ❤

[@RoRoFin-gg3fb]

Rachael is absolutely captivating, and her deep emotional intelligence is second to none... Amazing, truly.

[@stephenrogalla2108]

Great guest speaker, she is extremely smart to realize the patterns around her and at least attempt to stop them from happening over again to others. Full of heart even after everthing that happened to her.

[@loandbehold650]

So happy to hear micro dosing psilocybin is helping you. You seem so self aware, I'm sorry your family doesn't believe you, but your son is lucky to have such a great mother. Stay strong ❤

[@JanetteBuhler]

This was actually VERY healing for me! Thank you so much for sharing your story and feelings. I often stay away from this type of story as to not be triggered, but this video was just immensely healing 🙏🙏🙏🙏💜💜💜

[@Docinlove]

As soon as I finish watching 1 video, I instantly refresh to see if Mark uploaded a new video. This channel is so addictive

[@baublesanddolls]

It definitely is. I’ve been watching for approximately three years and I love it when there’s two videos in the same day. Mark puts in so much hard work and is so dedicated to ensure we get to watch a video every morning. It’s the first thing I do when I wake up. I watch Mark’s channel with my cup of coffee ☕️ in peace and quiet. It’s certainly made me appreciate my life a lot more and I’ve become more empathetic. Don’t get me wrong, I can still read the bullshitters. lol

[@mistyniles4997]

Just one a day...

[@kandycepeterson2482]

Well Mark, you really did me in with this one. Art is truth. Art hurts, and art heals. You are the rembrant of light and texture in this age. I see you going down in history. I am a fan❤

[@MatthewAndrewDrake]

Good morning to everyone…We made it another day! It’s moments like this that I sit back and close my eyes and appreciate my life and remind myself that my life is good. It can be hard sometimes but nowhere near as hard as what this woman has been through. I love her articulacy and I love Mark for creating Soft White Underbelly and continuing to run it despite the trials and tribulations of running a KZbin channel like this. I want to be more loving and less resentful and less judgmental. A lot or the time this channel helps with that. I value and appreciate the fact that this channel has changed my life and that somehow I have helped others due to SWU. I hope this woman’s story helps a lot of people as well. Just trying to send good vibes and spread the love and appreciation. I want to be a better person thanks to Mark and SWU. Everyone have a beautiful and blessed day.

[@Buttaflyy_]

Thank you💕 You have a beautiful day and life as well

[@cinaferguson752]

I think you gave Mark the best compliment of his impact on us through his work❤️

[@Melanie_Star]

I just watched your first SWUB episode & am half way through your second. Some of the things you've said hit me hard like you'd read my mind, like we've had the same thoughts. I wanted to send you much love from England. I'd rather not write my entire story on YT, but I was (what I thought at the time to be) a functioning heroin addict. I basically lead a double life for 14yrs. It took a damn lot & a 3rd dance with death, but I'm clean now & I truly wish you all the best going forward. I hope you can stay straight & recover into whatever you want to be. 🩵 Please don't forget that- #AddictsDontMakeForOldBones. It gets us all in the end & it's never too late to flip the script & change your life. 💗

[@aprilnewlan7048]

I’m so proud of you sweet girl!! ❤ you have became who you needed all those years ago!

[@dawnboyd1784]

Amazing interview. You are so strong and deserve nothing but the best. I am sorry so many people didn’t believe you.

[@AM-sk1tv]

Her dad should be in jail for a million years.

[@jodieokuongha3727]

She is so eloquent and poetic and deserves all the peace and happiness in the world. YOU are amazing Rachel ❤

[@magtag853]

Write girl, write! You express yourself so well! I am so proud if you sister! Keep going!!!

[@emissary_kyle]

Damn this got heavier than I was prepared for this morning. As rough as her situation got, her stepsister embraced insanity to escape her reality. There isn't a ring of hell horrible enough for her father.

[@Ulaspacetraveller]

I agree, but he walks free. He was never tried, but he absolutely should be. There are many victims - get together, get some legal counselling and trauma- sensitive Support for legal actions and accuse the man, bring him to trial! This does not even have very much to do with revenge- but everything with justice and getting things balanced! And also with protecting further girls to become his next victims!

[@mrhollister8520]

Outstanding interview! Bravo for allowing her to speak uninterrupted.

[@gabrielasaenz-seitz6593]

❤🙏 I too suffered sexual abuse from my father and I saw you and see you! Bravo on a beautiful release of all that burden. I have healed and also help others who are ready. What you just did is a beautiful piece towards healing.👏👍💯🙏❤

[@MEL2theJ]

Thank you for the interview Rachael and SWU

[@ow3wells]

Survival isn’t enough, I’m glad she realized it, she a good mom, the best to her🌸

[@seanchase99]

Where do you begin ? Only someone who has been there could know how she feels. To have gone through so much pain and trauma and to have grown up and found her way of coping is truly unbelievable. What an amazing person . Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure you will be able to help so many others who have , or are unfortunately suffering from mental illnesses. You truly are an incredible intelligent and caring woman. Thank you Mark also . Sometimes just being able to talk and get it out is the best therapy there is . And knowing we are all here to listen

[@jaynesegman7847]

being the vitim of a pedophile is not a me tal illness

[@robertaduncan9617]

I am a new subscriber to " Underbelly" and have watched 20 or more of the interviews so far and I must say most of these people tell profoundly moving stories of their histories. I am so moved by their pain and especially their recognition of how they got to where they are. I respect you Mark for giving them a forum to explain their terrible journey in life. I don't think they are exploited in this process but instead find it cathartic to unload the baggage of these deeply hurtful events they have managed to live through. Mark keep up the good work. Those who tell their stories realize this will help them move forward in life if they can cope and heal their hearts. I think it 's therapeutic for them, and God knows how many listeners are helped too.❤😊

[@marym9585]

This interview is healing my own trauma, truly. Stories are important to share

[@kenishahammond3935]

This woman is the epitome of strength and courage. I really admire how intelligent and articulate she is. I pray you heal from all of your trauma and I pray that your father pays for what he did to you! This video has me in tears!

[@fieryharmonicadude2203]

Great interview. Rachael is an incredibly inspiring person.

[@CallMeMaiby]

Thank you for sharing. I found your story very relatable and it definitely validated my feelings. I loved my former stepdad SO MUCH, and he was there for the formative years of my life. He entered my life at age 6 and exited when I was around 21. When I was 18, I came to learn that he had a habit of exposing himself, and that he'd molested several of my friends and coworkers in our high school years. I'm 36 today and I can't get over it. I will never forgive him. I carry so much shame for him. I've purposely avoided and lost contact with friends bc I'm so scared that he hurt them, and that they just haven't told me. The shame is unbearable sometimes.

[@SB-uw1cr]

Go to the DA and file charges on this evil mofo!

[@brendagonzalez970]

You’re turning your Mess into your Message. I mean that with all due respect. You are a warrior breaking these generational cycles/curses. This stranger right here is so proud of you my dear 💕

[@tinasigman-do1pd]

Ahhhh Rachael…. This woman! I relate to so much of what you said, the wisdom you’ve acquired, the pain you feel, the accusations you suffer, the humor you still have, the isolation and anger and everything you have expressed here. But the most poignant is when you stated “IT IS YOUR JOB TO HEAL SO YOU DON’T BLEED YOUR PAIN ONTO OTHER PEOPLE.” Bravo to that. It cannot be stated enough. One day… you will understand that the pain your loved ones have is THEIRS to have. It is their blessing and their honor and their lessons to have. And I say “blessing” because there is absolutely NOTHING SPECIAL about an ordinary life…. You are exquisite just exactly as you are because you chose to heal, journey, grow, and LOVE despite what you suffered through. And that could only happen because you suffered. I love who you are….. I see you…. And I hope you feel the depths of how extraordinary you are! You radiate goodness and love and determination through all of your brokenness. The whole world needs you and people like you.

[@user-dy1xu3iy6l]

From the start to finish of your story I was captivated, you are an amazing strong, very intelligent, articulate lady , you’re pain is so raw , it is incredible how you want to and have done everything in your power to heal not just yourself but the other victims, my heart hurt for you watching you tell your story, I cried ALOT for your hurt and lost of - as you said- girlhood , I can tell you are a amazing mother , a lot of people with childhood trauma can’t go on to be a great parent like you , thank you for sharing , all the way from New Zealand ❤

[@wonglwongl]

"It really takes an effort to give a shit." You are really self reflected. I wish y'all all the best. Prayers.

[@Taytellsit]

I absolutely love and respect, her telling her truth and the truth of the others, that can't or haven't. The part where she said, you have to heal yourself, so you won't bleed on others is deep.

[@RegardsRei]

I'm in tears! So overwhelmingly inspiring.

[@BeeKay4444]

I don’t know if I have seen a more sincere, honest and raw interview. Racheal, I absolutely BELIEVE. EVERY. WORD you said. As someone who was also abused as a child by multiple people I see a fellow survivor in you. You are DOING the work, the really hard work. I hope you will release any feelings of responsibility for anything THAT PERSON did to you or others. HE CHOSE TO BE A MONSTER. I hope you and your sister can find a way to forgiveness because otherwise HE continues to have power over you both. Keep your head up doll because you are going places in this life…..great places. And HE can go straight to hell and take all of his victims pain with him, that’s the very least he deserves.

[@baublesanddolls]

So sad. I’m shocked by the amount of people who have been molested/raped by members of their own family! Why wasn’t this creep charged and thrown away for good? It disgusts me and I can’t imagine growing up like that, but to have your own family not believe you is further trauma. Rachael, you’re a very beautiful, strong woman. I hope you’re getting lots of therapy from a good therapist because they’re hard to find yet worth their weight in gold when you find a good one. My heart hurts for you, but please stop carrying the guilt of what your horrible father did. It has nothing to do with you, you did absolutely nothing wrong, and you don’t need to apologize to anyone. Thanks for sharing your very interesting story. Hugs and all the best from Canada. 🍁 🇨🇦 🤗 I also have to compliment you on your gorgeous hair. You’re stunning. 💖

[@k.b.1142]

The amount of people molested, raped, harmed in various awful ways by people the know vs people they don't is staggering. Strangers are the least of your worries.

[@masterq2.033]

​@@k.b.1142Crazy. Who do you trust?

[@morningmom6]

Oh Racheal, I just love you! You wear your heart on your sleeve, are an amazing communicator, so intelligent, absolutely beautiful and wise beyond your years. You did not deserve the life you had. I am so sorry you went through everything that you did. The good news is that you can break the generational abuse. By bravely sharing your story, you are helping millions of young men and women not feel so alone in what they have experienced. May God bless you so abundantly. You deserve it! Sending you so much love ❤️❤️❤️

[@bekahdoug5572]

Such an incredible, wise young woman. That sigh at the end before she told Mark "Thank you." You can tell that this was therapeutic for her...She's been WAITING to get this all off her chest💯💯

[@clancykeegan748]

You're so wise. Im almost 60, and i waited too long trying to get the love from my family that never came. Bless you and have a great life!!!

[@stevebricks]

Smart coping mechanism. I pray wellness for her. Great interview. This is disheartening and a tragedy.

[@Hayilegna13]

You’ve explained trauma so perfectly, no one talks about how hard it is to have a child when you are living in childhood trauma that you weren’t even fully aware of. Having my son hit me like a freight train emotionally (and physically). Thank you for sharing your story, you’re insanely brave. I hope you choose to share your tattoo information so we can support you.

[@oppositeofh8]

rachael, you are an awesome force of positivity. you have come so far & healed so much. i love that you're not finished growing & healing, that you're allowing yourself the space to do so in the future. i love that you're raising a son that will have you as his role model -- he's going to be an awesome force of positivity, as well. i've only watched half of your video but i just had to say this *now*. your stance on consent is wonderful. thank you so much for sharing yourself with us. i wish you & your son joy, love, & strength for all times. 💖💖💖

[@Journey82]

Girl. You are a champion. We all have pain. You're so intelligent and brave.

[@shelleymcconnell7540]

The pain this young lady carries I can’t imagine 😢 She is absolutely incredible

[@stephanieclark275]

Thank you ❤ Thank you Mark. These videos help people tremendously. It’s helped me so much to understand my own life and those close to me😢❤❤

[@lmarshall2562]

Rachael, this might be the one video from Soft Underbelly that has helped me the most. You are amazing with you candor and the respectful way you hold yourself. I am a RI girl whose dad was also a child molester. He hurt many others, but not me. Survivor guilt I have carried for many years. My big sister was victim to his abuse and has descented into horribly self harming behavior with methamphetamine fueling it.

[@KATIEB1989]

Good morning swu peeps

[@Gram72534]

GM!!!!!!!

[@HELIOSXXI]

Good Morning ☀️

[@MrC9Oh3]

Mornin

[@KoalaBeer.]

Evening

[@Linda-in9ns]

👋🏻

[@_Renee2]

Trauma often resurfaces when a woman gets pregnant or after giving birth. It did for me after I birthed my first daughter. Rachael was more than likely molested straight from the crib. I hope she forgives herself. This monster’s actions do not define her, his actions are not her responsibility. Much love Rachael ❤

[@baublesanddolls]

I agree. She has to stop feeling guilty and apologizing to everyone. She had nothing to do with what that disgusting human did.

[@gailmendez5465]

I keep telling myself, I'm giving myself a break.. Missed a few videos.. Then there's a video, that draws me in. Causes me to ache for the stories. I wish her the best.

[@peacelily64]

Keep on your healing journey you have great insight on what had happened I pray it gets easier 😢

[@PhuongTran-jq8hp]

Such an articulate woman , her story telling is honest and with so much depth. May she heal and go on to fulfill her dreams . Such a sad up bringing , she is obviously an example of survival . ❤🙏

[@Nina-xv4ie]

Ugh, it's so horrible and messy and complicated. You're doing amazing, you're a beautiful soul, I believe you. Sending love and healing you way!