Recovering Prostitute and Addict-Amari

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Soft White Underbelly

Soft White Underbelly

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Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Amari, a recovering prostitute and drug addict on Skid Row.
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@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 9 ай бұрын
Thank you all for supporting me, wishing me the best and keeping me in your prayers ! I’m still sober !!! I’ve got a year and 3 months sober !! WooHoo ! 🎉❤❤❤ I’m so grateful to the people that understood my life story and didn’t judge me for the choices I made in my past . Instead yall lifted me up and now I think I WILL start on that book ! Much Love from me . - Amari H. ❤❤❤
@vickiejames4718
@vickiejames4718 9 ай бұрын
Stay strong! Your testimony is so important ❤
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 9 ай бұрын
@@vickiejames4718 thank you so much 😊
@lollycraftofficial388
@lollycraftofficial388 9 ай бұрын
You've got a fascinating story. Stay safe
@bsage5514
@bsage5514 9 ай бұрын
Know you are making a difference for yourself and others❣
@RiyensBlueEyes
@RiyensBlueEyes 9 ай бұрын
Please start your book, I look forward to buying it!!
@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607
@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607 9 ай бұрын
Amari-as an adopted kid I wanna thank you for loving your child so much, you wanted better for it. My parents are my soul mates, & I never would have been placed with them had my birth mother not had courage like you did. Placing your child up for adoption when you know you can’t take care of them yourself is the ultimate act of love.
@leneo1731
@leneo1731 9 ай бұрын
That's the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. There's so much focus on adopted children these days and all the mental health issues they're struggling with. And this is not the children in bad homes, these are the children who have great families. I was a but surprised by these reports because I naively have though that adopted children did good, going to school getting a job, settling down. I absolutely understand that the children who are adopted think about their biological parents especially the mother. That's natural. But I didn't believe they are thinking so much that it ruin their lives. It made me so happy that wrote about your parents being your soul mates. That's the most beautiful thing you can say about another person. You don't get love on a higher level than soul mate. Unless you're MGK and Megan Fox, haha! I agree with you that a girl or woman that gives a child up for adoption does it purely out of love. Some don't see it that way and calls it egoistical. I can't see why it's egoistical but then again I'm not adopted so I just have to respect their opinions. I hope she reads the comments and sees yours because what you did was to give her an amazing gift. Thank you for being so nice and thoughtful towards others. Your parents obviously did an amazing job raising you ❤️ All the best to you and your family, lots of love from Norway!
@teemarie5478
@teemarie5478 9 ай бұрын
Have you ever met your bio mom? I bet that it would really help to hear them words come out of your mouth. I truly believe there’s a lot of women that give up their babies for all the right reasons end you regretting it for the rest of their lives. I’m like you I truly feel it’s a true act of love if you know you can’t financially or physically take care of said child.
@gavinc.morrison1147
@gavinc.morrison1147 9 ай бұрын
Dude that shit takes guts. i remember this one True Life episode on MTV where this woman put her baby up for adoption right out of the womb. She could barely bring herself to sign the papers. As a kid no older than 12 I could feel that energy. I couldnt even imagine
@saireprouty
@saireprouty 9 ай бұрын
You are the exception.
@ceceliasheart
@ceceliasheart 9 ай бұрын
Adoption is trauma for mom and baby.
@Dabitual
@Dabitual 9 ай бұрын
I went to highschool with Amari, and I had no idea this is where she is now. You never know what goes on in someone’s life away from school or work. I hope she can stick to her program. so many people in our small town are on drugs now. I’m one year sober, and let me tell you. It feels like there’s no way out in active addiction. But we do recover ❤ one day at a time.
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 9 ай бұрын
One day at a time and ten minutes at a time . 💗💗💗🙏🏾
@John_Connor556
@John_Connor556 9 ай бұрын
Stop cappin 🧢
@borano2031
@borano2031 7 ай бұрын
Stay strong!!! Rgr
@taht5467
@taht5467 9 ай бұрын
PARENTS love your children…her getting pregnant was not the end of the world 😢
@a.leehilliard4716
@a.leehilliard4716 9 ай бұрын
Exactly. It sent her into a tailspin. They don’t deserve her. They are religious hypocrites
@tanikanakeyalewis4202
@tanikanakeyalewis4202 9 ай бұрын
Exactly; Parent Love your Children. The Concept of Love Is Respect, and the Conduct of Love Is Nurture and Care. Maternity Is a Right: Paternity Is a Privilege. 😶. Respectively. Tanika Nakeya Lewis, 6127
@naomigore1642
@naomigore1642 8 ай бұрын
Her Pastor father caused this hell to rain down due to his pride and ego. Crazy how he kicked her under the bus to save himself. What goes around goes around. Maybe not tomorrow or next month but he will be paying for his you can be sure. I wish you lots of love and good things. ❤ Show your parent’s a drug test when you are there . DONT GIVE UP PLEASE. Keep believing and focusing on getting your kids back. Don’t waste time on them. They know no better. I was in roughly same situation. I got my kid back at 9 months and I am clean with 3 more and a wonderful baby daddy. Dreams DO come true when you dont take no for answer baby girl.
@paulaboynton8299
@paulaboynton8299 8 ай бұрын
I got pregnant as a teenager, my dad didn’t talk to me at all. My mom screamed at me every day, told me how I embarrassed and shamed the family, then she made me have an abortion. There was no kindness or compassion. After that, my using drugs and alcohol ramped up for sure. They never apologized to me. It ruined my life.
@naomigore1642
@naomigore1642 8 ай бұрын
@@paulaboynton8299 I’m so sorry to beat that. I really am. I had a teenage pregnancy too but my cousin was pregnant 5 years before me and she was able to hide it til 6 months wearing big sweaters and she was so little. When her parents found out they made her give him up for adoption . She went off the rails then and she has tried to find him now he is 18. She waited years for the opportunity. He wants nothing to do with her. Her parents know they wrecked her life. When I was pregnant my aunt cried and said she wished she could take back time. Thing is. Life goes so fast and what we worried about never happened. A child needs love more than anything. The fact they have never even acknowledged your hurt is nearly as hurtful as the abortion. They do know what they did but don’t want to acknowledge their part in all the pain.
@kristinam.7176
@kristinam.7176 9 ай бұрын
Oh, Amari....not even 3 minutes into your interview, and I feel your sorrow, your loss, but most importantly the love in your heart. You are a gift to this world.
@robyngillum8577
@robyngillum8577 9 ай бұрын
Stepfathers reaction and lack of empathy during her pregnancy was a major factor in her lifestyle change. Way to represent the “church”, Deacon! What a shame that he would even encourage her to abort a baby, all for his pride and ego.
@rainnnnnn372
@rainnnnnn372 3 ай бұрын
Just to think. If he would have been supportive her life would have turned out so different
@chelsiebainter1090
@chelsiebainter1090 9 ай бұрын
Bless you for giving your baby a life she deserves through adoption. That must have been heartbreaking but incredibly selfless.
@garyhost1830
@garyhost1830 9 ай бұрын
You make it sound so wholesome. 😂 when in reality she chose drugs over her children and has been a negative effect on every man's life she has been in. Listen to the interview again and imagine if a guy said what she did. She is manipulative and abusive
@EricBurbeck
@EricBurbeck 9 ай бұрын
@@garyhost1830 where is your compassion? Listen to the interview again and try to put yourself in her shoes. What good does it do to judge her for her choices and circumstances?
@timebot000
@timebot000 8 ай бұрын
I wish her and her daughter a long life so perhaps they'll meet when she grows up❤
@urRAWRsoundsfunnyLOL
@urRAWRsoundsfunnyLOL 4 ай бұрын
​@@garyhost1830And you spend all day writing KZbin comments to feel better about your pitiful life.
@indyiaxoxo4223
@indyiaxoxo4223 9 ай бұрын
Amari is a great storyteller from start to finish. I pray she continues to stay on her path and write her story with all of her experiences. Her story can help young women understand what comes with trusting others and all that comes with hidden agendas ✨
@adnamaewor8561
@adnamaewor8561 7 ай бұрын
i agree! write that story young lady! you have the rest of your life ahead of you. today is the first day if the rest of your life!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
@o-kay368
@o-kay368 9 ай бұрын
What a cool chick. Just another example of how hard drugs can mess up anyone's life.
@coopsawright7225
@coopsawright7225 9 ай бұрын
i was hooked on oxycontin/ morphine and was so high all the time i couldn't sleep , it was really weird !
@fluerii4201
@fluerii4201 9 ай бұрын
Sending you love ❤
@davevision
@davevision 9 ай бұрын
I'm so happy that she made it to recovery. What a fighter ❤
@moni1404
@moni1404 9 ай бұрын
I think it’s the love for her children that help her pull through every moment. I can’t imagine. Honestly, people sometimes think “I’m sober now” so give me my kids but she really does still need more work. Kids will always be there and she should realize it’s best to her advantage to be nice with her mom and one day make a better life with her kids. Grandma probably wants to rest too.
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 8 ай бұрын
@@moni1404 it is true . But I also want to be alive so I stopped doing drugs and the bad habits I once had . &’ yes you’re completely right on this . I am playing nice with my mom despite the evil things she’s done to me which isn’t even close to what I shared on my interview . But I’m doing it so I can FaceTime my son everyday . He calls me mommy but she also has him calling her mommy and my step dad daddy . So it’s sickening and it does make me want to go get him back now , but I’m just now getting my own apartment this month . So I have to let him stay there at least for another year or two so I can continue to work on myself and prepare for when I do get him back . It’s the hardest thing in the world to watch someone else have your son call them mommy and daddy when they’re not and missing all of his firsts .. 💗💗😢
@TinyHouseDreaming
@TinyHouseDreaming 9 ай бұрын
I’m proud of her for seeing things clearly and making changes. She’s still young and can go on from here to have a fabulous life. Kudos to you.
@Lifeisgoodon105
@Lifeisgoodon105 9 ай бұрын
Amari is on her way back. Love to hear about her epiphany. I think whoever you are “the epiphany” is a great defining moment in ones life.
@douglassnell408
@douglassnell408 9 ай бұрын
AZ Cc a . ..
@garyhost1830
@garyhost1830 9 ай бұрын
????? Proud of her ? Why ? She chose drugs over her kids. She called her ex bf over a bad drug deal where he shot a bloke. She got the only guy trying to help her addicted to heroin. She even described where her bf was begging her to stop using drugs she went off her head at another block which led to her bf getting stabbed in the face. Her life is nothing to be proud of and her children would be right to resent her
@DiBallz
@DiBallz 9 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story Amari. You are powerful, strong, smart and inspiring. Congrats on getting sober. I hope you are reunited with your son. Sending love from New Zealand ❤️
@internationalmatt1
@internationalmatt1 9 ай бұрын
As a part-time pastor it makes me feel so sad that your step-dad reacted the way that he did. If my daughter had come to me telling me she is pregnant, I would have told her we will love the baby as a family and supported her. That is what Jesus would want parents to do in such a situation-love not condemn. I am glad you gave your child to a loving family and can keep in touch with her.
@Wablestomp2
@Wablestomp2 9 ай бұрын
Yes as a recently saved Christian that really surprised me. I’m no theologian but I’m pretty sure that ain’t it.
@brunofalcon4645
@brunofalcon4645 9 ай бұрын
yeah unfortunately ive seen stuff like this before, where parents and grandparents put their high standing position and reputation with the Church over their children and grandchildren, its sad to see. but the church is supposed to be about unconditional love and they seem to forget about that. but then again she didn't seem like an easy kid to raise, she was going to do what she wanted to do.
@kenbell9094
@kenbell9094 9 ай бұрын
The step-dad's hostile reaction on her pregnancy wasn't about her or the baby; it was about him looking bad in the church. People like this is why I stopped going to church.
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 8 ай бұрын
@@brunofalcon4645 I was an easy kid to raise . I wasn’t an addict until college . I was a straight A kid , tan track with a full ride scholarship but didn’t go because I was pregnant . I stayed out of trouble . I did journalism , photography , ceramics and the school’s newspaper . I was a great kid but when I got pregnant is when everything changed in my house
@leizylromero
@leizylromero 9 ай бұрын
She has a wealth of experiences to turn into a book. I hope she finds a safe space to write and finds an encouraging support group
@edenparadise1769
@edenparadise1769 9 ай бұрын
Amari girl I’m telling you it’s shit right now but it definitely gets better. I was in the same boat and it took me 2years to get my kid back. Luckily they didn’t have anything else to hold against me, I was in sober living, had a job and was super compliant. 4 years later, I’m in my own apartment and I take care of my child full time. The system is crooked, don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself. You got this. So proud. Keep going girl ❤️
@toad2014
@toad2014 9 ай бұрын
Congratulations!!! Addiction is a beast that is always hiding, waiting. You sound like a strong person! I don’t know you but I am proud of you!
@888alp
@888alp 9 ай бұрын
Amari, You will be fine, You know what is wrong and right. I am sure you will be successful one day. ❤
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 9 ай бұрын
Thank you ! I’m halfway there to getting an apartment . Fingers crossed 💗💗💗💗
@FROOB202
@FROOB202 9 ай бұрын
Not sure what is crooked about protecting children from addict households until the addicts get clean and start behaving decently.
@edenparadise1769
@edenparadise1769 9 ай бұрын
@@FROOB202 I get what they are trying to do but my family literally had to send cps a letter and vouch for me with references after I had been clean and making progress for 2 years. They wanted me to have joint custody with a family member after I showed them I was perfectly capable of taking care of my child on my own. Mind you I called cps on myself to get help. I had been clean and held a job for a while. And I wasn’t granted any of the steps you should take get to reunification. No overnights or anything. So yes, the system is there for a reason but it’s frustrating when I see families who aren’t even trying that hard get their kids back and then others bust their ass to make a change and they still withhold the child 🙃
@mcarrusa
@mcarrusa 9 ай бұрын
I don't know much about the world of recovery, but something tells me that Amari will be one of the few who make it. She looks good, she is well-spoken, and you can hear it in her words that she's serious about this new chapter in her still-young life. Mark, I wish you would have asked her more about her "what's next" plan (or did I miss it?). It sure would be nice to see her restarting her early passion for writing and photography. The birth of a SWUB intern program, perhaps?
@kenbell9094
@kenbell9094 9 ай бұрын
That is a GREAT idea!!!
@spyder_33
@spyder_33 9 ай бұрын
Opiate withdrawl is one of the most excruciating things to deal with (mentally and physically) as a human being, I always thought of it as like being trapped in a never-ending nightmare and the only relief is more drugs. No eating or sleeping will be had when in detox/withdrawal. It's pure HELL! I wouldn't wish opiate withdrawal on my worst enemy.
@donacatanguma
@donacatanguma 9 ай бұрын
Her father, the “upstanding church deacon” hardly sounds like a Christian. Grabbing his daughter by the neck, throwing her against the wall, and telling her she’s not going to have her baby, are the acts of a highly insecure, sadistic, and power hungry person IMO. Amari’s addiction started at that very moment. Amari, you are a beautiful person inside and out, and it’s an honor to hear your story. Just keep going my sweet girl. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@michelleinsular3586
@michelleinsular3586 9 ай бұрын
Right? Some of the worst people I’ve ever met have been so-called Christians.
@BlkOnyx0508
@BlkOnyx0508 9 ай бұрын
He sounds like one to me. Ask some preachers children about them let alone a deacon👀
@Creashone
@Creashone 3 ай бұрын
That sucks although bad things happen. Her choices are her choices. I find it hard to say that it is someone else's fault. It's more empowering to know she chose all this. And then hopefully chooses something different.
@nakialindsey5684
@nakialindsey5684 9 ай бұрын
Prayers to Amari ❤ very smart 🤓 young lady it's never too late to do good and turn tragedies to triumphs. Depression is no joke she is blessed to be able to tell her story Amari keep striving and don't give up.
@AmIUnderHere
@AmIUnderHere 9 ай бұрын
She'd be a great addiction counselor. I feel so proud of her even not knowing her!
@amstel5468
@amstel5468 9 ай бұрын
Recovered since December 1st 2020. We need more people taking their life back. Its never too late to take a better path..
@midnightmadness5307
@midnightmadness5307 9 ай бұрын
Keep going Amari, you are a very strong and brave woman, there is always that light at the end of the tunnel. Trust me. Been there, 'drugs' nearly killed me I have been drug free for over thirty five years. I send prayers and huge hugs your way.
@tonifitz6831
@tonifitz6831 9 ай бұрын
This is one of the interviews that I have to watch. Some ppl draw you in from the second they start to speak. Others have the stories but don't tell them well . I'm super a proud a Year is a long time. Well done xxxx
@sadhusounds6733
@sadhusounds6733 9 ай бұрын
Congratulations on a whole year sober! I hope you never give up on your dreams, your story is already so inspiring, I can’t wait to see how beautiful the rest of your life turns out to be. Keep going! Never give up! I’m so proud of you and happy for you. You can do this! 🙌🏾💜
@Victoria-es6eh
@Victoria-es6eh 9 ай бұрын
Rooting for you Amari! Your a beautiful young lady with so much potential. Stay on the right track and everything will eventually fall into place for you. You got this!
@CannabisRexxx
@CannabisRexxx 9 ай бұрын
So proud to watch a young girl on this channel making the effort to turn her life around! You might slip and fall, but you're young and you've got this!!
@jonathangehman4005
@jonathangehman4005 9 ай бұрын
Amari, if you can write at all, and can put the time into working on some essays or short stories 'til they're really good and tight, people are going to be pulled into your work in a deep, deep way. You want to be a writer? You're halfway there, most people with a gift for writing don't really have much to say, you don't suffer from that problem, lol. Plus you have the beginnings of real insight, and awareness. Give it a real shot, see where it takes you
@charlenep1893
@charlenep1893 9 ай бұрын
I would absolutely read Amari's work . She could do so well . I wish her every success 😊
@ivaloowilson3524
@ivaloowilson3524 9 ай бұрын
Amari thank you for sharing your story. You are an intelligent beautiful young woman. Write that book. ✨️💜✨️Sending you love and light 💜✨️💜
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 9 ай бұрын
Thank you guys ! 💗💗
@charlenep1893
@charlenep1893 9 ай бұрын
@amarihall2290 thankyou for sharing your story ❤️
@plantearly
@plantearly 9 ай бұрын
@@amarihall2290 Same advice/request here. Journalism was your passion. You should rekindle it. We can tell you have talent. You need to WRITE! I wish the very best for you.
@Cannarozzi1234
@Cannarozzi1234 9 ай бұрын
This girl is special! Her authenticity and sweet nature is undeniable! She is a special individual who will change lives!!!!! Powerful spirit lives within her!!!! She is going to great places! I want her to write a book!!!!!! Love her!!!!!
@mariaalards6465
@mariaalards6465 9 ай бұрын
Amari,I went through similar sh#t in Spain Madrid & Uk London for 11 years!Love to you my friend ❤ I was 13 when it started,and it didn’t end until I went to a methadone private doctor which I have stayed on for over 40 years.I now live in south west France in the country side and am at peace after healing my hepatitis c.
@BlkOnyx0508
@BlkOnyx0508 9 ай бұрын
Congratulations 🎉 Stay strong
@lisal4552
@lisal4552 9 ай бұрын
This woman is stunning physically, emotionally and intellectually. Stay strong Amari.
@amandapanda75
@amandapanda75 9 ай бұрын
Absolutely! My daughter had a baby at 18 and she was my joy! I didn’t care , I was just happy! She passed away at 6 months from heart issues. Love your grandkids!
@dkhowimalivev3633
@dkhowimalivev3633 9 ай бұрын
One of the best stories / interviews. I LOVE A GOOD COMEBACK!! This is going to help so many others
@kingpuppet5881
@kingpuppet5881 9 ай бұрын
Wow Amari is a very resilient woman who owns her past. I have a lot of respect for her. Well done on the sobriety, almost a year is amazing!! Here's to many many more to come. She is so bright and intelligent, she absolutely could go so far in life. Hang on in there.❤
@auroraborealis13579
@auroraborealis13579 9 ай бұрын
I’m here for these stories of STRENGTH, HOPE AND EXPERIENCE! ❤❤❤ Amari! You are so strong! I bet you’ll be a writer! You’ve got a story to tell. And so much life yet to live! Congratulations on the sobriety journey. Well done!!
@eddiebiss
@eddiebiss 9 ай бұрын
So many issues but so positive. Keep going Amari. Your smart and big respect for your great words of advice at the end to help others. Love from London, UK.
@aura3337
@aura3337 9 ай бұрын
Someday when all is well, you’re going to look back on this period of your life and be so happy that you didn’t give up.
@davidharvey8812
@davidharvey8812 9 ай бұрын
What an incredible inspirational video .recovery is possible people. 🙏🏼🙏🏼
@leneo1731
@leneo1731 9 ай бұрын
Amari, you're such an amazing inspiration ❤️ That tiny little girl has incredible strength! You've been through so much the last eight or so years it's almost impossible to wrap my head around it. So few make it out therefore it's so great to get to hear a story like yours which is a success story. You really took responsibility! And I bet you've been working your ass off this last year! The mental health and therapy is key. Without that you will fail no matter how strong you are. You will reach your goals. No doubt in my mind. I know it's easy to say this, but give it time. Do it right. Finnish sober living. You'll get a job. You'll get your own place. Then the court can't say no. And maybe it's necessary for it to take time so you need to keep working on yourself. And staying clean even though you're meeting hurdles that makes you want to use until you od. This is a test. And when you pass it, your son will be with you for the rest of your lives. And he'll know how much and hard you did fight for him. He'll know that no matter what was throw on you, you didn't give up. You kept fighting for him ❤️ I wish you everything you want. You deserve everything. Lots of love all the way from Norway ♥️
@pambeforethestorm9784
@pambeforethestorm9784 9 ай бұрын
She doesn't look like what she's been thru. My God how did she make it thru all of that? Praying she keeps sober and stays that way moving forward for her son 😢❤❤❤
@Bloodreign137
@Bloodreign137 9 ай бұрын
I can relate to this poor woman in so many ways. This one made me really emotional. Amari - you’ve come so so far. I look up to you. You can do this.
@elaniventer6977
@elaniventer6977 9 ай бұрын
Amari... you really are a hope of sunshine. There's this old adage of 'I can't promise you things will always be easy, but I can promise you it will be worth it.' You've already gotten through the hardest part. A part that most addicts can't go through. Now, just keep fighting girl. Make your dreams come true. So many people are praying with and for you xx
@itsthatish1314
@itsthatish1314 9 ай бұрын
Keep pushing Amari your story is so inspiring please keep going keep healing keep growing as a woman you are so well spoken you got this
@cyndim.4084
@cyndim.4084 9 ай бұрын
Amari, you are an amazing storyteller. Your story is raw, powerful and engaging. You said your dream is to be a writer. You have a huge amount of material and life experiences to write about and you're still very young. You could be such an inspiration to others. Most of us never have to look into the abyss or go to those dark places in life. Some argue that it is only in those dark places that we really see and know what we are made of. You did, and lived to tell the tale. I hope and pray that you thrive. I wish you only the best.
@katehudson6490
@katehudson6490 9 ай бұрын
She’s so pretty and vulnerable.
@tammic2016
@tammic2016 9 ай бұрын
Amari I can’t express how proud I am of you seeing the light and wanting to make the change. You are so strong and determined. Keep up the great work and will achieve your dreams and so much more ❤
@ashleycampbelllane4758
@ashleycampbelllane4758 9 ай бұрын
So happy for her! Thanks so much for your words❤
@arose370
@arose370 9 ай бұрын
I will keep this beautiful soul in my prayers! You can do this! You are such a special person who deserves a happy life and I will continue to pray you get your son back!💕
@anjelevil
@anjelevil 9 ай бұрын
I think it's time for the book you always wanted to write, you have a fantastic story to share. I would buy your book. Wishing you all the best in your recovery and life, I loved listening to you.
@bankrolldame
@bankrolldame 9 ай бұрын
People often talk about the way your life falls apart when you're in an active addiction, losing friends, family, your dignity, your home.... People don't often talk about the longterm after effects...once short-term detox blows over you're left with the long-term health impacts the drugs have on your system and spirit...the years it takes to fully detox all the heavy metals from the drugs (which lead to very serious diseases if untreated) and the stabilizing of your brain/hormonal chemistry. The years after recovery are riddled with anxiety, all the purging of what was being suppressed in the first place coming up to the surface, the rebuilding/relearning of one's dignity, self-respect, self-empowerment when you've been told from the world that you're useless.....the releasing of the guilt and shame and self-hatred, and then forgiving yourself and all those who traumatized you.....I think recovered addicts are some of God's strongest warriors.
@nzg24
@nzg24 9 ай бұрын
When she speaks, it's as if her inner child is crying through her voice.
@butterflyblessbless5836
@butterflyblessbless5836 4 ай бұрын
I concur 😢
@MaryNewnham
@MaryNewnham 9 ай бұрын
What an incredibly strong and smart woman. I think I can speak for the viewers and say we are so proud of you!!!
@jeanetteparrish8167
@jeanetteparrish8167 3 ай бұрын
This is an awesome interview. To better yourself is inspiring. Keep on keeping on your smart and beautiful. Thank you Mark, this is one of the Best interview's ever. Can we get an update Mark. 😊
@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet
@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet 9 ай бұрын
This is probably the only interview that I really enjoyed. I am rooting for you, Amari. You have a beautiful light that’s a rarity. Don’t stop now.
@justsan1477
@justsan1477 9 ай бұрын
You really inspired me Amari. Not that I have a hard drig addiction, but an addiction novertheless. Not that Ill stop the addiction, but like youve said "Im not ready". Your inspiration is the dream that I abondon a long time ago, but kept in my soul. Bc of your vid today, Im taking a chance on that dream. I hold your words, this vid near to my heart, and I thank you for your words.
@bellauncensored8834
@bellauncensored8834 9 ай бұрын
So glad she is in rehab. I hope she stays clean. ❤
@oppositeofh8
@oppositeofh8 9 ай бұрын
amani, you are a gem. your hard times cut you so many ways but you just came out shining. walk proud, you're sober & all the wiser. wishing you all the best.
@muvaempress
@muvaempress 9 ай бұрын
Look at those angel eyes 😍😍 so full of light even though her soul is tired…. Never let go of HOPE! I haven’t even watched 2 minutes of this yet but you WILL be everything you once imagined and more Amari. Stay focused.
@LimoneneDaddy
@LimoneneDaddy 9 ай бұрын
Within the first few seconds i could see it on her face. Sometimes when im out in public or driving il catch a reflection of myself and see the grimace or frown that i often wear without even realizing, but im getting better. She has a kindred spirit and a warm presence, she can go far.
@crazybluemonkeysrule
@crazybluemonkeysrule 9 ай бұрын
💓☀️💓☀️ to Amari, so strong and so resilient. Thank you for sharing your story, with love from SC !
@sallieharer9407
@sallieharer9407 9 ай бұрын
Keep your path Amari!! Your story is so inspiring! You overcame so much! I know even better is ahead. Thank you for sharing!
@danielleaston8909
@danielleaston8909 9 ай бұрын
I’ve been watching your videos for a while with fascination. For some reason today.. I realized I was watching for me. To heal. Thank you x ❤
@jackiegillies4165
@jackiegillies4165 9 ай бұрын
God Bless you Amari for giving your daughter life through adoption.❤ I see all your potential, you can achieve whatever you set your mind to.
@phoebeb.332
@phoebeb.332 9 ай бұрын
A year is amazing. Keep going Amari. You’re so pretty and so smart. Thank goodness you’re gonna make it out. You deserve to be safe and in peace.
@aaronscott2278
@aaronscott2278 9 ай бұрын
So close to 5 million I say you do a live stream for the celebration it’s a huge deal ! Keep up the amazing content much love and respect 🙏
@gracehall9199
@gracehall9199 9 ай бұрын
I don’t understand how parents forget how it was like to be a young adult. We’re all human, we were meant to not be perfect. If her dad supported her when she was pregnant, she wouldn’t have been homeless and been doing drugs. Drugs happened bcz she was depressed. You’re an amazing young lady Amari for finding your strength to rebuild yourself, continue to stay strong and heal. Just be patient, you’re still so young, you’ll get through this. You’ve obviously came a long way already. ❤
@eg5809
@eg5809 9 ай бұрын
I wish this young lady the best! Her wise and inspiring words touched me♥
@onepartyroule
@onepartyroule 9 ай бұрын
It’s so frustrating that someone this smart and sweet natured is in a situation like this. I hope to goodness she can find forgiveness for the people that have let her down, and compassion and forgiveness for herself. She could do anything she put her mind to. I hope to goodness she can realise that and realise she’s worth the fight.
@aledinks7911
@aledinks7911 8 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story, Miss Amari. Congratulations on your sober anniversary. Wish you the best moving forward.
@CAMBY608
@CAMBY608 9 ай бұрын
I’m proud of you for being clean almost a year!! 🎉 What an accomplishment! Keep fighting for your child, and even if you don’t get him back, he will see that you were out here fighting for him!!❤️💕
@jessicajenns8318
@jessicajenns8318 9 ай бұрын
I can't wait to read your book Amari! Whenever you feel like you want to use - write instead. I bet you are a great writer. God bless you.
@MelissaGonzalez-ch1dw
@MelissaGonzalez-ch1dw 9 ай бұрын
Congratulations Amari! You are so inspiring, elocuent, smart and strong! Keep it up!!
@iamroyltjohnson2141
@iamroyltjohnson2141 9 ай бұрын
Hey from SC , I’m so proud of you and your recovery ❤️‍🩹
@colemacedo-phillips5768
@colemacedo-phillips5768 6 ай бұрын
Thanks for the fantastic advice. As a parent who has been through this; we chose to save our other son as he was suffering mentally seeing his older brother as high as a kite. We were lost as a family. Honestly, watching our children abuse drugs has been one of the toughest things I’ve been through. I pray that you will continue with your healing journey as you have so much to live for. Hopefully within time you will be able to have supervised visits with your two children. 🥰🙏🏻
@janetdriskell9726
@janetdriskell9726 9 ай бұрын
Its ironic the parents kicked her out at the first pregnancy and now they have taken her child from her. Maybe if they would have helped in the beginning then they could saved her life. I wish her the best and hope she continues on the path on staying sober. God Bless her.
@patrick-scotttopps5399
@patrick-scotttopps5399 9 ай бұрын
Bless you Amari,, keep you're head up, you can do this... It's great to hear a come up story...
@h2hcancerconsultants
@h2hcancerconsultants 9 ай бұрын
I am so happy for her and pray she would stay sober. Thanks Mark🙏
@Cheri461
@Cheri461 9 ай бұрын
I have 30+ years free from addiction. It took you a long time to get where you are, and I have your back. Keep going, I love you and I'm very proud of you.
@leighleigh747
@leighleigh747 9 ай бұрын
You are a beautiful young woman Amari and you made the ultimate act of selflessness giving your child up it's amazing that you are able to keep up on your daughter's progress she is going to thank you one day.... Recovery is not easy but you can do it and keep it up don't let anyone else tell you otherwise
@susannaschulten168
@susannaschulten168 9 ай бұрын
So glad for you. Please keep on going you beautiful soul.
@user-dg5hc3xw3l
@user-dg5hc3xw3l 9 ай бұрын
❤ she loves her child. She seems to be aware of a desire to have a new chapter in life & i believe she truly will make it! Sending her prayers. Thank you for giving a platform for people and letting their stories be told and voices heard
@jungjeru3348
@jungjeru3348 9 ай бұрын
Amari im so proud of you for getting off dope, i just got sober from fentanyl, crack and meth last year and trust me i know how hard it is. And i alsl know what its like to have your parents/loved ones let you down, but you know what? We are survivors and after being through the hell that being a homeless, desperate addict who is living a life of crime only to just barely keep our head above water, that all has given us a strength and resilience that nobody can ever take from us. You are still so young, obviously you are highly intelligent and on top of that, girl YOU ARE GORGEOUS 😍!!! I know that you are not only going to survive, but thrive in this life now that you are off dope, so stay strong, keep your head up and never let anyone get you down because you have so much going for you and you are destined to do great things. I think you should follow your dream of being a writter! Just from this brief interview i can tell you are an amazing story teller and you have already lived such an interesting life and our society needs to hear true stories like yours, in depth, that show a strong young woman like yourself who have been to hell and back and have overcome adversity!!! I believe in you Amari!!! Continue to believe in yourself and NOTHING CAN STOP YOU!!! I pray that you read this message, and i cant wait to hear an update from you. Take care beautiful 😘💋🙏
@ReneeTester-er1rk
@ReneeTester-er1rk 9 ай бұрын
I’m so proud of you! You are an inspiration!
@cierad.249
@cierad.249 9 ай бұрын
It’s insane how easily she could be any of us. From one country SC girl to another I’m proud of your recovery I wish things could’ve been different for you 😪
@michelleaustin507
@michelleaustin507 9 ай бұрын
Just her tone of voice tells the pain. I hope you nothing but the best stay strong!❤
@askandrewphillips
@askandrewphillips 9 ай бұрын
Amari, thank you for sharing your story. Keep moving forward, with what you have survived you are certainly a powerful soul.
@evamariaborsi5723
@evamariaborsi5723 9 ай бұрын
I watched this video today from hungary. She is an intelligent and brave woman, and also have a talent for story telling and has a sense of self reflexion. Thanks for sharing. Keep on, Amari❤
@colinlarson9656
@colinlarson9656 9 ай бұрын
She legit seems like a sweet woman. I pray she can continue to stay sober and chase down her dreams.
@halibella5552
@halibella5552 9 ай бұрын
Amari, my love I respect you so much ! I am praying for your healing emotionally, spiritually,psychologically, mentally and physically! May you continue to use YOUR power to feel the feels and do better. You're a success story waiting to happen. From a fellow teen mom high school dropout who ended up being a badass therapist with a private practice... I see you beloved ! You're powerful and divinely protected ! 🫶🏽🧿
@bayoubabe6698
@bayoubabe6698 9 ай бұрын
Blessings and Peace Amari💕✌️🙏…you are an inspiration to those still suffering 🥰. I’ve been down some of those roads but I’m clean & sober now 💞🙏🌺
@Charlotte-ti6oq
@Charlotte-ti6oq 9 ай бұрын
She's so bright and sharp, i feel she understands herself well and her situation.. it's such a shame she didn't have a more supportive and structured upbringing.. she's sooo soo bright, likeable and mature beyond her years.
@sallieannwestbrook9769
@sallieannwestbrook9769 9 ай бұрын
What an interesting person. Really love hearing her story.
@bmd1825
@bmd1825 8 ай бұрын
Such a beautiful young lady, stay strong there are a lot of us pulling and praying for you!
@katherinenekrasov4209
@katherinenekrasov4209 9 ай бұрын
I hope we see more videos with Amari she has a beautiful soul and we all want to see her thrive and keep doing well♥️ I really enjoyed this interview Amari is a very special girl I really wish her well♥️
@timgutierrez2211
@timgutierrez2211 9 ай бұрын
am so happy for her. Amari is just another common example of what happens when a child has shitty parents who either are incapable or don't care enough to love their kids by providing support emotionally and the guidance they need to be secure into adulthood.
@CockLobster
@CockLobster 9 ай бұрын
In fairness they made several attempts to get her into rehab so she could come home clean without compromising their trust and bringing bad shit upon their household. That's love in my book.
@Nayfwaarnnayagii
@Nayfwaarnnayagii 9 ай бұрын
do a few videos in London!!! would be amazing
@61kimmarie
@61kimmarie 9 ай бұрын
Great interview Mark. Amari has an amazing testimony. 📚📝👍🏾👈🏾
@stevendoxx25
@stevendoxx25 9 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. It’s sad that people that is your family will kick you while your trying to climb out of the rut you’re in by bringing up your past. Sad and sickening.
@jrpoon
@jrpoon 9 ай бұрын
Beautiful Amari! Thank you for sharing your experience! I hope one day youll be able to have your son back ❤
@matthewpflugh1810
@matthewpflugh1810 9 ай бұрын
Congratulations on your year❤❤❤❤ it gets better and better. U will get your son back but u have to keep fighting and work on yourself. Believe in yourself your worth it. Me and my wife lost our kids to her mother and thought we would never get them back. We got clean and got our kids back even when there was no hope. And we have been blessed with a baby daughter 2 years ago and she is such a huge blessing. God loves you and wants to restore whats broken. Your a beautiful soul ❤
@sj9410
@sj9410 9 ай бұрын
She gave it up to adoption, you can't get it back....
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 8 ай бұрын
Thank you . I gave my first born up for adoption but my second born is with my mother . Me and my boyfriend are getting our first apartment together this month and it’s a huge accomplishment and first step towards getting my son back . Im so happy for y’all !!!! It’s hard knowing your child isn’t with you anymore , you know ? But once you’re reunited , i know it’s gotta be the best feeling in the world . Y’all got this ! Keep going and never give up ! Anything is possible for people like us ! We’re not normies . We’re super humans ❤️‍🩹🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 , because we can get through anything ! Congratulations 🎉🎈 💗💗
@randallkrasomil280
@randallkrasomil280 9 ай бұрын
I’ll have 30 years sobriety in December. If I can do it so can you! Keep coming back!
@zenonthego2563
@zenonthego2563 9 ай бұрын
Her mother failed her when she most needed her. :( If parents will listen more to what we go through as kids, life will be easier.I am happy to know she was able to get the help she needed and most importantly learn how to take accountability for her actions. Baby girl, keep healing. I can tell she is a good mother and will do anything for her babies. I hope she finds the way to get her baby back and stay away from her toxic parents. They caused her a lot of sadness as parents
@ItzSmalllZ
@ItzSmalllZ 9 ай бұрын
Not necessarily, her mother probably didn't realize what her daughter was really going through nor knew the correct approach to handling it
@yaninacabrera131
@yaninacabrera131 9 ай бұрын
@@ItzSmalllZ She did communicate it to her mother. Doesn’t take that long for a mother to realize her baby is going through something. Her mother was trying to teach her a lesson by abandoning her which most parents used to do back in the day. In my opinion this is the worst lesson. Addictions are not something most people cannot understand. That was the time for her mother to be on her side helping her. That’s just my opinion
@amarihall2290
@amarihall2290 8 ай бұрын
@@yaninacabrera131 yup 💗
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