Reaction NEW SPIRITBOX - Constance OMG This one is personal!!

[@OldSkuleNerd]

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[@OldSkuleNerd]

This is because of ALL OF YOU!!!! I can’t thank you enough!!!!

[@Dark__Thoughts]

Their list is really missing Ashley (Deadgrl Superstar) and TankTheTech. They're probably some of the most honest reactors on KZbin.

[@Kris_____]

I felt exactly the same feeling. I just cried.

[@brendonsinger9859]

OMG...He didn't know!!! Man, Courtney has made so many grown men cry!!!

[@knack2455]

That was probably one of the most raw and pure reactions I've ever seen in a reaction video. Thanks for choosing to upload it.

[@OldSkuleNerd]

Thank all of you for the encouragement

[@tacotimefortwo732]

You should watch Galacticriminal watch this. Pure emotion

[@johnpierceiv2160]

I still cry listening to this song! Hits home for me.

[@galacticriminalx]

Well there I go again. Shit. This one still fucks me up. Subbed bearded brother

[@tacotimefortwo732]

It's nearly impossible to make it through with dry eyes

[@chrisp.14]

I love your reaction... and I love Richards reaction. Love ya both. Dammit, tears again, like, fuck, more than half a year after the release of this song... omg....

[@joshuaclemons2956]

Courtney couldn't sing "a pretty song without any scary screaming" at her grandmother's funeral due to border closures. You can hear her heartache in this one...and thank you for uploading. Dementia affects so many people.

[@DarklightNamari]

I just noticed, watching this reaction, Courtney had a really hard time keeping a straight face doing the video. I noticed she had wet streaks on her face before, but I just now noticed the expression, she was trying so hard not to cry on set. poor girl >< I wish i could hug her. I can both hear and see the heartache.

[@bmasonia7634]

F*ck this pandemic nothing would ever keep me from my grandparents funeral. I lost every single one of them by the time I was 24 and I would never miss the chance to say goodbye.

[@josephbright4072]

@@bmasonia7634 The Canadian border was closed, she didn’t have a choice.

[@bmasonia7634]

@@josephbright4072 really not that difficult to get through. May not be through a regular crossing but that ain’t my business 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@StephenSykora]

This song isn't heavy... but it's HEAVY!

[@docknives3792]

Like a tungsten brick to the feels

[@Grizzlox]

So heavy... I recorded a reaction to this this morning, and right after I turned off the video I broke down

[@des_o7935]

This is their softest....but heaviest emotionally song. Rule of Nines is a great one to check out.

[@lprmesia2]

I second this. And watch the official video, not the one take performance. Not only thank you for uploading this for your genuine reaction, but I can promise you this one won't tug on your heart the same way. It's also a nice balanced song that's a little more representative of the rest of their catalog.

[@terogates1]

Agreed that’s a great intro song in line with their regular sound

[@coma718ny]

This is the other kind of heavy

[@bartbakker742]

I wanna give you a hug big poppa bear. this song hits very hard for me as well. I remember when I was younger when I finished my day at school I visited my grandparents. my grandfather was a huge man. a very big huge man with a very loud voice but he was the sweetest. he was like the protector of the family. my grandmother was the softer sweeter one. they always made a specific food not many people eat. red beans, mashed potato, meat, unions, shrooms and loads of mayonese. when my grandfather died of cancer the whole family broke apart. my grandmother was completely lost and she developed a way of Alzheimers as well. my parents didn't want me to see her because she was completely broken. I wish I could see her. from there on everything went completely sideways. my parents did things to me no other parent should do. I left the house and never spoke to them again. for that its a weight that fell of my shoulders. and one day I heard that she passed away. family members didn't want me to attend the funeral. because I was an outsider in their eyes. I wasn't the religious fanatic they were. so I missed everything. today I think I'm going to visit the grave and make myself that same food they made me.

[@chrisp.14]

And just let me add: That final scene, almost a happy end, when she's finally one with her husband again at some place after life, whatever you may call it - it is so heart warming. Oh my..

[@dsmembereddreams]

Not sure if anyone has shared this but here's an excerpt from an interview with Courtney LaPlante about the song: "Due to border shut downs, I was not able to say goodbye to my grandmother Phyllis, to whom the song is in tribute, or attend her funeral. I always promised her that I would sing at her memorial service, because she always requested a 'pretty song with none of that scary screaming.' I hoped writing this song with no 'scary screaming' in it would help me find a sense of closure." "Dylan (video director) wrote his video concept to honor his grandmother, Constance to whom the video is in tribute. Our music videos usually have a horror element to them, and we wanted to explore a different side of horror: the horror of feeling like your mind is betraying you, due to a long battle with dementia. With Dylan's permission, we named the song 'Constance' to immortalize her story."

[@donaldcampbell9483]

Thx for sharing that. I think the song is incredible and the video is awesome as well.

[@Murberhart69]

I respect a man who shows emotion, I feel you brother. My grandpa is suffering from Alzheimer's and it's hard for my dad and me to visit him. He doesn't remember us at all and mistakes us for electricians or whatever... sometimes he even gets scared and wants us to leave... I fear the day my dad becomes like him...

[@jen.g.]

As much as I love Spiritbox, I can’t listen to this song. It’s too personal and emotional. Gave your video a like anyway.

[@FantasticDimensions]

It's a tough one, alright. I bawled when I first watched it, and I still choke up every time. I can't think of another song that has done that to me, and I freaking love sad songs so I've heard thousands upon thousands of them...

[@cooltechnician]

Yeah it's really emotional indeed. Makes me shed tears every time. What's your favourite song by them now? Funny cause Perennial is my favourite song by Jinjer and Spiritbox..

[@jen.g.]

@@cooltechnician I can’t pick a favorite because their songs are so different (sane with Jinjer). I have to give credit to Courtney’s one-take of “Rule of Nines”. THAT video is what made me a fan. There’s something about watching her perform that you don’t get from official videos. Also, hi! Hope you’re well! 😊

[@rumandbass]

No shame in crying. Those of us who have been through this ugly cry every single time we hear this song. This video is also an absolute masterclass in perspective.

[@dancin2techno]

The key is he didn't have to post it. But he did. Respect. I cry everytime I hear this song, because my grandma passed this year. I didn't get closure.

[@duelingdragons03]

This is gonna be one of the oddest thank you’s I’ve ever given. I had heard that my grandma’s health and memory was deteriorating so I scheduled a trip from Florida back home to Washington state in mid November. Before I could make it home, she fell, broke her back and hips and hit her head which rapidly progressed her Alzheimer’s so she’d have days where she wouldn’t hardly recognize anyone. I video called my dad who was there (my grandparents lived on the same property as us so I get the seeing your grandma almost every day thing) and she recognized me and we told each other that we loved the other. Two days later, about a week before my flight, she passed away so I didn’t get to say goodbye. Beginning of this month, while I was home we held her memorial service for family nearby and live streamed it for everyone else...but even there I couldn’t cry. Watching this and seeing you choke up broke the dam and I’m writing this with tear stained cheeks. Thank you for uploading this. I’m working my way from old to new stuff after finding your channel early this morning, so if you get to it and I just haven’t seen it yet, I apologize, but I think you’d really enjoy Beast in Black. Lead singer has a killer voice and I think the vibe is right up your alley.

[@OldSkuleNerd]

Thank you.... nothing odd about sharing your heart

[@FantasticDimensions]

Courtney's grandmother passed this summer and due to Covid she wasn't able to say goodbye or go to her funeral. She wrote this song (the lyrics, at least) for her as a tribute because her Grandma wanted her to sing a pretty song at her funeral. Constance is the name of the video director's grandmother who is suffering from dementia, so the video concept was HIS tribute to her... and the band named the song for her as well. Powerful reaction, brother. I bawled my eyes out for an hour after seeing this one too, and I never cry. Respect. I think this is the first time I've seen your channel, but you more than earned a sub from me.

[@alexanderzadoroznyj]

Thanks for the in depth breakdown!

[@nathanjudy7705]

Also the son in the video is the son of the director, and the picture of the nurse is actually a picture of the real Constance.

[@FantasticDimensions]

Correction: the real Constance is still alive, but she is suffering from dementia.

[@Lannisen]

I've been working with dementia for about 10 years of my life, so this song hits me hard too. It's absolutely ok to let those feelings out

[@zaio15_DarioMannu_DM-DrumCover]

This isn't only Music... is ART! It's a piece a soul.

[@cooltechnician]

Great reaction and I'm sorry this song hit you in such a personal way. Courtney's grandmother passed away this summer and she couldn't travel to sah good bye to her. Also the Director of the video. Dylan of Versa Films.. lost his grandmother.. then theh decided to write the song and created the video..dedicated to their Grandmothers. I have cried quite a lot watching this video and reading the comments..and now watching your reaction.. it was emotional. Spiritbox and Jinjer are my top favourite bands and they create beautiful music and it reaches a lot of feelings within you. Again love the reaction and hoping you are doing well. Cheers from Norway

[@dropthehammer1360]

Dylan’s grandmother, Constance, is still alive. She’s also the nurse in the photo.

[@fur10usal50]

Man...I’m glad I’m not the only one who lost it with this video/song. I was legit sobbing. My grandma doesn’t have dementia she’s battling RA, and she lives in another country so I barely get to see her. It’s tough seeing her degrade, and not be able to walk or use her hands the way she used to. I wish I could be there for her more because I used to see her all the time, but she’s unable to travel now. She’s still all there for the most part, but she used to be so active even in her old age. Seeing the scene of her on the bed and they wrap the blanket around her I just lost control of my emotions. Such a raw song, and the video just perfectly captures it. I enjoyed your video a lot dude. Good reaction.

[@MrGrowlify]

i never new my grandparents from fathers side,they died both on cancer.i knew only from my mothers side,they lived really near and after school i used to go for lunch everyday and yeah,i had a meal prepared already,after grandpa died she was having alzheimer,depression, panic attacks and demencia, and then this year she had brain attack, she had to stay at elders home where nurses was taking care of her,she started walking,talking again,but we never had a chance to visit her during pandemic...one nurse was positive and all the elders and ill there was positive too,she passed away and was the second victim of covid in my state...i never had a chance to say goodbye,this song is really strong for me too and brought me in tears instatnly, thank you for sharing your story...

[@DenyThisFlesh]

I completely understand your reaction. My grandfather on my dad's side died in 2008 from Parkinson's and he also had dementia. The last time I saw him was the previous Thanksgiving and he didn't know who I was. I lived pretty far away and didn't get to see him again before he passed. I didn't even know how bad it had gotten until I got a phone call from my dad that he had passed. I was at least able to go to the funeral though. My grandmother is still alive, but she's in a nursing home now and also has dementia. I had pretty much buried the thoughts and feelings I had about them. Probably done subconsciously to avoid the pain. This song brought all of that back and it hit me like a truck. The song is so beautiful and well done that I can't stop listening to it no matter how much it makes me cry. I already loved Spiritbox, but I think this song really cements their place as my favorite band right now. Every new song they release just blows me away.

[@tantibogusboy]

Courtney and the director of the video both lost their grandmothers at the beginning of the year to Alzheimer’s and couldn’t go to the funerals due to COVID. The director’s grandmother’s name was Constance.

[@Dilly-Winkus]

Love this band + very impactful song. This band has quickly become one of my favorite bands of all time. Here's some info from an interview with the vocalist Courtney LaPlante about the song: "Due to border shut downs, I was not able to say goodbye to my grandmother Phyllis, to whom the song is in tribute, or attend her funeral. I always promised her that I would sing at her memorial service, because she always requested a 'pretty song with none of that scary screaming.' I hoped writing this song with no 'scary screaming' in it would help me find a sense of closure." "Dylan (video director) wrote his video concept to honour his grandmother, Constance to whom the video is in tribute. Our music videos usually have a horror element to them, and we wanted to explore a different side of horror: the horror of feeling like your mind is betraying you, due to a long battle with dementia. With Dylan's permission, we named the song 'Constance' to immortalize her story." Definitely check out more Spiritbox though! "Holy Roller" + "Blessed Be" + "Rule of Nines" would be a good start for your next Spiritbox songs!

[@cracyzero777rat]

This song came out on my birthday, and not being able to see my grandmother that lives in New York, sucks. I think to myself if I'm going to see her before it's to late. Constance is the name of the director's grandmother. Sorry to hear about your dad. Seeing you cry made me cry more. Stay strong my dude 🤟

[@jindas4217]

The tears on her face. The hard swallowing at the end of the video. She, well you can see the emotion on her face throughout the video. But, they UGH 😏 lost for words. 😭 Emotíonally it just...feel it, and it is raw. It really hits. 😓😭

[@craigsisler]

I also cried like a baby the first time I saw this. The song still gets me every time. Thank you for sharing this.

[@Jennibear81]

Dude, your reaction made me cry. I recently lost my grandfather and couldn't attend his funeral due to covid travel restrictions. This song is a dropkick in the feels.

[@Ryo7_7]

Love to everyone who lost someone. I helped my grandpa during his dementia. He raised me, taught me, got me into playing music. It's so hard but this song helps soothe the pain. 🤘🏾

[@Fox_Pajama]

Thank you for your honesty. I lost my grandmother a year ago to dementia and I cannot begin to express how visceral this song is. The haunting of the realization of her fading, the sorrow of watching it unfold, then the anger of losing them, knowing nothing you can do. It’s unbelievably beautiful.

[@kdindore1990]

I remember the day this song came out. It made me cry like a baby. Here we are a couple years later and this song still makes me cry every single time I hear it.

[@mormel12]

Music is emotion. I'm so glad i was able to say goodbye to everybody I've lost so far. I feel you man.

[@ericclevenger7716]

I reacted very much the same way to this song!!! I caught it on KZbin about an hour after Spiritbox dropped it, and watched it immediately. Then I quit KZbin for the night. It hit me right in the heart! I'm 42 and in the last three years have lost 3 grandparents and welcomed the birth of my first child. This song reminded me of every loss that I've had and what I will likely see to come. Such an emotionally HEAVY song, but SO beautiful. I also saw you check out "Rule of Nines" so I'm glad that you got another experience of Spiritbox without the hammer blow of this emotional rollercoaster that we middle-aged folk know all too well!!! Love your channel, love the reaction/breakdown. Keep up the good work!

[@MrBubblesEsq]

I have one grandparent left alive, my maternal grandmother. she has Alzheimers. The last time I saw her in person was when my first child (daughter) was stillborn. I now live states away and I can't afford the trip. With you right there on the emotional journey. Love the music video. Love the reaction.

[@leonel8831]

This song killed me... I'm so emotional right now! Awesome reaction. You caught the emotions I felt.. I love you man.

[@JimboKM]

Don't let this one scare you away from the next Spiritbox reaction. Their songs vary widely and the biggest similarity to Jinjer would be that they are consistently excellent.

[@conditionsunderground]

second this

[@AwfulWeather5684]

Out of every reaction I’ve seen to this song, yours made me tear up when you told us about your grandma and father. I’m only 18, and I don’t want to loose anyone.

[@metaldrummer87]

No need to apologize for your emotions, my dude. I am so sorry that you went through what you did. I felt the exact same way when I first watched this--I lost my meme to this horrible disease when I was 12 and this brought me right back. So so terrible, but this song encapsulates the emotions so fucking perfectly.

[@justinhowell8873]

I’m crying alongside you Brother. I took care of my Maternal Grandmother during Her 13 year decline in dementia until her passing in 2011. It STILL hurts to this day!

[@VersaFilms]

Thank you so much for sharing this reaction. It was beautiful to see this project resonated.

[@speckon]

I lost both of of my grandmothers because of dementia and this song just brings back all the good memories I have of them. And I cried like a little girl while I was listening to this song 5 times in a row. I am 34 by now, my parents are nearly 70 years old and like you said - you take everything for granted, but it's not. Seeing other people react to this in a similar way as I did even makes me tear up again. Spiritbox and Crystal Lake (which you should definitely check out too) were my bands I discovered in 2020 and I absolutely love them. Keep doing what you do and best of luck!

[@carlosm9111]

Love your reaction brother ... my favorite thing about this song is how it goes from an airy and beautiful landscape of flying within aurora borealis to a devastatingly chaotic and brutal assault of darkness and pain. It's the most visually and auditorily accurate depiction of the simultaneous pain and relief I felt when I lost my mother earlier this year. Your reaction reminds me that I'm not alone in this pain and I am grateful to you for uploading this ...

[@BarstucksCoffee]

The impact increases when you realise that family pictures have been disappearing throughout the video before the furniture and the relatives are gone by the end. And there's also Constance's husband's shadow watching over her during the first pre-chorus at 4:47 and at 5:44. It's not just a good song anymore. A video that has great artistry such as this coupled with music written with absolute sincerity makes an entire experience like no other.

[@davidjacksonarnold4949]

I appreciate your vulnerability. I don't allow myself to cry often and I realized when I started to avoid the emotions that I needed this today. Thank you.

[@svtpower03]

Very emotional song for sure. I’ve lost all of my grand parents but thankfully never to these horrible diseases. I miss them dearly though.

[@tonyjames9016]

Love your reactions. Thank you. Not my grandmother, but my dad recently passed and I watched for years as dementia ripped apart a once strong man. He lived through the Blitzkriegs in London, Joined the Army and immigrated to America. He became a self made man once he was here, going from nothing to a great success... only to have his memory and strength be ripped away by time and dementia. I did not give this band the time of day, but they have earned my respect and gratitude for this song/video that capture that pain so well. Watching your dad/mom/grandmom fade away in front of your eyes. I'm 46. I am deep into that realization you speak of.

[@DooDooDaddyTV]

the band needs to see this reaction

[@shirazzza]

Grandmothers are special things for real. Mine has been gone 16 years, I can't wait to see her again someday. I hope she's proud of me

[@max.lindgren]

Wow I had missed that they had released this one so I saw it for the first time here. I was not ready either, I have an experience with Alzheimers/Dementia very similar to what you describe and I am crying along with you... I don't know what else to say, but thank you for sharing.

[@OldSkuleNerd]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and supports

[@DrShadyyyy]

Courtney posted on her Instagram that both her and the videographer for the video both lost their grandmothers this year. The song was named after the videographers grandmother, Constance, who had dementia. It was also Constance's birthday when they released the video. Pretty sure the Son of Constance posted a comment on the actual music video too

[@Krauser1226]

This one's personal for me too. It's really hard for me to even watch this video. Dementia is truly a curse. To lose someone twice but in slow motion first is something that nobody should have to experience. This video is crushing but also cathartic in a way I haven't felt in a long time. Thank you for uploading this. It's important to know that it's ok to feel and to let your emotions out. Never feel ashamed to cry or show that. As human beings we get to experience the beauty and the joy of life but in turn we deal with grief far too often. It's part of life, but expressing that and letting it out is the most important thing you can do. I'm glad Courtney and Spiritbox made this track and I'm glad it's been able to touch people like you and I, as unfortunate as the circumstances may be.

[@wolfhawk1999]

This is why I watch reactions. I want to see that other people feel how I feel when I hear a band and song I love. This songs is so deeply emotional, and the video complements it so perfect. You can really tell when something is truly special, and this is it. I'm glad you enjoyed. Don't worry, I cried too!

[@SparcReviews]

Don't ever be sorry about showing your emotions. Music is a powerful medium that can help with both letting out these emotions and connecting with the music.

[@LowendNate]

Video is for one of their late grandmothers. The story on this video is beautiful and sad. this is one of the lightest songs they have done so far and its still amazing. Spirit box always makes you feel something if its sadness like this or like you have the power to destroy the world. Courtney has a voice of an angel and the screams of the devil. there's a reason they are one of my favorite bands. this song is a great one to start off with but trust that you have not even scratched the surface of this band. loving the videos man keep up the great work

[@j.f.fisher5318]

Thanks for filling this in. The video director posted about this. It is great that they were able to collaborate so deeply.

[@danolvera460]

Beautiful, real, reaction. I was in tears from the jump. You won my subscription with one video reaction. Can’t wait to binge more, right now!🥺😢👍🏼💯

[@hanksilman4016]

I hope you give Spiritbox another chance soon. This particular song was inspired and they normally are not THIS kind of heavy. I'm glad you took so much meaning from this. I too had a great grandmother and grandmother with Alzheimer's. And not that my mom is getting older she is on preventatives. I've done the long goodbye twice and it's scary to think it could happen a third time even closer than before.

[@SS-gx7tg]

lol I had a nearly identical reaction. This video is going to propel Spiritbox to a whole new level of exposure and fame. This is a 100% perfect song and a 100% perfect video. Best thing of 2020

[@JakobStrand]

Dont be sorry for being human. If this song doesnt touch you in some way you are dead inside. First time I listened to this song I got goose bumps all over my body. It´s amazing in so many ways! Thanks for an honest and genuine reaction!

[@stephencasper87]

In an interview, Courtney was asked why she felt so many cry when they hear this song. Instead of going an easy and almost obvious route to answer the question, she offered a very thoughtful and sincere explanation. She essentially told the story of her grandmother's passing and the her inability to attend the funeral due to COVID restrictions. She said that many others have suffered losses during this time and so many have been carrying around a great deal of stress. "We need to give ourselves permission to cry", Courtney stated, and simply said that this song gives us all that permission to release the emotions we've had locked up for this past year. This band go well beyond what other groups do in terms of putting emotional and artistic qualities in their music. They are unparalleled when it comes to their creativity and willingness to put every part of themselves in the music they make.

[@kcuzz99]

Thank you for not holding back, for being so open to sharing your story! Sounds like your grandmother was a really special person in your life and I’m glad you paused the music video and shared your memories of her!! Loved this!!

[@PiercedBrosmen]

Thanks for uploading. It was a real emotional rollercoaster but so beautiful at the same time. Although your reaction was what got to me the most, emotionally. Nobody in my family have suffered altzheimers, but my grandmother on my mother's side suffered 4 strokes before she died. Every stroke wiping out more and more of her memory. The last few times I visited her before she died, her "present day" was like 50-60 years ago. I remember how hard it was to comprehend for young me back then.

[@BruinChimay]

I'm crying with you right now. Not ashamed. We are human. This is us.

[@DJGots]

Don't be sorry man, this is as emotional and heavy as it gets because its so real. And I can understand why it hits you so hard. I'm sorry for your own loss and I cannot even begin to imagine what it must feel like not being able to say goodbye. My own grandma passed away a few years ago and I was lucky enough to atleast be able to say goodbye and be there at the funeral. Much love, warm wishes and stay safe

[@devinmccutcheon3991]

Takes a real genuine person to show emotions to a group of people you’ve never met a day in your life. Awesome reaction

[@kurtthevillain6012]

As a 48 year old, long time metal head...respect, man ❤️

[@mynameisfatmike6742]

Great reaction. Phenomenal song that hits you like a ton of bricks

[@muaddib4329]

Such a beautiful song for the saddest of reasons. I admire your strength in sharing your emotions with us. Never apologize for that. I wept like a baby on my first watch because my own grandmother is in late stages of dementia and I am coming to terms with seeing her fade in front of me. my biggest takeaways from the songwriting: The softer parts are moments of happiness shes remembering fondly and the heavy parts kick in during moments of fear and mental anguish for her. To that end, that final breakdown slowing into chaos is that final moment of her life where all the thoughts are so confused and twisted together in ways that dont make sense anymore only to hear the distortion bleed out into those soft synth keys as she's in what I interpreted as Heaven. so HAUNTING. from the video I loved how the director showed the pain of his loss through the cinematography by showing peoples faces blur as she starts to forget them and as early as the dinner scene things start disappearing from the background as her memories of what those things mean to her fade.

[@09gdt]

two years on ( ish ) this song still takes an axe to my feels, my grandfather had alzheimers/ dementia and it kills me every time I think of him that I didn't make the time to go see him and to say good buy, I was at work when I got the call about his passing and a few beer keggs took a beating that day. as mentioned before, this is the most raw and pure reactions I've ever seen, thank you for keeping it real, I'm glad you uploaded it. As you said, take the time to go see those who you love, you will regret it like I do for the rest of your life. god bless you brother, take care.

[@matthewhlavenka6233]

My friend, emotional intelligence like yours is a gift. Some call it empathy. I call it a virtue. And I am most happy that I share it with you.

[@fearmac]

Thanks for sharing this. Eight years ago I started to see my father begin to fade. He grasped at memories of us and would repeat the same incident whenever we met. Thankfully his medication has helped him. He's still with us but I haven't been able to see him or my mother for months now because of restrictions. I'm crying here with you. I'm so afraid that I won't be able to see them again.

[@hesuchristo6577]

I'm gonna be honest. I watched so many reactions to this song, and because I didn't want to cry again, I skipped to the end to see your reaction. I almost started crying anyway 😂

[@ryansanschagrin3027]

Appreciate the reaction. I've had this song on repeat. Never be sorry for a ripping a few tears over a song that reaches your emotions. Thats what makes it all the more powerful

[@GoalPost_er]

Props for uploading it and showing some vulnerability. Subbed.

[@moosebossa379]

So I recently started watching your reactions and just now watched this one. This really hit home for me. The last 2 1/2 years my grandparents where alive I spent every day with them, taking caring of them and watching them die was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. Thank you for being raw and true in your reactions.

[@Olphas]

I watched it yesterday morning when it came out, with my morning coffee in hand. I expected something completely different, knowing Spiritbox. But .. oh boy. That was quite the emotional start to my day. This hit really hard

[@wil1027]

Dude. No worries about your reaction. I really appreciate that you decided to share with us when you could've just not post the vid. I teared up as well when I first heard this song. Watching your reaction tipped me over the edge again! Love your insights from your other vids (discovered your channel via your Jinjer reaction). Take it easy and see you next time! 👍👌🤘✊

[@duckydog6424]

I’m crying with you brother. I lost a grandmother to dementia. It was awful. This is a very powerful song.

[@TheWitness369]

Every now and then you stumble into a song that seems like the universe made just for you.. the ones that hit you deeper than your average song are legendary. For lack of a better term... "art".

[@ivanreis17]

My feelings for you guy, hope all the love of the world embraces you

[@rabidelfman]

Thank you for this reaction. My grandmother also had Alzheimer's and passed a few years ago. This song hits me hard, and watching you hit even harder. You've got a sub from me, my man.

[@mylesreid709]

This one is hard for me, while I didn't get to know my grandmother through her I watched my family struggle around her. Back in September 2018 until May 2019 my dad was diagnosed with brain cancer and there were times where he wasn't there. It sucks and this song just brought it back. Cherish the time with your family, cherish the good moments and never let the bad ones take over your memories of them, they wouldn't want you to remember them in their worst.

[@mieczyhale]

This song and the video kick my ass every single time, I have yet to NOT cry watching the video. Thankfully I can keep it together listening to just the song but ooh boy sometimes it gets close. Her voice + the instrumental choices + the imagery are just... too much but in the best way. It was really nice to see someone have such a real reaction to this (painful. but nice) THE most relatable and touching reaction i've seen to this video. Thank you so much for sharing it, and your personal experience, with the world and I hope you have a wonderful day

[@hclyrics]

Thank you so much for posting, man. I appreciate your authenticity, vulnerability, and honesty.

[@matthewhlavenka6233]

Great reaction. Very powerful art. Fucking relatable

[@HK_8]

I’m glad you chose to upload this. Somehow KZbin sent you to me and you got a new subscriber. I think this song resonates with everyone one in some way or another. I have seen this so many times and still cry my eyes out every time. Music should make you think, it should make you feel. We often suppress the feelings we can’t bare to face. Sometimes it is good to just be in that hurt and pain for a moment. We shouldn’t feel guilt. I’m sure in your case your grandmother would want you to have done your finals. We can’t change our past but we can allow ourselves to learn from it. We can think who needs us now and make a difference in their life the same way your grandmother made a difference in yours. I’m sorry for your loss but I am grateful you had that wonderful past with such a lovely lady. ❤️

[@FooledSweetness]

I felt this reaction to the core of my soul. I also cried very hard when I first seen the video and still cry listening and watching reactions. Thank you for sharing yours.

[@kennethfurr7397]

OldSkule... My grandmother passed on Dec 16, 2019. She had Alzheimer's. Thank you for the honest and vulnerable reaction. This one went deep for me as well. I saw it this morning and it is still with me now as I type this much later in the day. You are right, man. Make the time. Always make the time. This is more than a song.

[@KAMUI138]

Metal doesn't need to be loud and aggressive and angry to be heavy. This song and video are proof of that. In my opinion it's probably one of the most heavy metal songs I've ever heard. From Courtney's ethereal pools to just the rest of the man showing their talents and getting dark while having a somber moment. this song is definitely the definition of heavy metal. And you're not the only one who lost their emotions from listening and watching this video.

[@billpeters9999]

Wow, I feel you man this is personal. My dad had dementia for 13 years. He had to spend the last six months in a personal care home. We had our photos with our names on them on his wall because he couldn't remember us, he only remembered the dogs names. I was there in the morning and he said he had a headache and he wanted to lie down and go back to sleep so I left and they called four hours later and said he had a stroke he passed a couple hours later. Never be afraid or embarrassed of showing your emotions it just shows how much you love. Blessed Be.

[@patmullen7597]

We honor those we've lost when we shed tears born from our pain of missing them. We keep them alive in our hearts far beyond their physical passing. I've lost both sets of grandparents and my father. Except with my father circumstances prevented my from being with my grandparents as they passed which haunts me with guilt constantly, but I survive because I don't doubt they knew how much I loved them. I have been slob crying since I first watched the video. The pain and sorrow it brings is painful but it is also joyous because it reminds my how much I love them and what amazing and beautiful human beings they were. Though it hurts you should feel honored that it hurts to miss them. It means you loved them and they had a major role in making you who you are. There is no shame in feeling this and crying. My heart goes out to all of you who this video similarly touched.

[@sebaschanable]

Don't apologize for taking breaks especially for a song like this! Jeez..I've technically seen this and heard this song like 10 times now and it STILL hits as hard as it did when I first heard it! I think it would have been slightly better if you did another song before this one but either way it's an amazing song! Very good reaction as I love seeing the more emotional reactions from people~

[@c.f.youngblood5404]

Dammit Y'all...hard to comment through the tears and snot!...Big Love, Thanks for sharing OSN... and Thank You Spiritbox

[@andrewwillismusic]

bit late to the show but I just saw this. dude, the fact that you can so openly show your feelings and speak about some real hard subject matter in front of the entire internet, is commendable. you've definitely earned my respect... and my subscription.

[@dallasdavis5765]

I don't know how they're going to top making tens of thousands of metalheads ugly cry on the same day. This year has been so hard for so many people and I honestly needed this. Thank you for such an honest reaction video. Subbed af.

[@aceofhearts37]

Thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I'm still quite young (early 20s) and bawled my eyes out with this one. Went for dinner with my Grandpa yesterday (who is thankfully still very full of life). I need to spend a lot more time with him. Like many others have said, this was a very unusual song for Spiritbox. The lead singer, Courtney, had hinted that she was singing about a very personal loss. The song they released before this (Holy Roller) was their heaviest one to date. I think the best possible introduction to them is the song Rule of Nines. Hope you'll check out more of their songs! They'll make you headbang instead of cry. This band is amazing and I'm so happy with how much they're growing.

[@yubogolfer4040]

Don't feel sorry for showing real emotions. It's totally fine. I'm afraid of whether my mother would maybe end up like Constance one day ... I don't try to think about that. When everybody suggested to react to Spiritbox in the comments of Jinjer videos ... despite the fact this song is a masterpiece, nobody had this song in mind as a first reaction to the band. Try e.g. 'Holy Roller', 'Rule of Nines' ... I guess that's what everyone has been refering to.

[@benharmon2817]

This song was really hard for me as well. We took care of my grandmother for the last year and a half of her life in our home while she had Alzheimer's. Be thankful for the good memories you have, I wasn't able to know her that well due to the distance between us when I was young. Almost all my memories of her are while she wasn't even herself. This song and the accompanying music video were so well done.

[@eldritchf4ther]

You got my subscription man. Such a real reaction. Really refreshing to watch someone not have to force a reaction for views.

[@adamlogan9500]

great genuine heartfelt reaction. Blessed be or trustfall are two spiritbox songs to check out...hell every spiritbox song is a masterpiece.

[@Crivicus]

Thanks for uploading it mate, we are there with you. Don't be afraid of the emotions, it's what music is meant to bring out and it connects us all together - past, present, and future.

[@johnnyjohansson2868]

It hits most of us... Thank You for uploading. Genuine and true. I'm a father of three daughters and It's important to show that Dads/men can have AND show feelings. Respect