Reading the Books on my Pile of Sh*me || Reading Vlog 2019

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I debated posting this vlog or not but you voted on Twitter so here it is! I was filming this when I was coming back to KZbin after my surgery and I had just posted my update video on my beauty channel and quite frankly the comments got to me. I’m also dealing with a lot in my life and not handling it very well. I’ll update you about it all soon but here’s the attempted vlog lol

[@arobinreads]

Sending you support!

[@Rituknows]

Take care! And I commented there and will say it here too.. You look amazing beautiful and i honestly see no change in you.. Don't let the negativity of some sad people get to you ❤️

[@Ceccan97]

Sending love your way Em, you're the best 💞💞

[@aliraelife9858]

I’m so mad at everyone not being supportive. Just know that for all the mean comments, there are so many of us who look forward to your content and who support and love your honesty! ❤️❤️❤️

[@KirstySciberras]

Sending hugs Emily xx

[@mardzipanpan]

This vlog was so real and authentic and I appreciate your effort to read even though you’ve been going through this rough patch. Please take good care of yourself! Don’t let the negativity get to you! For every one Debbie Downer there are thousands of faithful subscribers here who love you and your content. 💕

[@emalemon6427]

The inflatable Champagne bottle....you can never predict what will pop up in the background of your videos! It's wonderful.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Things get a bit chaotic at times lol

[@beepboop9976]

There’s something so satisfying about finishing a bunch of unfinished things. Not just books but tv shows, work, jobs you need to do etc. This video pleases my soul.

[@rebeccam6342]

6:00 I'm the same, short chapters motivates me to read a book faster

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I hadn't realized how much it affected me until this book... they're like 100 pages long lol

[@rebeccam6342]

@@BookswithEmilyFox oh wow, that's crazy 😂

[@jennawar13]

That would bother me so much because I like to stop reading at the chapter markers and not in the middle haha

[@Meenieweenie]

I freaking love how cozy this vlog feels. The books, the lighting, idk. I enjoy the regular videos very much! But something about this one feels so cozy I love it.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I need to do vlogs more often :)

[@YoSamiYo]

Emily, this is perfect timing, I’m sick at home, just got tea and snacks to snuggle up in bed and then I got the notification for this video. Thank you 😍 hope you feel better soon, you are amazing in every way 💜

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Aw feel better!! 💜

[@SewFun]

So sorry to hear you are going through a difficult time. KZbin and social media in general can be very tough on you in a number of ways. Just remember that it's easy for others to sit back and criticize and we hear the one negative thing among the hundred positive. Keep strong ...we're here for you.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Honestly I'm doing really well considering but every time I post an update I have a few tough days lol

[@shinyandteddy957]

The things you are using as bookmarks. Love it. 😂. I have an “on hold” shelf and it’s way too large. I probably need to challenge myself to do this.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

LOL at least they were semi close to being bookmarks! It's harder than I thought it would be but I'm happy to finally remove some from that list

[@loati94]

I dont know why sometimes Im really enyoing a book and I find it interesting and want to know how it continues and what happens in it but for some reason I dont read keep reading it

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Whyyyyyy?! I don't get it haha

[@loati94]

@@BookswithEmilyFox I sometimes think that it's because I don't want it to end so If I don't read it, it never ends. Don't try to find it logic I'm weird lol It happpens to me with tv shows and videogames as well

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

What books are on your own pile of shame? :)

[@sackmet]

Les miserable is on mine. I started reading it and then forgot to pick it back up.

[@angelc12000]

I've been having this same problem since the end of last year. I'm trying to get through the pile right now, so great timing for this vlog! I just finished One Word Kill finally. The others on my pile are: The Eye of the World, The Kiss of Deception, The Vanishing Season, Skyward, and The Calculating Stars.

[@hellomarijke]

The Minds of Billy Milligan by Daniel Keyes (yup, the author of Flowers For Algernon) has been on my shame pile for half a year now! I'm halfway and the book was so interesting (a non fiction about a man having dissociative personality disorder, he had 24 people living inside his head). For some reason I never continued, maybe because it was all very sad... but I might pick it up again after I finish Skyward, you inspired me 💪

[@patriciapersson7111]

1984, The Diviners, Night Film, Children of Blood and Bone and King's Cage :S

[@Rituknows]

Goldfinch Brief history of time And The immortal life of Henrietta Lacks 🙈

[@bryndigsbooks4491]

I am only 6:43 into this vlog but I wanted to tell you that it is so refreshing that you also have this problem. Over the weekend I had a mini “readathon” to finish a bunch of my unread books. I finished four and still have six in my pile of books I’m in the middle of.

[@marissaliskey6629]

I agree with you about long chapters. I like to read from one chapter to the next then stop and if the chapter is long and i'm ready to stop it takes longer

[@ZedleyQ]

I totally do this, too! There are some books that have been in my pile of shame for years... :-/ So sorry that you've been going through such a rough time. I've watched both of your channels for ages, and although I don't comment often, I am always a silent supporter. Please take all the time you need to recover, try to ignore the mean comments (easier said than done, I realize), and know that you are loved by so many people!

[@AddyRingwald]

We adore you! Remember reading is supposed to be fun, so take your time and we’ll support you always 💕

[@samar_29]

Loved this idea, i also have a huge pile of shame that I've been meaning to get to and this seems like the perfect timing to do it

[@bearllande]

i liked circe more than song of achilles. i want more from madeline miller though, she does mythology retellings incredibly well!

[@anam.1467]

I love how real this vlog is. Sometimes I feel like people force themselves to read just for the number or rating. My pile of shame is looking at me from across the room right now. I really don't know why we put down books we enjoy. Hope you are doing better now. 😄🧡🧡🧡

[@LyraValley]

Finally, someone else feels the way I do about long chapters. I thought I was the only one. Also, I don't watch reading vlogs that often because they aren't usually my jam but I watch almost all of yours because they are just really enjoyable to me and you are just so funny. I can't get enough.

[@avrilgloworm518]

i love this vid, please make it a series. And by the way, dont let the hate comments about the surgery drag you down, because you dont need to be a crowd pleaser, you make your own decisions.

[@aliciag9874]

Perfect timing! I’m stuck in bed with a double ear infection and my whole face is burning, but at least I can chill watching my fav booktube creators :)

[@gverduzco9805]

Sometimes I put down sad books... Because I know how it's obviously going to end I've never watched the Titanic movie...

[@emilylopez7160]

You have an insane work ethic! If I had such an intense surgery I would peace the hell out for a long time 😂 love your vids and I’m glad you’re recovering so well! 💕

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I've been doing well overall but every time I upload a new "update" on my other channel the comment section drives me insane lol

[@emilylopez7160]

BookswithEmilyFox that’s so lame ☹️you seem like the sweetest person I can’t stand people sometimes. I’m sorry you have to go through that ON TOP of recovery

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I think I was mostly not prepared for that when I came back! I was super naive thinking people could not, not be supportive since it was a corrective surgery... I'm a dumb dumb haha

[@glacecoco]

J'ai absolument aucune honte à admettre que j'ai pleurer comme une madeleine à la fin de "Le Chant d'Achille", c'était tellement beau et émouvant et triiiiiste! Tellement et triste! Je suis complètement tombée sous le charme de Madeline Miller et ça me rend super heureuse que toi aussi tu apprécie ses deux livres! ToT Vivement qu'elle sorte rapidement un nouveau livre!

[@shreyasgham3632]

0:01 to 7:04 You think I don't know what's going with the weird camera placement here woman? Let me assure you, you won't ever defeat her by cheap tricks like blocking her in the video. It would take a lot more than that.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

LOL it took me a second to get it... I'll have you know it's a complete coincidence! We were in great terms during the summer, this was filmed before all the drama okay?!?!

[@melissafarrell8743]

Definitely inspired me... I had 6 books on my pile of shame all over a year old. have now finished 2 about to finish a third :)

[@anah9017]

You had major surgery, I think that allows you to read whatever you want at your own pace! Keep resting, I'm sure all of us will keep watching.

[@ACourtofHooksAndBooks]

This would be an excellent idea for a readathon I have a huge pile of shame I think a month long readathon hosted by you might get me to pick them up haha

[@nikkiholly3591]

Thanks for the video. I'm home sick in bed. Always look forward to your videos.

[@skeletonkeybooks]

My list of shame is several pages long, and I never seem to make any progress on it. But you have inspired me to renew my efforts! As soon as I finish my current read (Listening Woman by Tony Hillerman) I am going to pick Jade City back up and finish it.

[@astellus]

Kings of the Wyld was really fun. Don't give up! Also, Canadian author!

[@natcommon]

Thanks for posting this video. It encourages me to finish my own pile of shame. Hope you feel better. ❤️❤️❤️

[@nextpageadventure9160]

I do the same thing. I should work on my pile.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I feel less alone! What books are on yours?

[@beautyb4876]

can't be as bad as my pile! I'm taking loads to the charity shop feels like i'm always doing that! People just keep giving them to me which is great but...i dont have a lot of room lol. and i dont have time to read all the books i wish i did! I have a box full still lol

[@DarkMistyDay]

2nd attempt!!! Pretty please :) omg that was emotional to watch, I know what you mean about really wanting to accomplish something but so much else is happening that it's a struggle. Just know that it's okay and I was glad to hear how many books you finished. I think you did a good job!

[@AngelikaRenee]

I’m the same way! I have so many books on my shelves that I have started and never finished!

[@derek3418]

I feel like this would make a good series if you're up to it. Your vlogs are always enjoyable to watch, even when you think they aren't!

[@nataliey.s3162]

My pile of shame is definitely out of hand. Life has been such a mess these last few weeks 😖, so I feel you. This year I have had 2 months in which I didn't read at all and that has never happened before. But then again there has been some great stuff happening too. So always keep your head up 🌞

[@teresamedeiros7312]

Finishing 3 books is success to me. Good job!

[@parkedawn]

Emily, please remember how many of us adore your channels and feedback on books. And we LOVE YOU! Plus that t-shirt is the best. Where did you get it? ❤

[@dishadharmraj6986]

song of Achilles is on my shame pile too

[@shawnamailman7434]

The audiobook for 'The Rules of Magic' is outstanding!

[@Ν.Π.Τ.Φ]

"Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine" is AWESOME. Give your not-slymp situation a while, take a breath and when you feel like a medium-to-slow paced character diven novel,pick it up! You won't regret it.

[@MrSkitly]

I've just finished it but goodness I was not prepared! I felt like it needed 20 trigger warnings but I really really loved it.

[@Ν.Π.Τ.Φ]

@@MrSkitly weird... There weren't any trigger warnings- not even on goodreads? I think that even I included some in my review ...

[@MrSkitly]

@@Ν.Π.Τ.Φ I looked at what was on the cover and everything vaguely alluded to dealing with some intense stuff but not to the extent of what I would have expected. I honestly didn't look at it much on Goodreads. It kept popping up as recomended and thought it looked Interesting based on the blurb.

[@Kay-nb2fe]

It’s one of my favourite books. I read the physical and the audiobook and the audio made me love it even more..

[@veronique5199]

I'm currently so busy that a lot of books are getting put on hold. I'm starting various ones to find one that is getting me completely hooked but I don't finish then

[@JayGTheAwkwardBookworm]

I haven’t read practical magic but the movie slaps

[@A88-p5e]

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely fine is best as an audiobook! I thought it was pretty decent when I listened to it but I couldn't get through the physical book at all

[@LynnetteReads]

I recently made a collection on my Kindle titled Operation Kindle Tidy Up! It is all the books I started but didn't go back to. I now need to find the courage to sit and read them! Thinking in 2020 I might set myself one book a month from the pile to finish to try and avoid putting myself in a slump.

[@bookishtinaa]

Gosh, I have such a HUGE pile of shame. 🙈 I really want to get to them all by the end of the year and this vlog inspires! Lol I hope things get better for you. You’re gorgeous inside and out.

[@KinST18]

You seemed so down, hope you are better now. I know you just moved from this place but what a view!! If you are not confortable to tell me it’s ok I would understand but which region was it ? It’s beautiful 🤩

[@MrSkitly]

I laughed out loud when you said you didn't think you would cry reading 'the song of Achilles' but we need to know if you did or not!

[@zhrae9992]

I was hoping that u finish Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine. I luved this book so much

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

It shall return in the bathroom... I'll eventually finish it :P

[@zhrae9992]

@@BookswithEmilyFox yesss I am looking forward to know ur thoughts

[@LibraryofKatie]

My pile of shame are all the books I’ve bought because of your recommendations and the recommendations of others that I have no read yet as I continue to buy more

[@Allenro711]

This is actually a big problem of mine. I don't have any issues dnfing books either so idk why I do this to myself. Biggest issue is actually finishing series. I have so many series were I haven't read the last 1 or 2 books and it's not cause I don't like it! Off the top of my head is the Kate Daniels books by Ilona Andrews and a very recent one Darkdawn...Tbf at least I started DD? Lol. This has caused a bit of a slump though cause I feel like if I pick up another book then the chances of me actually finishing DD will be close to 0, so I end up not reading at all... I loved this vlog and all your recent content from both channels! I admire you a lot for getting in front of the camera so soon after a major surgery. That work ethic is just damn impressive. So don't sweat it, just breathe, and remember that the most important step is always the next one ;)

[@FromJessToYou]

I never enjoyed Practical Magic the novel ... but I LOVED Practical Magic the movie.

[@Spcyfic]

So happy to see a new vlog of yours ! Love ya girl !! 💪💪💪

[@kendspan212]

I used to have a huge pile of shame as well! (Still have 2 books of shame) Thanks for inspiring me to read them.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

How did you go through them? One at a time or all in one go?

[@kendspan212]

BookswithEmilyFox One at a time! I would read a book of shame, then my “reward” was reading a book of choice/ excited about. You can do it!

[@beautyb4876]

aww practical magic! I love the movie i need to watch it now as its October and i always watch it this time of year. and Hocus Pocus and The Craft lol. never read the book though

[@JennV-B]

You just reminded me, I need a shower speaker now that I love audiobooks! What was the one you recommended again?

[@ericavandegrift6219]

For pronunciation of most of the names in The Song of Achilles you should watch the Brad Pitt movie. I probably would have been pronouncing most of the names wrong if I hadn’t seen that version. Especially names like Briseis (Bri-say-iss).

[@vkpsych]

As someone who had had a couple of surgeries, I know how much surgery messes with the brain and mood. You might just be experiencing the after effects of anesthesia and pain medication coupled with significant pain and change in your lifestyle. Hang in there Emily! Sending strength and positive vibes.

[@nonfictionfeminist]

I enjoyed both the book and movie for Practical Magic, but I definitely liked the movie a little more. I enjoyed her writing style, and the sequel was good as well!

[@marcyreads]

I have this same pile! Well not the same books but the same kind of pile 🙈 I think I have 6 in mine and I need to get to them before 2019 ends! Great vid!

[@desertrose0601]

Oh girl, I have the same pile. I have several books that I’m pretty sure are going to be 5-star reads but for whatever reason I’ve stopped them halfway through. Most are verrrrrry long books, which I think is why I stopped them. 11/22/63. Outlander. Game of Thrones. Just to name some of them on this list for me. I really need to finish them. 😬

[@HorseLover3061]

I also have a pile of shame .. but like 20ish books🥺

[@lifefullofwords]

I also like to sometimes have a physical copy of nonfiction books on hand while listening to the audiobook! So glad I’m not the only one, it makes me feel super extra. 😂

[@Helgacabbage]

I've been doing the same thing for the last few years, when I never used to give up on any book. I've stopped beating myself up about it as I realised that if a book truly grabbed me, I wouldn't have put it down. It's the author's fault, not mine... :D :D There are many in my pile that I like just fine, but if I'm not feeling excited to read, they're too easy to put down and not pick up again, while I instead go for something that more perfectly suits the mood I'm in. There are so many terrific books in the world, we will never get around to reading even a small percentage of them, so life's too short to painfully slog through a book that isn't fantastic. This is what I've decided anyway, so I refuse to call my pile of half-read books a Pile Of Shame. :D

[@laurenmeyer8348]

I just stayed up until 3 am crying through the last 70ish pages of Song of Achilles 😭. I thought knowing what happens in the Iliad would prepare me but it just made it worse! I did put off finishing it, though, until I was in a lower stress place in my life, so I totally understand the struggle

[@KirstySciberras]

Loving that lipstick shade on you ❤️

[@janemurray4534]

I have “fireman” on my pile of shame- should i really finish it? Hope your feeling better

[@peachykeenchy8194]

jane murray fireman is amazing! personal opinion of course but it’s pretty wild

[@BobbiReads]

I will say this every time I comment on one of your videos, you’re absolutely beautiful in every way. Those people are just mean trolls. But you need to read Kings of the Wyld. I think you’ll love it once they get to the adventuring part. I found the entire thing pretty funny, like dad joke funny. It’s a great found family and just being there for each other. Plus you see almost every mythical creature known to man in the story. 😂

[@jennawar13]

I feel like putting a book down for too long freaks me out bc I’m worried I’ll forget what happened and need to start all over 😅

[@foreversavedbygrace]

Your pile of shame is my NTF Goodreads shelf: Need To Finish

[@gabrielag.2030]

You did it, you finished 3 books :D great video :)

[@alittlebitshelfish3984]

I’m so sad that people are saying such ugly things to you, and that you’re not feeling your best. Know that there are lots of people who are sending you lots of good vibes, and wishing you well. I’m like you though, at certain stress levels I stop being able to read. ❤️

[@hizzchek]

Love your shirt! 👏💕🥂

[@cussundriakneal9904]

Every time you mention your books of shame, i look at the second rainbow book shelf. And then i remember what you ACTUALLY mean. X,D

[@bananamilk2263]

we LOVE you please take care of yourself ! Drink water and rest ❤️

[@froncifresh]

Please emily, do a reading vlog for the secret commonwealth 😍🙏

[@TBCaine]

oi I can relate with life getting in the way of reading and not feeling into doing what you love. The last few weeks have been just like that for me! Let's hope October brings better feelings

[@stayedforthemusic]

I put books I like down all the time. I know I like it, but I'm not in the mood for it lol.

[@Shmeganify]

Practical magic is a book?!

[@Amanda-dn4ld]

I loved Wanderers but I don’t know that I would have wanted to listen to it.

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

It's 32h long.... damn lol

[@Amanda-dn4ld]

@@BookswithEmilyFox And I liked being able to read it really quickly. I don't find the rockstar interesting at all so I read through his bits at more of a skim and I think that helped keep everything moving.

[@MousseEtpamplemousse]

Your t-shirt!!! 😍😍😍 so necessary unfortunately 😒

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Tell me about it! As soon as I saw it I knew I needed it lol

[@JasonsWeirdReads]

Ooooh, I saw Eye of the World on your shelf and was wondering if you have read it? Also, your going through some changes, and that can be very painful, especially with ignorant jerks insulting you. I just want to say I hope you’re doing okay. 😀

[@picklejuice2]

Okay I’m sorry but you said “These are my five #1 books” And I immediately said “Well actually Eleanor Oliphant is your #2 books” 💩 I’m sorry I had to😂

[@caseyc2497]

Man alive, how i hated Eleanor Olyphant Is Completely Fine by the end of it. ugh. predictable 'twist' and Eleanor drove me up the wall, across the ceiling and down the other side. it was definitely a 'finished this out of spite' read.

[@Amanda-dn4ld]

Do you still work your office job or are you all KZbin now?

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I couldn't afford to only do youtube lol

[@Kay-nb2fe]

BookswithEmilyFox I don’t know how you have time for it all!

[@Amanda-dn4ld]

@@BookswithEmilyFox Indeed! I thought for sure you were just KZbin with the amount of content you put out!

[@doglover7805]

I did not like Song of Achilles or Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine, so I totally understand.

[@annao.5240]

I don't get why would someone consider Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine a ' super funny' book 🤔 that's what's on the cover and that's (partially) why I've bought this book. But it's so utterly sad and tragic and depressing I couldn't stomach it.

[@banditachutia5854]

Finally a reading vlog YASSSS

[@andreamills2965]

I’m the same way with shorter chapters , helps to convince me to read a little more each sitting 😛

[@Larissaltz13]

You being terrified of winter while I'm here in Brazil cursing and complaining about the hot times that are coming. Let's switch places please

[@YoSamiYo]

Children of time is on my pile of shame, I really need to finish it 🙈 (But I recently started rereading a little life, sooo.. priorities..😂)

[@awildkiru]

I DNF Eleonor Elephant is Completely Fine, because... I couldn't. And The Song Of Aquiles I think I did too because I knew the ending. I'm a disaster.

[@picklejuice2]

In other news - where is the shirt from!? You can’t just show us that and not tell us where it’s from 🥰😊

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Seems sold out sadly but YesStyle bit.ly/2mE6ZEl

[@lantreauxlivres]

You made me laugh, thank you xD

[@bicho6313]

the rules of magic is better. there's less sexist things, the chapters are smaller, and its definitely more updated overall

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

Yay! Happy to hear it :D

[@froncifresh]

I finished kings of the wyld and i thought it was just...meh. I don't understand what possessed people to rate it 5 stars, i know it wasn't funny 😂

[@gillian32]

It's like you were reading so hard, you were out of breath. 🏃‍♀️

[@Singhaditi1105]

Why would you * the word Shame :/

[@BookswithEmilyFox]

I think it's funny... plus youtube algorithm keeps flagging everything so I might as well have fun with it lol

[@linaahamouda7735]

u looked so high by the end of the video ! the vlog as real likes