Real-Time Emotional Breakdown Due to Benzo Withdrawals

[@beautifullybroken1591]

Us benzo warriors have all felt this. It takes the biggest balls to stay alive every day

[@stardustring]

Absolutely I'm in this boat. Yes yes

[@timcepin3386]

Absolutely!

[@tedd_blackk]

I envy those who don't understand this video.

[@benholzer1649]

me too. I felt it when he said "I hurt for others that will have to go throught this and find out the hard way"

[@lauraelizabeth4444]

Me too :( It's the worst thing that has ever happened to me

[@katrinamenzies9398]

Me too

[@katrinamenzies9398]

@@benholzer1649 me too all the future suffering breaks my heart

[@melodyvalentine8779]

I so relate to this comment, I'm looking for a video to demonstrate to my bf what benzo withdrawal is like because he doesn't understand but he wants to. Hopefully you're OK now but two years isn't that long to get off them so you could be still tapering. Either way I hope everyone reading this is healed or healing. I was kindled in 2019 after being two years off. Now I'm trying to taper off 40mg of valium again and it's much harder this time 😔

[@Rollwithit699]

I give the guy a lot of credit for being clean and dressed, shaved with a fresh haircut, sitting outside in daylight, being able to clearly state his thoughts so well. When I felt this way I couldn't leave my home, wasn't interested in grooming or dressing, couldn't connect my racing thoughts to form actual words or make sense verbally.

[@deathstonem]

I'm going through this now, at 18 years old, I've never been through anything so difficult, I stopped cold turkey, and every day I wake up wanting to die.

[@Rollwithit699]

@@deathstonem Yes, cold turkey after 28 years taken as prescribed. Told doctor I wanted to stop after hearing a little about Jordan Peterson's experience. She said, "okay." No advice or taper. I didn't know i should have tapered until months later. When I texted her to please help me...no response to two separate requests. Months later was able to go in for appointment, told her about withdrawal, and she interrupted, rolled her eyes and changed the subject. I could tell she thought I was lying or exaggerating. Eighteen months out now, stay strong. You will get better, keep deep breathing. 🙏

[@deathstonem]

@@Rollwithit699 Thanks bro, I won't give up. Congratulations on overcoming this addiction, God bless you

[@Rollwithit699]

@@deathstonem Also exercise (walking and breathing in) helps reduce the awful anxiety and heart pounding a bit if you are comfortable leaving your room; stay away from walking near moving cars since your thinking isn't right currently and you might make a bad decision. Breathing in a bag helps a little with the hyperventilation. I found "tapping" actually seemed to help lessen the pounding anxiety even thought it made no logical sense to me. I couldn't read, speak or think coherently then, but it gets better, Gabriel. Stay strong.👍

[@Rollwithit699]

@@deathstonem You'll think you can't stand it anymore, but you can. It will get better for short periods, then will be bad again. The good periods will start lasting longer and bad times will be shorter. Hang in.

[@user-is3hr7ox9e]

You're not alone. You are just like me bro. Clean life, family man, 38, beautiful wife. Lost my job. I think about suicide daily 5 months out. I will stay strong if you do brother. Let's beat this and fight back.

[@dimachan200]

Sorry to hear that bro, how are you feeling now?

[@Samwise_92]

I hope you kept going💗

[@xxx-ly7jf]

I related, sorry man, hope you’re better

[@sangeetalambh6389]

123 123 did u feel fatigue like emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober

[@Cheesygarlicccc]

How are you now?

[@pineapplekid9219]

This gets better . I was bedbound for a period and thought it wouldn’t ever end but it did . I had multiple ambulance trips to the ER . Keep going . Seven months out I was just like you . I’m 33 months now and I’m way better . Suicide isn’t the answer to this . Don’t think that way . Make plans for your future when all this calms down and the nerves heal . Your not alone ok 👍

[@tygreen8831]

Lorne Breasure what benzos were you on and how long was you taking them?

[@brandonashley2831]

Thanks so much Lorne! 33 months is a big deal and you should be really proud of that. How much were you on? He's doing better but there are definitely bad days. :(

[@tygreen8831]

Stacy Jaye did you heal the 8months you cold turkey?

[@tygreen8831]

Stacy Jaye thanks for the response and I hope everything works out..

[@michelevarano977]

Brandon & Ashley how is he today?

[@THXx1138]

I AM COMING OUT OF IT!!! 3 years of indescribable torment and IT DOES END !!! HOLD ON AND KEEP GOING !!!

[@emilycanter75]

Almost 20 months off for me.. its def getting better.

[@cduby1424]

15 months for me had a really really bad day today,extreme anxiety, then depression,memories causing me to obsess, muscles pulling in my toes, but I've seen some signs that things are getting better,maybe it's because I've exercised after not exercising for weeks, also my mind will forget words I've known for ages,also I get this smell that only I can smell.

[@loriebell1354]

I’ve been off bento’s 5 years after being on for 30 years. I am sad to say one never recovers completely. My panic attacks have come back with a vengeance and sleep is still difficult. It is a day to day process. Many times I pray to die and later thank God he kept me safe. Benzodiazepines should be taken off the market. Period! I was a nurse working under tremendous pressure raising a family for 25 years. Instead allowing a doc to put me on meds, I should have changed careers and sought support. If only I had known!!

[@chrisk3536]

Jesus loves you. I’ve been there, just please keep pushing further.

[@brandonashley2831]

Thanks Chris! He's doing a lot better since this video. It was really rough there for a while but things are slowly improving.

[@huninoh]

i have been there.. i know. i m crying watching this.

[@xxx-ly7jf]

Are you better?

[@huninoh]

@@xxx-ly7jf yes im outta benzp hell i have been free from benzo 1y and 8months

[@harleyconlon6894]

This chap has no idea the pride and self-confidence, the beautiful clear headspace he’s going to be gifted with when he gets this right. At the time we have nooo idea how to even conceptualize what we could become - and yet it will happen unseen in the background until one morning months later a smile forms out of nowhere. That’s the day you’re reborn into an enlightened new you - as free as you could ever be * and more grateful and humble than any human being you’ve never known. Look forward, surrender forward, dig deeper than you ever think you can. No matter what happens, realize: YOU. ARE. HEALING

[@incognito595]

What an amazing person you are to offer so much Hope. I am amazed at your ability to put that into words. You have a beautiful soul. Thank you.

[@tovelo9317]

Beautiful comment, thank you and god bless you ❤

[@erasedfromgenepool.4845]

Harley that was very emotional for me too read..... GREAT JOB! I have been kicking Klonopin 10 milligrams everyday for past 7 years I'm on week three and I can not stop crying and thinking of bad things .. I hope there is a light soon for me...

[@jiggajigjones8210]

Its fucked up dude. Trust me. I know. Im a big dude and its brutal. You got this man.

[@cgriffin805]

This is absolutely heartbreaking. Every doctor should be required to watch this and then aa themselves did I do more harm than good for the love of money?

[@tedd_blackk]

A talk on harm from meds: kzbin.info/www/bejne/aV7RiJ1oaLh-eZo

[@robertlemoon136]

Don not listen to the withdrawal mind that tells you to give up. I am where you are and you are not alone but with the rest of us. You will get through it but only Time works. The hardest thing is to not judge yourself, to be compassionate for just surviving this right now. I can tell you to call a suicide hotline but you have to stay in the present...not in the regrets of the past because you are more human than most people and you need help, support and to be kind to yourself because everyone gets better. I know that does not help at the moment being overwhelmed with pain but hang hang and hang on to the core YOU that is more than productivity, accomplishments and doing what "normal" people do nowadays. YOU ARE A GLADIATOR IN AN ARENA WITH NO AUDIENCE BUT THAT GLADIATOR FIGHTING THIS SILENT BATTLE IS THE STRONGEST, BRAVEST MOST NOBLE MAN IN THIS UNIVERSE.

[@brandonashley2831]

Thank you so much Robert! We really appreciate your encouragement. It's all so overwhelming.

[@cherbear6377]

I haven't started my taper. I plan a super slow micro taper. How did u taper. Just hold on!!! Stay with us. Go to rocking Roberta and she did her taper off suboxone. She is so awesome and honest. Your going to get better. Time. Listen to music. Hang in there 🤗🤴✌💞

[@tygreen8831]

Robert how are you now??

[@goddessvibes08]

Robert, you are such a sweetheart. Thank you for this comment.

[@chrisloveschrist5742]

My Lord I needed to hear this tonight...tx u...I'm 30fg hours in...Lord help me

[@scotte.3693]

Just stay away from alcohol and watch what you eat and it will get better with time brother. You'll be happy you went through this. Out of suffering comes great meaning.

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Scott Everson powerful words of encouragement. Thank you Scott. Respect ✊🏼

[@scotte.3693]

Before I went through all of this I lost my passion for life. I was depressed all the time. I felt like my life was meaningless. Then I went through this hell and continue to go through this hell but I'm much better than I was. I'm still struggling and not a day goes by now that I'm not thankful for this happening to me. I'm a better person. I'm improving the lives of others.

[@xxx-ly7jf]

@@scotte.3693 how are you now?

[@scotte.3693]

@@xxx-ly7jf Hey man. I'm doing ok. Still have my down days especially with die off reactions. How are you?

[@morningwithgracie7870]

@@BrandonBreaksRecords how's Brandon?

[@jonathangolden9299]

There should be a class action lawsuit against all the makers of benzodiazepines. I went through paranoid schizophrenia, psychosis for 78 days; and to bring me back to reality I was given a benzodiazepine again. Then once I came back to a form of reality I was in hyper mania, yet I’m not bipolar. The entirety of what I went through was benzodiazepine induced. I have a new message: As of March 20, 2023, I’ve been free of benzodiazepines. I deal with anxiety but it's far better than my body being addicted. I’m so thankful to be drug-free today. Today is June 26, 2023. I was on Clonazepam for eleven years at four milligrams a day.

[@glenn5517]

Pfizer is one manufacturer I believe

[@mongogojjo5944]

@@glenn5517 you are correct. They pump out loads of garbage, look at Lyrica and gabapentin which can cause suicidal ideation and in most people horrible withdrawal as well. Not as bad as benzos but still pretty horrid, the actual creators of benzos likely sat down one day and said: "what helps with anxiety and fear?? ALCOHOL, so let's create a pill that works on the same receptors as Alcohol...BOOZE IN A PILL FORM!. Yeah we're sure that's a horrible idea and it could undoubtedly lead to addiction worse than alcohol itself, but ehhh screw it let's pump em out and while we're at it we just won't warn anyone about the addictive potential! They're just gonna have to find out some day when they start seizing because they didn't take their pill that day. Let's pump em out we're gonna make millions!"

[@hearme4581]

How long did you take it?

[@santaclause3487]

I can’t imagine. If u take enough ambien for a while, then without it’s pretty bad. Not 6 or 7 months out tho. Wtf. I can’t imagine a high dose wd of benzos, makes everything else seem like child’s play.

[@incognito595]

That amount is an unconscionable amount.

[@travisholmes3751]

I was taking klonopin for 5 years ending up at 6mg a day for the last 6 months or so. I started my taper in May 2017. Lost my job sold my car. I tapered down until Feb 2018 and quit at 0.25mg. I had days where I was thinking just like this. It was taking a huge toll on my wife. Most of my hard times were during my taper and when I finally jumped off from .25 it only took 2 or 3 months to start getting some real progress. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Just stay active regardless of your symptoms and do not obsess on the internet too much. You can do this

[@joeaverage7743]

Being there done that.. more than once..the last time was 12 years ago. It took me a long time to regain my sanity and health but it passed. I quit cold turkey but I suffered. Watching this video is a great reminder. It can be done and trust me.. it’s so worth doing. Hang in there.. this too will pass.

[@incognito595]

Never take them again! Because THEY DON'T CARE, BECAUSE IF THEY ADMITTED IT, THEY ARE AFRAID OF BEING SUED!

[@1MNUTZ]

It's a terrible terrible feeling unreal beyond anything you can imagine

[@jimferrill1790]

Every day I get up. Every day I just get through the day. I hope this man made it. I have, so far. I completely understand him. I feel the same exact way. I've let everyone down. Conversely, to make my loved ones go through seeing me like this is a form of torture in itself.

[@NoName-pu5ls]

I know this feeling truly terrifying! I've now tapered off clonazepam after being prescribed for 23 years. Hope he is better now!

[@mamas3cubs]

40 years on Benzo's and AD. Been water tapering since December 28 2019. Started taper at 2 mg. in 300 mg of water. Reducing by .o5 ml per day. Just under 1 mg now. Concerned about when I complete the tapering process... then what??

[@NoName-pu5ls]

@@mamas3cubs oh the jump off I was petrified of that...well I had zero issues, all went well..I've been off now almost 4 months..I feel good! I was cut off cold once n nearly died but my taper was ok..the taper did destroyed my teeth tho..that sucks!! Near the end of my taper when I was down to tiny dust particles I started to skip a day inbetween dose n then 2 days etc...I gave myself a safety net..kinda tricked my brain. Best of well wishes to you! Merry Christmas

[@mamas3cubs]

@@NoName-pu5ls so you dry cut when you were tapering? I hear ya on almost dying. 6+ years ago I tapered what I thought was slow. ( did not have doc supervision I figured they wouldn't approve) was tapering Ativan, Wellbutrin and Effexor all at once. It was like dying. Lost 95 lbs in 3 months and developed leaky gut and Multiple Chemical Sensitivities which still remain. I had to teach my psyc doc going by Ashton Manual and following benzo buddies method of water tapering this time around. Just tapering Clonazepam now, will tackle Effexor after I successfully get of Devil Benzo's. Doctors need to take these meds a couple years at least and then try to get off them .... then and only then would they not be so quick to write out the script that have destroyed our brains and body's and lives. Been hospitalized 14 times, many attempts to die. Now at 62 maybe I will get some life back. Thanks for your reply.

[@NoName-pu5ls]

@@mamas3cubs yes I dry cut, I did it without a doctors help..I don't trust doctors anymore. I never had to tackle the beast antidepressants (have heard they're awful too) I had a seizure when I was cut off cold..I had no clue anything like that could happen..I thought I had a brain tumor..for 3 months doctors watched me suffer omg! I will never forget those 3 months convinced I was dying, complete psychosis, weight loss incredible like my body was eating itself, vision gone, on n on..then finally a new doc reinstated the clonazepam n bam I was fine! Well I did my own research n found the truth..stabilized n got the heck off finally. This is the most bizarre experience by far...incredibly sad it happens to so many. Go super slow..I held a month with each cut...Remember better days ahead! I'm 54 n feel pretty good..zero sugar, walk, sunshine.

[@tomn1173]

I've been there man. It'll get better. Trust me.

[@user-vf8ti4dq3d]

my brother, was in 7 year protracted withdrawal process, lost everything, no one even believed it could last that long and no one really stood by me. was the most life changing thing i will ever experience, medicine made me into an absolute schizophrenic, intolerably agonized madman, and i can tell you with CERTAINTY, it gets much better, you will get better, you will in fact be on top of the world one day....believe it or not. just bare with it until then....anyway you can, nutrition, sleep, and TIME. you're honesty is a breath of fresh air.

[@tomasalas1122]

Did your doctor try putting you on more drugs at all? My doctors kept drugging me up for 8 months straight. I am very kindled and still stuck on another poison!

[@djdanzy]

6 years off benzos and still sick myself.

[@tovelo9317]

Thank you ❤

[@russellconstant1202]

Hardest thing I have ever been through by far. Nothing comes close to the pain Nothing.

[@chrissirhc7337]

DONT GIVE UP MAN.

[@mattcarter6505]

Stay away from benzos,Ambien,and lunesta I promise you

[@EmbraceWithin]

Hang in there it does get better. I was on 8 mg of klonopin for years, it took me 5 years to taper all of it but I made it, I just hang onto the thought that it would not be like this forever, it cannot possibly be because I could die one day of unrelated things (not by suicide) I thought of killing myself so many times I was obsessed with the idea, but then I had a real near death experience when I was at 1mg klonopin of my taper and it made me realize I didn't really want to die, I wanted things to change, that is what you want, and they will change eventually, one day, it will not be like this, cry, scream, let it all out, but hang onto the thought, it will not be like this forever, it cannot be anyways... Still healing here! Two years off this December 18th! My heart goes out to you

[@marcusjnewtonz28]

Hope this man is doing better. He seems like a real genuine dude.

[@brandonashley2831]

Thanks Mark! He is doing a lot better now but it was really hard for a while there. He's about 11 months out now so it's not as bad as it was , thankfully. And he is a real genuine dude. :)

[@marcusjnewtonz28]

Honey & Pine Co thank you. I may have to start weaning down from 1mg Klonopin and I’m terrified

[@brandonashley2831]

Definitely take it slow. He stopped at 0.5mg because his Dr said it would be ok. Clearly, it wasn’t ok. Don’t rush it and listen to his your mind / body are reacting. You got this.

[@marcusjnewtonz28]

Thank you so much

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Mark N you can do it but take it slow. There is no rush. It’s more in the mind than the body; it cannot be rushed. I’m just over 12 months off and my mind is still healing. I’m better and far from what you see in the video, but there are still waves and windows.

[@THXx1138]

Hi Brandon hon. I am Leslie. This thing is just so tough. The torture is unreal - but understanding that when we are experiencing these very uncomfortable states is when our body is going into overdrive in healing. It is alot like a herxheimer reaction. The windows we experience are respite from the healing. Every moment you are moving through this thing to your eventual wellness. I finished a Cymbalta taper in Jan. 16. Took me two full years to taper. I was totally clueless about the Benzo I was ALSO taking - Ativan. I kindled with it unknowingly and really suffered badly for it. It's criminal. I am now titrating off of Restoril. We WILL make it Brandon. We need each other to help each other along. This heart wrenching video has helped alot of people including me. Relating is important to know that you are in no way as alone as the withdrawal convinces you of. At times I am just horrible to my wonderful husband. I understand fully the guilt of the burden we think ourselves to be - but we are dealing with brain damage and our loved ones are pulling for us. I am proud of your courage and really hard work in enduring truly the most challenging thing a person can experience. You are a winner and a warrior. Hugs ((())) Keep going. Healing happens.

[@brandonashley2831]

It certainly feels damaged but I understand your point. It's a rough spot to be in no matter what.

[@morningwithgracie7870]

@@brandonashley2831 how's Brandon?

[@lauriina85]

​@@brandonashley2831Hi, did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing and normal life at all, like your brain was shut down? I'm homebound and can't do anything or be with anybody because it. Just my mom and partner bring me food. Third time to taper, two times were too quick and went badly wrong. Thank you.

[@stardustring]

It's hard went family treats you unkindly.

[@judithwyman7654]

I can relate to his pain only 10 weeks out from 27 years of prescribed klonopin. I am 70 and live alone with no answers about the future.

[@erasedfromgenepool.4845]

How are you doing Judith ? God is with us you are not alone life must not be this hard

[@peterwood23]

6 months your almost there. It will get better I promise you. Just tell yourself self,at the end you will even be better then you once were. Just eat very healthy,and drink plenty of good water. If you can get to a sauna or steam room that will help. Try to keep your mind focused on something else. 8 months to a year every thing will be more manageable. Stop thinking suidide man. That’s a cowards way out. Think of your family and stay strong. I have been through what your going through. And now I’m doing great. You will soon enjoy life again man. I hope this helps you in any way.

[@liamo54321]

hotrod pete hey can we talk you on Facebook

[@puppywhispers1]

Keep fighting. I know this pain. It passes. Do NOT give up!!!

[@brandonashley2831]

I'm so sorry that you can relate to this. It is the WORST but you're right and it does pass eventually. It's a hard time though.

[@UnviversalLaw33]

So did he beat it

[@Snide01]

Hang in there you will be so much better at around 12 to 14 months of so you are over half way there.. I'm 28 months off of a 4mg plus daily Xanax habit and i was abusing any kind of benzo that I could my hands on for a decade or so and I was about 95% healed at around 18 months off.. You'll get there, just take it one day at a time.. Acceptance is key..

[@jakedefa5095]

I'm almost 13 months I hope I turn a big corner soon

[@charleshopper4638]

Stay strong brother it gets better.

[@vickyaguilar7201]

Dude it will get better. Be strong!!! I was on that crazy crap for 20 years. And two months on a slow taper. And now I feel better not 100% but better. It dosent always last a year. Hang in there you are better than that man!!!!

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

vicky aguilar thank you 🙏🏼✊🏼

[@vickyaguilar7201]

Hey man no problem just chill!!! Its gonna get better. I think your gonna be cool!!!

[@tedd_blackk]

"Got etizolam, took it for two days, now 2 days without" This after jumping from 2mg (klonopin). It's been 6 months now, please tell us what happened. I hope etizolam could become some unknown miracle to avoid benzo ruin, but it appears to be a street drug at this time. Experimenting can interfere with proper timely measures to avoid benzo disease; which is usually a taper that takes over a year. If the cessation damage has been done, then other measures might be available.

[@shelbyreese01]

You are not alone, I am with you, I am 15 months out and still suffering but have seen improvements, you are going to get through this, we are going to sue the shit out of these drug manufacturers, and we are going to get the money and recognition that we deserve to suffering like this, for the time lost for the life lost, we are all warriors, you will get better and you will heal I swear it, I have tried suicide a few weeks ago and it didn’t work, I get where you are and what you are feeling, keep going fight with everything you have

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Harriet Berholtz stay the course. Thank you and bless you. 🙏🏼

[@patrickcantwell9952]

It’s been 22 months since I got completely off of clonazepam after being on it for about 5 years and I’m still in horribly acute pain everywhere from the waist up. No one understands or they just simply don’t care too. I’m right there with you and the thoughts of doubt on whether I can see this through have been louder lately. I don’t know if my body will ever heal itself. Most days I wish I wouldn’t wake up. People who’ve supposedly been through this say that your body is supposed to course correct and heal itself but I’m having a real difficult time seeing the light at the end of that tunnel. I can only look at this as an endurance test but I have to say I’m running out of patience and there’s just not much left in the tank. God bless everyone in the midst of this Hell. We don’t deserve this shit, especially the ones who only ever followed their doctors instruction. My mother constantly tells me that God tests the strong. I can personally attest to anyone going through this that you’re one of the strongest and toughest people out there. It’s up to us to make it through this because it’s up to us to figure this out so that we can inform and help others about what’s really going on because doctors prescribing this poison don’t know what the hell they’re doing. I haven’t had good days or bad days over these past 22 months. I’ve only had bad days and worse days but if I’m gonna go down, I’m gonna go down swinging. NEVER QUIT!

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Patrick did u feel fatigue like emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober

[@patrickcantwell9952]

@@sangeetalambh6389 fatigue was definitely something I dealt with coming off the Clonazepam. As far as the stomach issues go, that was the main reason I decided I needed to get off of Clonazepam all together. The longer I was on Clonazepam the worse my stomach got. To the point where I couldn’t eat certain foods such as red meat, pork, apples, and avocados. There was something about the way the fats from those foods are digested that caused horrible stomach pains for me. A few times the pain was so intense I had to go to the ER. The way a homeopathic doctor explained it to me was that the Clonazepam effected the vagus nerve that is in direct correlation with the stomach. Once I was able to eventually get off of the Clonazepam my stomach began doing much better to where I have been able to incorporate most foods I wasn’t able to eat while on the drug back into my diet again.

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@patrickcantwell9952 how u handle stomach cramps I feel tightness in stomach pain and gas.

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@patrickcantwell9952 doctors can not understand.i feel dereallization too.so what should I do.

[@patrickcantwell9952]

@@sangeetalambh6389 the main thing I did was eliminating any foods I noticed that would cause my stomach pain to worsen. I found that a FODMAP diet that is used to manage Irritable Bowel Syndrome helped.

[@lauraelizabeth4444]

Sending love and so much empathy. From one who's been there and still not out of the woods completely. May you find complete healing

[@michaelolin2219]

Takes a long time to get better, but you will. 4mg daily for about 5 years here. Trips to the ER and profusely sweated 24/7 for about 6 months. It'll pass and you'll be a new man.

[@TheBenzoHouse]

Please stay strong, you can do this and you didn't do anything wrong, you were A victim of polydruging and you matter. You need to stay alive, I'm suffering with you we all are and we need to stay strong together and make a change!!!!

[@brandonashley2831]

How are you doing Melissa? I know it's so terrible but you're right, we are in this together and can get through it! He's down to 60mg Cymbalta and 7 months off Klonopin so he's getting there. It's just such a slow healing.

[@TheBenzoHouse]

Honey & Pine Co tapering .5 ativan since the 13th of July. Seems like no easy way, just hanging in there.

[@andreaturnquist4855]

@@brandonashley2831 I am coming off of Klonopin cold turkey after 23 years. Pharmaceutical companies and doctors make us addicted.

[@samthegreat1341]

Maaaan I'm trying to research my way out of this. 10 year benzo use! I wish I knew this back then. I managed to get rid of xanax at 23 cold Turkey and just ended up with depression and I don't remember the withdrawal very well or the xanax period but the valium use has been consistent for the last 6 years. I thought I could do this but I'm freaking out again!!! God bless you. Hope you are doing better xxx

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Believe in yourself but know you have to let time heal things. Unfortunately, time moves slow, but you can look back one day and be thankful that you’re better than you were then. That’s how I’m rolling these days. Keep fighting the good fight and allow your body and mind (and feelings) time to heal.

[@masonguritz6758]

I here you brother. I’m struggling too. Hang in there. Your life is more then this

[@brandonashley2831]

Hope you see improvement soon Mason. It's a tough road for sure but Brandon is doing better every month. It's just a long slow road.

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

mason guritz 🙏🏼 very kind words. Stay strong & believe in yourself. I believe in you & I know that you will beat what you’re struggling with. Your life is valuable too. ✌🏼✊🏼

[@mercutiomurphy2743]

I was in a rehab, I met this guy he was on like a crazy amount of xanax and ambien prescribed to him. something crazy like 8-10 mg of xanax a day. I told him i could relate as i was addicted to xanax for a while, and self detoxed and got out of it without having any seizures luckily, but was taking at most 4mgs or 2 bars a day, no where near the amount he was prescribed. On sundays patients could bring their families, and i met his wife, parents, his 2 beautiful kids and i believe his brother was there too, and it was crazy how supportive they seemed. Later that day he asked me if it was ever gonna get a better, and i told him for me it did get better, but it was extremely painful from what i remembered, again I knew our experiences would be different due to our dosage amounts and length of use, I'm sure I was taking much less than he was for a shorter time, since he was prescribed by a doctor and I was getting them on the street so to speak. Well one day he gave me his nearly full pack of cigarettes, and told me he didn't need them, and i wasn't really think about what that meant. Then later on that day, we found out he had jumped of a 3 story parking structure attempting suicide, but he survived with catastrophic injuries to his brain and spine, and was in a coma. It's crazy to think how these doctors who prescribe these drugs would allow these types of things to happen. To think of the mental agony he must've been in to want to just die, rather than be the father he felt he could never be for his 2 sons. It's just tragic.

[@NoName-pu5ls]

a gal told me she can't take the benzo withdraw and she went to the street to find heroin to try to escape the torture, she is in her 50's and never abused drugs in her life. I can't get my script filled the pharmacist said they stopped manufacturing clonazepam, I need to get into my doctor, idk what is going to happen to me, I am 52 and been on them for 20 years, I am already hallucinating and cramping and can't stop bawling. will I live threw this! how can I tapper if they stopped making it?

[@leighannmcgowan5239]

I hate these doctors .....they don't t care .its dicusting it's all about money

[@deloresdipiazza8265]

If what these people are going. Through is not criminal ...How can pharmacutical companies and doctors justify their aiding and abetting each other to poison people? We care takers need to gather to bring a class action suite against these culprits If there is a lawyer amongst us that would consider taking some action please let me know I would like to see this crime on the front page of all newspapers to warn others of the dangers of these "_drugs".

[@jimbizzzale67123]

You can do this, I have been there. It's so hard but just keep pushing forward. I promise it will one day get better. It's so hard, the greatest battle you will face. But you are strong and you will come out victorious.

[@sonnyrockfort5999]

for me the pain was comparable to being burned alive 22 hours a day with a couple minute breaks were you pass out into a sleep.which adds up to a couple hours. the pain was not physical , I dont know the location of the pain, but it was all encompassing . I was 1000 times more sensitive to smells and sounds but all in a negative way, the smell of food scared me like a rabid dog would scare a child. everytime I use the toilet I am just thinking of the plumbing that carry all the human waste circulating throught the 30 storey building. every imperfection, every negative thing about the world and about my own past is magnified to its limit. each breath is a monumental task for months. I had benzo and opioid withdrawals together. anyway now its all right. the thought of never using the drugs was like loosing the only thing of value to me in my life. but now today I have reached a level by God grace where I hate the drugs even when I take it. I never thought it would be possible but I like doing regular things more than I like doing drugs. I recently bought a bottle of rum had a few shots and had to throw the rest away because it made me feel bad. havent done drugs for long time even though it is available. I may even find some in my room. it does not require as much hard work as you think.

[@suemorris6246]

Im so sorry. Please hang on. You are getting closer every day. Your darling wife loves you so much. God bless you and relieve your suffering

[@brandonashley2831]

Thank you Sue! We are doing our best and our faith is a huge part in getting us through these hard days.

[@morningwithgracie7870]

@@brandonashley2831 how r u brandon?

[@kurtaaron9478]

Thanks for your honesty. You are not alone bro. Suicide is not a solution,option or answer, it's a lie from the pit of hell. Please stop researching about it. Talk to other benzo warriors and anyone supportive about the pain you are experiencing. We all understand and are with you. You will get through this. You are healing even though it doesn't feel like it yet. All of us have been through exactly what you are experiencing and it will get easier. Benzo withdrawal is brutal, no getting around that fact. The good news is you made the wise choice to quit these poisons and take back control of your mind and your life. You will heal. I am 10 months off klonopin and 7 months off lexapro and trazadone. This is my 4th time withdrawing from psych meds. I was on them for almost 20 years. I have kindled and could barely function for about 6 months. Now I'm going to the gym and interviewing for jobs. I will keep you in my prayers. Remember, you are not alone. We can all relate to you and we all love you and support you. We are here for each other and together we will overcome this! God bless you.

[@tomasalas1122]

I have also kindled. Can you explain how you kindled? I am worried I kindled way too much and won't heal. I kindled in an 8 month time frame.

[@kurtaaron9478]

@@tomasalas1122 I kindled 4 times because 4 times I went back on the meds after I had withdrawn. The brain can only handle so much. So I over shocked my brain and central nervous system. I'm still healing and you are to it just takes time. Don't give up. God bless you.

[@ZiggyTophat3]

I hope to God someone responds to this. When I was 15 I had cancer and was put on a massive dose of every benzo you can imagine. Valium, Ativan, Klonopin, zan, temazepam,etc. 20 years of benzo addiction from drs putting me on meds no minor has any way to tolerate. Now I'm homeless living in a car having seizures due to improper benzo taper. Every micro second is a living hell. My whole body shakes, feels like fire. I can't eat I can't sleep I can't work. I WISH I DIED OF CANCER THEN GOING THROUGH THIS SHIT. I don't think I will survive. I don't know what to do if ANYONE can respond I would greatly appreciate it. It took me 49 min to write this because I shake so bad.

[@beautifullybroken1591]

How are you doing now?

[@ReapingTheHarvest]

I'm sorry you're going through all that. I wish there was something i could do to help. God bless you.

[@danielgoudge8465]

Prayin for you 🙏🏻

[@jennamarie982]

I’m going through this right now🙏😢❤️I’m so scared been using alcohol to try to get off of Valium but have seizures when I pass out. Doctor prescribed too, it’s a living hell...I hope your ok now and doing better🙏It’s so hard to stop benzodiazepines😞Thank You for this video today I feel like this and always know you’re never alone🙏

[@cyberturkey77]

You used alcohol ☹️

[@jennamarie982]

@@cyberturkey77 I’m ashamed to admit it but yes, it wasn’t a good idea and I don’t recommend anyone try that…it’s really dangerous…I’ve tried weaning off without anything, cold turkey(very dangerous don’t recommend)and having a couple drinks to try to stop the pain(also don’t recommend)My last resort is to go into a rehab but it’s very scary for me because I have social anxiety & take care of 5 pets. I feel like everyone hates me is fed up with this and I can’t blame them. I wish I knew what I was doing the minute I starting taking Valium…the side effects ect of getting off. It really is a nightmare😕Worse it was doctor prescribed so I thought it was ok at the time now 18 years later still trying. I plead to anyone to everyone please don’t use this drug. It started off very slow and I needed more and more as time went on.

[@cyberturkey77]

@@jennamarie982 i don’t blame you. I cold turkied and now physically and mentally disabled

[@jennamarie982]

@@cyberturkey77 I’m so sorry😞This drug should be banned…sending prayers your way…I do hope things get better for you…your situation breaks my heart😞 just know your not alone🙏I appreciate this video so much…I wish I could help but I don’t know what to do except comment and offer support(your video helped me feel like I’m not crazy for feeling the same way just wanted to let you know that❤️)It was brave of you to record something so personal…(sending hugs your way)

[@lesliedefilippis2150]

If you do not understand this? You have no idea how fortunate you are. I am living this. I am living this for 3years now. I understand you well.

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

I hope that you’re ok. You’re in my thoughts. ❤️

[@lesliedefilippis2150]

Thank you for responding to my comment with such kind words. 💖

[@Slidehhy]

​@@lesliedefilippis2150how are you now

[@jewman303]

How are you doing now?

[@masonguritz6758]

This is so inhumane. It’s seems like I’m always in a catch 22 with this.

[@fabjonjon]

You seem to comment on a lot of benzo withdrawl videos. Hope you ok man.

[@masonguritz6758]

jonathan mcadams I’m getting better, not where I’d like to be. I like to listen to these videos when I’m in bad waves. It’s one of the few things that help when I can’t think and I am trying to distract myself. Plus I’ve been going through those for a very long time

[@mod91Kauai]

@@masonguritz6758 how ya doing now man??

[@morningwithgracie7870]

How r u mason?

[@CBT5777]

3 years clean and I'm still damaged. Neurologist said i might never heal. My nervous system is too broken. Taking it day by day, Its all you can do.

[@MonacoRocha]

Hi Brandon HOW ARE YOU BROTHER... !!!!! I've been off 10 months.... not easy but WARRIOR MENTALITY.... Ley Me Know how youre Feeling

[@maevebathory666]

I hope you've been healing since this . Much love

[@TheTurtleTribalNation]

Maeve Larisson I agree

[@SuperSinkorswim]

I am in my second month of tapering and 15 years of heavy use. I hope every second it gets better. I am just trying to get through each moment. Every word you said hit home with me. I really hope I make this. I have to make this. Just hope the darkness doesn't last forever, or at least fades away.

[@BoadieBroadus3211]

I was just like you today. I'm on my fourth attempt to taper off Klonopin and I just totally lost it. Literally slapping myself in the face and screaming that I wanted to kill myself. Luckily my saint of a mother was here to talk me down and sit with me but I still have such a long way (2 mg's) to go I don't know if I'm gonna make it. I came so close to calling 911 to admit myself but I know they can't help me at a psych ward. I can totally relate to feeling so scared that there's no where to go while also feeling like a burden to loved ones. Not wanting to die but not wanting to live like this anymore. It's all so criminal what has happened.

[@LizaLavolta]

My bf hits himself in the head on withdrawal. What made you slap yourself>? He says the pain is so bad. He has other issues though and will try to blame me or others for it...when it's clearly the w/d. It's very sad

[@allencollins6031]

@@LizaLavolta it's the worst

[@Sarkujpnfreak42]

I had the exact same thoughts in detox, after four days or so with no xans I completely broke down. For like eight straight hours suicide was all I could think about, couldn’t stop crying. The emotions were so intense, but of course with time things got better. Benzos suck

[@bayarea1129]

And I thought my heroin withdrawals were bad enough.😥

[@Samwise_92]

Those are a walk in the park compared to this shit. Hope youre better!

[@jiririnagl302]

@@Samwise_92 Effexor is worst.

[@kr1221E]

I'm heartbroken for you, I will watch a later video of yours because I want to know you have made progress.

[@brandonashley2831]

He has! He wants to do a follow-up video but isn't quite sure how to put the entire experience into words. He's doing much better now though.

[@Buddysean]

I’ve been here. I forced myself to go into psychiatric emergency so that I could not kill myself! This is so tragic that anyone has to feel this way. Eventually I healed and I am well now but those days were torture.

[@ripplebear]

Brother, keeping good thoughts for you! I know this was a while back, but I'm still thinking bout ya.

[@Samwise_92]

Awe man, my heart hurts for you. I just want to give you a big hug. Its ok, you are strong. People want you here and possibly burdening them for a while then you being gone. You are NEEDED! Suicide is not the answer. You hold on💗 It will get better, I promise. I hope you are doing well, even though this video is old. Please tell me youre doing better?

[@newkingdom6750]

This is hell, I know. Literal hell on Earth that no one other than a fellow sufferer of this could understand. I'm 4 years into this and still here. But don't worry, I'm a 1 in a million case, and odds are you will not end up like me. But it DOES get better. I'm living proof. And I can also tell you I'm here by the grace of Jesus Christ. If you don't have a relationship with Him, please cry out to Him. He loves you and will get you through it. ❤️

[@tomasalas1122]

I am a rare case too because the damn doctors kept torturing me on more drugs. I am worried I won't be able to heal because of the kindling

[@THXx1138]

@@tomasalas1122 Tomas - you are healing in every moment. The body doesn't cease healing - the hardest part is to tolerate the symptoms - you must distract and stay connected to us to pull you through. You are healing honey, I promise. I was in abject torment from June 2016 until January 2019 and I made it!!! I still can not believe this torture did not kill me. WE ARE FUCKING STRONG!!

[@KellaCampbell]

Hugs, Brandon. So sorry you're going through this.

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Kella Campbell bless you 🙏🏼

[@rosieborsellino703]

I'm 200 percent understand exactly to a tee what you're going through I call it me being crippled mentally physically and emotionally it's so awful it's hell and I pray to Jesus Christ God that you get through this amen I try to let people understand how broodling it is it's mental physical in the more and emotional torture and I totally totally understand you fully and completely inside and out please believe me you're not alone keep telling yourself these thoughts are just the medication it's the withdrawal these thoughts and feelings are from the withdraw I know you probably don't want to be around anybody talk to anybody it's so uncomfortable it's unbearable and just keep pushing through you got this I know you can't even imagine what it's like to feel peace and joy but believe me push through your God is with you even when you don't feel him... You are going to feel peace and joy and this is all going to be behind you it's withdraw it's horrible and you can cut you got this keep telling yourself that it's not you it drug making you think all these distorted intrusive messed up things and feeling least intrusive messed up things I am 100% in the same boat as you I'm on 3 mg Lorazepam once a day and it's not even enough I'm starting to wean off and I'm going through the same thing as you everything looks painted I sometimes look at people and they don't even look real I have really bad episodes just keep pushing through we got this you got this we're going to get through this and just remember it's the drug once it's out of you you're going to start feeling better Jesus Christ God's name bless you and all of us amen❤️🙏❤️🙏😊😊😊😊

[@Cluless02]

I know precisely what you are going through here - so sorry buddy. I'm at 28 mo. off Klonopin 6mg/day, 30 day rapid detox. Still a freaking nightmare, suicidal, guilt, depression, anxiety, depersonalization, etc.

[@Cheesygarlicccc]

Hru now?

[@txlonghornremodeling]

I’m 17 months off just a short term run on Ativan that was prescribed. ONLY 2 months. I’m still having withdrawals. Mine have been 90% physical. Muscle tightness and spasms and blurry vision and tinnitus are mostly what’s left. I’d say I’m about 70% healed. From all my research, I already planned on 2 years to heal. Hang in there bro.

[@richardshealth4350]

this was me in the first few months of not sleeping more than 2-4 hours a night. now 10 months in im just emotionless and besides myself trying to cling on to the good days when they happen.

[@Cheesygarlicccc]

How are you now? I relate to this at 7 months off

[@TheGreekPianist]

I'm so, so sorry you had to go through that torment man 😰 I'm Jonathan and I'm 23 years old, and I went through benzo withdrawal MANY times. And let me tell you, it was beyond horrible. So horrible that it was an insult to my human body and psyche. I perspired nonstop all over my body, I was clammy everywhere, hot, cold, I had SEVERE anxiety, paranoia, severe depression, severe weakness, diarrhea, vomiting, I felt like dying! But I got better and felt SO rejuvenated and EUPHORIC and ALIVE! Hang in there man, you got this!

[@jpjp3515]

Did they give you anything to stop these withdrawals

[@xxx-ly7jf]

How are u now?

[@aphysique]

How are you now?

[@sangeetalambh6389]

The Greek pianist did u feel fatigue like dereallization and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober

[@morningwithgracie7870]

How r u now? The Greek pianist?

[@andygirl333]

This is heartbreaking, I've been there, its so hard but you make it through ❤

[@richardmiller8532]

that was me two years ago..a living hell ive been off valium for almost two years now after a 22 year addiction I have my sanity back and it feels great. marijuana saved me from this horror

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Richard did u feel dereallization and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal I m 107 days sober

[@Skrueger84]

Thanks for Sharing this. People need to know about Benzo withdrawl. New Sub!

[@batwuud130]

Hope you’re doing good man. All love over here. ❤️

[@mattanderson9765]

I know precisely what you are experiencing! Precisely!!! It truly IS hell. How are you doing now? This video has helped me to know I am not alone or unique. Thank You!

[@brandonashley2831]

Definitely not alone! It is truly hell but it does get better eventually. I hope you're doing better!

[@nicholaswilliams8470]

I know this is my future. Because I've been there once already but couldn't handle it so reinstated to get my life back. Im praying for this man 😢🙏🙏

[@lorimoore5182]

Bless you and praying for You! I feel the same way and can't get away from it......

[@MonacoRocha]

How are you doing these days Friend....hope you recovered...!

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

Improving, day by day. Not 100% but much better. I hope that you’re doing well my friend.

[@stardustring]

Oh dear Jehovah God. Help us. Help us.

[@meb8743]

Yep. This is the reality of it. A lot of us haven't left our houses for months. Hell. How are you doing now??? I hope you're better! Please give us an update. Wishing you well. xxx

[@shobieiqbal9574]

Be strong my brother, I know this feeling. It's the worse. Dont give up. Tell yourself I can get over this. Trust me in time you will recover and get threw this.

[@Hitit123]

Hey bud I'm down to 0.125 mg of Klonopin and feeling everything your "Currently feeling". I would gladly try "IV infused Ketamine", right now however unfortunately it has an extremely low success rate for those currently taking Benzos👎. I'm also doing "MHBOT", daily for 1 hour a day.. it's a slow process! My friend beat both "Chronic Lyme", and "Klonopin W/D", via MHBOT and is now 100 % HEALED! She was homebound for 5 years and extremely sick for 8 years. Stay in touch brother.. I'm going through this hell right along side you. BTW you're extremely BRAVE to post a video of yourself when you're in this much pain👍👊. Please don't forget we have both men and women who served their respective countries who were 110% agoraphobic at their worst...that says allot!

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

R C 🙏🏼✊🏼

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

R C how are you doing and feeling? I just wanted to check in on you. You’re not alone. ✌🏼

[@Hitit123]

Hey bud I'm down to 0.625 mg of Klonopin before "Jumping"! I'm going to try to hold for another month or so before jumping! I trust your on your feet both "Jabbing and ducking" until the final round! Hang in there brother and keep swinging!

[@02mb]

Brandon, I sincerely hope you're doing better these days. Having been through this drug and these thoughts because of it, I identified with everything you were going through immediately. As others have noted, you are not alone, and ending your one-sided relationship with Klonopin will be the best thing you can do for your own good. I stopped taking it immediately when one night I wrote those thoughts down on a whiteboard and then saw them the next morning. Ending it is not the answer. The old you never wanted to die. This new you deserves to acknowledge that fact, stand up for yourself and do something about it. It is not easy, but you must find a way. Future you will thank yourself, and you will know that every day above ground is both a good day, and a gift. We wish you nothing but the best in your recovery.

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

I come back here to read your comment when I’m feeling kicked. Future me did thank the older me. Well said Michael. Thank you.

[@lovewenwin]

It's called akathisia and its torture

[@screwstontx480]

I was hooked for years and it’s been 35 months clean the withdrawals suck your body as to adapt to normal functions again you’ll make it thru brother stay strong I hear cbd helps anxiety but never tried it

[@tranc3addictedsweden]

I am 12 months out now. Life is hard. I hate every second and it sure is hell all the time. But I feel better than I did for 12 months ago. I had about 100 different sxs and is now dealing with dr/dp, electric shock thru my whole body abd dizziness. It is hard but my suicidal thoughts are not there all the time like they used to be. I want surrender or give up and let benzo win this war. I am a fighter and had beat 12 months now. I am not as depressed like I used to be either. It will be better.

[@hollylockman9363]

Camilla Silfverling are you better? I’m dealing with intense dp/dr feelings.

[@tonylouis9915]

Camilla you are Beautiful and i am So Happy you are doing better and getting threw it Yo !!!! KEep it up hun :-) .... Tony From NYC :-)

[@smallhouseinthemeadow6131]

Are you okay now? For anyone out here feeling this...Suicide doesn't make it better for the people left behind.It destroys them. My 21 year old nephew took his life and I am still affected five years later. In her grief, my sister drank herself to death too and my cousin did an assisted suicide for MS. Withdrawal goes away eventually and we all have to cling to that. I am going through withdrawals right now and get so easily stimulated from even talking on the phone too long,and cry for no reason .I have waves of panic and am sensitive to everything...But I have faith it won't be forever.

[@1963Hano]

Hold on my friend, i was on Klonopin for 5 years (15mg a day) I stopped in 2014. There were many days like i see you now. Hundreds. It took me 3 years and then i was finally done with it. Withdrawal from Klonopin is a fight with the devil himself. And even after stopping it takes months. But if you win this fight you will be stronger then the devil. There is nothing that can hurt me anymore. I am happy now but i lost everything i owned and loved.

[@rossrogers8892]

1963Hano 15mg a day? Like seriously? I’m on 8mg and I’m scared

[@timdarr8008]

I will start off by saying what you are going through is a normal withdrawal off of benzodiazepine type medications. Ativan, Alprazolam, Clonazepam & Diazepam are just a few of the anti anxiety type medications that are prescribed to patients. I understand what hell you are going through because I have been there. I take pain and antidepressant type medications to manage my neuropathy in my right leg caused by RSD/ CRPS. It is hell trying to taper down or back off due to the terrible withdrawals that will be felt. Benzodiazepine withdrawal is 10x worse then opiate cessation any day. I watched a patient go through this for almost three weeks.... most opiate withdrawal lasts approximately 3 to 7 days. I do hope you are doing better and that your doctor could help you get through this horrific ordeal my friend.

[@strider1237]

Started tapering after 10 years. First week in and I’ve never felt anything like this. The countless symptoms, insomnia, terror, feeling of being trapped. How is it even possible to get through this??? I hope you’re doing better.

[@honeysuckle8585]

I'm down to 1/10 my original dose after 2 years of tapering, 13 years on K... Some things that have helped is naming the symptoms- I get a lot of DPDR, rebound panic, headaches, cut too much and the ground is moving, inner vibrations. What I've found is using a jewelers scale to cut micro amounts and to hold when the symptoms are intolerable to a point where I'd lose my job etc if I cut any more. In the beginning at 2 mg K I made .25 cuts and held a couple months each time, after 1 mg I cut .125 every month, had to hold a year at .5 due to severe life stress that wasn't due to tapering (I don't advise this) and then I cut .125 again, had to hold a while because of severe withdrawal symptoms and ever since .375 I've been on a micro taper where I'm cutting .01-.05 when I can tolerate it. I'm down to 0.19 as of yesterday. I still get withdrawal symptoms, I've accepted the tinnitus and a bit of dissociation is just something I have to soldier through. High dose CBD has helped me quite a bit with some of the tremors and other neurologic symptoms. Best of luck.

[@honeysuckle8585]

I'm down to 1/10 my original dose after 2 years of tapering, 13 years on K... Some things that have helped is naming the symptoms- I get a lot of DPDR, rebound panic, headaches, cut too much and the ground is moving, inner vibrations. What I've found is using a jewelers scale to cut micro amounts and to hold when the symptoms are intolerable to a point where I'd lose my job etc if I cut any more. In the beginning at 2 mg K I made .25 cuts and held a couple months each time, after 1 mg I cut .125 every month, had to hold a year at .5 due to severe life stress that wasn't due to tapering (I don't advise this) and then I cut .125 again, had to hold a while because of severe withdrawal symptoms and ever since .375 I've been on a micro taper where I'm cutting .01-.05 when I can tolerate it. I'm down to 0.19 as of yesterday. I still get withdrawal symptoms, I've accepted the tinnitus and a bit of dissociation is just something I have to soldier through. High dose CBD has helped me quite a bit with some of the tremors and other neurologic symptoms. Best of luck.

[@honeysuckle8585]

It has also helped me to concentrate all my work into 3-4 days a week so that I have a nice 3-4 day buffer zone for each dosage drop to get through the worst of acute symptoms.

[@brucemccarty196]

I’m so sorry to see you suffer. I go through this everyday. I am still tapering. I’m on my third attempt and I to think of suicide.I even have a plan worked out.But that is not my call.I think the brain is letting us know there is a way out but the heart tells us we want live .Not only for us but also for ones we love even they don’t get it.Regarding suicide I’ll make you a deal, if you don’t I won’t

[@tygreen8831]

Sorry hope you get better soon I feel like that sometimes its a shame that we have no where to go for this but they have rehabs for everything but this how is it possible. I think these medications are meant too do this to us and doctors and the big companies don't care they are making tons of money.

[@jeremyhudson129]

I pray u finally got past this turmoil.

[@jredenfield]

Dude. I know EXACTLY what you mean...I didn't use drugs or alcohol, didn't inject heroine, nothing...this ISN'T YOU! You're beyond strong and beyond a warrior! I stand with you! I went through extremely emotional instability due to heavy metal toxicity and mold exposure, and confections, misdiagnosis...always trying to keep myself afloat... Then BOOM...doped on pills, couldn't stop it, pushed people away that I love, couldn't figure out how to make it stop and how to regain any type of center - and you're looked at as crazy, unstable, shunned, ostracized, etc. It's beyond devastating...and I envy anyone who isn't in this hell...

[@brandonashley2831]

Thanks! He's doing much better and I hope you are too. The entire experience is beyond crazy!

[@alanawrightson3592]

I’m in my third week of withdrawal.. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I hope you got clean and you’re on the road to recovery. It’s a few weeks of pain for a lifetime of happiness. Hope everything turned out like it was supposed to 🙏🏻

[@THXx1138]

Weeks? Um, it's more like years.

[@brettmitchell8014]

The only thing that makes you feel better is time. You can do it, I did. Much love from Texas.

[@jasonedenfield7189]

You're such a warrior!

[@maevebathory666]

this is me right now and i am totally alone and everyone has abandoned me. the only reason i am alive , is bc im not dead yet. i will not let big pharma win. and i am still tapering from .5 then eventually 6 mg a day.. now down to 2.75 and having tolerence withdrawl. i have pushed thruough 7 dats now and . i have been thru it before. but .. i keep thinking. ill taper down when i can handle it.. bc even tge 2.75 was barely helping. n now , yes, tge hardest part is being so alone having no one to even talk on phone to or help make food. i crswl to the kitcyen n sream n seize up n all that horrible stuff and force feed myself. but i swear , the heartbreak ALONE , from those whom are capaple , and able but not willing , to even sit in another room.or stay a weekend or 1 night or call n ask how i am. it is gut wrenching heartbreak and i swear, bc i have been thru withdraw with support... amd omg... when i had a loving bf at one time during a tolerence withdraw, he was with me through it for a month. took off work. ect. n jus having anither human in person with you, and then human contact... i was able to come down much faster. so even a friend who will stop by . or jus check in. bc it is deadly and scary. and a caretaker can make a world of a diff. im very scared im jus gnna die. 😢😢😢😢💔

[@brandonashley2831]

I'm so sorry you don't have anyone with you to support you through this Maeve. That must be really, really hard. Please, look around online because there are a lot of communities out there you can join to be in touch with people who can relate. Check Benzo Buddies to start and go from there. You'll find people who understand and can build you up and encourage you through this. I know you feel alone but you're not, there are a lot of people out there who have been in your shoes.

[@jiggajigjones8210]

Maeve Larison hope you are well.

[@THXx1138]

@Maeve - sweetheart please keep in touch with us. We are your support thru this - we are your family as we truly understand thru our own personal experiences. This is an extremely difficult chapter in our lives but we get thru it. Let us help you and support you and your journey can also be a help to another who is just behind you on their own road to wellness. I will look for you. I am titrating off of Restoril from 30mg to 13mg currently. I have about 4 months to go yet but I just try to accept the moment I am currently in. 3 years of this for me and it is very gradually easing a bit. Keep going. Healing happens. Hugs ((()))

[@michelevarano977]

How are you ? ❤️

[@dainaburk8204]

Michele Varano 💀

[@rosieborsellino703]

I hope your getting better my friend oh man watching this is killing me because I know exactly how you're feeling and it sucks I understand that but I'd I promise you just keep pushing through like the rest of us you got this I know it seems like it's never going to end but it will you're going to have a normal life, you're going to come out of this so strong and content right now the courage you have to make this video thank you it's helping so many people and showing how people how awful, mentally physically and emotionally crippling how painful this medication is it is it's like something like you're coming down off a bad case of ecstasy and acid in your just constantly like tripping out with anxiety attacks and it fucked.... Thanks for your courage to make this video it's going to help so many people in Jesus Christ God's name bless you I pray that you're getting better you got this man don't give up I promised Jesus Christ God's Got Your Back amen

[@BrandonBreaksRecords]

❤️ ✌🏻 🙏🏻

[@kerrybearzoavs196]

I feel you pain buddy I am with I have been there and still there brother you made me cry

[@Blakebyrd003]

The part where he said “where your the source to everyone’s problem “

[@paulosmacleon997]

I don't believe I can beat it either, but I believe The Good Lord can. I'm suffering every day and trying to taper off. Severe chest pains, not wanting to get out of bed, pain in my head, legs, arms, anxiety, panic attacks, fears, worry, dizziness, loss of appetite, migraines, tremors, spasms, irritable, desensitization, and on and on! I'm scared truthfully. All I can do is trust God Almighty 🙏 I did it to myself and he will get me through this. I only hope quicker!

[@lauriina85]

Did you feel like your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing and normal life at all?

[@paulosmacleon997]

@@lauriina85 from time to time yes absolutely

[@lauriina85]

@@paulosmacleon997 Thank you for answering. I have it every minute of the day. I don't understand even TV commercials. My brain is just telling how can people do normal daily things. Fear I have something permanent wrong. Mri was fine. And I know this started when I had benzos and tapering too fast. And since that one time stabilizing with having first time crossovered to valium and after few good weeks taper went too fast and nothing has helped. Hope you are ok now.

[@katrinamenzies9398]

Feel your pain