Realistic Schizophrenic Simulation

Listen with headphones for best effect. I find the accuracy of schizophrenia, bipolar and psychosis simulations on the internet not nearly up to scratch, so as someone who suffers from schizophrenic bipolar I decided to edit from first hand experience. I went off medication until I was in that state that I had an accurate reference to work with. I hope to make it as accurate as possible for a 'normal' person to get a sense of how horrible this illness is. It is a living hell. Please share with everyone who misunderstands or judges mental illness. The stigma must stop.

[@destinyariahburris6850]

This is the only video I have watched that I can personally relate to in my experiences! The editing is spot on! Thank you for bringing awareness to the subject.

[@TheVanmeijer]

I am relieved to hear that! The suffering is real! I hope you and me both find lasting relief from this terror.

[@extraordinarytv5451]

Agreed, most of them are vast understatements that if anything make it seem easy. Although this is kinda lower level still its atleast realistic and not an understatement of a normal day.

[@winkleberrygang]

Thank you. As an outsider, this is so valuable to hear an insiders perspective. Sorry if this is weird to ask but do you have OCD? do you think it's common for people with schizophrenia to have OCD? I'm just really curious about the relationship between the two right now

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@winkleberrygang Everyones brains are different. I personally don’t have official OCD, but often have the feeling of adjusting out of line objects or seeing patterns or having the need to align my eyes to look at light or objects that they seem more parallel, but often official OCD suffers are extreme clean freaks and need everything perfect and ‘vacuum packed’ or it disturbs them even so much that they can’t move forward until everything is perfect as they need it to be. Usually my room is a mess and I hate showering, which is typical symptoms to psychosis/ schizophrenia. So there are slight overlaps of different symptoms but often you only get one diagnosis that adequately encompasses the whole. Also you can have OCD without having any audio/ visual distortions/ hallucinations.

[@Darealanimator]

I’m a introverted autistic highly intelligent at reading girl schizophrenic is scary and def more worse I’m sorry it all to me I know it’s demons they lie get in your head but They know Jesus is a powerful religion and if you say rebuke them they’ll go away and the Bible says not to think about them but for this it can take a long time to go away but stay strong you got this their weak your not❤

[@_frogerino]

i also find the visual distortions very accurate too. the way they are nearly reality but not quite. the mind focusing in on really random moments, making them feel really important and relevant. especially facial expressions. very well done.

[@extraordinarytv5451]

PARTICULARLY the way they are nearly reality. This is something many miss atleast to me. They either sensationalize it and overdo it or make it seem like just a bad panic/anxiety attack. They miss the large colorful hell faces taking up the entire ceiling faded in half way between our world and there's (I hope I'm not triggering you just expressing my experiences) or the swarms that poke and prod at any exposed skin as well as the more basic things like it's more minor effects even in good times when people can't tell when the people who are fortunate enough to sometimes pass for normal are able to pass for normal.

[@alarmlessRifleman]

Visual distortions are a very important symptom to acknowledge. My mate Sully who lives with schizophrenia his whole life hates looking people in the eyes, because the longer he looks at someone's face, the more it distorts and contorts until it's an incomprehensible writhing mess. It's his most persistent visual hallucination.

[@stairwaygoddess]

I didn't know this. That sounds so terrible to experience. :(

[@bonechimesquad]

I think I might be getting into initial stage of psychosis caused by substance abuse and stress from work. I sometimes have "images" pop up in my mind's eye, as if imaginative pictures, but more vivid, uncontrollable and sudden in such way, that they somewhat shock me and overlap the reality. As if a piece of dream world intrudes you mind. Recently I had some kind of "vague entity" enter my mind's eye: it was not human, but definitely antropomorphic, somewhat ethereal and very vague, that I couldn't make out what it is, only a blurred outline. It was doing some sort repetitive motion, as if a dance, and it felt like it was trying to "attack" my mind in such a way. And producing a sound, like a mantra, or a song, but in a way it resembled human speech, as if there were "words". Initially I ignored it, but eventually I noticed that even though it was a vague blur in my mind's eye, I couldn't shake it off and it started to interfere with my ability to think straight and I started to zone out and needed to separate myself from people around me for a moment. Gratefully, it had passed after 15 minutes, but It was an entry point for me to quit weed. Now I understand that it was possibly a mild psychotic experience and now I understand how difficult it is for people who have it to describe what it is.

[@TheVanmeijer]

I’m not sure if you are in any way spiritual. But I know for a fact that drugs and also psychosis opens doors into the spiritual world. In the ancient times those who were born or developed psychosis were trained and used as the seers of the villages to interpret and give information on ‘the world beyond’ also people for all the ages used drugs, especially hallucigenics to access spiritual sight and experience. If you aren’t prepared for it it becomes very dangerous. People don’t understand what they dabble with when using drugs. The only lasting way of keeping your soul safe and escaping hell is through Jesus Christ. I can fully testify to that. Any other form of spiritual deliverance won’t help you much. I strongly suggest to pray and receive Jesus. It is clearly a demon who has infiltrated you and speaking curses over you. But the moment you come under the power and healing of Christ you have nothing to fear. ;)

[@TheVanmeijer]

Oh and if it becomes worse and affect your life medication can also help to bring stability. For those with chronic conditions of constant chemical imbalance that is disabling I don’t see anything wrong with taking counter chemical medication.

[@JesseTheCatLover]

Omy I had pretty similar experience when I used to work so hard over long periods and all the stress and anxiety was causing me to experience mild hallucinations and making my very mild bipolar more intense

[@Rrrrrrr608]

That speech one felt personal though..

[@georgescdoodle]

I can relate to your experience. After daily use and commitment to using spiritual interpretation as way to cope with life, I ended up making a ton of misguided decisions and formed multiple addictive behaviors. This video reminds me of the visual distortions that would occur when I first dabbled in thc but very soon stabilized after continued use. Now 3 months sober I feel i understand myself better. Withdrawing sucks and sometimes i still wish for the bodily relaxation of a hit but nothing is worth more to me now than my sanity. I hope you're doing well these days and you keep your peace.

[@ghostinng274]

I've never had it this bad...if this is truly what you go through, i hope youre better now. That's kinda freaky.

[@TheVanmeijer]

It is when I’m off meds. With meds it is better.

[@brenoricardo1450]

I didn't believe in this video, but since many people in the comment section are saying that it is accurate then I believe, and wow, that sounds really an estrange experience. I am very sad for the people who have such disease...

[@AdriannaContreras]

Thank you so much for educating us. This video is exceptional.

[@dankamerican5711]

Idk if this is relevant but a quarter of my lsd trips were like this, very eerie

[@earthschool7846]

Wow.... thats exactly what I experience having schizophrenia. Very realistic simulation. Thank you

[@godsentjesustosetusallfree9859]

Thank you for sharing this!

[@LiillyMiilly]

imagine bro , like wtf its crazy not to know whaaaaaat people might suffer from.so sad but weird too.. thats alienish

[@Hexnilium]

This is a bit if not very much similar to psychoactive substances from deliriants to psychedelics.

[@TheVanmeijer]

Now imagine being in that state permanently. I need to take “drugs” (medication) to not be “high”

[@Hexnilium]

@@TheVanmeijer I'm very sorry this is how your life experience is for you. I hope that you are able to cope and that the pharmaceuticals work to manage your symptoms. Even just a prolonged state like this would be terrifying, but to live permanently here would be tantamount to torture. I wish you the best in your life!

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@HexniliumThank you very much. Much appreciated. It is very much stigmatised and misunderstood because from the outside there is apparently nothing wrong with the sufferer, so it makes work and everyday life very difficult, but I was able to push through and hold jobs in the past, just not as easy and the expectations are to perform the same as ‘neurotypical’ people. But the trippiness does increase perspective and creativity. 😂 Please help being part of spreading awareness and understanding. 😉

[@Saint.questions]

Couldn't tell the ringing wasn't mine for a sec 😅

[@Saint.questions]

How did you make it?

[@MyGreenPathway]

Thank you for uploading this video. I’m newly trying to understand my daughter’s mental state. None of her previous therapists detected her symptoms correctly.

[@TheVanmeijer]

It is hard to explain it to those who have never experienced it… Even Psyciatrists… Often they can “put it in a box” and judge it according to their medical studies but never truly understand it. But the variety of psychosis experiences and symptoms can vary between each individual person.

[@damienarif1248]

The ringing sound in the ears is so damn accurate

[@TheVanmeijer]

That is a relief to hear. I was a bit scared that I overdid it…

[@_frogerino]

i agree

[@AD-lc8pw]

So I'm schezophrenic and I didn't even know.

[@_frogerino]

@@AD-lc8pw everyone experience is different :)

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@AD-lc8pw If you do experience these symptoms then I sympathise with you. Are you coping though? Can you handle a job or take on responsibilities?

[@OS-bs9ky]

make a video about cognitive issues as well. It would interest everyone, I'm sure.

[@WanderingWayfinderLibrarian]

Exactly!! Is like a visual element memory allocation error! You know what was happening but then it comes back all wibbly!

[@sunny_pretzel9927]

Whoa… I never knew that schizophrenia was like that.

[@disassembly4147]

this is very strange, all the weird sounds i only realized they happened once they're over and something seems off about the video

[@queer5052]

ya think

[@christopherleubner6633]

Yup the high frequency sounds and frame dragging are pretty accurate 😮

[@Shorts-ru8jt]

Hey bro i do think all these symptoms occur in every human being , i get the impression the condition exaggerates them even more . Like the voices telling you things isit your own voice of course its your brain changing it . We all talk to ourselves in our head sometimes negative sometimes weird sometimes anger etc noises we all do that too can be subtle can be a whisper thinking someone has said something . We all also become laxadaisicals and day dream to the point things slow down for a second . We all want to look and feel good and care what othwrs think its ego . I have a question the voices you hear are they your own or some random voice your have neve heard also can you mimic the exact voice if somebody asked you to? Im just interested aha hope tnings are well thanks

[@TheVanmeijer]

The difference between suffering from psychosis and having natural negative feelings and thoughts are night and day difference. Psychosis is so overwhelming that you stop being able to function in normal society and you detach from reality. Yes everyone can experience some form of paranoia or feel down now and again some days. But Psychosis is like taking an hallucinogenic drug and having a very bad trip. It definitely isn’t normal… But most people may have a psychotic experience once or twice in their lives, usually when they go through an extreme experience like death in the family, divorce or break up, physical or emotional abuse etc. But like me, some people have it chronically and the brain tells you that you are going through that experience every moment of every day regardless of your actual experience because of chemical imbalance in the brain. I doubt most people experience exactly what happens in this video. If this is exactly how you see and hear things then it isn’t normal. Often we hear our own thoughts or ideas that can either lift us up or break us down. I believe in the spiritual world though and Jesus has helped me cope, and often negative thoughts that comes from outside of us can be satan or demons trying to break us down, but God can also speak to us through many ways. Also the area you live or work in can largely affect your spiritual and emotional state, because some areas have more demonic strongholds or Godly atmosphere… Usually when I leave the city and go to the country side I feel great relief, not sure if you can relate and also the voices are less, it also goes with country to country. Different feeling and different influence… There are usually 3 voices, God, satan or yourself, but with psychosis you hear all kinds extra delusional voices that simply does not exist telling you absurd realities, like you start believing trees can walk and you need to rip them out to liberate them from being trapped in the ground and you get so obsessed with it that you start telling everyone about it and even start blogs and fund raising campaigns to “liberate the trees” - It is more than just conspiracy theorists or cults where sane people are brainwashed. Psychosis is a mental illness, not a mental state or belief system. You can’t simply change your mindset to heal your mind, you need chemical help and a healthy lifestyle. Even eating wrong can trigger bad effects. Also long term unhealthy life styles and eating McDonalds every day with no exercise can cause severe mental illness, but most people can return to “normal” when they change it because their normal state is a healthy mind, unlike me who was born with mental illness. Basically I need a physical change in my brain to get healed. I believe God can heal me, but the medical world says it can’t be cured and they actually have no real idea what it is. It is stigmatised by the religious, general society and even doctors and scientists… They actually don’t feel comfortable with trying to understand it and tend to explain it away or just medicate it away that it stops bothering them…

[@francozaragozavaladez293]

Average dextromethorphan + Benadryl experience

[@daniel70848]

Eso no es la post imagen? Yo veo asi los rostros por momentos

[@ppgunnafan7649]

I hate when my psychosis kicks in in the middle of Slytherin territory

[@angelwingzzz777]

Thank you for this 🙏 I'm trying to understand what it's like for my bf. This looks correct. 🙏❤️

[@TheVanmeijer]

Thank you. That is my purpose for this video, to make people understand and relate with the hell experience this terror is. Show him as much love, grace and understanding as possible and don’t stop. I am also blessed to have gotten a wife who is also very understanding and supportive. She also went through psychosis for a short period. People who haven’t experienced it themselves can never truly understand this horror. I am happy to serve and bring awareness. Please share it far and wide.

[@AadiSZN]

we need more people like you. i understand that living with your bf may occasionally become difficult, but i assure you that this isn't his fault. rather it's cus of his mental illness. i hope you help him in his difficult moments and let him know that he isn't alone 😁

[@patriciac.a.1614]

does it have moments that it gets better or worse? or is it the same way all day long everyday? does your emotional states afects it? like if you are feeling worse emotionaly does the visual and sound symptoms gets worse too?

[@TheVanmeijer]

Being on medication takes it away about 80% but it is always there in some way and with this comes crippling emotions. This video represents when off medication for about 3 days. It gets worse the longer I am off meds. The visual distortion and voices I can handle, but the emotions are unbearable. And yes your mindset definately can have a big impact on how better or worse it can be, but just using mindfulness or positive thinking won't help that much.

[@emotivelyy_]

I don't think I have schizophrenia because I am not diagnosed, buf this is like what I experience but I experience it less severe

[@TheVanmeijer]

You might have mild psychosis. It will be a good idea to see someone about it… Life can be much better.

[@imjaylon8375]

It’s crazy I thought it was just my mind capturing pictures to remember. Nice to know I’m not the only one

[@rinis9452]

I've the same prb when i tell my parents they're jst joking around and telling me m so dramatic help how to get ride of the voicrs

[@TheVanmeijer]

That really sucks that the world and family and church end even the medical world doesn’t really understand what we go through and stigmatise it. I have found great help in Faith in Jesus, also listening to ‘healing frequencies’ on youtube, psychiatric drugs is vital and probably makes the biggest difference, but is has to be properly diagnosed and given the exact right medication, but what helps also greatly is people who understand and show love to you. I hope this helps.

[@kanashimi7274]

sorry for you i hope you found a way to get medicated / are in a better environment

[@OS-bs9ky]

It's metomorphopsia - kind of visal distortion. I think it more typical for a head traumas espesially of the temporal area, it is not first rank symptom of schizophrenia anyway.

[@TheVanmeijer]

It can also be a consequence of head trauma yes. My friend had head trauma at a young age and has many similar symptoms to other mental illnesses. But this is psychosis symptoms and I never had head trauma. Any negative effect, chemical or physical can have many overlapping symptoms to the brain. A primary symptom of Schizophrenia is very much audio/visual hallucinations. As mentioned in the video, I edited as accurate as possible the effects experienced while off medication.

[@OS-bs9ky]

weird, i get similar type of the visual distortions/hallucinations, but I thought it is somehow related to my early childhood temporal trauma . Sometimes, a flashing lights of a cars passing by triggers them. By the way, do you also partially lose awareness during these moments ? @@TheVanmeijer

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@OS-bs9ky I don’t really lose awareness. But yes perhaps your post head trauma has caused similar symptoms. I don’t think you need to worry about that you might have schizophrenia. Head trauma symptoms have similarities. It is best to stick to what your psychiatrist says or advises. I have learned that lesson the hard way by going off medication or making my own diagnosis. Psychiatrists studied the brain in depth, so best to get advise from them. Head trauma can be worse and can lead to worse damage to the brain if you go off medication.

[@pilot3016]

Wow! I had no idea.

[@davidpaez8892]

This looks like an acid trip. I don’t have schizophrenia but I’ve done acid many times and this looks like a mild acid trip. Ofc it must be horrible if it can just suddenly happen to you out of nowhere

[@TheVanmeijer]

Yeah. It is basically like being on a permanent acid trip. Wish sometimes I can milk the chemicals out of my brain and sell them to junkies. Would have been a millionaire by now. Ironically I need to take ‘drugs’ to not ‘be on drugs’

[@davidpaez8892]

I’m sorry this has happened to you. Is your medication effective and can you have a regular life under it? I’m genuinely curious

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@davidpaez8892 I edited the video while off meds to get a more accurate depiction of what I actually go through. Like editing it ‘Live’ - at least I can do editing while off meds, 😂but holding a job and working under pressure is almost impossible, even with meds… I have just been coping kind of, with a lot of support. I had a video editing job which I scraped through without people even being aware of what I go through, but it collapsed after I went off meds, haven’t had anything official since then. Hoping to kick off my KZbin channel properly.

[@mfmusicproduction6393]

Upload a video on self talking schizophrenia problem.

[@TheVanmeijer]

This video is the physical manifestations that goes along with psychosis. The common misconception is that the sufferer hears ‘self talk’ attacks. But negative self talk is common amongst most people, not a specific symptom of psychosis or schizophrenia. Ofcourse negative thoughts can be more common with mentally ill people and only makes it worse, but that isn’t psychosis. I specifically did not relate with the other videos on youtube that ingrains this concept of psychosis/ schizophrenia amongst people. In this video you can hear a strange mocking voice at the end. Those are more the audio hallucinations that goes along with it. Usually thé suffer can not really figure out what they hear and have negative thoughts on ‘Is that really what I heard?’. That increases the anxiety.

[@Justlikemagic96]

So what is exactly happening here? Visual hallucinations? Afterimages? What is the symptom?

[@TheVanmeijer]

That is the same question that many have who experience this. What is happening here is simply what it is. What you see and hear. Listen to it with earphones to hear the different levels and movement of sound. It is mostly visual and audio hallucinations. Unfortunately I can’t make the viewers experience the emotional anguish that goes along with this experience.

[@TheVanmeijer]

It is basically a first hand expression of experiencing psychosis.

[@ForsakenSandpaper]

It's honestly look like your motherboard have some broken parts and working with issues.

[@Bela-134]

Strange how it’s different from delusional disorder, yet I still hear voices in my head!

[@Reece-Mincher3601]

Everyone hears voices

[@koalaplays8855]

@@Reece-Mincher3601what? No people don’t hear voices they can’t control inside their heads that’s not normal where are you getting that?

[@Reece-Mincher3601]

@koalaplays8855 Simply a leftover artefact of human consciousness, and if you actually talked to people you'd soon find that it is much less rare than one may think.. and yes, everyone hears voices, whether it be the TV on in the background, a voicemail from your late grandma, or imagining how you think a person would sound like through only text; in fact it is abnormal to NOT hear voices, hope that helps ☺️

[@koalaplays8855]

@@Reece-Mincher3601 read my comment again before you reply, it’s actually weird you don’t read comments before replying, i said quote: “people don’t hear voices in their head they can’t control” obviously anyone can play a voice in there head but it’s controlled, and even then, when you imagine a voice it’s kinda toned down in the mind, when it comes to hallucinations it’s clear as day voices

[@Reece-Mincher3601]

@koalaplays8855 That's ultimately subjective, is it not? Everyone and their mum get intrusive thoughts

[@koalaplays8855]

Can you stop with the ringing sound? Are you trying to pop a hole in my ear drum?

[@GlazedInfants]

amazing. what country is this?

[@TheVanmeijer]

Cape Town, South Africa

[@bibifatima3479]

Idk but i cannot see people face expressions well but when iam outside i feel like people are hating on me and disrespectful to me they are invading my personal space and i cant recognize their expressions well like o only see as if they are all angry and wana fight with me peole in ky mind humilate me tell me to die or people would kill you out of hatred thinking that police would come to my home and take me with them think that i would be raped or i think that people like me cuz iam attractive or i think i dont deserve anything in the world . People are talking to me when iam home i have the urge to talk to my imagenry frnds sometimes they insult me badmouth ing and i cry alot . Cant think about success if i think about success voices in my head says that you will be killed .. or you arent worth of getting success

[@TheVanmeijer]

I feel for you… I know what you are going through. You are worthy as a person and worthy off success and love. The world is a messed up place and you shouldn’t allow that to break you down. ♥️ Keep holding on. My faith in Jesus has been the greatest foundation in my life. My identity is in Him and not in what people think of me. I pray and hope you find permanent relief from your suffering. ❤️

[@sscottstewart-xr3im]

Are you prescribed any meds?

[@TheVanmeijer]

Yes.

[@sscottstewart-xr3im]

@@TheVanmeijer Thank you for putting your simulation online. It is important for people to be able to gain insight into a terrible illness. You have done a very good thing. Thanks.

[@CH-rs6yt]

I was like this when I was a child but it like faster at 1.25x you feel like you are fxcking slow! and the people around you are moving very fast.

[@r3alityisnotreal]

One thats actually pretty accurate

[@carpballet]

Is this to gain sympathy? Or help create empathy?

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@carpballet Read the description. It is to educate mostly and bring awareness.

[@melao9242]

I would be so scared

[@mihanich]

What city is this?

[@TheVanmeijer]

Cape Town

[@OlDefiantBlue]

When people are trying to misdiagnose you They will use videos on KZbin or other social media and bait you with materials they think you will agree with But they will include the ringing affects and other symptoms But will try to put a positive spin on these symptoms they would like you to agree with This will help them trick you into agreeing with the misdiagnosing process 😂

[@Intuitive1]

It’s kind of like their brain is taking distorted screenshots.

[@TheVanmeijer]

Interesting observation. It is in a way a kind of short circuit in the brain, as the brain is full of electricity… But the images taken is often faces and distorted body language that causes immense emotional chaos in the person struggling with psychosis. The audio visual hallucinations is only the surface. It is the emotions that go with it that feels like you are being tormented in hell…

[@Intuitive1]

@@TheVanmeijer I see. Thank you for that explanation. Very interesting how the brain perceives the messages. Is there a way to work with each part of the brain one at a time, in order to help the patients to take messages and emotions in, in a somewhat more soothing manner? I don’t know how to put this in words. Such as, voices, the part of the brain that expresses voices, could that be worked on separately?

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@Intuitive1 I mean I have tried just in my own mind to try and separate and focus on separate things but that only ends up taking me down another rabbithole of chaos. If you try very hard to find a sense of sanity through meditation or focus it is like your mind slips from the pressure and you end up where you started. Like digging out of a hole only to find yourself back in a hole. Medication alleviates the symptoms and keep you ‘sane’ to an extent that you can to a degree function in society, but it is still an uphill battle. The brain is one unit, if one part is focused on it influences the rest. Many people who can’t afford medication tends to become alcoholics or use other substances, many also find relief in religion and a large percentage of people suffering from this ends up committing suicide.

[@Intuitive1]

@@TheVanmeijer I am so, very sorry. I understand more now. One rabbit hole to another, this is very heartbreaking. I’m beginning to see where the instilled fear develops from. This must be so frustrating. I’m bipolar and the meds can only do so much for people like myself too. Can I ask, is this diagnosis due to trauma, being born with it or is it possible for both please? Someone that I know who experiences episodes was just diagnosed with schizophrenia. A handful of us are trying to understand what exactly is happening to him. I’ve been researching but, your explanation is crystal clear and I thank you 🙏 for that. Much love and strength and I will be following.

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@Intuitive1 It is often a condition that is genetic, (as in my case) but there are cases where it is triggered by a traumatic event or even from substance abuse, especially taking hallucigenics (shrooms, acid, etc) or smoking weed. Naturally if it is genetic the symptoms start to form between the ages of 17 and 25 and then stays for life. That is what scientists say anyway… It developed in me at age 22, but I was born with Torrettes syndrome and the symptoms for that already showed at age 2.

[@michaelabney3486]

Almost like its not hallucinations from nothing but a short circuit in how perception is recieved. Im not schizophrenic so i can say but just my observation from my perspective.

[@TheVanmeijer]

Very accurate analysis. The mind might make connections with distorted visuals and sounds to connect to memory of things seen or heard that can trigger very scary imaginations. Something never comes from nothing. But if you listen very carefully to the layers of sound you can hear whispering and often the sufferer thinks they hear the thoughts of everyone around them and their distorted faces makes reading body language practically impossible and leads to them thinking everyone around them are evil and out to get them…

[@Mexicano1768]

its like a bad acid trip

[@TheVanmeijer]

Exactly as I often describe it. But for people who never used drugs it is almost impossible to understand. I personally never used acid or shrooms, but after research it is probably the closest way to give description. If I ever do take any of those hallucinogenics I am afraid the effect would be permanent. If only I could extract the natural hallucinogenic excretion in my brain I would make a killing! $$$

[@Mexicano1768]

@@TheVanmeijer I've done shrooms. Start small, dont pop 3 acid tabs or take 2 caps, just start hella soft. At least with mushrooms, it's not permanent...everything is just funny asf 🤣🤣

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@Mexicano1768 yes. Sure for a neurotypical brain shrooms is ok, but I have chronic psychosis. I am naturally on “shrooms” all the time. My brain is naturally in that state. I have to take medication to keep me out of “tripping”. So for me shrooms is very dangerous. Everyone have different brains… 🧠

[@Mexicano1768]

@@TheVanmeijer 😭

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@Mexicano1768 Thanks for your sympathy.

[@Golanash]

I don’t get it …. That’s how you’d see too? :|

[@erickawoodring6748]

No that’s accurate I hallucinate everyday it can be a lot more visual as well

[@davaronas686]

0:30 bro is just reminiscing playing morrowind in his head leave him alone

[@savoirancien4093]

Ok i'm not Schizophrenic then

[@LOPHEXX]

For me I hear voices and see weird faces.

[@kasiabuczek4480]

real

[@NackSkott99]

Lsd eternal loop

[@nielsbal3385]

For you

[@Tokyo_Kawaiii]

Is this in south africa? Lol

[@TheVanmeijer]

Yes. I shot it myself in Cape Town. Basically recreated my experience at that time of recording.

[@LoraleiDaly]

this looks more like an acid trip, what would've really made it on point was if you suddenly cit to the scne where the road is completely empty then it glitches back and fourth regardless you still hear and see everything

[@TheVanmeijer]

You are more referring to fictional stereotypes of what people think “schizophrenia” is like… This video aims at combating stereotypes and the incorrect understandings people have about mental illness…

[@YurLocalweirdo]

i have schizo effective disorder, understanding the difference between everyone's experience is also very very important, especially instead of treating it like its just a stereotype this video is more like what people think the disorder is like versus what it's actually like. i personally feel like Lorelei was partially on point with their comment, because you still hear everything regardless its just not as severe at times, life doesn't just glitch it more or less plays tricks on you like thinking you're taking an order at work, but really there isn't even anyone there, trying to decipher who and what is real, from what isn't--but then again those are MY symptoms. it could've been the main focus of this video, if those were your symptoms, but they're not. thus i do not personally think the video accurately displays my own schizophrenia symptoms. @@TheVanmeijer​

[@YurLocalweirdo]

these visual distortions may be accurate for some people with schizo effective disorder, but everyone's experience is different because for me its more like auditory, and there's always multiple versions of my own voice commenting on everything i'm doing. there's never complete silence for me. i think you should've explained that in the description as to not make people who do have the illness and fall behind the category of what you are implying is a common stereotype will also make people who experience it differently feel misunderstood, like confusing people just to confuse them even more. i'm not saying this isn't or is the correct understanding of the illness, i'm mostly saying that other people with this illness will have different experiences and will want to share their input, it just seems wrong to label it as fake, when they could actually have it to you're disregarding other peoples symptoms. the proper response would've been everyone's experience is different. @@TheVanmeijer

[@LoraleiDaly]

I do have schiz though, and bipolar depression, that's just my take on it. I don't know why you think that's fictional. the world physically warps around is gltches out, and all we can see and hear are basically demons. that's not fake. we have the actual ability to see the supernatural and you don't show that at all here

[@perriannesimkhovitch1127]

Eat delicious Vralar Rexalti Cybalta Ingressa as mandated by Kaiser Permanente

[@acirumvonheiligen6979]

My friend Carina has schizophrenia and I sent her this video asking if that's accurate. She told me that it's exactly like this. It must be a nightmare to live with this inside your head. Wish you all peace and love. If you have schizophrenia, please, practice meditation and I hope everything is okay with you! ❤

[@TheVanmeijer]

On the flip side I often have an excuse to not take on too much work… Wrote my own fantasy novel too… Like being on a permanent acid trip. But this video is specifically when off meds. On meds it is a bit more copeable.

[@Anomyn03s]

Legit looks like shrooms

[@TheVanmeijer]

Shrooms is basically placing someone into a short period of psychosis, which can be an interesting or groovy experience, but that your own brain 🧠 does it to you by nature permanently is a living hell…

[@Victoracoca]

Miswiring

[@Whatamidoin24]

Me after the lobotomy😂

[@kaanalpkaratas6091]

Add vine boom sound effects everytime a face flashes and boom you got a shitpost

[@jakereber8932]

Haha so funny 😐

[@danbaker7640]

The visuals reminds me of mushrooms tbh

[@TheVanmeijer]

Indeed mushrooms 🍄 put you in a temporary state of a form of psychosis. Now imagine being like that permanently along with constant emotional pain… People like us need to take medication to ‘stay off drugs’ in a manner of speaking. 😅

[@zustudios1306]

Personally I have never seen God,devil,Jesus,angels,demons,heaven,or hell… How can anyone prove these beings or places exist…? Is it true or all a lie…?

[@TheVanmeijer]

I believe it is true and have seen it regardless of my mental illness. Often mental illness drives me to seek God for healing and through that I see a lot of spirits. It has taught me to be very discerning on what kind of spirits, demons and angels are present or operate in an area or on or over a person. Soon I’ll start a KZbin series on that.

[@zustudios1306]

@@TheVanmeijer I have a mental illness as well… that’s the reason I want proof. The mental health system doesn’t recognize spiritual things… I want proof that they can’t even deny…

[@zustudios1306]

@@TheVanmeijer Thinking shamanism maybe more my speed… it’s starting to carry weight…kzbin.info/www/bejne/Y6u6fXVtjcd2ZpI kzbin.info/www/bejne/oXjZaJpumruUfNU

[@TheVanmeijer]

@@zustudios1306 The problem is that to know spiritual things you need Faith. And Faith can never be scientific proof… But I will try my best to capture spiritual things and expose it to at least attempt to convince them. I have seen miracles happen infront of my eyes and many has been recorded but the world will always find excuses or reasons to not believe.

[@zustudios1306]

@@TheVanmeijer I want to see one miracle… My sister is deaf… She was not born deaf. She is deaf because of medical malpractice ... I want and so does she... She has been praying to Jesus her whole life to be healed... Can or will Jesus heal her...? My mother was a paster and my mom said my sister will die deaf...Is this true or not...Can or will Jesus heal her same as he healed a blind man in the bible...?

[@YBS6589]

This should be called "woke simulator" 💀☠️

[@jakereber8932]

What?

[@ProdKodaa]

don't act surprised that your seeing black people in a black country lol

[@lawrencedovin7425]

In Jesus's name be Healed and free from Schizophrenia now.

[@Armando-Kilombos]

So , that means that we see a lot of black people when we are suffering from catatonic schizophrenia ?

[@Peter_1986]

Yes, if you are in South Africa.