Rebecca-May 2020 (3)

A Soft White underbelly update interview and portrait of Rebecca, a cross dressing young man living on Skid Row. Here are links to my previous interviews with Rebecca:
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[@mimimichelle606]

What I have realized about these videos is every time people say Mark must help , they don't understand that you can't help someone that doesn't want help e.g. Amanda . They gotta want to do better and be better , forcing them into programs will make them worse . Addiction although support needed is a individual journey . Many times people go to rehab over and over because they always forced not because they want to . When they truly want help they know where to find him and many people like Mark in skid row that will offer help . For now we can appreciate and be empathetic to their stories , learn lessons and be more kind to the addicts we see in real life. They must want help before one can help them . Till then we can pray for them and hope they end up wanting what we wish for them (to be clean ) .

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

mimi michelle Yes, the biggest obstacle I see is that these people simply cannot accept good into their lives. They seem subconsciously driven to fail and suffer, which I believe stems from something that happened when they were children or sometimes brain chemistry imbalances later in life. In either case it’s just so heartbreaking to see someone like Rebecca who could clearly live a fulfilling life if these blocks weren’t in her way. Even if someone were to give them everything they need to get themselves together their inability to accept that help is the real issue. How do you fix the damage that occurred at six years of age? That’s why prevention is our best bet, in my opinion. “It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men.”-Frederick Douglas

[@marysunshine5587]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly so true alot of these people or anyone who has been abused have alot of self sabatage going on so as soon as things get better they will sabatage it

[@LucyOEB]

mimi michelle so true. Speaking from personal experience (ie family and friends) help is available to anyone who WANTS it. The people I know choose to be homeless because they want to have their cake (or crack) and eat it too. They will not comply with the requirements of taking meds and/or being abstinent at the facilities, programs, etc. offering help. Dual diagnosed individuals are probably the hardest to help but I’m not an expert. My father drank himself to death when he was only 43. I’ve chosen to go to rehab twice and had long periods of sobriety. I definitely have a higher “bottom” than others as I will get my sh*t together when I recognize that my job might be on the line, etc. I’ve had childhood trauma and was in therapy for 10+ years and the only thing I really learned is people don’t change UNLESS they work hard at it consistently over a very very long period of time. It’s very difficult and sometimes picking up a drink or something else is the quickest way to relief, fleeting though it may be. (Edit: I need to add that the people commenting that Mark “should” do something have obviously NEVER dealt with addicts and/or mentally ill people. Mark IS doing something for these individuals by listening and providing an outlet and bringing attention to this element of society.)

[@rattlesnakechick4085]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Eloquently spoken

[@lindseysloan8735]

I agree. This is as true as it gets. There's only so much a person can do to help. Also, there is a fine line between being helpful and being an enabler which makes it even more complicated to help. *excuse my shitty grammar

[@piano1350]

Seeing this after Rebecca's final video is mind-blowing. It's like a completely different person.

[@spellingbee2000]

Agree

[@babacool81]

I was going to write the same thing!

[@carlinmama]

ikr! this video right here is mind blowing, if Rebecca were like this then I would support her but after seeing most of her videos I hope Mark walks away and let her just hit rock bottom..

[@Nunya-gk9fr]

It doesn’t help the govt & media has pushed this gender bull 💩 on ppl like him that are already struggling & mentally Ill, addicted like it’s absolutely normal & ok. That’s all he can tlk about in his last video like that’s the almighty savior & will change his life 180 degrees for the better.

[@charisegrenier8168]

It’s so heartbreaking seeing the person that Rebecca could be, and just how far gone she is at this point. Makes me so sad for her. Hope she finally wants the help badly enough to do the work.

[@emilycheek1899]

Idk why but I loved how mark said alright gorgeous welcome back

[@alexishogan6342]

I liked that too I think Rebecca wanted to smile but didn’t want to show it

[@cyna866]

Me too! Very sweet ❤️

[@anagrey3977]

I WAS LITERALLY GOING TO WRITE THIS AND READ YOURS! Yes! Mark is so sweet and nonjudgmental

[@MellowProductions]

@@alexishogan6342 lowkey it kinda how Kanye smiles and then just stops.

[@veraabraham3416]

Metoo❤️

[@chrisp6365]

It breaks my heart to see how Rebecca's disease of addiction has progressed over these 3 years 😢

[@MariaCascalheira-sh9eq]

Yes😢

[@dakotablue3366]

I just got done watching Rebecca‘s final video and it’s just unbelievable the stark contrast between this person and that person it’s amazing What a few years on the street can do to a human being

[@cindyandrews3185]

More than drugs, Unchecked mental illness.

[@sm0kah0ntas]

The drugs :( They are killing themselves.

[@helovejase336]

amazinggggggg???? girl bye this is serious struggle YOU NEED HELP!

[@kazujaja]

? Shes not saying its a good thing, shes saying its crazy how drastically things change of the course of 3 years ​@helovejase336

[@mirra5875]

@@helovejase336she obviously wasn’t using the word amazing in a positive manner girl calm down

[@laila9269]

One thing for certain, the camera absolutely loves this person.

[@lesleydemattie7878]

Ik!!!!! Beautiful Model She would b great. Awesome person

[@davidaguilera6496]

She’s a star, honestly.

[@herewegokids7]

He seems naturally very shy. Very handsome

[@amberdawn4759]

absolutley, I thought the same thing....she has explicit lines of beauty. Sadly since her beauty is more masculine, because she was born a male, it probably doesnt ring true to her how incredibly perfect she looks even in a state of trauma and addiction.

[@rhichey]

Yes! She's so photogenic!

[@jennifergraham5106]

She's more sober than usual, and she's been sleeping more. that's why she's not as talkative.

[@blxxdomina]

Waiting for the "he's*" comments

[@myboy051]

“ HE “

[@attilathefukkinhun2640]

She kinda looks like chris cornell...thats weird

[@jennifergraham5106]

She identifies as a female so...

[@Ebuje1]

I think she is recovering from a MDMA comedown, people tend to sleep a lot after coming off that drug and experience depression.

[@adjn5120]

Wow what a difference between now and this video 3 yrs ago. Rebecca has gone down hill

[@spellingbee2000]

So true!! I just rewatched this!!

[@JohnMachado24]

Thought the same thing, a totally different person, that is sad!

[@JoanT-bc9tk]

The latest video just breaks my heart. Such decline in a few short years.

[@lucreziaborgia1759]

It's the drugs that is pouring in, people!

[@artforinsatiablecuriosity3613]

i think he has been in love with mark the entire time. now he realizes it will never happen…. and he gave up on life. sad. tragic

[@nicheshott]

Watching this video compared to just finishing "Rebecca's Final Interview " is astounding and truly heartbreaking 💔.

[@mandeec396]

Mark , if you ever need or want clothes for some of the girls I have bag and bags full or new and slightly used clothes that don’t fit me and would fit more skinny women .. I’m in recovery now for almost 10 years as of July 11th so I understand where their coming from and having clean clothes or just clothes in general is so so important and just makes you feel better when your going thru the hell of addiction ❤️

[@jennimoto7237]

G0d bless u

[@EBABYxo]

yes, same here....where can I donate?

[@EBABYxo]

@@gets187 you sound mad???? that must suck!! hahahahahhahaha

[@dmills2010]

Congratulations on your recovery! ❤

[@tnt01]

@@gets187 be kind. She is offering her items.

[@matejasuban2393]

She genuienly smiled when you told her she was interesting and beautiful. Kind words are so needed in times like this. People have to be reminded of their good qualities, especially when they feel down. Your approach is amazing and very educational. Thank you Mark.

[@cardid5408]

*he

[@defn0tjayla413]

cardi d no she’s transgender so that’s a girl...

[@cardid5408]

@@defn0tjayla413 Wrong. It has a penis so it's still a man.

[@defn0tjayla413]

cardi d you must be transphobic? Because it looks like it

[@elianab1794]

Im suing you :D I don’t want to disrespect the pronouns, but as a biological woman it’s not fair to say they are the same as me. They’re perceived as a man, grown up as a man, has male privilege, a male body and functions. ‘Feeling like a woman’ doesn’t make this person in the same category as me.

[@yasminatherton5398]

Coming back to this video after her very last one, the difference is crippling.

[@kriss1750]

His last video was definitely crippling to say the least.

[@musclesprout21]

I just now compared the 2 videos too... wow. So sad

[@Jab2bme]

Watching this for the first time- after seeing the last video. Wow. Such a stark contrast, and I can see why Mark invested - but it seems that Rebecca got too far off their path of seeking the far reaches of their limits and got too close to the edge , never to return. So sad.

[@vallesdroid]

The manipulation is fierce

[@nannybean8134]

Unfortunately, I've watched her interviews out of order. It makes me so sad to watch her regression over the years. She is SOOOO stunning, artistic, eloquent (in spite of the drugs)...frankly, profound. She has SUCH a tortured but beautiful soul. I truly wish her the best. I pray she can find peace and live her best life.

[@callummurphy7170]

quite right, frankly profound

[@HookEmNBookEm]

He

[@angiem7246]

There is an updated video & Rebecca seems to be doing well!

[@elvira3268]

I did the same thing. She is definitely regressing in the last year. Behavior has changed significantly. Breaks my heart. I truly hate all drugs.

[@mgansworth78]

Wow she was really stunning in this video- it's sad to see how much she's changed. I really hope Rebecca gets her shit together and takes care of her immigration and legal issues.

[@blakepearce198]

Unfortunatly watching from the future im so upset at how much worse shes gotten. How well she was speaking and interacting and looked so good. I hope we can see her even back to this. If she turned it around wed all support her. I hope she finds a way.

[@RealLifeLiz]

Yes I am as well. I notice these questions the way Mark is asking and the way these kind of responses Rebecca gives. Ugh my heart aches because shes being swallowed up in this lifestyle.

[@froggy9191]

Same 😢

[@rayboyd2247]

same!

[@Rain-ec4jj]

I saw her latest video and she doesn't look normal like how she is on this video...

[@rayboyd2247]

Getting worse and worse each video @@Rain-ec4jj

[@kennedymeow]

Rebecca is always so vague. Never opens up even a tiny bit.

[@lindsayp9691]

Sometimes I wonder if some of these people are on the autism spectrum possibly? Can’t fit in and were never helped properly, along with possible abuse. Just a thought .

[@David-eu1ms]

When people are burned enough they stop trusting others.

[@kristen1324]

Very guarded. And doesn't want to open up about topics that cause discomfort or pain.

[@twdjt6245]

Defense mechanism...like in the first interview when she said her family was dead and then the last one where she adamantly and aggressively states she doesn’t want to talk about her family...I think they might be alive but she tells herself or others her own version because there was either abuse going on or they rejected who she wanted to be.

[@twdjt6245]

@sarah j. Or maybe what happened is simply too traumatic for her to want to recount with a total stranger regardless? You call it exploitation..... I call it helping. It helps bring awareness to people with these problems.....which can make the average joe/jane watching this be more aware of people who live like this.....because many of us in the suburbs have never seen people like this. It makes us want to help more and feel sympathy for people in similar situations. Shows them in a unedited raw way that gives them a chance to be heard, when most of them haven't had that chance before because they think that nobody on earth cares about them. Also serves as a cautionary tale against things like substances and sheds light on the failures of our society, like the foster care system for example. I may be wrong, but personally I think the person behind the camera genuinely cares for these people and he can be heard on camera most of the time literally asking them if they want help in some way or another. Many of them decline because they're simply not ready yet, or don't want it. You can't force a grown adult to get help.

[@emmawestlake1144]

Watching this compared to the recent vids breaks my heart. Shes so clever and endearing.

[@samanthaeastin5188]

The way she used to talk and think just makes me mourn her even though she is still alive.

[@brosiaaa]

Oh no, hearing Rebecca mention suicidal thoughts breaks my heart. Hoping for the best for Rebecca

[@Tikilyalevon]

🙏🏽

[@lindsayp9691]

No telling if he is bipolar or it’s just the drugs/lack of sleep causing his ups and downs

[@mollya.7206]

You've never had suicidal ideation?

[@shannonknott1426]

*she

[@miggs80]

@@shannonknott1426 *He. Biology is real.

[@Rubbleee]

Mad seeing this after the final video

[@conniegarcia4307]

I can totally see why Mark loves Rebecca.. I love Rebecca I really wish she'd follow through with the help Mark offered.

[@jenniferraby250]

Rebecca loves fashion so much,if she believed in herself the opportunities would be endless for her. I hope she pursues her passion one day.

[@rrksk]

@Daniel Gustafsson Sjöö Om det får den här stackars människan att må bättre så är det väl en liten uppoffring för omgivningen att kalla honom för henne?

[@laurent7162]

I think belief in herself is only one of so many things she needs. Endless opportunities sounds a bit like a fairytale, Rebecca is so far from any type of stable life that it’s impossible to gauge what could be possible. There is so much going on here and all that is possible is getting through each day as they come. So many people seem to fantasise the lives of these people and see them as future models, film stars etc. It’s bizarre, these are troubled people who would need help to cope with even the most basic of tasks.

[@jenniferraby250]

@@laurent7162 you're completely right. I didn't think of it in this way. The more that I think of her situation, I realize this is true.

[@randymoran67]

Unfortunately the only passion is drugs!

[@laurent7162]

Jennifer Raby oh hi, thanks for replying. To even begin to get anyone out of this lifestyle seems impossible. The ones that really want to do it will, Rebecca can hopefully be one of them. It’s like expecting them to have the life skills you do, it just can never be unfortunately and it makes you wonder if there is any way out.

[@fabianhunkin]

Rebecca's vocabulary is impressive. I prey that she will find some way to use that gift and better her life. Much love sister ❤

[@bskee001]

I think you meant “pray” instead of “prey”. No disrespect by the way...

[@cardid5408]

*he *his *brother

[@Hoglow101]

Not every day your sister has a damn beard.

[@PRETTYFACE816]

Omg I KNEW it was something😄😄😄that's it.

[@unklecorky2181]

bls001 that’s so nice of you mention and so relevant. You are a saint my friend!!!!

[@wakingohiomama9110]

I'm binging her interviews right now. I just love this human being! Such a natural in front of a camera so beautiful and SUCH POTENTIAL! I WANT A MEMOIR!!!

[@sadorrangel9166]

I had seen the Rebecca interviews a while back. Today while I was working in downtown LA, I saw a naked individual running down the street with only a window curtain around their neck, I knew immediately that they looked very familiar. And sure enough it was Rebecca. Hope they gather themselves one day, soon. They're a beautiful soul living a troubled lifestyle.

[@thisworldiswonka]

Why you afraid to use her pronouns bru

[@sadorrangel9166]

@@thisworldiswonka she, her. What a pointless comment.

[@shaylaster1607]

Rebecca says she Identifies as a woman… isn’t calling her ,,. They and them wrong…, miss gendering her on purpose … that’s the narrative the media pushes

[@Jackjohnjay]

All of you just need to get over yourselves. It derails so many comment threads when it’s usually just an accident.

[@infontay]

@@thisworldiswonka he

[@haret0n]

the backdrop and the lighting. everyone looks so beautiful in these videos. and that honors them.

[@nikkibeauty1294]

I have a soft spot for rebecca....i hope that something really good does happen for her!

[@cardid5408]

*him

[@itsrigbybitch]

cardi d - stop being an asshole. i get that you can’t help the fact that you’re an asshole, but don’t try to diminish someone just because your personal beliefs don’t align with theirs.

[@Hoglow101]

LOL this fucking shit is so ridiculous.

[@reynahernandez8474]

I do agree I do too because her soul is beatifically every color even the ones only she can see but wouldn't be able to be shown to the blind eye until she is able to speak on the truth of her past to start the healing process maybe she had started and got lost in "the search" the mind is a fucked up place when trying to heal it can heal you or break you or you can get lost and not know how to come back I Love you Rebecca I wish I could help you get justice for all that had been done to you from the start till what I've heard in your interview speaking of sexual assault as if you just ordered pizza I as a victim of different abuse (childhood - ) cannot say the r word without getting back into bed and say i will try again tomorrow You are a sparkle baby you are R✨

[@stillsubtleone]

Me too.

[@guitargrl87341]

Oh sweet Rebecca… iv watched all her videos and my heart just cries. Iv grown this emotional attachment to her I really hope for better for her. Please never stop updating us..

[@user-ie8jy9xy3e]

omg watching this in 2023 is unbelievable to see how she was in 3 years. I am hoping she gets the help she needs.

[@trevcorm]

It’s just gotten worse. And much much worse.

[@colleenmadden11]

Mark, Your kind words to Rebecca made me tear up! Thank you for trying to remind these people they are beautiful and for trying to inspire hope into them. I hope Rebecca can one day see theirself as beautiful and want change for their life. If only we could shake these people and get them out of their vicious cycles so they can live a beautiful life. Colleen

[@wendyWERKKZ]

I feel like mark wasn't expecting this mood from rebecca so it probably threw him off and he didnt know how to go about talking to her in a way that would make her loosen up. I have so many other questions I would have tried to ask her that I wish mark would have asked, I feel like even though also of the homeless population is still outdoor right now during the pandemic life is just as stagnant for then as it is for us, thier normality is out of wack too, alot of what they used to love is longer available and they need to find ways to cope with their days, rebecca's been actually getting sleep which I think sobers her up, I dont think she know how to live as a sober person and its possibly scaring her, she depressed, I know she didnt want to talk about it but shes struggling alot right now. I dont want to shes what she said as a negative but the fact that shes just been released from a psych hold and she says she feels something good is coming makes me correlate the two together. I hope she doesn't do what I feel she might do

[@mikaelaellyza4750]

Ayan D A shut the fuck up

[@thenotoriousj.o.e.7639]

@Ayan D A Which is a shame for you, as you are an asshole.

[@lipglossjunky73]

I am also watching these out of ordered and it is heartbreaking to see how poised and eloquent - not to mention so much healthier looking - she was in the earlier interviews. What a stunning soul.

[@calmingwaters1981]

Gosh, this is someone's baby. I am a mother and I can't even imagine one of my babies being lost like this. As a mother, this hurts my soul. I hope this one finds some peace and stability

[@kris9259]

I agree. I worked at a shelter and it hurt my heart on such a deep level. Once you are a mom you see everyone in a different light (certainly not all mothers). Rebecca should be a model. The camera loves her. I pray she becomes who she is meant to be. ❤️

[@piaxgft5799]

@@kris9259 ugh you don't need to have given birth to feel empathy

[@kris9259]

@@piaxgft5799 you are absolutely right. I was just speaking from my own experience.

[@maverickbull1909]

@@piaxgft5799 chill tf out. They said as a mother it changes. Grow up

[@rachaelglynn158]

@@maverickbull1909 spot on 🙌🙌🙌

[@EternandaFudge.]

I noticed how every time Rebecca is asked about anything close to her, like her family or her love life. She doesn’t want to talk about it.

[@rayboyd2247]

Watching Rebecca's Journey backwards and How fast you can deteriate on drugs is shocking really!!

[@missycitty9478]

I don't think I've ever rooted for someone I don't know, like I do Rebecca. It would bring me such joy. Such happiness, to see Rebecca get clean and succeed. Love you Rebecca. It's never too late as long as you're still alive and breathing. 💛💛

[@sooofunny37]

same, your comment is making me cry....

[@ChazAScott]

When he asked “Is your family concerned for you” and she said “I don’t think so” and just shrugged it off kinda broke my heart. How could ones family not be concerned for a loved one in that circumstance? I’m sorry Rebecca, you deserve better honey. You’re such a beautiful, sweet person.

[@ChazAScott]

The smartest guy in the room I think you need to change your name, because it’s the furthest from reality. Thanks.

[@littlemama3957]

He likes where he is at..you can't help someone who doesn't like to help themselves

[@elenasecura]

why can't they put the playlists in chronological order?

[@aml9439]

The kindness is overwhelming in this video for Rebecca.

[@sarahfreeman5703]

After seeing the final video of Rebecca, you can really see how much of her is gone.

[@heathermason7875]

I can't tell if she is more sober or less manic right now. Or if something extremely traumatic has happened to her recently and she doesn't want her previous persona. She looks cleaner, a little more serious and her clothes fit, so I'm hoping she's doing better. Also, I hope no one in the comments starts calling her queen, or ICONIC, or goes yaassss. That's really condescending and that was all over the last two interviews.

[@damienholland8103]

More like moronic. I've always hated trendy words / phrases.

[@AlzillaRoxxx]

There are aspects of her personality of that are iconic and queen like. She’s a member of the LGBT community and those are our colloquialisms it’s not condescending I’m sure a lot of it was genuine.

[@heathermason7875]

@@AlzillaRoxxx I'm aware, she is very captivating in her previous interviews. Colloquialisms aside, she isn't Joanne the Scammer, RuPaul, or Pray Tell. She is suffering from mental illness, abandonment and addiction. So it comes across as baby gays trying to show their solidarity while accidentally sidestepping the real issues. I don't know if she can be called iconic when that inconography is rooted in a week long bender with no sleep. When she is sober and healthy, she will take the world by storm. Wanting to be a professional Olsen twin IS an iconic line. But until then, respectfully I say that while the intentions are good, the comments are tone deaf.

[@diamondbae5217]

Iconic... condescending??? Really huh 🤔🙄

[@heathermason7875]

Diamond Bae Context is everything.

[@bokangkseloane8698]

I still have hope in Rebecca, I just hope one day the wheel turns for the better. 😭❤️

[@BubbleNova1991]

Seeing her like this and knowing what's to come is heartbreaking. She could be a model, a fashion designer, an author, or ANYTHING. she's brilliant enough to exceed in any topic/career she chose. Her mind is an incredible blessing, but also her biggest curse

[@samanthamax4827]

I can’t believe this is Rebecca😮 I forget how much she has changed over the last years, what a shame.

[@the_anxious_autistic]

It really is

[@thatblondechick]

Poor Mark trying to drag conversation out of his old friend Rebecca. It was awkward AF!

[@marysunshine5587]

He's pretty patient and kind so eventually he gets them to open up a little more but yes hes probably not high so he's not as manic and talkative.

[@eventuallyswallowed]

@@marysunshine5587 *she

[@housefly121]

Bloom lol no

[@marysunshine5587]

@@eventuallyswallowed I'm talking about Mark.

[@eventuallyswallowed]

Mary Sunshine assumes u meant the second half was about rebecca my bad

[@Iamtykisha]

I love Rebecca.... When someone is Bipolar they have up & down moments! This is a down moment for her!

[@noddinn7160]

Rebecca isn’t bipolar. She is either high on drugs or sober and depressed from the drugs. She just isn’t high on drugs right now. She’s depressed from withdrawals

[@cardid5408]

*him

[@ashleejasmin4517]

Rebecca did mention the "polarity"..Mark clarifying by asking "bi-Polar".

[@ashleejasmin4517]

Oooohh.. Those moments.. Are more like days and weeks. 😔

[@chloegardner6336]

Agreed she pretty much confirmed that and u can tell this is a down in the other videos she was not only high but manic

[@sleep_89]

I searched out and older video of Rebecca after the recent interview he did with Cosmo. As a recovering addict myself, it is absolutely heartbreaking to see how horribly the drug use and mental health issues have destroyed him…I pray god watched over him

[@kdeloris2225]

Mark knows how to make people feel good about themselves. That's so important💝

[@axellecolombet13]

Seeing her like this made me so sad. As I commented on her last interview, I really hope she will find her happiness. She deserves it, she really does.

[@cardid5408]

*him *he

[@sharksport01]

Are you happy?

[@lucid6067]

I have a lot of friends like her, it’s difficult to understand what is inside someone’s mind when you can’t understand the depths of hell and despair they may have or are experiencing from trauma or withdrawal, etc. I have so much sympathy for these individuals. She is so beautiful and I hope she continues to push forward in just existing.

[@crystalkeara8868]

Feel your pain!!! Bipolar sucks!!! I’m also going through depression now. Hope you can find it in yourself to get yourself out of there and get the support you need!

[@leereyes9550]

I’m so happy we have this update! We can hear from Rebecca during all her more mellow moods and that’s nice aswell (-:

[@lipsealed979]

Watching these updates really connects you to these random strangers. Rebecca's has touched me to the core. It feels like I've known her forever. I really want her to get help and get better.

[@sii9423]

This is so 2020, and ill never forget what this channel has brought to the KZbin community .... The backdrop, the editing, the settings, the people, the stories. I hope you get the recognition far beyond KZbin you deserve.

[@angelaharker4826]

She is so incredibly articulate… even in this state. I can’t imagine what she’s capable of outside of this world… My heart… We love you Rebecca Olsen! ♥️♥️

[@kyleallen1858]

He’s very smart

[@JustIdeas000]

Ishmael had everything the child of a wealthy family could wish for - education, opportunities. His “problem” is the guilt he carried because he abused his younger brother.

[@jessicabrown1377]

which video is this mentioned in? @@JustIdeas000

[@jenny4948]

​@@JustIdeas000how do you know he did that ?? I heard he was abused by his dad.

[@karinacash806]

@@kyleallen1858she is!

[@CTMAshlyn]

Rebecca is very far gone from this video right here.

[@louisemellis993]

She is the one person mark interviews that I think about often and worry if she is okay. I want her to turn her life around and get better so badly. I hope one day to see an update and that she is using her creativity and intelligence to give herself a better life :(

[@lucid6067]

I can’t say this enough like Rebecca has such striking features and is absolutely beautiful inside and out.

[@slangingiron4016]

connor Chapa HAAAA YOU GAYEEE

[@lucid6067]

Militant Mind State you are correct.

[@slangingiron4016]

connor Chapa I thought this was a woman

[@sammythestripper]

I think so too.

[@adrianmiller2073]

Nigga, you gay.

[@myredpencil]

So great to see your bromance alive & twisted! Rebecca IS fun! Thanks, Mark. Love your new hair too.

[@carla7908]

Wow I came here after watching Rebacca's latest and last interview and what a difference! It's so sad what drugs do to people! I really hope that one day she is able to help herself too.

[@alexa3585]

I feel like your interviewing skills are improving since the older videos I’ve watched

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

alexa k Thank you for noticing. I’m definitely not an interviewer. I’m a photographer who is trying to capture people’s stories on video and often I need to ask questions to get them to share information that they normally wouldn’t. With some people, like Eric, Cassandra, Louis or Niqi I can just let them talk, but with many others I have to pry a bit. Everyone always thanks me for getting them to open up about these things they’ve never shared before, but I’ll admit my technique was a bit cringeworthy early on. I’m learning from my mistakes, but I still see commenters bashing me for that time I misspelled the word “pharaoh” back in fourth grade. Thank you Alexa

[@jennifercochrane8218]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly keep on shinin Mark!

[@wesleyalan9179]

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly you're doing great, man.

[@analee4678]

She’s so beautiful. She really is. She has such an intuitive understanding of colors.

[@cardid5408]

*He Or it.

[@AyakujinYT]

He*

[@drnogueiras8783]

cardi d you know you’re reprehensible and ignorant, right?

[@analee4678]

e l e n a - let them be continue to be faceless trolls on the internet! Their bigotry clearly hasn’t stopped Rebecca from expressing herself as she pleases 💜

[@cardid5408]

@@analee4678 *its life

[@KarlaElaine100]

THIS Rebecca needs to go to rehab and get mental health treatment. The last video was Rebecca being terrified of deportation and/or jail; but especially deportation. She is clearly intelligent, articulate, creative and attractive. So much potential!

[@lauragibb6014]

Out of all your interviews I've watched, I feel a type of affinity to Rebecca more so than anyone else. Like if I was to truly say, "fck it all, I want to live completely free of society's grip and norms and completely let loose and be 'free'" (which I crave so much on a daily basis), this could be me. On the other hand I feel like she isn't at all free because there is so much torment and instability in a mental and emotional sense, that she's almost trapped now in this way of life. Overall, I just see so much of a beautiful and pure, but lost soul in Rebecca. I wish her all the best, although I'm watching all of her videos start to finish right now in April 2023 and I accidentally watched her latest interview which doesn't look good. I wish there was some way I could help her directly but as I have learnt in the absolute hardest way, you cannot help people who are not ready to be helped and aren't willing to face the true reality of their current circumstance. I love this person very much and I pray that that love reaches her somehow.

[@michellegonzalez5851]

oh my god she was so coherent and well spoken, she carried herself so well

[@donnabee1965]

I love Rebecca’s honesty. Such a beautiful soul that I hope gets the opportunity to get out of this situation.

[@tlisa3458]

Little did he know that he would be stuck in this 3 years later.

[@holdensmomma2010]

Cleaned up and with some weight on and looking this good he could model. That jawline is impeccable

[@meliapo1367]

I feel like most of those people are lost . In everything in their life . Lost souls 😕

[@Daano100]

I find it really powerful to drop any and all judgement within myself when I watch these interviews. Which is not easy. But it allows me to see these people a bit more clearly, listen more deeply. Dropping judgement also helps me see the way they serve our world, and our overall awareness (global consciousness), exactly as they are. Perhaps Rebecca's soul is exactly where she needs to be, not lost at all. Something to think about.

[@tubester4567]

Vast majority of these people are messed up from drugs, which leads to mental illness. Most of the people who drop out and end up hopelessly addicted started taking drugs at a young age. Studies show if you can stop kids from taking drugs before 21, they are much less likely to have problems and drop out. Maybe we need to be more pro-active when kids are going down the wrong path.

[@callmewicked420]

i want more of her :( she probably has manic bipolar/depression. so terribly hard to deal with, i’m sure we all want more of her especially when she’s happy. 🖤

[@gtavtheavengergunnerlegend3340]

looks like multiple personality disorder

[@janellehowell2757]

Mark your ability to interview people so effectively based on their lead behavior and adapt is so cool to watch ❤

[@mystyleinteriorsbrisbane8918]

Im addicted to her videos i cant stop watching them almost binging on them!

[@Lava_Girl-]

I feel like you really gave Rebecca a renewed sense of worth in your first update here. I don't know, I could just see a spark in her & she wore a fun outfit for you!

[@IdealisticFish]

What so attractive about Rebecca is that she is incredibly entertaining yet so humble and down to earth. She has star quality without the greediness and materialism. She just takes what she needs in the moment she truly understands the idea ‘living in the moment.’ She lives more in a day then we do in a life time. ❤

[@VisibletoanyoneonYoutubes]

For realsies

[@chewbacca1238]

People in the comment section of Rebecca's videos always go wild about the pronouns and I hate it. Rebecca obviously dresses like a woman and called herself "trans" in her first interview. Yes, her sex (biological) is male, her gender (psychological) is female. Why the hell does it bother some of you so much using the pronouns "she/her"? It's a way of respecting someone and I guess she could use a little bit of respect or any positive vibes in her life. Also I've read comments saying she's a disgrace for "real transgender women" because Rebecca's look is rather sloppy. Well, try to look like a decent human being (or a "real transgender woman", respectively) when you literally don't even have a tent to sleep in.

[@nanyummyify]

@@chewbacca1238 Dysmorphia literally means an abnormality and distortion from the proper state of a thing or being. It's a disorder. Why is it that people acknowledge anorexia which is a form of body dysmorphia as a mental illness but lately in the past decade or so people with body dysmorphia when it comes to sex are encouraged to live out their illness. Treating the symptoms with surgery and crossdressing etc. but not actually getting help they so desperatley need and addresing the core fundamental issues of self rejection and intense uncomfortabilty within their own bodies? It's a shame. These people need love and help, they don't need a mental condition encouraged. It's not helping them deep down in the core. It's destructive to themselves and society. I mean no disrespect when saying this.

[@cardid5408]

If you have a penis you're a man what's so hard to comprehend about that? I'm a white skinned guy, if I started demanding to be called black I would be deemed a racist weirdo.

[@chukwumachigbo6716]

@@cardid5408 exactly

[@kerry1022]

@@nanyummyifyBody dysMORPHIA and gender dysPHORIA are two different things. You're completely wrong and "I mean no disrespect when saying this".

[@cardid5408]

@@elianab1794 💯💯💯🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 exactly. To call this man a woman is disrespectful to real woman.

[@gigiii__593]

I looooooveeee these interviews now ! Def see improvements 💕 GOOD JOB!

[@amandalujan4730]

Watching the newest video on Rebecca then comin back and watching the old her is so so so sad and I wish Mark could have saved her then. She’s so far gone now it’s incredibly heart breaking

[@ninobk196]

Most of these folks suffer from deep depression hence the drugs. If these folks had better access to mental health and how to manage their depression whether on meds, consistent therapy and family support, they may not turn to drugs. Rebecca is one of these people. Seems sober in "this" interview but severely depressed/bi-polar. A lot of potential if managed with the right meds and therapy. These folks also have a lot of pride which keeps them away from families who love and support them (those who have them), and away from rehab. Some of them actually think they can stop whenever they want to but don't realize drugs have a grip on them and not the other way around. Their "freedom" while living on the streets gives them a false sense of independence and feel they can manage things on their own, but they can't. Rebecca is smart and funny, but delusional, severally depressed and his fleeting dreams will only make his depression worse. Most of these things can be managed and it's a shame because he's his own enemy. Would love to see him sober. A person with his personality and wit would make this world a better place.

[@amydee7064]

What's crazy is due to my line of work there are many folks I've spoken to that would benefit from some medicinal help from a doctor but not only Won't go ("I'm Not going to get on Meds!") but then go self medicate with street drugs. I've said a million times over, "You speak like medication is there end if the world but you go self medicate with unrelated street drugs?" If you're gonna medicate, let's go see a dr. -No- It's crazy.

[@Ms.Francis]

Mark tries very hard to make the conversation roll, however, that day was not the day. it will be very interesting to see her speak in a less guarded way. It´s nice when returnees are on. May she find that something good she is awating.

[@catpathcottage2995]

Severe childhood trauma unresolved. To be clear- there are things done to children that can't be undone. Rebecca deserves a real home with professional therapists

[@sashac9526]

This is my favourite channel. I watch a video from this channel everyday. helps me understand more about people, trauma, different lives, how our brains work, how childhood experiences affect our behaviour as we grow.

[@Daano100]

Rebecca if you are reading this, you are remarkable. You are a beautiful and insightful woman. You are also worthy of so much love and support. Thank you for sharing your experience and thoughts with Mark, and in turn us. I hope more people get to hear your unique and important perspective. Lots of Love to you Rebecca!

[@MrWingnut237]

Watching this now in 2023. Seeing where she was. And seeing her now…heartbreaking..

[@bheehee2743]

Watching this video in 2024, drugs have fast tracked his aging process, he is such a beautiful soul, it’s sad how much damage his lifestyle has done.

[@bladehoner3185]

The light on Rebecca during the video is so amazingly stunning. I wish the very best for you both and hope someday he finds what he really needs.

[@amberrichardson9552]

out of all Rebecca's interviews this is the only one that you can truly see the sadness in her eyes. This one hurt me more than the other ones.

[@ronb8052]

Watching this video in 2023 demonstrates to me how much Rebecca has deteriorated....she's gone downhill a LOT.

[@purplecat733]

I really love how mark really cherishes people. In truth in love and with kindness Asking hard questions Inviting others into deeper goals Beautiful!!

[@madhatter5847]

Mark. You are always so kind and respectful. I wish the world would take note ♥️

[@ireneh.6356]

I realize he didn’t want to talk much but I appreciate Mark for being aware of that and asking small but not too intrusive questions seeming Rebecca didn’t have the energy. Mark was performing like a “check up”. It’s very healthy for people to vent. We appreciate it. We appreciate the interviewee and you, Mark. 💙

[@traceybrock3279]

Oh no! Please tell Rebecca people really do care about her. My friend and I fell in love with her when we watched her first and second interview. I literally texted her at work today and told her we have a new update from Rebecca! So many people love her and would love to see her do good and live her best life. ❤

[@marcusianparrish]

I know her personally and she really is as sweet as she seems. I wish her all the best. I got out. She can too if she’s willing to accept the help offered.

[@STUDY0421]

Same she’s so infectious

[@cheyennereardon9736]

Rewatching this you can see how much they’ve regressed it’s sad to see the differences even here in the clear of mind versus the most recent videos are so sad

[@VanityVixenDetroit]

She's so incredibly beautiful. Her bone structure is impeccable. She could be an iconic fashion model if she could only get clean. She could inspire so many others.

[@kellyfleming312]

I check daily for Rebecca updates 💕

[@kellyfleming312]

Still checking 😭

[@MR-vq1rp]

@@kellyfleming312 Same

[@rosapetrogroup]

Me toooo …. I check all the time ….. I just want to find her and save her 😢

[@leannebilotta9323]

I just really adore this person! I’ve watched all of her interviews and I find myself very interested in her.

[@anaa.5139]

I find her sooo handsome here. She's got some special energy that is very atractive.

[@alexdv5575]

She really has a gorgeous face. The angles, the dark soulful eyes... what a beautiful human.

[@QueenofMarine]

I love seeing Rebecca a little bit more clear headed. She's such a beautiful soul and I hope that she finds some peace and stability.

[@robyn_byrd]

"I just found it on the floor"...yesss Rebecca!💅🎀

[@nicholeledesma6194]

This is someone's baby. This life came into this world and the arms that cradled him dreamed a great life for him. This life came earth side to fulfill a purpose. No life is put here to go to waste nor to be damaged. This breaks my heart.

[@___Music_for_life____]

Damn, seeing this interview a few years later makes me very sad 😔

[@sexykrabz4185]

Came across this channel because of Rebecca. I absolutely love her 🤍 these interviews forces us to see reality.