Recovering from Psychiatry- How I Grieved Fourteen Years Lost to Psychiatry, and Reclaimed My Life

In this video, Laura Delano talks about grieving the loss of fourteen years to psychiatric labels and psychotropic drugs, and how she reclaimed her life. Along the way, she offers tips and suggestions for those in their own process of grieving loss to Psychiatry.
Find more at www.RecoveringfromPsychiatry.com.

[@makeonesway2243]

I hate psychiatry and say it should be abolished. I was told by relatives to take psychiatric pills. The pills caused side effects, weight gain and I was misdiagnosed on and off for about 6 to 7 years. It is a total fraud. Thank you for speaking out and making people aware of the harm being done. You are an inspiration. I am pleased you have recovered so well.

[@dannyboy8625]

I hate it too and psychology as well. Fake sciences.

[@sharonjensen3016]

I wish I had never met the psychiatrist who ruined my life by prescribing antipsychotics (Mellerill, Zyprexa, Solian and Risperdal). After years spent slowly questioning why I was taking these mind-numbing drugs, I weaned myself off them. Even though I feel better, the damage is irreversible. My trust in the medical profession is dead and irretrievably broken. Still, I'm glad people are speaking out about this abuse of power. Hopefully they can stop it happening to others.

[@dreamznaspiratons7064]

What was the misdiagnosis?

[@dreamznaspiratons7064]

​@sharonjensen3016 what kind of damage?

[@BL-sd2qw]

I could have wrotten this 😭 Even the times are the same. 6-7-8 years of my life in a different mental dimension because of those drugs that I took because my family told me they were safe. Misdiagnosis after misdiagnosis and now I'm waking up to see my mind, body and life completely destroyed. It's beyond inhumane 😭

[@marizzabandong42]

I am also a victim of this drugs for 13 long years i am off for 9 years i am almost healed.

[@pamelaharrmann8420]

I have a close friend who just decided to get off her psych meds. She was mislabeled and drugged. I said I would help and support her get off these drugs. Just as the trip got rocky I asked God to help her and help me help her. Within an hour my friend sent an email to me of your video. Thank you, God. She relates to you..Thank you, God and thank you, Laura.

[@anniekleinfeldt-sr9zk]

Was heavily medicated for depression for 30 yrs. I became seriously I’ll with diabetes, kidney disease, with almost complete memory loss, was on 17 different psych meds when I was went of the meds myself when I was becoming a robot no longer able to care for myself. I was a functional working RN immediately prior to the mad doctor’s intervention. Psychiatrists (and any doctor who casually prescribes psych meds) should be forced to endure what they so eagerly endorse for their patients. Been off all meds for 3yrs and am slowly recovering. Will never completely recover, lost probably 15yrs of my life due to complex medical issues brought about by the meds.

[@mindyjoyfullplay5340]

You are an amazing light. I am a survivor of psychiatric. Got off my medication last month. Thank god I was only on one. I will be following you! Thank you for your bravery!

[@Av-uv6xu]

how do you feel now?

[@Lisa-xf5uf]

I'm mad and sad. 13 started meds- 49 and I just got off of 7 psyche meds and had horrific akastisia. I was diagnosed with bipolar. I was bipolar. When I stopped the meds, the bipolar went away. Now I'm learning the truth about mental health meds, and their efficacy. Too bad I didn't know this prior to electrocuting ( ECT ) myself 7 times . I've been put on and jerked off every medication on earth. I'm just too pissed off to keep writing. Ty for the video. Bless you. Glad you made it 💕

[@Irishrose777]

So sorry you’ve been through this too. Being cold turkeyed off medications is just cruel and dangerous. Doctors need to be more educated about withdrawal and the horrible side effects.

[@Prettyboi_Lele]

When I realized how corrupt the greedy drug industry is It felt so shocking and like I was in an alternate reality like a dystopia!

[@snackers7]

Because we live in the beginning of dystopia really.

[@BL-sd2qw]

​@@snackers7 Beginning? It has been here for a while now

[@snackers7]

@@BL-sd2qw The key phase hasnt begun yet.

[@BL-sd2qw]

​@@snackers7Omg, not another one 😭 I can't even keep up with this one. It's too much

[@snackers7]

@@BL-sd2qw Dont be sad : ) We will go through it. Also plans can be changed or crucial phase can be delayed at least. : )

[@malenelainemarshall8352]

Thank you. I am 16 1/2, just dumped my psychiatrist and going into Holistic, drug-free therapy, and I am very fond of your writing and your videos. I'm going through the grieving process right now, and trying to get other members of my family on board. So thank you.

[@The1967ssf]

Malen Elaine Marshall I dumped my psychiatric after 19 years. I don't believe in taking psychotropic drugs any longer either. It's been a year off and I'm sooo much better. They were keeping me sick.

[@superatomic9761]

how are you now?

[@sharonjensen3016]

I've learned that you can't convince others, including family, about wrongdoers in the medical profession. They have to learn for themselves.

[@davidr.1391]

Smart person, wish I was as smart as you are.

[@hbinfinity]

Freedom from the enslavement of the resentment. That hit me hard. Thank you.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ What you're doing is SO IMPORTANT. Keep doing it!!

[@delvelove]

Amazing video. I lost 8 years of my life to psychiatry and I'm 9 months off klonopin which has been hell, and 6 months psych drug free. I look forward to full healing. Thanks so much for this video. Your kind spirit shines through.

[@shelbyreese01]

delvelove how are you feeling now? I’m 15 months off klonopin and still suffering

[@tygreen8831]

How are you now

[@tygreen8831]

@@shelbyreese01 how long was you on them??

[@shelbyreese01]

Ty green 4 years off now 18 months

[@tygreen8831]

@@shelbyreese01 what are your symptoms?

[@davidr.1391]

Laura articulates very well the shared experience we have with the "dark profession," and the "chemical imbalance theory," sold for profit and bought by them. I'm still burning with rage, at my loss of over 30 years of my life, but having to work on it each day. I've discovered for myself how bright I really am. However, in many ways the suffering I've endured coming off the "meds," has made me a more objective viewer of the world around us, fraught with injustice and deception. Not in this video, but in a more recent (2018), Laura speaks of our "shared objective" regarding 'mental health'. It should be this way, but the truth is, it isn't, more and more, "mental health," is about rationalizing the constant wrongs they commit and have committed. I think somewhere along the line, as our mothers should have taught us as children, two wrongs don't make a right. Survivors of psychiatry deal with complex PTSD, physical damage, emotional damage, trying to live in the present when the mountains of abuse in our past haunt us. and how we must finance the holistic therapies that rectify the damage the "system" created for us, when we had turned to that system for help in the first place. I awoke and have survived through a deception, lies, and completely snake oil medical model. I've conducted my own research, including Laura's excellent recovery model. It is a grieving process that takes dedication and perseverance. Unfortunately we are not compensated for the wrongs committed on us, and may never be, but neither were the millions of Holocaust victims, nor the Native Americans who were the first residents of North America, who experienced their own forms of deception.

[@justinebourke9449]

Well said.. so much rings true..👌👌👌

[@billybandyk0720]

RE: the "2 wrongs don't make a right" aspect; maybe not but it sometimes does take a 2nd wrong 2 prove a point. My philosophy in my life; DO UN2 OTHERS AS THEY DO UN2 U!!!!! In other words; when subjected 2 abuse, bullying, & harassment by others, STAND UP 4 URSELF & FIGHT BACK!!!!! Consequences b damned.

[@sharonjensen3016]

These drug-pushing money-grubbing scumbags didn't break us, but they made us what and who we are today. In my case, cynical and distrustful of the medical profession.

[@BL-sd2qw]

😭 True, but others not having justice doesn't make me feel better. It's sad

[@ruthelator]

We are getting TONS of pressure from our son's school to medicate him. They think medication will normalize him (he has autism, for which there is no medication!) We want to help him with anxiety, depression, and OCD without filling him with brain destroying drugs.

[@littlelamb6804]

Don't let them pressure you to drug up your son to get him to fall in line at school... otherwise, he'll be a slave to psychiatric drugs for life. You're smart to look into it and not resort to covering up the symptoms with drugs. I took my son out of school and homeschooled him from a very young age. He never took psyche drugs - ever. He is now 26 years old and is a very capable and responsible adult. Children have energy and these people don't like that so they want to bog their minds down. So sad how some parents just TRUST in the lie. God bless you for speaking up.

[@Drew-cc4qx]

Look into dr Joel wallach

[@Fedko3037]

Look into LDN

[@saumyajitbhaduri1083]

Hello ma'am. There's something I would like to suggest you. Your son might need medicine, but it's better not to completely depend on medicine. Please keep talking to him, he needs someone to talk to. Him having something minor is not enough to label him as a psych patient. More than medications, he needs love around him . Hope he gets well soon

[@JohnRambo1947-July-6th]

My parents did that to me when I was in 1st grade. Please don't do it. And later on psyche meds permanently ruined my life. I am pleading to God every night to help me. Also, stay away from effexor. That drug is very dangerous. I have been on zoloft, prozac, effexor, latuda, risperdal, lamictal. Adhd medicine's. Ativan for effexor withdrawals. Latuda and effexor were the worst for me. Latuda have me akathisia for months, combined with the effexor. It is horrible. I am 29 now. Been suffering a long time and on disability. Oh, and zoloft made me push my sister in 8th grade. Much anger.

[@MoMo-dv7xd]

Thank you !!! community support and love is what we need.

[@lululove6175]

This hits home so hard Laura…I just found you on YT and have been forwarding this to my small family (only have my two daughters). I am losing out on enjoying my four grandchildren, enjoying all my previous athletic activities, used to be a productive Mom who owned a business. I am a shell of who I was…suicidal ideation every day, i can list about 200 symptoms that I have from the destruction of big Pharma. Am trying desperately to find a psychiatrist to taper me appropriately (Ashton manual or very slow taper), but impossible. Clonazepam for 19 years, totally tolerant dependent. I look like I have aged ten years in the last three years of this. “Wasted years..” so true.

[@user-py2nz4qx8f]

Dear Lulu, You are not alone; my late veteran pal said The System kept me prisoner for 20 years. As he said he hated the psych meds, it was by shear good luck when we met that I googled a war injuries conference where Dr. Peter Breggin spoke on the hazards of psych meds. We had known each other for several months and the day he moved in with me his doc combined two anti depressants that were not supposed to be taken together and there was a horrible reaction; having just glanced at Dr. Breggins book I knew enough to have a sense that this was not my pals personality and later he said I saved his life as I dealt with his hallucinations and so on. Dangerous for us both. It almost seems as if one day there must be a Truth and Reconciliation something like the Nuremburg trials where the errors (to put it gently) will be exposed and there will be compensation for victims of which there are thousands. It mystified me that my friends doctor and social worker were well-meaning yet so misinformed and really believed the six meds and the imposed comas forced on him were the way to go. He knew they were bad but as he said, he was hooked; harder to get off than street drugs. At last a sensible doc took him off everything except one at a minimum dose and suddenly many symptoms that had been attributed to PTSD simply disappeared. Not being part of the system I could look at it objectively and think What the Hell is going on; cant they see it? The docs were Indoctrinated themselves. The scope of this problem is so vast it is hard for those who have not been directly impacted to have an idea of the suffering and so that denial adds to the distress. I wish you all success - do keep up as your testimony may help others. That has been my only comfort these days. Of course i am still bitter about the System ... and how we have been caught off-guard by something so flawed, believing it was for the best. Strange times.

[@Heartbrokenforever1978]

misdiagnosed with a brain tumor and developed anxiety so i went on zoloft. came off of it and have been in protracted hell ever since. ive lost my career. my sanity. my identity

[@petermcginnity5572]

Most, though not all, psychiatrists are licensed drug pushers. And just like drug pushers, psychiatrists dont want their customers to come off the drug, because then they would have no income to maintain their lifestyle.

[@capresti3537]

They are immoral unethical criminals that have financial interests to destroy others lives for profits.

[@seanodwyer4322]

they should all be in prison

[@dianemcmahan5159]

You are truly not a victim, and sounds like you are on a very good path forward after having healed yourself. God bless you, 8 years later from when this video was made. I am sure you have much more healing ❤️‍🩹 by now. Take good care of you.🙏🏼

[@luisparga5707]

I agree . I was in the psych ward in 2015 because my psychiatrist's employees never noticed that I had abnormally high levels of ammonia in my blood and prescribed the wrong meds. Olanzapine didn't help me and made me gain weight. Now I help myself with daily exercise and going to meetup groups every weekend. Luis

[@sharonjensen3016]

You too? I can relate. Olanzapine (Zyprexa) did that to me as well. Naturally I couldn't voice my concerns because I tried to do that while on Mellerill and my concerns weren't taken seriously.

[@veronicagorosito187]

@@sharonjensen3016 Me too!! Olanzapine destroyed me in many ways!!

[@stephanievaras7790]

Thank you raising awareness and your brutal honesty. I have been med free for 3 weeks now after 15 years of heavy medication use. This gives me hope for a future because it’s so hard to see myself ever being ok again. I hope in time I will heal and tell my story as well.

[@Ghalyylol]

update me pls

[@user-xx1qd7th3g]

How are you today

[@user-py2nz4qx8f]

Yes!! speak out; I have been over my late partners ordeal in the System... Hundreds of people will not believe what you say but if you connect with even one person... you may have helped that one person and that is really wonderful.

[@iwonab5150]

You did a great thing telling about it, So needed, i know People takimi medication they are messed, obessed, lied

[@RealMatthewWalker]

In my case I didn't loose 15 years they were stolen by my abusive parent. I needed this today. Im still grieving the loss and betrayal. Thanks and hope you continue to get better.

[@festernassociates]

happened to me to... about 15 years... been med free for a 4-5 years now... 100% drug free/sober... no hospitalizations... I'm still sorting out some of the aftermath but life is infinitely better now than it used to be

[@mitch5222]

U were on meds for 15 years? What medication did u take?

[@billybandyk0720]

@@mitch5222 I was on psych meds 4 ovr 40+ yrs b4 becoming psych med-free ovr 6 yrs ago.

[@mitch5222]

@@billybandyk0720 thanks. How do u look at life know?

[@billybandyk0720]

@@mitch5222 Lots better knowing what triggered my condition (i.e.: being abused, bullied, & harassed by others).

[@mitch5222]

@@billybandyk0720 are u mad at God that allows this to happen? I hate God for that.

[@deirdreoliver2107]

Yes, you were robbed, and yes you could and did move on. I have nothing but admiration for your strength your comittment to helping others. I too lost 13 years to psychiatry, or should I say 15 years because the nearly 4 years since I walked away have kept me tied to the pain and grief. I was lucky enough to have 57 years BEFORE I fell under the psychiatric bus but the brain damage and sense of loss spills into my activity as an activist and still rail at the fact that my family refuse to acknowledge it because now I'm `better' why do I `need to go on about it'. It was always an embarrassment so now that everything's ok again ` WE don;t need to think about it any more'. Sadly, I still do, every day and the worst aspect is that those 15 years stripped me of the future for the last period of my life, and now I simply don't have TIME to `get on with my life'. I don't have TIME to resume my career as a novelist at 74, even if I could (after ECT), I don't have TIME to build any kind of career - instead of winding down into a comfortable old age retiring from my livelihood, I am trying to start up again after 15 year lay off. THat's why I wonder if I can ever recover from the stolen years before I die of old age. Believe me I'm trying, but it ain't easy.

[@Amy-qz2im]

Dear Deirdre, do you have time to write a memoir? Because someday this fraud will be exposed and your testimony will become an important part of history. As a novelist you must have the skill for it. As they say, those who forget their past are doomed to repeat it, so by all means, please "go on about it" to as many as you can manage.

[@maryshelley5774]

So thankful for finding your channel and this alternative viewpoint on mental health treatment in society today, especially before I blindly devoted any more years to psychiatric meds and my diagnostic labels.

[@stevenkeller452]

They put me on meds and I committed over 100 violent crimes as a juvenile that I got away with without facing charges,I stopped taking all meds and then finally turned normal, I'm high self esteem, I'm incapable of jealousy ,and I'm not afraid of anything, I have values, morals and convictions ,there is proof I'm normal

[@nicholasarmstrong8994]

Hello Laura, just wanted to thank you for sharing your thoughts and being so open-minded about this delicate subject. I can really relate to most of what you said. Life is a journey and suffering from so called depression or any kind of mental illness just makes the journey more difficult. Hope you are feeling good these days.

[@EmilyGloeggler7984]

I agree mostly, as a fellow person who was medically misdiagnosed and fighting to fix the misdiagnosis of being referred to as having a pseudo-condition, as being "mentally ill". Although, I don't feel grateful and I'm tired of others telling me to get over it. I'm okay with being hurt and angry but I will separate myself from those rotten professions. It will be a joyous day when the pseudo-science industries of psychology, psychiatry, and mental therapy will finally be justly destroyed.

[@BL-sd2qw]

I don't feel grateful for having my whole life taken away from me. I feel like the people who say that they are grateful because they made them stronger are in denial. Not like that's a bad thing. Being f&cked f*cks you up. That's it. It's repressed grief that you hide behind pride or shame. I am f*cked

[@coochchili217]

Thank you so much Laura. Currently moving away from victim mode but still struggling to move on. Really needed to hear this, thank you

[@armenbabasoloukian]

Thank you for all that you are doing. My gf and I watched this and you are speaking her story and we feel hopeful for once. Thank you so much.

[@ErikHietland]

So important, this video. Psychiatric drugs completely destroyed my life I,m still in the proces. Also Saw many and many lifes beying destroyed during hospitalisations, and more. It,s time for the world to see. To see someone beying freeyed from the slavery and Lies of psychiatric drugs, is hopegiving to the world, Brave to be the true ,, I am,, 😀

[@useyourbrainplease8113]

Good to see another person has woke up, well done

[@bradlebowitz6434]

You exude an amazing strength. Thank you for your videos.

[@LauraDelano]

Brad Lebowitz a very belated reply here, but thank you so much, Brad! I appreciate your support very much.

[@Native722]

I lost about 8 years of my life as well, all the psychiatrist and social workers lied and blew me off. In the end, I wish I had told them to F**k off and just leave right away. If they say you have a life long brain condition, tell them to prove it and most of time if not all the time they can't. Have you thought about suing the psychiatrist?

[@capresti3537]

Psychiatrists always win, i never known of 1 successful lawsuit against these criminals. They have the power to destroy peoples lives with impunity.

[@wastingtimeonyoutube.]

There was a psychiatrist in Toledo Ohio, Timothy Valko, who had a class action lawsuit against him. His license were revoked & his practice shut down. I'm hoping more & more doctors & psychiatrist are punished.

[@capresti3537]

@@wastingtimeonyoutube. That's rare though, most are never held accountable. Psychiatrists are severely mentally ill that's why they go into this profession and do what they do. No normal person with morals does what they do.

[@YisroelFeldman-jg5gv]

@@capresti3537 Right on!! When I once did have some problems, my school's principal, of blessed memory, understandably took me to the office of the local mental hospital for a consultation. (Thank The Lord though, the evaluating doctor did not advise hospitalization or even medication, only a year of talking psychotherapy.) When we arrived at the complex, and the principal had pulled into a parking slot, before we got out of the car, he turned to me to remark Now remember, he IS taking me to see a major mental health official, so he is obviously saying there was a need for it. Yet, at this moment when he is doing this, he remarks to me a bit of the sharp sarcasm that people feel about the system: "The line is that the patient gets well, and the psychiatrist gets SICKER!!"

[@stephgibbon9470]

Thank you so much for the post. I relate to your thought and feeling very much and am happy to report that I am moving forward in my healing.

[@LauraDelano]

Steph Gibbon Fantastic, Steph! I send you solidarity as you continue to heal from psychiatry.

[@lindaheinricy887]

This is a wonderful testimony. It has to be healing for so many people, including me. Bless you Laura.

[@luispadela]

Thank you Laura, you really inspired me. The truth is that I really can't believe how now you are grateful for the years of hell you went through, because right now I'm going through that hell of coming off gradually the psychiatric drugs, but no matter how slow and gradual I come off them, the side effects/adverse effects of the drugs are inevitable and make me unable to do anything the first half of the day, no energy at all. Another of the total 15 daily hellish adverse effects I suffer is the never ending involuntary thoughts that drive me crazy. I also really can't believe that your hell gave you your passion of helping other people that are going through withdrawal. My hell has lasted for so long and has been so extremely intense that there is NOTHING good I can take out of it. I've lost all my patience already. I have left 2 more psychotropic drugs to taper and 3 supplements to taper. It's going to take 3 more years to come off them completely and I've lost 6 years already.

[@Av-uv6xu]

how are you now? What supplements

[@user-bp8me5hk9f]

Antidepressants have screwed up my brain. I’m hoping that my cognition comes back once I’m off of these pills for a few years.

[@Ghalyylol]

please update me i need hope

[@richmanshosho]

Did you get off the SSRIs? I have been on them since I was 13 and can't seem to make my own serotonin. I can afford to lose myself to depression since I have to take care of my kids

[@Blackmoonsoulx]

Update??

[@SeanConneryPimpShlap]

How are you doing, J?

[@riverjones5702]

Hi Laura. You’re a beautiful soul. Thank you, and I hope you have a wonderful life.

[@jasonkalendek5014]

Great work, thanks Laura.

[@LauraDelano]

Jason Kalendek Thanks, Jason!

[@lisettebordeleau3765]

How mature you are! Amazing video. Thanks for sharing your experience.

[@twardpgh07]

How could anyone thumbs down this video.

[@thomasschellberg8213]

Because for some people, these psychotropic drugs are life saving. But I would not down vote this video. In no way am I doubting her experiences, but these drugs have allowed the doctors to end the life long hospitalization of many patients. One should not evaluate the efficacy of medical treatments based on selective anecdotal evidence.

[@justinebourke9449]

Probably a shrink, lol

[@pinkpeonyy]

Im going through withdrawal from klonipin. i didn't know this existed. maybe i was being dumb by not looking up this stuff but i trusted my doctor. your videos are really encouraging me right now. i am hoping that i feel better sooner than later, i was only taking 1-2mg a day. sometimes none, sometimes days in a row without any. but i am feeling the way everyone on the videos describes and i get scared this is going to last months and i have a hard time thinking about that. i am glad you talk about everything you do, i was on other meds but have been off of those for awhile now, and i didn't feel like this. but you are talking about deeper meanings, and self reflection, it is good to hear you. thank you for making your videos

[@sharonjensen3016]

I didn't take the "medication" because I trusted the doctor prescribing it. I just realised that my feelings and concerns didn't matter to anyone and the only option was to "play along."

[@afireinhearts1302]

Your work is invaluable; so, SO needed! Wonderfully done. You are truly awesome!! Thank~You 💕

[@BarbaraMerryGeng]

Thank you for sharing & congratulations on your breakthrough ✨💝🙋🏻‍♀️🤩

[@lsweet222]

Such an important video. There's a British female doctor called Dr Jessica Taylor, who has written a book called "Sexy, but Psycho" Which is all about women being pathologised and having their lives ruined by psychiatric institutions. A must read. Thank you for this vid 👏🏾💞💯🦋

[@annbell8748]

I just got it a few weeks ago. Really looking forward to reading it. Totally relevant to current dark age. 🖤

[@DeliveranceIsReal]

Thank you sincerely for the hard work you do

[@freelookmode9837]

Thank you so much for your voice. I share your videos with my colleagues. Most of them are pretty good people who get a lot of their values right. I would say more than what is probably the "average" across mental health. I'm lucky there. I don't work with psychiatrists, and thankfully I don't work with forced treatment. But still, a lot of people have bought into the assumptions that pervade our culture - mental illness as a literal thing, and the very dangerous assumption that "professionals" are somehow in a more privileged place to "know" what is best for someone else than the individual. In other words, even at a place working with people who seem to mean well, and get some things right, there is still a long, long, long way to go. I'm sticking around because people do seem to be listening.

[@LauraDelano]

Andrew Yoder So grateful for the work you're doing on the inside, Andrew! And thanks for supporting my videos :) In solidarity, Laura

[@billybandyk0720]

@@LauraDelano RE: the segment about 1's ability 2 cry; this past Saturday (1/21/2023) was 12 yrs since my mom's passing. @ that time (1/21/2011l, I was on Depakote & Zyprexa (again; per some previous comments of mine, I was on 30+ different psych meds ovr a 40+yr period b4 becoming psych med-free on 1/1/2017). W/in the past 5 yrs, I've begun 2 regain (albeit limited) my ability 2 grieve. I've also experienced similar negative effects 2 urs while on these poisons.

[@DeliveranceIsReal]

Wow, you are so inspirational... finding your channel gives me hope for those with these harmful labels and thank you for speaking out about it!

[@infiniLor]

psychiatrized - excellent addition to the lexicon! thank you - great talk

[@jeannettecowley5957]

I was on psych drugs for over fifty years, from the age of fourteen to age sixty six.l have been on every type of drug, old and New,over eighty different drugs altogether.I am now left disabled with drug induced health problems and chronic pain and dyskenisia.My life now is not worth living and l am just waiting to die.SHORT TERM RELEIF ,LONG TERM GREIF.

[@jayrider2726]

I've met people who have taken psychiatric drugs for 30 year's but not 50. How old are you now? ☮️✌️

[@dulcemoutinho5820]

The same with me.

[@RicanChula7]

Thank you. Going on a year tapering. Been through this grievance already. Was sad, frustrated n angry. But I'm at the point noe where I'm ok. I accepted it n learned so much from this. Ready to be free n live now.

[@digxx]

This is bullshit. People want to believe they suffered from this and that, because it is some kind of mantra for the future they can hold on. It is similar to those who claim, they have been raped, but it never happend. There might be a situation they associate the rape with, but it does not hold up if it comes to factual checks. If you really were damaged by those drugs you will not suddenly be healed after one. It is almost 15 years ago now that I quit seroquel after 1.5 years (500mg), and I came to realize that I will never be the old me. These drugs do take away your energy, while at the same time pretend you to feel good. It is just some very weridly mixed up psychological state not really understood, and combined with those brain shrinkage studies, it indicates that probably neuroleptics do more harm than good. But to claim I have healed after one year is garbage!

[@Ghalyylol]

update me pla

[@samu_lab]

Thanks a lot for sharing this powerful testimony!

[@TheBambam2371]

Praying for you my friend. I hope you feel better soon. I hope things continue to improve for you. Pray about these things. God will help you. He loves you unconditionally. More than you will ever understand. I wish you the very best. God bless you you my friend.

[@matthewatwood8641]

I was started on Ritalin at thirteen for "ADHD." Three years later I was on Thorazine & diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I refused to keep taking the meds & my parents turned me over to the state. We were estranged thereafter. My dad died in 2008 & my mom & I haven't spoke in years. Now my kids' wealthy maternal grandmother has kidnapped my kids through the court & taken my parental rights through court & got my seven year old daughter on guanfacine for ADHD. The doctors say it's safe.

[@sharonjensen3016]

Is cocaine safe? Heroin?

[@Juliemadblogger]

This is really good. Thank you. I cried every day for about a year and then stopped. I guess my viewpoint is a little different since I by the time I got out, I didn't have a whole lot of years left to live as a free person. Still, I went through all those things you mention.

[@LauraDelano]

Julie Greene Thanks for your comment, Julie. Yes... those tears... Man, I cried so much too!

[@elcapitan24]

Your videos and attitude have helped me a lot.

[@eggface17]

Amazing! Thankyou!

[@matthase1582]

You are a lighthouse and a goddess.

[@kanikula22]

Thank you for your speech and remind us how to release our emotions without hurting anybody and anything. Greetings

[@brielleanyez7113]

Excellent. I know this was 9 years ago, so I'm praying you are ok. Thankyou❤

[@BarbaraMerryGeng]

The field of psychology needs to be changed.. as it stands, the field is focused on negative aspects, as clinical psychology is based on looking at negative symptoms. So that a person engaged with this field only can see people & themselves as a cluster of negative aspects... how can anyone build a life while seeing themselves as “having multiple defects “? Answer, it’s impossible. In order to create a life, one must be able to see ones’ positive aspects, and interests, & build on those .. It’s only possible to build on what is working.. and let go of obsessing over negative aspects. The DSM is full of “ abnormal psychology “ .. The focus IS on what’s wrong, so we can stop it. The key to success, is to focus on what’s working & build on that .., ✅

[@afireinhearts1302]

YES. I've seen this point mentioned perhaps only once before, and I feel there is soo much value to be taken from integrating this truth! 💕☀

[@anamez]

I have felt alone for a long time. I am so not. Thank-you. X

[@pida9669]

It's totally valid to feel grief and anger at the way you were mistreated! 😡Too many of us bottle up our painful feelings, seeing them as "bad"... but they are part of what makes us human and they ultimately help us to become the best version of ourselves. I had depression for many years and was put on antidepressants, which didn't help much and gave me nightmares and killed my sexuality. It was only when I switched to natural approaches that my depression went away for good, like jogging, and eating whole foods, and trying not to numb my painful feelings. I've documented a long list of natural lifestyle methods to treat depression and anxiety in my free book _The Sudist Way_ if anyone wants to try the approach I took. 14 years without anxiety or depression and counting!

[@whateverfloatsyourboat2181]

Thankyou, very helpful ❣️ I'm 15mths ct off klonipin, appreciate your help.🙂🙏🌈♥️

[@irenemac1545]

3 yrs off xanax here...its been hell

[@gbflater]

Gratitude 👍👍👍We learn from it all

[@incognito595]

Laura, You Are A Trailblazer. Thank you.

[@lilili979]

i just pass here to say you are a brave beatifull strong woman *-* thanks for share your personal emptyness... empathy higher level from here *hugs big hug

[@user-th4rf8yl9v]

i was labeled a slew of emotional and behavariol disabilities from psyhchology ocd odd bipolar depressed I AM HEALIN GFROM ALL THAT

[@kierondillon4458]

Your a beautiful girl! Thank you for sharing!

[@TubularAnimator]

Just subscribed and hit all notifications.

[@madmusicianmagician]

Just the start of this video has me crying depressed 😢

[@claireh.7605]

I got my friends fired from their jobs because I had such rage and lack of empathy during SSRI withdrawal

[@JSV-pr4qo]

It’s been one year and 5 months in my grief. And it’s hard.

[@burpenta1]

May God bless you one thousand fold. David Teague Randolph Smith

[@everythingcritic3188]

They put me on SSRI'S when I was 8 and they stole my life for me. I'm 31 now and been med free for about 6 years and I'm still recovering. I hate myself

[@mitch5222]

How you now?

[@katydowzycki5618]

Omigoodness..since u were 8? 😢 How r u now?

[@billybandyk0720]

I weaned off psych meds 6-7 yrs ago (been psych med-free since 1/1/2017). While I have occasional struggles rel8 2 my condition (not "illness" despite the Bipolar Disorder diagnosis), being off psych meds has made me feel more in tune w/my emotions. Being on psych meds robbed me of my emotions & relationships in addition 2 developing suicidal feelings. Since going psych med-free, the suicidal feelings disappeared. Though I resumed drinking beer under 4 yrs ago (11/2/2018; my dad's 75th b-day. He'll b 79 this Wednesday which is 11/2) after 19+ yrs of "4ced" sobriety from alcohol bc of the psych meds, I actually feel suicide-free despite alcohol's dangers. The manner in how psych meds work, I'm much better off drinking beer. Alcohol affects the brain the same way psych meds do but it (alcohol) leaves the system much quicker (& it tastes much better. The beer, that is; not its alcohol content).

[@billybandyk0720]

2 the people who liked my comment; THANKS!!!!!

[@lasmluclasm3781]

Nice Delano's, Delano

[@stephenbailey8409]

I am from UK. Just spent 40 years, in trying escape this horrendous spiral of being put on to cocktails of meds. Mostly Benzodiazepines. Now I have succeeded just over 18 years & am still in absolute agony, with massive trauma & total system collapses. (To name a few). Psychiatrist states: "It is not the drugs - You had RTA 1974 & Frontal Lobe damage". Now try the Seroquel, then try the Aripraprazole. I said: you are NOT TREATING the Traumas. "What Traumas" ? It would be stupid going back on to more powerful & damaging meds, 'To Treat Brain Injury Dr ? Thats just what i had them for in the 1st place. Every day is Hell ! Steve (56).

[@sstyblo]

Steve- I feel for you. I have ptsd & have been off 4 yrs of drugs for 1.5 yrs..journey from hell, much progress on my end. All the best~

[@LauraDelano]

Hi Stephen, I'm just catching up on comments here, so apologies for catching this so late. Do you have any supports in your community-- friends, family, people who've escaped psychiatry themselves? That, to me, has been critical-- finding others who've been through it so that I don't feel alone. Because as you said, even if you've been free from the drugs for many, many years, without having space and support to work through the trauma we endure at the hands of the "mental health" system, it can be really hard to reclaim oneself. It's of course so difficult when the "professionals" around you are unable (or unwilling) to acknowledge the harm caused by these so-called "medicines". I always encourage people to do the best they can to not absorb the invalidating and dehumanizing statements from doctors, as it sounds like you've been hearing. The more you align yourself with others who "get it", the more hopeful you'll feel, and I've found that hope is critical to surviving psychiatric drug withdrawal. I wish you the best of luck and please do keep me posted on your journey! In solidarity, Laura

[@michaelcaprino3584]

+Stephen Bailey Iv'e developed memory loss and cognitive problems, I feel less empathy from atypical antipsychotics, I stopped benzos because I didn't want to ruin my life anymore, I'm sorry to hear your problems, I think it's through our ignorance that we keep taking these damaging drugs, I was completly unaware of antipsychotics causing longterm brain damage.

[@dulcemoutinho5820]

All my psychiater wanted was to put me on more psycho pharma, including antipsychotics! I am not psychotic.

[@vikasgupta1828]

Thanks

[@rebelandseektoprosper8268]

I came off 20years of antipsychotics that included olanzapine, risperidone, latuda, clozapine. And antidepressants for 23, prozac, zoloft, some others I can't remember and now effexor that I need out of my system. That feeling of your brain waking up is scary and good at times. The drug (Dr) induced episode was worse than my trauma I had as a kid. Thanks for speaking out, I watch your channel now and again. Subbed for sure!

[@mitch5222]

How are you now?

[@rebelandseektoprosper8268]

@@mitch5222 getting better thanks

[@mitch5222]

@@rebelandseektoprosper8268 how long did it take to be normal? I am 4.5 years off and still in bad shape. 8years of antidepressants, antipsihotic, mood stabilizers. My mind is going crazy.

[@rebelandseektoprosper8268]

@@mitch5222 I still have damage too but it's definitely better than a few years ago. Gut health and detox is really important but different for everyone

[@rebelandseektoprosper8268]

@@mitch5222 hope that in time things improve its a hard hard road most people never have to go through this, it sucks so so bad ending drugs and bad being on them as you have realised hopefully your body will start to repair, still be rocky at times but I'm hoping it will get better one day.

[@Juliemadblogger]

I am watching this again because I think it is so good. I was called bipolar, too. I made a similar KZbin myself recently. Did you find that your former shrinks threatened you when you tried to leave? Mine sure did, they threatened to lock me up for good just for mentioning human rights and writing about abuses. But "MI" is more about Human Rights than anything else, don't you think?

[@LauraDelano]

Julie Greene I indeed do! It's all about human rights. I definitely did not have the support of my "treatment team" when I was making my way out of The System... They told me, in so many words, that I was crazy for thinking I didn't need my meds, and that I'd be back.

[@Juliemadblogger]

***** Yep. One of the nicer ones told me, and I quote, "Without treatment, you will die." I believed her cuz she was "nice." But even the nice ones are misguided. They, too, are as fallible as any other human. It's so much easier to idolize them and follow them blindly. I wrote recently about how precious instability is, and without it, we stagnate. Maybe instead, the threat could be, "if you do that, you'll be stable!" Even the dead aren't stable. They decompose. Of course there's that other threat: "You are going to decompensate." Wow, I sure feel frightened, can't you tell?

[@joeboxter3635]

@@LauraDelano You are *so* spot on. They threatened my nephew also. Told him he was in denial and if he did not take drugs they would institutionalize him and if needed inject him with drugs anyway when he was there. He now has thyroid issues, liver problems, and other medical problems. But mentally he is solid.

[@58s-]

Thx❤

[@dabhob333]

I'm terrified. I feel awful on risperdal, klonopin, pristiq. And want off in the worst way. Terrified. Feeling hopeless. I feel more depressed and anxious than I did before going on the meds. 25 yrs of ADs. 2 yrs of antipsychotics and benzos. I feel screwed.

[@littlelamb6804]

Dear Dave, look into nutrition. Spirit of HealthKC has a wonderful youtube channel that specializes in healing without medication but with herbs, healing foods and spirituality. You may also just try to find a good acupuncturist, naturopath or even a homeopath to help you come off those horrific drugs with the aid of herbs. There is help available. I am praying for your healing.

[@Ghalyylol]

update me pls

[@mariovicente]

Laura, thank you for sharing your experience and for your courage to share yourself also with others. I was deeply moved by one challenge you faced against, which was the stripping of your personal identity which I consider a subhuman crime. I do not know your stance regarding spirituality, nevertheless I would like to share with you something I learned that helped me many times and in fact has been helping many people since more than 2.000 years ago. Just like many people still today, Christ suffered many physical and moral injuries although He did no harm to anyone and actually helped elevate people's spirit which is something no one has ever done like Him. About the question of IDENTITY, I would like to invite you to read Mathew 10,34-36. There Jesus speaks about an extraordinary thing He delibered to do, a fundamental change deep within people, that is the demarking of individual identity. The separation between self and others, which is not the same as disfunctional opposition, but instead the construction of our own identity as a fundamental pre-requisite to any form of stable gathering of people. But that is not all! GOD described himself to Moses as "I am that I am" (Exodus 3:14), which is an absolute identitarian statement. Well, just like a painter loves his work when he sees his best qualities reflected therein, so the Creator of all things loves His work, and that is why we are given such important information. Do not look at this as a burden to grasp but as an edifying tool for your human being. Having an IDENTITY is a right granted to you by the Creator, something He wishes for you and something He considers of paramount importance. I like to reflect upon these things while listening to a peace of musical art which goes through all this and much more, based on Christ's testimony -- The Mistery Sonatas (Rosenkranz Sonaten) by Heinrich Ignaz Franz von Biber. Very uplifting. Best wishes to YOU and thank you very much!

[@user-hr6gf4gn4e]

Stopping my meds has made for a much worse state than I was in prior

[@gbflater]

The loss of identity an drive is really hard to deal with. Check psychiatrist Peter Breggin for the actual effects of psychiatric drugs

[@TalRachman]

Is there a way to adjust the volume of this video? It is very low even on the highest possible.

[@Sunrise-fr9jb]

I am in my late twenties. Been robbed since my late teens so like 10 years. But I am having very bad cognitive issues even tho I been off a year. I feel like it won’t ever get better sometimes. Not sure what todo

[@capresti3537]

The drugs damage the brain i am the same 10 years off and tension headache everyday and cognitive damage. They told me i had a brain DYSFUNCTION then caused it with their drugs.

[@EllieLindhorst]

You're my psych jesus rn preach!

[@j7ndominica051]

I was "diagnosed" with schizophrenia when I was young, and later wanted the system or at least a therapist who was familiar with it, to take this diagnosis off. That indeed made me still dependent upon it. The social issues I had back then are still with me though. I doubt that the drugs could be of help to any person. They cause two days long sleep at the start of treatment, and continual lack of strength later, constipation, inability to hold the mouth shut during sleep, the urge to perform a physical motion (very unusual), knowing that it might be perceived negatively if people saw it. Once I tried to commit suicide with the sleeping pills I had left over, but was discovered. And the treatments were paid by the state, which made me feel guilty for causing this senseless spending.

[@elgee3652]

You hearing voices try niaci dr. Hoffer about mental illness.

[@elgee3652]

Niacin

[@sharonjensen3016]

I overdosed on Mellerill and was taken to hospital where they administered Charcoal treatment. After an overnight stay, during which I had a couple of do-gooders come and talk to me ("Do you have any hobbies?" "You're not going to harm yourself in any way, are you?"), I was allowed to go home. Next time I saw Dr. Drug-pusher, he changed the medication to Zyprexa (Olanzapine). Even though I almost crashed my car while on that crap, I said nothing because it was pointless. Sure, as if they would believe me!

[@DT-cs1st]

I have autism and they really ruined my life for awhile well it still feels ruined

[@dreamznaspiratons7064]

How did you get off the meds and what led to that?

[@shamakuma1967]

Yes profound loss. Your life is lost, its purpose meaning.

[@seanl8906]

Hi can you please elaborate on the term called "social paralysis", what did you mean by that? I'm just asking because ever since I've been put on meds I have a hard time expressing/vocalizing myself.. I'm not sure if this is the same thing.. I'm a little confused..

[@myearshurtnoone1367]

Sean Faith i think she means like she was very anti social, reclusive.

[@LauraDelano]

+Sean Faith Hi there, it's been so long since I made the video that I can't remember exactly what I felt in that moment I said it, but how I make sense of that term now is that, back then, I'd lost the ability to move, to flow, to engage with others as a social being. Because I'd lost an inner compass and didn't know who I was and how I fit into the world, I couldn't move in the world. Hope this helps clarify!

[@Rick-zw7zv]

In other words, when the Jungian 'self' dissociates with the 'ego' and the 'ego' dissociates with the 'persona' there is actually an opportunity for the ego to realign with the 'self' (inner compass) but the volatile 'persona' which constitutes our identity with which we relate ourselves with others becomes disabled and that creates the distress. This can happen when you grew up in a toxic environment and your persona evolved around all these adaptive survival mechanisms resulting in narcissism or codependency, specially with prayer it causes the 'self' to reject the 'persona' and realign the 'ego', it's a traumatic experience but it's actually a form of healing. Problem also is that as the self heals the ego, the ego become purged from influence of toxic culture which leaves you with a critical view of society and a consequent alienation of the collective paradigm. This is why psychosis and mental disorders have a close relationship with 'shamanic' afflictions.

[@toripolliisi3929]

so did you recover 100%?

[@justmeagain-xp2mw]

I feel like im between a rock and a hard place. I know i don't want to take antidepressants anymore because they make me sick. But on the other hand, i just cannot live with this depression. I don't know what to do. Will i just have to always be in extreme emotional pain?

[@dreamznaspiratons7064]

Can you please make a list of books to read?

[@djammer]

I’m not sure the way forward… years and years of chaos and dysfunction. Finally functional and making progress for the first time in my life on wellbutrin/pristiq for 18 months. Went off the meds and my life folded in. Functional and on meds? Or dysfunctional and off meds? Is there functional and off meds for everyone? I’m not sure

[@mariano2078]

You're One Of The Ones That Were Able To Get Away. I Have Been On Their Grips Since 1974. I Don't Think That's There's Any Hope For Me. I'm Just Hanging On A Thread.

[@jayrider2726]

How old are you now? That's 45 years of taking medications. I've never heard of anyone taking something that long. I wish you well.

[@johnmiller4050]

Hi! So, I've been meaning to ask... I'm in therapy now and I'm also talking to a psychiatrist and a psychologist as well but I'm doing all of my appointments on the phone because of this whacky Coronavirus going on right now and I just wanted to know if being bipolar or having Bipolar Depression Disorder is a bad thing. Is being bipolar a bad thing because I think it is and I also have Biploar Depression Disorder?

[@filthycoffinfrankenstein6469]

If you can manage your bipolar without antipsychotic medication It’d be best for you. I was diagnosed with bipolar schizo affective I am now in my third week of withdrawal from antipsychotics and let me tell you it is living hell. The antipsychotics were making my life worse I rather deal with this with drawl and deal with the akathisia and everything else that goes along with antipsychotics for my part.

[@mitch5222]

@@filthycoffinfrankenstein6469 how are you now?