Recovering from Psychiatry- Reflections on Life, Death, and Suicide

[@pida9669]

14:30 "The purpose of life is not the absence of suffering, it's to embrace the full spectrum of human experience, even _all the suffering_ , and to see it as something meaningful. Now that I see all that, I'm able to have peace and joy even in the midst of the storms, and man there's a storm right now."-Laura Delano

[@skymiller530]

This video was made some time ago. You hung in there Laura and you are now a light to many. You are taking an active role in changing the torturous way that psychiatry "treats" those with life problems. Notice I didn't say Mental Problems.

[@beataannanowak659]

Thank you. Psychiatrists don't understand domestic violence victims, sexual assault victims, and so on. Pills only.

[@billybandyk0720]

​@@beataannanowak659Nor do they understand verbal, mental, & emotional abuse caused by those whom "coach" Special Olympics. Yup; so much easier 2 medic8 than communic8.

[@tru2harris998]

YOU ARE A GODSEND ❤❤❤ THANKYOU FOR YOUR TRUTH & EXCELLENT INSIGHTS. ❤

[@psychiatryandsociety5826]

Laura, you are definitely my go-to person when I run into someone who is questioning what real help is all about. You have an amazing ability to reach out with your feelings without diminishing a powerful intellect.

[@twintasticfour5468]

I am touched by your wonderful words, Laura. You sound like you would make a professional therapist or counselor with the way you treat, care and understand people unlike most. You're my go-to person to talk to whenever I have a problem when no real help is being provided or given. You tackle serious issues with great detail and observations that no one else does and take life struggles and problems more seriously than most people do. It's always good to listen and hear from you, Laura Delano. You're the embodiment of what real passion and inspiration is and of what this world needs. You're are my inspiration

[@deepwoodmotte4136]

It's a long way out. 20 years on these drugs is a long time, but hey... Hugh Glass survived being mauled by a bear, traveling 100 miles in the wilderness back to camp, by himself, near death by the wounds and finally, hunting down Fitzgerald! Humans can survived the most insane of events. That why we're still here

[@paddlegodsun]

U r my angel. I will keep watching. Im only a year thru since i got off the drugs. Cried in my mothers arms for 20 minutes. Just all the grief we go through with this stuff

[@mariasaucedo5378]

Joshua how are you now?

[@patrickarion6236]

Hiya Laura, Such a wonderful message from a courageous woman. I've been on a parallel journey with you. Years of psych meds are finished, diagnosis have come and gone, as are embedded beliefs from an established medical "system". I've walked with my suicidal feelings many times and have learned much from them. Nietzsche has a great quote on this - "The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night." You are correct in not looking so much as to why one would end life in need of such drastic change, but to look at what one has to work with right now and find the best in the space within. Its like a 180 degree shift in perception. Inside is where we find no one will ever know us better than ourselves, this is also why people have the best doctor they'll ever find within them already. All of life is matters of perceptions and paradigms. What we don't speak of becomes taboo and, in turn, can create unmanageable fears of their own accord. May you continue to feel blessed in these same ways and continue being a light in the darkness in the lives of those in need. Keep feeling feelings: this is the way of balance and cleansing. :) Please know that there are friends here for you as well, feel blessed and contented this day, and know that your friend will be okay too. I still miss my friend in the same way too for many years now. Love and hugs from one who merely understands. (I'm on Facebook too). Patrick :)

[@cynthiaennis3107]

Laura Delano great video! Many of us are on our own...you are so right about it ALL! Sooo true! We know ourselves better than anyone! The urge to die = the yearning to feel well & desire to stop the agony. Beautiful soul!

[@henrymydlarz7486]

Dear Laura, I got emotional - teary - withing the first two minutes. Only five minutes into it. VERY emotional. You are such a good person!

[@amasocialworker]

such a valuable video. living with suicidal feelings myself, i can relate to the need of living a completely different life, feeling powerless to change my situation while at the same time, trying to find meaning in my life and striving for an authentic life. it's sometimes a struggle. sometimes i feel like i can't really make it - alive - or create the life i want for myself, but in some way, i do find value in the urge to die, because it just shows me how much i want to live, on my own terms, without any compromise. thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. i'm sure may people who are struggling will find it helpful, and will feel less alone.

[@mitch5222]

Update?

[@aurel344]

Laura, I’ve tried to many times to reach out to you. Without success unfortunately. I wish we could speak about the withdrawal symptoms I’m experiencing due to the drugs I’ve been on. I’m literally shattered. Can’t remember anything, can’t read, that’s outrageous what happened to me. I’m completely numbed. It would be se relieving to be in touch with you, because I don’t see a glimmer of hope, I have no idea on how I can recover from this journey in the world of psychiatry that I’ve been in. Thank you so much for your help, and take care of yourself.

[@beataannanowak659]

did you recover from psychiatric abuse is your brain back to normal ?

[@aurel344]

@@beataannanowak659 definitely not! Just woke up 11:22 am. I’m dead tired I could sleep for another 3 hours. And can’t listen to radio in the morning like I used to. I’d either forget about it, or it wouldn’t even go in one of my ears. In a nutshell, my brain is F**** up!

[@mitch5222]

@@aurel344 update?

[@aurel344]

@@mitch5222 still the same

[@Letsseewhathappens-g1t]

Your story is very relatable. Thank you for sharing.

[@mikiallen7733]

Every time you are holding your tears back , am holding mines back as well ! Where a sincere moment happening on KZbin channel

[@incognito595]

WE HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO HOLD THOSE RESPONSIBLE TO ANSWER FOR THIS CRIME OF 65 YEARS.

[@gregrhodes2171]

Wow! Thank you so much. I was watching a bunch of kids today at the ymca in the pool. They were from a group home. I was thinking of how horrible that it would be to live confined to a place solely because you were told something was wrong with you. Day in and day out living in a way that is in a constant state of oppression. You completed my day. You completed my thoughts.

[@TheVaporChronicles]

What an amazing and powerful video. Your bravery and honesty is appreciated.

[@Brooke-sp1qx]

Thank you for talking about such hard topics. You are helping so many people

[@sylvainrochex2369]

I listen to Laura over and over to go through the hell of withdrawal and having been almost mortally injured by psychiatry.

[@mitch5222]

Me too.

[@noellerizzato3914]

Again thank you dear ! Bravo for being so human and sensitive and strong!!! I resonate deeply with your sharing and desire to share to help others too....We are a family, we need each other, we need awakening, growing and reflections.... Love your work, amongst other great people! Let’s hold hands and lives to shine and be true!!! Noëlle

[@karmicfurnace]

Thank you, Laura!

[@luispadela]

Laura, thank you so much for doing this video. Thanks a lot for delivering your heart, your honesty, sincerity, and to show your authentic self. You inspire me so much. This video helps me a lot and I'm sure it has helped many others. Thank you for speaking out and telling your story, for speaking the truth, which will make us free. I'm currently going through a tapering of psych meds and I've lost my patience. I'm stable and I'm feeling decent thanks to a slow and gradual taper, but some side effects are inevitable, and the time I have to wait for coming off completely all my psych meds is a lot of time and makes me feel really bad, impatient. I wish you the best.

[@incognito595]

I usually say "drugs" because Meds mean "to heal", not DESTROY WHO YOU ARE! AND CAUSE PROFOUND UNFATHOMABLE PAIN AND SUFFERING.

[@sea_hous]

Just so amazing and thoughtful... Thank you Laura. : )

[@bernblundell3929]

Great content thanks..

[@aquarianescorpio]

Thank you for sharing such deep experiences and emotions.

[@tormodhvidstengjedrem5545]

Thanks Laura Delano for your honest words. Stay warm & safe; see you in Gøteborg: hugs from Tormod

[@KevZen2000]

The problem with mainstream psychiatry, it considers suicide a result of "mental illness," and it treats suicide as a necessary condition to be treated with "medication," even though many cases are not a result of "mental illness." Many times people are suicidal because of their life situation, their philosophy on life, apathy, etc., which are not related to a "mental illness," unless you make "mental illness" so vague it applies to pretty much everything. Psychiatry also effects law in that you cannot "legally" help a person to commit suicide, even though they are suffering, and rational to commit suicide. In law excluding a few minority cases, it is considered "murder," when it is not. Murder and killing are different, as one is neutral,and the other is by force, and that is murder. Psychiatry is scientific, so it should look at things beyond the scope of "good and evil," or "morality," as suicide is more of a amoral action, than an immoral or moral action, excluding people's fallacious appeals to emotions, religion, their philosophy, or other subjective opinions which science cannot test, nor should it make exceptions for, because it would lead to a lack of progress, as we could always reinterpret data anyway popular opinion views it. Science is not a democratic process, so psychiatry must incorporate the same conclusion into suicide, which is mainly based on a democratic process, versus data presently.

[@beataannanowak659]

Thank you. Sometimes getting help leads to taking your own life. Look at the famous people like Kate Spade or Robin Williams - they were "getting help".

[@billybandyk0720]

KevZen2000; It's also been proven that psych meds CAUSE/INTENSIFY suicidal "ideations" (a word that I can't stand; "ideations", that is). The manner in how many psych meds work; I'm so much better off DRINKING BEER!!!!!

[@garysmith1863]

Thank you

[@DarkMoonDroid]

You have my FULL SUPPORT, Young lady! I TOTALLY get it! And why I still identify with a DX, that DX is not in the DSM so it's still in defiance of the Psych-out world of APA and NIMH. THEY DON'T GET IT - either way! The pathologizing of death, pain, suffering, sensitivity, empathy, etc, etc. MUST COME TO AN END!

[@billybandyk0720]

The DEMEANING, SHAMEFUL, & STIGMATIZING TERMINOLOGY that we continue 2 use (specifically the "M.I." terms; i.e.: "mentally ill" &:"mental illness(es)") MUST ALSO COME 2 AN END!!!!! Just like how the "M.R." terms (i.e.: "mentally retarded" & "mental retardation") were reclassified w/the "D.D." terms (i.e.: "developmentally disabled" &;"developmental disability/disabilities").

[@mikiallen7733]

T'es juste vraiment authentique , et on t'aime bcp depuis la Suisse

[@flodfellow]

thank you !!

[@seamusconlan9673]

For many of us there is no recovering from psychiatry. Wishing you all the best.

[@marrjhub]

what a brave woman. you are inspiring, laura! xo

[@incognito595]

I am so sorry you suffered so badly, Laura. I think of you....

[@joeymarino7]

i don't know you but your journey and vulnerability makes you so lovable and beautitful.

[@JSV-pr4qo]

Laura has no idea the miracle she is and what these videos are going to do for the world. Right now she’s my Jesus, my Aradia, my withdrawal sensei Thankful my bf forced me to lay with him on the couch and watch her videos.

[@janebethshimon]

Yeah, the psychiatrists and psychotherapists instill a long-term hopelessness -- keeps people coming back. What a rackett. Psychiatrization is so accurate.

[@incognito595]

THEY NEED MONEY.THEY WILL DESTROY MANY, MANY, MANY, MILLIONS OF PATIENTS ALL OVER THE WORLD, TO GET IT. FOR 65 YEARS.

[@kierondillon4458]

Oh!!!!!.laura!!! We love you!!!!!

[@MrSourstrap]

Where can I find communities online of people that have gone through this stuff? I’ve been on psychiatric drugs for the past 3 1/2 years and am just now starting to come off them. Would love to speak to others that have had similar experiences.

[@alexammaulli1910]

Wow. Very uplifting.

[@incognito595]

Laura, You are beautiful, inside and out. ❤

[@Slidehhy]

You are a saviour 🙏🙏

[@daniisrael____6326]

You are amazing !!!!! so strong !!!!!!

[@Ycnan111]

Thanks you

[@jpal5221]

Very powerful video. Any long term updates with your condition?

[@filthycoffinfrankenstein6469]

On your withdrawal did you do a taper withdrawal or did you abruptly withdrawal? I feel the same way as you do and I feel scared but taking the pills just made me worse. How long did the intense withdrawals last for you I am so grateful for your channel I hope you’re staying blessed and living a good life

[@dabhob333]

I'm currently on risperdal, lithium, pristiq and klonopin. Feel no hope. Don't want to be on these drugs any longer. I truly feel I don't need to be on them. Even feeling suicidal. Never felt that way prior to meds. Please help...

[@kimaniruth964]

Hey hope you okay. I feel the same

[@vfddcv7445]

hello how are you now? do you live normally? I had so bad memory loss for so much time I couldn't find my car I feel like my life is ruined!!! now I worry if I will develop epilepsy or something later in life

[@dabhob333]

I may have already asked, but did you take benzos? Thank you for your work...your purpose for going through what you did.

[@Bozewani]

psychiatry is evil I was labeled aspergers for studying geography ocd odd bipolar depressed for enforcing human rights humanitarian criminal refugee law

[@themask9203]

The main problem is I seemed to suffer with anti social personality disorder but i had anxiety. I felt brainwashed by the school system, I thought i had to break the conditioning by breaking the rules. Pychiatry is just a way to requpit that brainwashing by making antipychotics and antidepressants worse than jail. Atleast you understand pain and suffering are fixed beliefs. "I'm worthless" "I'll never be accepted" "I'll never be happy" is a belief system that people created. You can break them but it takes years. I hope these stupid fucking doctors will let me smoke weed and let me discover myself and retune myself no matter how negetive I feel.

[@anacionqtfixo]

love the t.shirt

[@Native722]

Psychiatrist are con artist

[@jamieseiple]

I know how you feel...

[@DarkMoonDroid]

I suspect that the Anti-Psych message/movement has already been co-opted. I think there is something much bigger afoot here and as long as we're distracted by that packaged meme, we're going to miss it. Looking within and paying attention to what our feelings are doing and wanting is how we're gonna find the Way.

[@snuppypuppy6693]

snuppy puppy says hi!

[@mariano2078]

I Know What It Is Laura. You're Not Taking Your Pills. You Need To Stop Doing That.

[@b.j.banditt206]

I know what it is, Mariano. Ur comment 2 Laura is VERY IGNORANT. U NEED 2 B MORE RESPECTFUL.

[@dianemcmahan5159]

Your voice matters💐 No more DRUGS. 🫶🏼🙏🏼

[@juanzavala9023]

HELPP!!!! PLEASE HELP!! GOD, PLEASE READ THIS I NEED HELP!!! I'm a 19 year old who had a temporary anxiety. My physician offered another anxiety medication like it was nothing, (i've previously been on chlonodine hcl which helps for both hypetension and anxiety). I found out it was a psychiatric(Buspar/Buspirone) :/ No talk about how to use it, side-effects, how it works. And never told me it mitigates the brain. Never said it was a psychiatric drug. The first time I took it, I definitely noticed a decline in cognitive-faculties. As I kept taking it however, I seemed to regain the ability to think, however, my memory and the way I read (I tend to be VERY high in IQ, and read chunks ultra fast instead of slowly linearly from left to right) were downgraded. I will admit I took them all over the place. I tried to stick with taking it at morning (4am when I wake up) and then another in the afternoon. But honestly sometimes I'd forget and only ingest one. I made a follow up with my doctor once after the prescription and he told me it's until my brain adjusts. He had some point in there because i did kind of start seeing to regain my ability to think creatively but my way of reading was still changed from fast to slow and my memory was still bad. I had a realization realizing wtf I was taking and realizing it alters my brain and noticing my memory not as good and reading linearly instead of how I normally read. I then decided to search this thing up. I found out it's a psychiatric drug that mitigates the brain and I just got so fucking scared. I started searching up "buspar lowers intelligence." I've read some posts on quora about people feeling as smart as they were before and on when going on even more powerful things such as SSRI's (but then everyone is different). And other people saying "well if we define intelligence as the neurochemistry which is impacted by these drugs..." you get the point. Generally I'm hyper-aware with my eyes always looking everywhere and ever since this medicine, it has gone away. Also, I stumbled upon these videos claiming that psychiatric medicatinos can be the devil for some people: kzbin.info/www/bejne/p4XJppuBjLyVfbc They say that it impedes cognitivie abilities, but what makes me think I can stay this sane is because my very High IQ (Stanford Binet 149) took the hit and I'm still able to cognitively function. I quit cold turkey. 10 days ago was the last time I took it, after taking it for 3weeks/month. However, I did not know that quitting cold turkey was a bad thing. No one ever had these conversations with me, and I really do feel like a victim :( I'm scared that quitting Cold Turkey will do brain damage, but I searched it just lists the withdrawal side effects as more severe. I just don't know what to do man. Please someone just tell me what to do to get out of this mess. I don't want to feel hopeless. Please don't put any blame on me, I admit that I was ignorant. In fact, I grew up in a bubble of my ethnic community (Mexican) and didn't really find out the difference between an entree and an appetizer til like a month ago or two. I've also seen other posts on reddit about brainfog on buspirone/buspar, and no one believing them. But I do. I'm just so scared.

[@giuglianavaselli5463]

Hey how are you?

[@juanzavala9023]

@@giuglianavaselli5463 doing better