Red Devil & Sharing My Emotions - My Crazy Cancer Journey

[@ItsTammy]

Thank you to everyone for all your support! It means so much to me! I had the MUGA scan done and now just waiting for results. I will know more in a week!

[@motherofmany_4414]

It's Tammy! Try not worry too much. Leave it all in God’s hands 🙏🏼 we can’t control everything, sad I know but reality sweetheart Big hugs xxxx

[@tswain5060]

God bless you!💐

[@Radak1985]

It's Tammy! I wish you well hun my dad died of cancer 7 years ago. He battled for 8 years. He didn't tell me till his death bed💔💙❄💙❄💜l pray for you every day💙❄💙❄. You should wear your wig. Purple is my favorite color. I wish l could help. I'm crying, and l am just so worried. You inspire me💙❄💙❄l hope you have nitro. I used to give it to my dad. God will help you thru hun. I love you so much and l already have when l found your channel.💙❄💙❄l read a book Before You Die l recommend it💙❄💙❄it will help. I will mail you the book. I read it.

[@ebonymarie7016]

God loves you so much. Listen to sermons online and really soak yourself in the Word. The Word will bring you closer to him even in your darkest moments.

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away everyone 😥

[@Phyllis-nk5ji]

You are a true hero. You are one tough lady who refuses to just give up and every time you keep getting slapped down by this nasty disease you fight back. I'll be watching to see the results of your heart test and hoping that it's as strong as you are. You have made me realize that every day I'm given is a blessing.

[@joistevens6463]

I’m so sorry, I understand trying to balance quality of life verses quantity is tough! My friend did this chemo for her cancer and she is still here! Prayers are being said! I had stage 3 colon cancer and I have permanent neuropathy from oxaliplatin chemo. Its definitely a worthwhile trade off because I’m still here. It was a rough trip tho! God understands when we are human and get angry he still loves us.

[@ItsTammy]

Joi Stevens I agree with you! The neuropathy has gotten better and I’d rather have to deal with that then not be here with my family! Sending you hugs 🤗

[@nichole9447]

Tammy, I'm praying for you. Continue to have hope and faith in God. Thank you for sharing your story! Much love from Virginia!

[@PBottomPoochies]

Wow. Your feelings are SO totally normal. You're really handling this so amazingly well. No one blames you for being terrified. But I'm SO glad you are surrounded by GOOD family who loves you, and they are really lucky to have you in their lives. My very good friend lost her husband to mantle cell lymphoma in 2014 and it was a 2-year long battle. She said he was SO angry, and honestly who wouldn't blame him. But I would just surround yourself with good people, get out when you can. The bests things in life are really just right there in front of us. Practice gratitude. I tell myself that every day bc I also have anger issues with God. But God gave us this life - it's up to us to use the time that we have wisely. Prayers and blessings you have help and divine guidance to deal with these side effects to move on to happy living!

[@iprefersteve]

I will be praying constantly for you, babe.. and specifically for your heart. I promise. I’ve been dealing with a ton of fear and anger myself lately and have had to constantly remind myself who is in control. I know it’s not easy, but you can rest in that. God is by your side, and you truly have nothing to fear.. ❤️ Even if circumstances don’t change, I would much rather go through the struggles of life with God by my side than to try and bear the weight of things alone. You are not alone ❤️ I’m sending you hugs from afar. If you need anything, I’m here.

[@ItsTammy]

iprefersteve you are always so sweet! Thank you so much! Your support means so much to me! 🤗

[@iprefersteve]

It's Tammy! Oh honey, you got it. 💘 Wish I could be there to give you so many strong hugs. Xoxo (My name is Carey, by the way. I know my username is deceiving) ;)

[@charlee2149]

Oh gosh I remember the Red Devil! I had that for my lymphoma. :( Sending lots of love xxx

[@ItsTammy]

Charlee Farrow thanks for the comment and support! How are you doing now? I got one more week and then round two of the Red Devil! I just gotta keep focused! 🤗

[@charlee2149]

It's Tammy! Hi Tammy! I am in remission now. Luckily! I was stage 4 with Hodgkin’s. Wasn’t the nicest 30th birthday present! Lol. Xx

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away 😥

[@MrsJulieannG]

Hi Dear Tammy!! I just found your channel through KZbin suggesting it. You are such a bright light on my KZbin. Your positivity just shines through and makes me smile. I will keep you in my prayers. I know God is holding you right now. I am so sorry for your pain. Your videos here are helping sooooo many. Your honesty is raw and beautiful. Thank you and gentle hugs.

[@jakiabad]

You have a wonderful soul. I love watching your videos they take me from sad to happy. I love the faces you make at the end. I’m praying for you and I believe with all my heart you will win this fight. Sending lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

[@ItsTammy]

jakia heard thank you! I love doing the little characters! I love comedy, and always wanted to try stand up comedy...so I thought I would add a little humour in here! Glad you enjoy it! 😊

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away

[@denisereynolds2399]

Hi lovely lady. Im a new subscriber and have watched quite a few of your videos, trying to catch up with your journey.I’m sitting here watching and listening to you thinking omg, this wonderful human being with the beautiful face telling me how she’s doing and I cannot honestly imagine what you are going through. My heart is breaking for you. I know you don’t want sympathy or tears , but I tell you what hun, you are absolutely amazing. How you go through each day with your awful ongoing conditions and with no let up, I just can’t imagine how you feel deep down. Your poor mouth looks so sore and that’s because your trying stuff to help other parts of your body. I’m so sorry your in so much pain hun. Your Mum sounds wonderful, and I’m so happy you have a great family behind you. I cannot put into words how amazing you are. Your chatting away telling your story,and your courage doing so, is unbelievable. Absolutely love watching you. Your an inspiration lovely and I send lots of love and prayers to you. 💖🌷🌹🌺🥀🧚🏼‍♂️🦋😘

[@ItsTammy]

denise reynolds thank you so much for your support and for subscribing! Glad to have you here! And thank you so much for your words of encouragement, it means so much! 🤗

[@denisereynolds2399]

It's Tammy! Your welcome lovely. Glad I met you💖🌹🌺🌷🦋🧚🏼‍♂️🌸😘

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away 😥

[@denisereynolds2399]

Red Butterfly omg really. When ?

[@Makeupmadness11]

Tammy you are such an inspiration! I have watched all your videos. You are in my daily prayers always. Keep fighting and know that we are all standing behind you! ❤️

[@moonieb2857]

And don’t be scared hun you’ll be fine you got this

[@karenelliott6044]

Hi Tammy, I had the Red Devil for breast cancer 8 yrs ago. It caused the same mouth sores, nausea , Pink Pee!! After 3 rounds I had docetaxel. The oncologists threw all they had at it. You are dealing with your treatment in a most courageous way. Sending my love your way. Keep on keeping on! Love from Essex UK xxx

[@ItsTammy]

Karen Elliott thank you so much for your comment! I’m glad you made it through the Red Devil! I keep telling myself, like the little train”...” I think I can, I think I can....No, I KNOW I can”! And reading comments like this really help me! Thank you so much 😊

[@vickyrogers3690]

Bless you sweetie ❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻. Praying to our Lord that your heart stays healthy during this treatment. Lots of love your way ❤️❤️

[@gonewiththekale]

Bless you Tammy, you are a beautiful warrior. I would make yummy thick fruity smoothies and freeze them into popsicle containers and suck on those not only for added nutrients and calories but also to numb the mouth sores. I’d also stay away from processed sugar because it’s sticky on our blood cells. I was born with a hole in my heart too! I had an Echocardiogram and it was amazing to watch how the fluid passed through (I did have a rash reaction from the dye tho, not noticeable by me but it was to others looking at me😂). You will enjoy the experience, it’s indescribable seeing/hearing your heart, and it changes you in a way💖 I don’t think you should worry sweetie, God has you and all of us in His hands, but you’re always in my prayers- I want your journey to be a long and successful one🙏🏼❤️🦋

[@ItsTammy]

Gone with the Kale Hi! Thank you so much for your comment and support! It means so much to me! Sugar is the worst thing to eat with cancer! I try to stay away from it but when I had lost my appetite for a while, they had me eating what I could because they didn’t want my weight going down so quickly! I am also type 1 diabetics so I try hard...but I have a soft spot for sour candies! Lol. 🤗

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away 😥

[@gonewiththekale]

Red Butterfly oh my god. my heart crashed to the floor and shattered into a million pieces reading this. thank you for letting me know. i am crying my eyes out right now. and her poor family, i hope they are doing okay, they are in my prayers. i will look for her up at the stars tonight 😥🙏💔

[@MarionetteFromSM]

stay strong sweet lady much love and prayers....

[@nikkiibascur2056]

Awww Tammy I'm praying for you. Lots of hugs from me in Australia xoxo

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away 😥

[@JenniferMcCrayEileen]

Tammy I don’t know how you have the energy to make videos ! I really hope your treatment works for you and you don’t have to suffer anymore . I’m praying for you . You are such a strong woman ! I look forward to seeing you on your scooter !

[@ashleyf9327]

Praying for you Tammy. I just stumbled upon your channel a few videos ago and absolutely love you and your strength! I'll pray for you daily. I wish cancer were nonexistent. Stay positive ♡♡♡

[@justhannahbanana7381]

Wow you're amazingly strong! 💪💪 I'm sorry that you're going through this, but don't worry. I can tell you're a fighter so please hang in there! Much love prayers sent your way. 😘👌

[@SookiRose]

Stay strong Tammy. You can do whatever it takes to get better and give yourself more time. You’re heart will be ok. Sending good thoughts and health you way. Don’t give up or lose faith. We’re with you in this journey. Enjoy what you have right now and fight for tomorrow.You have a ton of people routing for you.

[@JasmineEleonora]

I will pray for you, Tammy! I will pray that God will protect you and soothe your soul and your symptoms. I'll light a special candle for you!

[@ItsTammy]

Snowie thank you so much 😊

[@BougieMagicwithGinaWelds]

I am so sorry you are going through this. I am experiencing those oral sores right now, but from a lupus flare, not cancer. I truly understand how painful they are. Those side effects from the medication sound horrible. Hugs and prayers go out to you. Thanks for sharing your story. My head will remain shaved in your honor and those original friends on my list. Much love and respect

[@serinat2181]

Love, hugs, good vibes and prayers your way 🤗🙈💖👌

[@tigertalks1567]

Make smoothies, frozen blueberries, coconut milk, almond butter, in a blender. Cold, frosty, easy on the mouth. Nutritious.

[@sunnydaygina]

I've prayed for God to protect your heart, for the pain to ease , have the fear go away so you can live longer as you want. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Breaks my heart. I'm relieved that you are turning to God. He will never ever leave you nor forsake you. Heaven is a physical place where there's no sickness...only joy, love like we've never experienced, peace forever and ever. I don't know you but wish I did...I do love you! You're a strong fighter!! God be with you sweet Tammy❤️🙏🏼🙏🙏🏻❤️

[@iowamama2313]

Prayers going up for you. My heart goes out to you.

[@Sarah1920s]

Donna Martin she passed away 😥

[@iowamama2313]

Red Butterfly I’m so sad to hear that. Thank you for letting me know.

[@foodiethebeauty]

I looove Dollarama woot! Love the purple hair! You are in my thoughts xo

[@ItsTammy]

The Chantal Show Dollarama rocks! Love it! Thank you for all your support! It means so much! 🤗

[@moonieb2857]

Praying for you love you are a sweet woman you love you 💗💗

[@mooseknuckle2265]

Prayers lovely xo ❤️

[@Sarah1920s]

Moose Knuckle she passed away 😥

[@pamelachandler1813]

Praying for you Tammy. You deserve a pain free life. Have a great time enjoying going outside with family. Lots of prayers for you. 🍀😷🌞💜

[@traceydeering8123]

You are such a strong person Tammy.....and let me say when your bucket list is complete...make a second list! Take one day at a time and know we are all praying for you 💖

[@deannaharby5677]

I love the purple wig---I would wear it out everywhere---it is the style now and it will make you feel good. You are so strong to be explaining your cancer to us. You are showing what is Really important and Matters in our lives---and that is our health and time--such precious things. You are helping others and that will always live on---- feel good Tammy--and do the things you want to do ! love and blessings....Deanna

[@Pinkgirl9765]

God bless you!! Tammy you are a fighter Am praying for you EVERYDAY. LOVE your videos

[@melissaswartz75]

Hi Tammy! New subscriber here. I found you through my recommended videos. I am so very sorry you are going trough this. You will be in my daily prayers hun. Much love to you ❤️

[@ItsTammy]

melissa541 thank you for subscribing. The support really means a lot to me! And your kind words! You are so sweet! 🤗

[@veryoriginalname366]

I stumbled upon your channel by accident. One of the best accidents ever! You are iconic!

[@ItsTammy]

VeryOriginalName that is so nice for you to say! Thank you so much for all the support!

[@lesliec8349]

✨Hello, Ms Tammy.. Such a pleasure to meet you..you were on my recommended videos and I was drawn to you..I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES. You are such an incredible being...you have such a lovely soul..I'm sending Love..Strength and Healing vibrations your way! Thoughts Become Things and my thoughts are going to be that you are Healed and Healthy! Much love from my house to yours~Leslie✨🙏✨💗

[@brendanjamieson]

You're incredible. An absolute inspiration. Sending love from Chicago 💕

[@dittokiddo3186]

You’re right, you do win either way!! I prayed for you and will continue to do so, and yes, feel whatever you feel, and it is ok!!!! Sending so much love to you, and I may not meet you ok Earth, but girl, I will come give you a big hug when we get to Heaven!! ❤️👏🏻 thanks for sharing your beautiful soul with us! I love your videos!!

[@ItsTammy]

Dittokiddo you are so sweet! 🤗. Thank you so much!

[@yemayajk594]

Greetings, Tammy! So glad to see you and hear you’ve had a few bright days this week. Especially that you were able to get out for a bit of shopping fun! I think you are simply amazing in your determination to battle and be victorious. In fact, you are winning! Every day you pick up your sword and take on this foe, you are winning! That spirit inside is simply valiant! So happy for you that you have this. Of course you have moments of fear, probably even sheer terror. Especially as there always seems to be some (or many) new issue to wrestle. It means you are living in the moment, embracing the “what is” of every day. The amazing thing is to see how you take it in, feel the emotions it elicits, then keep on moving. Awe-inspiring! You are an amazing woman! Take that in. Truly amazing! Great big warm Florida sunshine hugs to you! -Yemaya

[@southerngrandma4353]

I'll be praying for you, God bless you🙏❤️

[@s-happy1478]

hi tammy just found your channel and i think you are brilliant. i have health issue myself but watching how you deal with your health issue is so inspirational to me, thank you, you are in my thoughts and prayers, sending you all my love and positive thoughts. xxxxxx

[@gabrielsnotdead6912]

Never give up its half the fight, I lost my mum to stomach / oesophagus cancer in 2016, I cared for her 24/7. The scans missed a 12 inch tumor aswell as others. I knew a lady who lived past her a 'few months' by 2 years. 💗💗💗

[@lindagardellini6321]

Hi Tammy! New subscriber here. I'm a fellow Canadian currently living in Australia, so G'day from Down Under! I've been binge watching your videos to get caught up with your story. You are a beautiful soul and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers! :)

[@TheMaisieFlock]

I am praying for you everyday. I am so scared for you I’m praying for a miracle and that God heals you.♥️♥️♥️

[@ItsTammy]

melodymare thank you so much! 🤗

[@ThirteenDarkRoses]

Praying for you hun! Gods watching over you.

[@Sarah1920s]

I already miss her. R.I.P. So sad she didn't last a little longer. I know that's what she wanted. Poor lady. My heart breaks for her. 😥😥

[@shonaghify]

Just found your channel today. Sending neverending prayers and luv from a fellow Edmontonian

[@Starlababy]

It's a beautiful day here in London, On. 15 degrees here. Sat in the sun. I love going to dollarama. Sorry you are sick.

[@oriaaspenalexander]

Prayed for you. hoping for the best. May God protect your heart.

[@wilmapug]

Hi Tammy! (My mom’s name is Tammy too :) ) I’m a new subscriber, I really admire your attitude, honesty, and positivity that I’ve seen in just a few videos of yours. I’m also a type 1 diabetic as well. I also admire that you are able and willing to be honest with us all, and show your emotions and feelings, I know how hard that can be. Sending prayers your way 💕💘♥️💜💕

[@kimbees324]

Prayers are being said both for the results of the MUGA scan and for comfort and peace of mind!

[@trishbresolin8212]

Hi hun I just happened to come across your channel and wanted to say that you are very strong and I will be praying for you 💕

[@spoiledwife4life]

You are in my heart and prayers everyday! ❤

[@mattfacemire8686]

God bless your soul❤️ prayers going your way🙏🏻

[@irenew6202]

I lost my husband last Wednesday. .because of this terrible disease. ..I am praying for you sweet lady. .

[@rachelarmela]

Sending so much Love ♥️✌🏻

[@tayler8377]

Sending you lots of love! You have a shining personality!

[@Mrs.Floyd1970]

Prayers going up Tammy 😍😍😍😍

[@tigertalks1567]

Also you can get a fat straw for smoothies, bypass the sore mouth.

[@ItsTammy]

Cynthia Black that’s a great idea! I’m going to try it out!

[@AraCod]

I an praying for your heart vseret girl. Cute sweater :)). Love to you from the USA

[@marieince3239]

Sending prayers 🙏

[@Sarah1920s]

Marie Ince she passed away 😥

[@marieince3239]

Red Butterfly oh no I'm so sorry x

[@briannaash92]

Sending positive energy from Tampa, Florida. ❤

[@lisaanne3065]

I hope and pray everything is ok with your heart,you will be in my thoughts,take care💙💚💜🌸💗

[@00aga00]

Tammy, don’t wonder if you’ll win one day - you’re already winning! Every single day :)

[@ItsTammy]

Agnie K thank you much! It is so true!

[@motherofmany_4414]

Praying for you beautiful lady Thankyou for sharing, I’ve been waiting for you to upload for days lol I was worried about you You take care ok, all my love from the uk 🇬🇧💞🙏🏼😍xxx

[@Actionfiguresarefun]

Hey Tammy your so brave, those pills sound awful. I will include you in my prayers. 💕 don’t worry and stress yourself out just put your trust in God. I’m going to say a rosary for you right now.

[@ebonymarie7016]

i love your intro. I needed the smile

[@ChristinaMaritza81]

You are always in my prayers❤️

[@yvettesavo18]

Tammy your fears are totally normal and I cannot imagine how scared you must be. I will definitely pray for you through your battle with this evil disease. I know this must sound cliché but please stay positive and fight, fight like you've never fought before. I also feel your anger towards doctors who treat their patients as a whole instead of individuals. They assume and give false assumptions without listening to their patients symptoms and fears. Who can possibly know their body than the person themselves. Many cancers have been overlooked and labeled as the flu, arthritis, anxiety etc. Doctors Must listen to their patients symptoms and don't speculate what it can possibly be without intense testing to rule cancer, especially in this damn age where cancer is the #1 rapidly growing disease known to man. Maybe if many country would concentrate on giving more of our tax dollars to finding cures or even better treatments for the various different cancers out there, instead created weapons to show off and compare who has the most powerful tanks, the biggest worships, the most dangerous missles and bombs, which by the way is can be a major factor to causing certain. may actually have a cure for many cancers today. Instead our leaders take our tax dollar to mass produce these people killing weapons. As you can tell I am enrage that people as yourself and so many are children, are dying due to lack of funds for research. I so sorry for dragging on hun but I'm enraged that a nice lady such as yourself who as yet has so much to give and to in this world should have to instead fight to keep herself alive with these very dangerous drugs. But yet let's ban the dangerous cannibis (which by the way has be proven to help Manny patients with all sorts of conditions ) so people don't get "HURT" please really! I'm sorry again hun, it's just not fair. GOD BLESS YOU SWEETIE MY PRAYERS WILL BE WITH ALWAYS. Ease excuse any grammatical errors. 😊🙏

[@Tessanna12]

Omgosh! Right there with you about getting to go to the dollar store! So happy for you. I haven't been out except for Dr or hospital visits for over a year! never have time to go on a "just for fun" shopping spree. We talk about it, though LOL so happy for you! Glad the nausea isnt bad. Praying the chemo kills it ALL! The Power of God is greater than that whimpie old tumor! [We] can do all things through Christ who strengthens....😇😇🙏😇 Phil 4:13 KJV🙏

[@ItsTammy]

Tessanna12 thank you so much! Yes, I am praying this chemo kills it all! They keep telling me it can’t cure it but God is greater then anyone or anything! 😀

[@stephaniejohns5435]

I’ll be praying for your heart as well.

[@Sarah1920s]

Stephanie Johns she passed away 😥

[@stephaniejohns5435]

Red Butterfly oh that’s so heartbreaking! Thank you for telling me.😢😢

[@Tessanna12]

Ps. I LOVE the wig!! It does look really cute. Ive had that mouth meds! It works.. called nystatin, but only works for after tou ra just e it, at least for me, lasted maybe 2 to three hrs, but you have to take it 4 times a day. It's banana flavored lol it's tolerable and it does help!

[@l--lllllll-POISON-lllllll--l]

New subscriber from Australia🇦🇺 your a truly beautiful soul and i dont see you going anywhere soon...

[@AussieHeyJude]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Praying for you Tammy 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@vicky123star5]

Hi Tammy ❤️❤️❤️. You are so wonderful women. I will praying for you . Big hugs from uk.

[@dianehill9353]

Praying for you and watching your videos...xxoo

[@capper7575]

Ohh honey please dont be too scared. Im going to pray even harder for that fear. Im really sorry you deal with chemo. GOD is there. For you. He. Has risen. You will rise also. And have strong faith. Hold on

[@sophieag7796]

My mum battled lymphoma cancer and in the ward she would sing "I'm h a p p y, I'm h a p p y, I know I am I think I am, I'm h a p p y" was such a funny moment hearing the ward of patients all start singing it late at night

[@serinat2181]

Your mum seems amazing x

[@ItsTammy]

Serina T she is absolutely amazing and so supportive! But if I don’t listen to her (like not over doing it), she threatens to take my iPad away. Just kidding! It’s a little joke we have! 😆

[@serinat2181]

It's Tammy! Aww aha that's so cute ! Bless her and you, you lovely and genuine kind hearted woman 🙈💖👌

[@tawana251]

Praying for your healing. In the name of Jesus.

[@christinecortese9973]

I lost my trust in God after watching my husband suffer and die in 2016. Working to get it back, but it’s a struggle. As we get closer to the core nitty gritty of life we are deepened and refined by suffering; perhaps you’ve been “chosen” to fast-track your spiritual growth by going through this crucible. Maybe the outcome doesn’t matter as much as the journey. I don’t know. You are in my prayers.

[@ItsTammy]

Christine Cortese I totally understand what you are saying! It is hard to trust God after we have been through something so painful. I was hurt because I couldn’t understand why God would let me get two cancers after fighting so hard. And I certainly couldn’t understand how he could let me get terminal cancer. But then I realized that unfortunately death is part of life and because I believe in God and Jesus even though I may die physically, he is healing me spiritually. I am sending you 🤗. I am taking it day by day and letting God strengthen me on a daily basis. I am sorry you went through such a tough time but God is there. He never leaves us alone.

[@motherofmany_4414]

Tammy you are a remarkable lady, and your story is helping so many people when they watch your videos God bless you xxx

[@tammytucker4658]

Glad you are a believer . Have you ever heard the song by Hillary Scott “ Thy will be done “ ? It is what we believers need try to submit to. Sister I had breast cancer and the radiation left my heart jacked up. For some strange reason I have liver cirrhosis ( nvr touched a drink) . It seems my health has continued to decline to the point I am tired of fighting. As a believer you know the 2corithians 5 :8. Also Jeremiah 29:11 my plans for you are good not for harm . I hear u i feel the radiation killed me . It is ok not to like you are going through . Hang in there meditate on Gods word he will never leave not forsake you . Please try to find that song on you tube listen to her say why she wrote it . Prayers for you . On Red Devil plenty have done it go for it . I WILL NEVER SAY I LOST A BATTLE GOD IS THE AUTHOR OF MY LIFE IF I DIE HE TOOK ME HOME BECAUSE MY WORK HERE WAS DONE . So I finished my race . 😘

[@PecanBaby...]

Is there not some bonjella which is a cream for mouth sores and teething in babies this can be bought in pharmacies and some supermarkets. I live in the UK. I am sure that your doctor should be able to give you something stronger to help ease the pain. My heart is breaking for you, I know what you are going through I have lost loved ones myself. I am and will keep praying for you.

[@ItsTammy]

pecan baby 3107 I am getting a special mouthwash that freezes and numbs the mouth as well as an ointment. We have gels for canker sores etc and I use that. But it doesn’t last long! The sores are starting to feel a bit better today! So I am so hopeful! Hugs to you 🤗

[@Sarah1920s]

pecan baby 3107 she passed away 😥

[@TammyGrosso]

Did you know that another reason why it is called "The Red Devil" is because it makes you pee red!!! It really does. LOL! So just make sure you drink lots of water to flush it out as much as possible. Also, I totally understand the pain you are in! I had ACT/ Doxorubicin and Cyclophosphamide and Taxol when I had Breast Cancer in 2010. I also had to have my heart checked and throughout the treatment due to a heart attack in college because of anorexia. But I made it through that treatment. I will keep you in my prayers through the heart tests. Plus, you mentioned mouth sores. My onco just perscibed me Magic Mouthwash for it. It makes eating a bit easier. Its crazy how much we have in common. I also have had many blood clots too. And have to be on blood thinners for it. And I also have nerophothy in my extremities. Sometimes even in my but cheeks. I know that is weird, and maybe a bit TMI. But its cancer! Another thing we seem to be alike is our questions and emotions with God. I do know that God is with me. And I know he is with you. And yes, it is ok to be angry with God. I deal with that too. I have always had a very strong relationship with God. And I thought (and still do sometimes) wonder what I am being punished for. I always say, "God, haven't I been punished enough?" I am trying to give this to God. Totally!! And I will Pray for you too.

[@karensimon876]

Praying for you, dear.

[@AnnCulver82]

I can tell you from experience ( I went to school to be a PA in oncology) the Chemo you are on has had very promising results in serious shrinkage ( of course every one is different) but I have seen very good results, also my Father was on this chemo, and he has said the disgusting side effects are well worth it.

[@brightsmiles3792]

🙏 praying for you ❤️.

[@CallMeRach-jh7hr]

Prayers to you 🙏🏻

[@capper7575]

Im happy for you for down size. Ill be praying for you. Hoping that chemo works good. My heart hurts for you. Dear friend. Love sent

[@MrTCGAMES64]

Those mouth sores 👎🏻😢 hope the side effects ease up a bit!!

[@Sarah1920s]

She passed away 😥

[@cindyhorst3555]

God doesn't give us cancer our toxic planet, food, and environment does. It gets us all eventually. God is carrying you through this and you are smart to turn to Him for help. God loves us and wants us to be happy not to suffer. I hope you get lots more time to spend with your family. That is a good prayer and I'll wish it for you nightly.

[@felicia-read]

New subby here :) I also live in Canada, was wondering which province you are from? I am in New Brunswick :) I send out nothing but love and prayers

[@sheriarnold7306]

#cancersucks 😘 keep smiling, your beautiful and you have my prayers!

[@roberthughes6919]

have you read the book "dying to be me" by Anita Morjani.

[@clarise777]

Sending you love...

[@BougieMagicwithGinaWelds]

Just add more things to the bucket list as you finish one list. That's what I did.

[@shellcshells2902]

Jesus is my everything and I am praying for you daily xxxx He's holding you. He loves you so much and He's our healer♡

[@shellcshells2902]

RIP my sweet friend xxxx