Relapse. My body gave up on me. June 26, 2024-Video journal / diary

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@brunodj5177 3 ай бұрын

I'm on the same breakup and physical injury path as you. YOU'RE NOT ALONE. In ANYthing you said. You ARE good enough.

@terri4353 3 ай бұрын

You’re doing fine. Look forward. You’ve been in a long relationship where it seems you had a lot of self doubt. It will take time to believe in yourself again. ❤

@extremedoings 3 ай бұрын

people are mean and like to hurt others and its not nice of anyone to do this to u or anyone ....ur such a bright soul strong soul and ur a beuatiful soul plese just try to when u can dust these bad people away and you should never have to feel like this ever agin i want to give you a long hug so badly :o)

@NextStopAntarctica 3 ай бұрын

I have had bursitis in my shoulder a couple of times. Inflammation of the bursa is very painful and very limiting. What you’re describing and from your limited movement, I think it looks a lot like what I had. It can occur from sudden repetitive movement. I ended up having to have a cortisone injection into the joint to relax the whole area. It worked wonders. Unfortunately shoulder injuries take time to heal. Sending positive vibes to you Tanya 🙏❤

@extremedoings 3 ай бұрын

you are good enough ur amazing and strong plese always rember this

@ТатьянаЖелезникова-д7д 3 ай бұрын

И эамок починила, и стол собрала... Продолжай также строить свою жизнь!!! У тебя все получится. Друзья-подруги помогут обязательно! Пусть это будут твои последние слезы!❤❤❤

@x1928 3 ай бұрын

Sometimes when we sleep, specially on our side, we can pinch a nerve or numb the arm sleeping on it the entire night. I do this just about every month. I think you need a day at the spa))

@x1928 3 ай бұрын

It's gonna take time. Stay strong. The positive is you're not rolling over and you're fighting everything life is throwing at you.

@TANIAfm 3 ай бұрын

ugh... will it take forever to heal? that shoulder is the side I sleep on 😭

@x1928 3 ай бұрын

@@TANIAfm I'd say take a break. a couple of days, get good sleep, massage and scrape the areas of pain, use some biofreeze. Stress is also probably not helping the pain and injuries but that's life. If you can, heat therapy and ice packs or cold plunges on areas of pain. You got this!

@TANIAfm 3 ай бұрын

@@x1928 I see.... Going to the gym tomorrow is not a good idea 😅

@x1928 3 ай бұрын

@@TANIAfm немає 🙅🏽 ))

@586Rexford 3 ай бұрын

It sounds like you damaged your rotator cuff. "Bob and Brad" have amazing videos for fixing that.

@fragilefleur 3 ай бұрын

You need to rest. Intentionally rest. The stress makes it harder to recover from pain. Have you tried writing when you are feeling unable to move and feeling stuck in pain and having obstacles to moving toward your goals. Is the editing too heavy for you right now while processing marriage ending also? You can process it a little bit more each time you get hit with a wave of grief and pain. Try to make yourself focus on what you do have control over. For today and this week try to just be okay being a little broken inside and out and just sit with it. If you cry, if you miss being as productive as you want, let it go and don’t beat yourself up. I so so understand what this bad process of expecting more from yourself than you can do. You are capable of a lot but right now you need to give yourself a break. Take some unnecessary optional pressure off of yourself and just try to be okay with not feeling ok right now. It is painful and it sucks. I have a similar story in some ways and it’s so painful and hard. If you just left in April, it’s way early in the grief process. You are pretty isolated and I am and was also and understand what that’s like. I also am disabled with spine issues, arthritis and chronic pain and a freaking tremor that drives me insane even more and has taken away my ability to do art. It’s a bummer and if I focus on it too hard I get to wondering what the point of life is but also I know and love parts of the world and life. I don’t have access to much of it now thanks to my body and my ptsd and my financial constraints. Oh by the way, accept the ride for your mother. She’s coming a long way and your boss is kind to offer a ride and though it feels bad to take the favor, you will feel so much better picking her up with a car rather than her having flown so long and then needing to drag her luggage on trains and walk to your home. Take the help for your mom’s sake. I know you want to show your mom how well you are doing and how you can bounce back and how much productivity you are doing but also your mom probably won’t care how much you’ve done and will be happy you are out of what sounded like a toxic marriage (just hearing a few sentences about it). I need to go back and listen to the other videos. I find it very interesting bc I have been thru so many similar feelings and emotions and have lead my therapist tell me not to be so hard on myself and not to beat myself up. It’s hard when the person who you loved has made you feel worthless. I understand fully and I bet you are raised like I was that productivity and achievement defines how much value you have. So if you aren’t producing, working, achieving and being productive then you lose your value and your identify and self worth tanks hard and you feel like you aren’t of value in the world. That feeling, plus grief of marriage loss and war going on at home and it’s a wonder you even go workout when you are able to. I want to say so much but my suggestion is for your anxiety and fears and distress to just lay down and try this somatic exercise I will send you a link for. It sounds really hippie dippy but it really actually works to trigger your vagus nerve and your body will go from super tense and mind running fast to suddenly you start yawning and body starts to relax. It’s the weirdest thing and yet it’s just one little helper when you can’t relax and get out of the grief and pain loop. Another thing is to just write what’s happening in a private journal. Another is to take a bath for your sore spots and try to stretch the areas that are having pain. Do some exercises just laying down on your back laying flat with arms out to your sides. Roll up a towel and put it under your neck and shoulder blades the long way and a pillow under your head. Then allow your shoulders to drop down around the towel that’s down your spine area and arms outstretched. Stay like that for four or five minutes to open up your chest wall muscles and it helps your neck which might be the cause of arm pain. When we are stressed and grieving we do a lot of tensing of muscles even when we don’t realize it. Also if you have access to a swimming pool I have a card which shows basic exercises I can send if you want. I maybe able to find some of them online to send also. But I feel an affinity to you bc you sound so much like me in the area of grief and self deprecation and frustration and just pressuring yourself to be in a place you can’t be right now. You aren’t running from the grief and pain so be proud of yourself. Many people turn to unhealthy habits to numb the pain which makes life even that much more complicated. If you can find a heated pool that’s made for physical therapy even better. Just stretching your arms and walking in the water will help. It might hurt more at first but it will ease the arm pain and maybe leg pain. If it’s workout pain, try some arnica gel on the sore spots and just chill in some cozy pajamas and find a movie that looks light or watch something that will pull your attention. I have more ideas but it’s super late here. I hope you woke up feeling better today somewhat.

@TANIAfm 3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much, Amy! You are so wise and generous ♥️