Till death do us part - Goodbye my love

Already six months without her. The day I had to let her go. I will never forget what I saw when I turned my head and had to walk away. It breaks my heart everytime. When I look back to these times together, I see how truly lucky I was. Now nothing is the same anymore. But despite everything, how bad it feels, I know you know that I'm strong enough. I know you are still with me. Even though I can no longer see you and hold you.
It will always be difficult for me. A very big part of my life is gone. I don't go to the horses anymore because she is no longer there. It's just gone. and I will always continue missing it. I know what you have given me, I will no longer have, or get one more time. and that's what makes it so hard. you were 1 in a million. Ofcourse I wished that you could be with me for many more years, but when I look back, you fought for me everytime. I know you didn't want to give up, you didn't want to leave us.You overcame so many colic attacks..and how you did that, how you came back as if nothing was happened, so strong. You have always fought for us.
We already had more time than the vet said she would have. I enjoyed every moment with her. 11 years long, the most beautiful time of my life.
I want to thank all of you for the comments under my last video, for the support that I've had, the sweet words. I have read it all. as I read it I have to cry again, how you thought about us, those beautiful words. how we were an inspiration for you. it really gives me strength and support. so thank you youtube, I never would have missed it.

[@Deeem100]

Thank you all for your kind words. I can not watch the video and not read the comments without tears streaming down my face. I still have a hard time with it and the loss is there every day. I miss her terribly, you all know how much I loved her. my life is different now. I miss my happiness, my joy, the smile that she gave me. It is not only that I lost her, it goes deeper than that. I grew up with her, now matter how I felt, she was there. and when I saw her everything was good again. but I have to stay strong. thanks again for all your words. it means a lot to me. every sentence you write has touched me, that she is proud of the person who I am and that she’ll always be with me. I know that is true and I must get my strength out of that. thank you all💔

[@madeliefschop9107]

Deeem100 My horse died almost 2 year ago... I haven't been able to love any horse the way I loved him... It does get beter but the pain will never go away... The moment you have to choose between you hart beeinig broken or your horse in pain is probably the hardest moment in life! stay strong❤ I know that right now it's an wound but evently it wil become a scar. Lots of love❤❤

[@ShikadaiNara10]

Deeem100 sorry

[@ShikadaiNara10]

That horse will always be alife in your heart

[@megc6475]

I understand what you are going through. even 6 months later, it still hurts. a few weeks ago I lost my best friend also. it was very sudden, and still feel like part of me is missing. I was wondering if I could use this audio to make a video to remember clifford, and to play at his memorial service in a few weeks. it would mean so much to me. and I am sending prayers and thoughts your way for Felicia. -Meg

[@checkmate2489]

Deeem100 ; I know how you feel. I lost my boy, Checkmate, almost two months ago. I miss him so, so, so, so much. The only thing that helps at all is that he's not feeling pain anymore, and neither is your beautiful girl. The grief never really does end, does it? I remember a famous poem that says: “Grief is like an ocean; it comes on in waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.” Another piece of song by Jack Johnson: “I'll miss my old friend, and though you gotta go, we'll keep a piece of your soul...” Rest In Peace, our friends

[@FatBlackHorse]

I will never forget how my heart dropped when I saw that she had passed away. My heart aches for you. This sweet girl absolutely thrived under your love and care, the two of you bought out the absolute best in each other and getting to watch your journey was an absolute privilege. I’m just so sorry.

[@katistiere3219]

I'm so sorry for you😭 it's been almost 1000 days since my mare passed away...i think it doesn't get easier, you just get stronger😔❤

[@hausvollertiere8873]

I'm sorry..🥺

[@lilyp6949]

A few days ago, I lost my horse too. I got her when I was eight years old and kept her until I was fifteen. She taught me how to be a good rider, how to be patient, how to trust and everything else I know and love about horseriding. And during those seven years of owning her, I have just once (!) fallen off her back. Just once. That's how careful she was treating me. We sold her and bought a bigger horse because I became a whole lot too tall to still ride on her and we did not have enough money to own to horses. That was 2 years ago and I've missed her so much all that time. It hurt so bad that I forbid myself to think about her. Now, she's dead. I can't believe it. I've been crying myself to sleep the past days. I'm crying as I'm writing this. I just wish that one more time, I can touch her. Her furry brown body, her soft nose and feel her breathing. I wish so bad I could see her one more time alive.

[@amyhanshaw9184]

Oh my gosh, this touched my heart. Just know, we are all here for you. I’m sorry, I know what it’s like. ❤❤

[@heidihoney1]

This was the hardest video for me to watch. I understand what you're going through, and it is so far from easy. I agree with you, i keep replaying what happened, and quite honestly it hurts still for me to walk by the spot where it happened. But something that has helped me cope is that you just have to remember the good times you two had. And know that she is always always watching over you, and she will forever! I am so sorry you had to go through this..my heart is broken for you.❤️

[@rdr-unshaken]

I cried watching this, so beautiful but so sad. I recently lost a horse 😭

[@ronnyxmessieditz]

I can understand how hard it is when your best friend is gone its too hard for me too watch my heart would break if my horse would pass away I know how hard it is for you

[@ToriShrum]

The day right after Christmas I had to put my horse Newt down it was the toughest day for me that I ever had to go through, and after hearing this I cried so hard and couldn’t stop because I miss him so much.

[@ludwigvan24601]

A real nice Haflinger Soul I once had a Shire Horse who was gone very sad but and thats the point in my arms... I promised and we gone the last way together I love Justus so much.

[@breyersnhorses2321]

My heart stoped when I noticed it passed away I feel bad

[@peytontrahey9630]

I never want to lose him but he’s almost 37 and Ik one day I’ll get that call while I’m on school or out and idk what I’ll do

[@leashorses1802]

Enjoy EVERY second with him 🙏🏻

[@Animallover9244]

Enjoy every minute with him is he still ok?

[@nkhn2054]

Yes please enjoy every second!! this happened to me today

[@leahisther4242]

You did a beautiful job with her! She was so lucky to have you!

[@Deeem100]

Lea Høisæther Thankyou so much!! And I was so so lucky to have her..

[@oumyara4137]

I know the feeling... it's terrible.💔

[@bcproductions267]

its all good I know how hard it must be I lost a stallion 2 years ago and his name was Lectiure Felicia loved you and i know you will reunite with her Restbin peace from Gracilla

[@AviSweetHorse]

oh sweetie sorry I didn‘t know.. Was not often on youtube and this made me speechless and I‘m so so sorry for you.. If you want to talk or you are in need of someone to listen, here I am... sorry ai didn‘t notice earlyer... many hugs for you❤️ Now Avi and Felicia are together on the evergreen pastures and they look down at us and I‘m sure that they will be proud of us! xoxo❤️

[@domb3279]

Am sorry for your loss she will always be in your heart and your never forget the lovely times you had with her RIP to your horse

[@ionna4677]

I am totally in tears. This was something such beautiful and it hurt me deep inside, to know the pain you're feeling and to feel it by myself. I am so sorry, fly high Felicia and run fast without pain.

[@paigewyllis1281]

I knew this horse called Bruce, he hasn't died yet but because of Covid I haven't been able to see him and because i haven't seen him for so long i absolutely miss him . i remember that he always hated people and he always loved his personal space but i don't know how we made a very deep connection when i first set eyes on him and i think that a very deep and strong bond has grown between each other. but everyday i miss my best friend, but i know one day i will be able to see him again but for now i still miss him and it hurts so much when i think of him.

[@emilysmith-jf5bx]

I love this video, it sucks me back into reality....That the beauty I own, I have to cherish because time flies by and I never notice . 😭this is a beautiful video ❣

[@jaysfarm9342]

I just found this video and I can’t watch it without weeping. I just lost my baby and I feel this pain. The reminders in this video to keep going are so helpful. I wish the best for your baby and I hope she’s flying high. Maybe yours and mine are galloping across the fields together. I like to think they are happier in the sky but it hard to think that because of the emptiness we feel down here on earth. Fly high sweet angels and I wish everyone going through this the best luck❤️❤️❤️

[@fernlintner65]

Thank you, we lost our 9 year old granddaughters horse today from a broken leg…. Thank you

[@megv.7088]

i understand this feeling completely. when my horse died my world ended. i’m still trying to figure out how to go on but this video really helped ❤️❤️

[@eqestrianhors542]

3:15 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💌💔❣️

[@ii_daria7559]

I’m crying so much right now..I’m in 2020 and in quarantine and I go to horse riding and ride a horse that is also palomino like the horse in this video and it brought me to tears..

[@ursazidar2093]

I lost my 5 years horse Luna today too.. She was sooo wild, so steong and beautiful.. She passed away.. Forever in my heart😭😭❤️❤️ #foreverfree

[@MM-vn9le]

My horse was the same breed as yours. he passed away last summer. That day is one ill never forget.

[@calidahill3374]

I just lost my 30 year old Welsh pony quarter horse mix opal and I'm heartbroken. I can't believe she's gone

[@josefinebostrom4677]

Wow, just wow. I can't even imagine how you must have felt, though I would probably be heartbroken.😪

[@Tanner-Pferdetraining]

Omg the last few seconds broke my heart

[@rezwanmahmudpathan5365]

We all have scars,, we all have pain,, we all have suffered ,,,,, but if you have not earned a horses trust you will never understand the true meaning of friendship,,, never,,, If you have ,, there is always a story,,,

[@loislinders54]

Omg I almost cried of this beautifull video so sorry for ur lost ❤️😭

[@Julia_equestrian]

I am so sorry she was so beautiful and sweet I know it’s hard to let go but soon it will be easier and those moments remembering her that you were crying will turn happy because you will notice that you had gotten a once in a lifetime experience because of how special she was.

[@gemmawaterman5914]

Stunning, and so relatable. Sending my thoughts and love to you x

[@HaflingersKingBeau]

Oooooh Demi... Tranen over m'n wangen. Wat heb je dit ontzettend mooi samen gevoegd! Het leven is zó oneerlijk. 😞💔

[@GreyWonderx]

i can feel the insanely much pain ...but girl,scars will heal soon...she is still here with you ♥ she is in your heart forever keep up! xx

[@giovannifox7148]

Wat a beautiful pony. She lives on in your dreams. One day you will ride her again.

[@Deeem100]

Giovanni Fox ❤️

[@karal8617]

I know how it feels to love, but I’m afraid to know how it feels to lose that love. My deepest fear is that he will leave me one day without saying goodbye.

[@caressasaima]

This made me cry😭 I lost my horse last week, I miss him so much😭

[@lifeonthesaddle3031]

I’m crying I miss minty so so so much now 😭😭

[@eqestrianhors542]

I could not arise from the cry

[@deniseshephard3347]

I'm so sorry for your loss your mare was geoegious

[@xtoddie]

Awh I'm so sorry, I hope you are doing okay :( This video is amazing and completely does justice to what an amazing partnership you had. I really hope you are okay ♥♥

[@marinafernandes985]

Such beautiful memories to look back on! The bond you had with Felicia was truly remarkable and I can only imagine how much it hurts that she's not here anymore, but she'll always be with you inside your heart and I'm sure she's looking down and she is so proud of the person you are.

[@jessieratcliff3824]

She is waiting for you to come up to heaven so you and her will be together ❤ my vet wanted me to put my mare down cause she was a 1 she was a rescue I refused and she is still here cause I wouldn't give up stay strong even after all this time

[@x5xdreamforeverx5x]

I am so sorry.. It's always hard. You can't do anything.. It's hurt so much, I can understand you.. So so sorry ❤️

[@1maripaul]

Oh my gosh, i have to go see my horse who's been with me since he was a baby and now is 16. I JUST had to put him in up for board last month bc we sold our home....I havent seen him since and I feel like I am the worst person in the world bc he too is that "One of a Kind" I have so many people (horse People) tell me that, his vet, his farrior EVERYONE wanted to buy him and now I let him go without even saying goodbye bc it was just too hard. I am so sorry for your loss but just know that you have made me re think everything about him and what the heck i am doing. I know he is wondering where i am, he was with me everyday for 16 years and now i am just gone. I feel like He feels like how you do only (like our position is just opposite) although I know it doesnt compare to actually losing your horse and I know that! I just know that I have watched him getting so much older and have a bout with founder last year and his health has declined (i know bc i didnt ride him like i should have and he was missing other horses bc he has been by himself which made him even more reliant on me) so I chose to just walk away and see him every so often bc it hurt to see him. I am going this week after watching this video and I will go every week there after and do what i know he wants me to do which is to ride and get him out like he always loved so much!! I am so sorry for you loss again and just know that you and your beautiful girl are helping others ....MUCH Love to you! Xxo

[@user-ek1oy2rl6v]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[@Samanthavb]

Wat is de wereld oneerlijk, en wat zou het fijn zijn om gewoon nog een dag samen te zijn... ontzettend mooi, prachtig.. sprakeloos...

[@marianacloudside8007]

Wow... i don t word but courage.... it s hard to say goodbye at horse bestfriend

[@Deeem100]

❤️

[@xJokeNathanWega]

Crying my eyes out... Zó herkenbaar. Ik kan geen woorden verzinnen die de pijn kunnen verzachten, want ik weet dat dat niet helpt. Maar ik vind het prachtig dat je zo'n mooi eerbetoon aan haar kan geven. Stay strong!

[@jennyklotzbach]

Amazing video ! I‘m so sorry for you. I wish you much power to get through this✨

[@blessedfire365xgf]

Thank you so much

[@mariesummerrockao2080]

Im watching this everytime and everytime if im watching this im crying.. im so sorry for you loss😭

[@MarteRasmussen]

This video was amazing! you two were amazing together, I'm so sorry

[@daisyvann4124]

looks like my favorit pony , they are so sweet

[@Marniemaus123]

Seitdem ich überhaupt jemals auf KZbin unterwegs bin, ward ihr beide als Team da. Es tut mir so unendlich leid. Ihr beide ward ein traumhaftes Team und ein großartiges Vorbild. Ich wünsche dir viel Kraft. ❤

[@grxffintea953]

Omg the start got me, I am so sorry for your loss, I know what it’s like ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Jelieb]

stunning and amazing video! I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@HannaMattis]

This is the most beautiful video I have ever seen

[@seelenpferd9615]

I know how you feel.. lost my horse after 10 months.. at the date of 18.07.19 it feels like i can not breath anymore. I had to cry so much honestly the end of your video breaked my heart again.. i'm so sorry for your loose and i really can feel your pain.. but see she was so luck that she had a chance to know you and standing by your side. She would say thank you. Hope she is fine in Heaven and i know she is waiting for you... keep your head up. R.I.P beautiful Girl ! :(

[@sarahgoldman3455]

I went to horse camp and met this haflinger horse as well her name is willow but after the camp was over the owner of the camp went to a retirement home so I can never see willow again and every time I think of her I cry.i know that I won't be seeing her again for a very long time I dream of her every night I'm in a wild flower meadow and willow is just there with me but I know it's not real I miss her so much.😭

[@melindaengstrom9102]

Lost my horse in 2017 and it still breaks me.

[@FancyBug123]

This is so stunning You two will always be one of my favorite pairs

[@Secretariat69]

Reading this video's description made me cry.. She was a very beautiful horse, I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@laurax9632]

This is a very touching video, I cried when I was watching it. I don’t know how you were so brave as I would never be that brave if it was my horse xxx 💖 I really do admire you 🐴💞

[@Deeem100]

Laura - Loves Sky That means a lot❤️ Thankyou

[@lucylovesdogs6954]

My horse died only a few months ago. It’s shocking! S/he will be in your heart forever and in ours. 😭 I’m so sorry, I with they didn’t have to go Omg thanks so much for the heart!!!

[@ElLa-oh8cc]

Animals Choices I’ve lost many horses. Lately I lost my special pony. I’ll never be able it replace him 😭

[@xxnadaxx6565]

It's breaking me to see how broken you are... I understand your feelings, I've lost a person of my life and had to leave so many "heart" horses... Had seen so many broken souls, hearts. It's making me cry. Hope you'll get better soon, although I know you probably won't... You are not alone❤

[@ElessarEquestrian]

What beautiful memories to be able to look back on ❤ I know you will never stop missing her, but think of the amazing eleven years you've gotten with her and what she has been able to teach you for you to carry on with the other horses and future horses. Every horse you own and ride from this day on will be influenced by your time with her, therefore her spirit will live on through all the rest of the horses you touch for the rest of your life ❤

[@chloeequestrian1600]

I’m so sorry but you gave him/her a great life and he/she is in a great place now 💗

[@TheNativeHorses]

My heart still breaks so much over this. ‘You’ll remember this day forever’ it’s so so true 😫

[@JoniqueEshuis]

En nog steeds kan ik het niet geloven😞 Mega mooi gebaar , lieve Demi😘

[@eden9826]

Im so sorry. You seem to be a brave person so you will get through this. You and felicia were a great team and she will be missed!

[@171Hunterjumper]

When I saw this I had to run to my computer to watch it. Your story with Felicia is just so beautiful and goodness this video gives me chills. I cannot believe it has already been 6 months just yesterday it feels like you made your goodbye video to her. You are such a strong and genuine person Demi and It's been so nice getting to know you and your just such an amazing person who I admire greatly.

[@hesteyrihorses1958]

This video is so beautiful but so heart breaking. Love to you x

[@Deeem100]

Hesteyri Horses Thankyou so💔

[@XeemxLou]

ohh vind het nogsteeds echt zo erg voor je he.. heel mooi gebaar dit!♥

[@spiritxmaureen]

Ik vind het nogsteeds zo erg.. ik hoop echt dat het goed met jou gaat!! Deze video is hartverscheurend mooi. Heel veel sterkte!!

[@kenleighchapman]

I feel just like this when horse past away on Christmas Day 4 years ago

[@Mellepunter]

No words can describe this one! So beautiful, and emotional :(( Couldn't hold my tears back when I start reading. I feel so sorry for you, and I wish you only the best! I think no one would be able to understand how much it most hurts. But I hope you know that I and so many others are thinking of you. You and Felicia have inspired me, since the first time I saw you two together. She will never be forgotten

[@aaronbuyse7179]

I’m so sorry for you, cause I feel the same!! They are a big part of ower lifes!! just lost my beauty!! And I just wanne see them again!! They are now at a better place!!

[@paigebreinich2521]

My horse died almost a year ago and thank you for bringing back memories So precious😞❌⭕️

[@bella_jagger6198]

I just found this, I hope you’re doing better. This was the first video of tours o found and the editing is beautiful. I am so so sorry

[@xilovekyra]

Zo heftig en mooi filmpje weer.. 😔 nogsteeds heel veel sterkte meis ❤

[@bellaequestrian5161]

I’m so sorry 🕊

[@jadeanderson7264]

you are both so strong. she loved you so much and will continue to love you and look down from above, remembering all your good times. rip beautiful girl. x

[@Deeem100]

jade alice Makes me cry reading all this sweet words.. thankyou and I know she will always be with me❤️

[@Lovepepdon]

Wauw zo mooi meis! Alsnog heel veel sterkte 😔❤️

[@MarenWijke]

Jeetje Demi wat een supermooi filmpje ❤️ Heel veel sterkte 😢❤️

[@JJ-sy8ww]

I'm so sorry. it's just heart-rending. I started crying when I saw this video and feel with you.

[@Deeem100]

Judith Jeske ❤️

[@amandaschultz2414]

Rip my large Friend Ringo Star.. 2007 to 2019..❤️

[@amandaschultz2414]

Im broken... When I'm alone I just cry... When I come home I'm saddened because he's no there... Sorry for your grief...

[@sarah-marie855]

I am so sorry!

[@itsurgirlash471]

): Sorry for your loss! :(

[@ottb.Ivy_]

This makes me think of my mare she passed at age 27 a long life most say. Colic is a monster and took my baby girl too. My parents bought her when she was 6 before i was born and i grew up with that mare we were inseparable most say. She was a 16.3 hand chestnut Oldenburg mare with a big blaze and a striking blue eye on the left side. I'll never let go of the time my best friend drew in her last breathe. R.I.P baby girl i'll see you on the other side, and we'll both be in god greener pastures.

[@amberxbjorn746]

wauw deem zo mooi gemaakt, zo knap van je dat je dit überhaupt in elkaar hebt kunnen zetten, je bent zo sterk♥. Het spijt me zo erg dat jij dit ook moest meemaken.. hou vast aan de mooie momenten die je samen hebt.. en alles komt uiteindelijk wel weer goed. Het word niet makkelijker maar je leert er mee leven. En ik weet zeker dat dit je gaat lukken♥. xx

[@B0redLik3Always]

Pretty horse sorry for your lost I am super sad I got some news a few hours ago and at my nannys field there was a emergency and she rushed her horse to the vet holly and her horse holly passed away in the back of the horse box I was crying alot and I am super sad my nanny is also super sad I miss u holly wolly your my favorite girl horse forever and ever u are always heart

[@lifeonthesaddle3031]

There was a Horse at a nearby stable I sometimes go to and that was a pony named minty she was my love my heart my soul my home my family my words my breath my everything she was very old and she got retired I love her to pieces the second I looked into her eyes smile is not love me but I love her I just wish I could be with her now I love her so much why did you have to grow up so fast I love you so much and I might seem silly but I’m crying right now and you are my love and I will never forget you phone the moment I looked into your eyes when I went to the stable next time and I heard that she was retired I was crying in my heart my heart was black I couldn’t see properly I felt sick without her now whenever I go to the stable I feel empty hottest without her God bless him and he for ever

[@equii6931]

She will always be with you, only she is on the other side now❤️

[@jsbdbdbxbxb5666]

i cried

[@alinaad3004]

This is so saad🥺❤️

[@miranda5085]

OMG SPENCER HASTINGS!!!

[@phoebechadwick3272]

I had to leave my pony and the other day my friend told me that he passed now my heart aches it’s suck a horrible feeling since I never got to say goodbye to him 😭

[@Deeem100]

Phoebe Chadwick So sorry for you!!😢

[@phoebechadwick3272]

Deeem100 I’m sorry about u and ur pony

[@sofiedewith5703]

today i lost my best buddy my favorite horse got sold but she is in a better place now 😔❤️

[@EquiEsti6194]

It’s been over a year since I lost my boy... it doesn’t get easier, but you learn to accept what happened and you have to think about how it was for the better. I hope you find peace with what happened and I’m so sorry💔