I'm Not Doing This Anymore...

Remember, you are who you choose to be...
Music by Limerick-based electronic musician Lizard Man.
/ lizardman.jw
I made this last year for my patrons, and finally found the something to make it public ^^

[@nassimtanha318]

ahhhhh I won't lie, the title of the video gave me a little heart attack. And it is sad to see you go. I have always enjoyed your presence, the energy you pour into these videos. It always felt like lots of sparkling little packages of smile. sorry I'm getting sappy. But goodbyes tend to get a bit sappy, I would say. I am really really really happy that you seem to be happier, more grounded and on the track you seems to be wanted to be on. I am glad you are making decisions which make _you_ happier. I will cheer you on from this corner of the world. Dance along, live joyfully and spread joy as you always do. Until we meet again.

[@WonderingWildWanderingRose]

I'm so happy for you to hear of your growth! I subscribed to you due to your BTS analysis/reactions, and since their message is so based in Loving Yourself, I just want to hug you so tight for giving yourself permission to stop if you want. I want to cheer for you taking care of yourself in such a way that you no longer need our validation (is that ironic? Lol). Your journey has been part of my journey to love myself, so I want to thank you for sharing so much of yourself, including your vulnerability and parts you might have thought were icky, as they certainly helped me feel less alone and more courageous to just be me in front of others. Thank you for sharing your energy and inner light. It had been an honor and pleasure to share the path during our journeys. Take care and love yourself, always💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🖖✌️

[@boopshadoop9758]

seeing the title waas Definitely a stress i did Not needsdkfjhsd, but i'm happy to see it was less dramatic than it looked 🥺 this reminds me of how youtube used to feel, before everyone was a Content Creator(tm) and there were all slaves to the algorithm. when you do stop by, i'll be glad to see you, and when you're away you'll be living your life and that's wonderful. also it's like, i think as we grow, we have so many different relationships with people, and some of those are frequent and regular, but some can be put on hold for months or Years while you each learn and grow and Live your own seperate lives. i can't remember what my point is anymore but those relationships are really special, because no matter how long you are apart, no matter how long you need to be elsewhere, there's always this comfort in knowing that there is someone out there who knows you and thinks of you fondly. i wish you all the best on your journey, and i look forward to the times we'll meet again, whenever they may be 💕

[@lesley1346]

it was good to hear from you. hope you continue in a positive direction 💜

[@kaitlyntrussell2489]

Oh riki, I hope for you to continue to find so much peace in your life. It was very lovely just to hear a clip of your voice you have brought me a lot of warm feelings through your videos and I wish we were real life friends! But alas I really respect your feelings about your internet presence and good on you for doing what feels right! A thousand well wishes to you and if/when you post ever I look forward to it Love and big hugs, Kaitlyn

[@SixtyDoesStuff]

I LOVE your growth. As always, I respect and ENCOURAGE you to do what's best for you. 💟 And I feel that love, thrown from your core, just right in the face. Like BOOM

[@peachxtaehyung]

I'm sad because I cannot afford to get on your Patreon but I am also really glad that you're doing better now mentally!

[@ShanReads]

Thanks for sharing. I think it's super important to take care of one's self (especially right now). I take social media breaks every few days just to have to quiet. I'll miss your videos but hey when I miss you and your joyous energy about dance I'll just rewatch some of your older ones. Take care of yourself. ❤

[@shakthis.9709]

this video was so gracefully done and im really glad that you felt able to share this chapter of your life with youtube! thank you so much for all the content youve made the past few years, i hope the future treats you well ♡

[@jirihozpodebrad23]

Good luck on your further journey sweetie 😘 No need to apologise for anything! Hope to see you around somewhere again soon xx

[@AlleyBetwixt]

Was just thinking of you and hoping you were well! Glad to hear you're finding a different way of being that works better for you. I've been on a similar-ish journey, letting go of obligations on social media I had chained myself to. The relief has been immense as those things have fallen away. What you said about the calm of feeling 'I don't need this' rings very true for me. It has really clarified that I want to cultivate and protect that progress, keeping that space free for things that are healthier for me. Sending you love and encouragement!!

[@jasperavelis9678]

You gotta do what’s best for you! Will look forward to any content you decide to put out.

[@ellenwhite1655]

I think about you in my daily life too. In fact I was thinking about you earlier today. I was watching another reactor who didn't care about the content they put out, and you came to mind as an example of being such a huge opposite. I wondered how you were doing in your daily life, and I hoped you were well. Maybe teaching a dance class and smiling. I'm glad to hear that you are. I'm never dissatisfied with the gaps between your videos. I'm very happy with 6 months or a year between, or whatever works for you.. If and when they pop up, they're a gift. Thank you so much for sharing a glimpse of your life, mind, and journey. I wish you always happy wherever you happen to be.

[@disiztemp5870]

Really pleased for you and your personal/emotional growth. It sounds like you're in a much better, healthier place now. I don't think you owe us an apology; we've been fortunate to be able to enjoy your content. Looking forward to whenever your next video comes out (even if it's years from now). Stay strong and enjoy that inner peace. You deserve all the best. 💗

[@hanhdiemta7992]

Sincerely wish you allll the best with whatever you do in the future :)

[@CalestoBella]

I am always happy when my fav creators develop healthy relationships with social media. I will always be excited to see what you want to share with us!!

[@Joey-sj8my]

Hi Riki, It's so good to hear from you, so thank you for making this statement explicitly and informing us. It's wonderful that you've grown so much over the years and are doing much better thanks to therapy. I totally get feeling distanced from social media, since I'm not on any of the platforms myself and I completely understand that having a KZbin channel and Patron account must feel like an extra pressure sometimes. So, I'm really happy to hear that you're doing what you want to do and not because you think you need to do something. I'm really happy that you don't feel the need to escape the real world anymore. I think you're such a strong and pure person and I fully support your choice and wish you the best. But goodness you scared me with the clickbaity title XD. I must say I am gonna miss you, (I think I'm just gonna rewatch all your videos in time) but overall I'm just really glad to hear you're not stopping KZbin altogether. I will look forward to your surprise updates through the years, especially since it will come from your own heartfelt wish to put content out. I'm sure this lovely community you've formed will be here and welcome you with open arms every time in circle time no matter when you choose to upload something. So, you go girl! You do you! All the love from the Netherlands, - Joey -

[@andromeda156]

Sending hugs 🥰

[@charlottepark8855]

Take care! 💜💜💜

[@hoot6883]

I love you :')