Nightcore - Sara (Lyrics)

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RubyChan's Nightcore

RubyChan's Nightcore

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@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
Thanks to We Three for making this amazing song! I have been listening to this track on repeat for a while now as I think it is a masterpiece that really touches me! Let's all give some love to everyone in the comments and hopefully y'all like it as much as I do 💜 Watch We Three's live performance of "Sara" here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/naKsZpKCqsuSoc0
@puppywow5549
@puppywow5549 4 жыл бұрын
This is good I like it
@diab3702
@diab3702 4 жыл бұрын
استمر اسطوره❤😇
@NickyChanNightcore
@NickyChanNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
Beautiful song and video Robin! Hope you're doing well ❥
@dr.mitsuha
@dr.mitsuha 4 жыл бұрын
It's so beautiful 💕
@saracrysis2851
@saracrysis2851 4 жыл бұрын
It’s been 8 straight hours and all I’ve done is just lie down in bed and listen to it for loop. I think I might just do that the whole day.
@ZeoZennstorm
@ZeoZennstorm 4 жыл бұрын
"She is just looking for her angels but they are little hard to find" Beautiful 💙
@jordynmichael4991
@jordynmichael4991 4 жыл бұрын
So true💙
@Sara-zk5qo
@Sara-zk5qo 4 жыл бұрын
True 💙
@friedvodka3843
@friedvodka3843 4 жыл бұрын
angels* 💙
@NotActuallyABattery
@NotActuallyABattery 4 жыл бұрын
Biblically accurate angels: 👄
@music_loverbff2682
@music_loverbff2682 3 жыл бұрын
Maybe they are trapped inside?
@marshmelloreaper58
@marshmelloreaper58 4 жыл бұрын
Just a cut Just a scratch "What’s that mark?" "It was the cat" Just an excuse Just a lie "What’s with all the bracelets" "Just fashion why?" Just a tear Just a scream "Why were you crying?" "Just a bad dream"
@cassiemartin2846
@cassiemartin2846 3 жыл бұрын
yeah this is true
@minecraft3961
@minecraft3961 3 жыл бұрын
True
@Jocelyn-hr8vu
@Jocelyn-hr8vu 3 жыл бұрын
@@hayleefunk7874 same but some songs actually trigger my emotions, well my anger and frustration there is one song called "antitode" it triggered my frustration
@michellehonshul5403
@michellehonshul5403 3 жыл бұрын
True
@saraazlan8735
@saraazlan8735 3 жыл бұрын
@@Jocelyn-hr8vu I know that song too
@sangeetakhandelwal3105
@sangeetakhandelwal3105 4 жыл бұрын
"Now it's 6:15 and you're on your knees, blood is on your sleeves, and your lungs won't breathe Eyes are watering, body's shivering, and you're wondering what is happening" It gave me chills :) please stay strong guys❤️
@Charlsy-sd2hx
@Charlsy-sd2hx 4 жыл бұрын
I'm trying 😢
@addie3147
@addie3147 4 жыл бұрын
that part always makes me sad bc that’s exactly what happened
@sangeetakhandelwal3105
@sangeetakhandelwal3105 4 жыл бұрын
@@addie3147 yeah the most traumatic ending I ever listened... Stay strong and think about your loved ones before doing anything.. Free hugs for you❤️💗
@ljviernes6194
@ljviernes6194 4 жыл бұрын
I did read your comment at the right timing......
@ankevanderwesthuizen4110
@ankevanderwesthuizen4110 3 жыл бұрын
I wish this song would scare me out of it it's like I envy the dead... and I think thats fucked up... I just wish people would stop making me feel like their life would be better without me They don't say it but... they always point out my mistakes...
@Meipngxin
@Meipngxin 4 жыл бұрын
This is really sad yet it is beautiful, describing the life of a depressed girl, This is really beautiful, and I hope if anyone is feeling like this, please know you're awesome
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
❤️
@jada969
@jada969 4 жыл бұрын
thanks but i don't feel that way but thanks anyway 😅
@paulcreacy5549
@paulcreacy5549 4 жыл бұрын
@Hana's Random Uploads Don't say that you are not awesome. Everyone has pros and cons. Mabey one of your cons is not seeing how great you are. I may not know you at all, but I know you are awesome. Think about everything good that you have every done. Even if it is something as simple as getting a good grade on a test. You are awesome. Like I said before, I don't know anything about you. But don't think you are not awesome. Everything you do is awesome, even if you don't think so. If you don't think you are awesome, like I said before that is just one of your cons. I know a lot of people think you are awesome, including me. I know you have no reason to trust me at all, but please do. A lot of people think you are awesome. Would someone who is not awesome be where you are today. I don't think so. You are awesome. You are awesome at whatever you do. I know you will live a good life.
@tylerforehand2983
@tylerforehand2983 4 жыл бұрын
"Depression is like a big fur coat- it's made of dead things, but it keeps me warm."- Icon For Hire Sure, its warm, but it's also trying to kill you from the inside out.
@oofoof6315
@oofoof6315 4 жыл бұрын
@@paulcreacy5549 That was an amazing thing to say!
@YanZhu02
@YanZhu02 4 жыл бұрын
This song So Calming myself when i fell bad, Thanks RubyChan For Always Promoting Good Music ❤❤
@chaoticcreature8896
@chaoticcreature8896 3 жыл бұрын
Same, sad/depressing music always calms me down when I'm not okay.
@elizabethmccarty2121
@elizabethmccarty2121 3 жыл бұрын
Same... sometimes i wanna let out my stress, its better to cry it out then keep it in
@savvysav4459
@savvysav4459 3 жыл бұрын
😔😔😔😔😔😔
@stardust942
@stardust942 2 жыл бұрын
Yeah this is so calming❤
@kaelamaclaughlin
@kaelamaclaughlin 4 жыл бұрын
This is the type of song that stays with you.
@polish_filipino
@polish_filipino 4 жыл бұрын
Songs like these make you wonder if the singer is talking about themselves. Or what they think a sad person is like I think it's about themselves
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
Hmm 🤔
@whatidoisnoneofyourbusines9318
@whatidoisnoneofyourbusines9318 4 жыл бұрын
I think about myself
@ohannacathirine1009
@ohannacathirine1009 4 жыл бұрын
I think it might be about themselves too.
@lucidfangirl1030
@lucidfangirl1030 4 жыл бұрын
I always think they write songs about their experiences
@lunacris5870
@lunacris5870 4 жыл бұрын
I think it's about a friend they had
@saracrysis2851
@saracrysis2851 4 жыл бұрын
The fact that the name I identify is Sara, and the lyrics are so damn relatable, hits my heart like a .50 Action Express bullet....thank you....This is the best song I’ve heard till now......
@runnyexro9631
@runnyexro9631 4 жыл бұрын
I was taking classes but for rubychans nightcore it can wait right?
@sweetface6861
@sweetface6861 4 жыл бұрын
Hellzz yahh😝
@runnyexro9631
@runnyexro9631 4 жыл бұрын
@@sweetface6861 I KNEW IT
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
Yash _but don't tell anyone I said that, I can't have a bad influence :x_ hahahah 😂
@runnyexro9631
@runnyexro9631 4 жыл бұрын
@@RubyChansNightcore YESSIR
@Alexiety-
@Alexiety- 4 жыл бұрын
im listening to this in the middle of the night(12 am)
@gabrielcorsino7955
@gabrielcorsino7955 4 жыл бұрын
Sad fact: the tablet that she is holding has low battery and that means she cant go on with life anymore...And the charger cable is her drinking trying to get away from all the sadness...
@PleasantHomoSapien1233
@PleasantHomoSapien1233 3 жыл бұрын
I only picked up the part of low battery, but great to know, Kinda.
@tenshishimura
@tenshishimura 2 жыл бұрын
The low battery represents how tired she is of faking her smiles and pretending to be ok… the charging cord could also represent what’s left of her will to live and how it’s taking all of her everything she has just to wake up every single morning…
@aixha2824
@aixha2824 2 жыл бұрын
Why would say that? This a true story of a girl whose suffering mentally. That's messed up to say 🙁
@tenshishimura
@tenshishimura 2 жыл бұрын
@@aixha2824 because the second I saw that drawing in a way I saw myself… because every day that is how I feel, that is how I am… and im so tired. But I have a reason to hold on.
@kitm3945
@kitm3945 2 жыл бұрын
Actually the point of it is to show she's putting on a mask and a fake face when in reality she's not doing well and the charger is showing not matter what she tries nothing helps so it'd a broken charger
@thatonepanperson9783
@thatonepanperson9783 4 жыл бұрын
I saw this on my recommendations and I was like ‘oh ha, my name is Sarah I wonder what this is’ and then I started to listen and it almost brought me too tears, since this song hits a little too close to home
@saracrysis2851
@saracrysis2851 4 жыл бұрын
A bit too close for comfort, isn’t it...?
@Nothing-gr9hy
@Nothing-gr9hy 3 жыл бұрын
@@saracrysis2851 saras be in da comments 👀
@sarahdabel7022
@sarahdabel7022 2 жыл бұрын
My name is Sarah too. And I also saw this song thinking aww sara and then I listened and I cried because this at one point could have been me. I got help though. And I’m happy now. I have support. It hits so close to home. It’s a beautiful song. ❤️
@sarahammonds5767
@sarahammonds5767 2 жыл бұрын
It makes me feel understood
@sarahteeken3249
@sarahteeken3249 Жыл бұрын
Hits a little to deep i crie everytime i hear this song
@zerozero2166
@zerozero2166 4 жыл бұрын
While listening to this my mind went places Imagine You are a little kid You are walking across an abandoned road with your mother and father Nobody is paying attention to you and your father starts to run Faster and farther he runs You call out for him to come back But he doesn't hear you You turn to your mother for help but when you look to her she's also gone Now your all alone crying.. Despite You start running down the abandoned road You're running and running Your whole world is falling apart around you There's nothing you can do You're crying harder and harder the faster and farther you go Finally you come to the end of the road there's nothing but a cliff You stand there screaming and crying for your mother and father to come back But they never do.. And still we put a smile on our faces and pretend it's okay but it's really not..
@jada969
@jada969 4 жыл бұрын
yep we all do it
@endaomo_
@endaomo_ 4 жыл бұрын
Gross....
@sianni22
@sianni22 4 жыл бұрын
@@endaomo_ What was gross about that?
@cloadetta2504
@cloadetta2504 4 жыл бұрын
@@endaomo_ what’s so gross? It’s not gross! It’s sad..
@zerozero2166
@zerozero2166 4 жыл бұрын
@@endaomo_ lmao gross?
@vaishnavikaligotla9600
@vaishnavikaligotla9600 4 жыл бұрын
Everyone puts on a fake smile. Tries to please the people. To all the pretenders, Try smiling for yourself sometime :)
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
Yash! ^^
@mr.supporter4u
@mr.supporter4u 4 жыл бұрын
Kinda get Criticized when you smile "For Yourself" People are Wierd these days. You Smile for yourself and your considered Selfish for putting your happiness first.
@sunnybunny2751
@sunnybunny2751 4 жыл бұрын
I can't, My emotions died the day I Almost took my lifw
@vaishnavikaligotla9600
@vaishnavikaligotla9600 4 жыл бұрын
@@mr.supporter4u I'm sorry to hear that. But, just know that it's okay, it's your life to live and they cant take or define that right.
@vaishnavikaligotla9600
@vaishnavikaligotla9600 4 жыл бұрын
@@sunnybunny2751 You didn't die, you are still here commenting on this post.. maybe they are still there too.
@thewitchon2ndstreet
@thewitchon2ndstreet 2 жыл бұрын
The pic is what made me first click on this otherwise I don't think k i would've found it thank u so much! I needed this song in my life thank u rubychan's nightcore
@swee_zaide
@swee_zaide 4 жыл бұрын
"I don't wanna die. I just want to stop living, I want to be dead."
@swee_zaide
@swee_zaide 4 жыл бұрын
@I Cri Some Times Lucky you. Those who know the difference know the difference.
@janice8563
@janice8563 4 жыл бұрын
Me:Same like u But My reason is Nobody trust me nor my parents ........... It's like I'm dead but I'm still living
@jrl97
@jrl97 4 жыл бұрын
We're all on the same boat..as a team, sharing common situations, let's all keep living and go through life together .. *We are Warriors*
@saraazlan8735
@saraazlan8735 3 жыл бұрын
Same here
@bellabelles1105
@bellabelles1105 3 жыл бұрын
Same it’s like I don’t want to die but I want to disappear, evaporate, kinda like I never existed in the first place
@hyunryu6077
@hyunryu6077 4 жыл бұрын
For all the people who are listening to this right now: Take care of yourself! You're the one who's love for yourself matters the most! You're the only one who shoud acknowledge your effort! Keep fighting! If you need to take a nap, talk with someone or just cry, go ahead! Focus on your own happiness and don't forget to eat ramen~
@mawce201
@mawce201 4 жыл бұрын
And dont forget to eat ramen, kids! Cuz ramen = happiness (or at least in my life)
@bubbletea6617
@bubbletea6617 4 жыл бұрын
It’s ok to be happy and it’s ok to be sad. It’s ok to be stuck. Just push through, because someone’s waiting for you at the end of your troubles
@mawce201
@mawce201 4 жыл бұрын
@@bubbletea6617 idk why but this seems very poetic-
@Gamerqueenfr
@Gamerqueenfr 2 жыл бұрын
I'm really trying, I've held on for years but I got scars, bruses and marks from my depression 💔
@MrTrixi13
@MrTrixi13 2 жыл бұрын
Omg yeah i cant live without ramen
@jamiechittick5263
@jamiechittick5263 4 жыл бұрын
Sara means: Lady, Princess, Noblewoman, in Hebrew, In Urdu the names means, pure, happy, happiness, laughter, joy, and delight, in Islam Pure, untainted. Probably not relevant, but I though it was a cool fact, because her name means the opposite of how she or he feels, So he is your teaching lesson from a unprofessional person
@heidi3816
@heidi3816 4 жыл бұрын
wow cool!
@miraikuriyama7077
@miraikuriyama7077 4 жыл бұрын
Excuse, It's not necessary that a girl whose name's Sara wud be a Princess or be joyful or happy. The Singer is just trying to tell a story, of a Suicidal Girl. And I guess that's not an unprofessional teaching but the song's 'LEGENDARY' .
@Nakidori975
@Nakidori975 4 жыл бұрын
I don't even know what to say rn...
@ayoimsam
@ayoimsam 4 жыл бұрын
wow
@Nakidori975
@Nakidori975 4 жыл бұрын
@I Cri Some Times Lol
@adogithethey5228
@adogithethey5228 4 жыл бұрын
I've never been this early before! Great song
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
^•^
@mr2wavy
@mr2wavy 4 жыл бұрын
wow ive never heard this song but its so damn relatable and now i love this song...4th time playing it back
@evi393
@evi393 4 жыл бұрын
The fact that a song could be so relatable and actually describes the shit I did and went through is mine blowing. Amazing video.
@feliciadenby7594
@feliciadenby7594 6 ай бұрын
So friggin talented... The rap, the message, everything.. what a brave topic to address and it was done perfectly 🙏
@rayyan21d
@rayyan21d 4 жыл бұрын
*100 reasons lo live* : 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Meaningful sex. 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and s'mores. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Singing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it. Everyday is a new opportunity 🙂
@notsosickityanymorebutnowp6918
@notsosickityanymorebutnowp6918 4 жыл бұрын
Chill Jeez how long did this take you to type Or did you copy/paste it Anyway all 100 is correct
@sarahammonds5767
@sarahammonds5767 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much
@child_of_Apollo_and_Hades
@child_of_Apollo_and_Hades Жыл бұрын
101 reasons to live*
@joey00198
@joey00198 Жыл бұрын
i only need one reason and its the reason that has kept me from ending things a couple times now... if i die then the people who love me will get sad and i hate the thought of not being able to make them happy again
@HellokittyxSpiderman
@HellokittyxSpiderman Жыл бұрын
My parents will never love me
@abnormallynormalperson270
@abnormallynormalperson270 4 жыл бұрын
I appreciate when people make stuff like this. I have no idea why. It is a good song though.
@Lmao_moood
@Lmao_moood 4 жыл бұрын
"people only realized what's precious to them until they lost it " _ unknown
@finalspace297
@finalspace297 4 жыл бұрын
They would rather see u on ur back then see u on ur feet _me
@sandydewaynemarks2918
@sandydewaynemarks2918 4 жыл бұрын
I'd rather you give me flowers now rather than waiting 'till I'm dead- a traveller
@englandshere9751
@englandshere9751 4 жыл бұрын
sorry for ruining the sad mood but I just ruined the 123th like
@lili.reinheart2832
@lili.reinheart2832 3 жыл бұрын
Yeah.
@yn5811
@yn5811 3 жыл бұрын
“Suicidal kids tell other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer” -unknown
@khenzanimyers
@khenzanimyers 4 жыл бұрын
This pic is perfect for the song. She's only showing people what they want to see and not her current state which is low on energy and will and ready to die. You did amazing with getting his message across.
@arasmith9076
@arasmith9076 4 жыл бұрын
Three years ago, I had a project for my French class (which is my native language) where I needed to write a "short" story of ~1800 words. I was very inspired, so it ended up being around 5000 words. It's about a girl who didn't get along very well with others at school and spent most of her time alone. On her last birthday, she received a present from her grandmother: a feather and inkpot set. Although she never really was a writer, the girl decided to try it out after her only (and totally fake) friend suggests she gives it a shot. Alone in her room, she prepared a few paper sheets, filled the inkpot, and let her imagination take over. For hours after that, the girl restlessly let her hand fly over the many sheets she had prepared, writing anything and everything that came to her mind. But she had way too much to say. Way too many things bottled up inside her. She couldn't stop and didn't want to either. She didn't eat that day, but she wasn't hungry. She didn't sleep that night, but she wasn't tired. As a sea of paper began forming in her room, her parents started to worry about her well-being. They tried to reason with her only to be met with silence and a cold gaze. Another day went by. The initial stack of paper had run out, so words started appearing on every surface of the room. The floor, walls, and ceiling became full of words of pain and sorrow. At some point, the inkpot had completely dried up, yet the girl kept going. With still so much pain to share, the girl slit her wrist and let her feather bask in the red, warm liquid flowing out of the wound. Finally freed from her burden, the girl collapsed to her knees with, for the first time in a long time, a true and genuine smile on her face. When her parents next set foot in her bedroom, they were met with a storm of words and sentences. A hurricane of pain. However, the most painful sight was the motionless body of their daughter in the middle of the room. Under her long dark hair laid a peaceful smile. She wasn't breathing. Nor would she ever breathe again. Her name was Sarah.
@michaelqin7175
@michaelqin7175 3 жыл бұрын
damn
@brendalewis4709
@brendalewis4709 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for writing this loved it it's sad 💔
@therandomkid
@therandomkid 3 жыл бұрын
DAMN THAT HITS ME LIKE A TRUCK
@alzashaikh8932
@alzashaikh8932 3 жыл бұрын
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 u left me speechless
@carog5720
@carog5720 3 жыл бұрын
Thats a very good story! How did the teacher react?
@TrinityDozier-g6q
@TrinityDozier-g6q 5 ай бұрын
I've started doing SH a few days ago and this song makes sure i know I'm not alone. Thank you for posting this song in nightcore and this video in general.
@Flo-h8p
@Flo-h8p 3 ай бұрын
You’ll never be alone, it’s a big world thats full of people who will be able to help you and of people who have been in a similar situation
@Delaney_floats
@Delaney_floats Ай бұрын
Hey -- I know this is a bit late, but as someone who fought one heck of a mental battle and has been clean for almost 3 years now... God, I remember how scary that first time I did it. And I wish someone had seen what was happening to me during those first few months and reached out before it got... bad. You're not alone. And your pain is real, but you don't deserve the things your mind is saying to you. It hurts to SH, and it hurts to not SH. Believe me, I know. But please, pull out of that nosedive before things get dark. Really dark. You're in enough pain as is. You are in enough pain to deserve help. The fact that you tried in the first place means that your mind is in agony, and you aren't weak for feeling it, nor are you weak for seeking help. And there *is* help, and there *is* a way for things to get easier. It's going to take time, but it's worth it in the end. And it's certainly better than that sort of darkness that tells you that you deserve to suffer.
@mattknott6881
@mattknott6881 4 жыл бұрын
No one should feel like this and ik that no one will see this but You are so beautiful just the way you are😊
@CelestialWolf23
@CelestialWolf23 2 жыл бұрын
I'm the lucky depressed person who saw this. I know exactly what this feels like. My mom at one point said that she was tired of hearing my thoughts with depression because they were too depressing. I had no therapist or psychiatrist, and when I did have that I would feel better for an hour. I'd try again with her but no luck.
@Mister.Sir.King._Sir
@Mister.Sir.King._Sir 8 ай бұрын
@@CelestialWolf23 I had tried to talk to my parents on multiple occasions my father was an alcoholic and my mother only cared for my second oldest sister and treated the rest of us like we didn't even exist, I would just be told all girls your age are depressed get over it Then I attempted and luckily lived only instead of even getting told I love you by them I got call an over dramatic selfish ungrateful bitch and they threaten to send me away. If it wasn't for my big brother who listened to me and talked to me about my feelings that I'm still here. I was only 13 years old at the time.
@vespmcadams6083
@vespmcadams6083 4 жыл бұрын
This song hits so close to home that it kinda hurts, it's a amazing song do not get me wrong, it brings me to tears thinking of what the song writer must have been going through, or the reason they made the song.. amazing work once again RubyChan
@jasminebilsborough5291
@jasminebilsborough5291 3 жыл бұрын
this song means a lot to me it helped me when i was going through a tough time thankyou for making it
@sarahsingh7918
@sarahsingh7918 4 жыл бұрын
lyrics: you've been skipping on class Monokuma: EXCUSE ME WAT?!
@sarahsingh7918
@sarahsingh7918 4 жыл бұрын
@uwu that pic is Mikan (im guessing) and Monokuma would never let anyone skip class
@iloveanimes6041
@iloveanimes6041 4 жыл бұрын
@@sarahsingh7918 Indian otaku/weeb! Wow!
@sarahsingh7918
@sarahsingh7918 4 жыл бұрын
@@iloveanimes6041 Im also an introverted gamer
@iloveanimes6041
@iloveanimes6041 4 жыл бұрын
@@sarahsingh7918 K
@ashblevins5260
@ashblevins5260 4 жыл бұрын
Oh no-
@himariyua2147
@himariyua2147 3 жыл бұрын
This is free therapy tbh:)
@GhostScratch
@GhostScratch 5 ай бұрын
Why does this song just hit so hard?? I'm not talking about just the beat, but the words as well. It just hits me in the feels the right way.
@saracrysis2851
@saracrysis2851 4 жыл бұрын
I woke up to find this song in my notifications, and started listening. It’s already been two hours, but I can’t help it. I’ve been listening to this song on loop, I can’t get enough.
@saracrysis2851
@saracrysis2851 4 жыл бұрын
8 and a half hours and still counting.
@candytae71
@candytae71 3 жыл бұрын
this channel deserve subscribe~
@olfat1537
@olfat1537 4 жыл бұрын
I have never been more in love with a song. Thank you do much for introducing it to me.
@kevkevbas
@kevkevbas 4 жыл бұрын
"But your friends are all still here so you pretend you're having fun" WHY DID THIS TOUCH MY HEART SO MUCH AND THE SONG ISN'T EVEN HALF WAY DONE-
@JessyeEason
@JessyeEason 6 ай бұрын
Added to the playlist to avoid having a sore wrist... This my new favourite song... This song is too underrated... This band is amazing.
@JustinVarvel-g6j
@JustinVarvel-g6j 8 ай бұрын
Still listening in 2024. Trying not to cry. 😢
@nathansto2900
@nathansto2900 3 жыл бұрын
Can we just take a second and admire how perfectly this picture expresses the soul of this song? Like seriously. It's quite the image.
@i3716_xdlistic
@i3716_xdlistic 3 жыл бұрын
Your heart isnt a door Dont lock it Your neck isnt a hanger Dont hang it Your body isnt a book Dont judge it Your hand isnt paper Dont cut it Your life isnt a cloth Dont exchange it They dont want you They need you They dont like you They love you❣❣❣
@rosewater796
@rosewater796 2 жыл бұрын
🥰😇
@child_of_Apollo_and_Hades
@child_of_Apollo_and_Hades Жыл бұрын
My hearts isn't a door It's a princess in a tower My necks a jumper Just gotta put it away My body is a mirror It shows the truth My hands aren't paper My legs are though My life is a plate It's not mine They need me Just as much as the world needs an apocalypse They don't like me That's something I agree with
@kinsleyfabian6471
@kinsleyfabian6471 6 ай бұрын
I shouldn’t be screaming this song at the top of my lungs with tears streaming down my face while I’m driving home from work every night resulting in me having to pull over to cry it out in a parking lot, but I do. It hits me in a spot no other song does, it makes me feel like someone sees it, like they understand. But it kills me knowing someone else feels like that at the same time, no one should hurt like that.
@Cho-colaz
@Cho-colaz 4 жыл бұрын
I cried after listing to the song, sometimes people smile over their problems even when they have so much pain and some of us can't see it. RubyChan thx
@morganbutlerEdits
@morganbutlerEdits 3 жыл бұрын
The end made me cry. This song is super good. It's been on loop for 3 hours.
@faithharris2105
@faithharris2105 4 жыл бұрын
I have been subscribed to RubyChan for a while now and I'm still impressed by the songs she manages to find and promote because they are all great songs
@lizzybrackel7593
@lizzybrackel7593 4 жыл бұрын
"She's just looking For her angels But their to A little hard to find." I lost my angel already...
@elizaturner4726
@elizaturner4726 3 жыл бұрын
Huh yeah for sure my angel left me a long time ago I was just to much to handle
@wolfgirllogan
@wolfgirllogan 3 жыл бұрын
NO angels I wan't to find them
@therandomkid
@therandomkid 3 жыл бұрын
same...
@carlygleason3220
@carlygleason3220 3 жыл бұрын
your angel will come back you just have to believe my angel will never come back cause the angel never existed but my devil came back and they help some times
@therandomkid
@therandomkid 3 жыл бұрын
@Esther really?
@hippie10700
@hippie10700 4 жыл бұрын
Nice job
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
^•^
@tommybourg6772
@tommybourg6772 3 жыл бұрын
They never realize how special a person is until they disapear.
@Name-kq7sb
@Name-kq7sb 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you RubyChan’s Nightcore
@YUKI-md4hj
@YUKI-md4hj 2 жыл бұрын
I just relapsed this week and this song has really been hitting deep
@izk9381
@izk9381 4 жыл бұрын
What I love personally is that singers make songs like this for a living and they know that the people Who listen to their music are in a rough time and then there are the singers who post this stuff just for the leading start on the boards and those people don’t understand what they did for that small group of people all around the world and how much better they made them feel in the moment of listening to that song
@makayla2507
@makayla2507 4 жыл бұрын
i've cried over this 5 times- this is me- I love it-
@livinginnonreality2332
@livinginnonreality2332 7 ай бұрын
I really like the heavy breathing you can hear regularly in the background. It goes really well with the line towards the end "begging Jesus, please can you make her breathe".
@kylethecarrotgames3639
@kylethecarrotgames3639 4 жыл бұрын
ok so I just finished my fight with depression and I want to point out that this song is so true. Most of the time you just feel empty and alone. For me it was just a lack of emotion and the little things would always push me over the edge into a mental breakdown and the amount of times that it said little really rang true for me.
@JosianeBahr
@JosianeBahr 6 ай бұрын
This song is 2 powerful and 2 underrated... The message of this song is everything... There is nothing bad about this song... It makes u and breaks u... It gives u power.. 2 all those people who r having a hard time please stay strong and don't give up..
@gloriareed9843
@gloriareed9843 4 жыл бұрын
The pic in the back has such a powerful meaning
@saraazlan8735
@saraazlan8735 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this. It really helped me to let all things out because I had troubles to let things out so this really help me
@InvyrDB
@InvyrDB 4 жыл бұрын
Onww Ruby, you have the most perfect AMV's ever
@CherryBG-dk3dv
@CherryBG-dk3dv 3 жыл бұрын
I love your video ✨
@sarawilliams1656
@sarawilliams1656 4 жыл бұрын
When ever I listen to this song it reminds me of how I felt about myself in middle school. This specific lyric is the closest to how I used to feel “Little Sara, you’re a diamond in the rough and I know that you don’t hear this all about enough and I’m sure that’s why your wrists have tons of cuts and I’m sure that’s why you think you’re not enough” They remind me of the words that one of my friends used to say to me all the time and what makes this song even more meaningful to me is that my name is also Sara.
@kingfreiza9990
@kingfreiza9990 3 жыл бұрын
We need to talk
@elizaturner4726
@elizaturner4726 3 жыл бұрын
I can understand wht your going through I can relate to the whole song, I just dont smoke and I still cut because I cant stop nd the only person helping me is myself no one else will no one else cares why i cut they just want me to stop so they dont have to deal with it
@SARA-d7b1e
@SARA-d7b1e 3 жыл бұрын
@@elizaturner4726 Hey... I don't know what u have been goin' through or who u r, I read your comments, seriously it hits me at the bottom of my heart i also have kinda familiar experience like u do that's why I just wanna say please don't hurt your self (ik it's really hard nd all even I also used to cut alot) Everything will work out... Nd Have faith in God He has plans nd things will gonna alright soon just hang on theree with a little more patience May God bless u Friend:)
@CassandraJarvis1
@CassandraJarvis1 6 ай бұрын
I found this on tiktok and the first time I heard it I got shivers. I know what it feels like to be Sara. I feel so lonely but this song is who I am
@saraazlan8735
@saraazlan8735 3 жыл бұрын
The title of the song is my name and that's how my life is . I'm so shocked and I really cried. Love this ❤️
@rosewater796
@rosewater796 2 жыл бұрын
Same me and bestie were listening to this song and she said this kinda describes you and I said yea She then said I'm here for you I was really happy at that moment This song is so relatable to me tho.
@minniehybe2345
@minniehybe2345 4 жыл бұрын
Wow...This is completely beautiful..its explains this world..and im on the verge of crying
@jd-s58
@jd-s58 4 жыл бұрын
I love your videos so much
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
@jd-s58
@jd-s58 4 жыл бұрын
🖤
@Sarahlovesguineapigs
@Sarahlovesguineapigs 5 ай бұрын
My name is Sarah, so I decided to give this song a listen. It really hit a little too close to home. I don't struggle with substance abuse, but I've been battling anxiety and depression for so many years now. I'm 21 now, but ironically I first discovered this song at 19, the age of the girl in the song. I honestly didn't think I'd make it this far. It's been really, really hard, but I'm still determined to keep fighting.
@thegeniusaj1655
@thegeniusaj1655 4 жыл бұрын
I was really touched after hearing this song because I take my 'horrible' life for granted but this song told me that a tough world exists outside my bubble. To the 1% who reads this, you are a great person! Always keep searching for your special angel😊
@myfirstlove7788
@myfirstlove7788 4 жыл бұрын
Hii just wanted to say i am so proud of you for just being here. Living is exhausting sometimes and you'll want to give up but dont. You're doing so well, keep going. You are never alone, you have me and countless others who understand you, love you, and support you. You deserve to be here and keep going, we'll keep going together. Remember to take care of yourself! Drink water, hydration is very important, eat as much as you feel comfortable with because your body needs and deserves fuel for a healthy life, and get plenty of rest💜 You are worth so much more than you think, you are so so very important to me. Your presence can give someone happiness, remember that. It'll be worth it in the end so keep going. Keep going so you can be so proud of yourself for how far you've come. I believe in you so believe in yourself. You are not hopeless, you deserve recovery and you well get there. Your worth is not determined by others, its you. You take control of your life. You are beautiful, strong, amazing, lovable, dont let anyone tell you otherwise. Keep the people you love and who love you close to you, dont push them away. I am beautiful I am strong I am smart I can and will be kind to myself I deserve the best I will crush my goals I will not worry about the things I can't control I will prioritize my well being I am proud of myself I am worthy I am important I am needed Recovery is not linear I am loved I am cared for I decide how my life will turn out Its okay to cry, you're not weak for doing so. Crying is a sign of strength as it shows you accept your feelings and understand that you will be overwhelmed sometimes and its good to let it all out every once and awhile. Put your hand on your heart, what do you feel? That's your reason to keep going, thats your purpose in life. Remember to breathe and focus on yourself sometimes. Prioritize your well being and take care of your mentality💓💓 @ICrying2020 is my twitter account if you ever need to talk with someone. Dont be afraid to reach out, you have a voice use it, dont stay alone in the silence. I am always here for you💞
@kookoobazoo9996
@kookoobazoo9996 4 жыл бұрын
hi i love your content
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
I'm glad you like it ^^
@TammiWilkins612
@TammiWilkins612 3 ай бұрын
The people who aren't fighting depression don't know how hard it is It hurts
@Flo-h8p
@Flo-h8p 2 ай бұрын
I know 😢😢
@mr.supporter4u
@mr.supporter4u 4 жыл бұрын
Where Are The Angel's When You Need Them.
@artinallforms659
@artinallforms659 4 жыл бұрын
I don't know, but I'll try to help you find them.
@vaishnavikaligotla9600
@vaishnavikaligotla9600 4 жыл бұрын
They believe your strong enough to handle it, and maybe you are
@jada969
@jada969 4 жыл бұрын
i know right
@Alexiety-
@Alexiety- 4 жыл бұрын
the angels are around us. we just don't know who it is
@hyunryu6077
@hyunryu6077 4 жыл бұрын
@@vaishnavikaligotla9600 No maybe here
@sarafinaabuta4496
@sarafinaabuta4496 3 жыл бұрын
Rubychan , my name is Sara as well😊am Soo happy to hear this cause , I can feel myself in it and I have actually never heard anyone sing for Sara , I adore the moment 😍
@cadennemcdaris788
@cadennemcdaris788 3 жыл бұрын
The end of this song...gives me chills every time.
@yamorigod6385
@yamorigod6385 4 жыл бұрын
I get the picture her fake smile is almost gone
@stormi_weather8366
@stormi_weather8366 4 жыл бұрын
🙂That's me sorry if I bothered you...
@yamorigod6385
@yamorigod6385 4 жыл бұрын
That is my life to, I didt get bothered
@PoetTornado2022
@PoetTornado2022 9 ай бұрын
My fake smile is completely gone - this song makes me smile naturally
@bionciastuart1734
@bionciastuart1734 2 жыл бұрын
This is a comfort... Everytime I hear it... It feels like for once... Someone understands.
@amirahhopkins3561
@amirahhopkins3561 4 жыл бұрын
Holy shit! I love this song.
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
@cloadetta2504
@cloadetta2504 4 жыл бұрын
*FBI NU SWEAR* Jkjkjk
@overchan9526
@overchan9526 4 жыл бұрын
heey~ edit: Ruby's always the first, so yeah pwp
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
XDD
@overchan9526
@overchan9526 4 жыл бұрын
@@RubyChansNightcore ^^
@iloveanimes6041
@iloveanimes6041 4 жыл бұрын
Too cute name!
@nuki-nukale-scheee
@nuki-nukale-scheee Жыл бұрын
This song put me to sleep, whenever I'm down this song helps me to focus. I love this song so much.
@soulofanartist2563
@soulofanartist2563 4 жыл бұрын
Little Sara, you're a diamond in the rough And I know you don't hear this all enough And I'm sure that's why your ankle has nine cuts And I'm sure that's because you thought you're not enough That one February, you thought that you were done Family could be seen all around, but it felt like no one Cause your brain can only think about that one nagging voice And with no friends in sight, the noise takes away your choice All the kids, they want to play, cause it's the way they're made And you are the same, yet you're always standing in the shade Music is the only sound that makes you feel okay It keeps the demons drowned out, even if it's just a day Your mind can only think about what it shouldn't Your brain will fill with thoughts you wish it wouldn't Little Sarah, perk your ears up, try to listen I know it's hard to hear cause you're locked inside a prison She can barely talk to others She can barely say her thoughts She thinks she's too complicated And people don't want to look inside Cause she's a little too outdated And they're a little too behind She's just looking for her angels But they're a little too hard to find Little girl, you've been making it to class So you know that no one's gonna ask Because you don't ever show you're sad or explain How it's not you have a mask to hide your pain The truth is it's there to cover up all the phases Cause they'd think it's wrong to be different in so many ways All except your mom, but even her it's hard to explain And don't get me wrong, I know those words you've tried to shout out But their views have been skewed by their plastic news From their copy machine, they won't fit to match your views So you've got the Sunday blues, then comes the Monday blues You feel the Tuesday blues, cause every day you feel refused All the kids, they wanna have fun cause it's a Friday But they don't understand she's been lonely since last Sunday I know you know you shouldn't say that you are ok But you say you're 'fine' so someone can see past your display She can barely talk to others She can barely say her thoughts She thinks she is too complicated and people don't want to look inside Cause she is a little too outdated And they are a little too behind She is just looking for her angels But they are a little too hard to find Little kid, last night you got it bad In that moment you could barely think, of two or more people who felt weren't pretend So that's why you decided to stop it to an end It was 10;14 and you at your nightstand Starring at your screen like you're a mistake to never understand You didn't feel a thing when you clicked the link command And couldn't imagine staying long, as you had originally planned Then it was 11;15, our heart was open, if just a little bit, and it seemed to be enough Eyes were watering, body shivering, and we wondered how this had happened Then it's 2;23, my knees to my chest, begging Jesus please, don't let them be just screens Cause someone finally sees, lets me be me, and gives me a friendship that was only in my dreams I can barely talk to others I can barely say my thoughts I think I'm too complicated And people don't want to look inside Cause I'm a little too outdated And they are a little too behind But I think I just found my angels And they are an amazing find - - - The Discord friends who stopped me from shutting everyone out
@nitcoremonster9161
@nitcoremonster9161 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@elizaturner4726
@elizaturner4726 3 жыл бұрын
Why is it that everyone can find help and they get better, but I think I found help but turns out I was blind they used me and hurt me and im even more broken in the end wondering why I even bother looking for help cuz its never coning not for me anyways
@ttvyummymilkking2252
@ttvyummymilkking2252 2 жыл бұрын
I forgot about this song funny when things decide to come back up in ur life
@TinyKongDonkeyKong
@TinyKongDonkeyKong 6 ай бұрын
I have goosebumps. A sad but beautiful song. So powerful and touching. ❤❤❤👏👏👏
@Sara_Lam
@Sara_Lam 2 жыл бұрын
Listening to this on repeat at 4 am. Can’t get over it. So relatable.
@bluechrysalis2689
@bluechrysalis2689 3 жыл бұрын
I always love music with such a meaning full lyrics, that's actually not for entertainment or to receive fame but to actually conceive a message. It gives you a refreshing feeling.
@natalia7391
@natalia7391 4 жыл бұрын
Nice song!
@RubyChansNightcore
@RubyChansNightcore 4 жыл бұрын
c:
@nicdoherty7545
@nicdoherty7545 4 жыл бұрын
I listened to this on repeat. It just makes me feel hollow, like i rarely feel sad over songs
@ginnypark4919
@ginnypark4919 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for releasing this song this exactly describes me how l am now and how l am feeling
@sarahammonds5767
@sarahammonds5767 2 жыл бұрын
It fits me so well thank you for helping me feel understood
@quick_enspired..1218
@quick_enspired..1218 5 ай бұрын
Everyone talking about the lyrics and the pain in the voice😢😢 While me thinking that why the first sigh is sooo damn good and have a lot of pain in itself to make one cry❤❤❤❤ Literally best song 😢🎉❤❤
@Kamla-jw3eu
@Kamla-jw3eu Ай бұрын
Yeahh!!😢😢
@lucillawoods3153
@lucillawoods3153 4 жыл бұрын
People think she is complycated, but they dont wanna look inside This happens alot, people are so much nicer then people think
@dark-girl
@dark-girl 4 ай бұрын
This song feels like my old golden treasure… i listen to it probably 3 years ago, i was depressed wont lie.. i did somehow forgot how deep in depression and how much i was drowning in the sadness. but now knowing that i used that song as a description of me back in the day… it really felt like a shock and a petty to my little version that i forgot about nowadays.. this song is a masterpiece and i wish it went viral like the cursing trending songs that doesn’t deserve the attention it took from some songs like this one
@LoserGeekWhateverSince
@LoserGeekWhateverSince 4 жыл бұрын
OMG I heard this person take a breath and was like: damn this is gonna be a great song😢 seems like I was right....
@livelaughlovelev
@livelaughlovelev 3 жыл бұрын
their voice is one of who has cried same with their breathing and its sad
@livelaughlovelev
@livelaughlovelev 3 жыл бұрын
@Andy Fraser true true
@hidemeplz
@hidemeplz 2 жыл бұрын
I liked how when i heard the word "blind" I noticed the scars on her arms; awesome art!
@Kitthecatgod
@Kitthecatgod 4 жыл бұрын
This made me cry :D i barely could hear the song trough my sobs, but the thing is i have trauma's about crying so i was strugeling with breathing, scratshing picking, gabing my head. Silently screeming
@dumpling7674
@dumpling7674 Жыл бұрын
The whole song is AMAZING but at the end it just rips my heart out I break down crying so hard I like cry screaming the end its such a mood one of my fav songs for years along with other ajr songs its amazing people can relate the the song so much thanks ajr
@erincrampton8798
@erincrampton8798 3 жыл бұрын
i can relate to this song so much thank u
@akirakun894
@akirakun894 4 жыл бұрын
I enjoy this song. Excited for the next Ruby Chan
@Iznotallthere
@Iznotallthere 3 жыл бұрын
Everyone wants depression until it consumes them. Until they realize they cannot escape. Until they realize it hurts too much. And how self harm is so competitive. If you see someone with scars deeper and more vibrant than yours, you want to change that. You want to one-up them, even if it hurts. Because your a little too R-rated, you think nobody cares. Because your in pain you invalidate yourself. Your not okay and you know that. Your antidepressants don't work, they never have. But you don't speak up, because you don't want to be controlled. Because it's easier to pretend than it is to speak up. After all, you've been pretending for quite a while now.
@Playlists723
@Playlists723 2 жыл бұрын
I have been struggling from day to day. And I'm always down but nobody notices. And if I say something about me going to a therapist for cutting, my mom says that I don't need it, but I can't do this fucking alone.
@Iznotallthere
@Iznotallthere 2 жыл бұрын
@@Playlists723 I'm here for you. Recovery is possible, I have been clean for 1.5 years, there is that bright light at the end of the tunnel, I'm so close to it and you can be too
@CelestialWolf23
@CelestialWolf23 2 жыл бұрын
I never wanted depression, and it consumes me when life is rough.
@ttvyummymilkking2252
@ttvyummymilkking2252 2 жыл бұрын
Yeah but I don't want to anymore Its too l8 tho
@PoetTornado2022
@PoetTornado2022 8 ай бұрын
I keep lying to my friends and family - I know they wouldn't understand what I'm going through, day in day out. If I could make all this stop, believe me I would in a heartbeat. But I'm too much of a coward to hurt my close ones with my death so I'm fluctuating between cutting, listening to suicidal songs and dancing to happy songs. Please help me decide !
@RagnaKarlsdóttir
@RagnaKarlsdóttir 2 ай бұрын
When your happy you enjoy the music, When your sad you understand the lyrics.
@Raewilliams189
@Raewilliams189 4 жыл бұрын
i’ve been listening to this on repeat- makes me cry everytime 🥺
@ravyn4795
@ravyn4795 4 жыл бұрын
My name is also Sara and damn... Its kinda true. now i love the song and i can actually feel like its song about me. I like how others dont even care anymore. Well i wont be talking about me. This is just perfect and i love it. Keep it up < 3
@milotiel6645
@milotiel6645 4 жыл бұрын
"people think she's complicated, but never wanna look inside, cuz she's a little to R-rated, and they're a little too damn blind, She's just looking for her angels, but they're a little hard to find." that's like, my favorite part, I love the whole song though- I actually have (had?) a friend named Sarah, just an h, same name though lol Anyway, she was my best friend for literally my entire life, but at some point, BIG things happened in my life, and then her mom, decided she didn't want anything to do with our family anymore. And her mom has always been like that, but.. well I never thought our friendship would have to end like that, and at first we were both very upset about it, but then she messaged me and said some.. things.. that made me very worried she might, um, y'know. So I told my mom, she read the messages, and we called the cops, apparently she had been ending the friendship, not saying goodbye, like, from life. So she got really mad and snapped at me and said things like "do you know how embarrassing it was to have COPS come to your door and ask for you?!" and stuff like that, she said she was done, done with my family, her mom was right. And by then a was struggling with serious depression, I'd lost most of my friends because of what happened in my family, and now I was losing her. Eventually one of us reached out, can't remember who, and we made up, so we're friends now, but we can't see each other, so we just chat on discord right now. And it feels like, well, I guess it's like none of my friends trust us anymore, my other best friend, she isn't allowed to come over, because of what happened, it's really personal so I'm not going to say anything specific, just that something happened. It's been a year and a half now. This song reminds me of Sarah, but I didn't send it to her, just because I felt that might not be the best, and I'm very self-conscious of my music preferences, and like, everything else, so that's just one thing. I don't have many friends, but I play with my brothers' friends, (and they're nice, basically my friends as well as my brothers' I actually play with them more than my brothers do), and they all have problems in their lives too, and they talk about it with each other, but I.. don't. If anything I act like I'm perfect, literally, I'm not good at communicating, so I just say I'm perfect, I joke about it, I actually nicknamed myself Perfection in the discord server. But so anyway, I thought about sending this to my friend, I didn't and I realized that I keep trying to help my friends, but sometimes, I feel like nobody really cares about me? It's kind of stupid, but I just feel that way sometimes. Because nobody sees through my fake smile, or my fake ego/personality, and see.. me, and everything in my head, all the dark inside there. And the one person who I knew cared about me, was someone I pushed away because I was scared to change, I've always had a set personality, and then people call me weird, and I don't really want to be WEIRD, I want to be me, which is sometimes weird, but I'm so scared people will judge me, that I ended up pushing the person away, and now we don't talk, and I don't think they even really want to be my friend anymore, I don't know. My mom is often in my brother's room talking to him, because he's so depressed that he doesn't leave his room if he can help it. So basically, he doesn't try, at all, so my mom is worried about him. But because I try, I smile, I joke, I see friends, I do things, so I'm clearly fine, my mom doesn't check on me, ever really, my dad, well it just doesn't feel like he loves me. So it just, it seems like no one cares, I know they do, but they aren't helping me, or even acknowledging that there is anything wrong, because they just don't seem to know. I'm sorry about that, I started typing, and just.. kept going? 😅 well if you read this whole thing, thank you, I apparently had to vent Edit: So uh, it's been a while now, this all went down nearly 3(?) years ago. Wish I could say I'm okay, but I'm really not, maybe better though? I don't know. I finally started meds though, my anxiety is not nearly as bad and I feel like I can just be me, I'm not as scared to actually behave as the person I am, so that's an upside. The person I pushed away, I started talking to them again, then we stopped again? It's pretty complicated and I'm not gonna get into that, I don't even know what I think of that whole situation. I always had the plan that even though we couldn't see each other now, when I got my driver's license, I could drive over and get her and we could hang out without her mom knowing, since she lived close by. Thing is, it was never her that got mad at me, she was trying to talk to me and her mom stood over her shoulder telling her what to say, her mom was ending the friendship through her. Anyway, I'd been waiting a long time and I could nearly get my permit. 4 months before I got my permit, she moved. This wasn't any small move either, she now lives over 1000 miles away, and I truly wish that was an exaggeration. We still talk, but it feels like I lost her. I've found a really cool opportunity in school though, very excited for that. And on top of that, I actually go to school now, I was homeschooled most of my life and then did online school up until recently. So life is eh, I go through periods of feeling utterly hopeless and wanting to die to excited for the future and who I can be. I hope anyone else who has gone through something and feels the same can someday see their worth, you guys are all amazing and don't ever let anyone tell you differently
@mawce201
@mawce201 4 жыл бұрын
Its ok, I like to read and listen to people vent abt their problems ut this comment hit me a little too close to house, I understand ur struggles and ive been there. Trust me when I say "It'll get better". And- Your welcome.(replying to u saying thank u).
@beastskul5973
@beastskul5973 4 жыл бұрын
I don’t know you or your story, but you got a sister out there now ✌️I really hope you find someone who can see through your walls. And know that no matter what happens- how many people seem to ignore the pain, fake smiles, and weak assurances of everything being ‘perfect’. You got yourself. You are perfect, but it’s your flaws that make you that way. And all of your ‘weirdness’ is what makes you such a character and an individual, it makes you who you are, and you should love yourself for it; not have fear of friends or people seeing more of it. I hope you find company and shelter in knowing and loving who you are. And may your day shine as brightly as yourself- wish I could write you more but life calls. Have a life worth leaving
@speedyspartanx2401
@speedyspartanx2401 4 жыл бұрын
If you need a friend that will listen to you vent and accept you and all your weirdness hmu on discord ill try my best to make you grin like an idiot ik it might not help but ill try my user is spartinX2 my numbers are 8115
@fabiankreis3410
@fabiankreis3410 4 жыл бұрын
*hugs*
@milotiel6645
@milotiel6645 4 жыл бұрын
Oh gosh, time passes both very fast and slow, I wrote this comment 2 months ago, and I thought it was longer but I still remember writing it, some of it is kind of cringe but I couldn't find better words, so oh well
@TheySayCio
@TheySayCio 3 ай бұрын
Thanks, I've been suffering due to severe depression the last 3 months and I was not able to get up from my bed. But when this shit started playing on my radio I jumped out of it to turn it off.
@Flo-h8p
@Flo-h8p 3 ай бұрын
Hope your ok try to power through
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