Schizophrenia : Psychosis and Troubles

An update on my life with Schizophrenia and Psychosis. Things are going well.
EDIT: 16/01/2023
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[@enjoyb7176]

Are you still around here?

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

I am! I may come back to KZbin soon and create some more content!

[@rls3745]

@@AlbinoFawnArt please do tell us more about hallucinations

[@maxpower1337]

I'm so glad to hear this 💘🙏❤️

[@chasitymunoz1982]

@albinofawnart how are you doing now

[@wiener6451]

Hi , your videos always calm Mee down , I'm happy to find you i don't feel alone , thanks

[@NIMM_VOID]

Thank you for making these videos. I had my first mental health ward experience. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, though I know they're all different from each other. I hope you keep talking things through. The content you're making is really helpful.

[@Kemal_3rd]

you are so lovely. such a beautiful soul. ❤ endless love

[@CrazyGreek80]

Stay strong beautiful!

[@stephenpounder3373]

That orange is great!!

[@petriliimatainen1307]

Hope ur good and fine, lots of love from finland

[@aafiyashafaque1874]

Hey . Hope you are better now ❤

[@jonknutton]

Can relate to a lot of what youre saying here. Ive been sectioned before and was forced on aripiprazole for a while. Terrible stuff. Felt like being locked in as an observer to my own life. I hope youre doing well now and youve found ways to manage your mind.

[@hiswife6296]

You are helping people with every little experience you share dont stop.

[@maxpower1337]

God loves us all he destroys fear and lays us down in green pastures and protects us from anxiety My prayers and love are with you if that helps I relate to story but I don't see things or hear voices.but the paranoia is the worst I am so happy you are telling your story it helps me and others God bless you ever moment 🙏🙏❤️👍

[@sibjor2023]

OMG youre beautiful. I am 29 paranoid schizophrenic from Sweden. Good luck in life

[@domfxlive]

hey man, I just wanted to say, I went to the same hospital in UCLA at the same age and reason, when my doctor (Dr de antonio) said I had to go to which onto clozapine. it was a very hard time back then, but my life is really improving. best of luck man

[@ZenFromITALY]

you are a great girl and a very sensible person and im very happy to see you look so good. Now it seem you can handle it by yourself, with your own power, and not by all that medicine...a piece of my heart tink to you... i hope you can fell yourself mutch better everyday and you can find your light before the darkness

[@DRM4393]

Emily, I just found your video's this morning. Needless to say I watched the others first. You look so much better now and much more clear and confident. You have the maturity of a woman twice your age, and the bravery that surpasses most men to be able to sit there and talk about your problems with all honesty. You have really opened my eyes in a subject I knew nothing about. I for one hope you continue with more of these videos I am sure you have helped others in the same condition and educated those that did not know. I personally wonder how many parents, brothers, sisters have come across these vids and watched them and gained insight into what was happening to a member of the own family. You are and amazing woman Emily, I wish you all the best.

[@PopeIsaac]

All i can say is wow... i just watched your older video about hallucinations and have to say you look in very good health and seem much happier in yourself. Hope you continue that way!

[@PopeIsaac]

this was my thoughts 5 seconds in, i watched the rest afterwards and glad to see you are actually happier in yourself lol

[@mrsh00sh]

Thanks for the update. I was wondering about you. Glad you are feeling better.

[@mostafarommel9475]

Thank you.

[@johnvenable5638]

Best wishes for you. You are such a wonderful being. Glad i came upon your channel. I look forward to seeing more of you. Thank you for being so brave to be on KZbin. Much respect and admiration.

[@maxpower1337]

The orange painting is so realistic 👍

[@codygibson8875]

you are an incredibly strong person for sharing your life and trouble online, i hope all is well!!

[@rickbishop5987]

I think that you are doing a great service in helping us understand how Schizophrenia effects people. Thank you for this and I wish all the best for you.

[@neaveguest23]

Watching this after one of your old videos made me feel so much better knowing some things are improving. You're so strong and beautiful

[@NicklePickleShow]

You look so much better than you did in the last. Healthier and more confident. Keep kicking ass, love!!!

[@TOM-pn8sn]

You look and sound very good. Good to see you again girl! Stay awesome

[@dundemrecords]

Gotcha Mojo back. I love it!!! Wishing Well to You and Yours. You Are Helping People. Thank You.

[@miezi]

You actually look much more healthy than 7 months ago. :)

[@samwilliamson4614]

YES

[@Shyguyexplores]

@@samwilliamson4614 Yes I think she was saying she was on all sorts of medications back then, and now she said she only takes one, just when she needs it. This is very good. Visit www.CounterHarassment.com to see how good morals protect us. :)

[@maxpower1337]

Tg

[@bytejunkie64]

I'm glad to see you're doing better. I ran in to your videos a couple months back, and didn't subscribe because I thought you stopped uploading. You seem much happier now. I'm looking forward to future videos and art from you.

[@heatherrussell7190]

Delighted your mojo has returned! Real wishes for your continued improved wellness.

[@lemmonproductions6090]

I'm schizophrenic as well, really comforting to see someone my own age going through some of the same things, thanks for making these videos

[@thisme1944]

ps: SO happy to see ur videos again u just make me calm and feel much more good about myself

[@hiswife6296]

That orange is fantastic

[@sidkrishna5806]

Amazing when I saw your channel first this ten fold improvement. Well done hope is always there.

[@mariodebuck9420]

Thanks for your honest testimony ,you are a very bright and strong young woman .

[@nardinesandersonauthorpoet4249]

So glad to hear you are doing better

[@darlenemerz3310]

I'm so impressed. I pray my daughter can someday be as clear minded as you seem. She struggles and is tormented by terrible visual disturbing people. God bless you and keep it up. You give me hope for my baby girl.

[@Skellytonsss]

I am so glad to see you back! Your personality is really shining.

[@iTzKlipa]

You’ve been your prettiest. Much love from brazil 🇧🇷❤️

[@sagebias2251]

I love how nationalist Brazil is.

[@thegreatmechanizedape8262]

I think stress and being tired is the biggest factor as well. good on you for kicking the meds that made you sick. stay strong. please don't let them experiment on you. good for your parents as well. I know someone who got better as they got into their 20's as their brain finished developing. they still hear and see things sometimes but only when they are really stressed out and they can make ignore it untill it goes away. thank you for sharing. you sound very coherent to me and are conveying your thoughts very clearly. take care.

[@chrisclarke7718]

You rock Em! I love your videos...they give me hope

[@jasonb9890]

It is a beautiful orange segment, hyper realism! Sounds like your art may be a great outlet to vent and express yourself. Really creative, talented work.

[@GroundbreakGames]

Glad to see you posting again.

[@wiener6451]

Thanks for the video

[@ramblingbootsIRL]

You’re an awesome speaker and it’s clear to see you have an amazing attitude! So glad I found your videos 🙃

[@peasley9]

You're so sweet! Such a drastic improvement in coherence and enthusiasm since the last video, and you look much better. Whatever it is you're doing, keep it up. Good luck with college, try to find something that makes you happy

[@julietk.1698]

Thanks God you posted! I am sure I am Not the only one who has been worried. You look so mature with your new hair! You are so sweet! I hope you will get some rest soon. Stay safe! X

[@sadclown9643]

you look and sound much better than 7 months ago im glad youve overcome the worst of what youve been dealt so far, seeing your progress helps give me some hope for my own :-)

[@kadenjames7311]

You look so much healthier and happier! I'm glad for you!

[@hehehehe2736]

You look so much healthier! This makes me so happy :)

[@MikeKoss]

Nice to see you like this (happy). Sad to hear that people didn't believe what you were experiencing in the past. I think it helps others that you are sharing what you've been through. Be well.

[@roweenacordero9237]

You look better! Remember to stay strong and I believe that you can get even better 💕💕

[@brandoyouth]

that orange is blast !!!

[@elyad67]

Keep your head up! Im wishing for you to get it all under control.

[@jasonbradley9256]

Hope your feeling better..!! If your able to avoid toxic antipsychotics the better, too many risky side affects and then there’s the way they leave you feeling.!

[@hemaraotimi1812]

You look great 🐰🐇🐼🐻🐩😇

[@zenmotion8162]

You look 1000% better ! I just saw your first video Keep positive vibes inside 💪💪🍀

[@SickFusionLP]

Glad to see you returning to KZbin! :)

[@Rayannetorresnc]

I had just found your chanel and watched all your videos. Hope you are still getting better. Lots of love from Brazil!

[@sergiosoriano9650]

Looking great since your last video ! Keep it up

[@Făt-Frumos1982]

Im really wishing you the best and I hope you are happy😀

[@vickytoner8878]

My friend has it and she just came out of the ward few days ago I just try to message and game with her when she up for it hopefully it helps her when she speaks to me and my friends in party chat sometimes on PS4 would be nice to see her but I don't want to rush her so just taken it day by day with her in message or game chat for now do worry about her sometimes can't help it. She has her medicintion now least I think it helps her little but still challage hers is more voices. I had to watch this videos to try to understand my friends illness just so I can be good friend in best way possible I feel for you and my friend 💞 it's not easy sounds very complex one this not easy thing to handle.

[@LeaFtw]

I'm so glad to see you back and that you're making progress. Stay safe and sound!

[@yulip6657]

I’m so proud of u keep fighting ❤️❤️❤️

[@davidheacock1002]

I love the bangs!!!!!

[@alpo4788]

sp glad to hear your voice again stay blessed

[@krisreed1943]

nice to see you back and doing well emily

[@baztheraz06]

Was starting to get worried. Glad you’re back and seem to be doing better. You look and sound way healthier now than in your older vids. You’ve probably read that a thousand times now but yeah...don’t be a stranger. Love your art by the way. Hang in there.

[@jupiterinaries6150]

You seem so much more coherent and with more energy. The bangs look sharp and you look beautiful.

[@theyetibum6076]

Just found your channel and watched a few videos, congratulations you seem to have come a long way since a few months ago. I'm so glad that you love in the uk as I do , at least healthcare here is free. Stress/trauma seems like a huge trigger for you. Keep your head up & keep communicating, I hope these videos are cathartic for you atleast, just please be careful whilst of your meds.

[@Kemal_3rd]

dont take them. deal with yourself, find out who you are. dont take them. they are very bad in the long run. ❤

[@earthworldserver]

can't wait to see more videos from you , you're beautiful & amazing .

[@Kaynine3]

Emily, you are such a beautiful, smart, kind, intelligent, and brave young woman. I am so delighted to see you doing much better from your previous video 7 months ago. I hope you continue to be successful on your journey in life. Underneath your sweet demeanor, I see courage and a quiet strength. There will be ups and down in your life, but I believe you will prevail. May God bless and care for you.

[@brih2071]

You are gorgeous! and very brave for sharing your story ♥️

[@gaudynuc]

So how have you been? I stopped my meds too and it was the best desicion I have ever made.. hope ur ok!

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

I’ve been mostly okay thank you! I think when you stop medication you must make sure that you have other sorts of therapy/ distractions and care plans put in place (Just incase!) But I hope you’re managing well without them:)

[@socialdistortion416]

I know what you mean by no one trusting you or having no proof at all. The best you can do is being strong and take pills. The more aggresive you are the worse it gets. You were sort lucky by that i mean your family understands and talks about it. I myself have no one to talk about it because everytime they talk about itvis because they know i'll get aggresive. I'm not strong at all but having these videos at least feels like a relief. So i can say it's nice to see at least someone knows how it feels sometimes. Continue doing this and talking about it, believe me, its better. Be strong and be trsutful while you have it. Whenever it gets worse dont do anything because its the worse thing to do and you'll lose that. Keep up.

[@kyleelatta]

you look soooo good girl!!💜💜💜 xo

[@ginab3625]

Emily, You look and sound amazing!!!!! I’m so glad things are well; it’s so great to see you again. Hugs and best wishes to you💜

[@Orbsgeh]

You look and sound much better now than 7 months ago. If you can stay off of the medication and still feel good about yourself that would be a much healthier lifestyle, better than a medicated lifestyle atleast. You made me smile because you really look so much better and i dont really smile all that often, so you made me feel better, thank you for that! Greetings from Norway! Sorry for my bad English writing btw! :P

[@shilohloves]

It's good that you feel in better control and are feeling more joyful. You have an amazing insight and acceptance of your illness. You express yourself and your experiences very clearly. This must be very helpful in getting the help you need. And with any mental illness that is a huge challenge. I think you are helping educating people about schizophrenia. You are very brave to make these videos. You tell your story intelligently and honestly. Take the support and prayers people are sharing with you here. Just be mindful of the few people who are cruel or "too affectionate". They are just "Trolls" that bother all you tubers. Delete the comments, block them, then just focus on the good people who are offering you support. All the best to you on your complicated journey. You have much good to bring to this world. Hold onto your Joy!

[@eliezerxavierkrd]

Hello, I'm from Brazil and thank you for your videos. It's very good to know that it's not because you have schizophrenia that you are disabled because of what type you are not and you have schizophrenia, so my name is Eliezer and I also have schizophrenia

[@takutoyo6311]

Your so beatiful and ur look really remind me a girl i really like, i truly think u are doing alright without the meds , keep it up

[@Lilpanda222]

It's really dangerous. Schizophrenia is a degenerative desiese and it will literally destroy your brain if not treated properly. It gets worse if not treated think of it like cancer. If not treated quickly it will get worse and worse untill it is irreversible.

[@takutoyo6311]

i am not sure, some people can cope without the medicine but i am not really sure how’s she doing now, would like to know ; )

[@Lilpanda222]

@@takutoyo6311 I would like to know too. She seems so sweet! They could cope but with each episode part of the brain is destroyed until there it is irreversible. It's scary stuff to go through my uncle recently committed suicide because he "felt better" so he stopped taking his meds. He was fine for a few months tgen he had a really bad episode it destroyed his brain from ever working properly. It kept getting worse untill he commited suicide. You have to be very careful sometimes we think we are better but as soon as we stop meds we get bad again.

[@takutoyo6311]

Brittany Owen thanks , got ur advice! i feel sorry for ur uncle

[@Anna-mi3hv]

You're such an inspiration! Thank you for making these videos, I hope you're doing alright:)

[@FlezzDurjis]

Your videos are helping, I'm in graduate school studying this and I find youtube channels like this more valuable than my textbooks. Trust me, keep making videos.

[@cypresstwist]

You are a very kind and polite girl and I wish you'd continue to make these videos about your experiences.

[@sleepyzebra11]

Dude, just found your channel. So feeling your sense of self and intuition about what is best for you; sleep is so so important, I think you should follow your gut on being concerned about that (and not being concerned about being off meds). Keep doing you! Also that orange slice is fucking awesome wow

[@nainainai2740]

I had just become so invested in your channel only to realize you hadn't posted in so long. I am so happy to see your lovely face back and to see you doing alright. A very wonderful video, I love your videos and learning about you. -nai

[@BlackHermit]

You are making a difference. This video gave my life a new meaning.

[@phoenixfire6554]

Nice to see you again, Emily!!! You are much more alert and "alive" now and it really shows that you are doing better! I hope this progress continues - looking forward to seeing your coming artwork also (nice orange there!) :) *waves*

[@redacted1886]

Emily i have only discovered your channel today and i just wanted to say that you should feel incredibly proud for how well you are doing. It's clear how far you have come in the short amount of time between now and your previous videos and to hear how well you are doing is fantastic. You are a strong, beautiful person and you should feel proud of what you are accomplishing. You are an inspiration to many.

[@onyx201002]

You should see a homeopathic healing doctor if you can find one. I bet it would help you with your on edge feeling or panic attacks. Trust yourself when it comes to pharmaceutical meds and the way they make you feel. Do what you feel is best for yourself.❤

[@ARubberDuckEater7]

I think you're videos are really good for the way they show people without schizophrenia that schizophrenics aren't anything to be scared of and that they're genuinely lovely people. It kind of dismantles the stigma towards mental illness.

[@garcia3845]

Happy for you. Great seeing you again.

[@commonwisdom5333]

when your brain is on overdrive, you can't function normally. eventually is catches up with you. I hope your ok now. I take St. johns wort. it gives me that boost that I need.

[@TheMajickNumber]

You are a champion for doing these videos. Continue to meet with and access professionals around you and keep people you love in the loop on what you are doing with your meds as they are the ones who can alert you if things are changing. Your journey is a challenging one so keep your head held high and just know you are not alone. Hats off to you!

[@caerleon87]

You are so brave and a wonderful person.. Be very proud of yourself..

[@letthatplay5150]

You're very brave as any schizophrenic person is. It takes lot of courage handling what is happening in your mind every day. And I thank you because you and other schizophrenic people try to share things about this condition of the mind so we can understand it. I have an aunt with schizophrenia. She never talks about it and I think it isn't helpful for her. I think it's the society's fault. Now it's different. I mean in our era. She is over 60 years old anyway. Though, she got married. She got two kids (no of them have schizophrenia). She is a smiley and a kind peson when you talk to her but when she's just being alone you can see the despair and the lonliness in her eyes. And as I said that takes lot of courage! I talked about her for sharing my experiances with this mind's condition.

[@natas12rm]

I like to listen. you're worth a lot, keep up the good work

[@jackhildebrand1403]

I tried going off all psychiatric medication and just doing a ketogenic diet to treat schizoaffective disorder. I'm currently doing this. I'm 17 also. My negative and cognitive symptoms are GONE on keto. You should look into it.

[@AddictwithAnEcho]

you're a lot more smiley in this video and that makes me feel very happy for you!! so glad you're doing a lot better

[@Berialgames]

I hope you are doing well. We miss you .