Schizophrenia : The Voices

Me talking about the voices in my head.
EDIT: 16/01/2023
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[@lindanapier6736]

Please make more videos, you're my hero and the reason I keep going on

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

Hi, I hope you’re well! I’m planning on coming back to KZbin soon and create some new content (&art videos) Stay safe!

[@marydiaz9358]

My silence will never be your silence...that was deep keep fighting your are stronger than you think! I just wanna give you a hug

[@RamunePlz]

I just want to say thank you. You definitely don't deserve the struggle and stress. I can't imagine what you go through on a daily basis. I wish you the best, and hope tomorrow will be a good day for you.

[@Pinchymina]

“Sorry I found a bead.” Lol cute kid. Keep up the good fight Emily, you seem like a kind, creative person.

[@TheMuckSpace]

I'm 34 , and I have had schizophrenia from the age of 13 on , it's a very hard thing .. also the days you wake up mad because you woke up and you know that day isn't going to be a "good" day ... ya :) . also happy birthday :)

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

yeah, and thank you :)

[@swornereborne2756]

Jesus loves you

[@whoisadela7932]

FOMORii Please tell me! 1. Feeling like someone is always home with me, to the point where I lock myself in my room for hours. 2. Hearing voices that aren’t mine telling me to do stuff 3. People talking to or about me that aren’t 4. Feeling unsafe outside 5. Feeling two or more people yelling at me or arguing with me. 6. Severe insomnia because I see figures. 7. Hearing two people yell at each other or talk 8. Hearing many insults hurting me. 9.feeling things like water. 10.pinches or getting scared 11. Being scared to leave home or my room 12. Seeing bugs in the sink on me etc. This has been going on for two years. I don’t think I should tell my mom or anyone because I don’t wanna be told I’m lying. What should I do? I feel like if I tell: A family member- I’ll be told I’m lying My therapist- I’ll be locked in a psych ward.

[@DanManThePurple]

@@whoisadela7932 don't worry about your mom thinking you're lying. they are your parents and should support you through anything. let them know how you're feeling and even if they can't help stop the bad feelings, they can surely help by hearing you out and giving you their love

[@robert80268]

I wake up everyday angry as well I hope my symptoms subsides one day

[@mustaphaamraoui2922]

I love the fact that you're smiling and laughing ... I wish you get better ... you're so beautiful and full of life good video

[@Leiwi]

"naaahhh, don'be schizofrenic you're so pretty ahaha"

[@Terra101]

@@Leiwi That's one way to misinterpret someone.

[@jerrymillett3895]

I love your art. It has really matured. So glad to see how well your handling your symptoms.

[@LaBermudezOficial]

PD: Your improvement is noticeable and I'm so glad for you. Wishing you the best.

[@aaronspell1494]

That blue haired lion in the background is what i see during episodes. when i saw it in the background of the thumbnail while scrolling through videos it blew me away. the blue lion is my protector. he is the only positive aspect of my illness.

[@PyroNinja713]

Thank you for talking about this. I often worry that I may be showing the early signs of schizophrenia and seeing someone so pretty and well-adjusted as yourself with the diagnosis makes it much less scary to me. I truly wish you the best of luck. You're a beautiful person and I love you. I hope and believe that you will continue to do great things with your life. Again, thank you so much.

[@blowdabladdydawsoff997]

Many thanks Emily. What you're doing is really helpful. My son has been diagnosed with Schizophrenia and he finds it difficult to talk to my wife and I about it. Your videos help me massively to empathise with what he's going through. God bless you.

[@kizzy8162]

Look into V2k

[@AMOEDEN888]

I was diagnosed BPD, but I know I was misdiagnosed . I have intrusive voices that mostly sound like my voice but I too get the multiple voices , more so from extreme stress . I've seen all kinds of things , faeries being one ( they looked similar to the ones from the movie Pan's Labyrinth ) . I've seen aliens and ships , I've seen geometric shapes of light .I've seen animals too . I don't remember when , but I got tried of the voices ruining my happiness so I began ignoring them or saying no , not in this life ! Or if they didn't like something , I faced people knowing I would learn something good and I was right . The people who have helped and showed me understanding and love were the ones the voices told me to stay away from .I'm glad I ignored them 😉 I'm happy to hear you have support and help , I wish you the best. Angel hugs n Blessings to you and yours 😇

[@Mamba503]

I struggle with Schizophrenia too, I feel you hun. Stay strong

[@whoisadela7932]

Austin Senn Please tell me! 1. Feeling like someone is always home with me, to the point where I lock myself in my room for hours. 2. Hearing voices that aren’t mine telling me to do stuff 3. People talking to or about me that aren’t 4. Feeling unsafe outside 5. Feeling two or more people yelling at me or arguing with me. 6. Severe insomnia because I see figures. 7. Hearing two people yell at each other or talk 8. Hearing many insults hurting me. 9.feeling things like water. 10.pinches or getting scared 11. Being scared to leave home or my room 12. Seeing bugs in the sink on me etc. This has been going on for two years. I don’t think I should tell my mom or anyone because I don’t wanna be told I’m lying. What should I do? I feel like if I tell: A family member- I’ll be told I’m lying My therapist- I’ll be locked in a psych ward.

[@thedvsone7672]

You are incredibly beautiful. Happy birthday

[@BrandonScottFox1]

Wishing You peace and Love darling...we all hear voices. It’s ok. You are magical and you are in control 💪🏼❤️

[@erinattaway1185]

Happy Birthday, Emm. You are an amazing person to know and talk to, miss you loads! x

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

Awe, thank you xx

[@Miss_Sippy]

Thank you so much. You are helping others by sharing. Pay NO mind to anyone that would leave a comment of anything negative or judgements. Disable comments if you have too, but please continue making your videos. Much love ....xoxoxxo

[@cleaveuntome42]

Happy Birthday! I don't want to focus on 100 points. But Thank you for trying, for doing, for learning/posting. Your honesty really helps those who don't wanna be honest -ME

[@tonybalony4652]

Happy Birthday 🎁🎂🎈🎊🎉 I hope you have a great day & that you feel better love, lots of blessing here from Merica🇺🇸🇺🇸

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

Thank you :)

[@Talisman09]

merica? lol wtf

[@xXidolomantisXx]

Do you remember what life was like before schizophrenia?

[@ghizheng1017]

Person m

[@LaBermudezOficial]

Love your sweater! I'm an actress and I'm working on a character with schizophrenia. You've helped me and inspired me a lot, TKS! Hope to share the final film when finished. Best wishes. Paty.

[@bigbankhank1]

You seem like such a lovely genuinely sweet person and i hope you're doing great

[@thaixavier5514]

Hi Emily, I watch your videos and feel i can relate to you in so many ways. I suffer from extream schizophrenic episodes and i suffer from unstable personality disorder and deep depression too, I also self harm daily. About a year ago i was sectioned to a mental health unit myself by the police for 3 months after the voices in my head told me to kill myself and I hung myself but survived after 3 months in ITC and a long stay in the mental health unit. Since I was released from the hospital mental health unit, My mental health illnesses have just become worse. I still have many break downs and suicidal thoughts daily and i still hear the voices in my head and self harm. I feel no one truly understands me, I feel very lonely and feel so alone living on my own. I really wish i had the chance just to sit down with you and just talk as i know you would understand how i felt inside. I really could do with a very sweet girl like you in my life as u are such a brave girl and everything you talk about really touches my heart. I wish i could be as strong as you. Thai xx

[@sarahchick6838]

Happy Birthday!! Thanks for sharing your story with us!

[@gavinjohnson8951]

I love your room. It's really cool. I never had that kind of taste when I was 16 :)

[@columbojoe666]

im with you friend you are not alone. your strong. ive had this since i was 3. now im 35. its a struggle

[@jenoali5024]

U are very sweet and amazing personality. Be strong and confident. Don't give up.

[@vintagelace7076]

Emily your very sweet! I love how real you are..your not afraid to be you. Your sensative to this world and it affects you. I don't hear voices but I am def a introvert with sensory. I get stressed out in crowds so I try to have coping mechanisms like go to a isle in a store that no-one is in and just breath...i am sensory to loud sounds..i love quiet...anyway there is nothing "wrong" with you or me and people like us we are just unique in how we react to things. Your awesome! Stay on your meds and keep smiling!

[@jennarose4054]

happy 17th birthday tomorrow beautiful!

[@giveemhellkid1927]

I have squizofrenia since i has 13, and its very difficult...I'm 17 now and i am taking medications and everything..U are really amazing for go out and make a video about it. Really, i admire u You are so beautiful and so smart, and its a very difficult disease and you are doing so well. I know i never meet you in real life, but you are really strong. Keep going okay? S2

[@julikeah]

I don’t remember ever wanting to look after a stranger so much.

[@Zauten]

Hi I'm a clinical psychology student and I'm very grateful for your anecdote.

[@lauralove00]

You explained everything I have struggled to explain. I have schizo as well since 16 or around. I hated mine when they said hahahahaha a million times overlapping each other. They havent done it for awhile but they still talking constantly.

[@dannyhope4164]

Must be difficult, I have struggled with Obsessive Compulsive thoughts and actions since 13, I'm now 31. The best thing that happened to me is my saving faith in JESUS, He was the best thing that helped my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Also, try researching and medicating with CBD. God Bless you and you have a lovely personality x

[@Freegreenwanderer]

Thanks for being so open :)

[@makkubgood2908]

Keep it positive, your a healer in a society whit lots of illness. No easy task

[@waynejohnson9889]

Your a nice kid, keep doing what your doing and try not to stress out... X

[@Kodexsilver7114]

Happy birthday! stay positive and enjoy your day :)

[@soilmanted]

I sometimes hear voices but they don't say anything. They sing, without words. Like ah-ah-ah-ah. Choral singing, with harmonies and counterpoint. Usually it just lasts for a minute or 2.

[@divak9026]

Bless you, Emily!

[@king-emperorbotolfzaneisem9329]

Sometimes videos like this make me wonder if I’m also schizophrenic or just a hypochondriac

[@arwroof]

Dont worry about editing pauses! No need! Brilliant videos. How dyou feek when hearing voices? And are there pionts when you know their not real, or at best you can question their not real, but cant completely determine it?

[@Levchukkostya]

I'm 23 year old University student and just about a weel ago i started hearing voices. At first i also thought that it was just my neighbors being loud but later realized that no one else is hearing them but me. I'm afraid to tell my family or my girlfriend about this.

[@bradmccuaig6783]

Your awesome! You have chosen to put yourself into the middle of the arena.....which is no different than any rockstar! I am going to reach out to all of you. You are brave......so identical to fear only because Adrenalin is the common factor. Head up!

[@Daniman-nk2vj]

I wish you so much love and abundance in your life and all the support god bless you and always believe in your self you are a very strong person and i know you will find that balance that you need in your life wish you the best

[@Tabriellabernard1187]

I understand stand that feeling like cafeteria full of people even insults but when ever i hear things thay sound like my parents or friends or family members 😢 so i understand ❤ i hope that you have a great year and also waking up and not controlling how you act is scary understand because i get headaches and then i can't control how i do thing 😢❤

[@JollyMidnight]

Here the other day, my voices would laugh at me when I cried, and that's why I had enough and told people about my voices again Also would hear someone I've liked a lot, laughing to me

[@inquisitorchristopher8527]

I hear video game noises, commercials, random music... while trying to sleep.

[@lewisfitzjohn]

A lot of what you say is very familiar to me. I've had many types of hallucinations in the past. Mostly audio, but some visual ones too. The scariest was a voice in my head with an American accent that was really vivid and clear. (I'm English btw) It was a wild psychopathic cartoon character of a person. It wasn't me but it could find a way to become me. It felt like a ghost that wanted to use my body. Like a possession. The thing you said about being persuaded reminded me of it. I only heard him a couple of times in my life, but I'd recognise him again. I have an Idea of what he looks like although I've never seen him. I could give him a name but I haven't. He also looks more like me than he is (if that makes sense). But the other realm I see things in is not really anything like the waking world, and it relates to it in completely inexplicable ways. Oddly I find some uncanny resemblances with religious images sometimes. One time I saw an image of angels in lights on the side of a church at Christmas time and it really freaked me out. I could feel my face going white in a sort of disbelief. The composition of the Image was exactly the proportions of a very powerful hallucination I once had. The colours were pretty accurate too. It was like a hallow sketch of what I saw. I have heard the cafe of voices that you describe before as well. when I was in my 20's that was quite common. I'm 34 now and my hallucinations are much more rare and generally things are more under control. I'm not on any meds and mostly I can stay lucid when I need to be. I do still occasionally get the odd loud voice that is very short. Maybe just shouting my name once. Sometimes I hear a very very loud bang that would be loud enough to deafen me if it were real. Though I found that massaging the back of my neck gets rid of that (don't ask me why) It's a trick I learned from the good old "exploding head syndrome" community online.

[@danguinto1878]

You’re doing great! I’m proud of you ✌️❤️

[@jean8106]

Happy Birthday I wish you all the best🙋🏼💕

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

Thank you :)

[@cresenciogarza1703]

Gipsy Gipsy orders of those birds that really peoples minds and will they driving you crazy OK thank you

[@jerrymillett3895]

Happy New Year! I wish you a happy, healthy, safe, and peaceful year and always! Miss you.

[@janedmunds5756]

You are brave...and courageous stay strong and hang in there.

[@sethcameron5963]

GIRL HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!! (:

[@Mr.Blissful]

Happy birthday!! Hope you have a great day!

[@GratitudeAboveAll]

It's funny that you are a Leo (Aug 16th) and you have a painting of a lion and your hair is like a lion's mane! D

[@guccifruit.]

Autumn Aurora her hair doesn’t look anything like a lions lol

[@internet_]

im glad ur coming back. are you on twitter/X?

[@samanthajester3312]

Did you have voices during the vid? I'm not sure how it works. Are they always there

[@scifiaudious2]

I find myself talking in this accent and its kind of soothing to process tick-like thoughts I honestly believe these things could all be physiological in origin, possibly resolving in the gut...but I believe repressed mental stress plays a role

[@bitek4820]

Your heart is beautiful.

[@Hypnotic_Horizon]

You're so sweet. I hope all goes well for you.

[@jasonbradley9256]

Hope your doing better and Covid free...keep painting good therapy and eat well all a positive..!!

[@JasonTDolan]

Happy Birthday Emily!

[@4fulifatu3william3pedebone2]

Your eye vision you can see things front of your eyes that's normal. The voice that you are hearing are people from the other side off the environment. I believe you

[@Isejaythexix]

Stay strongggg😭❤️

[@henrytan3657]

What I do when I hear voices, if the content is pleasing to the ears, listen. If the content is absurb, ignore. Sometimes I think is because of communication era, errors.

[@C.D.PriceJnr.MixTapes]

Your not alone em.....have faith

[@vallopoisongirl]

Just found you, hoping you make more videos soon I think more should see them....

[@joshbolender]

My I ask your permission for this audio? No sharing, or speading of any kind. Even just a first 60 secs. I only want analyze the audio to grab what I myself hear in the background. I've working on analyzing a few other similar files, and its been really useful.

[@PoeLemic]

Well, you can easily meet people on here with same condition (5:10). I know because I am researching my own issues. I'm learning about how to handle grief, so it does help to watch videos and reach out to people on here. Just letting you know, we care.

[@JamesMullarkey]

You are awesome. keep it going strong!

[@eugenemakes]

Happy birthday!! Have fun at IKEA 😊

[@username7844]

Happy birthday.

[@AlbinoFawnArt]

Thank you :)

[@Unlikelihood]

Is there a type of schizophrenia where u hear only positive things like the exact opposite from getting laughed at

[@Lorb144]

You are truly amazing

[@SunnySinclair1979]

I'm schizophrenic, and right now I'm on Invega, lithium, hydroxyzine, perphanazine, and ecsilatalipram. It's controlled and I can function, there is still life hang in there!

[@longislandcerealkiller5955]

Try a very healthy diet the pills are a band aid poison it's tuff but it's a charm I'm not saying not to take your meds but maybe get off some

[@WeaponX668]

Hey I hear voices also but I dont take medication because I believe they are demons so therefor I dont take medication it only messes you up more I go to church read the bible it tells you everything about them all they do its try to make you and others think that your crazy when your not

[@elef951]

SunnySinclair1979 youre on 5 drugs my friend.....the side effects will make you a zombie...i know someone who has the same case and its sad to see him being destroyed and becoming a "dead man"walking due to psychiatrists prescribing him very strong drugs

[@jupiterinaries6150]

So, could the voices you hear quite possibly be your own uncontrollable thoughts manifesting as voices?

[@charlesduby4602]

One thing that I used to tell myself,I'm a good person,I'm Gods child, I have just as much right to be here as anyone else!

[@earthworldserver]

I'm a leo too - i have bp 1 - our strength and resilience is out of this world. keep on keeping on warrior princess .

[@AbuHajarAlBugatti]

Medications help against Symptoms but not the cause, try to develop yourself so much you can cope without them. God bless you and make you strong

[@michaelgraham2347]

Keep a cat near you, burn frankincense and myrrh keep the negative energy away. Stay mostly outdoors get lots of sunlight. Start writing songs and sing them all the time fill your mind with ur own stuff.

[@r4h4al]

I had schizophrenia from 17 - 21. So know what you're going through! Thankfully I recovered. For me I used to pray. Then when I heard a voice back I thought it was God. Like I said it took me years to realise I was schizophrenic. My advice is to keep going and once you recover it gets better with time.

[@lauradehaan3690]

Schizophrenia is a life long uncurable disease...

[@lauradehaan3690]

Do you mean you were psychotic?

[@r4h4al]

@@lauradehaan3690 Well not for me it wasn’t. So I don’t believe that statement’s true.

[@r4h4al]

@@lauradehaan3690 Well yes as being schizophrenic meant as I was psychotic as well.

[@lauradehaan3690]

@@r4h4al Schizophrenia is a lifelong illness. Although symptoms can improve or worsen over time, you cannot simply 'stop' having schizophrenia. You can however stop being psychotic.

[@uncharacteristic_invalid2679]

Hi Emily. I was wondering if you could show us the art in your background. Is art a hobby of yours? What are your other hobbies?

[@charliedajoob2246]

I'm not trying to be rude, but I find you fascinating. The way you can talk about this is so interesting. You seem so well put together. Do you have psychotic episodes that you find yourself saying nonsensical phrases? Oh, and Happy Birthday!!

[@555Cook]

Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you.

[@TeaCupCookies]

Hang in there buddy!

[@protest4332]

but don't risk and sacrifice anything, your own and your loved ones well being is the most important. be careful.

[@englihswithmusic7413]

Very good and you're beautiul

[@paulnewby541]

it's April the 12th 2018 i think,i hope you are educating your therapist babe you are brilliant (*)

[@afkar8963]

my brother hear people insult him very much even in a room alone and he gets so angry 😢

[@chai4224]

happy birthday yo !! ;0

[@shaniarose8697]

I remember when I was 12 I started chatting to myself

[@djwhitechocolate423]

Your so pretty and I love your accent

[@JunHector]

Happy Birthday! :)

[@olivier3847]

people who are spiritually awake also hear voices and see things probably alot of people getting a schizophrenia diagnosis aren't schizophrenic

[@ericgarcia8639]

That's what I been saying

[@milleknudsen3601]

You're so cute. Keep fighting, girl

[@giantsbane9706]

Do you find any difference in your experience when out in nature away from the man made chaos we call society??? Thanks for your share and time. Best wishes.

[@harc16gamer]

That's kind of creepy thinking your hearing people through your walls that must really freak you out

[@stevejimenez6363]

HardyBoy he read your comment wrong. He thought you meant she’s creepy for hearing voices through walls. And you were saying that just the fact of hearing voices is creepy

[@shovington67]

Sometimes I feel like the biggest problem with comment sections like this, is the lack of reading and writing skills people have, and the misinterpreted meanings of comments. I find that a countries focus on education makes a big difference. I know I will get comments and rebuttals about this, but I find that the reading and writing skills in the UK seem to be higher than other countries. Australia and Canada are tied for 2nd place, and the good ole U.S. of A is in 4th place. This does not of course mean that there aren't outstanding scholars in all 4 countries, I'm talking about the comments I see on the vlogs I watch. It would be interesting to see if the money spent per student in the countries I'm referring to, would reflect my observations?

[@charlesduby4602]

@@shovington67 exactly were all trying to be kind but sometimes it just comes out wrong,well think about life we all act like we are so sane but we can't even go for a drive without going through road rage,maybe this girl will teach us something!

[@motocross6539]

Keep holding on. I pray for you

[@largepizza2185]

Your awesome keep your strength up :)!