SCHIZOPHRENIC EPISODE ON CAMERA

In this video i have an episode
I hope it is some what educational
Edit: OMG So many subscribers and likes!!!
Thank you guys all so much.
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[@keiralvnn]

When the voice told him to kill himself and he said “sometimes I debate if I should or not” :(((

[@bethanielaurenhawkins956]

dillydollie that killed me

[@MsLilyPickles]

My heart sunk 😔

[@teenyweeny3005]

my heart literally shattered. no one deserves that. If he’s reading this rn i wanna tell him that everything will be okay! 😔💞

[@bloodycakes2451]

Nervous Norvus I agree. But still. He deserves to live.

[@TheAddie625]

@Nervous Norvus No one should have to live with that though 🙄

[@yesimmrsir586]

Who else found this in recommended and clicked on it instantly Wow thanks for the likes

[@iceice1586]

I was actually reluctant to click this video because I knew it would put me in a bad mood but I just wanted to experience what other people experience 😕

[@roamingwaters8876]

A 2am

[@My_NameJeff]

Me

[@ThyRevoo]

The reason why I clicked on this is because I myself have been experiencing constant throbbing headaches in my head, mainly the pain is concentrated on the back of my head but whenever I try to sleep sometimes I feel like thoughts are forced on me to think. Like random songs, quotes I never heard of or heard before so I thought this was a good video to analyze

[@JKEdaJOKER]

I hesitated

[@SukunaYaoi]

I can't believe nowadays people use schizophrenia as a joke when it's a real thing people suffer from. I hope you're doing alright bro

[@unknownartistman5155]

You know how when in Harry Potter , students make fun of Boggart ?

[@lol69970]

@@unknownartistman5155 like it changes anything

[@harveyhooks3431]

Who using it as a joke in this video though? Stop bringing up negativity

[@SukunaYaoi]

@harveyhooks3431 not in the video but u can see it in the comment section, I think it's mostly my generation though (im gen z so u know how that goes)

[@harveyhooks3431]

@SukunaYaoi oh yea I understand that

[@cookieskills5521]

I wish I could hug him. I hope he’s doing ok today

[@TheTree42069]

he's doing great!!! he has a child on the way and a way better outlook

[@cookieskills5521]

@@TheTree42069 oh good!

[@Sunflower_SM64]

Same :(

[@h.w.4482]

no way, he must've gotten married then a while back too? great news tbh

[@maxmacks8856]

U can see in his eyes when he’s hearing the voices

[@YoutubeCommentRater]

Yes . Reminds me of my cousin . He killed himself sadly . And I saw his eyes like that. He just never wanted to say a word about what he was Seeing and hearing

[@maxmacks8856]

@@KZbinCommentRater sorry to hear that man

[@YoutubeCommentRater]

@@maxmacks8856 thanks. i wish we all saw all these videos BEFORE. it was a tragedy we can't get over.

[@uhmmmmm123]

@@KZbinCommentRater I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@paddington7606]

Its good that he can Ignore those voices such a brave man....one of my fam members drink some leponex to fall asleep cause she can’t sleep hearing those voices but thanks to god we can still talk to her..and she actually tells us what she heard and seeing and that was crazy like demons who speak bad words to Her back and realizing those people with this kind of condition is really having a hard time to speak with, so you must talk to them and treat them like a normal person coz it can help them to ignore those voices and don’t let them to watch horror movies or stuff related to what she hears and sees, I don’t have this kind of condition but one of my love ones has this and thank god she is still alive and living properly.

[@ashes2ashton490]

the way he was talking sounds like he’s trying to ignore another loud voice talking to him and he keeps losing his train of thought and that is so scary to me

[@xxmyharturhandzxx]

It is really scary, and you can't focus yeah :(

[@mrpanda2655]

Shut up

[@wormbrainnn]

Mr Panda what the hell

[@vanishsky3267]

@@mrpanda2655 👏

[@mrpanda2655]

Jada Rose ur fat u needa lose weight

[@Terence.McKenna]

"trying to make light of the situation" was a really good pun

[@Yurp14330]

Man that just sounds so exhausting. Wish there was a way people didn’t have to live life with this type of difficulty. Don’t ever give up dude

[@deniseeugene1852]

It’s an genetic organic disease . There isn’t a cure for this.

[@yogeshthakur9159]

They don't, there's always an escape route.

[@Remmeister2000]

​@@yogeshthakur9159Dude shut up

[@Sunflower_SM64]

Fr

[@Nick-fr1wb]

My grandpa was schizophrenic and went blind so he would have yelling arguments with people and i felt bad for him because he truly couldn’t tell if the people were there or not.

[@shracid7898]

Mental illness are the most horrifying things that can happen. I’d rather die of can cancer honestly.

[@vivelise16]

i thought you couldnt be blind and schizophrenic? sorry if thats insensitive i jus heard that somewhere.

[@voltage1235]

Fuck that's crazy real life shits happens

[@crimsonnicola5920]

That's so sad

[@NathanStamey]

That’s sucks

[@toffeegirl__7301]

imagine having to be stuck in your house and in your own head space during quarintene, god bless you.

[@IrOnMaIdEn1912]

estrrrible

[@SgtKickAzzYT]

Girl, ON POINT!!! Dude DONT EVER KILL YOUR SELF CALL ME BRO ILL TALK TO YOU! I would never let you do that man!

[@aaliyahetc.6687]

@YERIKV1914 bro stfu you think every mentally ill person hasn't heard that shit before. It cant cure us.

[@gerag5707]

Quarantine?

[@tear3375]

@YERIKV1914 its the meds

[@krystalacole]

This is no joke.. I respond to things that others can’t hear or see.. sometimes I have to analyze the situation to see if what I’m experiencing is actually real or in my mind. I do jump while I’m in bed because I feel stuff walking on my bed. I had to learn to not respond out loud to whatever I’m hearing. It is exhausting to have what most people consider a normal day. Praying for you.

[@carolburnette2019]

🙏

[@SaltyGonads708]

Demons. You have demons possessing you like this boy or demons oppressing you and trying to get in and possess you. Demons are real and the ONLY cure is to RUN TO JESUS CHRIST! 🙏🏼

[@BoskoKan3]

and is it any better now ?

[@StefaniaM-gx8sx]

it is scary and weed caused me sensations like these but i have nothing so weed or die

[@hellourr8093]

Hi, if you dont mind me asking, what do you see? Ghosts, shadows or normal people?

[@Tinsterr]

It is actually so crazy how people can life with this. After listining to an Simulator it geniuently seems like a horror movie. Mad respect for everyone who manages to have a semi-normal life

[@ailurophile4341]

Don't ever kill yourself! You're stronger than the voices.

[@Miko08]

Ailurophile what if the voices deadlift 225lb

[@maurotolpe171]

Miko omgggggg

[@jrapattii9941]

@@Miko08 if they deadlift 225 lbs they weak af and this guy will beat them easily

[@gustavosmith3980]

The voices aren't like other people he's having problems with parts of his brain

[@arrow_2005]

@@jrapattii9941 ?

[@blackthunder7342]

This is a sane person with schizophrenia and he actually realizes it

[@cousinjake7986]

No, this is a *Rational* person with schizophrenia.

[@blackthunder7342]

Your right sir. You worded it correctly

[@blackthunder7342]

Most people with schizophrenia can't step back and look at it rationally like this kid can. I hope he comes through on top

[@hizts]

@@blackthunder7342 is that a fact?? I don't know tbh i don't know most ppl w schizophrenia but most ppl i know who have it (which is a very small sample) have fluctuating levels of awareness. Just like everyone else has fluctuating mental experiences, but someone who ids w schizophrenia has a harder time maintaining awareness 4 sure. But i wouldn't think that most people arent usually pretty aware of their surroundings.

[@blackthunder7342]

@@hizts you're right most people are completely unaware of their surroundings I'm not one of those people though

[@jasp4939]

My son has been battling with schizophrenia for over 12 years. He turns to drugs to try to feel normal....that's what he says. If I could switch places with my son, I would do it in a heartbeat. He's been in and out of treatment for years, nothing has changed. I wish the Canadian government would do more for anyone dealing with mental illnesses. What I've learned is that my son is just a number....so sad! I hope my son gets the help he needs before I die 😢

[@hodos_bonusz]

Oh gosh, wishing him the best

[@dannypowell594]

You are incredibly brave for making this and allowing us a glimpse or what you're dealing with. Thank you so much for sharing brother. You are loved by many

[@bunk95]

A slave is brave for being forced to..?

[@panicfuks]

@@bunk95wtf

[@benonaru]

@@bunk95wrobng

[@LSD_Enthusiast]

​@bunk95 are you sţüpiɗ?

[@897daredevil]

Crazy how he knows the voices are not real but he can still hear them

[@ddcrisp23]

Blindi as it progresses you start to believe they are real, that’s the problem with this mental illness. Along with other manifestations of course.

[@OriginatorofAll]

What if he’s u intentionally channeling beings ?

[@sackme4377]

@Blindi That's such a dickheaded thing to say. Most people with this type of schizophrenia can't tell, it's hard to distinguish between what's real and what isn't, particularly if it's paired with hallucinations, which I don't think his is. These voices convince them to believe a lot of things, the intense paranoia shows that they believe these voices.

[@sackme4377]

@Blindi If you heard someone calling your name from another room, you'd know they're real, becaude you can hear it, you can process it. If you hear something, you have the privilege of knowing it's real, but these people have the same sensations of hearing something, but they have to decide for themselves if they believe it or not.

[@rebeccarain2466]

Scott Larson me too

[@Mooosetank]

It must be so weird for him to watch this footage, since it won’t contain anything of what he’s hearing in his head and the silence must be startling.

[@MaraJadeSkky]

That would be a very interesting reaction video of him watching his own episode with the silence surrounding him.

[@alexangel4758]

He probably would still hear and see his delusions in the footage since they can manifest themselves through multimedia

[@MaraJadeSkky]

@@alexangel4758 is there some evidence of this? Because I'd love to learn more if that is true.

[@alexangel4758]

@@MaraJadeSkky Living With Schizophrenia did a reaction video on how hallucinations and delusions present themselves and mentioned this

[@paytonsmith4058]

@@alexangel4758 I have schizophrenia, and my boyfriend has recorded me having a split, and when I watched the video back, it was so scary because it was just complete silence, I’m sitting with my boyfriend and best friend, and nothing is happening but me freaking out and not knowing what time zone I’m in (In my episodes I usually “Time TRavel”)

[@marceauwattez7882]

I feel like schizophrenic people are lucid enough to see their own life from a 3rd person angle while having unstable thoughts like... its mind blowing

[@juliannetaylor8991]

I’m so sorry, kiddo. My son was recently diagnosed. My heart goes out to you and your family. This is very brave of you to share, and is helpful to me as a support person for my son. Thank you with all of my heart. I wish you tons of great things on your recovery journey. ❤

[@aiyanakg]

It disgusts me knowing that there are people out there who would think this is fake.... this poor kid I hope he has a happy life other than this Edit: I understand why people could assume something like this is fake, but I meant like, to just flat out be like “that is so fake” and for some people to actually get mad at it? Horrible, cause you don’t even know if it really is fake or not. And, there are some people who genuinely don’t believe schizophrenia is real. It’s all just horrible

[@JackaboiTV]

I’m sure there are people who fake their schizophrenia but I understand what you’re saying

[@MASlTAS]

@@JackaboiTV what

[@JackaboiTV]

@@MASlTAS what

[@AidenTheRealShadowwolf]

@Sugu there really are some crazy attention Whores out there that will say they have this disorder, its more common in narcissistic people I only say this cuz I know of people who faked their disorder

[@cletussamboy8650]

It's sad many people wish they had schizophrenia thinking it's like a drug trip or that it's trendy to be mentally ill

[@DOwhutnow]

The fragility of the human brain is scary, sad and fascinating at the same time.

[@dMiraculousDevin]

I’m leaning on the complexity of the human brain tbh, so much we don’t know about the human psyche

[@thomaspatrickparker6648]

The fragility of the human brain on schizophrenia*

[@ahnrho]

Mhm.

[@adamjdagen]

Fragile, yet it always happens because of a reason. Commonly because of maybe childhood trauma or even genetic. It’s terrible watching him go through this but it’s a great sign that he’s talking through it. If I knew this guy I wouldn’t this he’s crazy, respect.

[@Thron2111]

Intelligence has not only good advantages

[@maddiesavage]

My grandmother has Schizophrenia. I love seeing people spreading awareness on this, no one understands her so she was appreciative to see someone shining light on this. Thank you.

[@leilagreen-shay2838]

Truly thank you for this video. My husband has schizoaffective disorder and when he goes through an episode- you being able to put into words what you are currently hearing helps me understand what he goes through. He’s expressed in the past that he’s heard almost the same exact things. His common one that he has is that someone is following him or stalking him. When he’s in a bad episode he’ll go catatonic. It’s truly a nerve wracking thing. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be the one experiencing it so thank you for sticking around to tell us your story. I know this video is from a few years ago, but I saw that you’re still active on here and that made me happy. When you said that the one voice said to unalive yourself the expression you had on your face was one I’ve seen on my husband’s one too many times. So thank you for sticking around. Thank you for not giving into those voices. Again, I can’t imagine what you go through on a daily, but as someone that is a partner to someone with a form of schizophrenia, it means a lot that you keep pushing and that you’re on meds. The fact that you’re also pretty aware of it helps too I’m sure. At least it helps my husband.

[@Zombie81212]

“NOOO YOU CANT MAKE HUMOR OUT OF MENTAL ILLNESS NOOO” Person with schizophrenia: anyways here’s a laser pointer

[@gamevault4580]

Making humour of mental illness is the majority of people’s, including my own way of coping with it Ask anyone who suffers from anxiety, depression, Aspergers such as myself. If we didn’t have humour to help deal with it, we would go nuts without more help than possible

[@lauratude5132]

A mental illness is part of our everyday life. It's always there. Making jokes is a way to express it. But I do feel kinda bad when people make memes about wanting to kill yourself.

[@clubpenguinmaster123]

Matthew Greer people who don’t suffer shouldn’t joke about it but if it helps someone cope with their mental illness then it should totally be allowed. you just gotta be careful because it’s triggering for some

[@christianmcbrearty]

It's fine to joke about mental illnesses in a friendly, jovial manner. But you should never never joke about the person or make a cruel, heartless joke. Also its best not to joke about illnesses you don't have.

[@PriestLargo.]

@@gamevault4580 aye for real I'm quite depressed but it's getting way better and I usually deal with it by anger and jokes mostly jokes.

[@ZBspicey]

The fact that he's aware that he's imagining all this is quite fascinating. He is a strong minded fellow with a very unfortunate sickness.

[@emilyrena6571]

yeah my dad has this sickness and he was absloutley crazy but he finally took metication and hes talking to "people' he says and he dose that alot and says hes not crazy

[@silvanutza100]

It means is not sick 😂. Trust me !

[@dragonjay7277]

So whats the difference between a schozfrenic and a normal person, not much of a diff, let me tell u why, we all have a voice in our head that keeps talking and complaining, is the reason of all the suffering in the world, but are we are really separate from these thoughts and who we really are? Yes, we are totally different than what we hear in our mind and ourselves and reality, this kid, unfortunately is not properly guided, but i bet a week around me, and i ll solve all his problems.

[@RekySai]

But why does it sound like anyone talking about their internal thoughts. What's fascinating is that there is no second thought about it being real. Since there is that disconnect that these are not his voices and his thought, that it makes it easier to believe. Like people wanting to jump when they walk up to a ledge is a real phenomenon. But most understand that it's THEIR thoughts

[@RunninUpThatHillh]

I don't wanna be that weirdo in the comments but I wonder if for some people they're hearing spirits. I hear them once in a great while. I have no mental illnesses.

[@picklexp1161]

" sometimes i debate if i should or not " no, please youre amazing and you deserve to be here on this planet, please you make the world a better place and you spread awareness to the world. Dont listen to the voices🙏

[@fernandolopez5817]

Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not, in a couple of years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.

[@MichaelFerguson-tx8de]

Yes, that's right. I researched and found out that shrooms are very helpful, it has really helps to reduce anxiety and depression. I would love to try magic mushrooms but I can't easily get some, Is there any realiable source I can purchase one?

[@HelenIbarra-rl3bq]

Tripping is not really bad but find a good mycologist who will teach you the right things you need to know

[@DeanSteven-qu8xk]

I feel the same too. I once got my shroom from him and he's a genius. I'm glad to be part of his community.

[@EmmaDegroot-hj4os]

Does Sporeville ship?

[@DawsonByron]

Thank you, I really needed to hear this. Something terrible has happened unexpectedly in my life. I'm very vulnerable and also very afraid.

[@dischargepuddle8232]

“My least favorite music is country” *_respect_*

[@biggbrrrr]

discharge puddle 💀

[@affapple3214]

Country roads?

[@IIThaGawdII]

Stg 😭

[@Joseph-rx9tp]

COUNTRY BOY I LOVE YOOUUUU

[@chloerobins4487]

Your username

[@patricksweeney1088]

Poor boy, I just want to hug and hold him. He is very brave.

[@ThomasJr]

I bet it's cause he's a very pretty boy, don't lie to us. I wanna hug him too.

[@ThomasJr]

@CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 you suck hahaha

[@ThomasJr]

@CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 mama jokes are for infantile blokes like yourself. grow up

[@reecefry1174]

♥️

[@Anthonys_S]

He is so brave

[@JustMe-ty2rp]

Just discovered your channel now. My brother was schizophrenic throughout most of my life (sadly he passed a few years ago) and it wasn't easy watching him struggle. He was a very kind-hearted soul that was dealt a crap hand, and what he had to go through was anything but fair. Thank you for sharing your experience with us, I wish you all the best

[@Meowth_mist]

I understand you perfectly

[@masonchase085]

Sometimes we can’t play our cards

[@bunk95]

A slave lied about as your brother is also being lied about as ________?

[@Mrs.Stone99]

KEEP POSTING MATE. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS ILLNESS. We are here for you. You have an army battling with you and supporting you. Letting people in to what is happening is the cleverest idea EVER. You are so smart to do this. Many brains are better than one!

[@collingriga1819]

I couldn’t even imagine the internal battle this young mans fighting every day

[@Edward-ho2bm]

same it s sad

[@rohahayzza2175]

He's strong for battling it alone

[@thc7865]

I am too im schizo because of weed

[@seeelinewoman]

@@rohahayzza2175 he aint alone

[@claucara-joanjettfan3984]

It's like a haunted house inside of the mind

[@bezzerp]

- speaks about communists - 3 minutes later - “i heard an explosion”

[@elokohi8138]

Yooooooo Brendan wtf you alright, wishing you and your family good health mate xx

[@elokohi8138]

@b33ndon this really is a small world

[@FirstnameLastname-dv9wr]

Elo Kohi do you know him irl? 😂

[@xaviercvirn]

Hes a prophet 😳

[@fundzthakidd8844]

@@xaviercvirn a what?

[@Romoredux]

I have bad Anxiety and Moderate Depression (DNA) and PTSD from an event in my early 20's. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS! Mental Health is still too Taboo. WE MUST TALK ABOUT IT TO BREAK THE STIGMA!

[@sharongaston2815]

I would just love to give you a big warm hug. You are so brave. Thank you for showing what is your experience of this awful illness.

[@celestegirdner4069]

This poor baby is so brave. I couldnt do this. He is very strong.

[@user-qu4oh4xi1s]

Why're you calling him a baby tho? He's a grown up man.

[@StompDeni42]

@@user-qu4oh4xi1s was my exact question as well. And she isn't even old, like as if a grandma said it.

[@sisterindeen8333]

She said it out of love guys ...

[@celestegirdner4069]

My profile picture was years ago. Just because I'm not "old" does not mean I cant sympathize with one another. Obviously he is having a hard time and this is his life. He is so traumatized and vulnerable...so yes, the metaphor "poor baby" was the appropriate response, in my opinion. The world is so sensitive; will pick anything apart on what anyone has to say... What a shame. My comment shouldn't have stolen what the "big picture" was.

[@celestegirdner4069]

Not to mention, in this video this KID had to be about 15-17. He was not a grown man at the time and still lived with his parents

[@themonicamoss]

You're such a sweet person. I'm so proud of you for fighting this everyday and yet still being such a light. Im rooting for you ❤

[@retrosoul2776]

I have Schizo also and one of the voice just said "we support you not turning off the recording software"

[@nx563]

I'm delusional I make voices for company me and I'm not lonely I'm like extrovert but I feel there's no one can understand me I converse with myself

[@churippu3052]

“The voice told me to kill myself” “I’ll just put the music back on” YES YOU DO THAT DROWN THE VOICES DROWN THEM OUT

[@sarahsmith9430]

Exactly I tell mine to stfu now

[@buseturkyilmaz8313]

@@sarahsmith9430 same lmao, but sometimes i zone out and kind of forget im in public or with people lmaoo

[@vodkacannon]

Hey dude. I’m a schizophrenic. I cannot handle stress. The words that come out of my brain tend to be jarbled. It is a miracle that I can even type this out correctly. I work at mcdonalds and i love washing the dishes because it’s the easiest part of the job.

[@vodkacannon]

Thanks!

[@yash.805]

@@vodkacannon stay strong king!!

[@Rachel-li3ip]

The fact that you’re aware that you’re having an episode and talking about it is amazing Edit: I have learnt a lot more about schizophrenia since I left this comment. This came from my personal experience and had no ill intent

[@Officialtrinn1]

Very amazing 👏

[@emmacatherine3960]

Yes it is! That shows amazing strength

[@johndude2726]

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[@coltonsgamingindustry8378]

@@emmacatherine3960 or hes faking for views

[@icyu953]

@Antlers Antlers it's just a critical thinking u idiot. If this boy didn't showed any medical certificate "Colton" can say whatever he wants to

[@heathermurphy1140]

I am so impressed with your awareness and ability to cope with your illness. Putting yourself out here in such a vulnerable state is admirable. You are a strong young man that is clearly utilizing the tools and resources available to you and that is commendable. I realize this video is 5 years old but I intend to watch all of them and to follow along on your journey. Sending so much love and appreciation for your daily struggle. You're an amazing human. 💚💚

[@youdiein36hours]

MUCH LOVE!! ive been through similar things during and shortly after bad psychedelic experiences. im rooting for you brother.

[@rodrigomonteromiguez6684]

For anyone wondering, those voices are loud and clear, the brain can generate sensory inputs from within that are even clearer than those from your ears

[@pessimistkai5569]

Yeah like in dreams?

[@raymondreddington9788]

didn't watch the video but whos voice they be hearing?

[@quezmiz736]

​@@raymondreddington9788 it can be just made voices or someones voice you have heard throughout your life

[@brunpoon875]

Yep, you almost can't even tell difference between real and fake when you're experience those.

[@Antanaxis]

Yeah, happens to me too sometimes. I'll sometimes hear my mom yelling at me from the living room very loud and clear and when I go to see what she wants, I remember I'm home alone...

[@gamma_dc8289]

I work with schizophrenic folk all the time. Its very rare that people are this aware of their delusions. The amount of willpower this takes is far beyond anything I could even comprehend, you're strong dude. Keep that head up.

[@roflman2122]

This is low key why this looks like drug induced psychosis to me - the strong mind and awareness seem like a rather early diagnosis or something that developed a few years after intensive lsd “research”

[@engjds]

Look up Jerry Mininsky, he interviewed hundreds of people and wrote about their voices, his conclusions, the voices are real, not hallucinations, for these people it seems some veil is lowered, enabling them hear the voices most of us just think as negative thoughts.

[@Lyam._.]

​@@roflman2122it could be indeed a drug experience but i dont say it is one

[@dlboo9915]

Yeah I know what you mean this happened to me when I took strong ass shrooms and it’s uncanny how a disease and a drug kinda affects your brain in a similar manner

[@StanBach]

​@@roflman2122well if you look at his second episode there's a shroom on the back wall 🤔

[@martyevensvold4045]

You are the best and yes it was educational! Great job sharing and telling everyone what you’re going through. We all love you for who you are.

[@DjDeja]

Thank you for sharing this. I've experienced my own mental health issues and now I'm a crisis counselor. Stay strong, hugs

[@alilpotato3374]

To be honest I wanna be friends with him. He seems like a chill person.

[@maurovinicius5226]

@Marcus Aurelius He has schizophrenia. He's not a psychopath, come the fuck on

[@maurovinicius5226]

@Marcus Aurelius That's not how it works dude.. It's just a stereotype or extreme cases Besides there's medication for this

[@maurovinicius5226]

@Marcus Aurelius Yes sir. And in fact i have a aunt with this. They can be medicated and live a normal life. What you see on the news is the extreme of schizophrenia plus some psycopathic traces. Anyway, you have to be careful not to be rude to these people, they already suffer too much

[@maurovinicius5226]

@Marcus Aurelius Ok

[@vaydastrnad7147]

@Marcus Aurelius 💀💀💀so uneducated

[@sallybeatty4150]

So I noticed this video was taken a year ago I certainly hope this young man is healthy and alive

[@cold894]

He's been uploading frequently on his gaming channel, posted a new video yesterday

[@marandagarner5218]

@@cold894 what's his gaming channel ?

[@cold894]

@@marandagarner5218 It's called Geeky Boi Gaming, he mentioned it in the description of the video which is the only reason I know, lol

[@azhleysentertainmentofbore922]

The spies prob got him

[@KrazzyKittyy]

@@azhleysentertainmentofbore922 Oh fuck off.

[@patanderson1175]

Thank you so much! I have a grandson with the same problem He talks to his voices It's a little scary but you are doing very well with the way you're handling it. Please don't ever try to kill yourself! Your whole life is ahead of you! Plus i imagine that you have many many people that love you! God bless you and keep you!

[@lunchboxmccarty6431]

Dude you are so brave!! You are so worth the time and effort it takes to get better!! Thank you so much for recording and putting yourself, in your most vulnerable situation, out here for those of us that are here to learn and understand bc we have loved ones suffering too!! Thank you so so so much. You are a hero in my eyes.

[@andthensome512]

It's almost like schizophrenia is when a person's random, negative subconscious thoughts are run through an amplifier and brought to the level of their conscious thoughts.

[@mika9937]

I usually think of it as a toxic friend. It's complex.

[@vocalzbyjamelle6241]

Wow yes I can see that..... My cousin has this disorder I watch and listen to his responses it is a constant battle of thoughts magnified

[@karmyn3]

*as if your intrusive thoughts have taken over your conciseness

[@ThomasJr]

that's a simplistic view, after all no ordinary person would have thoughts about ending their own lives as much as schizos have. But I believe their hallucinations may have to do with the environment a bit and also of course their malfunctioning brain.

[@Edward-ho2bm]

@@vocalzbyjamelle6241 Oh man that s sad

[@Alicia-pe6ou]

I can't even imagine living in constant anxiety...he should really have a service dog to help him or maybe a good friend to check on him everyday... :(

[@jimbow7982]

Same😔

[@Edward-ho2bm]

I feel so srry 4 him

[@merryespinosa4893]

Its a good idea!

[@anxiahh3772]

@@4meiggy109 same 🤯

[@anxiahh3772]

@@4meiggy109 my dad had it tho and I’ve been smoking weed since 13 but I think I’m clear

[@johnrussell1766]

Thanks for the video, I too suffer from schizophrenia, meds made it worse and I've learned to tune the voices out and after lots of convincing I know the auditory voices aren't there but just in my head, no one understands or really knows the true extent of the things going on in the head, I now know I'm not the only one. Thanks, hope your able to find some peace

[@unohayden166]

Such a nice kid I feel so bad he’s gotta deal with this constantly.

[@doggon1416]

Francisco Elliot nice or not nobody should have to go through any of what he is going through

[@spaghettios]

@@doggon1416 put him out of his misery?

[@strikeb1t]

@@spaghettios *иісса...*

[@jackjill497]

Check freq?

[@ivansesaldo1676]

@@spaghettios noice

[@nanami9617]

When he said the voice told him to kill himself my heart shattered

[@JET7C0]

My dad had paranoid schizophrenia - he thought things like car horns honking were a kind of secret communication system about him and this reminds me that he probably had voices telling him that, too. He passed away from cancer at just 36. Schizophrenia hit him out of the blue at like 29 or 30, and I feel terrible about what he went through.

[@oxin1099]

isnt that normal

[@MypasswordisNewMedic]

My best friend took his life because of this disease. It’s truly insane. No clue how it works, and even if it was explained it wouldn’t make any fucking sense. I’m glad this guy knows what he’s going through, I don’t know if Matt did or not

[@ko-lq7vu]

the whole disorder sounds absolutely terrifying to go through. what’s up my fellow nico collins fan tho :)

[@LisaJOxo]

Intelligent. Strong for sharing, and helping others. The brain is so complex. Prayers x

[@jacobsapples7729]

Sadeness is a great song, super informative video, interesting perspective, thank you for uploading.

[@ITSFRICKENADAM]

Thanks for doing this. I'm extremely interested in psychology, specifically mental illnesses. I wish there was an easy cure for sufferers like yourself. Keep doing your thing and raising awareness

[@DryRiceBall]

He has the prettiest eyes but they are full of so much pain I feel for him

[@userm180]

for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛

[@kiekiekie8537]

@@userm180 stop shoving ur religious beliefs down people's throats

[@idunno7131]

@@FrozenMermaid666 you may have a god complex and delusions, please seek a professional. Or you're trolling, idk.

[@ProdYafa]

In Psalms 2:7 God says “You are my Son; today I have begotten you" to David. So are you sure? "HE gave HIS only begotten SON" you are contradicting the bible. Read your scripture.

[@sam9900]

@@idunno7131 Nice to know there’s a someone normal in this comment section. For some reason, it’s riddled with radical loonies.

[@larrysunde8878]

Was with a friend who had a episode. He always heard his Mothers voice, he looked at me with pleading eyes and said, "Can't you hear her?" It broke my heart

[@juzeejumaat4089]

My boyfriend is experiencing schizo rite now. He said he always hear some of his friend's voice talking bad about him. Even when he was with me, he will ask me is there anyone around us bcz he can hear people badmouth about him. I pity him. Now he is on medication, i hope that will make him better 😢

[@hiimYoousandiliveforvines]

I would hug them idk why, it’s a natural instinct of mine.

[@chelseamcfarland6170]

Larry Sunde is his mother still alive?!

[@maggieeileenx]

Makes me sad my mom died when i was a baby i heard her for years during my kindergartden and my first school years by tha age of 9 i ended up with heavy prescriptions of risperidona and clonazepam nobody believed me kides were so.mean in that days when i grown up i learn to live with it but it was hard .

[@rachelcalderas314]

Maggie Mahmond wow I wonder if it was really her

[@mikejpark]

Thank you for sharing such difficult content. You are brave and should be commended. I hope that you are in counselling. You're an amazing individual. Kudos!

[@Tren261]

Damn man when he said " it told me to kill myself" it broke my heart. Be strong bro youll get over it. That's so scary i cant even imagine what you've been through

[@misterfreezer9895]

But why voices doing this? I mean trying to harm those people

[@Tren261]

@@misterfreezer9895 I dunno. I ain't the best person to explain this. I guess it's just some random voices on your mind telling you what to do

[@edwardp8927]

i hope he's still alive...i lost my brother to suicide in 2010 because of schizophrenia.

[@maroonshaded]

I'm sorry for you

[@AmiraAmira-wb6wj]

I hope he's not suffering anymore and in a better place 🤝

[@MamaWhit87]

He is i just subbed

[@sissyofFreemont]

I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. I hope your brother is completely at peace. This is such a difficult diagnosis.

[@edwardp8927]

@@sissyofFreemont Thank you....

[@kmpuci]

This dude is so strong.

[@tddrytv732]

then where are his muscles

[@butterscotch9020]

swaggy fridgerator on the inside

[@tddrytv732]

@@butterscotch9020 it was a joke i hope the best for him my relatives suffer from schizo affective bipolar and it is torture.

[@sym8195]

I don't see him lifting communist spies

[@RDClan]

swaggy fridgerator r/facepalm

[@thaynavieiradeandrade5046]

Dude, I'm sorry that you have to fight this difficult battle everyday in your life. Thank u for share this video and i hope one day this stop and you never can hear/see this situations anymore. Much love from Brasil to your heart! 🇧🇷❤️

[@watchmanofyasharal8003]

God bless your soul brother. Nothing else to say but a true WARRIOR. I hope you're keeping up the good fight sir

[@otnielgonzalez5440]

Seeing this helped me understand that there aren't crazy people, just crazy things happening to normal people. I hope he found some peace and tranquility

[@suurinappi6298]

Sorry, but have you heard of Hitler or Jeffrey Dahmer or any other serial killer or something like that. There are crazy people. (Dunno why I said this I know it's useless)

[@lemonosis]

⁠​⁠@@suurinappi6298they weren’t crazy they were bad, hitler was evil, not mentally unwell or impaired. “Crazy” is a somewhat impolite term to refer to people who suffer from mental disabilities or disorders.

[@jonnycorry5390]

There are also crazy people though, this man is not one of them

[@datchickshortyrock]

The shooter in Maine today killed 22 ppl & hurt plenty others in 3 separate locations. He too was mentally ill. & ex military

[@MarioEstevez-re1us]

At my pharmacy job there was a woman who would sit and act crazy and then when her schizo drugs were ready she was completely normal. Uh-maz-ing

[@yeahwhatever1184]

I had a friend in high school who was constantly in and out of the hospital for his schizophrenia. Unfortunately, he committed suicide our sophomore year when we were 16. My friends and I are 23 now, and we still talk about him all the time. Such a great kid. Rest In Peace, Avery.

[@carolinapires5171]

i am so sorry for your loss... avery is very proud of u♡

[@manmeetsingh9242]

Oh my. I’m so sorry😢 No one should have to go through that. I’m very sorry🥺

[@averiwigley5969]

Omg that’s my name when i saw that I got scared but Rest In Peace to your friend I bet he was a great guy 💖 and I hope you are doing well

[@nadMoZzzg]

Constant hospitalizations look like good cause of suicide no?

[@2137papiezgurom]

Rest in peace buddy🥺

[@Moodipone]

I just now saw this and I'm glad you did this. You're very brave! I deal with this as well. Seeing that I'm not alone really gives me a sense of comfort... I hope you're doing okay. We got this ❤

[@carolburnette2019]

How are you doing?

[@stevep4236]

I hope all is well for you brother, thank you for sharing your experience

[@s4ndr3x98]

Anyone else just wanna hug him?

[@calvinvail488]

oh yeah yeah 🙂

[@stampwithmarcee]

Yes!

[@lambchop6278]

♥️

[@riverstyx8126]

I do :( ❤

[@cumuluseremiel1209]

🥺💔 I have to it feels like duty why can't we ?

[@whiteobama3032]

Imagine consciously staying lucid while your own mind is actively working against you. Your willpower is very impressive my man.

[@MRTECH-ym7lm]

for real

[@mysteryneophyte]

Extremely impressive, one might say one of a kind, if only every schizophrenic individual was aware that they were schizophrenic, and only hallucinating, and that the voices, and what not, we’re just all part of a sickness, no warped, storyline really far outside of reality that one mistakes for their actual life because they would know it is all just a hallucination

[@seven7upndown241]

I heard vocies in my life too. I heard demons laughing, female voices, man voices that can wake me up, jokes that i wake up. Make me fear like nightmare and stuff. I also heard God speaking and he spoke in muy head not into my ear like the others. The best thing you can do is accept Jesus Christ who is God himself, pray in the name of Jesus Christ, hurt these demons, command in Jesus name fire on them, break covenants with them and command them to get out just like the apostles did after Jesus died and left them the holy spirit in the book of Acts.

[@courtneyboudreau4284]

Terrible

[@St1cksz]

@@seven7upndown241 I thought this was an actually person with schizo but no, you decided to put the religious bs in the comment just because you want people to follow your christian god.

[@sarahdiazcastro]

Thank you so much for your vulnerability. Thank you for putting yourself out to educate people. I hope you know how much this is helping

[@MalikaKhasanova]

I almost cried with compassion for this beautiful young man who had to cope with the things he can't control or stop... (((((( It's like living hell... he is scared... and it's always in his head. I am so sorry for you, my friend. And with all that, you are such a courageous guy!!! Please stay strong. ❤

[@haryzlee]

Asian parents be like: naah you just need to drink more water and rest.

[@kermits_toes2792]

Shut up this isnt the time and place for a joke

[@millrocky6826]

@@kermits_toes2792 its true tho

[@smileyface3107]

Sounds familiar lol in other areas of my life - I hear the worst advice

[@masonbronson3194]

@@kermits_toes2792 shut up lel ur actually a simp

[@dayanamalik847]

why are people triggered by this? he wasn't making a joke but it's a reality. if you don't have asian parents you can't relate to this so why'd you even bother?

[@jeremybanks1347]

This kid has a enormous amount of strength to even talk about what he's going through. You'll find your happy place soon enough.

[@zan5701]

He looks like a teenager

[@redlilwitchy6088]

Yes he does...so strong!!

[@daddylonglegs69]

@Yeah Right is there really a need to bring up gun control to a video of a tremendously brave teenager lively explaining what he’s going through/seeing/hearing to educate more people on this exact matter on mental illnesses, in this case (schizophrenia). Go sit on a fucking pinecone if you don’t have anything better to do, fucking pathetic.

[@yanaantonio42]

@Yeah Right You sound like a toddler. F**k "gun rights". Look at the civilised world. Grow up. Childish mehmehmeh...

[@yanaantonio42]

​@Yeah Right *evil laughter*

[@ginapearce5421]

Oh honey.. your trying to fight it and that takes alot of courage and will power. Thank you for sharing this. God bless you sweetheart

[@user-kf5bz9xg3x]

We have to do better!! This young man and others need us to do better!! I'm sorry. You're a brave and sweet young man. They are still treating this illness the same way with the same meds for 40 + years. We need to do better!! Thank you for sharing yourself with us so we can help learn how to help you!

[@fishgod8908]

If i hear a voice shout "gotcha" behind me and it's not there, i would genuinely shit my pants. You're a brave, pure and funny human being. Much love man

[@abby073]

LMFAOOO RHIS DOMMENT I CANRTT

[@jennyrodewald7300]

I feel the same way! God bless and keep strong. Thank you for sharing.

[@petemavus2948]

This is a beautiful young man, I am so sorry this is happening to him I hope this is therapeutic for him and it helps to release the power it has over his thoughts and the shame it can often bring. He loves Enigma...me too Buddy! I'm not really " religious " but when I remember to pray or something touches my heart I'm inspired to do so. May I pray for you?

[@myyou7335]

Is it better to listen to his mind or is it better to ignore those? Which one helps the mind?

[@petemavus2948]

@Cole Aufdenkamp I don't get it, I thought Abby M was drunk or something

[@Lisa-iz7fr]

The good thing is i dont think he talks back to the voices, and he is very much aware of his sickness which seems to help him cope with it alot better. Poor baby, i can only imagine all the fear he is constantly in.

[@franciebrionesgallegos4784]

after a surgery I had an episode of psychosis in which I heard voices, I usually responded to them on my mind (I didn't even realized that) it was a horrible experience and I think it depends on the person, for example I never heard sounds, just voices

[@aiai4u109]

It does help a lot to be aware of what's happening in the brain

[@stopdropandgame9506]

@@franciebrionesgallegos4784 How is it bad? does it affect your emotions too or is it just scary?

[@pamnob2259]

@@franciebrionesgallegos4784 I would say seek the lord he is the way he is the last door

[@simplesimon8255]

Don't fucking call him a baby. There's no need to infantilize him when he's already going through a lot. What is wrong with u?

[@Franklywhy]

I’m very happy you posted this my cousin is in the same boat. It started when he went to college. He is different though. Like the old cousin died and this new one emerged. He doesn’t want help and doesn’t believe he has it. I wish he would watch your videos. Just so he understood that he isn’t alone. He lives on the streets in Chicago somewhere now… 😢 I’m glad that you can make these videos so others can understand somewhat of how you guys are when you’re in it.

[@nundisclosed7135]

I'm so sorry you struggle with this. Please don't ever kill yourself!! You seem like an amazing guy. You've got a great personality, funny, friendly, caring & much, much more. Do you take medications for this? Do they help if/when you do? It sounds like you're close to your parents because you said you talk to them about it but if you ever need/want someone just to talk/chat with we could exchange emails, FB messenger, or thru here, although I don't know if we can chat thru here, I've never tried that :) Anyway, you're a very strong & brave guy with lots to offer this world & I wish you more good days than bad. 💕

[@deebhoymcw2120]

Audio hallucinations are so much worse than visual hallucinations, this poor boy must be tormented.... what a scary thing the human brain is, I hope this kid gets all the help he can

[@beezabub06]

Yep! I sometimes hallucinate (most likely a result of a lack of sleep but idk) and I used to hear babies crying. I also recently heard someone say my name from right next to me (I was sat in my room at night, alone) so that was terrifying. In terms of visual hallucinations, one time I woke up face-to-face with a ghost-like person, so either my house is haunted or I should start going to sleep earlier

[@Alanna_Llama]

My visual hallucinations are much worse than the auditory ones. Also, I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia so right now I don't know the source of my hallucinations.

[@pasqualesimonelli1513]

@@beezabub06 wow you should contact a doctor or someone that can help you idk, that's strange

[@pasqualesimonelli1513]

@@Alanna_Llama same to the comment above

[@angrygalamb]

@@beezabub06 I sometimss wake up at night and see my dad staring at me but his face is weird and just... idk why lol hes nice but it freaks me out

[@chikinnugjits5452]

Why is everyone getting recommended this now. It’s 1 am and this is so scary.

[@jakez2810]

Chikinnugjits you still awake? I am 😂

[@thecrustyonion5935]

Igs literally 1:00 am exactly

[@gnome.1218]

CrustyOnion wtf

[@JosHboIthEaweSoMe]

It’s now 1 am for me too wtf

[@neebee6392]

Yooo same lmao 😳😳🙄🙄

[@lavanderialoca7385]

Wow, i respect yiu so much for sharing it. I lived with someone who had schizophrenia. This will help others, and hopefully yourself. It's learning how to throw out all negative thoughts and embellish the positives and love. Very difficult. I wish you well

[@lorettademaio4334]

I am sending love and saying prayers for your peace. My older brother also has schizophrenia and is now in his 70's. He was lucky enough to have a wonderful doctor who helped him become a sucessful in life. I hate that the voices are telling you to kill yourself, because life can get better. Please hang in there, and seak support when you need it. Also you are very corageous to be so open with your struggles, I doubt I could ever do something like that. Thank you for sharing, and I am sending love and saying prayers!

[@ellamay5488]

It takes some proper mental strength to talk and stay focused on a task during an episode. This dude is so strong I’m impressed

[@thequantummechanic1796]

@@khellyjones4855 👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾 BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

[@rhondaduncan7228]

He is an amazing person and extremely brave!! Helps to create awareness and stop the stigma!! Hugs 🤗and love to you young man!

[@fattocatto8900]

@@thequantummechanic1796 lol

[@mirnamisevic1993]

Yes, peoples comments are more scary than him!

[@EvaJurisson]

CERN

[@Alex-bp9sl]

This was taken two years ago, i hope he’s doing okay.

[@5nakebite]

He is okay. I was reading through the comments are someone said that he has a gaming channel and recently uploaded yesterday. His gaming channel is in the description below! Also hello fellow stay ❤️

[@imtee4315]

@@5nakebite staysss

[@imtee4315]

@@5nakebite bro im stupid this isn't the time for thos

[@5nakebite]

@@imtee4315 why? What happened? Also yes, hello stay

[@imtee4315]

@@5nakebite idk it's a sensitive topic so i felt like saying it

[@eileenritchie574]

You have a voice too! And thats stronger than any other voice u might hear. Ma God give u even more strength, blessings ad healing ❣️

[@user-ww2wc4cg4d]

Here for the first time. Thank you for sharing such a personal battle. I hope you are feeling better now. I will subscribe❤.

[@MJBjj870]

The look of discomfort on his face saddens me. He is very strong the way he talks him self through it.

[@greenjupiter]

❤️

[@kaylakeiser5722]

Jesus😇

[@brookenn4285]

Everyone needs to gather together & to wish God (The Creator) Allah and Yahweh, dead! He has been harassing and violently attacking all Schizophrenic & Psychosis patients in their minds including myself. Ask the people for yourself what is effecting us. It's dangerous and deadly! Please share.

[@echoyu6107]

​@@brookenn4285bro this is not cool dont disrepect a religion even if you think its wrong and I bet you said this to make people go to Christianity but this honestly made me feel more uncomfortable with it or are you just schizophrenic too? Idk but this is just horrible stop no one is going to believe this

[@JESUSLOVESYOU033]

Jesus Christ loves us unconditionally+eternally!He cares for us so much that He sacrificed Himself on the cross for our sins!God is so good!💗✝️😊

[@towelietowel4513]

This guy is so tough mentally. My uncle got schizophrenia and killed himself. Its not easy when you have so much shit going on in your head. Stay strong man. The voices are real but you can fight back.

[@veronikahk1826]

i guess you have to take your meds ALL THe TIME

[@shadowthefoxpolasik7671]

Well Hot damn! Well No Shit!

[@shadowthefoxpolasik7671]

Thats Alllll because of Demons, like i Commented down below the video

[@angiedeleon4839]

Towelie Towel my grandfather also committed suicide :’(

[@shadowthefoxpolasik7671]

@@angiedeleon4839, WELL POOR YOU

[@elzaanrossouw]

Wow thanx for sharing! I pray for you, this video needs to go viral

[@pix_hd]

You’re so strong for making such a video and I’m so proud of you for trying to fight this. Much love

[@sTrAwBeRrYoPoSsUm]

When he said “I don’t know why. There’s a lot we don’t know.” that broke my heart. I’m hoping one day we will know, and we can help.

[@greenjupiter]

❤️

[@nomask3394]

humans will never know, human brain whack

[@people_watcher]

I couldn't imagine not having control of my mind

[@greenjupiter]

@@people_watcher I wouldn't wish that upon my enemy

[@people_watcher]

@@greenjupiter , same for me. Nobody deserves that type of suffering.

[@forest-deer6008]

You’re going through a schizophrenia episode and you still act happy and silly and bring up a laser pointer, good for you man! You’re awesome and I hope the best for you!

[@spiritbiscuit9621]

Couldn't have been said better.

[@athenawoods2810]

Yeah that's really hard to do

[@TommyWeber]

Forest- Deer kzbin.info/www/bejne/f2erfmRondWVoqs

[@bigfatboy5373]

I’m your 7.9 thousandth like... 🤗

[@jonasnatho6295]

That coming from forrest deer, wow.

[@laurenbrooks8758]

Thank you for your bravery and honesty! I wish you nothing but the best and I’m glad you’re still here with us. Please don’t ever harm yourself! You’re such a strong warrior!

[@user-ff1qq3dq4q]

Keep your head phones on and the hope in your heart strong. Youre extremely self aware intelligent and brave. Youre honestly like a breathe of fresh air as much as it was heart breaking to watch. Stay strong❤

[@Sara88890]

Why was everyone recommended this? Interesting to hear though.

[@bigcheese2128]

KZbin algorithm is weird

[@Sara88890]

@@bigcheese2128 True.

[@charliecrow6817]

honestly maybe it's the trisha paytas drama that'd getting everyone interested in highly stigmatized mental illnesses?

[@bigcheese2128]

@@charliecrow6817 it's certainly getting them to romanticize it which is not a good thing whatsoever

[@charliecrow6817]

@@bigcheese2128 true. Trisha's an idiot for even bringing it up

[@itssnotsobad]

As someone who is also schizophrenic, he is not at all faking it. The people who say it’s an act, should be educated on the disorder. It’s not cool to make fun of it either.

[@AlphaWasSpotted]

Don't worry man, intelligent people know its not an act. It's not your fault either.

[@ayay3428]

Do you hear or see thing?

[@AlphaWasSpotted]

@@AGreyAlien its only private if they choose for it to be private.

[@deepbluebeer]

@@AGreyAlien youre cringe

[@AlphaWasSpotted]

@@AGreyAlien he's not doing it for attention, he's doing it for educational purposes and for aiding understanding for the condition he was born with.