I shoudn't take things so serious I don't think they mean any harm But it would sicken you too If it happened to you And you had to relive every part Here come the flashbacks And the panic attacks How long does that shit last I'm losing myself by the day see And I know you all think that I'm crazy That the demons that show up At the foot of my bed Are just figments from memories That fucked up my head That night terrors ain't nothin But a real bad dream So quit being a God Damn drama queen I seal myself in a sound proof room So no one can hear how loud I scream But you don't think it's as bad as it seems Cause you've never dealt with PTSD Frozen in your track Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back I can't even be around cigarettes You know how many people smoke? Approximately one billion And just about everybody I know You think you know but you don't When someone's broke you can't just heavy sigh And roll your eyes Like if they ain't physically ill Then they must be a liar But wouldn't you recede to the fire If everything around you became a threat And everyone surrounding you said GET OVER IT It becomes unbearable to live in So listen Triggers are relentless They ain't gonna quit They don't go away just cause you don't Believe it Reliving each nightmare on an everyday basis I don't think I can do this I don't think I can take this Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back You sent my mind on fire Sparks flying I'm rewired You left me no desire Broken and uninspired I feel you all conspire Left all alone with liars Hopeless so I get higher And higher till I'm tired And there's no reminder Of what I'm crying for Cause I can't fucking do this anymore Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past Repay the devils dirty deed With a gash all down his back You set my mind on fire Sparks flying I'm rewired You left me no desire Broken and uninspired Hopeless so I get higher And higher till I'm tired And there is no reminder Of what I'm crying for I can't do this anymore What am I even fighting for?
@larryericjackson21482 жыл бұрын
Hey hey I don't know if you understand I win this he My I have been true to you all you do no it for life I promise past past level that shit behind it my he is let go don't hurt because im telling Tell you the truth store
@larryericjackson21482 жыл бұрын
LoL funny he really
@Manda87892 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@vikio_o76832 жыл бұрын
I love this song so muchhh
@Gypsy442 жыл бұрын
Awesome for sharing....thank you
@yi-hira4 жыл бұрын
I wonder how many people realize the scene that Maleficent woke up screaming with her wings burned off is a metaphor about rape- going to sleep with someone you think you trust, only to not know they drugged you and took something from you (wings and virginity respectively). Even though Maleficent was able to reunite with her wings, rape victims can't get that back. Stay strong, let your friends be your wings to keep you stable until you can fly by yourself.
@SkyDxddy4 жыл бұрын
exactly.. not many know that fact. i actually put an article from vanity fair in the description.. i wrote the song and showed my girlfriend and then she made this for me. it was too painful to create myself so she told me she had the perfect movie .. she was right. thank you for listening. i hope you enjoyed it!
@yi-hira4 жыл бұрын
@@SkyDxddy That's cool that you put an article about it in the description. More people need to know. You're welcome! I really enjoy your music, I actually found you on tiktok first, then looked for you on youtube and Spotify. Your songs, the lyrics, the meanings, they all hit deep.
@Dcandmarvelfangirl3 жыл бұрын
When I seen that part I immediately thought that’s what happened to her and I got really sad
@asiyah_rose9403 жыл бұрын
@@SkyDxddy thank you it helps so much
@cindygonzalez6053 жыл бұрын
Damn
@swaffy-topic56904 жыл бұрын
0:43 ok those few lines couldn't be more true and realistic, some people think its all fun in games until it happens to them, its all jokes and a laughing matter until they get to see it with there own eyes
@SkyDxddy4 жыл бұрын
exactly ! the culture is looked at like some fuckin joke when people are killing themselves from the pain there in..
@Tee_gachaw3irdo35Ай бұрын
@@SkyDxddyI agree with that statement. . . . (I think statement or fact)
@chelseybouffard1504Ай бұрын
Even then when they do see it we're still called fakers
@daniellelahm60382 жыл бұрын
I've recently been recovering memories of my abuse when I was a child. This song helps me get through the night terrors, memories, PTSD
@Cantbeerased78932 жыл бұрын
i was abused to but i remember everything good this song helps
@MelMel-uj2mi Жыл бұрын
I was abused when I was 8 years old until I turned 13 years old. I remember what happened to me. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Flashbacks and Nightmares at 14 years old. I'm on medicine for my diagnosis. It really helps me to cope the majority of the time. I'm still in therapy with a female therapist who has been with me until I turned 17 years old. I'm 37 years old now and I will be 38 years old in May of this year. I will be hopeful to be able to get a new female therapist soon to be able to work with again and work through my other mental health diagnosis that I have. Skydxddy I think you are doing awesome music that I can relate to. ❤️
@notkim8274 Жыл бұрын
I understand. Im 33, and It took me till I was 30 to relive the memories I repressed when I was a child. Listen, though, what happened absolutely wasn't your fault, and I know how hard it is to accept it, but repeat it, like a mantra. You're valid, you're seen ❤
@Sp0oky_princess2 жыл бұрын
I know you won't see this. But I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for this song. I have PTSD really bad, I was sexually assaulted three times and was in a very abusive Relationship and this helps me cope. I've never been able to find a song that I can relate to about my PTSD and ever since I found this over a year ago I play it all the time. So thank you so much for this amazing song. I'm still fighting. I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor.
@navpreetdhillon81742 жыл бұрын
i believe u can do it...it wasn't ur fault so u don't need to be sad...u r the best cz u have survived until now and believe me u will in future too but u ARE NOT survivor but a WINNER👏👏👏
@cassondraannfrost96182 жыл бұрын
@@navpreetdhillon8174 you said it perfectly
@navpreetdhillon81742 жыл бұрын
@@cassondraannfrost9618 i am glad u agree with me
@Sp0oky_princess2 жыл бұрын
@@navpreetdhillon8174 you are amazing. I'm just seeing this now. Thank you so much you give me hope. I am a winner 🏆
@priscillamontes24162 жыл бұрын
I’m sending positive energy your way ❤ you’re a warrior you got this ❤
@Rachelja963 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry to everyone that is here. What happened to you was NOT your fault. Please remember that.
@fadingraiya60333 жыл бұрын
🥺💙💙
@melaniefeltsfagan12272 жыл бұрын
😢❤️
@nuviagutierrez25252 жыл бұрын
Thank you. I took me years to realize it wasn't my fault because no one ever told me different.
@alexsedillo85492 жыл бұрын
That’s so sweet 🥹… it’s still taking me awhile to know it wasn’t my fault and now hopefully he gets put away…
@tiatownend76602 жыл бұрын
It was for me was never strong enough I'm not even strong enough to get out of bed in the morning but ppl pretend like it's easy and act like it's a joke but it's serious and it happens to much
@BexHix Жыл бұрын
I know those feelings all too well...I fight the demons of PTSD daily. My therapist said it best when she said " there is nothing wrong with you mentally EXCEPT for the fact that you've been through traumatizing situations that unfortunately a pill and no amount of talking can take away the fact that those events happened. All you can do is hold your head up and say "I SURVIVED" and hope that maybe you can save another from experiencing the same pain"
@tarakelley20272 ай бұрын
I'm right there with you 😢 sa and DV survivor. You got this
@TrinaGodfrey-u3e2 ай бұрын
Another warrior here, child neglect and abuse and DV, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and light the way for others.
@rahulenork4 жыл бұрын
One thing I love is the passion/anger with which you rap ! It sends shivers down to my spine !
@SkyDxddy4 жыл бұрын
thank you! alot of people dont like that. im glad some people understand the intensity.
@FrableRock4 жыл бұрын
Same here, I think her voice is so unique and I love her music
@casseylloyd11733 жыл бұрын
Took the words out my mouth!! You can feel her music
@savanadaley53073 жыл бұрын
Its because she speaking on experience. 🥺💔
@skylarmurphy81023 жыл бұрын
@@SkyDxddy whaaaaaat? That WHY...I listen to it. I feel my pain through your music
@exxiethewriter35672 жыл бұрын
I...I am not diagnosed with PTSD. Possibly because I keep the things that have happened close to my chest. However, it needs to be said that I thank you for this song. It makes me feel less alone. And that even if I can't speak my truth yet, someone else is speaking theirs.
@aussieliferanch4933 Жыл бұрын
it becomes more bearable with time. I tell people what happened to me and let them decide if they feel safe or comfortable enouph to share with me or not. ive been the first person to know someones story so many times this way, and when they where ready helped them tell others and they eventually grow out of needing the blanket of security i offer as they find their own voices.
@really4421 Жыл бұрын
I feel that exact feelings I know how u r feeling I promise
@HelloNo-j2t6 ай бұрын
did buddy stutter LMAO
@emtu5512 ай бұрын
God damn. Felt like u wrote exactly my emotions in words when I listened to this song. ❤️
@LizzieLeishАй бұрын
you cant keep flashbacks to yourself. It takes everyone around me to talk me back into the present every time, and I can be trapped in rumination memory yelling and pleading to not be hurt again, out loud at someone gone a year now for 15 hours at a time or I get trapped in days of complete fear shut downs where I do nothing, no sleep no eating no nothing but sit crying in terror. ptsd is a bit different to c-ptsd. both are awful.
@kaylawoodall997 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. 10 years of being SAed by my father and it took others screaming I’m not alone for me to see it. My inner child is so scared but we’re trying to fix what they broke. The night terrors the ptsd the anxiety I struggle just doing my job where I take care people. Thank you for screaming for us who can’t or feel they aren’t strong enough
@jodi7139 Жыл бұрын
I just recently discovered your music thru a friend and I'm so obsessed now. I'm 51yrs old. I am a domestic violence survivor with severe ptsd and I can't even tell you what your music means to me. Thank you🖤💜🖤💜🖤
@LizzieLeishАй бұрын
46 same and yep, my new life is this song and fighting being trapped in it again non stop. its only been a few months I got away properly and put into a safe house system, they say it will take time but it will get easier to control :(
@NotebookLives3 жыл бұрын
So powerful. Using the Maleficent clips is like thr icing on the cake, too. My wife showed me your work and my jaw is still dropped at how dope your work is.
@Imma-lezbean_9 ай бұрын
How is ur wife? Is she ok
@gtravers32323 жыл бұрын
This made me cry. This is the first song I've heard that accurately depicts how I feel on the inside. Thank you.
@damagedemoangel666 Жыл бұрын
me too . touched me on so many levels , ion think she knows just how much ha music helps .
@brendalynn61 Жыл бұрын
Same here
@LizzieLeishАй бұрын
yup. and the way people around you behave when you are having episodes. Like its choice.
@charlotteembrich96036 ай бұрын
I just love how some did a maleficent edit of her pain and didnt make her out to be the villain. She was betrayed by her first friend turned lover in the worst way and just expected to let that go? I always saw the 3 fairy mothers as the villains cause they knew what happened and still took the side of the betrayer. They basically just gaslight her cause she shunned humans from the grove after having her wings cut off by the guy she trusted most. He did that to her for greed and used her for his gain. He wasnt a good person anymore after that night. That song was great and fit perfectly. Hits hard to cause its true.
@marissaashley85567 ай бұрын
For anyone on here please know that after seven years your body is brand new meaning if its been seven years you have a body that your abuser has never touched i hope this helps some of yall like it helped me ❤️
@dezzdobby10213 жыл бұрын
As a cptsd survivor this song literally gives me chills
@mixermashups55112 жыл бұрын
same dude
@christelstevens8112 Жыл бұрын
Wow. Same.
@HelloNo-j2t6 ай бұрын
😂😂😂😂
@mvsnightcore80332 жыл бұрын
normally i don't like rap music. but your voice... the pain and anger... wow love it
@katarinarivers29743 жыл бұрын
Love this so much. ❤ It truly helps with coping. I have C-PTSD and BPD as a result of 10+ years of abuse and multiple compounded traumas. This song gives me words yo describe it.
@thetruthspeaker19782 жыл бұрын
God bless you, nobody should have to deal with the diplaced issues of others. The best thing i know to do is to make sure it ends . I sometimes struggle not to be hurtful to people. I try to remember how it feels and that i never want anyone else to feel that way..♥️
@katarinarivers29742 жыл бұрын
@@thetruthspeaker1978 Thank you! ❤ And yes, breaking the cycle is SO important! I struggle with it too b/c you do wind up harboring so much anger & hurt from what was done to you but you also know you can't take it out on people who didn't do it. Its hard but its worth every moment of recovery and healing.
@BatttleKattt2 жыл бұрын
I have cptsd as well... It's ridiculous the amount of bullshit I've been dealt. Feels so unfair, if it weren't fory children I would no longer be here...
@hellohello-ey9qj Жыл бұрын
Ptsd and bpd, are an awfully tragic mix. You are not alone, this sucks. This song really explains a lot of the unspoken feelings.
@s.i.c.q.m.s.5677 Жыл бұрын
@@BatttleKattt Same 🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏 Light Love & Levity To You & Yours 🤍
@priscillamontes24162 жыл бұрын
I felt this because I know a form of this pain. Im living with PTSD myself. Thank you for this ❤
@HallowbeaststudiosGaming5 ай бұрын
Being someone with cptsd.... This song speaks volumes to me and those around me I'm so tired of people treating me like it's my fault or like I can control it when I can't.... This song makes me feel like I'm not alone
@mystiesubs35Ай бұрын
What i love is that this can be related to any kinda of trauma
@addieschubert47394 жыл бұрын
I found your music not long ago and it’s so powerful and inspiring
@angelrage7528Ай бұрын
I freaking LOVE this! HTH did I miss this. Girl you've got it going on! Never stop!
@VenesaBarnes5 ай бұрын
I've listened to this song ever since it came out and I've never realized what her getting her wings taken away mint but now it all makes since and i can 100% relate. Love this song and the music video to it it goes so well together.
@RosemaryFenton76952 жыл бұрын
Everyone always tells me "You just gotta think of good things" "You need to stop focusing on all the bad and you'll be fine" "You're just being dramatic, your past could've been worse" "Others have gone through worse than you" This shit right here is what pisses me off. I can't stand it. You know who all says this to me? People who don't have PTSD. My husband's mom and grandmother being those people and honestly? Idk what to do with them, how to explain it
@madelinesibley74232 жыл бұрын
I am so sorry certain members of your family are saying those sorts of things. Yes, some people have objectively been through more $hit, but that doesn't ever EVER mean that you haven't suffered as well. One person's pain does not lessen the pain you feel. In my experience, when I encounter people with that small mindset, I just don't bring it up with them. There is no point. I hope things get better for you. Your abuse that you suffered through (and are still suffering from) should never define you. I'm not saying pretend it didn't happen, it did. But the quote at the end of this song is true: "The villains in your story don't deserve to see you fall." 🖤
@shinebritechosen2 жыл бұрын
You have to mind over body shit. It aint easy and dont ever let your weak times make you quite. Cuz your loved and needed and you can conquer that shit
@Raevens_freedom Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry that all of these things have been said to you. Something that I always say to others when they say stuff like that is, “yes, people do have it worse. But that doesn’t automatically mean that I don’t have it bad.” You are so strong and I’m so sorry about anything bad that has ever happened to you. You are amazing. ❤
@Youtube_randomnobody10 ай бұрын
As if it's a damn choice. They piss me off too but then I think, I'm glad they don't understand. I don't ask people to understand I just ask them to love me anyway.
@earnestobright96404 ай бұрын
I don't think people understand on how much you want dwell on the bed even if you want to think about the good the bad overwhelms you
@isaiahshane95452 жыл бұрын
"Frozen in your track Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back" the absolute most accurate description of what a flashback feels like. i have been listening so much on spotify and finally come to see the videos. im crying so hard :( this is a masterpiece. im going to watch all the others now
@faithmelton28033 жыл бұрын
I don’t know why I found this song. Or maybe it found me but as long as you rapped and said this one line I started to cry. I was raped and all I could smell was the smell of cigarettes. I can never forget Bc of how many people smoke. It’s been 6 years I’ll be 22 so almost 7 and I still have nightmares. I never found a song that related so much
@Kayu0105 ай бұрын
This song be hitting to hard recently
@marissaclifford48824 ай бұрын
You enunciate the words so well, even when you’re really rapping them fast!!! You’re so talented and the music video is so excellent.
@courtneybeattie64073 жыл бұрын
I wonder how many people heard this and Realise that this is what they go through daily, As a person with ptsd I can relate and I kinda feel at eased that a lot of people go through this pain and not just me (it makes me feel not alone)
@havedevil291529 күн бұрын
The fact I relate to this so much and that there's music like this just makes me feel less alone. Also fun thing about is that people have started realising that I'm a lot kinder than I seem people started calling me cruella
@Sp0oky_princess2 жыл бұрын
I've been listening to skydxddy for a long time and this will forever be my favorite song. I relate so freaking hard. I have PTSD and a lot of trauma. This is the only song that I've found about PTSD and I've never related to anything so hard. Thanks skydxddy for this forever banger.
@TheLias_Squad4Life3 ай бұрын
Relating to this song rn, i love your music sm
@xl-origins Жыл бұрын
"What am I even fighting for...?" Miss... If not for yourself, for the people you save with this music.
@justinmeyer35885 ай бұрын
I get that feeling alot and Maleficent has been my favorite and I know how she feels especially when I feel that way as well.
@emilyramos2643 жыл бұрын
I honestly love that I found ur music I deal with extreme PTSD and this song is so relatable
@Amber-d8uАй бұрын
this song explains a lot and people need to listen to what it has to say cause every song has a meaning of why it was made most people I know will just say this song doesn't mean anything but they're wrong this song has a lot to say and I love how you made it because most people would make the song but not feel how the song says they feel but the voice in this was so passionate to proves you experienced every part you wrote about this song. keep making great songs never stop what makes you happy and able to express yourself
@heků.bä4 жыл бұрын
I LOVE U this song has helped me so much and literally describes my feelings and how ppl treat me due to my trauma Makes me feel less alone
@ACrazedGaming3 жыл бұрын
As someone who suffers from ptsd This song makes my anger and rage at the world so much easier to deal with Thank you Thank you for making it easier to deal with day by day
@just_Moss3 жыл бұрын
Exactly, I know how you feel
@Melissa6382 жыл бұрын
Agreed. I get so sick of hearing " just get over it" if it was that easy to just let it go.. Man you can have it. I wouldn't wish PTSD on anyone.
@kennethsullivan60452 жыл бұрын
It does the same thing to me. Outstanding
@angiejones24812 жыл бұрын
Same
@emmacourtwright77363 жыл бұрын
I feel this so hard. My mum has ignored the fact that I am still deep down a traumatized child. No one believes me when I tell my side, they all say "oh don't go pulling that card again." so now I have no friends because i put up boundaries to protect myself from the flashbacks. Does anyone else get super panicky and violent when the flashbacks are almost done? Cause I do, but i dunno if its normal... Anyone else get like that?
@lilmadrox1de385 Жыл бұрын
I do... I'm scared to put up boundaries so I get flashbacks very often.
@damagedemoangel666 Жыл бұрын
i totally understand - i get flashbacks n triggers from smells , certain places , clothes etc + it sucks cause i’ve lost touch wit reality n get told ta “move on” “it’s over” n i “should move past it” like it’s sooo easy , so i’ve jus rlly been self destructive ta myself a lot lately since ion rlly have nobody ta lean on w/o getting criticisms as if it’s my frickin fault n it drives me crazy i wanna scream …. so no , yhu’re not totally alone n have ppl like me in our position who actually rlly get it n wont jus tell yhu wutchu wanna hear . much love angel , i hope yhu’re doing well 😔💙
@damagedemoangel666 Жыл бұрын
@@lilmadrox1de385 me too :( then it’s like we’re duh bad guys once we set up our boundaries like CANT WE DO ANYTHING RIGHT ??!??? 😔🥺
@lilmadrox1de385 Жыл бұрын
@damagedemoangel666 yeah it's like we can't set them because then we are wrong for not trusting people
@damagedemoangel666 Жыл бұрын
@@lilmadrox1de385 n dats one of many things i cant stand - we cant do anything w/o worrying abt upsetting ppl while so when rlly , we jus wanna be comfortable , like no , we jus want our peace n safe space n they fail ta realize its not our fault we can’t trust ppl ykwim
@De3dcrypt1d Жыл бұрын
I wasn’t sexually assaulted or abused but I was sexually harassed, people tell me I’m over dramatic. This song really helps Thanks
@fuzzydo6911 Жыл бұрын
Trauma is when you think you're safe and something happens that makes you realize you aren't. You are not being dramatic. You just realized that you are not as safe as you thought you were. As someone who has been sexually harassed by both men and other women, I can tell you that it is normal to become more cautious around people and to feel uncomfortable. However, if it has come to the point where you have flashbacks, panic attacks, or no longer feel safe around people you may need to seek professional help because there most likely is another more serious underlying trauma involved. To be fair though, I "fought off" anyone who sexually harassed me, which may have lessened the trauma's effect on me. Additionally, everyone reacts to trauma differently so don't just take my word for it.
@marykayayers3256 Жыл бұрын
You are with us. Safe. No matter they had there way physically or mentally to put you here ..hugging you...
@christineeleonorepoppe6745 Жыл бұрын
Many small but bad things happened to me and at some point I ended up in a mental health clinic and one patient opened my eyes about the way I was thinking with one sentence "just because other's had it worse doesn't mean u're struggles aren't valid" he said that after a long conversation and me feeling bad about complaining since he experienced many more hard times than me... u're not over dramatic
@katelynhenson8719 Жыл бұрын
I wasn't assaulted or anything. But my family member hid a camera in the bathroom to record me showering. I have never felt like the same person since. A part of me will always remain in that bathroom. All trauma is valid. I dont feel my trauma is significant enough to talk about or complain about but I will never feel comfortable in a bathroom again.
@donnamason652211 ай бұрын
That's a terrible abuse of trust. It is a serious assault . Please validate yourself and your feelings. Talk to someone. Maybe a therapist or helpline. You shouldn't keep it to yourself. It will fester. You are the victim. You have every right to your feelings. I hope you find your righteous anger. I wish you all the very best with your healing.❤
@josiekorenek2795 Жыл бұрын
It does get better, I promise. It will take years, but you will find your strength, your voice. I struggled heavily for 2 years, half of which with undiagnosed PTSD. After a year of doing emdr, I finally am ready to move onto talk therapy. It’s hard, it really is. But you got this, I know you do. You’re stronger than you know.
@yanniskarpaseaАй бұрын
I'm beyond thankful for this song. I had a group of people sexually assault me when I was 7 and was nearly murdered by a teenager when I was 5. 😢 dealing with severe depression, CPTSD, severe anxiety, and a bunch of other mental problems for longer than I can remember.
@lucywest61222 жыл бұрын
I've been bullied for years for being adopted and recently I got given some bad news and this song has helped me so much. it's been the motivation for me to get up when I've completely felt like not getting up. So thank you Sky, you are a true helper and inspiration. My PTSD has gotten worse as I've grown so this song has really helped.
@Foshokaylee332 ай бұрын
God I feel this song so deep in my heart and soul deeper then any song I feel her pain, I feel your pain you feel mine to through is message we are warriors we are survivors we were meant for this journey and paint be able to get through everything we are strong it hurts it aucks but are stronger and more knowledged because of it. We got this girl! I love you!
@katrinareinholz42272 жыл бұрын
Your fighting to help those who can relate feel like they aren't the only one who feels that way ❤️ thank you for this song
@CodySziber8 ай бұрын
Skydxddy, how did you get better from what you went through? Most of the time I can't even leave the house because I feel so ashamed people tell me it was my fault because i did nothing. I was 5-7 1/2 when it happened. therapist have asked if I like what i went through.
@lessing40335 ай бұрын
That's so fucking twisted, i'm really sorry you had to went through that, i hope soon you can find a way to heal the most possible, you're strong and know it wasn't your fault, whoever says it it can fuck off. Only you and you know the pain you carry.
@athenavo6274 ай бұрын
I am deeply sorry you went through this . I am deeply sorry that you got to meet an incompetent, ignorant therapist. What helped me was a ton of therapy, talking with my friends and in the end realising not only intellectual but emotionally that all that was not my fault. I was a child. I was thinking childlike thoughts, feeling like a child. Reacting like a child, even if my body reacted as nature intended and I felt a conflict of body and mind, of what I definitely did not want, but was made to feel. That is not easy to make peace with. Reading up on the developmental stages of childhood might help to adjust your framing of past events. Affirmations. Getting into martial arts. As you realise the strength and weakness of you body you also realise the strengths and weaknesses of the people around you. And than comes the point when you realise - it was never your fault. You never had a chance. But you were made to believe it was your responsibility, your fault. And then you will have to find a way to deal with an overpowering amount of rage in a constructive way without blasting you whole life ...
@andibruland43714 жыл бұрын
Also this sone is one of the best songs I have ever heard 💕💕
@SkyDxddy4 жыл бұрын
thank you bb xx
@taylorburns39362 жыл бұрын
As someone that struggles badly with my mental health because of severe trauma, I appreciate this song sm. People don't realize how hard it is to deal with something when they've never gone through it. I'm tired of people fucking say just forgive and forget about it. You try to forget about it when the smallest things trigger anxiety all the fucking time.
@s.i.c.q.m.s.5677 Жыл бұрын
🙏🤍🙏
@CheyenneTrue-l5r4 ай бұрын
Just saw this song live last night and got drenched with water, Absolutely love you and your music ❤
@skymercii2 жыл бұрын
My best friend sent me this cus I told what I was struggling with: PTSD. Anxiety. Depression. Disassociation. Random Depression episodes. You know when I was going thru a very dark time. I want to thank you for helping me thru that.
@s.i.c.q.m.s.5677 Жыл бұрын
🙏🤍🙏
@Skullpirate89Ай бұрын
I had a blackout at work in front of two of my bosses yesterday. My eyelids are so swollen I can barely see. I'm glad I had today off but I'm going to play this to them to try to explain. I sent it to my bf too and he said that it makes sense now. I can only imagine the pain it took to write this but I'm glad that you did. So little understand.
@kristinpalmer99167 ай бұрын
Thank you survivor of all types of abuse
@Fishmas_Tree3 ай бұрын
amazing, almost 80 thousand likes! It just shows that humanity is trained to not ever allow anyone to heal
@invisible_potato4 жыл бұрын
I love this so much its so Powerful and beautiful ❤❤
@SkyDxddy4 жыл бұрын
thank u my love!
@ShacharKoren023 ай бұрын
I was raped 4 times by 4 different men and i was in a seriously abusive relationship with one of them...every day i cry...every day i feel like im slipping further and further into the flashbacks and disociation...it feels like my sanity and my heart was stolen and i keep looking for songs that express how it feels...how hard it is to live in this world as someone with CPTSD...it tore my world apart and every day i struggle to just stay alive...i know you wont see this Skydxddy but your songs and story especially this song help me so much and i can honestly say that you saved my life just by being yourself and making the music that you do
@shaneekabatty-crossАй бұрын
I'm so sorry. ❤
@jonathancrane8254 жыл бұрын
Your music is helping me with my troubles thank you fro you beautiful songs and voice
@pandatingler10 ай бұрын
This song is my daily motivation. My therapist listened to it with me Sunday, she said it's the best representation of PTSD and what you feel like after trauma she's ever heard. Thank you for your music it has helped me so much as I start my healing through C-PTSD ♥
@vatiantL11302 жыл бұрын
I don’t have diagnosed ptsd but I can feel this song a little to much as I wanted… hopefully everyone who had such moments can handle them and stay strong!
@AdriannaGonzales-ul4ku5 ай бұрын
This helps I lost my brother a year ago and I truly thought he was happy
@Tazzdancer123 жыл бұрын
Why haven't I discovered her sooner her music hits home for me in a relatable way and I haven't been able to have a real cry from a song in so long. Thanks for you music love you've inspired me today. ❤️
@miribekahburke20212 жыл бұрын
I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and this is the best song that I’ve ever heard that describes what it feels like and that I can relate to. Flashbacks and nightmares are constant and I relive my trauma almost every day. Thanks for writing this song so I don’t feel so alone. I feel understood finally. Also, I love your style of music and your song Battlefield! Thank you for everything SkyDxddy ❤️
@daintrex86062 жыл бұрын
I need more of this. I feel your music to my very core. This deserves more recognition. I've listened over 20 times in two days and shared with 3 friends.
@thecat314 ай бұрын
I’m not gonna lie I’m gonna be really vulnerable for a second I’m using this right now to drown out flashbacks..
@Glitched0ut_4 жыл бұрын
..your music really fucking hits me. You make people feel less alone sharing your story and your story matters. So thank you... I love your fucking music and I just started listening to it.
@kianatyler27798 ай бұрын
Everyone has trauma. No matter how perfect their life seems to be, some peoples traumas arent as severe as others. Everyone should be open to help people even if it seems fake because u wouldn't know.
@Rand0m1nternetpers0n2 жыл бұрын
It's been 4 to 8 years since my last sa and I still wake up with nightmares, this song very well described what it's like to deal with the trauma I went through
@EmmaZabrosky3 ай бұрын
I love this song the rapping is what really pulled me in and made me look at the lyrics and I honestly love this song, my favorite.
@alexistrate1992 Жыл бұрын
People think maleficent is pear evil but she is broken she had her wings cut off and she trusted the person who did that
@Emily-ki7vh5 ай бұрын
This song perfectly describes my life right now. Hits so hard, every line. I feel so hurt, especially because my parents don’t believe me and say to get over it and move on. I just need so badly for someone to say they believe me that I was raped.
@Camimalm73 жыл бұрын
You’re unreal. Seriously this song is out of this world I can’t believe a person could be this talented. ICONIC!!!
@lydiagully655010 ай бұрын
Damn I was reading the comments and I shed some tears and I haven’t cried in 4 or 6 years but the things they say are relatable just whoever reads this don’t give in yet I know days feel like it’s passing like it’s nothing and the constant pain and emptiness will be gone someday we just got to wait a little long but if that day doesn’t come just find a way around it please.
@FeralGremlinGF3 жыл бұрын
I'm here for you hun.... I know the feeling all too well. If you ever need to talk or vent I'll always have ear to lend😊
@YourPenguinFriendMilo2 жыл бұрын
I've never heard someone talk about this out loud in the open, and for the first time in my life I don't feel alone. I have PTSD, and I've suffered in silence since I was a child. All of the rage I feel, the pain I've suffered, the night terrors and flash backs I'll never be able to erase- this captures it all. This song is more validating to my pain than I've ever had. Thank you, I needed this.
@dueunicycle36994 жыл бұрын
I always enjoy your music man.
@bonniewhite80936 ай бұрын
That unwanted kiss... the smell of smoke on their breath, it's something you don't forget.
@obscureebby4 жыл бұрын
This is a powerful song!! Along with your other Amazing songs you've made! 💕💜 you surprise me with your meaningful rap! This is what people should hear!! Kepp going bb ❤😁
@Skrulz_King6664 ай бұрын
Ik this song’s message is a rough one but I really like this song, it’s constantly on my mind when I work 😅
@spacyrose62364 жыл бұрын
I’m so happy I found your music it’s amazing ❤️😘
@mimaflaherty75843 ай бұрын
This song hits so different as someone with PTSD mixed with the maleficent edit its too powerful for its own good fr
@chryswarren83913 жыл бұрын
The amount of times I’ve listened to this and cried is astronomical. But thank you…. For this
@amberpatterson9077 Жыл бұрын
😭😭😭😭😭 I'm over here screaming, I've NEVER heard my life experience put into words....I'm speechless.
@isisbauer76119 ай бұрын
Does anyone else just not want to feel? Because when you do you're either crying or falling in a "black hole" does anyone else feel like that? Or is it just me?
@jennifermccollum83006 ай бұрын
All the time
@SDRotBadger6 ай бұрын
Same
@MercedesonPaws6 ай бұрын
Trust me I thought I wouldn't want to feel and shit down all emotions in my body so I didn't feel and I'm telling you it's the worst thing to do caer even you finally let them come back they come back like a fucking train wreck and I'm still coping from it after almost 2 years of letting go
@muradahmed75805 ай бұрын
Same
@PoeticDreamer51 Жыл бұрын
I heard this for the first time a few days ago. Mine happened 10 years ago. I tried to unalive myself a year after. I had this moment of amazement when I listened to this. Because this was it. This was exactly it. But I’ve come so so far. I still have nightmares sometimes. But I’m a completely different person. I was telling someone about how this song made me think back on it and it made me sad. But not in a way that it was a trigger, but in a way I would feel if someone told me they had the same thing happen. In a “I’m so sorry this happened to you,” kind of way. And then I started crying. I’ve heard it said to me before, but I don’t think I’ve ever said it to myself. If that makes sense. Thank you for this song. Thank you for helping me realize how far I’ve come and for that little extra bit of healing.
@andrewmartin19813 жыл бұрын
"I can't do this anymore, what am I even fighting for" 🥺
@ryantully37176 ай бұрын
The emotion in the words. Wow. You get it. Beautiful
@jellymermaidforlife14713 жыл бұрын
I have PTSD and I sometimes have really had night terrers I hate it sky you are such a strong person this song is bussin
@RosalieMariaRossi4 ай бұрын
Gladly found a young and person I relate to
@carinamorhart31452 жыл бұрын
Your music found me at the right moment. Thank you.
@making_new_words4 ай бұрын
i love this song and it is amazing to see people speaking up about their PTSD. I don't have what people call "normal PTSD" in that for a long time I denied that I could ever have PTSD bc I thought what I went through was something normal that everyone goes trough only to find out later that it wasn't even close to normal. when your little TV and books and parents make being bullied in elementary seem like a normal thing that everyone goes through and that it cant be serious. when I started noticing the difference between bulling that i was told about and mine I told people but even after being harassed, bit, punched, hit, and received death threats I realized I no one was ever going to do anything. now i'm weary of telling people about it bc I didn't want to be perceived as an attention seeker and at my school I (white) was a minority bc we were an international school and most of my friends were colored and I was bullied based on the fact that I was white and some little kids at my school ( like 5-7 years old) genuinely thought and were thought that racism was one way (white mean to black) and if I told my friends they wouldn't have understood bc they weren't thought that.
@jolynnsmith22073 жыл бұрын
this is painfully relatable...and I'm so glad I stumbled upon this, thank you.
@faithsnyder6744 Жыл бұрын
Up till I was 9, when I was 11, 15, 16, and roofied when I was 17 before it happened... Your music brings awareness and shows the daily things we endure.. thank you ♥️
@The-rb4pv3 жыл бұрын
The pain in your voice. I feel it-
@Bellariddle-g1sАй бұрын
I cry to this song the lyric “I seal my self I’m a sound proof room so no one can hear how loud I scream you don’t think it’s as bad as it seems because you never delt with ptsd” hits close to sto home my aunt awhile back before she passed she called my mom we rushed to her house by the time we got there she was being carried out se was gone I was five and that’s how I learned what death was I never got to say goodbye
@antoinetteforchin94463 жыл бұрын
Your music send such a powerful message and in fact I can see how you used the swear words to make it more powerful and meaningful
@jessenoel75524 ай бұрын
That blew my mind you two are angels u was that weird cause my beginning wasn't that great i got scar down my back can't really remember what happen was thinking what happen to my back then read you too my mind blowin no pun intended
@hannahwilliams56813 жыл бұрын
I have listened to this song approximately 1000 times in the past week since I finally listened to it. I relate to it so much. I'm so sorry it happened to you too.
@VioletSalway4 ай бұрын
Listening to this on repeat to try keep myslef here and crying and screaming why and what did I do wrong to have it happen to me while trying to drink the pain away because otherwise I’ll try end myslef