Smoking a Cigar while Opening up about My Struggle with Anxiety and Overthinking

[@connieramos]

it's been rough mentally but that doesn't mean that it will always be this way. and the same goes for you!! I hope you have all been feeling well and healthy and happy but if you're not I'm right there with ya! some of us might be struggling more with our minds now but don't forget that we would NEVER appreciate feelings of joy and calmness and happiness if we had never felt the opposite of them!! stay strong out there yall!!!

[@Noble-Juan]

Keep strong connieee , if i could i would. Youu my fre deserve a kief coffee ♡

[@bipi420]

Feeling mentally challenged too at the moment 😭❤ thx Connie 😢

[@YabrineMonsri]

Try marc international cigarette the next Time it ' s from tunisia

[@immortalphoenix4618]

How is this comment 9h ago but the vid is 4hr ago

[@ClaudioCagasTres]

Finally, someone who understands.

[@khelisiesalvatore8173]

You're not alone sister. Mine is worse the longer the day goes and into the late night it can get horrible yields into me into insomnia. My anxiety I think has given way to ADHD as well as is so bad I can't sit still long enough to read a book. I end up reading the same passage same page over and over and tak a more than 15 minutes to get through the passage. I used to love to read.

[@SSRyder84]

Sorry to hear your struggles... Thank you for the honesty... As for the anxiety, I think it's alway good to remember,your not alone. Life is hard these days . I think it's probably normal to be anxious.. I know that doesn't make it any less horrible. But your not alone.. hope you feel better soon ❤ stay strong ❤️

[@kaylapayton5547]

I’m 22 & I admire how open you are about your anxiety & overthinking cuz it’s not always talked about and I struggle daily with both aswell ❤I hope you find more peace mentally and physically Connie sending positive energy ❤

[@jamievarni1530]

Getting involved in something and working hard - that helps. Time passes quickly and you’re just too busy to feel anxiety.

[@deckzone3000]

That's not how anxiety works.

[@sosabn7_715]

i received goosebumps from the tree story because it is so relatable. In my opinion, the biggest curse in life is seeking for answers that are well beyond our reach. As humans beings we are biased from birth to understand things from a limited point of view. Why did that person give us that reply that seemed so uninterested? Why do things go in this unexpected path when deep in our hearts we know there are better ways to go? We are so mesmerized by this questions that we lose track of reality. We are so lost in our own thoughts that we lose grasp on everything around us. We become obsessed. And maybe only by letting go of these thoughts and accepting that life is a game made for the naive, we start understanding better. To my mind, the purpose of life is being conscious enough to serve our moral yet accepting enough to love the imperfect world we live in.

[@rickverhage2574]

Oh man I went to this exact same phase in my early twenties. This does make me sound very old, but I'm only 29 now, slowly fading into a similar phase again. Stoicism helped me, because all questions are in the end irrelevant as we cannot change anything or most of the outcome anyhow. Whatever it helps, know that you are not alone and a lot of us struggle, especially in this weird phase in which society currently is. Wishing you peace and quietness.

[@connieramos]

I appreciate it man, I have been reading A LOT on stoicism and it has helped a lot of my overthinking, at least in accepting it. I feel like these "phases" will never be solved, just pushed aside as a new on makes their way into the front of our minds. At the end of the day we just have to enjoy even having the previlege of thinking about things and feeling such deep emotions as results from these thoughts!

[@rickverhage2574]

​@@connieramosdefinitely agree.. they will never be 'solved', but the way we handle them or atleast try to approach will be better everytime. In the context of everything we are indeed very fortunate and should cherish that.. what a wonderful view that is :). Maybe you know it: Seneca wrote letters to his pupil, lucilius, about stoicism, and they are definitely worth the read as well!

[@SoloTheRelay]

Throughout the years that I’ve had this account, I’ve never bothered to comment on any video until now. After binging several videos, I’m quite fond of the natural and realness each one presents. It’s quite like a breath of fresh air, so to speak. The best way I can describe the vibes is it’s like walking into a coffee shop and being engulfed with a calm sense of contentment. I wish you better days and look forward to see what you have to say and show in the future.

[@2Enigma1]

4 AM in the night, i just listen to you, it makes me feel good. Thank you 4 that Connie.

[@eytanomer7110]

I love this video. I feel very in sync with what you are describing, pretty much in every way about everything you mentioned. I can even feel your confusion about your own words. Im glad i came across this video it kind of calms me to see someone looking like they standing where i am, right next to me. Maybe itll also calm you to know that i FEEL this in a way i cannot even explain properly❤❤

[@gingerentertainment7628]

I’m in the same spot right now. Being in your twenties can be scary but we can do this! Life is so hard to figure out and communicating with people seems tougher than ever. Trust me you are right on the point with this. This is all part of the learning and growing process. We will figure this out!

[@connieramos]

we got this :)

[@kaseyboyce4388]

The way you articulated the loneliness you feel is really well said! I feel this too but have never understood how to express it!

[@leiurus.]

I been in therapy for 1 year now and I can tell you its helps but its so painfully slow when you start seeing progress you are strong tho because not only are you struggling but willing to share with us stay strong connie

[@andyhenly1538]

Hi Connie, I am in my late fifties, and remember how I felt when I was your age. You must come to terms with the fact that you can really only affect the people and the space around you. You can't solve world peace, you can't stop war, you can't cure global warming on your own. It takes a long time to accept these things. I am shy, I have anxiety, I worry about practically everything. But I just wear myself out. Why not be that tree in your poem? You can stand in place in your life, and look around you at everything moving by. Feel the sun on your face, feel the wind in your hair, and the rain on your bark! Let everyone else rush by at top speed, probably getting nowhere. Don't be worried you have few friends. It's better to have one or two real friends who will be there for you, than a hundred who don't hang around. I know you like to blow your soap bubbles. Do that more often. Watch the colours in the soap. See them drift away from you, and pretend they are taking your worries away with them. Don't be concerned so much with what other people think. Be nice to people and treat them the same way you'd like to be treated too. When you can find that peace that you and I so desperately seek, you will have made a success of yourself. If you are religious, pray for calm in a crazy world. If not, ask out loud for peace to come to you. I don't watch your videos for the smoking aspect, as some do. I watch them because I think your views on the world are meaningful and you should know that everyone who watches your videos goes away feeling better having watched you speaking, than before they arrived. My wife and I don't have much money, but we have our health. We don't have expensive things but we appreciate the things we do have. We don't watch the news, we take care of the bubble we live in with our family and friends. If you choose to do that, you might be pleasantly surprised. From one of the beautiful people on the internet to that beautiful person, Connie. xx

[@8amonas]

Im gonna be honest, i know you from smoking in your car and talking about anything. As i got the notification for this video i said and i quote "this b*tch lost her game" but then you read that story, and said you were mesmerized. Then it hit me, you didnt lose the game you just beat it and you helped me beat it too. You motivated me to read books, the thing youre doing with highlighting the best parts is like taking pictures while traveling. Thanks for being here youre the best!

[@liftedinart5405]

hey Connie , i've listened ,and have heard what you've said and can significantly relate .Sometimes the meaning and purpose of things is to make a silver lining where there isn't one . Ive had a troubled life and sometimes the answer is just putting a positive spin on every struggle that is thrown our way . The circular thinking might just be a product of being a thorough thinker and trying to reach conclusions with semantics and seeing things that are complicated in nature to be solvable . Ive found that the less complicated things are in my mind the happier I am . I love thinking and boiling things down to find answers but with philosophical thinking and deeper understanding of perspective and thought is that you end up missing the greater value of connection , family , etc etc( .its the head and heart disconnect with overthinking ) I know that everyone in life thinks differently and has had different varying experiences but- when it comes down to it, finding one simple truth and treasuring it is far more superior to having answers to everything taking up too much space in the mind; perhaps read some fiction this month instead of things that are far reaching like philosophy or poetry this month?..Being valued and loved by those closest to you is the most plausible answer to many peoples problems . I think it's about being appreciative of what I have vs what I feel I want or need. having the heart fulfilled is one of the biggest accomplishments I could ask for -as far as finding people who connect with you entirely ;ive made the huge mistake of forfeiting relationships taking for granted what Ive had all along with the ones tangible and in my immediate life .I rather wished to have forged long term bonds rather than trading out my old clothes for new ones . when it comes down to it , less is more so long as you can nurture everything you've already gotten and have , taking care of yourself and others in your immediate circle of connections and friends etc. hope that helps , God bless you. think the greatest and most valuable relationship you have is with yourself , and the rest will follow - I also realized that you have great passions and an artist and a musician type nature , be easy on yourself- you're incredibly gifted and have great talent and heart . maybe it's time to put up some songs on the channel. be easy on yourself and don't think just do .

[@nicholaskalogris9985]

It’s always good to open up regarding concerns and anxieties. It may help in finding out what really is worth being anxious about.

[@ohinare6535]

You're such an elegantly free thinking speaker. I not only understood every bit of what you were preaching, but I related to it on a whole new wave length.

[@mertgokseli734]

I know that feeling when you are trying to express yourself to someone and it feels like they are totally not interested what you're saying, they keep on going about the topic they're interested in and how they feel. My way of dealing with these problems and negative thoughts in general is to work hard, go to the gym and making sure my fam are happy by providing. I'm only 23 but with this mentality I am able to keep up. Most of the time I am the person for someone else that provides that positive energy, toughts and all that stuff. But you know, the road can be lonely sometimes :D It's just like people come to you for relationship advice, but you're the one that is not in a relationship lmaooo. Anyway Connie, take care it will blow over.

[@connieramos]

thanks for this man!! you seem to be on a great path, keep spreading positivity

[@mertgokseli734]

@@connieramos Nah thank you for sharing this, takes a lot out of you to post this. This makes me realise im not the only one having the same thoughts

[@ImaBeast2278]

You are so compassionate & if you were in my life we would be friends!!! You may overthink but you care more about life then being on social media while hanging out with a friend. Thats the problem now a days people are just there. Theres no more connection, deep conversations, deep thoughts & answers.. i understand you completely. Love your videos as always. & you speak so elegantly in english!!!!!!! I love it

[@aldomerturi7580]

The little poem you shared literally gave me goosebumps

[@KetchupOnShirt]

Connie My Favorite Creator :)

[@themoon69420]

A few cozy/mellow games I recommend for a fellow anxious gamer: Stardew Valley Minecraft Animal Crossing The Sims Harvest Moon Firewatch A Short Hike Abzu

[@connieramos]

i play stardew, minecrafts, the sims and animal crossing from this list and will definetly look at the others, thank you!!

[@themoon69420]

@@connieramos Any time, homie.

[@nikolass83gianni]

THANKS ... Respect and love from Serbia ... Best regards and have a wonderful time ... Enjoy in life and stay amazing, positive and creative and never give up on your passion and dreams ... Keep up with awesome job 🕊️🙏👋😎🇷🇸

[@ambersjourneysinlife]

I really feel what you're saying, i'm not sure how to explain how I feel, but this is the words I've been looking for. but you're not alone. Thank you for posting this. You're helping many people, and normalizing things like loneliness and anxiety that a lot more people understand then we think. ❤

[@adriangronewold7433]

Love the videos. I always watch when I get up in the morning while I'm drinking my coffee. Thanks for opening up on mental health problems, I can seriously relate and it makes me feel like I'm not as alone. Much love from the U.S.😊

[@pawansadaruwan9643]

All time my favourite part is “Hello beautiful people from the internet “ ❤

[@ramonjrusa]

Watched a few of your videos. I gotta say you are very talented and intelligent. I understand exercising helps to cope with anxiety… stay strong 💪🏼

[@kristinachastain-foster749]

Hi Connie love your content and your personality

[@ix8750]

I deleted Facebook and Instagram, started calling/texting my mom and my brother/friends on my phone a little more often. Whenever I switch to relaxing hobbies I still play video games but I like to play more relaxing games like Final fantasy or Stardew valley, but I also switch over to reading books or even listening to audiobooks, my favorite story to relax to is the old school Merry adventures of robin hood, by Howard Pyle... I love the place you are in, its very serene and green. Im sorry you feel lonely, the Internet connected us but it also made connections.... difficult in a sense.

[@0k698]

Thank you for this video, it really makes me feel less lonely. I feel like talking about the stuff that we worry about can be very beneficial, it helps to break that circular thinking you were talking about. It’s not easy though, it’s hard to find people who can really understand what you mean and how you feel, sometimes they look at you like you are nuts and just pass the message that you are just overthinking very dumb, obvious, useless shit. I know the place you’re currently in is not an easy one, i know how exhausting and painful it can get, and I see you. Just try to be easy with yourself, ask for whatever you need (and insist if you don’t get it, which I know is an absolute pain in the ass) and try to remind yourself that everything is going to be ok in the end. P.s. Sending a virtual hug to you and whoever reads this

[@TheDLektrik]

I was about to "offer myself as tribute" and as a friend in case you wanted to add one more friend to your 2, specially since I am from Portugal too and who knows maybe we're neighbours and we don't even know it, but then I realized that just like you resonated with Savannah Brown, I resonate with what you say a lot, the anxiety, the loneliness because you feel like no one gets you, the diffficulty in feeling like you can convey what you feel because no one thinks the same, I get all that, but I think people like us just gotta put ourselves out there and try to find friends that are "healthy" for us organically, I have been trying to lately, honestly haven't had any luck, the opposite actually but I'd rather not talk about that my point is, that wall that's between you and everyone else like you said, I think it's something only ourselves can break through, it's our job, not anyone else's, other people can help, the few ACTUAL friends I have (which kinda like you are about 2/3 people) can help us depending on their personality, but the most help we can get is from ourselves, of course stuff like therapy, losing bad habits, adoppting good ones, that all helps, but at the end of the day all of those come from our own decisions to do those things

[@Eric-t6s9s]

Everybody goes through something or many, many things. If you can catch it and be aware of it when you are young that is great. I am turning 40 and still struggling with all the things since I was 17. It takes some time so if you are in your teens or 20's you got time, don't let it reach my age, it only gets worse. But hey I am still living, disabled and broke and worn out but still fighting for the next day. You are stronger than you think, even when your body and soul are telling you otherwise. Stay up everyone!

[@lisa-gt3bf]

Those meow in the background 😍❤ why are your cats so cute?

[@v3r010]

it is nice to see others open up about this topic, i struggle with depression and other certain thoughts i would not like to mention, ever since i was young. I have always been alone in life even if i had friends and cousins, and pretty much family. But at certain times, it would feel like im not involved or, that it felt like they weren’t there with me. Being social was hard for me, and meeting new people is a struggle and gives me intense anxiety. So most of my school years was just me eating alone far away from the lunch tables, no friends, and it made me feel much more of a loner. Especially now that im older, I can never take those moments back now. I don’t know, it’s quite hard to explain why I’ve felt alone for most of my life. I just felt, excluded living. I felt like I was just there if that makes sense. But I wish you all the best to those who also struggle, with any kinds of emotions such as these. i always tell myself that, even though it is rough now, or maybe even tomorrow, i know that life will not always be like that. life will always have its ups and downs, but thats how it is, and i say to just ride it. it is almost like a scary roller coaster. though times feel rough, or if you ever have those thoughts where you’re like “oh, I’ve been feeling like this for a long time, I don’t know how much longer I can hold up for” do not think that way. I tell myself that moments like these feel long because we are longing too much for moments where we don’t have to deal with these feelings. so please everyone, take some moments for yourself, and count the little moments of your life that make you happy even if it is just for a split second. little things should count in tough times like those. I wish you all the best❤ and Connie, congrats on 100k, 101k even! I’ve been a massive supporter for a while, perhaps one of the og’s, and this milestone is greatly deserved. You put out amazing content that show a lot of feelings and emotions towards the audience. Speaking your mind with wisdom, and just keeping it very real. Congrats, and cheers to you🎉 I wish you all the best to you in life, and your channel, you’re amazing connie, much peace and love

[@Ahmedbubaal]

For a moment, it felt like you were describing my own experiences. It’s surprising how, no matter where we are, our emotions can be so similar. I’ve been struggling with the same feelings for a while now, feeling lost and like everything’s a bit blurry, even though I’m doing my best to keep it together. Hang in there, Connie

[@Sven-ql3ch]

the section on 11:00 feels so real. Realising I need answers but feeling bad about getting them, or that I actually dont want to know them. Can relate to many things in life.

[@sathish1765]

Good talk and great take. The free bird chatting never felt disturbing, instead beautiful and I felt the cute bird and you ❤

[@MrWayout55]

No worries....you have so many more trees to look at. Life is long, but short, too. God Bless !!

[@lethalhotbox3778]

I feel you its a battle we will win life ain't easy❤

[@vinly2]

It‘s really cool to see how many of the youtubers I watch, also watch each other! I also love Savannah Brown and relate to both of you so much ❤

[@connieramos]

savannah brown is everythingggggg

[@ItzEricoBlox]

Hope you feel better soon, Connie! I don't know how much I can relate since I'm way younger than you and thus haven't lived as many experiences as you have, but I can still relate to a certain point, and I definitely understand this feeling of loneliness, and how I can advise you is: Try to rationalize these feelings, where do they come from? Why do you feel this way? Do you think what you feel is really true? Do you think that the situation is really as big as it seems? (Not that I'm lessening your pain 😭)

[@vitslama]

I like your videos a lot! I am currently 17 and running my own company at this age can be stressful, so I found a way to relax through cigars. Something about them is just magical! If I can recommend a cigar, try Oliva Series O or Oliva Series V. Those are my two favorites from my humidor.

[@Triangularly]

My anxiety's so bad that I'm completely estranged from just about every single one my ~200 or so coworkers and I pretend like I don't care, which is only because I don't believe I'll get over it anytime soon. I've been actively avoiding social groups of more than one person at work and it took them all quite a long time to stop trying to get me to join. Despite how bad I've ruined it with everyone except for management, I'm only rooting on these damned paychecks for now. I've run out of the energy to try and I go through life ignoring people now more than I ever thought I would before. People smile at me, but if I don't feel like I'm in the right situation or circumstance, I'll just make the eye contact with a straight face, sometimes they'll get upset, feel some type of way and call me an asshole.. it's my fault.. whatever. Later I'll even get people whom I don't even know come in and do the same thing to me when I actually want to try for once, all because their close friends told them that I did it to them too... so it's an endless cycle so far. A lot of coworkers don't even think I deserve the time of day anymore. I'll talk when it feels right and I like to pick certain people out that I like silently. Some of the people that I like are hanging with people that I don't want to hang with, so I'll just avoid them all as whole, strictly because of certain other people being around too much. Who said I wanted to talk to everyone? If you're gonna invite me somewhere and you bring people that I don't like, then I'm not fkn going anymore and I like so few people that it's pretty damned rare to find anyone to go anywhere with without them being socially involved with some other morons. I don't actually want to talk and engage with most of my coworkers either. Smiles are not contagious, that's just what man says and I don't give a fuck how anyone else feels anymore because they never gave a fuck how I felt either. Most of everyone I know could give less of a fuck if I died. I'm done, I'd rather figure majority of it all out on my own.

[@yodasips3823]

connie !!! so glad you've posted I love you!!!!

[@tamas_1234]

never tought you will do a cigar video again, i love it

[@smada36]

I think a friend is someone that has had a drink with you in your home, and you have had a drink with them in their home. It's not an absolute, but it's a start. Life is about the journey not the destination. The answer is the destination, the question is the journey. Find the enjoyment in the ability to ask, and not fuss too much about getting a resolution. I believe that the meaning of life is fun. Experiencing it. Providing it. It's a driving force that makes us grow. Then, when you need to take a break, wrapping yourself up in contentment and allowing yourself to recharge. Studying the tree's existence is fun. Being in the moment is contentment.

[@DeathWishVevo]

We all go through this at some point. I try m best not to think and keep entertained.

[@peanuts4100]

hey connie thanks for uploading! ❤

[@kmanthe_one_and_only3167]

11:01: I must say this has me thinking because I too think and think and even though I can't find the answer I still think about it. It's annoying when you don't have the answers...yet you can't expect to know all the answers to life. I wish I did though.

[@СлавољубБибић]

Best time of day to smoke a cigaret? I feel in the morning they like increase dopamine but cortisol is also high so that brings anxkety. In the afternoon,cortisol is getting down,it is serotonin time. Why do english people drink black tea at 5 o clock?Your blood pressure is also faling,then you need some boost of coffeine or i would say cigarett. 😊

[@OSO-20-03]

*You are amazing. I can't sleep until I see your video* 😊❤

[@bernardobittencourt8492]

Bah eu tenho passado por vários pensamentos assim, vídeo muito bom!! 🙏🏼🫶🏼

[@LiamODonovan-l6e]

I always love your videos, connie. l always love your videos. You are an intelligent speaker

[@Aathal_Fayad]

Resonated soo much connie ❤

[@RickxDogg]

I have crippling anxiety and I have 3 daughters to take care of. Life has been very tough lately

[@461aron6]

I seem to have almost the same problems, I can understand your struggle. It's just bad, especially when you've been desperately looking for an answer for a year or two, but nothing comes up. And then at some point the idea of ​​a solution appears, but then it isn't. I think that we think about everything too much, and that leads us to the point where our entire head gets tangled up. Well xd Nice video Connie

[@connieramos]

we just gotta LIVE that what they say on TV anyway xd

[@matthewcaruso7898]

This was really nice! Thanks for sharing.

[@liyah9615]

Thank you for sharing❤ I've been feeling the same.😣

[@bugurah]

14 seconds ago? That's a new record for me

[@Gregg135]

Letting myself get caught up in day to day life distorts who i am theese emotions are my greatest strength also my worst enemy see things like a child things for what they are before this world destroyed you identity its an addiction

[@uashton8037]

connie you are spittin.

[@lacula7404]

Beautiful video thanks you ✌️

[@MoonAITA]

I know am a bit late but congrats on 100k🥳

[@connieramos]

thank you so much ayy!! 🎉🎉

[@lethalhotbox3778]

Thank you for explaining what i feel inside

[@iluvcat]

My meaning of life. It’s nothing, life means nothing, it’s just complex things that came from uncomplex things that try’s to cling onto order as the universe moves into disorder, entropy. Life means nothing then what’s the point of anything? There is no point :D, nothing matters. Which means have fun, make sure you live your life to the fullest, before you return back into disorder. Appreciate the life you have now, and that’s all we can do. Why worry about things you out of your control?

[@alexbartschi602]

I would recommend checking out mayflower cigars. I feel like youd love the dawn cigar.

[@catiesdiary]

I relate to u sm

[@qvinty2760]

Book of Disquiet 🔛🔝my favorite book

[@Simply_muji]

I love your videos so much Connie, they have such a chill vibe and they offer me so much comfort, I feel like I always have a friend whenever I watch them.

[@ravikiran4786]

people to people proximity is increasing but what about their interaction, they just pass by, that's sad.

[@Gobig4l1f3]

Your mind will always be a struggle. As you get older, you learn how to train it. Today's society is a mental struggle for us all unfortunately.

[@dimsilo464]

when you said "im gonna take that motorcycle as a sign to not finish that sentence", i do that too lol

[@dustytanco6917]

Mmm this life is all to do just this . Question learn.. for myself I tend to focus my approach to all questioning to spirit but I also find only few true friends , perhaps it's cause only few people are at the level you are , or myself too. I enjoyed this video chat session and hope you find yourself feeling less alone my friend.

[@franklapinski1178]

Great job on the video please smoke more cigars it really relaxes me and hopefully you

[@rudivomschauerberg6344]

if you have to deal with fear, overthinking and anxiety you should really read "storms of steel" and "the forest passage" from ernst jünger. He fought in the worst places of world war 1 and knows quite a lot about anxiety, and he will teach you how to get over it. His philosophy is so great at beating all kinds of fear that he can literally run into a battlefield with a smile. He speaks a lot about how overthinking is joy and suffering at the same time, and how to learn to control it and not let yourself be weakened by it. And he also loved cigars. There is a lot of scenes in that book were he sits into some muddy trench and grenades are coming down on him like rain, and he quietly smokes his pipe, drinks his wine and reads his book without beeing bothered. Storms of Steel is a deeply fascinating but also weirdly horrible and beautiful book

[@rin3542]

Ms.Connie will you do a smoke sesh play button unboxing pretty plsss!🥺

[@connieramos]

heck yeah!!!

[@lestypsi]

answers. a personal decision that can come from confidence or not knowing. all of the ways i can personally solve a unique question. having to as well think in circles in order to tie my life together in this chaos. i believe in unity. i believe in family. i believe in 'us'. i understand that not being able to be on the same page as the sky, my best friend, or the time has made me believe i am alone. i must also understand i have chosen to be alone. i have chosen to question my thinking. my thinking. i believe my thinking can make me believe anything. so what do you believe? do i believe i am my feelings? how did i come to define a feeling? why can't i choose when a feeling surfaces? what is this belief doing to me? i understand if you call yourself stupid. i understand if you didn't want to post this. i understand if you say you are the best. i understand if you believe you are a goddess. it's all a choice. You Have A Choice To Be You. what future is there if you can't believe you are someone now. if you don't have control over what you say, i believe you don't have control over Your Future. i understand life can be restrictive when i stay within my 4 walls. consequently, i have to understand that in trying something new in order to expand my boundaries, I have to be able to manage on my own. i chose to think i am not alone, but that i am on my own in relation to those around me. focusing on the possibilities to gain opportunities. providing a space for my feelings to thrive within my thoughts. Pain is unavoidable. Suffering is optional. Your Beloved Choice.

[@user-mw9sv6jb9i]

I hope you find what you need to find.

[@teachermike4831]

Stupid is as stupid does.

[@Iwasraisedbyrobots]

Hey keep searching for what you're looking for, eventually you'll find it. Or you won't, just be happy if you can

[@Double-xposure]

Just wanna say love you from India 🇮🇳

[@OttoEmPortugal]

Hey Connie! You should try the Camel Activate Double, they are available in Portugal I went to a Continente and was so surprised to see capsule cigarettes here, tho bear in mind that they are not "technically" cigarettes, but "cigarrilhas", but i understand that they just have a different skin, and the tobacco content is the same Interesting work around EU regulations imo, and they taste pretty good!

[@andrewponamka69]

Hey, Connie) I really like your videos, even though I'm currently not smoking, I used to though I'm thinking about creating my own channel where I could share my thoughts and stuff like that Sorta like a diary (I'm just tired of writing it by hand)) So, I have a question: what camera are you using? Do you use a microphone? p.s. also congrats on 101K ;")

[@paredecatarina]

O som dos pássaros é maravilhoso

[@Miklo-px1kw]

I recommend watching some videos from Eckhart Tolle, or read one of his books. It'll help with your anxiety. P.S: Keep up the good work!

[@quisuis-je]

Angry walls that steal the Air

[@ShivaShakti4488]

Depression comes to the one's that don't understand how this world works; Dharma is everything that will cure anything & manifest your true desires in life.

[@poocyx]

everyone says "it gets better" but the reality is it dosent for everyone.

[@Mafiakartell]

eh i would say for some it takes just long. But pls dont think too negativ altough its not always easy :)

[@estebanchaves4697]

hi Connie, as I hear it you are some sort of existencials debates in you, you may want to try reading Nausea by Sartre or The Stranger by Camus, you also seem to be reaching certain ideas that are nihilistic or pessimistic which are roads with no end. Life don’t necessarily should have a meaning and that is something shouldn’t bother you, you can eatheir put a porpuse to it, or just accept there isn’t and it’s ok, life is beautiful

[@Peggsworth]

Yuck a cigar...when i began smoking, I could enjoy them for the fun, for something different. I will smoke the rare cigar if i cant get a pack but it is quite painful! Take it easy on those things!

[@MHFL_]

I highly recommend you listen to Alan watts a British philosopher of the late 20th century about anything you’re dealing with he’s a very sophisticated thinker I’d think you relate to him very wellyou can find his lectures on KZbin hope the rest of your days are filled with excitement and joy.

[@juicesteazy4735]

Hey Connie this is Mario from california from the states. I’m telling you I love watching your videos throughout the beginning this year i went through a lot and you make everything alright! Right now i want to recommend a song to you, it’s called “listen to your heart by little river band” because that song gives a powerful message and I hope you could get a chance to listen to it. Hopefully you reading this, I hope you have a great day!

[@1r2w]

Escutei coisas nesse vídeo que poderiam estar saindo da minha própria boca. Esse vídeo só não foi perfeito porque eu não tinha um charuto pra acompanhar kkkk Melhoras para todos nós!

[@Pubz2005]

Hi connie 💓 i ve always wanted to ask you after getting buzz im getting a headache 😢is this normal ?

[@devburito7392]

Bro it's been tough for me too the last month or so

[@dagbman]

Cigars contain tobacco. Tobacco contains nicotine. Nicotine is a stimulant. Stimulants trigger anxiety. Cut out all stimulants (caffeine, nicotine, THC, etc.), consume less sugar, make restorative sleep your #1 priority, and I guarantee you'll experience significantly less anxiety.

[@xixSAUCExix]

Nicotine can play a role on anxiety levels

[@arthurphilip743]

DW, you're like me probably a lot of us

[@simonfarre4907]

Here's the thing about the story about the tree: You asked "what it meant" and how that question is reoccuring in your life. The answer to the question "what does this mean" is: Nothing. The universe is a cold and indifferent place. It's neither evil nor good. It doesn't care or not care. It's just nothingness. Our lives are the same.

[@israelsalinas2731]

Muy buen video y ojala que estés muy bien y es muy importante leer libros.