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Late night contemplations... pardon the audio quality.
The moment you realize that darkness is more than just the absence of light. It's pain. It's hurt. It's fear. It's worse.
Pulling up the covers back over my eyes. Make reality disappear 5 minutes at a time
And I don't want to leave bed.
At least I have company with the voices in my head
You can't do this on your own
Dare to call the light your home
So why am I pushing through with the strength of my two arms? And why I trying to help while only causing harm? And why am I dying to make it through another day alive? How ironic that I hold my breath and close my eyes.
I'm standing on the edge right now. Can anyone show me how love is worth giving, or life is worth living? What the heck am I doing here just assuming you're listening? Close your eyes to assure me my words are worth hearing
that they aren't devoid of all impact or meaning.
But no one needs me--hold your tongue. This isn't self pity. By the time I'm done, I'd hope you would agree that I'm not needed. And no one needs you. But we're wanted--and isn't that the point? To be loved at all beyond all capability to perform? So while I'm standing on the edge right now, can anyone show me how love is worth giving and life is worth living. There's a reason I'm standing here, hoping, praying you're listening. Close your eyes to assure me my words are worth hearing that they aren't devoid of all impact of meaning. I'm trying to believe I'm loved regardless what I'm feeling.
So why am I pushing through with the strength of my two arms? And why am I trying to help while only causing harm? Rest assured that I'm dying to make it through another day alive, alive, alive, alive, so why am I pushing through with the strength of my two arms? Am I getting through to you or only causing harm? Just know that I'm dying to make it through alive. How ironic that I hold my breath and close my eyes.