The Hidden Relationship That Almost Broke Me

[@Wlkingonadream86]

Damn Sofia, the transparency on this episode is ❤ so vulnerable and heartfelt. Sometimes breaking up with these types of relationships are hard because we acknowledge that we have to break up with our old coping mechanisms that once helped us deal with so much pain. It’s like saying goodbye to him is like saying goodbye to that wounded part of you. Sometimes we get so use to be wounded and guarded that we get into a relationship that gives you that comfort and control. I’m beyond proud of you. Now it’s your time to expose your wound and properly start the healing process. ❤

[@Justblameitonyourcanadian]

“And a shirt on & pants on, that’s the nude I would send” 😂 dying. Love you fofia, thanks for being so vulnerable! We know who this dude was… and we could tell something was off with him.. but wishing you the best & glad you’re getting a new start

[@ElisabethKanyer]

Now THIS is a podcast. Bravo.

[@CarolCurotto]

AMEN ❤

[@shaybrunick6741]

As a 32 year old woman, who’s been watching you literally since before the 1st podcast deal, the OG KZbin NYC videos. I’m sorry you feeling all the feelings. But it’s honestly so refreshing. No matter what, I love you. But we are so similar. The over admission, taking blame, the humor, the no fucks to give. I see through it. I feel like I just took a deep breath with you. I want to know who Sofia without the f is. And I feel like this is just the beginning of your healing, evolution journey, and I’ll be cheering you on babe.

[@hoopgal3216]

Authenticity is a beautiful thing and will make your entire life easier & happier. Do the work, be the best version of yourself that you can be, and forgive yourself for past mistakes. We have all made mistakes and most of us carry shame for them. Don’t carry that shame girl - it’s a destructive emotion. Onward and upward ❤

[@hoopgal3216]

@SouthernReadersame!! I’m taking my skeletons to the GRAVE 😂

[@StormingtonNovember]

Incredible episode! When you said “hello, who’s in there I don’t recognize you..” cried immediately. This is exactly what we want relatability with vulnerability. Please continue episodes like this and we will definitely show up!

[@mmmmsk11]

Never related to anything more at this point in my life (also 31, also serial monogamist, also newly single, also burnt out). You’re not alone and you got this! Direct that love you gave to him towards yourself. I’m learning taking care of yourself doesn’t have to be exhausting. Love you 💚

[@KatyaDavis]

Wiping your tears away with a dirty sock is honestly so iconic. Time to drop that merch Unwell (Sofia's version). No but honestly I'm wishing you soooo much love on your healing journey and can't wait to see you grow ❤

[@StephanieTrista]

Sofia this is just the episode we needed, thanks for keeping it real with us!! We love you and we understand

[@lovelight14]

sweet Sofia! I love you so much and you had me crying when you started crying. I feel you and I know you will come out stronger happier and healthier, it just takes time…your awareness shows that u are more than ready. I’m on that journey too and it’s very hard. 😢❤ thank you for the real vulnerability and honesty it is refreshing and makes us feel less alone xo u got this !

[@petmykitty]

You are not alone Sofia, and thank you for being authentic and vulnerable

[@xosnroach]

I feel like this is the most real and most connected I have ever felt via KZbin

[@Calli258]

1) get help for your substance abuse. 2) stop serial cheating on men.

[@olivialozano8088]

Sofia!!!! So much growth, this is what life’s about! I’m so proud of you and love you, you’re doing great!

[@jacquelynts90]

I am praying for your success girl, this next chapter is going to be a good one! Keep your head up, you have so many people who love you so much and want to see you shine!

[@Babygottaeat249]

You don’t have to feel guilty for not telling us you were in a relationship. You have a lot of trauma from publicizing your relationship from the last serious relationships/podcast. It’s completely understandable. Give yourself a bit of grace sofia. You’ve been through a lot. I think you should look in to c-ptsd and bilateral stimulation to address developmental trauma.

[@d1anachung]

This! EMDR is life changing fr

[@d1anachung]

Rooting for you Sofia ❤️

[@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool]

Sofia, you should check out attachment styles! You might be anxiously attached and that would help you a lot

[@M4G5x]

Sending you love Sofia. Life is a fucking RIDE and really fucking hard sometimes. I struggled with super low self esteem for such a long time and tried to mask it with drugs, alcohol, and men. Being sober is the hardest thing I’ve done but also the most rewarding and my self love has grown immensely. Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest ❤❤

[@Dartenonnys]

👏🏼 only good can come from living authentically. Being vulnerable is brave. This is what connects you to your fans. You have something special that can only shine when you are doing what feels true for you. You are a beautiful soul ❤

[@marknichols1768]

"Aubrey's 1st Love?" Sofia is a hell of a 1st love. Like playing a Mozart symphony on your first violin lesson.

[@rockafara9845]

Really appreciated her vulnerability and transparency here. I hope she does a similar episode on the call her daddy break up and clears up all the misconceptions and talks about how it impacted her emotionally.

[@kimberlymahoney8437]

Thank you for being so honest Sofia. You calling yourself a messy b hit home. I always try to have it all together in fear of looking messy and it's overwhelming. By you making a joke of it it made me laugh and feel like it's okay not to have it all together 24/7 life can be messy sometimes ❤ Thank you for that reminder

[@katieh1752]

Why don't you have more followers? You are so real. Love you soFia

[@mycoachsasha]

THIS EPISODE IS EVERYTHING. The “Will I Be Happy” part is 🔥

[@lauramoor7730]

Stop doing drugs and stay healthy and u will start to see who u are and what life is about

[@haleybertrand5757]

Hi Sofia. I have been listening to your lovely voice since your previous podcast and have been listening to your new pod since it started. This was so brave of you to share. Not sharing every detail of your personal life doesn’t make you unauthentic, or fake or secretive. I can’t imagine what it is like to be in the public eye and how hard it must be to put yourself out there while also trying to keep somewhat of a private personal life. Sometimes it seems like no matter what choices we make or what our intentions are, there’s always going to be people who put us down. There will always be mistakes that we make. It’s so refreshing and inspiring to see a strong woman like you come out and be completely honest. I can’t always relate to your life or the situations you’re in, but you are so real about the struggles you face and that is what’s relatable. Your podcast has been something I look forward to every single week. You bring joy to my life and so many others. I have never commented on any of your posts or even sent a question or story in for SOS, but this episode really moved me and I wanted to tell you how much I support you and root for you and I wish nothing but good things for you. The silence I heard when you were trying not to cry brought tears to my eyes. You are such a beautiful, hard-working, funny person and I will always support you. Stay strong, Sofia ❤️ The hard work will pay off :)

[@panduh5480]

The beauty behind it all is you recognizing who you are and what you want. You're taking the necessary steps and genuinely healing. You're at the age where everything in your life is aligning. Your 20s are challenging. I'll be 33 in a couple months and more stable than ever.

[@sarabecher434]

Bravo Sophia. The authenticity and honesty in this is palpable and good on you for the doing the work to make yourself happy. You deserve to be. Sending you love from 🇨🇦

[@daniellej7388]

Love you Sofia just remember who you are and all your greatness and success you are more well known than most and you have accomplished a ton. Don’t let the world tell you any different the world can be mean and judgmental to people they aspire to be but can’t. everyone adores you and admires you and you are so intelligent not to settle for less. As a fellow water sign you are doing great you are strong, beautiful, smart and loved by your fans. keep crushing it you are doing great and look absolutely stunning. Also prayer works so much not sure what you believe in but it helps. Love you❤

[@danihusom8668]

32:50 - I'm an entirely different person drunk and another entirely different person hungover. I make terrible decisions. I'm completely weak and vulnerable yet so dead inside. And so many people have taken advantage of that. 1 of the many laundry list of reasons that I be trying to get sober. Thank you for talking about that. and all of it. 🖤 39:29 - "In my next relationship... when I'm... 45.." lol.. you're funny.

[@zachbeck24]

Your solo podcasts are my favorite. more please!

[@StephanieTrista]

YESSS AGREED

[@lunafayye]

I’m going through the exact things you talked about on this episode. I needed this so much! Thank you Sofia🤍

[@awesomeadamfrom2099]

Awesome job Sophia with the podcast and save up our break up. I understand what you’re going through.

[@Animamundi139]

Sofia, are we coming out of our “unwellness” to meet our “wellness” era ??? I cried with you on this episode and resonated so much with you ❤ I am happy that you are here now… on a path to self discovery and self love 😎 absolutely loved this episode ❤❤ thank you! 😘

[@juliababcock8201]

Wow. The level of maturity and bravery you need to say what you did in this podcast is immense. So inspirational, thank you for being so open and honest 💗

[@tmoneyd]

Oh Sophia I hope you find peace. Been hoping the best for you ever since the CHD sitch. This vid shows how much trauma that left on you

[@nayy7686]

This needs more traction!! Come on KZbin this is real content.

[@shelleyd740]

You are worthy- you are amazing- You have helped so many others today - thank you for your transparency and rawness-

[@kiki-nb5uw]

Sofia! I never comment on KZbin ever but I felt the need to say something here. I found you on CHD 2 years ago when I was going through my own personal rock bottom in life/relationships and I always thought you were hilarious and such a bright light. I always have been rooting for you over the years since then. I just got through this podcast and I wanted to say that I’m legit so proud of you right now. The self awareness, vulnerability, humility, clarity and maturity you are showing here is something to seriously be so proud of yourself for right now. I got chills hearing you ask the deep and important questions about life, love, and yourself. I’ve been EXACTLY where you are right now. Still on my own single journey but I’m 2 years in. You are wise to acknowledge that it is uncomfortable because ohhhhh it is sometimes. But I can tell you that moments these are when life starts to get so much better. This radical ownership of your self, life, energy and future are the beginning of an incredible journey of self love and deep inner fulfillment. And you’re so right- worthiness doesn’t come at some arbitrary future date. Not only are you worthy right now, but you always have been. Every version of you deserves all the love in the world, no matter what she was going through at the time. I believe you and all of us going through this type of growth will ultimately find exactly what they’re looking for in love- coming from a place of deep inner knowledge and emotional security. I’m so excited for you Sofia because I can genuinely feel that you’re about to soar to new heights from this experience you’ve been through. I’ll continue to watch and cheer you on, just like the rest of us who follow and love you! ❤️

[@Holli583]

Sofia, this was so honest. Your vulnerability is why I watch you. Thank you so much sharing, I know this must have been hard to record ❤

[@OkSoBoomPod]

sofia, this is the realest shit i've ever watched. I am legit resonating with you on everything and go through the same exact thing lol... just know you aren't alone. a year from now you'll look back at this and be so proud of yourself. Love you girl keep pushing!

[@victoriavehrs8468]

I’ve been a listener since day 1. Loved this episode so much!!! Go girl

[@CarolCurotto]

Dear sweet Sofia. I’m a 59 year old woman who was married 25 years and recently separated from my husband- when he unexpectedly passed away while three states away on a work trip. Life is fucking hard. You’re doing the right thing by being alone for now and taking time to work on yourself. I’m doing the same thing…. Rediscovering myself at almost 60 years old. Sending you all my love and support because girl we are strong women and we can do this . ❤

[@bookofeli4867]

Thank you for sharing. How are you emotionally after his passing even though you were separated. Any love lost?

[@ytjohnson8750]

Your husband passed away right after the seperation?

[@CarolCurotto]

Yes we have been separated for a few months …

[@CarolCurotto]

@@bookofeli4867 I’m devastated. We separated so that we cld work on ourselves and not just fall back into an old habit of sweeping things under the rug. I love him implicitly. He’s been my husband for over two decades.

[@ytjohnson8750]

@@CarolCurotto The fact that you can bring it up shows you cared despite the separation. As a guy, I can tell you we're shocked when an ex cares at all.

[@hopkinshopkins198]

Babe you already achieved so much, I know we look around and see people that are even more successful than us, but we will never be happy if we keep doing that. Also, from my experience when I look back to my life, I was the happiest in the moments when I wasn’t achieving my next career goal, or relationship goal… my happiest moments were when I just lived life, and enjoyed the moment ❤️ maybe try doing that, love u xoxo

[@gabriellepalazzolo2562]

Sofia, I have felt the EXACT same way for years. Not recognizing myself in the mirror at 30 years old because I've avoided being alone, losing myself in relationship after relationship always knowing I was avoiding the part of me screaming out to meet myself for the first time. Feeling like I wasted a decade of my life, like I'm a stranger to the woman I see looking back at me. Not feeling a connection to anyone or anything, feeling mentally devoid of attachment. BUT I have put in years of hard work getting to know myself. It is not a quick process. But when I look in the mirror, it no longer looks like a stranger looking back at me. But a friend. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. I've been here with you from the start and I'm proud of you

[@tmoneyd]

The way ur still funny even in this situation

[@Daydreamerr13]

Thats why i love her

[@ak.0.d]

do you have bpd? i relate to what you’re saying sooo much and i have bpd

[@maddslovesmusic]

I've never listened to your podcasts until today.. thanks tiktok but I'm here for it though! Your vulnerability is beautiful and moving, giving very much so genuine, raw, I'm a fucking human being "oopsie know one actually knows what the fuck were doing" vibes.. most likely will be a lifer listener now! You're beautiful 💛

[@Solodolo18]

Thank you God for everything god thank you for protecting me keeping me safe and bringing sophii as best friend amen amen 🙏

[@JessWang-y9t]

Thank you for being so authentic. I will always support you.❤

[@annettesworld]

Your just running away from difficult feelings we all do it be kind to yourself. And you are not crazy/delusional or nothing you are keeping it real. You are raw and authentic and that’s why your audience likes you 🙏🙏

[@makaylamenard]

We love you Sofia! We all go through all of these things and everyone handles it in different ways 🙏🏼 You’re on the journey back to self you’ve got this!

[@piperthomasian3191]

Bro I haven’t watched you in months because somethings been so off and this really adds it all up. I’m glad for your growth, you deserve to be happy. You deserve love. I’m so happy for the authenticity. May this new journey bring your happiness, health, and God bless your new path. ❤

[@Sarah-o7r6s]

I really love hearing people talk so openly and honestly. So many people just act like everything is perfect. Healing yourself and taking the time to decide who you really are and want to be is so important. You realizing what you want to change and acting on it is huge. I think you have a good heart but you fear getting hurt so much that you won’t let yourself fully commit. I have been there. Take time to be happy single. It will change you. You will also start picking different partners for the right reasons. You are stronger than you think! ❤

[@fryeesaucee]

sofia, you deserve a man who treats you right. coming from someone who dated a guy for 2 years that was toxic in so sooo many different ways, who is now with someone who treats me right, it's not worth being with someone who is nothing more than great and treats you with kindness and respect always. I pray that you find someone who will love you for who you are.

[@mathewmccaughan4975]

i really enjoy listening to your stories. Im engaged from New Zealand. Very happy, but even when your upset its still very entertaining. Welcome to the game of life, my story is somewhat similar to yours, in many ways, i believe you will meet that person that makes you want to level up and when you do - you will be the happiest you've ever been. Your doing so well, your growing and maturing. Keep on keeping on, the grinds real. I loved this episode, truely. I know lifes hard and i know it hurts but there is someone out there for you and i truely believe that. You being so open and honest is the reason i'm saying this. Chin up girl your gonna be fine :) - also are you adhd? I know you mentioned it a couple of times, i am only found out a couple years ago - best thing i ever did was get assessed. Helped heaps.

[@kristinak2211]

Best episode yet by far!! Crying.. Sofia.. I love you! 😢

[@Shay416]

girl you're a real one, which makes you special. keep evolving and deepening as a person...see you on the other side :)

[@elexis3728]

Just do what is genuinely best for you altogether and the rest will fall into place over here. There is a reason you are still here and trying to maneuver this path. I wish you nothing but the best 💞

[@audreyball6939]

We love you and are cheering you on!!! Stay on that track and keeping being who YOU want to be - we are so here for it. Sending love

[@Dani-kr2ui]

wow i really needed that sof x

[@Valentisupenova]

Also from all your other social media posts I can tell you are still very traumatized from all the bullying Alex’s selfishness caused you and I feel for you a lot. I wish we could be friends cause it seems none of your current friends know how to be there for you or help you. ❤ many people fail to take your upbringing and background into consideration before they judge you and that is their mistake

[@taytayqueen7024]

She seems totally traumatised. What Alex did to her is unforgivable. If she was ever even slightly a friend to her, Alex would’ve atleast posted a statement to stop bullying her, but Alex was actively helping people bully her. Heartless.

[@martinaceroni5721]

Sofia is really hurt, she was also abandoned by her father (so was I but my mother did) and after what Alex did to her (who was like her bf) that really fucked her up, she needs to heal it 💔💔💔

[@brookevics9999]

Ty for being vulnerable ❤

[@Solodolo18]

Thank you God for everything you do for me amen amen amen 🙏

[@Valentisupenova]

Hi beautiful. Im so Proud of you for being so honest even if it means putting yourself in a bad light temporarily. You are too surrounded by toxic party lifestyle people, if you went sober and focused on working out and meditating I promise all your problems will be solved. All of your current “friends” right now are not true friends if they only influence you to take drugs or get wasted (poison yourself). Try it just go sober for a month and see what a huge difference it makes. Also cutting out all caffeine removed all my anxiety. 😘 you got this love, the best part is you haven’t reached anywhere near your peak yet and when you do it will be so beautiful 🦋

[@GillianBerry]

love your honesty Sofia

[@Natnaelstudio]

sofi is finally on the right truck. a lost soul is found

[@Natnaelstudio]

track*

[@creamsaroyan7358]

It takes a lot of effort and hard twork to achieve your goals and dreams and I think it’s so important to really take time ti celebrate those wins!

[@MeaganJRiley]

Don’t feel guilty about telling us girl it’s ur personal life! Love you SLOOT!

[@jchborg90277]

A quantum emotional leap forward. Maturity awaits.

[@Brickelll]

Sofia pleaseeee we've been begging for more of you

[@StephanieTrista]

Yessss!!

[@omgmikeydidwhat]

you are so real 4 this one

[@Meeks966]

I am not here to attack or bully or hate on anyone. I did want to say… your traumas are not excuses to go around hurting others. Especially as a full grown adult & especially if you can acknowledge your past traumas. This means you are aware that you have things to deal with and still decide to ignore it and hurt others. I am not judging. I, too, have done this. Looking back, I feel terrible about it. Hurt people hurt people and by me hurting them, someone in their future will then be hurt by my actions even if indirectly. It’s a vicious cycle. Choose to do better. Even if it’s hard to open those doors, even if you’re scared. It’s worth it in the end. It feels like a weight has been lifted. Thanks for sharing & being vulnerable.

[@ChristinaLovesFlowers]

You need a good co host and you can def grow your following not that your boring you just have a dynamic personality that does well when around other people

[@creamsaroyan7358]

I love that I love you practice with the mirror. I’m doing that from now on. 🙏

[@Famo_goodlove]

Ngl I really missed these solo episodes. And I'll be honest, I don't really like podcast interviews so this was REFRESHING.

[@katiesheehan7634]

This theme of this video has some major Saturn Return energy. 🪐 Sending you love during this time 💗

[@coolthejordan]

thank you for your honesty ❤❤❤ I love the solo eps

[@ashleetaylor4]

We needed this. I needed this. love you

[@emilypartin3718]

Don’t know you. Still love you. TY for sharing. Gotta go through the pain to heal. Fucking sucks.

[@adamefamily2594]

I think George Jenko is the one who helped flip a switch for you. Most of us grow up one day and look back at who we were and can't believe that was us. Keep climbing Sofia, you got this!

[@brianaarroyo7321]

YOU GROW GIRL ❤️

[@E3live-o4e]

Thank you, I needed this

[@palmbalm]

love you so much sofia

[@Sofiafarahxo]

Brilliant episode.

[@bridgetmoynihan1539]

Thank you for such a vulnerable episode. Very excited for you to be on this journey of self discovery and growth. I always say you can either feel bad now (depression, etc., as you mentioned) and then feel better (aka, healed) OR "feel better" now (avoidance, pretending you are okay) only in turn to feel bad later (all of that catches up to you eventually). Give yourself grace and take it day by day

[@choarserkat]

this episode was wayyy tooo good

[@LetsChatJossy]

Love you girl ❤❤❤

[@lexio7229]

I feel you girl thanks for sharing ❤ you are so relatable I love how real nd uncut you are

[@amandasmith650]

I don’t even blame you Sofia. We love you not the guys you’re dating. ❤

[@TheDarcycook]

Lol. So this chick cheats on guy number 1 who seemed the better option. Stayed with guy number 2 because of the great sex. And now realizes she isn't compatible with him in the more important areas of a relationship. Yikes. All I can say is hopefully you learn from these terrible choices. I'm Glad the first guy realized and hopefully found a better partner not a serial cheater

[@nono3652]

Wasnt this relationship public tho? i remember you guys were posting eachother on stories a lot

[@PVSION-PXMV]

She Admitted B4 that she was on again Off again with a guy but it wasn't serious, but it turned out it was kinda serious

[@fabianpatzschke]

It's a phenomenon how fucking good women look after they leave a relationship! Why is that? Because many of us (men) only realize what was missing in the relationship and what went wrong or bad when it's too late!

[@JacquelineServantess]

im still in the first 5 minutes or so but just want to stop to tell u girl i love ur nails haha love you babe🥰

[@DanielleFoster.]

Love you Sofia 💚👸😍 You're true beauty comes from the inside to the outside & you're outside is freaking gorgeous! 💗💞

[@brandonray8788]

It's about time that you open your eyes and start to grow up, this is the most REAL video that I have seen from you yet.

[@rossioannou7139]

great episode breakups are hard

[@Itzzzmeg]

We love you!!!

[@paolaplata722]

Who is itttt ?? Tell me Rachel

[@peacefulloveagain4124]

A thought: Ur ex sounds like a good match for you - he just has a different attachment style (which, sounds like it works with yours - ?/Also puts you in your most feminine energy). I hope you feel better :) 'Maybe' give yourself 2 days to be in your feels and then let it go and then do that once a month until it falls off...and not beat yourself up for who you are. :)