Stripper interview-Orylan

[@randiseay4964]

As a woman who's entire body is tattooed from throat to toes... I fully understand her when she said that she wants to look like a monster on the outside while that's totally not who she is on the inside. I hardened myself on the outside because of how incredibly soft I am on the inside. It became a kind of protection for my heart. A broken heart is the worst kind of pain.

[@_8-w.e-8_]

Off topic but your WannaRuck? Playlist is 🔥! I like coming across people with similar tastes in music as myself 🤓 Lol.

[@dynochronlock]

Well put...

[@jadedmonk7001]

That's gospel

[@JennyNoPants]

Yes I get that too.

[@DM-nw5lu]

@@blaineedwards8078 You do realize you can get your tattoos touched up, right? Old skin won't look perfect with or without tattoos. You sound like a judgmental, boring person.

[@cinder4181]

"Depression doesn't care what you look like, how you make it in life, it always follows you." Too true... amen to that.

[@carlforpresidentanthony4574]

depression doesn't handle real weed good, funny sh@t is the one thing she needs, she won't do because she smoke that fake weed that almost kills people, real weed don't. she also need therapy to admit her 2 alcoholic parents destroyed her. th at why she remains depressed. take control!

[@thebryantfamily8168]

Coming from a place of having an amazing family, a supportive and loving husband, 2 amazing and happy grown children with 9 grandchildren between them, I struggle with intense depression sometimes. I feel blessed if it's only in a small amount.on a given day. I have had to let go of mentally beating myself up because the outside world would think I was just feeling sorry for myself, or that I have no reason to be depressed. I think this beautiful woman summed it up perfectly. Depression doesn't care what you have our who you are. God Bless you, young lady...Marylou

[@Mizz.Person]

Not at all. I disagree with that. Depression is not an "entity". It's a choice to make changes or not. Learn coping skills, deal with trauma. Not just sweep it under the carpet and think that its forever. It doesn't have to be.

[@calo_of_yahuah]

It’s a daily fist fight

[@Alexandra-ng1ih]

Literally just what rich people who get sad say

[@CrossedSabresCOD]

She says she didn't grow up with pain, but as her story unravels about her father, the abusive stepmother, the alcoholism, the petulance, you can see how she would unwittingly enter into malicious and unhealthy relationships with men who clearly exploited her already-vulnerable mind.

[@kaylacarpenter272]

Some people are very blind to their trauma. They dissociate. My current partner was a severe alcoholic with severe abuse from his ignorant, hillrat family. He doesn't think he experienced trauma.

[@berkanathoresen]

I also noticed that…

[@kimberlyadams9257]

I grew up in a worse environment I also do not have one tattoo. But I support her self expression she speaks well and is respectful of others .

[@royjameson2097]

Exactly

[@jillmarie4240]

Yes so true. When to her it's a "normal" loving childhood. To others we are like WTF that's not normal.

[@robertoacevedo3805]

My heart goes out to this woman. Really. I get her so much. She was vulnerable here, and put all of herself out for display. Respect.

[@ripliampayne]

respect

[@jollypolly1686]

This is like the norm... especially if you're selling a product like an OF. That vulnerability is a powerful way to make people empathize, relate and draw them to you. It sets you apart as a product. It would have been brave like 40 years ago do a talk like this on a major platform. Not in USA 2024.

[@amanita1964]

It's very revealing when the interview starts with "I did not have trauma in my childhood" and as it unfolds, you realise how much trauma they have had since childhood. Great job. Thank you.

[@Otto-Just]

Shower upon him every earthly blessing, drown him in a sea of happiness, so that nothing but bubbles of bliss can be seen on the surface; give him economic prosperity, such that he should have nothing else to do but sleep, eat cakes and busy himself with the continuation of his species, and even then out of sheer ingratitude, sheer spite, man would play you some nasty trick. He would even risk his cakes and would deliberately desire the most fatal rubbish, the most uneconomical absurdity, simply to introduce into all this positive good sense his fatal fantastic element. It is just his fantastic dreams, his vulgar folly that he will desire to retain, simply in order to prove to himself--as though that were so necessary-- that men still are men and not the keys of a piano, which the laws of nature threaten to control so completely that soon one will be able to desire nothing but by the calendar. And that is not all: even if man really were nothing but a piano-key, even if this were proved to him by natural science and mathematics, even then he would not become reasonable, but would purposely do something perverse out of simple ingratitude, simply to gain his point. - Fyodor Dostoevsky

[@bettywhite2694]

Yeah people that haven’t been abused don’t do stuff like this. Her bf really messed her up

[@getin3949]

Who the hell hasn't had some sort of trauma in their life? It doesn't have to dictate you tattooing the whites of your eyes black and taking a beautiful face and making it ugly. There are plenty of young girls that would kill to have had her once beautiful face. People are made up of one excuse after another. I think she looks like shit and WAS pretty which is how she was made to live her life.

[@datapatch7381]

@@getin3949 she's been through some things...

[@jameshw9751]

Sometimes we create our own trauma.

[@JustJenRx]

No matter what she looks like, her sweet nature, and honesty will take her very far.

[@anonymousmedia6283]

100 this girl is my fave so far. She is SO nice. Like 10/10 i would hang out with her.

[@garyhighley9022]

agreed...shes a good person i think.

[@layla-dv2kt]

100%! Orylan, if you see this- you are so charismatic and likeable, why not give social media a go? There’s so many alternative people in the world, for starters who think your style is 👌 I can totally see you being a successful influencer (gosh I hate the word lol). You are wonderful 💕

[@deathlarsen7502]

Not looking like that it wont

[@tubester4567]

Shes not getting a decent job in her life with eyeballs like that. Why lie?

[@briananderson9164]

The irony is that by changing her entire look to repudiate her ex boyfriend's idea of what she should look like, she has paradoxically let him determine what she looks like.

[@larakaramazova777]

There's always an excuse. She did this to herself. Can anyone appreciate how people like this will look at 60, 70...?

[@RobbDepp]

Exactly.

[@melodies92]

@@larakaramazova777 who f-ing cares what anyone looks like at that age anyway? By then, you're already well on your way to the afterlife. The process of bodily decay is well underway for anyone of that age, but it doesn't matter because by then, you have things and relationships in your life that matter far more than external appearances. Not to mention, life is chaos and many people don't make it to that age due to random misfortunes. So why choose your present appearance based on a hypothetical future that you may never live to see?

[@nla5307]

@@larakaramazova777 The people who do this to them selves probably dont care what they will look like in their 70s. and If they do care its still no body elses business but theirs.

[@user-iz6dj1qz8e]

@@larakaramazova777 everyone looks bad in their 60s and 70s so who cares?

[@randomlyawesomeness7251]

Watching this after her newest video. Doesn't even seem like the same person and it was less than 3 yrs ago. Sad... really

[@princess13sparkles]

How is it sad, she is sober in the last video ..

[@Yourmom-we3nw]

Voice is different ​@@princess13sparkles

[@TroyGrey]

She has turned her life around for the better. Not sad at all.

[@clearerthanwater]

she's sober in her latest vid. she actually upgraded.😊

[@princess13sparkles]

@@clearerthanwater you're right! She looks much healthier ❤️‍🩹

[@JustJenRx]

She speaks the truth when she said her toxic ex destroyed her sense of self. I know that feeling all too well.

[@philup6274]

SHE is the one who destroyed herself not her boyfriend. Blaming other from your actions is by definition : delusional

[@tubester4567]

Working as a stripper and hooker destroyed her sense of self, and she doesnt have the maturity to understand that.

[@keto6789]

@@tubester4567 I don't think its that. I think its that she clearly has mental issues. It either runs in the family or is a chemical imbalance. She suffers from anxiety disorder and depression. Those are crippling disorders. I feel bad for her.

[@sayurislim2632]

Same. She is a lovely woman with a good heart and unfortunately some losers like to prey on that.

[@K87jk]

@@philup6274 On God bro, these females play the victim 24/7

[@Black0wt20]

Man, this is why I decided to start being nice to people no matter who they are. You never know their story or their struggle. Orylan seems like such a sweet lady. Wish her nothing but happiness!

[@bullast2046]

Until her suicide? We used to diagnose, and treat, self mutilation as a mental health issue.. now we’re perpetuating the behavior.. and she’s only 22.. I’ll be surprised if she makes it to 30..

[@SetTheCaptivesFree4797]

Facts 💯💯💯💯💯 I always take the time to get to know someone and give them the benefit of the doubt. I try to treat everyone like they are my best friend. Love overcomes

[@_Stroda]

You weren't just okay to people because... It's the decent thing to be?

[@Black0wt20]

@@_Stroda here’s a thought. What if someone is giving you grief, and you’re suffering due to their personal issues. Do you A) ignore them completely and hope they eventually leave you alone or B) react back in a negative way? Not everyone is a saint out of the womb. We all have our issues so when I say I started being nice, it was even to the people who give me grief, not just because “it’s the decent thing to be” but because I don’t know what’s causing them to be the way they are. “Hurt people” hurt people.

[@ironfist458]

@@bullast2046 The world would be a BETTER place without this CREEP!

[@jenniferterrell8415]

"It's healthy to ask questions." The wisdom in that statement. Rooting for her!

[@bonjovirocks24]

No one is going to feel comfortable to get to know her. She’s purposely alienating folks by destroying her natural beauty. She was lucky and didn’t appreciate her gift of physical beauty.

[@mysticalvibe4241]

What a shame she was so pretty she didn’t have to be a nurse. I thought she was so much older. The tattoos in eyes and body makes her look 20 years older. As she gets older I’m afraid 😱 she will regret this. You change a lot from being a teenager to twenties and thirties. It’s alarming and sad

[@I.Odnamra]

Isn't that what they tell you at school? That's what teachers used to tell me at school. And that was almost 20 years ago.

[@bonjovirocks24]

@@mysticalvibe4241 EXACTLY!! Looking back at things that I thought were the worst happening or the best ideas back in my late teens / early 20’s were ridiculous to be upset about, once I got more mature and experienced life as I got older. Either she will regret it or she’ll continue a life of misery / victim mentality, and blame others for opportunities she’ll never get. She was so beautiful and most folks weren’t given that gift.

[@chiccavaquita]

EW wisdom? She wants attention! Not wanting to look like everyone else on the street and craves people to ask questions. In her words, "I want to them to ask me questions, it's healthy...bladdy blah." She wants to stand out from everyone else. What does that mean? And what is her goal? There's no awareness/awakening here. Stop being so gullible.

[@SuperTooncesthecat]

18-21 years old her father wanted her to go to school and she ended up going through the trauma of an abusive relationship. Dear H.S. students, please listen to her. She definitely needed counseling. Please seek help for depression.

[@stevewinwood9645]

Something happened to her she's not sharing

[@Chaos1976]

@@stevewinwood9645absolutely

[@mb6194]

She's strong to not be involved in drugs and alcohol while she's feeling so depressed . It shows character and perseverance.

[@bettywhite2694]

She’s addicted to self harm

[@GreatestManAlive]

it's all self destruction at the end of the day. She did things to her body that will only attract certain type of men. It won't attract the love that she truly wants.

[@no-rq7fp]

@@GreatestManAlive Why not? You don't know that for sure

[@J0SHUAKANE]

@@no-rq7fp its true. no one wants to stare at that face for hours outside of novelty. having an onlyfans goes hand-in-hand with only attracting the depraved.

[@GenVee]

Her addiction is what she has done to herself physically. Believe it or not, extreme body modification is very addictive.

[@rawganic5183]

“On the outside I look like the monster but on the inside I am the beautiful butterfly” . Awww brought a tear to my eye. Such a beautiful analogy . I wish her the best and I hope she can find a partner that is a beautiful butterfly on the inside too

[@shelbyheavens2997]

I think we get tattoos to cover so much up and it's something we are in control of when it come to our bodies.

[@kvvolk2144]

i dont see a monster. love tattoos. love butterflys left noisy bugs n shit but nice lady for sure. rock n roll miss and btw i like the new pizzaria here in town

[@Martiiinkamw]

It is astounding how people who come from broken alcoholic families tend to defend their childhood and say it was amazing where they're not old enough to understand what amazing childhood truly means. I thought my childhood was freaking awesome for most of my life and its only now in my 30s I truly understand how psychologically damaging it was and how much toxic character traits ive developed

[@only1giselle]

That’s literally one of the biggest hurdles today is truly understanding and accepting that everything I thought was so great/normal growing up was in fact not ok…the lasting pain trauma causes and associated aftermath is sometimes too much to wrap my mind around

[@danielabassano9528]

I was waiting for this comment. This is the biggest problem of damaged people... Denial and even idealizing abusive childhood and abusive figures. For this girl is very easy to describe as "toxic" and "abusive "her father's girlfriend because wasn't a significant figure from her childhood but the thing s she actually says about them suggests horrific parents and environment.Typical... Heartbreaking 💔I wish her the best.

[@Smorgasbord.]

@@danielabassano9528 I guessing she just doesn't yet know how unhealthy her childhood was.

[@MrAfalsetta]

You are right. She doesn't know yet how destructive was her childhood. I'm so sorry for her, she probably hadn't somebody who could help her through her misery, only people who wanted to keep abusing her. That's why the most thing she wants now is someone that will love her, sadly this only attract people who can manipulate this state of mind, aka, the abusives boyfriends.

[@claudelwashington3725]

But did you also know if a komodo dragon bites you, you could die? You have to be on the lookout for those sneaky bastards. They may look sloe, I mean slow, but they are really fast.

[@arthurvartanyan-ut5cf]

She does NOT want to be controlled, she does NOT want to be told what to do, and she does NOT want to feel like a bird trapped in a cage. Her bf tried to do it, her dad tried to do it, and she felt like society was pressuring her to conform. That’s why she is doing every drastic thing she can, to feel free. I get it. Good luck

[@valmel20]

Yes and she did what she wanted she screwed her self,why people saying things that they know is wrong?

[@abigailh7715]

Doesn't want to be controlled but is a conformist to certain of society's beauty standards like having lipo twice and breast implants to be conventionally attractive Very confused lost person

[@NeptuneSega]

By trying to be free she has trapped herself

[@JohnSmith-qc7jd]

Cringe take.

[@violentbryan21]

Theres three sides to every story, your side my side and the truth This girl has some serious deep rooted issues. Watch her other interviews

[@littlered3830]

“I did this because I love myself” “I tattooed my eyes because it reminded me of my ex and what he wanted me to be” “I had an awesome childhood” “Growing up, both of my parents were alcoholics” “I love what I do and there’s nothing wrong with it” “I wouldn’t recommend my sisters doing this” Who is she trying to convince that she’s anywhere near ok. Poor girl.

[@RandomPlayer717]

Haha her brain is fried like most

[@echase416]

Alignment is when our thoughts, emotions, words, beliefs and in/actions all match up.

[@Carlo-_]

Exactly. Her contradictions are missed by most in this comment section.

[@inaj27]

1000%

[@kotzif9620]

Are you ok?

[@Mayabee321]

I don’t think she realizes how much her line of work is affecting her mental health. Yes she’s making money and can support herself, that’s great. But she talked about the pressure of being a sexual being literally all day long, I think it’s making her depression worse. I hope she finds something that makes her feel good about herself.

[@mikeuyandfersonb1903]

depression can be clinical.

[@Mayabee321]

@@mikeuyandfersonb1903 she definitely has clinical depression, she said she had it long before she worked as a stripper. I just think the sex work industry is compounding the problem and making her depression worse.

[@mikeuyandfersonb1903]

@@Mayabee321 I agree it’s definitely not doing anything to help her.

[@mikeuyandfersonb1903]

@@Mayabee321 for some reason I really feel for this girl. Sounds like males in her life have done nothing but demonize and Sexualize her cause her empathetic and compassionate nature has allowed it. Her story is very interesting. Would love to see her have a clinical psychologist interview her.

[@Blondivore]

I escaped an abusive relationship by going to do this job. It saved me and gave me independence, strength and confidence. I was safe and protected by bouncers. It was the best thing n g that ever happened to me!!!!

[@johndraper3210]

*SHE'S RIGHT... I'VE BEEN IN NURSING FOR 20 YEARS... IT'S EXACTLY A HAMSTER WHEEL... NURSING IS A SOUL CRUSHING PROFESSION... THANKLESS AND STRESSFUL*

[@red2846]

Holy hell Batman I can only imagine what stories you must have 😳 Thank you for being a nurse. Y’all are a special kind of people. My grandson had a heart transplant and I absolutely love and appreciate nurses 💯 Have a great day today.

[@teeapegues9228]

Definitely 7 years

[@collinsmith6584]

I am a 33 yr old man watching this video from a hospital bed in my hometown. I have had 2 (related) brushes with death this year and can honestly say I have learned to appreciate nurses so so much. I want to give back but don't know how. Let.me.know if you have ideas. Anyway, thank you so much for what you do.

[@plainlyjane6540]

I make 50 dollars an hour as a nurse. She gets 5 dollars to have a guy try to shove his fingers inside her. She gets 100 dollars to make a video that will be uploaded on porn websites she will not profit from, where she does sex acts. As much as i loathe nursing, and trust me i have rants for what they did to nursing, there is no CONTEST nursing is a better bet financially and for self image, than the type of sex work this girl is doing. She's literally, a sad no insight abuse victim... and even though damaged, disassociated body, self mutiliating borderline no insight, shes STILL DOING SEX WORK cuz her whole identity is this now. Like the's so damaged she's trying to make herself ugly while still asking for money shoving things inside herself on videos. Small amounts of money too. Damn, dog nursing all you want but there is no CONTEST not a small contest i would rather have my RN than this. Imagine filming self sex act to disgusting dude, u only get $100 bucks, and then it goes on porn websites no profit. Thats so sad.

[@plainlyjane6540]

Damn, if ur gonna say nursing sucks at LEAST cite fucking Frenchie bro. I admit i'm jealous of Frenchie she's like a sex CEO. This is just, jaw drop very sad young girl ruined before even an adult with NO INSIGHT, southern keep it hush family logic only. Hates self, wants to destroy her own body, accepting five damn dollar to be plunder by dude at least i'm only plunder by ceo for $50 an hour damn

[@Personinspace]

Re-watching this in 2024 and it’s really sad. Again hearing that her mom lost her legs from alcoholism really rings loud because she recently lost use of her legs from her recent nitrous addiction .. not only that she’s gotten more face tattoos. The trauma from the family history of addiction is really showing itself in her life over the past few years I hope that she can turn things around for her self.

[@RestauranteBeiraMar]

and she gained gainned lots of weight

[@ol7079]

I believe part of the problem is that she is in total denial and unawareness of her toxic childhood. She insists her childhood was good but at 14 diagnosed with depression, anciety, parents alcoholic, father tossing her on the streets etc. Lots from her childhood she has to uncover to realize it was not ok.

[@fuzzymath6240]

What so she should be a victim?? She had a good childhood, maybe some people have perfect childhoods but most can be called difficult by just about any modern definition. By insisting she must be in denial you just denied yourself the knowledge of another tool you could have learned how to use in your own self discovery, and outed yourself as really..... well ....... a square.

[@56658]

​@@fuzzymath6240 im just saying, she doesnt have to be the victim, but at least acknowledging that something wasn't right there goes a long way.

[@Scott-ls1ff]

She starts off by saying her child was good, but does a reversal as she continues to talk. Denial is putting it kindly

[@marlowp5234]

Thanks, doctor phil. Because that's why this channel was created, for children and housewives to judge, criticize, and speculate on the lives of strangers' loved ones and truthfulness

[@Scott-ls1ff]

@@marlowp5234 Well, I’m neither a child or a housewife. This channel is filled with people that are in deep, dark holes emotionally - she is no different. In fact, from watching a lot of these I would say she is about as far from “the truth” as most. Instead of turning to hard drugs, she has turned to body modification. Different vice but same desire for a cathartic coping mechanism. The difference between her and a drug addict, is a drug addict will be able to kick drugs, whereas she will be wearing the result of her mental struggle for the rest of her life. And when the time comes that people do not see her as a desirable sexual thing anymore, she will find herself with way less than what she began with. You definitely don’t have to be a doctor to see that.

[@minikimi8]

Your twenties are such transformable years, and it would be interesting to see a follow up 10 years from now. You grow so much as a person, and I wonder if she would have the same outlook and thoughts. She seems like a really caring and kind person, wishing her the best.

[@CulturedWhiteBoy]

10 years isn't enough. She'll still be young. Let's see her at 45.

[@GS-zc4sk]

She sounds exactly her age. Now that I'm older, I'll just listen & nod

[@CulturedWhiteBoy]

@@DavidStirm 41 still too early.

[@alexanderbayer4348]

She will 100% regret doing this. I would guess around age 35

[@beardly0121]

@@alexanderbayer4348 Nah she'll regret the shit she did to her eyes assuming its permanent waaaaaaaaaaaaay before then. Probably 27-30.

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

She seems to minimize her early traumas. I hope she finds some recovery for depression that works for her.

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

To not walk around sobbing all the time, a ton of us make extreme decisions, really. I know it was that way for me and MANY that I know. One TRUE thing about each and EVERY person Mark interviews? WEAK PEOPLE DONT BECOME ADDICTS.

[@abellabarbie]

@@ItsFreshItsAnne your comment does not make any sense.

[@Nitchmaster5000]

I think she struggles to admit it to herself because she wants to believe that her choices are motivated by other things. She talked about wanting to be different, and not to be a cliche, so she started the conversation saying that she had a normal childhood.

[@abellabarbie]

@Jbonejacon I've never met an addict who considered themselves strong. It's the nature of the addiction to be weaker than the draw to the substance and the driving force of why they turned to it in the first place. Addicts numb because their life is unbearable. And they often do things that go against even their own wishes/moral compass. I get what the person meant that by simply being alive and trying to self-medicate they are not weak, but I disagree. It's the difference between being a victim and a survivor. Addiction furthers the trauma and addicts continuously victimize themselves because of it. There is nothing wrong with showing weakness, but strength comes from overcoming, not numbing. It's a healing process.

[@purplehaze4178]

@@abellabarbie her comment makes perfect sense. She's saying that people do extreme things in order to keep from showing the pain they're carrying around inside. She's saying she can relate. She's saying the young woman could quite possibly be addicted to body modification (she says she doesn't do drugs or alcohol) to dull inner pain and as a fellow addict she said that weak people don't become addicts. It was meant to be complimentary because most of us addicts are a lot stronger than we realize. Maybe she could've phrased it better, but it made perfect sense to me as a fellow addict in recovery. Try not to knitpick. She meant well. And when I said "us" I wasn't referring to you because you appear to be an outsider looking in. The sad thing about it is that the young woman is in denial and desperate need of healing from trauma. There is always hope and I hope she finds her way.

[@honeythefemaleamazonparrot6636]

She ended up addicted to drugs and almost died and almost lost movement of her legs etc. Her spine has damage from it too. But she is getting better and hopefully can stay clean❤

[@joannalewis8799]

?

[@crystalsinghmarketing9827]

​@@joannalewis8799search for her recent no jumper interview

[@helenagackowska8398]

:O seriously!? how do you know?

[@crystalsinghmarketing9827]

@@helenagackowska8398 watch her most recent no jumper interview. She talks about it

[@joannalewis8799]

Get your facts straight she was never going to die from a nitrous oxide addiction. She never lost movement she put on over 150 pounds from choosing to be inactive. She even pretended she was pregnant 😂 stoppp

[@neteruhathor]

She is sweet, but so young and confused. A beautiful contradiction. I hope she finds peace for her depression and learns to truly find internal joy.

[@emilyheather328]

She's right with alot of what she has said. Depression is everything she said it is and it doesn't care who or what you are. She's a beautiful soul and I relate to her personality

[@CockLobster]

Ok 😐

[@playingwithkash2134]

She not as successful as she makin it seem, not rockin FILA’s

[@faceless3433]

She's a beautiful soul so just like you yeh? Thanks for letting us know how great you are.

[@maxxinethewoopitcher]

@@playingwithkash2134 so her shoes are indicative of her wealth/worth? 🥴

[@playingwithkash2134]

@@maxxinethewoopitcher I ain’t said nothing like that bt cmon now mann ain NOBODY seen no Filas since like 2007. Sit this one out Max. 😂

[@beemarron3642]

Body mods aside, because each to their own and if it makes her happy that's cool: but I read her as being extremely vulnerable and fragile. I'm not reading, like seemingly everyone else here, that she's a confident woman, I think she's making certain life decisions out of a trauma response. I hope she'll be ok.

[@bigbob4757]

Power of Prayer 🙏🏼

[@chanelwaldorf9728]

I very much agree.

[@CarterHayes77]

well articulated I agree. Trauma response for sure.

[@laleezeern6198]

I totally agree

[@hbkid3040]

Exactly, she seems very impulsive. She describes her traumatic relationship but it was only a couple of years ago, she didn’t give herself time to heal. She jumped right into the drastic body mod choices. Only 22! Lawd so young to think she’s knows what she wants forever.

[@thejerrodharris]

I think this is one of the most captivating and thought-provoking interviews. Sometimes, I wonder what people could've been if not for traumas, bad experiences, and the judgments. She stands in her truth in the most inverted way. So much respect for her. 💯

[@carlsbad7113]

Orylan is honestly one of the sweetest loveliest people you have ever interviewed. I wish nothing but the best for her. She deserves it.

[@ashleynicole6210]

Mannn byee lol 😂 this have to be a joke

[@AnoNymous-2013]

@@ashleynicole6210 she is.. close your eyes and listen to the interview... you have a problem judging people by the way they look

[@CM7777...]

@@AnoNymous-2013 unfortunately you will have to open your eyes eventually

[@AnoNymous-2013]

@@CM7777... and then what will I see. A person fully covered in tattoos with a tattooed eyes, and filed down teeth. I've seen worse. It scares me more her professional world than the way she looks.

[@drownthepoor]

@@ashleynicole6210 They think because she comes on here and talks like a sweet girl that she must be an angel. I don't know what she is, but I do think she's going to regret those eyes and teeth by the time she's 30.

[@heatherhunt147]

Her statement of: "I did my eyes because every time I look in the mirror I see my ex" is telling that her choices are a direct result of her toxic relationship. She is erasing who she was before because she sees that person as the person who 'got herself' into that situation and to change that, she turned herself into something completely different. She's a beautiful girl, no matter what I and I wish her nothing but happiness and success....I just hope she realizes that no amount of body modification will change who she is on the inside or her heart.....she needs to heal and be happy with who she is....because SHE is not the problem....and SHE shouldn't have to change who SHE is because of these people. The people who are WRONG...are the people in her life who made her feel less than and THEY are the nothing she feels she had to change from. Could be wrong but I read it all over her face -- and being that I came from some pretty toxic relationships, I understand the need to 'cover up' the emotion through changing your appearance or your lifestyle so you don't get hurt. Because you feel like....if you look different, or do things you normally wouldn't, or take risks you wouldn't have before, life will BE different. You want to look like you are empowered to live as you wish and this will show those who hurt us or others who try to.... just how far you're willing to go to show how far you are willing to change to feel 'free' and 'normal'. Wishing you nothing but the best sweet girl....you deserve it and are so young and have a whole life ahead of you.....and I pray to God, you know the whole world is rooting for you! Peace and love. Always.

[@ZombolicBand]

She could have tried .. therapy. Instead of tattooing her eyes i mean. I see my ex when i look at my cats but i wouldnt erase them or sell them.. there are better ways to deal with shit

[@kingofcrows8829]

@@ZombolicBand and I guess you keeping your cats gives you grounds to judge her stfu

[@thatwasweird954]

Your second sentence nails it. She reminds me of sexual abuse victims who become obese as a way to protect themselves from further abuse. It's like turning your body into a fort to keep people away. Though it sounds like the way she looks has actually driven away nice guys and attracted abusers.

[@heatherhunt147]

@@ZombolicBand She could have. Yes. But when you are in that situation mentally you're thinking it's you that's the problem not what happened to you. I speak from experience so I'm not just your run of the mill psychoanalyst wanna be (that and being a mental health nurse back in the day - I understand trauma etc.) and when you are in that situation, you are 'conditioned' to feel like the issue is you....and even if you get out of those relationships, the mental toll lasts your whole life. Some people are able to move forward with no problem and get help, while others, they just don't understand they need it because they see it as THEY are the issue and may even believe they deserved it. So they don't seek therapy. Also, the stigma around seeking help - especially in the circles she seems to be in - can cause people to find other ways to 'get help' (i.e. body dysmorphia, body augmentation of any kind etc.) because that is what helps their pain. It makes them look like they have it together and are handling their issues just fine. So, while she COULD have it's a matter of what support in it does she have and is she even ready mentally? It's all about individual experience my friend. Some can get help and know how - others not so much. :)

[@heatherhunt147]

@@thatwasweird954 Absolutely! She's protecting herself. It's a shield to block out the pain. She was using sex at 16 years old (she said she was doing 'dates' and sexual favors were a yes) and the support she got seemed like it was 'do you' rather than parental guidance on right and wrong. And I think we've all seen enough of these and other stories where, sites like that where Doctors, Lawyers et al use teenagers as their personal sexual playground leave a mental trail of pain and anxiety because they are adults, who are sworn to protect children- but are using them like that. And I am sure not all of it was glitz and glam. They are power hungry monsters who prey on the vulnerable to get what they want. And that HAS to have a lasting sexual abuse mentality to it. Throw in her own father said she was worthless and nothing. That's got to just hurt. And that is true about nice guys being 'driven away'. It could have it's negative effects that way as far as her relationships go. Not everyone can see past the outside appearance she's made and she could be missing out BUT if someone really loves her...none of what is on the outside will matter and I would hope that she can now recognize the signs of an abuser and break the cycle before she gets in too deep and something REALLY bad happens to her. The only sad part is what is done is done as far as the body modifications go. Unless she has tons of money to 'undo' what has been done - that will be her life. So, all we can do is not judge her and pray that she finds that true happiness and gets help to overcome the mental illness and pain she's endured. It's still fresh (she said 2 months ago she ended another bad relationship) so she has time to figure it out....but you're right....she may have a difficult road ahead of her. :)

[@vph7]

I must admit when I clicked on this, I felt a bit judgmental. Less than 90 seconds in, I feel ashamed for that. Much respect to you. Thank you for sharing your story

[@faybelle2991]

she's still hideous.

[@Opethfeldt]

No need to be ashamed. Human beings have a tendency to reject that which is different. The good thing is that you listened and didn't dismiss her based on appearance. It's the inside that counts.

[@lotharschramm5000]

You were right to feel judgemental. Listen to your gut feeling, it's your brain catching up on small details and trying to warn you. Yes, this girl in particular doesn't seem (emphasis on "seem", we don't actually know her) to be evil. However an healthy, happy and sane person wouldn't do what she's doing. You don't want to associate with deranged people. Stop listening to toxic sayings such as "never judge a book by its cover" who only make you lower your guard. As to this girl she needs help, she doesn't need people comforting her in her self-destructing ways.

[@CBoogieLA]

honest acknowledgement. we all do it.

[@CBoogieLA]

@@Opethfeldt Amen to that!

[@ari_montz22]

What I love about her is how metaphorical she is. Not only does she speak with truth and depth but physically she has stuff tattooed on her that are metaphorical and mean something to her. I admire that deeply

[@captbloodbeard]

She's lying to herself. She's experience a lot of trauma. She didn't do this to express herself, she did this in response to trauma and that means that those who have traumatized her still have power over her. It's not healing. Also, you're a clown for thinking she got tattoos that are metaphorical for her, she literally said she told her tattoo artist to tattoo her face with anything she doesn't care what it is. This is not someone who is deeply thinking about their actions. She doesn't believe in herself and doesn't see any worth in herself.

[@deflectionqueen]

I feel like she is protecting her parents when I hear little comments about her mom being an alcoholic and in a wheelchair and her dad telling her that she'll be nothing but she had an amazing childhood That's kind of the part about healing is that you have to acknowledge that you actually went through something

[@JoseARZ-]

True

[@iiiSK8orDI3iii]

This is likely the result of emotional enmeshment. The child becomes responsible for the parent's emotions instead of the other way around. She likely can't admit how much they hurt her because admitting it would hurt them, and their feelings took precedent her whole childhood. A child who grows up that way will become wired to protect the parent from emotional turmoil (and by extension, themselves because the parent will take it out on them). The parents will also likely turn it around and try to blame her or paint a bad picture of her character to justify any claims she makes against them or discredit her entirely. Ask me how I know 👁👄👁

[@Ikaros23]

@@iiiSK8orDI3iii she sounds like a scape goat in a family with narcissistic/addicted parents. Forced to be a form of parent to her own parents. Supressing her own emotions.

[@moon_mint]

Our minds really do try to help us forget the bad parts

[@p.w.352]

Yep. I have siblings who are still in denial about an abusive father, and we're in our fifties and sixties.

[@crimson888]

This girl blew me away "I look like a monster on the outside, but inside Im a beautiful butterfly" that is a lesson everyone needs to learn..NEVER judge anyone from the outside, you dont know the hurt and pain they carry. She seems more Christian than most people I know...the more she spoke, the more beautiful she seemed in my eyes..really fantastic interview thank you Mark and Orylan!

[@manyplanets]

we need to judge, ok it’s fucking nature telling us what is and isn’t good. Rotten and ripe, psychos from friends. No one is gonna be like yay, this is great! Go for it but me, no. God didn’t make the human body like this. Nothing can top the natural Human body

[@status0]

@@manyplanets Yet you're the one being judgmental

[@aueyburroughs1143]

@@status0 you are right now i will give you 1 scripture that: no doubt you got right? Judge not lest ye be judged yourself: well you judged them back but The Word of God also says JOHN 7 V 24 KJV WRITTEN IN THE HOLY BLOOD OF HEAVENLY FATHER LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS: “Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.” HER COMMENT OF HER OWN SELF! "I look like a monster on the outside but on the inside am a pretty little butterfly." So LET'S JUDGE HER RIGHTEOUSLY: John 7 v 18 KJV WRITTEN IN THE HOLY BLOOD OF HEAVENLY FATHER LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS OF NAZERETH: He that speaketh of himself seeketh his own glory: but he that seeketh his glory that sent him, the same is true, and no unrighteousness is in him. Matthew 5 v 28 KJV WRITTEN IN THE HOLY BLOOD OF LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS: But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart. 1 Samuel 15 v 23 KJV: “For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, he hath also rejected thee from being king.” 8:05 "DID IT BECAUSE MY DAD CAME TO ME FOR MONEY!" Exodus 20 v 12 KJV: "Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee." 8:05 1 JOHN 3 V 17 KJV: But whoso hath this world's good, and seeth his brother have need, and shutteth up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwelleth the love of God in him? Proverbs 17 v 5 KJV: Whoso mocketh the poor reproacheth his Maker: and he that is glad at calamities shall not be unpunished. John 23 v 24 KJV WRITTEN IN THE HOLY BLOOD OF HEAVENLY FATHER LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS OF NAZERETH, THE BRIGHT AND MORNINGSTAR: 23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him. 24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.

[@faceless3433]

Why can't she be beautiful on the outside and on the inside? if she cares so much how people judge her, why would she go out of her way to show them something different? It doesn't add up. She may have done this and found that some people might treat her differently but that's exactly what she wanted. She's all over the internet now. "Hey everyone!!! I had a bad relationship once and some people think my tattoos are a bit extreme" What a shocker lol

[@MegaZidzid]

There is a huge difference between someone who was born different or got different by accident, against someone who did self-mutilation. Stamping, self-mutilation and prostitution are opposite to Christianity. And if you admire her decisions, you're not better than her.

[@isabellajoy4582]

I was a follower of yours on TikTok and I remember seeing those terrible comments . You are so sweet and have such a kind soul , I hate that the world has been so unkind to you. Never stop being who you are. You are wonderful

[@DougsAwesome12]

what’s her tiktok

[@captbloodbeard]

She's absolutely gonna regret what she did, and I say that for one reason only. She didn't do it for her. She did it as a reaction to the pain she suffered from her ex. He's still in her head, she hasn't escaped, she hasn't healed. Once she really truly heals and moves on from that, she will realize that she did these things for the wrong reasons. If she doesn't, then he has won.

[@mrhater5052]

You’re a weirdo

[@butterfly_decal]

It seems like she may never heal bc her life is continual trauma. Being a sex worker is not good for the psyche. I hope she finds peace tho.

[@DavidMccallister65]

I appreciate how you kept asking questions to eventually get her to admit there was trauma. There's always trauma. Many people just don't want to admit it or they've even convinced themselves it didn't happen.

[@cherylmcelveen2817]

Trauma is the ultimate gateway drug.

[@ThelastJohnSilver]

If you listen from the start youll hear, she admited to trauma in the beginng BUT her life started of well and they allways start the questions in that end.

[@rodismantle2809]

Everyone has trauma, it just depends on the level of trauma how our minds respond to it. The human mind has the amazing capacity to shield itself from trauma by burying it deep at times to the point we live like it never happened.

[@bethanynorman1829]

There’s definitely trauma involved in wanting to look like that and completely undress/touch yourself for strangers every single day, and her reasons for doing these things to herself are more reflective of having not truly dealt with the mental abuse she went through in therapy, and so many of these people have parents who kick them out, which is also rotten. Her parents are alcoholics too….so much so, to the point where she completely avoided substances. I know people who grew up that way too, and bc of that trauma, they will never touch drugs or alcohol. She has a LOT of trauma, she has extremely impulsive behavior due to the extreme highs and lows of bipolar disorder, and a lot of her excuses for these modifications are to convince everyone else, including herself, that she’s okay. “I love myself.” -the toxic mantra of this current generation. She prostituted herself in high school and “forgot to mention” that. She was avoiding that truth. Siblings from multiple partners. Very alcoholic parents. She’s had a deeply traumatic life.

[@DavidMccallister65]

@@rodismantle2809 it's called "compartmentalizing" and it's the only way we survive. That's my experience anyways lol

[@TheAwGooner]

There’s definitely more to her story than just a bad relationship at 18. Parents always set the tone for what a healthy relationship should be.

[@virgocunt09]

Yeah she said her parents were alcoholics, that can definitely play a role

[@Gxgh0st]

She said her dad called her ugly and trashy for her body mods. Definitely in denial of her family potentially being an issue in her life. Her grandma shouting out her OF is also very unusual 😂

[@victoriamarie9103]

Both parents were alcoholics and her mom is disabled, dad dates toxic women. I'd say that explains a lot right there.

[@BVonBuescher]

I have dated a few hyper sexual strippers like this, it’s tough. The sex is usually absolutely insane, the drugs are ubiquitous. Mental health issues are the norm. In the end, it’s hard not to feel at least a little sorry for them. You realize there is product for the environment. There is only one that was a little hard to forgive. The one that cut all the buttons off of my suit, throw my luggage in the front yard. I missed my Uncles Wedding in Vegas as a result… I returned the favor by giving her a 5150

[@chowter]

Bingo.....much more to this............ TBC

[@theotherway1639]

This was one of the most authentic, genuine interviews I've seen. She is healthier than most people, as her transparency and self awareness is profoundly mature.

[@geoffreypotterpotter5005]

You've got rocks in your head...

[@summerkimminau9212]

Honestly I would agree. I love the way she looks at life

[@John-mf6ky]

Well, it's not like she's living on skid row like most the people Mark interviews

[@KatJ3st]

Lets hope she doesn't go to LA!!

[@User-54631]

Cause healthy people cut their tattoos out.

[@AnnabelNightwish]

At 22 i had colored hair and was planning on my next tattoo, in what i believed was the best time of my life, the peak of my self esteem. Then 25 hit and my brain fully developed and hoo boy...

[@PhoenixRisingEra]

OMG I was planning so many tattoos at 23 when I moved to another town for college....made myself wait 6 months to think about it. Then I wouldn't want that one later and would change my mind and with the next one I'd say i'll wait 6 months and so on. Now I look back on all the tattoos I wanted like thank god I didn't get any of those tattoos. The most I have is a few extra piercings, but nothing compared to a lot of people I know. Don't regret a thing.

[@jarxxxx1]

I have always had bright coloured hair, tattoos etc when i was growing up 😅 I am turning 27 soon, so I feel like everyone is different and it's not just a temporary thing you'll regret for definit as you get older and wiser

[@jarxxxx1]

I have 17 tattoos, 9 Piercings and bright pink hair incase anyone's wondering haha and I regret absolutely none of them I love them they are me ❤

[@elle_travis]

I love her purity and rawness. She appreciates family but also recognizes serious issues -- with such a positive mindset. I can relate to her story in alot of ways and I admire her for being so authentic, her aura is so inviting. Love this interview. Great questions asked with pure, heartfelt answers.

[@chaoticature]

@@rubymorris44 I guess you haven’t experienced extreme trauma. Eyes are the window to the soul and it’s hard to look at yourself if you hate your life situations. Have some compassion dude.

[@cassandrareedy7369]

@@rubymorris44 and yet with all that experience, you have not found compassion, good luck brother, because until you do the universe will keep giving you opportunities.

[@alexhamby4193]

@@rubymorris44 for someone who claims to have experienced it, you lack the lessons it should have taught you.

[@imcomingforyou.3245]

I see myself in so much of her. Graduated Highschool 2017. Started college and dropped out. Tattoos. Having cats. Chronic depression. She’s beautiful inside and out. Everything she says about depression is 100% true. So proud of her.

[@emilygutierrez2041]

I've spoken with Orylan on several occasions, when she got her car wrapped, new rims on her car, etc, I always tried to help her with local people being a Houston native. She is truly the sweetest soul. She is the definition of "don't judge a book by it's cover". Beautiful inside & OUT!

[@livingintheforest3963]

But it is so sad how ugly she has made herself when she was so beautiful what a tragedy that one man influenced her in that horrible direction because now it’s too late she can’t go back to it the beautiful person she was on the outside.

[@ricciamber]

@Living in the Forest who are you to judge what beauty is??

[@lanerose20]

@@ricciamber how many miles thick is that rock you live under?

[@bbqchickenrobot3]

@@ricciamber - @Living in the Forest is a human and all humans judge. That said, beauty is in the eye of the beholder :). Style is a personal choice........

[@karwane1]

@@ricciamber you can be the most wonderful person in the world but if you look like a sideshow freak, 99% of people will have a negative opinion about you seeing you in person.

[@kellyalonzi2917]

I love how Mark lets everybody talk without interrupting them. Love his videos.

[@Neveradullmomento]

For her age she is so in touch with another layer to human existence. Her wisdom is beyond age. Was such a privilege to listen to her speak.

[@Scott-ls1ff]

Wow, thats what you see? Don’t confuse confidence with wisdom. Her coping mechanisms are very self-destructive and considering she is not a fully-formed human and these decisions are fairly new, I imagine there is a pretty dark road ahead. Hopefully she can be working with someone that can help her express herself in less permanent ways.

[@adamgomes538]

Wisdom y'all are nuts lol.

[@alfredspic481]

Privileged? Lmao

[@Cynnas]

Of she was obese and/or her face not attractive (without modification) you wouldn't have said that. Its funny how men always think that way about attractive and especially beautiful women. Another layer to human existence? 🤣🤣🤣

[@privard89]

Get some help Collin. You come off as a creep and a simp. She's just pretty with a very unique look and isn't dumb but come on. If she was on another level of human existence she wouldn't be gyrating on men's hard ons. She risked being blind to look cool too so yeah.

[@Internetog]

Nothing about this interview says “healed”. I hope that she can overcome all the obstacles she’s put in front of herself

[@nikkitronvold7606]

I ABSOLUTELY agree with you!! Denial and self obliteration speaks to abject pain...

[@Liliana-of7ji]

she never said she was healed tho. its a journey

[@tressssah]

she doesn’t see what she has done to herself as obstacles, that’s your interpretation.

[@BasedMarysMemoirs]

Bro this is one of the recent lil peep girls from tik tok I’m dyyyiinnngggg

[@agathachris9722]

Fully agreed

[@BreaMichelle3]

I hope she truly never regrets this, however the decisions we make at 22 are so different than who we become once we are in our 30s and later.

[@AutoMotoMechanic]

She regrets it daily. She is a sex worker. She hates herself. But she tells herself she is happy😅

[@bruce3242]

True, but ya never know maybe she won't

[@tydamon7316]

She'll regret it. No question. But she will try to convince herself that she doesn't. She says her parents were alcoholics yet her childhood was great. She's hiding/running from the truth.

[@JellyJam6123]

What is regret really? If you go through life with no regrets just going forward and accepting all the choices you have made in your life journey, then you have no regrets or anything to regret about. Live Life with no regret for you will choose your path and God and only god will judge you on the way you lived your life.

[@Colts92-ve2nl]

Ain’t that the truth, I look back on the stupid stuff I did and said in my 20s thinking I was grown and just ugggghh. I really did believe I was very mature too at that age, and while I may have been more than most people I knew being a mom and all but I really wasn’t.A whole different person in my 30s..I really hope she’ll still love herself with no regrets in the future.

[@tazmanianchic9425]

Thankyou Mark, for another great interview. I love Orylan, she's so pure of heart. If only we could live in a world without prejudice. I identify & relate with the battle she faces regarding acute anxiety and severe depression, its so fucking hard to deak with. I remember saying to my father once, after he'd told me my issues were 'all in my head...' yeah, my mind being the most powerful part of me... I digress, I said I'd rather break every bone in my body rather than have a psychological illness. Bones heal after breaking, they're weaker, but healed. With a mental illness, that shit can be tamed or masked with meds, but mostly it never goes away and to live with it every waking moment 24/7 is hard, so damn hard. I empathise with Orylan on so many levels. She has so much trauma which is undealt with, I hope she allows herself yo receive and accept the help she needs with that. Medication is not a bad thing, but I also understand her choice to opt to live without the aid of meds. Also, being a non drinker and anti drugs is awesome, she could've so easily gone down that route. Unfortunately it was the path I inevitably found myself on, after living with similar ailments as Orylan, and she's right, in the log run it does nothing but destruct She's seen this with her own paren6s, many children of alcoholics will follow in their footsteps, or realise how fucked up it is and give a wide berth, as Orylan has, I have the utmost respect for that choice. She seems wise beyond her years, yet her pain is barely concealed and that's upsetting to watch. She didn't reveal as much as she did on No Jumper, she's been very careful when stating ages for certain things on this interview. She was actually 15, when she began her toxic relationship, he was her mother's tattoo artist and in his late 20's. So the reasoning behind some of her body mod choices like the eye tatts for example, once she has sought help to deal with the untreated trauma regarding that relationship, there may be regrets. I honestly hope there isn't, but she's still so young She gives herself a hard time over how she earns her money too, I hope that isn't something which she will continue to berate herself with. I find the butterfly tattoo choices fascinating too, it really reflects and reveals how she views herself. I wish her all the best for her future , it's crazy how as a Christian, the most abuse she receives is from other Christians! Thou shall not judge? Religious folk are the most judgemental out there! That's all I've got to say on religion! ✌🏾 & 💜 people, be kind to one another!

[@phillipsaulters]

That’s hypocritical to judge Christians and ask them not to. Jesus saves from hell. Not people’s feelings.

[@alyssachausse6752]

I like what you said about broken bones vs a mental illness

[@anitaharris9243]

Her: "I had a great family and childhood!" Also her: "Both my parents were alcoholics." Her: "My dad and I have a great relationship!" Also her: "My dad put me down and made me feel like crap and always belittled me." I feel bad for this girl for having such awful parents and such an awful childhood and living in such delusional denial that she thinks they're actually good parents and that she had a good childhood. :(

[@victorabustamante7207]

I also see extreme inconsistencies in her story. Not saying she's lying by any means BUT I see she confused and isn't seeing things as they are. She contradicts herself throughout the whole conversation.

[@1000dotsdeath]

She sounds full of shit n it's never her fault she could've done things differently but chose her path

[@russbelperez3837]

I think she was aiming at gratitude. Not everyone will be perfect. What I got out of it anyway.

[@victorabustamante7207]

@@russbelperez3837 Or she's so dysfunctional she can't desiffer

[@ashleylapsley3294]

Sounds more like she’s making this crap up

[@aprboone1]

I've been watching a number of these vids; which are excellent. I've concluded two things *1. The relationship between parents is more impactful on children than even the relation ship directly with one parent and child *2. I think everyone would benefit by having an interview like this to discover the story of their life and decisions. Amazing content. Thank you for the risk in sharing so honestly

[@KawiMusician]

good points

[@carlhorton6833]

As a mental health liaison (psychiatric liaison) professional in a busy ED dept (my job is to interview and assess patients that get brought into the ED in mental health crisis) I can 100% agree, so, so, so many MH problems have their roots in childhood environment and can continue to affect the individual for the rest of their lives

[@DiamondCutter423]

You're onto something there for sure.

[@1ElegantLady4Realz]

❤️

[@Looch1717]

The second point here is something I have thought about myself. Like I want to have these interviews with my friends, I think that would be really interesting. I think partners would benefit from having these type of interviews with each other too, you would learn so much.

[@kristenguay3967]

Her analogy of butterflies~WOW! It is so important not to judge someone’s outward appearance. What is inside is what truly matters. Thank you for this gentle reminder.

[@pavelt5732]

Well yeah, what's inside is what truly matters.. but why in the hell would you do that shit to yourself ? 🤦 Maybe to show what is truly inside 🙄

[@thecrownoffusion8420]

No we can judge, what you're trying to say is we shouldn't throw stones

[@thecrownoffusion8420]

@@TD-ln2tg the definition of judging is stating an opinion

[@thecrownoffusion8420]

@@TD-ln2tg so I'm going to judge just not throw stones

[@102tatertot]

Man I hope she does okay. She seems so sweet but totally unstable, I hope if she can afford it she sees a therapist to work through the stuff she’s battling

[@carmenbrown3437]

She isn't unstable.

[@travisjohnston2369]

@@carmenbrown3437you sure ?

[@MTLV100]

@@carmenbrown3437 you let her tone trick you, so much that you didn’t hear her words. She’s not stable. “I’m at my lowest point… I struggle very bad with depression”…. Among many other telling statements.

[@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405]

Spoken like a true 22 year old! I would love to see a follow up interview in about 10-15 years.

[@kingofcrows8829]

Because you're positive she'll regret it. Spoken like a true old woman

[@MizzTinkerBell10000]

@@kingofcrows8829 🤣

[@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405]

@@kingofcrows8829 says the guy who is too chicken shit to show his face on your profile 🙄 Im definitely older then 22 (thank God). Id choose my current age any day over being 22 and inexperienced.

[@zeva66]

I am 56 and i begun to tattoo my face with over 40, and now i want MORE! MORE! MORE! NO regrets- i regret that i cannot afford eyeball tats!

[@philiphudgens4726]

@@kingofcrows8829 Newsflash: Old people are generally wiser...as you've just proved. You'll be old before you know it. When someone is an ageist a-hole to you too, remember this day & comment.

[@marcfalsetti9381]

This interview has done more for mending her depression than anyone, (including her) may ever fully realize. God Bless Orylan, Stay Safe.

[@Queencard853]

Saying she had a great childhood is denial or fear of a consequence when you follow that up with being diagnosed with bipolar, ptsd, and depression at only 16 years old, two alcoholic parents, and a laundry list of other things she talks about. She is beautiful and amazing no matter what.

[@michaelsmith875]

Yeah I thought that was really strange. I was interested in hearing her story when she was saying how great her childhood was because that’s normally not the case but I guess to her it was a great time.

[@anastasyavie6236]

I have the same impression. She said it's a great childhood but as I heard her story, it seems traumatic and sad. I think she counted childhood as elementary years and like her life under 12 years old.

[@stacitowery3475]

Not all childhoods are alike. You might not have enjoyed her childhood, but she clearly thought it was fine and doesn't choose to emphasize the negatives.

[@willow.bell.illustration]

Oh it's definitely denial. The fact that her first relationship was the way that it was is one of the biggest signs that her upbringing really wasn't as good as she tries to paint it. I feel so sorry for her as a trauma in her childhood is exactly why she formed the connections that she does to this day. Parents model relationships and you will emulate it as you start your own.

[@iilcarartista1812]

Unfortunately she has no idea what a good childhood is..

[@rheillycole7038]

She is so sweet and genuine and HONEST about herself and her (life) experience. Wishing her nothing but peace, protection and wellness 💜

[@omittable]

Life is not a fairy tale

[@Scott-ls1ff]

Self-destructive is a good way put it. This girl is 22 so there is nothing settled or proven-out about her decisions. Her outlook feels very reactionary and her quest for modification feels knee jerk and entirely cathartic. Some of these comments make it seem like you admire this girl for having everything figured out. She doesn’t. She is pretty broken - its obvious. She is in the process of making life-defining mistakes.

[@kinggio7833]

Facts

[@LDuke-pc7kq]

You nailed it. She had natural beauty money can't buy and loving roots at home. It's important to heal from trauma, but when it's bad enough victims really see how deep that trauma really is. I hope she can fix her eyes and teeth one day

[@jamierupert7563]

I was beginning to think there was something wrong with the way I was looking at her until I read your comment. It seems to me that this girl has ALOT of growing up to do and she says she doesn't regret anything she's done, working etc but I have a feeling she's going to have alot of regrets and have them sooner than she thinks. And I'm not wishing anything bad on this girl whatsoever but getting her eyes tattooed...while she's young yet and nothing is wrong with her eyes yet from that but... well, I'll just leave it at that.

[@astralblizzard89]

Ur right on point sadly 😢

[@katricejohnson6164]

Absolutely!!

[@laceyjoshuasmitson7816]

She seems like such a wonderful woman. She gives off such a positive energy. It's great to see she has a great support system. I wish nothing but love, peace and happiness for her.

[@pest174]

Agreed!

[@steveotatooed]

Same

[@brianplunkett4002]

You must undoubtedly be committed to your lifestyle when you make these choices ✌️.

[@alsilvaish]

corn

[@ljsexton2315]

Agreed 💯

[@HolyMith]

People who abuse themselves are ALWAYS compensating for trauma and pain. Disfuguring yourself, using substances or sexually objectifying yourself are all forms of self-abuse. She is young and maybe hasn't came to terms with it at this point, but everything she is doing is to escape that pain.

[@annieoshea7598]

I work in medical research and I have spent enough time in psychology and neuroscience to know that when someone says “I had a normal childhood so that can’t explain my behaviours/choices; you just nod and keep listening. The bad relationship, the bipolar, the PTSD and whatever caused the PTSD, alcoholic parents, are all traumas in your formative years, when your brain is still developing. Don’t confuse conviction, confidence, and being articulate with healing. What makes trauma so difficult to treat is how it announces itself in decisions we later regret - if we choose to do the healing work.

[@inaj27]

1000%

[@picosmom8698]

I hope she will try to work with a caring compassionate therapist and maybe take meds.she is still in a lot of daily pain, and needs to also learn new ways to have healthy relationships. I wish her the best.

[@r.c.l2569]

Was thinking the same. Two alcoholic parents that both had life altering things occur. 5 dui’s and losing lower limbs due to drinking and she had a great childhood. I pray she finds the guidance she deserves.

[@yeboscrebo4451]

@@picosmom8698 meds are the LAST thing anyone needs

[@cayleehammack]

My heart just broke when I saw “unloveable” on her knee. She is so very lovable. Praying she finds good love, someone who has a warm soul like her.

[@Donte821]

There's a video on another channel of her going on a blind date with a guy. It's a recent video. I only watched half of it so I don't know how it turned out.

[@aprilstilskin5733]

@@Donte821 that sounds really interesting I'd like to watch that.

[@maleitch]

You don't know if she is or is not. Off camera and the fairy tale that is internet entertainment she could be an absolute insane monster.

[@fluffstuffpootiebean1688]

Lol...not likely.

[@HdHd-cg4nz]

On the other knee she should put unemployable

[@amycollier1241]

It’s incredibly interesting that she’s oblivious to the trauma she most likely experienced as a child. Extremely telling. She’s certainly a beautiful soul. Thanks for what you do, Mark.

[@jameshw9751]

Why are you so sure she experienced trauma as a child?

[@MGMG-88]

@@jameshw9751 she admitted her parents were alcoholics. They were separated. The dad talked down to her. It doesn’t always have to be typical abuse for trauma to occur. And then the abusive ex to top it off.

[@ismackdemocrats6148]

@@jameshw9751 were you paying attention?

[@anitaharris9243]

@@jameshw9751 If you listened to this interview it was pretty obvious she had abusive toxic dysfunctional parents!!! Hello.

[@jameshw9751]

@@anitaharris9243 Hi. So you either think she’s deluded or she’s lying. People who do body mods aren’t necessarily victims.

[@TheKindredTrucker]

This was a great interview ... I love how I'm always surprised, the way the interview subjects are way different than the impression I might get from the thumbnail. I think Orylan is such a lovable person and has so much depth for someone so young. I hope she finds a path that allows her to thrive and get herself far away from the gross things she was experiencing when this was recorded.

[@gabriellejenn7782]

I worked with her at a club in Houston and she has a beautiful way from carrying herself. I thought her name was Orion whenever they would call her on stage. Hearing her story gives a whole different perspective for me

[@aueyburroughs1143]

Leviticus 20 v 10 KJV: And the man that committeth adultery with another man’s wife, even he that committeth adultery with his neighbour’s wife, the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death. Hebrews 13 v 4 KJV: Marriage is honourable in all, and the bed undefiled: but whoremongers and adulterers God will judge. Proverbs 5 V 3 - 8 KJV: 3 For the lips of a strange woman drop as an honeycomb, and her mouth is smoother than oil: 4 But her end is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword. 5 Her feet go down to death; her steps take hold on hell. 6 Lest thou shouldest ponder the path of life, her ways are moveable, that thou canst not know them. 7 Hear me now therefore, O ye children, and depart not from the words of my mouth. 8 Remove thy way far from her, and come not nigh the door of her house: Proverbs 7 v 22 - 27 KJV: He goeth after her straightway, as an ox goeth to the slaughter, or as a fool to the correction of the stocks; Till a dart strike through his liver; as a bird hasteth to the snare, and knoweth not that it is for his life. Hearken unto me now therefore, O ye children, and attend to the words of my mouth. Let not thine heart decline to her ways, go not astray in her paths. For she hath cast down many wounded: yea, many strong men have been slain by her. Her house is the way to hell, going down to the chambers of death.

[@sayrewilkin-dalby619]

@@aueyburroughs1143 What are you babbling about?

[@ria0991]

@@aueyburroughs1143 now go tell that to the men who commit adultery too. Pornh** Is a start

[@aueyburroughs1143]

@Sayre Wilkin-Dalby if you could talk normally like the gift given you since: BIRTH. + CLARIFY YOUR QUESTION THEN YOU WILL BE ANSWERED. BUT IF YOU ARE MOCKING THE LORD GOD KNOW: Galations 6 v 7 KJV: 7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

[@aueyburroughs1143]

@Maria Craft Am very non-preferential to the sexes that; would love The Word of God to be sewn in their Heart. HEAVENLY FATHER LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS DIRECTS MY PATH FORTHWITH. Pray you have a loving relationship with HEAVENLY FATHER LORD GOD YHWH + HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON HEAVENLY FATHER LORD AND SAVIOUR CHRIST JESUS WHO SHAPED THE WORLD'S WITH HIS HANDS.

[@bluegarnet1000]

She’s chronically depressed. She’s not as ok as she says/thinks she is.

[@mysillylittlelife4933]

I feel very sorry for her and hope she gets the opportunity to go to therapy. Not from a judgy place (I'm tattooed, going to therapy myself etc) but from a compassionate place. It seems to me that she was left alone with a lot of her pain, never got the tools for life, came to very toxic people and then attacked herself, masking it with "loving herself" and being independent. And she is still so young, I really hope she can get help for her depression and trauma 🖤

[@julieroman1359]

Very true. I pray to the our Lord Jesus that he will embrace her and bring her back to her identity.

[@cptnbennett]

Yea, well said. Attacked herself and masked it with loving herself. Got involved with the wrong people, and destroyed herself because of them.

[@captbloodbeard]

@@cptnbennett It was very obvious when she says she loves herself way more now just how much she is faking that. It's like fake it 'til you make it, but she's just lying to herself. Doing this because she saw her hated ex when she looked at herself in her eyes means that he still has power over her. That's what's really sad.

[@JamYezzle]

Very eloquent. First she said she was happy, then she started talking about her depression. At another point, she said she loves her “job” and then later she says she doesn’t like it. I had to deal with trauma before and I can tell you, it’s not easy. But I implore, to face yourself and deal with whatever traumatic experience you had in your past.

[@studio3ten]

My first honest thought was 'she is such a beautiful soul too bad she did all those things to herself, the eyes, tatts, teeth...' BUT I then seriously stopped myself mid-thought....and corrected that thought to....-" she IS a beautiful soul AS IS. " This channel has taught me so much. ❤

[@HEY_NOONIE]

I saw her on TIK TOK and she actually intrigued me . I’m glad she told her story ! She seems very sweet and genuine

[@iwillhissatyou]

Whats her tiktok?

[@tomsklanka9436]

Yeah what’s her name

[@HEY_NOONIE]

It’s Orylan.1999

[@iwillhissatyou]

@@HEY_NOONIE thankyou!

[@lanaiba]

A childhood of neglect and abuse isn't always so obvious like being beaten up or starving, her saying she had a good childhood, while also mentioning alcoholism, abusive dad's girlfriend, toxic environment and her dad saying she is trash and will never accomplish anything? While constantly saying 'they're great, he's great, they are amazing' shows she still has work to do in terms of identifying what was not actually normal and not normal for a kid to experience and to stop defending irresponsible adults. Doesn't mean you have to cut them out but definitely confront them and do not allow them to cross your boundaries again. That toxic relationship was a direct consequence of her childhood and lack of self-confidence and worth. Modifying your body permanently because of some abusive guy is so sad, but we all make decisions like these for the wrong reasons. She herself said she didn't like looking in her eyes anymore she wanted to change them. That is not self love, it's self hate. So glad she doesn't turn to alcohol and drugs. Wish her the best.

[@iwillhissatyou]

Yeah I think she’s VERY dissociated unfortunately

[@buuurrrrppppp221]

Not everyone has a victim complex

[@seanbyers6736]

@@matthew8417tell me you don’t get it without saying you don’t get it… but whatever. Impossible to talk to someone who can’t see past the end of their nose.

[@seanbyers6736]

Was about to make a comment exactly like this but then saw it had already been done. Very obvious her notion of a “good childhood” and “great parents” is completely out of whack. Based on what she said, her family sounds like a complete shit show. We got abuse, alcoholism, divorce, toxic girlfriends, a mom without legs, a grandma who promotes her OnlyFans, -all culminating in a wicked self-esteem problem that was in part responsible for one of the most abusive GF/BF situations I’ve heard in a long time. Poor girl. 23 and her life’s already over.

[@lanaiba]

@@seanbyers6736 you could do with showing a bit more compassion. You seem to understand she had very difficult circumstances so why act like the rest of society and put her down even more? it's a good way of showing how unaware of our own situation we can be -there is some self-hatred in you as well. Compassion is key, you will feel better if you think of others in this way. Her life is definitely not over, people can change tremendously. She just has a much harder mission than others. Good day!

[@Lilbxby210]

I love how you don’t even see the camera you just say what you say and you mean it. I love that energy, I found this from your ig totally forgot who you were until you posted a video relating to this one. I was so blindsided shit, you changed and are healing I could tell. Keep growing, you are beautiful. 💕 🦋 ✨✨✨

[@arline654]

I absolutely love her and think she is so beautiful. Her mindset has enlightened me. Honestly she’s a walking statement and if people would just speak to her they’d learn something about themselves

[@jennyjo798]

Yes! One hundred percent!

[@RobertMJohnson]

she was beautiful. she ruined herself for life

[@sophiem5921]

So many contradictions. She's the 'happiest' she has ever been, but also the most depressed. She's 'happy' with her unconventional life, but doesn't want her sisters to go down this 'bad path'. She had an 'amazing' childhood but was doing sex work at 16. Her appearance is even a contradiction. She makes a lot of intelligent statements that make her sound wise and in control, but something is amiss.

[@mirozen_]

When he asked if the tattoos were a call for attention she denied it, yet it's a big thing for her to look "different" to other people. She wants to provoke a response in others - to be beautiful inside while being rather "demonic" outside. If no one gave her a second look because of the body modifications (which is how she says they should behave) then she wouldn't get attention from them. The body modifications are certainly a call for attention.

[@sandyseale1]

@@mirozen_ She is mentally unstable and sells herself and her body.. That is demonic possession.

[@smayly1000]

@@mirozen_ Absolutely right, this is a typical 20 year old trying to justify her radical behavior with trauma, but fails miserably because she has no self awareness or intelligence to detect her own contradictions.

[@misskris1900]

Well said. She's a walking , talking hypocrite. Typical of that generation. I have this, I have that but I don't take medication or do drugs. She's a well spoken person with no education because she doesn't want to be like everyone else. Makes zero sense.

[@FleagleSangria]

That is what I noticed the most. The conflict within. Understandable. But there is some deep seeded issues with this woman.

[@alicepang931]

I feel like she has modified herself so that anyone who wants a meaningful relationship will be with her for what’s on the inside. Wishing her luck 🍀

[@soular412]

As a fellow guy covered head to toes with tattoos I find her attractive outside as well as in 👍

[@jackienoone5890]

I thought the same thing

[@harrisonkane1288]

unfortunately, most folks wont go near her with a ten foot pole looking like that. Not sure any amount of chemistry could overcome looking like a monster for me.

[@nightowl6811]

No thanks! Zero tattoos on my women is what I like. Not even a dot. Disqualified instantly

[@boorhaave5880]

Abusing one's body says alot about what's inside. Similarly obese people aren't just physically unattractive, it says something about their character too

[@ufallyg8r]

I loved this interview. She has a pure heart and wants nothing but good energy and positivity in the world.

[@JustIdeas000]

She has a damaged heart. (And teeth. And skin. And ears. And eyeballs).

[@TriniThinkerBelle]

I cried watching this..what she said about the butterflies anatomy was so poignant. Its true that the monsters amongst us are the most regular stand up people ... for example the predators who are so called prominent people in society

[@ironfist458]

I’ve dated a lot of drama and scarred filled women in my life and you would be surprised that I was the one that had to break it off to them.

[@karinatorrado718]

She keeps saying she did this because she loves herself but I think is the opposite, she keeps punishing herself, she deals with depression, and she says the modification is painful and even dangerous and she keeps doing it. It makes me think that she’s keeping all that pain and sadness inside, feeling trapped in that pain. I hope she can release those bad emotions to finally feel free as the butterflies she describes

[@MrJeffcoley1]

Exactly my thoughts. She hates herself so much she can’t even look at herself in the mirror

[@colinmaxwell4738]

I agree

[@emily4730]

You don’t know this woman so you don’t deserve an opinion lmfao. Just because she’s changed her body to how SHE likes it doesn’t mean she hates herself. Maybe that’s just you reflecting your own insecurities onto someone else😂

[@MrJeffcoley1]

@@emily4730 She’s a 23 year old prostitute who has completely mutilated herself. Clearly a deeply troubled woman who will more likely than not commit suicide before she’s 30 unless she gets help. Which she won’t

[@binkytube]

Tons of contradictions.

[@danp6755]

She’s such a sweet soul, with good heart. Despite previous trauma and toxic people I hope she’s able to continue on her life’s journey and find peace from the depression and anxiety. Her two friends are extremely lucky to have her in their lives ❤️

[@eden_aumakua]

I think she looks MORE vulnerable this way. One is empowered when one stands in their own true Self

[@c-dmonte4114]

I respect that she is living life on her terms, especially after being in such a controling and toxic relationship. Really enjoyed Orylan's interview.

[@marentruelsen3166]

Much love to this girl. People don't realize how much a toxic relationship can change someone. I'm glad she's found herself. Doesn't matter what people think. If she's happy that's all that matters.

[@andybrck]

She so young for such big life questions..she's only 22

[@drumbum3.142]

🎨

[@ReadingsByJaredPitts]

Is that true though? Is happiness all that matters? She talked about how incredibly depressed she is. The pursuit of happiness for happiness’ sake is obviously not helping her.

[@sheilaboland6285]

Like most when I saw her picture I thought she was demonized! She IS such a nice person!

[@lordjill58]

Happy is not all that matters.

[@edsherwood2173]

Man the eye tattoo is crazy, no idea how someone could make that commitment. Definitely permanent. Her jobs literally on her looks and she would have made so much before

[@davidedge8808]

Best interview yet, and I've watched many. A truly beautiful honest woman.

[@mamadousalane2024]

u sure about beautiful?

[@christchild123]

I couldn’t leave this video without messaging. She taught me something while listening to her speak from her heart. I would have formed an opinion about her by her looks. I would have been so wrong cause she has a beautiful soul regardless of her outside appearance. This has taught me ppl can look like an ordinary and be sick on the inside. Do you young lady, I wish you all the luck and may God continue to bless you.

[@nicolemauldin6586]

This!

[@vegetablepimps]

Glad you can recognize that. I am covered and even when I'm with my small children...some people will wisk their kids away as if the ink will jump off on them or something lol. 🤔 My kids see a heavily tattooed person and they don't flinch...used to it. It makes me sad those babies will get the impression we are automatically bad. I am a law abiding citizen who goes to church and would help anyone in need.

[@stacym8918]

That’s what this channel is all about

[@shimmerer_00000]

I love this.

[@drewmillz1]

She’s an interesting character. It’s really admirable how she is able to internalize her experiences and use them to make her a stronger person. It’s a bummer she’s dealing with so much depression and being bi polar. It could t hurt to see a professional about that but other than that. She’s definitely a living version of don’t judge a book by it’s cover.

[@stary._.butterfly3368]

She Is So lovely

[@howareyou857]

I have sat through many of Mark's interviews on this channel. My job is to listen to other people's painful experiences. However, I am finding this interview one of the most challenging. This young woman does not want her sisters to follow in her footsteps, she tattooed her eyes to cancel out a facial feature that reminded her of her ex. I find that disturbing. I truly hope she never regrets some of these body mod choices. I hope she will always love the way they look. I'm not judging her for them at all btw...but she has hopefully a long time to live with these decisions and they are very radical. I just wonder if the money would have been better spent on therapy particularly as she says she has chronic anxiety and depression.

[@annieseaside]

And BiPolar which my son has. She refuses the meds. Which my son has sometimes done. Unfortunately, without balancing the chemicals in her body she can not always make sensible decisions. Her brain lies to her as to what is a good decision. So sad. I hope they invent meds she would be prepared to take and that she will eventually get therapy.

[@howareyou857]

@@annieseaside yes well remembered! That's going to be tough if she is unmedicated and bi polar. I wonder if she got the tattoos when she was in a manic episode....doesn't seem to regret them at the moment and she doesnt appear manic. However, to have so many done in such a short period of time might be reminiscent of mania. I truly hope this young woman is going to be ok.

[@sarah-vl2vf]

She deserves to be loved, no matter what she looks like. I think she's beautiful. You go girl

[@housejunky777]

Alcoholism, taking responsibilities that don't belong to her (providing for her family), allowing another person to make a modification that are possibly permanent, parenting her parents. She's in torment due to all the trauma. Heartbreaking. She's doing what she wants yet it grosses her out more or less sums it up. I hope that she finds a professional counselor to walk with her toward healing. There's hope.

[@livingintheforest3963]

Yes!!!

[@petrinapedry6450]

Exactly. It’s so sad how much our world is letting down it’s youth. For so many to come to the point of hating themselves so much that they would destroy themselves or try to be something else, tells us all we need to know about where we are at as a culture. And all the people thinking that pretending with her that all this is “courageous” and “healing” and that normalization is a sign of “love and acceptance” have merely succeeded in normalizing trauma.

[@SirArghPirate]

The black and white photos are so impressive and beautiful. The people getting interviewed comes from all kind of backgrounds, some are abusers, some are getting abused, some are tired or high or drugged and often broken in so many different ways, but in that photo they always so beautiful and composed and dignified. If I was walking past them on the street I would probably not notice them, but in the photo I feel almost forced to look them and look them in the eyes and I can't help feeling nothing but respect for them.

[@raeperonneau4941]

So painful to watch. So young, kind, stunning, sharp, and articulate and yet somehow so damaged. I can only wish for her true love and great blessings. This child deserves so much better.

[@charlenevano]

Yes, still so young. Our brains only fully form at 23 for women, 25 men. So utterly sad, what she's been through.

[@RK-su4hs]

@@charlenevanocommon in the big cities

[@Lion_Hamza]

Stunning? More shocking. Sharp? I don’t know if it’s sharp to have tattoos in the face. Articulate? If she was, she would not work as a stripper. 🤷🏻‍♂️

[@raspberrygloss6013]

@@charlenevano all brains develop at 25 fully. 😂

[@maryannnaaman6143]

@@raspberrygloss6013 thank you for clarifying. I was just about to comment the same thing 🤣 25 years for full frontal lobe development regardless of gender...

[@daagequasar8011]

Great interview. She is creating herself, which so many people are afraid of. She loves herself and, in turn, projects that outwards. Orylan is absolutely gorgeous inside and out and has a bright future.

[@Biancareijnders]

She starts talking about her happy childhood and her loving family, but then trauma after trauma comes up. Alcoholic parents, abuse by older man, a bad relationship etc etc. I went through a bad relationship myself from age 17 till 21. After that I decided to travel instead of getting tattooed. And I am so happy for that. She has put herself in a position where she has few options to get out of the sex industry. Instead of a pretty doll, she's turned into an extreme version, but she's still seen exclusively as a sexual object by men. Although I love her looks... She makes it really hard for herself to find a normal job by looking like this. I didn't fully heel from my bad relationship after way past my 25 years of age. And looking back I don't regret, but do think I could have done things differently if I had the wisdom and strength I have right now. I think she is well spoken and sounds smart and wise, but I question if she already started to heel...

[@chmln0931]

I get your point but she has also stated vehemently she does not want a conventional job... We do not know if she is good at something (e.g. drawing) or if she has some hobby she can monetize. And even if she does not, she can learn and turn that into her livelihood Ps: non native here, so despite any mistake I'd have made, I hope the message is conveyed

[@Biancareijnders]

@@chmln0931 I hope she does find a job that suits her talents! (I am Dutch, so also not native. My message may sound harsh, but is really well meant)

[@chmln0931]

@@Biancareijnders Yes, do not worry I got it, your reading of the situation is realistic; she would probably find trouble to get hired in certain jobs, thus limited her options from the get-go, but I just wanted to point out what I said 😉 Maybe we can enjoy of a follow-up in the future and hopefully she is where she wants to be Btw, glad to read stories of people who had healed from bad experiencies, always inspiring

[@show_me_your_kitties]

@@chmln0931 she doesn't want it now but as she ages her options will get smaller and smaller, unfortunately 😕😔 I hope she finds a path that truly works and benefits her.

[@thomme8539]

Plus she still has to cover up for her dancing job

[@kw1nz33]

Just found this series and it is so compelling. Thank you for giving these people the format to tell their story.

[@timkayjr2958]

Same. The more you dig the better they get 👍

[@carrie9602]

YES! YES! AND YES! Thank you!

[@arie9034]

Diagnostically: borderline personality disorder = chaotic relationships, impulsivity, self-harm, diffuse sense of self, chronic depression and anxiety, ambiguous boundaries, etc. So many people diagnosed with bipolar disorder are misdiagnosed and actually have borderline personality disorder. Etiology: childhood trauma. Like so many people interviewed on this channel, she reports a good childhood. As the story unfolds she talks about experiences in childhood that any mental health provider would classify as trauma.

[@ChiviA84]

Exactly....I was diagnosed with bipolar like 3 times but found out it's actually BPD.

[@pamelaraney4654]

Uh oh that’s me

[@sallyann985]

I also thought it could've been BPD.

[@rrf6747]

I was married to a narcissistic sociopathic,borderline with histrionic disorder 4 years of hell. Childhood trauma yep... tattoos sleeved out. completely insane

[@annagdula1889]

Tragic how people believe in a myth of happy family. Her mom was alcoholic, father didn't accept her and went away with some abusive woman, but the girl thinks she had wonderfull childhood...

[@moba7984]

Exactly my thoughts.

[@dianehess5520]

Poor thing is delusional.

[@hoxiee3336]

Her tattoo that says “unlovable “🥺🥺broke my heart, she’s so beautiful I hope she finds everything she’s looking for she deserves the world ❤️

[@megamaze00]

I didn’t do anything permanent to my body, but I was also in a toxic relationship from 19-21. After that, I hated all men and wanted to make myself ugly. I dyed my hair yucky crayon box colors, wore ill fitting clothes, and just generally looked like shit…. All in an attempt to make myself “undatable” and, in my mind, “safe from men.” I’m thankful every day that I recovered from my emotional pain. I hope this young lady find healing for her heart.

[@ad8447]

If she is looking for safety from men and be undatable, stripping and only fans is not really the way to go.

[@SchmidtBitch]

I was in a highly physically and emotionally abusive relationship from the time I was 14 until the time I was 19 it is what you make of it. I got constantly beaten with guns I got stabbed I got choked I got tazzed and guess what I made myself a better person, I never once use it as an excuse to let my life go to shit. A person can do what they choose with their own personal happenings, she chose the tattoo her face, that's what she chose. You chose to do whatever you did that's on you. Went on to be in couple more abusive relationships, but I most definitely don't have any hatred for men though.

[@Jason.cbr1000rr]

Shiit so all these crazy hair dye colours on girls/women these days mean that?? Oh and do you still hate men

[@lorece94]

She seems so genuinely sweet. I hope she can get help with her depression.

[@carmenbrown3437]

I think she's dealing with it on her own.

[@Pixxy8Mongo]

@@carmenbrown3437 That always works... Trying to change whats on the inside with what you have on the outside is always so very temporary.

[@JustIdeas000]

She is so totally messed up and confused. She is afraid of monsters, but she has made herself into a monster. She doesn’t want people to judge her, but she judges others. She had a “wonderful childhood” but unpacking her story demonstrates that she had an incredibly dysfunctional childhood and adolescence. She says she doesn’t want to look like what her ex boyfriend wanted her to look like, but she is still caught up in his manipulations with her choices of body modifications to look different to what he demanded that she looked like. She wants to be in a healthy relationship, but she keeps choosing toxic boyfriends. She doesn’t want to have a conventional job, but she hates how being a prostitute makes her feel (fact: she’s a prostitute because she sells her body for sex). She says she is choosing to make explicit videos, but she hates the pressure of making them. She says she loves herself, but she wants to destroy her natural body features. Her poor choices have led to her problems with depression and anxiety.

[@scarletttommy5313]

exactly full of contradictory statements

[@TheInfamousBertman]

Yep, massive cognitive dissonance on display. A really bad sign. Her life will be a disaster.

[@InteractiveIdea]

She doesn't want to be judged, but judging happens automatically. People assume and judge all the time. That's in our human nature.

[@dontheador6649]

I think this woman is one of the most honest, compassionate, and downright real people that are so rare nowadays. I wish her the best, and respect her leading by example

[@cristianhcm1914]

Really... you need to get out more bro.

[@dontheador6649]

@@cristianhcm1914 So since you don't agree with my perspective, then I need to get out? Classic Internet. You win a can of Coke!

[@Alex-tw8nb]

@@dontheador6649 stfu don your the reason people get slapped across the face but keep hiding behind a keyboard 😂😂😂

[@dontheador6649]

@@mikes6216 I love how my kind comment has devolved some of you "men" into outing your own ignorance and hatred. Respecting her point of view (or mine for that matter) has nothing to do with sex or mental issues. It's always about sex and hatred to you internet incels. I AM happy to have got you talking and exposing your ignorance. I hope you got something out of my constructive criticism, because you clearly did not get that I am a kind man who can see the good in what people like you would call deviancy. Be lucky that I even took the time out of my day to defend a stance that needs no defense (mine own). 🙄

[@dontheador6649]

@@mikes6216 You do realize that everyone that commented on this video is saying what I'm saying? Read it to your son. Show him what an Alpha Male is. Clearly he's not getting that from his own father. Such hatred! 🤣🤣🤣 You're welcome! P.S. I am certainly NOT your "bro".