sometimes, i think about dying | Sundance Short Film About Depression

[@shortoftheweek]

Re-uploaded from this morning due to an audio issue! Thanks for the patience 💕

[@Liuhuayue]

The sound is a lot more clear now! :)

[@dustinsmith8341]

Is the ending messed up? It cuts her off mid sentence.

[@Liuhuayue]

@@dustinsmith8341 I think that was intentional since the original video also had that. I'm guessing it's supposed to make you think about the title and also leave you to wonder about his reaction and if things will change for her after she finally confided in someone.

[@tanrose8645]

@@dustinsmith8341 Intentional... She's going to tell him about her 'death thoughts', I think~

[@nadnnares]

thankyou for re-uploading short film. this is so great

[@pabiwabi08]

I love how patient robert is to her. Present but not insistent and not rushing her, giving her space to breathe. Seeing through her. Some of us need a Robert.

[@shortoftheweek]

100% and yet we were on pins and needles the whole time worrying that Robert would prove to be none of these things

[@pabiwabi08]

@@shortoftheweek I guess we should start trusting through the pain then. 🌼

[@tania_siebzehn]

yes

[@ahmeduzair9999]

you will definitely friendzone robert

[@pabiwabi08]

@@ahmeduzair9999 Def No, but aren't you a ball of happiness. Who hurt you?

[@rebeccagreen7241]

I forgot that she was an actor playing lines written for her by someone else. The writing and acting is that good! Hair, costumes, camerawork, editing... everything so good. Wish I could watch another hour and a half

[@katywm]

Well... it might've helped that she was a writer on the film! Thanks for the kind words! We had a heck of a team, from Matthew Pothier (DP) to Stephanie Kaznocha (editor) and everyone in between. PS - The feature is in the works so you'll get your wish!

[@anny5536]

@@katywm Amazing piece! Really, thanks for that.

[@rebeccagreen7241]

@@katywm I imagine that DID help but it's proof of more talent, not less :-). I'm excited to hear a feature film is in the works!! My wishes don't normally come true that fast!

[@katywm]

@@rebeccagreen7241

[@katywm]

@@anny5536 thank you :)

[@fvs3189]

People dont want me around when im that quiet. She is lucky

[@umm--__--]

FV S I want to find a woman I can be quiet with. I dream about sitting and reading in each other’s presence. I want to listen to the world with her. I want to become invisible with her. I just want her. Her. Her. Okay, it’s time for me to go to sleep now. I hope Morpheus brings her to me tonight, unencumbered by his brothers Phobetor and Phantasos.

[@fvs3189]

umm • _ oh wow your words made me feel very hopeful.that maybe one day i will find someone like you. Thats nice. Habaha im sure Morpheus will bring her to you .

[@evanantonola4935]

Sometimes people dont really want you. When you are quiet people just find it hard to know what is going on inside you. Sometimes they feel you dont want them to talk with you. Sometimes they have other problems to deal with themselves. It is not really about you. I like being alone and quiet. But sometimes you need to break that silence from time to time. Just find things that interest you, like art or sports, and meet people with the same interest. Be happy being you. Embrace it. With all your imperfections. Love yourself. At the end of the day, the most important talk is the one you do with yourself. :)

[@atpcliff]

Most introverts are with an extrovert. I think that is the most common type of couple. My parents were BOTH introverts, which NEVER happens (1 out of 2000 families in the US have two adult introverts heading the family).

[@ellapok1357]

Being introverted is a life of thinking about how much easier it would be to be extroverted

[@rabekkijeanate]

If someone told me that they wanted to spend their birthday (or any day honestly) with me I'd cry too...

[@MeghaTRONProductions]

The way she interacts with the world around her is so painfully awkward and relatable at the same time. I giggled, I was stressed, I cried, I felt so many other emotions all at once like holy crap this is really good stuff right here. Not to mention the ending was both abrupt, but satisfying because we knew what we needed to know and it felt complete

[@adamchisum2150]

Exactly. It is the story of someone getting close enough to someone to share that thought.

[@spastikps4916]

Sadly, I really relate to her. I don't think other people understand how lonely one can be, even while surrounded by others. I feel like I am simply biding time until I die and that nothing that happens between now and that moment will matter. So, I wait. Depression is like a drug you're addicted to and can't quit. Only with depression, the drug is in your head and there is no treatment...there is no escape.

[@emilyspy9938]

Spastik PS4 😔

[@maggiestg]

OMG same here!!!!! I just can’t figure out what’s the point….

[@angelicacruz5971]

There’s escape in Jesus!

[@spastikps4916]

@@angelicacruz5971 Yea...I don't believe in fairy tales sweetie. There is no god. Not like the ones anyone on this planet follows.

[@tillytill07]

You are important. You are amazing and you belong. Just breath.

[@Oshin_Life]

In the end, she decides to open up. I'm so happy she is not isolating herself.

[@SLR_96]

When she said "say something" it got me so bad... I truly felt that part

[@star-_]

Yes, where is the sequel, I want to know what she said😤

[@mariea82]

“What do you do apart from work?” “I don’t really do anything” this is me 😭

[@za761]

yup me too. so me

[@jessiequinton9974]

Lmaoo I truly despise that question

[@ChelseaLupkin]

This is one of those painfully awkward films that both give me anxiety and joy! I loved how this story unfolded and I couldn't help but laugh at the attempt at love!

[@Nekr0n35]

"Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind withering my intuition leaving opportunities behind" Songtext: Tool - Lateralus

[@charlottegrace6656]

One of my favourite songs of all time

[@52down]

@@charlottegrace6656 It's one of the best songs of all time

[@e_kychkina9170]

Oh no, that girl, she is so ruined inside... brilliant play, an actress made it feel so true, that her depression is almost tangible. The way she moves, the way she looks, the way she cries, everything.

[@katywm]

[@kincaiddebell2827]

“I can’t believe I’m think about thread count” I loved that line so incredibly much

[@katywm]

That line is from the play it's based on. "killers' by Kevin Armento.

[@ellemariea2620]

sorry, but what does the thread count mean?

[@beverleywithane]

@@ellemariea2620 It's the number of threads sown (both horizontal and vertically) into a bedsheet. The higher the number, the softer the sheets tend to be.

[@BrownsdragonStudios]

@@ellemariea2620 It's the number of threads in a sheet, probably measured in a square inch.

[@atpcliff]

@@ellemariea2620 Unless it's flannel sheets, the higher the thread count, the softer the fabric, and the more expensive, generally...

[@nedimgarip]

When the movie was over I felt lonely as if I was in space.

[@katywm]

We're all floating together.

[@dddila]

@@katywm we all floating down here

[@jime.5435]

Me too.

[@nikkixo6334]

I hope there’s people out there as understanding and patient as Robert with mental health

[@yourenotallrightspider]

It's so hard to attain genuine human emotion in a short. This one exceeds. So well done. "I wanted to spend it with you." "Why?" Crushing!

[@sickvision2717]

This hit me right in my system's feelings department.

[@earthavi]

i love everything about this honestly. the actress is fantastic, the minimal facial expressions and tense muscles are such great depictions for what depression and social anxiety feels and looks like. her inner monologue as well, unsettlingly accurate. and i love that the ending isn’t necessarily a happy one but still hopeful. very cool seeing judy’s as well! :) 💞

[@applesewer2684]

So interesting watching this after seeing the feature length film. I can see the true heart behind it now. So touching. I feel so much love for Katy Wright-Mead. I must've watched this short before because I found a comment of mine from 3 years ago that said, "I hate movies that cut from 4 lines of dialogue straight to sex. Is that normal in most people's world?" I feel bad now. I must not have connected as much back then.

[@mariztle]

This is beautiful but borderline creepy and cozy. I love it

[@katywm]

"creepy and cozy" is my actual favorite review.

[@Bobby1998]

How is it creepy?

This is incredible. Truly incredible. Thanks for this piece of art, i dont exagerate saying im going to remember all of my life. The editting, the dialog, de monolog, the expectation, the changes of the tone, the actress, the actress that looks to be incredible at voice acting this short, the PERFECT planes, the tempo.... Everything. Stefanie Abel Horowitz, thanks for bring this to the world and please, please keep in this world. I mean in the filmmaking world, for god sakes jaja. Fuck i hope you have more work, im going to search it now. Ill take this short as reference, its really.... beautifull. Thanks again.

[@katywm]

This was only Stef's second film! She had just transitioned from theater the year it was made. But there will be more to come! She's a natural!

[@user-sw4qd2up2s]

I understand what's it's like to be shy and socially awkward. This film captures that brilliantly. It also shows that sometimes there IS a person out there for us that sees what others overlook. Robert was very sweet and kind. I was so happy they found eachother.

[@plutonis6562]

Only now am I discovering this film, but it's quite relatable. Having battled depression myself, what Fran thinks about, and how she thinks about them, are similar to how I've felt in the past. The overall awkwardness is also familiar. I applaud the team for showing depression in such a candid and raw manner, as it's not often that I see films tackle this subject with the kind of honesty displayed here, particularly the part where she breaks down into tears at the end at the realization that, yes, someone actually cares about her and wants to be with her despite how she sees herself. This hits close to home and is so well acted, staged, and presented. My compliments to all of the crew and cast.

[@patrician8822]

Every detail of this was great, even the way she talks and how shy she sounds. Thank you for thiss

[@AutieTeleDexBaBrBo]

I'm unsure about rewatching this again, because I watched this at Drunken Film Festival in Bradford, but I enjoyed the film. It felt absolutely awful to watch, as it feels like watching the same mood I often have.

[@djokerdevil]

Jim Sarbh is phenomenal here. Proud Indian Moment.

[@ellemariea2620]

the asmr of this video is unreal i love it

[@Pandaboomina]

The song in the background goes , “I’m alone, I’m alone, just like you”

[@Liuhuayue]

Head canon: Fran Bow, all grown up into a morbid, depressed adult after her traumatizing childhood.

[@shortoftheweek]

🤔

[@deleahperry2284]

I love this theory

[@victoriarabanal]

I can relate to this so much, it's really good. Real anxiety sounds exactly her thoughts.

[@EggnogonthebogProductions]

We have all had that feeling of wanting to die...but sometimes...

[@jukx5892]

I love it so much! Have watched it 5 times already since the first upload.

[@argtv100]

oh boy ...

[@shortoftheweek]

Wow! Only 4 times for us

[@Mr_Xzanders]

This short is Oscar worthy....i'm writting it NOW, this short will win the Academy Award for Best Live Action Short Film!

[@arnie_soup]

I love her voice so much- it reminds me of the narration in What Remains Of Edith Finch

[@wierd_fishez]

god. i wish everyone was just like robert. may we all find our roberts

[@goutamsarkar5288]

It's so great to see Jim Sarbh shine in these roles that are subtle yet he gets to bring so much of himself sadly in Bollywood he is not appreciated enough.

[@reginacaldwell1300]

This was a good film. Relatable with people with depression and anxiety who often times overthink on another level.

[@tracy1765]

Both of them are a lot alike, a touching and real story both are amazing actors

[@JazWho-hg2zh]

The ending is genius. True human connections are the most beautiful and healing thing. And it's becoming more and more rare because everyone is depressed.

[@HeavenlySunset24]

I think about it everyday, every other thought, sometimes one right after the other. All I need is one person to show me this kind of care.

[@berkeskaya]

The made-up movie they see, Little Luxuries, is significant. The name refers to precious things that make life worth to live, but go unseen as they're little. Their size also pails in comparison to Fran's cosmic despair when she thinks of the universe, the world, her house and her self. Fran doesn't like Little Luxuries. In fact, "she didn't really think anything about that movie", because all these so-called little luxuries mean nothing to Fran in her current suicidal mindset. She apologizes for not liking it, and Robert reacts like it's unnecessary. That foreshadows how Robert will be understanding of Fran's dark thoughts and feelings. Then Robert thanks Fran for "not walking out", metaphorically for not walking out of life by suicide. Of course characters aren't aware of these, it's the writer's marks. Then, after sleeping with Robert, Fran starts thinking more about little things: His fingers, his lips, his smell, his sheets. She's even curious about his sheets' thread count, something as little as possible, and something that makes her feel alive and cheerful. Then during their vacation, she says she came to like the movie more and more, while Robert says he didn't think much about it. Robert and Fran are in a similar place. He understands her, even if he doesn't think about dying. When they first meet, Fran feels nervous with Robert, but at the end, she's comfortable enough to open up about

[@GeneRuthDayawon]

I felt like Im watching my own story. Weird

[@andreiangel8345]

Me too

[@davidortiz3094]

Interesting how so many can relate. Including I.

[@drgamerstat66]

Apart from the death ideas...she is me,,her thoughts , awkwardness everything..goshh!!

[@imagineer99]

Such a deftly constructed short. Hard to pull off this sort of subtle filmmaking in such a compelling way."

[@megxx4699]

I saw it just once but I think in a really brief amount of time it can well represent how depression can affect a person's life. With very little dialogue but great use of photography and light the director does a very good job, representing depression in young people in a delicate way. Defenetely worth seeing.

[@sarahw103]

What I *LOVE* is, even though I started by thinking I personally do not like this portrayal of depression since I did not feel like it was accurate, I WAS THEN able to see and read that so many people are resonating with it!! Which is fantastic! So to me, this is a great example of how we all can experience depression/anxiety differently, and that art/cinema/film/storytelling can be such a great look into a world we don’t know or a great way to view an experience/emotion/illness/symptom/and more with different eyes. Congrats on being a shortlist nominee for the Oscars too!! 😊😊

[@vision1visuals983]

WOW! So dope! I love it. I love how she allowed herself to let go just a little bit to live in the now and not her detrimental comfort.

[@enzosvera]

in this version, not only is she broken, Robert is broken too. In Rachel Lambert's version, everything is more diluted, more "stylized". I like this version, which is a bit more intimate.

[@ooLevityoo]

I wish this was made into a feature-length film

[@katywm]

working on it ;)

[@AndradeFacu]

@@katywm

[@gizzy20001]

I just found out the feature length adaptation has finished shooting recently, different cast but hopefully Daisy can pull off the same broken Fran

[@Sjalabais]

Equal parts depressing and uplifting. Weird one that will be hard to forget...well done!

[@veerchasm1]

The Office without the documentary crew…

[@linedpaper5374]

this is truly beautiful - in form and substance. cheers to everyone involved in making it. thank you for sharing.

[@mudassirahmedi5617]

I can relate to the girl's character because I was very much like her , I got into depression and became an introvert I did find a girl I really loved after that but the awkwardness in me led to the failure of our relationship. I never found someone who could understand what I was going through

[@avigaile2243]

Great shot film, really good depiction of depression and anxiety. It's slightly comforting to know that I don't have it as bad as it can get

[@northernhighlandmist1478]

Wow that was really PAINFUL to watch - in a good way! Great acting on both actors!

[@sshhayne]

Thank you for this, lovely

[@elnavandermerwe5098]

oh, this is such a clever and tender film. thank you

[@KelvinWKiger]

What an actress!..

[@noctumnocturnal]

I adore that hes more open over texting and that they both are. Im the same way. Its always easier to be up front through a device ig

[@ektameshram2369]

Jim Sarbh is pure bliss. ❤️

[@srishti408]

i like how jim is not doing an accent. great job done man!

[@mohdrahat9417]

There's a lot more things to admire about him.He's a gem.

[@wooderdsaunders6801]

Very good . An insight to depresson. Maybe make a companion movie, within his mind in most of the same scenes.

[@katywm]

Oooh I don't hate that idea :)

[@madyodell.9542]

@@katywm puli u yo yuyohh huh p

[@sassynana5201]

Wow! Great acting. I want to hug Fran until she relaxes into herself.

[@annyeongdramaloversfromNE3]

I have felt that "say something...." a lot of time in my life.

[@carolinar.a.7425]

Just WOW! The interpretations are amazing, at some point in my adolescence I was her. Very impressive how translates this kind of state of mind and feelings in a film.

[@keamorshed]

Amazing acting, writing and directing. As a filmmaker myself this gives me a lot of inspiration 👍

[@morgansalzburg3934]

agreed

[@hippytrippy1254]

Being anxious and depressed ➕ introverted . I always think about dying

[@Ines-cf6tb]

I wanted to watch this short film for a while but I was afraid I would relate to the main character too much and that made me anxious. Sometimes it's hard for me to beat anxiety, but I'm glad that I pushed back that feeling and decided to watch it because it made me feel understood and not alone. Fighting depression is not easy, but we have to believe that is worth at the end of the day, and this short film made me believe, it gave me hope that life can be beautiful again. Damn, now I'm crying again but for now it's happy tears. Thank you so much for this.

[@piyushsagar2970]

How r u , now?

[@saf7876]

this movie feels like how the last 3 months have felt like. ive been in a terrible depressive episode and i find it so difficult to engage w others and even reply to them whenever they talk to me. but at the same time there was this girl that was interested in me which i kept pushing away thinking that id deal w her after i got a little btter from my episode, which of course never happened cuz things only keep getting worse. theres no point to this story. it just goes to show that things dont really happen like in this short unfortunately. when you have depression its easy to ruin a lot of good things for yourself without even realising. then the bad things just keep piling up and its like youre buried underneath all of the things you hate abt yourself and cant seem to get on the surface. ppl dont really care fore you when you have depression especially if your depression makes you kinda quiet. they take ur unwillingness to talk and engage w them so personally like im over here trying not to kill myself chill lol👹

[@exxology1]

This is giving me “I’m thinking about ending things” vibes!!

[@noelpaganotti]

Amazing film! I had the chance of seeing it play in sundance! And I remember it made me want to go out and make a film! I am still inspired until today about this short film, and remember seeing the two main actors and the director standing right there at the front. If I'm not wrong they said this is a proof of concept for a bigger film. I hope they got it, but all I know is that this film taught me and showed me what an amazing short film is, and I now got short film going around in festivals!

[@veerchasm1]

Putting periods at the ends of texts…that’s like a movie using a 555 phone number

[@dguceleste]

Wonderful direction. Perfectly remember me a very bad period of my life

[@shivanisathish1994]

The actor who plays Robert is Jim Sarbh, an Indian actor :)

[@nirsh1000]

Thank you for showing to world, the people like us , I guess...!🥺

[@jeniffermichael00]

If you can't find a Robert, be a Robert to others

[@earthgrazer5511]

This is one of my favorite shirts now. Everything was so good.

[@AnkitYadav-xq2pj]

Thank u so much for your channel I think myself as lucky that i found your channel

[@ash155]

This movie is just beautiful ✨

[@devyanishinde3749]

i feel you girl.. i feel you..

[@MrJanos]

So good movie, this topic is good to show and make people think about relating to others.

[@zachjansen4112]

Congrats on making the Oscar shortlist!

[@korvusmangata9007]

I've lost all my pride I've been to paradise and out the other side With no one to guide me Torn apart by a fire wheel inside me An untouched diamond that's golden and brilliant without illumination Your mouth is constellation the stars are in your eyes I'll take a spaceship and try and go and find you Strike me with you lightning bring me down and burry me with ashes I won't hurt you

[@pipopipo6477]

Every shy, lonely and depressed person should have a Robert in their life.

[@mariahanczewska8109]

Her thoughts "does he want to kill me?", "does he know how much I want to be killed?" hit me. I want someone to kill me too, because I don't have the guts to do it myself. Yeah, I know- I'm attention w*ore, coward, hysteric... I know, I know...

[@See-if_I_care]

AT least the life policies pays out if you don't do it yourself 🤷

[@camilamr]

such a gentle hug

[@Williamb612]

I met a girl once at a midnight party in the woods…she just watched it all from behind a tree on the periphery. I kept watching her watching the fire and people and me…the dancing flickering shadows on her face. I came over to her and asked if she would like to talk for a bit…she took me to her old car on the edge of the field and opened the door. Her car was filled with old books, of all shapes and sizes and colors and thicknesses, every nook and cranny was filled with words and dust. We never spoke, yet I have never felt closer to anyone since, in that tonight of flickering shadows and books.

[@atpcliff]

If it's not flannel, thread count is THE most important thing.

[@TrueCharecter]

So happy to see Michigan made films on here!!!

[@thadicktater6832]

Easy there, buttercup. It gets better, just hang in there.

[@tanrose8645]

Well done!👏👏👏🌹 (I MISSED this one as it was uploaded just after my late mother's birthday (1st one after her passing last year) and I battle depression (& anxiety), sooo...) Very well made short did a great job expressing this 'depression'~ Stay 'safe' & be well, everyone! Blessed be~🌙

[@lenore.delore]

Thank you for making this film. You don't know what it means to me

[@sahilhussain2508]

Every night I pray to die ASAP.... I can't bear this pain anymore...

[@arig5783]

the only thing I can think is gosh dang that was harsh.

[@iks9120]

Very, very good. Great actors.

[@spookyel]

I'm a depressed girl and i want a boy that came to my life just like this film :(

[@See-if_I_care]

Or maybe you just need professional help because a boy will ruin your life and make you even more depressed

[@shirokova]

Same, but I'm too ugly for that :(

[@dikichomu]

Jim Sarbh!❤

[@atpcliff]

If you're not sure what to say, or don't want to say: Touch, hold hands, sit touching each other, hug, cuddle, or more, if you are feeling brave. When you combine your electrical and non-physical energies with someone else, it is very nice.

[@isabelle2094]

jim sarbh is simply amazing

[@aur-2001]

I forgot for a moment that this was recorder, scripted etc. Felt very real