Catalyst - An Eating Disorder Short Film

[@cognitiveplayground79]

"You don't know what someone is struggling with based on their weight!" preach

[@instant_dweeb1396]

PppppprrrrrreeeeeAAAAAACCCCCCHHHHH!!!! also u cant assume someone's health based on their body type

[@Hi-gg8rp]

I agree

[@AngelicasRecovery]

💯

[@graqews]

🙌🙌

[@useroffline9999]

fxrnweh _ 🙏

[@rivers0ng]

The girl who plays Sam is an amazing actress, the way she was close to crying and broke down, so realistic

[@lalamouse77]

she's actually playing herself!

[@idioyjohnathon2054]

@@lalamouse77 woah

[@gr3yb4lls]

Phoebe Batchelor it’s realistic because the actor has been through and might still be dealing with anorexia.

[@69dawg]

agreed, also, if it's you on your pfp i just wanted to say that ur vv pretty

[@alexdelgado6342]

True

[@trinxxx3480]

“Don’t mind her she’s detoxing” _pulls up middle finger_

[@Bleach-sh3ud]

Trin Xxx thats funny

[@jessiebear6080]

Trin Xxx I laughed at that!

[@phil_aziraphale]

It was so funny!

[@GUROBOY..]

Trin Xxx lol

[@sulbamt7622]

Lmao

[@they_envyem]

Christine was so nice, I thrive to be like her, the way she said "You don't know what someone is struggling with just based on their weight!" It was so sweet.

[@themaccabees2219]

yeah she was understanding and helpful. the others were a bit pushy

[@they_envyem]

@@themaccabees2219 I agree 100%

[@atticusgrace277]

Christine is a lovely person!

[@lightlylemony]

@@themaccabees2219 besides rachel

[@jules6735]

Sarah seemed the most pushy, Christine and Rachel seemed nice enough, and Grace didn’t get enough screen time for me to get a clear view of her character, so...

[@kynslieb1306]

I wish Binge Eating Disorder was addressed as much as anorexia and bulimia.

[@camtheunicorpse2217]

Kynslie Burke same! It’s just oh ur fat u eat too much loose some weight go on a diet like wtf no it’s another unhealthy eating disorder

[@skrittle555]

@@camtheunicorpse2217 exactly! i mean i've been on both ends of the spectrum, and it's either "just eat a burger!!!!1!1" or "just stop eating so many burgers!!1!11" like........ wow, thanks. i never thought of that. i'm cured. lol

[@caitnewbold1676]

~ this!!

[@tachthechatgoblin]

It is in to the bone

[@emilycowie7630]

and ednos, that one is never addressed

[@LaurenJewel]

and im glad they have someone thicker in this film because not everyone who struggles with eating disorders are skinny. this is great representation thank you for not making me feel alone

[@wbanis8844]

Hey, if you're struggling seek help, any size is a good size

[@rawansamy7852]

Stay strong 💞

[@cheetahtfk7274]

Same here, you aren't alone. I eat at the most one meal a day and yet I'm still overweight. My disorder keeps telling me that I've got weight to lose so starving myself isn't unhealthy. My weight is also why I've struggled so much work getting help cause I keep feeling like no one will believe me.

[@reneet-schei1779]

You're not alone luv. Just.....Don't listen to that little voice in your head no matter how silent it gets don't listen. Take your favorite movie or book and add onto it. Make your own character into the mix and how each of those other characters would react to them. Look at other people that may have more weight than you and see that you're not as hard on them as you are on yourself. Look at your body as if it has someone else's head on it. Don't look at your face in the mirror.

[@shay5518]

Me too. Me too.

[@youboring4219]

They did such a good Job of making the viewer feel how overwhelmed she felt. That dinner table scene was so stressful

[@danielamarenco6626]

youboring i started crying lol

[@_saphrogy_9623]

Honestly I really wanted to hug her. It's obvious that eating is a very tough thing for her, so she's already stressed. Those other girls definitely overwhelmed her.

[@buttholesadness5239]

Anna Lialine especially that annoying one

[@warthogvolgs29]

Jesus loves you pray to god!

[@chantelmemeow4459]

Bruh 😩

[@melaniereyes5152]

I’m not anorexic but this triggered a feeling I didn’t know existed

[@kayleigharnold]

Welcome

[@lunasArtJourney]

Im sorry

[@digitaldevil1345]

pls leave

[@ieatworms7919]

digital devil Why would they?

[@laurenring9721]

Same

[@melissaguillory6483]

You know its bad when you start watching these again

[@lifeisntfair4735]

Nicole Hopkins Totally

[@tch.hairband3178]

I literally haven't watched these for over a year and now I'm back so like... Oops

[@melissaguillory6483]

Life isn't Fair for sure

[@melissaguillory6483]

Still.Got.No.Jams oh noo don’t be relapsing. It’s no good

[@tch.hairband3178]

@@melissaguillory6483 thanks x I think I'll be fine :))

[@sungoddess9110]

the dark circles under their eyes are actually realistic, i remember when i had an extreme eating disorder, i was eating 400 calories a day at most, i had circles under my eyes that were literally black

[@bella-mccord]

it's so hard for me to tell if mine are because of my anorexia, my insomnia, or smudged makeup lol... years of it all has made it hard to tell this point..

[@bobabubbletea7141]

Same.

[@dominiq4771]

@@sophiebach2834 don't be so mean to them.... probably you're right about the part where you said they know that's not healthy but maybe that's enough to give this person enough energy for a day so.... and telling someone who has a fucking eating disorder, probably already hate themselves and torture their body and mind that they're fucked up (yes you said that about their eating habits but it usually doesn't matter what specifically you say it about, they're just gonna take it personally. they're gonna hear it they're fucked which is obviously not true) is the absolute WORST thing you could do to them. and i know that i can't be sure they have an ed.... but you assumed they do. you talked this way to a person who you think has an eating disorder and that's fucking mean i am not saying you're an asshole or anything just stop this because this could really hurt somebody....

[@jasminhirzel4425]

@@midnightstar7432 dude wtf what are you trying to do? Get someone to tell you how bad your eating habits are? Trigger someone? You know exactly what kind of people are in the comments so please don't say stuff like that

[@sophiebach2834]

@@dominiq4771 i just cant deal with people trying to get attention by saying such triggering things, without caring about how it affects others. I know that especially restrictive eating disorders make you seek validation, but before posting something you should make sure youre not triggering anyone on porpuse. Yeah i said their eating habits are fucked up. Thats exactly what i said. Even if you hate yourself you can read this sentence correctly. I wasnt insulting them, i was just angry at them for saying such triggering things, downplaying extremely disordered behaviour. I dont want anyone to read their comment and think thats normal.

[@astermorgue]

bro i cried when she said “today’s my birthday”

[@shaln.6355]

@@ivegonegaga4190 that's not rad. but I hope you're doing better x

[@jackimiller8511]

My first thought- What a wonderful day to start getting well!

[@pearl92391]

Same

[@loveluna777]

@@ivegonegaga4190 I got admitted on my birthday too:/

[@urvtubergf]

saaaaaamee

[@venusmoon8645]

Dude the dinner scene was so stressful, I started having a panic attack

[@kyrae6573]

I thought I was the only one... You're not alone

[@toosei4296]

same here, jfc it was so anxiety inducing

[@beep.boopwall]

I hated how loud it was and stuff

[@kei886]

I think thats the point! It shows just how stressful and overwhelmed shes feeling!

[@k0d455]

i skimmed thru it because holy fucking shit ur right

[@letsnotdothat975]

I love that edgy girl. "How about ways to die with a hacksaw"

[@bente2090]

Addie that would be me

[@misitubun]

😂

[@instant_dweeb1396]

Ikr!! Actual mood!

[@misitubun]

Same 😂

[@yaboirichard6175]

@@misitubun hey man, are you okay, do you need someone to talk to? i'm here for you.

[@lilymae5662]

The dark circles are ment to show the difference between a healthy and a unhealthy person just enjoy the film

[@bobabubbletea7141]

But it is true. When I was really anorexic, I had dark circles under my eyes.

[@rhiannawehrman5362]

ninki minjaj same

[@alliebourke1769]

Some people dont

[@Baby_Belle777]

*meant

[@whales2983]

those dark circles are actually realistic. it's not a metaphor.

[@ababy6074]

I love the girl who played the one with the hoodie. She's incredible.

[@quinnbenson6955]

She’s a whole mood

[@Eyadxxt]

she is chill af

[@Ricky_Cullen]

The actresses name is Michaela Kahan. Her character is a mood. Love it!

[@tity2071]

Rachel, I think

[@wowie1122]

Ya I know

[@audreyburt2476]

This short film means a lot to me. I used to eat snacks every minute, but the thing that broke me was : "You're eating again?" People should be more careful with what they say, because you never know how it will affect someone.

[@leilani6214]

I tried to recover and succided everyone was saying I eat too much after my ed and saying you're eating again and that brought me back also my depression and anxiety and everything else now they keep forcing me to eat

[@idek5105]

@@leilani6214 fuck, how are you doing now?

[@alternifeind15]

I hope you're ok love. I relate to this a lot. Through the entire film all I could see was this picture I have from when I was sick. Everyone would applaud me for losing weight, no one cared that I lost so much in only a few months. That they never saw me eating, that I would keep a pen in my bathroom for purging, that I would often sneak off to do drugs or drink. All anyone could see was that I was no longer fat. I was grey, I looked tired and run down. But no one cared bc the fat girl was finally no longer fat. I almost died. If you're still struggling I will not lie to you and say it goes away. I still lapse with purging every so often, I try to eat at least 2 snacks and 1 full meal a day. There will be hard days but if you keep at it then it will get better.

[@wonderbookk]

i hope youre doing ok now (also love the tubbo pfp) :D

[@audreyburt2476]

@@wonderbookk thank you! I hope that everyone in this reply section is doing better right now :]

[@lydiareese]

no on e cares but im telling this anyways. when I had Binge Eating Disorder, people said "Stop eating so much!" so I became anorexic, and then people would say "Go eat!" which one is it? HUH?

[@ChevereJones]

Lydia_Vlogs same

[@aaliya5698]

Middle ground honey. Nothing is good in deficit or excess.

[@jessimarie4413]

Same

[@iz7030]

I'm so sorry. I've suffered with ED and they aren't easy.. I hope you're doing okay now.. don't let people get to your head. keep trying, and there will be something good in the future waiting for you. God bless you..

[@cdsdior7208]

I gained weight when I left school. My family called me fat all the time. I randomly lost it a few years later and now they ask if I eat 🤣 🤦‍♀️ My picture is from when I was big.

[@musicbysatine]

“Because you know you’ll die?” That one hit me hard. This film so so so real. I don’t know what else to say.

[@meadowsweetstudios444]

I understand her but I wish I didn’t tbh.

[@gabrielalehmiller]

The loud girl freaks me out

[@miisty22]

Then I must freak u out-

[@rebecca4510]

she triggered so many things in me

[@ang3l929]

Same lol

[@corniss]

Yes. She needs kicked out for being so annoying.

[@someonerandom5634]

Blue Rivers breathe...this is just an opinion on a character in a film. It wasn't meant to be offensive to anyone.

[@pandorifics7196]

Ngl gonna I wish they had boys in films like these I myself have been anorexic bulimic and had a binge eating disorder that shows well everyone can have one and it's not just a girl thing

[@littlesoldiersystem8320]

Amen to this when I was in the psych ward for anorexia one of my best friends in their was a boy in there for Anorexia- men suffer w itt too

[@early.autumn.summer]

Yeah I wish there was more representation of guys and POC when it comes to Ed stuff :/

[@ghoulbug]

there's a book I read called a trick of the light. it features a guy struggling with an Ed. I'd recommend it!

[@raithiainbreaker4999]

“Pretty little things” on Netflix has a male character with anorexia. I haven’t watched it yet so I don’t know if it’s good representation tho.

[@wade9352]

ana guy here. we do exist, just aren’t talked about as often.

[@shookashecc5586]

"What have you been in? Anything I've seen?" "Well she isn't a baseball player, so" "Yeah well your mom isn't a baseball player-"

[@AlixxAnarchyy]

I died at that bit !

[@GnomeOverlord4372]

lmao

[@bri9658]

I didn’t get it🙈🙉🙊

[@zombicat8556]

Booty Hole it’s a lesbian joke

[@tulipo_o]

"today is my birthday" *tears enter the chat*

[@kihyunstan9171]

Felt that

[@melissaw2085]

@@kihyunstan9171 ARMY 4EVERRRRR

[@myraloveschristoph]

i cried

[@-gamer_existence-366]

That was so saddddd

[@youavictim8290]

Right ! I was gonna comment this

[@squigglyworms]

this just perfectly encapsulates how going into treatment feels...someone is laughing, someone is angry, someone is sweet and follows all the rules. the truth is they're all lovely people, and they all want each other to get better. whether it's been for ED or self harm I can always pick out those few people. being in treatment is so scary yet so beautiful at the end. nothing hits harder than "i just wanna go home."

[@blkbarbie2671]

Emily Keller did you make any friends for life in treatment?

[@lizsun261]

i wasnt inpatient for ed, but i made friends inpatient! its such an uplifting environment, you all understand each others pains (and you are able to make fun of the shit staff 😂)

[@annjv]

holy shit, this couldn't be more accurate. i was inpatient for almost 3 weeks (not for an ED) and this is exactly how it went.

[@birdy4696]

im going inpatient for the first time in a few weeks, im terrified

[@squigglyworms]

Salad Floof youre gonna do great :) i hope you find what you need in treatment, it's only scary your first day

[@pixiestick4822]

For those of you commenting about the dark eye circles. Anorexia's famous symptom is insomnia, it also portrays in this video who's not healthy.

[@user-mo7cd9jd8v]

And anemia which also causes dark circles

[@Nana-lf9hr]

“I’m anorexic” “Me too” “WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?”

[@krisha_panchal]

A lot of anorexics actually have a favorite food, but are afraid of eating it

[@sillybillygooseywoosey]

なな that actually made me annoyed -

[@MinYoongi-bv7dx]

what does anorexia mean?

[@shaynaphillips9747]

@@MinYoongi-bv7dx a eatting disorder

[@curryinahurry1746]

@@sillybillygooseywoosey Why though? I have so many favourite foods, even though I struggle with anorexia.

[@unicorngirl7535]

Do you know what i hate? When short films are soo good, and then im sad theres not a second one.

[@Fabulous-js7km]

Ikr

[@sadpuff7621]

Same

[@chocolatecookie6992]

OMG YEEESSS SAME

[@yuhyeet1017]

Unicorn girl ughhh same!!!!

[@allcrazycait4486]

Same!!!

[@portraitsalt2143]

That girl Sarah needs to chill OUTTT

[@tylermartin5148]

Right she was make me anxious

[@kookiewithsugajung-food-_-6225]

This is accurte actually, people like this do suffer like this ,she was just trying to be nice

[@Honey_pi3_forever]

well your a jackass now most people be mean so they can cuz them self harm or so no one talks to them so they be punished for something they think they did don’t call someone annoying if you don’t know they story

[@leaf111]

why is everyone hating on sarah damn. she's just energetic, she might have adhd or manic depression or something

[@Anfalmohd9]

dedd

[@jagodaz1642]

POV: the screen turned black in the end and you see reflection of you crying

[@tullipz2415]

How did you know

[@jagodaz1642]

Tullip Z magic

[@lump_king3598]

I read this as it happened thanks

[@Deadcablecorbs]

i literally saw this when i got emotional lol.

[@lilyspringgacha3110]

“I can’t do that” “Why not?” “Because-“ “Because why?” “Bec-“ “Because you know you’ll die?” That shit hits real hard...

[@mamacita278]

Same

[@cr4tt3mndt71]

@@mamacita278 Same I will give u the world

[@tulipsforwilbur1299]

TELL ME WHY I FOUND THIS FUCKING COMMENT RIGHT AS THEY WHERE SAYING IT

[@Nadia.Louise]

Yeah…

[@callmemari2689]

@@tulipsforwilbur1299 sameeee

[@Psych0t1cs]

"you look ethnic" "Jesus Christ" WHY DID I LAUGH

[@misskrr983]

Tatym Bafico same I'm like I'm gonna get struck down

[@didihirose3553]

I laughed too don't worry😂😂

[@espicorn9850]

T, the duck cuz it’s a joke?

[@caoimhe6484]

T, the duck i know its just so funny the way she says it

[@ramennoodlebabey6945]

Sarah is too loud, she's terrifying and I'd probably have an anxiety attack meeting her

[@diabeticlegend]

Spooky Stitch same, totally.

[@mangosundayyy]

Spooky Stitch IM THE ONE THOUSANDTH LIKE AYE

[@ToriC524]

Same

[@life.with.madita645]

I had one just cause I've watched it. God damn, she's so terrible.

[@Jaqabell]

Yeah shes just too much

[@captainjacksparrow200]

I watched this in 2019, thinking I’d never become an anorexic. In 2020, I became one. In 2021, I worked to regain healthy eating habits. It’s been a tough journey, but I’m here.

[@TeylaD.N]

I'm so proud of you

[@Pretty-Boy-Spencer]

Incredibly proud of you! Keep going and try your best to stay on track.

[@abigailhoward4397]

i’m so proud of you:))

[@Daysdailylife]

Omg I'm so proud of you!

[@writingisfun9842]

@John Titor Hey, people are still on this amazing film?

[@hydrogf]

can everyone stop complaining about the dark circles and just enjoy the film? they probably exaggerated it on purpose

[@briewilliams2507]

PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life chill out I don’t have to be depressing every comment I make I can say something that makes me happy

[@briewilliams2507]

PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life sis chill out the band makes me happy and I never said anything bad about this film . Did you get mad about the person who mentioned Billie Eilish ? No so calm down sis the film was good . I wanted to say army cause I wanted to idc that your mad be mad

[@imdirtytew7576]

PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life wow you must not have a life it’s a KZbin comment there a ton of comments on here where people are pointing out and saying things that barely have to do with the film stop being a jerk

[@gulcan6msp291]

how can i enjoy this its literally a girl that will at some point DIE because shes not eating

[@briewilliams2507]

《《 KittyLoaf Gacha 》》 some down there was singing her song

[@skylovenightcore3163]

Rachel is the sweetest ever. I had a Rachel when I was in treatment. I ran to my room was so depressed didn't come out all day till therapy and a girl slipped me a note telling me it would all be ok.I could overcome it.

[@jeridanray3410]

i just really wanted to say this, i can relate to your pfp😂😌

[@natalie-pz9zd]

i had a rachel too and she was the sweetest 🥰

[@pekopekoyama4945]

Is this how it’s actually like? Do they have places like this for other mental disorders?

[@theazurgirls]

@@pekopekoyama4945 I was in an inpatient facility for a month for a suicide attempt and self harm. There were other cabins for kids with anger issues and pretty much anything you could name.

[@chellyyy9716]

"you look like a michelle" "i'm samantha" i- my name's samantha michelle

[@MangoBandit567]

@@shrimpies799 👑

[@everetts2661]

That's an amazing name

[@jacintawangari7361]

Kaya Panikovski Helms not funny

[@miisty22]

Kaya Panikovski Helms uhm-

[@sugarkkyu]

amiii🥺🥺

[@alisa1955]

i actually hate the people who are like ‘stop calling urself fat, ur skinnier than me’, sometimes people do it for attention, but people can see things differently

[@xsxxnx4026]

Oh dear I say that for support to my friend because we both talk to each other about how we feel fat and I’m like “Don’t worry I don’t see you as fat and I’m way more then you” so I should try to stop that i guess

[@alisa1955]

@@xsxxnx4026 haha no thats fine since ur being nice but people get extremely mad about it

[@xsxxnx4026]

@@alisa1955 Oh mk thanks for telling me lol

[@magicalgrl2280]

my friend is 90 pounds and she’s really tiny but healthy in the 7th grade, I’m 180 pound and she complains how she’s fat. I have a binge eating disorder and it’s really hard when she says this so please take it into consideration

[@GG-vi6pv]

The problem is when they genuinely think they’re helping

[@foxcat1015]

Me: *struggling with an ed* Me: *decides to trigger myself and watch this* Edit: I've been diagnosed with AN

[@vab5798]

Same

[@Ayu20001]

same

[@salamboulon3857]

Guilty.

[@lillystanley3222]

same

[@aloauinger]

Same

[@Marie-dp8pi]

actually feeling nauseous when seeing food 100% relatable

[@andioop9914]

Do u know what that is and how u cure it??answer pls

[@Mockingjay125]

And I oop I don’t have any professional opinions and I don’t even have an ED, but I think you should talk to someone and ask about what you’re experiencing. There’s varying degrees to eating disorders and all kinds of symptoms, but feeling nauseous could be a symptom. It doesn’t automatically mean you have an ED, but think about it this way. If you look up the symptoms for depression, one of them is trouble falling or staying asleep. You might feel that way sometimes but that doesn’t mean you have depression. I think you should talk to a professional to get the full picture, and get help if you need it. Hope you’ve felt better since you replied to this comment!

[@Syncopated_]

My parents wanted to be chefs, but they never did. So they make alot of food and they always make me eat it. I dont want to, I dont think anyone cares. But I'm done.

[@exoatmospheric3670]

Soour Lemon Does their food taste good? Not that it matters but I’m curious🥕🐡

[@Syncopated_]

@@exoatmospheric3670 Yes it does lol. They can make anything from soup, to cake. They make alot of stuff, but since I made that comment ive stopped eating a bit. I'm not going to do anything drastic, but i need to stop eating so much. They also growed a garden for vegetables and fruit and stuff.

[@meadowh3834]

Sarah- You look ethnic Rachel- Jesus Christ I’m dying 😂😂😂😂😂 Edit: omg!! Thanks for the likes! ❤️❤️

[@heyitssjace]

Meadow_Wuzz HeRe Jesus Christ: thanks

[@junitajunez8416]

Hahaha ikr!!

[@januarywynter6632]

Omg I was crying with laughter

[@ericasworld6857]

Meadow_Wuzz HeRe THAT KILLED ME 🤣

[@nemiza8288]

This video is not exactly the most funny thing. It's kind of supposed to be serious

[@jessirose]

These are REALLY good actors Samantha (1st anorexic): They emotions she portrayed felt so raw. The outburst at the dinner table, the "today is my birthday" at the pool, she broke down. I felt it in her voice. Sarah (4th anorexic): She is SO annoying. Which means she played her part well! All that pep and energy. Christine (2nd bulimic): I get the vibe that she is the most level headed. Very calm vibes, yet funny. Grace (6th anorexic): Her facial expressions, tone, whole acting on point. Rachel (? anorexic): I liked her from the start. Just that sad depressed one that gives no fucks. Love it. I was surprised by the end. She opened up in a way I didn't see coming. Also, the camera crew, sound people, makeup artists, and video editors did an insanely great job. This is what makes a film feel more "professional." It flows nicely, and feels natural. 10:50 they did really good at interrupting each other, felt so natural, like what I was watching was real.

[@autumnemerald1019]

The reason why Samantha was so great in this is because it's inspired by her actual treatments. She actually DID struggle with an eating disorder.

[@tahraethestoryteller6079]

Who’s the first bulimic?

[@desireenicole3506]

If y’all hate Sarah, you’d seriously hate me too. I’m annoying af when I’m manic or anxious. I NEVER STOP

[@zichaarvoohn9982]

Me

[@sugasquizzle114]

I'm louder than Sarah is

[@LingLing-pn3us]

you must be annoying asf...

[@hopecoates8022]

Ling ling that's so rude if don't got nothing nice to say don't say it how would you feel if so calls you annoying so stop it you don't even know her/him not a thing so don't talk about don't judge a book by its cover an apologize for being rude

[@leoleyva4719]

I’m gonna be honest if that’s true I’d never be friends with you

[@gut__water9643]

me: * a former and current anorexic * also me: hey let’s watch this video even though i know it’s gonna trigger the shit out of me!

[@yaboirichard6175]

hope you're doing fine and i honestly hope that you are healthy or that you, at least, try to be

[@mariethegiraffe493]

Same here

[@princessmonkey3399]

You’ve got this ❤️

[@nexa2rich]

69 likes

[@jw-06]

me when it ends: *wanna see me do it again*

[@gracerobinson11]

Not a fan of the Dark eyes. We aren’t zombies. I developed an eating disorder when I was 13 and it lasted until I was 15. I was 14 when recovering. When I was 12, I had a dance teacher that told me I needed to be skinny and lose weight to dance. That was what set off my development. She’d weigh us every 2 weeks to see if we were under 100lbs. I was 110. (Keep in mind I was of average weight for my height.) she quit after she found out she was pregnant. When I turn 13, the P.E teacher weighed all the girls in class and yelled out the weight. She got to me, yelled my weight out and told me I needed to lose weight. And thus I stopped eating all together. My dance school got a new dance teacher, a really nice man who wanted what was best for his students. If we had a problem, we went to him. He’d listen to us. He had the best intentions for us. I didn’t think I caught his attention much because my teachers, friends and family didn’t notice my rapid weight loss. In fact my P.E teacher encouraged it. He pulled me away one day and asked what I would eat in a day. And I remember I just started bawling my eyes out. I told him everything, from the first dance teacher, to the P.E teacher an how I became paranoid of food. He got an education in dance, therapy and nutrition. After I helped him clean the dance studio, he’d sit me down in his office for half an hour and we’d talk. He helped me pick up the pieces that were torn from me for a year. Afterwards he’d buy me a smoothie and make sure I drank it and let me stay with him for an hour to make sure I didn’t throw it up. Thanks to him, I was able to gain back weight as well as not be paranoid of food. Of course the paranoia still hits me and I usually call him even though we’re in different states now as a coping tool. He helped me so much. He’s not just a dance teacher, he’s my friend and I’m forever indebted to him

[@mynamesem6601]

CrypticSprite R this is heartwarming. I’m so happy for you❤️

[@keemils3595]

This is amazing, I'm so happy that you found someone who truly cared. I hope there's more people put there like him

[@nicole.1455]

CrypticSprite R wow god bless

[@mushroom_goth5579]

Reading this made me tear up we need more people like him

[@antimarleyan5208]

how i wish that everyone in the world is like him:( and oh my gosh i'm so happy that you got better!! continue taking care of yourself❤️❤️

[@lucyg7196]

the loud girl makes me afraid to recover because I'm so terrified my personality will come back and I'll start acting like her

[@cocoabo3470]

Hey, I know this is three months ago, but people with bubbly personalities like that fill my heart with joy. It's okay to be loud and not have a filter sometimes. It's not annoying and it always brightens my day when I see someone like that around. It reminds me that it's okay to talk... people like that help me lose my filter and let my guard down. I need that sometimes, because I'm so afraid of people judging me for what comes out of my mouth. People like that make me feel like it's safe to have a conversation, even if it bounces around a lot.

[@maximilienrobespierre1794]

@@cocoabo3470 same :)

[@lozzacorn9218]

The fact that you mad this post shows that you are aware of it and you wouldn’t do it! Bubbly personalities are brilliant and can help make light of hard situations and don’t make you annoying!

[@writingisfun9842]

I hope you've recovered your personality. It's not good to have no personality. An annoying one is better than a dangerous, dull lifestyle.

[@writingisfun9842]

@@cocoabo3470 It doesn't matter that it was 3 months ago. Now it's been a year.

[@yunabean]

I would’ve loved this video but the dark circles are too much. ED sufferers are not zombies lol jeez.

[@madi1272]

sadder daze well they aren’t but I know some who have dark circles exactly like that, not all look like that but others can. They don’t all look the same, ED sufferers can be a wide variety.

[@yunabean]

Max Yes I’m aware of that. I just think it’s too overdone for one group of patients all in the same facility.

[@lucy-vw8os]

Max yeah but not that fucking big and dark

[@CH-lc8wn]

Funny this is most extreme ed patients do have deep dark sets of undereyes

[@beefbrisket8905]

Tbh I’ve seen some just like this in an IP unit but the fact that they all have them is a bit unrealistic

[@anonymousshithead7423]

The dark circles were a little much, but overall, it’s a good video

[@babhen1424]

RK AK have you ever.. seen an anorexic person at a low bmi

[@anonymousshithead7423]

Alice Liddels yes, I’ve seen multiple people actually. And a good majority of them don’t have dark circles like that

[@verdandin]

I don't have that big dark cricles even if I'm underweight

[@Anna-zp1ok]

I think it may be emphasized on purpose.

[@rennaeallen4019]

I have EDNOS.. and once it started getting bad, My skin was turning a different shade, and my eyes started getting bags.. but yes, I never to much with bags that dark.. but it can happen. 😂 I suppose 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@lovelysparkle7931]

"Why don't we play a game?" "How about ways to die with a hacksaw😂" Edit: AAAAAAAH THE MOST LIKES IVE EVER GOTTEN THX

[@kks2167]

The darkest part of my mind on bad days....

[@factualfuck922]

@@kks2167 I'm sorry. I hope you'll have less of those bad days :)

[@gordonramsayslambsauce]

@@kks2167 Me too, sometimes

[@mariethegiraffe493]

666 likes

[@gracekachima6764]

Mood

[@K.DeVille]

I’ve never suffered from ED… but I grew up in foster care and this scene is so similar to what it’s like to be constantly shipped to new group homes and almost crying from anxiety and uncertainty of what’s next for you. Some people won’t think it’s relatable but it so is.. the moment where she almost cried… very triggering. I loved this video. “I don’t belong here… I just really wanna go home.” 😢 if you run away you’ll probably be worse off because there is no home.

[@NursingAround]

It is relatable hun ❤ I could literally feel the emotion reading this. I’m so sorry.

[@taylacherry2433]

OMG this gave me so much anxiety to watch. Everyone was so loud and overwhelming

[@shrinerspark]

Tayla Cherry I was just thinking the same thing. I'd probably have bolted just to escape the chaos.

[@muggle394]

That’s the point... unfortunately in inpatient facilities or rehabilitation centers where you’re grouped together with other people, some who have been there for a long time and are used to/comfortable with the environment, there’s a lot of people who just let themselves be wild and they can be annoying or entertaining or somewhere in between. But usually the people who work there or supervise encourage that behavior because it’s better than someone being guarded and not being able to get through to them. I relate to Sam so much because when I went into inpatient I didn’t want to socialize at all.. but was terrified of being alone... and you make friends in rehab.. but when you leave you don’t keep in touch (at least I didn’t, not that I didn’t want to) and then you kinda fall back into old behaviors... it’s just a very isolating experience and it’s very overwhelming. This short portrayed going into a rehab facility and being a “newbie” so well, a little too well as I’m bawling my eyes out now haha.

[@shrinerspark]

muggle394 I've been residential myself. All I know is that NOBODY would have gotten away with talking about "ana" and "mia" and all the other pro ana type shit I was hearing here. The other reason I can understand her bolting is because she got grilled in a seriously pro-ED way the second she got there. That's absolutely awful.

[@onmyceiling]

Tayla Cherry same if i was in that situation i'd be fidgeting like crazy.

[@wakemybones]

ugh yes.... i had to turn the volume to the lightest and read the subtitles

[@eversincekels2227]

all of these comments are about the dark circles, but cmon you guys their teeth looked TOO good...

[@bon9320]

Kelsey true. they shouldve been in worse state

[@akuwolfheart6247]

There anorexic not bulimic...

[@alexispearl2795]

@@akuwolfheart6247 the lack of nutrition either way still means your teeth and other bones suffer as well.

[@akuwolfheart6247]

Lex none oh I didn’t know that....I just knew the acid from your stomach would rot your teeth

[@evasilke2945]

More about hair

[@mocachikko7078]

i'm a chubby person and sometimes i see videos based on eating disorders where the girls really lost weight and that makes me want to skip meals even more i don't know if it makes sense edit: thank y’all for the support and kind words

[@randomresidentwitch4179]

shanny please please don't you are absolutely perfect the way you are

[@msstephanie726]

I absolutely get it. It’s like you know that it’s horrible and wrong, but you think they look good, so you kind of want to in a way. I think it triggers you to want to do that.

[@veeyaur]

Same girl same

[@lizsun261]

i understand, but your struggle is valid. you deserve recovery just as much as someone at a lower weight.

[@michaela3992]

I can completely agree with that, I feel you. I grew up in a way where while I was going through puberty I gained a little more weight, and girls had the liberty to call me fat. I started restricting and restricting until everyone in my family was pressuring me to eat and I would break down. It’s so so soo hard but just know everyone that’s anorexic hate their bodies, there’s no liberty to it. I still have very toxic thoughts and have days where I eat little to nothing, and I still get a lot of pressure from others, but I’m on the road to recovery and I hope you find your way out too. I was inspired by the films where people talked about their anorexia stories, and it was a toxic loop to be in. Stay strong 🤍

[@silasalpagu7940]

“that’s how i know it’s my last time in here” “famous last words” THAT SENT ME

[@ghost.8032]

I want this to be a series

[@natashapriest5384]

Hailey Fine me too

[@ddawg3514]

Hailey Fine yess

[@user-qb5wk2pl7s]

Samee

[@bellamunoz1967]

Sameeee

[@rubyfoxed5410]

to the bone is very similar to this, it's a movie tho

[@cailynjoy8129]

I loved how this video showed how much anorexia sucks. Like, every day is HELL. And a lot of people are commenting on the dark circles, and anorexics have them because they lose the fat around their eyes and it becomes hollowed out.

[@livingforkp]

Cailyn not every anorexic person.

[@moodywrites]

Cailyn not everyone with that loses enough fat for it to be visible in the face

[@shade4851]

@@Lucia-jv9bi some people in my class do

[@shade4851]

@@Lucia-jv9bi yeah i understand but the dark circles were to symbolized how they felt in the inside

[@cai3886]

Oh! We have the same name with the same spelling, that’s never happened to me before. :0

[@kaylieisdead7050]

When I first watched this short film was a year ago and I didn’t pay attention to when she stuttered about her age but I just watched it again and when I realized at the end she said it was her birthday that’s why she stuttered about her age and I was in tears.

[@lisarae7823]

It made me burst into tears when she said it was her birthday. It is a sad, dark reality that eating disorders rob you of being able to enjoy so many special occassions.

[@ashlynnparker5809]

I started treatment for the first time on my birthday. And when I went inpatient another girl was admitted on her birthday it’s pretty common. For people to start treatment on there birthday especially when there turning 18.

[@cultureshock72]

I love the foreshadowing with how she had to catch herself when she was saying how old she is.

[@Ayesha______]

ahhhhhh I only realized it when you mentioned 😅😅

[@ameliaperez7682]

The makeup was only dramatic to show how they felt inside not to be an accurate depiction lol.

[@desireenicole3506]

amelia perez hello kittyyyy!! I’m obsessed

[@tesouik5836]

Well i have the exact same dark circles :')

[@charlieisrandom]

@@tesouik5836 Hon you are beautiful your body is beautiful and if anybody says different their lying, your soul should be what matters. And if nobody has told you this I love you.

[@shadowofthedarkness7321]

@@tesouik5836 mine are blue and they look terrible-

[@tesouik5836]

@@shadowofthedarkness7321 at least they are not grey

[@savannahh.3053]

That film was so amazing, but she was put in a center on her BIRTHDAY.

[@ajlee2168]

i was put in a psychiatry on my birthday too, shit happens

[@uncultureddog5226]

I was put in the basement. I'm still here.

[@ajlee2168]

@@uncultureddog5226 at least you have wifi skrr

[@mollyoliphant9783]

I was put in a mental hospital on my 11th birthday lol

[@elijah1227]

Aj køgan same. Twice

[@spyciorange]

i always come back to this one when it’s getting bad again.. there’s nothing light hearted about it.. it’s raw and real how it should be.. it’s comforting

[@terrorterra]

Oh my god. When I was in residential, the “obnoxious” one was named Sarah I’m dead

[@ja3zex]

Everyone having extremely dark circles on their eyes was a lil weird but I liked the acting and the characters was nice

[@heyyyitsbri2188]

Jeremiah Zaeske that’s what happens when you get really skinny

[@ja3zex]

Ana •Is My Best Friend• Not always, and even so it seemed kinda exaggerated is all. Not completely unrealistic, it was just a little offputting to me

[@earl_gay]

+Ana •Is My Best Friend• not like that it isnt 😂 speaking from experience as well, yeah shadows from exhaustion is normal but definitely not that obvious and not on everyone

[@annawang2276]

I think it's supposed to be from crying??? I mean as someone's who's had anorexia, the shadows around the eyes are accurate but I think these were supposed to represent red eyes from excessive crying or anxiety.

[@adrianacruz9222]

When you don't eat well, when you're tired and loose weight you develop eye bags. It's kind of exaggerating, but that's the point so we can identify who has anorexia and who has bulimia or another type of disorder.

[@darkdyingangel5830]

I love how they put a bigger girl in there because it more about the mind than body

[@disgusting2208]

love cosplay and usually people with bulimia is either at normal weight or owerveight.

[@adrianacruz9222]

love cosplay Yes, it also h3lps to understand that anorexia is not the only eating disorder

[@NikolinesHandtverksbu]

love cosplay yes that is so true, it dosen`t always have to be the weight, it`s much more by mind

[@DewaldLouwChannel]

love cosplay Don’t forget about Binge Eating Disorder.

[@samcu1379]

I’m bulimic and I’m overweight it sucks so much.

[@moss_yt]

The shots spinning around the table were a great choice bc it was really dizzying and nauseating and helps you feel how she feels when faced with having to eat.

[@lyepasta]

Alot of people are talking about the dark circles being too much but I think it might just be an artsy thing, or maybe a way to distinguish the ed patients and other people

[@anika8898]

i see not 1 person talking about how the makeup is bad, only comments defending it

[@Noobmaster-zo4qc]

@@anika8898 I see multiple comments talking bad about it, also they commented this 11 months ago, meaning the comments would look differently from then, to now.

[@factualfuck922]

omg hi a phannie

[@guesswhodrseuss3615]

Honestly it low-key reminded me of a Tim Burton film, I like it

[@terrorterra]

“Let’s play a game, shall we?” “How about ways to die with a hacksaw.” This girl was me omg

[@rumplerockrock7022]

You got me lol

[@eliseroland1670]

I think it is very impressive and important that there is a fuller figured girl in this scene. I have struggled with bulimia for over 20 years. I have PCOS which causes weight gain due to insulin resistance and excessive androgens, lack of estrogen. Even with Bulimia I fluctuate at 210-214. I've had doctors tell me they don't think it is a problem since I'm not underweight. 2 Doctors! Which just makes me feel like a failure at the one thing I can control in my life. So i like that this film doesn't show all thin type girls.

[@kookiewithsugajung-food-_-6225]

Screenshotted, that was amazing. 🙏🙏👏👏💓💓💓💓

[@tryingtovibe2875]

Sarah: talking about how it’s gonna be her last time inpatient bcs she wasn’t forced into it Sarah, two seconds later: *you look ethnic*

[@lucythomas9863]

that singing girl annoys me so much shes way too loud but overall i loved this

[@bohemianrhapsody4413]

No offense but I think it is shown how Sam thinks she acts. People with mental illness often feel offended by people who only want to be nice to them. So she is shown very overwhelming, how Sam sees her. Btw sorry for my bad English lol

[@Kaixcs_]

Why is spongebob commenting on this video tf?

[@corvusfunghi]

It’s intentional, cuz it’s Sam’s POV, and she sees Sarah as very annoying

[@maddiconn2030]

Love the profile picture 😂❤

[@stinkygecko1167]

Accurate tho. There was a girl almost exactly like her at my inpatient treatment.

[@kissbabette]

This is such a trigger! Just how busy that dinner table was almost gave me an anxiety attack, I hate it.

[@yungbruhh4122]

Babette Porceddu you knew it was about mental health issues and you still clicked on it

[@elliecahan4880]

Same...

[@elliecahan4880]

I have an eating disorder and such films give validation. Same for other mental illness I have. I know they can be triggering though, sometimes I need to stop mid film or not watch at all.

[@fakecore9811]

Coming from someone who also suffers from an eating disorder....what exactly were you expecting? A short film is sometimes made to express feelings, not to be someone else's safe space.

[@sunshine844]

Welcome to Chan’s kitchen the whole point was to create tension in the watcher to understand how to main character felt

[@ClosetDemon]

I'm happy they have a heavier person bc as a heavier person who struggles with eating the hardest part is not thinking i have a problem bc I'm heavier. I just eat way to much and then don't eat anything so my body probably is like "hold onto everything".

[@crystalo9489]

Jesus Loves you so much

[@Shubanator-qc4el]

I know eating disorders are so serious (I have one) and this just reminded me but I love meeting other people with ED’s and them being like “hey what’s your favorite food” or “hey what’s your least favorite food”

[@jessicaeddy8169]

I’ve been a dancer my entire life and was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 13. I vowed I would never weigh over 90lbs... now, being 5’4” even saying this now sounds absurd. Nonetheless, anorexia took over my teenage years and my life. When I was 15, it became so severe that I was forced to take leave from dance to reach a minimum health weight. One teacher pursued me during this time-she would take me out for lunch or have me over to her house and sit by my side as a I cried my way through a muffin, bowl of soup, or anything besides spinach. She was patient, gentle, yet forceful enough to remind me that this was (literally) life or death. She debriefed counseling appointments, helped me stick to my meal plan, had me over to bake and learn to enjoy food again... it took an entire year to reach weight restoration, but when I was 16 I was allowed to return to dance. Today, I’m almsot 18 and proud to say that I am weight restored and teaching dance! I haven’t stepped on a scale in months, and if/when I do, I still do blind weigh-ins. Food is simply something to fuel my body, and something tasty to be enjoyed. Eating disorders are hell, but there IS hope for recovery! You can do the impossible. Keep fighting, friends!❤️

[@charlieoakden7787]

Congrats, I hope I get to where you are one day! 👍

[@mollie-maiellmer6607]

almost* 💕

[@oopsiedaisy6096]

I was 13 as well

[@Daysdailylife]

Congratulations,I'm so proud of your recovery of anorexia,My cousin has anemia And she feels like hell sometimes but I tell her it's for her good,So I know what you've been though,because my cousin is anemic..

[@reniangel184]

The dark circles and feeding tubes are meant to represent them slowly dying.

[@kelleyannethomas5372]

Ana Angel Really?! That means that they are dying?! 😟 BTW, are all bulimics necessarily heavy? Can you be thin/slender & still have it? 🤔

[@annas.1550]

Kelley Anne Thomas Yes, it depends. Some bulimics have binge eating disorder and only purge after binging. Others purge after every time they eat. The ones with BED tend to be heavier.

[@katehills5402]

Annabella Schumacher Purging but not binging is not bulimia. That’s Anorexia binge/purge subtype.

[@fleurboisvert8816]

@@kelleyannethomas5372 Most are average weight. I am...

[@rachelsyddney]

Feeding tubes represent help. Dark circles represent the reason they need help

[@saff1257]

“no one can leave till their plate is clear” she should’ve tipped everything off the plate onto the table “now it’s clear”

[@itsmissm8459]

timotheechalamet fuckme Hahahaha i did it once!!!!!

[@lilmac5095]

penisin sideme LMAOOO

[@elliecahan4880]

Love that one! Keep it in mind for the next film or continuation of this one...I have anorexia and though triggered by the film, it was so real. It isn't always visible though and it's so hard getting comments that I don't 'look' anorexic because I'm not skeletal, though I am underweight. And I have never been to treatment because my insurance won't cover. Wish I had more support. Have a trauma therapist who is great but all the therapists I've been to have enough to address with me, there is no time to discuss much of the eating disorder and they are not specialized. And why is it that there is no residential care in N.Y. other than for alcohol or substance abuse?! I need help.

[@lizzielove9339]

I've done that before when I was 11 ....in real cases like or similar to this you end up with a new plate with portions of equal or greater value same if you drop a piece on the floor even by mistake or on purpose.

[@Barbara-il9gp]

That’s what I thought hahaha

[@ephemeral4767]

I love this short movie because of the details, it's not just a basic "she's anorexic in a treatment and it's hard as shit", but there's so much to it - the line about how you can't assume what someone's dealing with based just on their weight, how the loud girl is moving her legs under the table (to burn calories when eating), even the makeup that makes them all look realistic (have ed, dark circles under eyes are a bitch!), even how she said she's 19 to then say she's 20 which wasn't just a mistake, it was her birthday. it's just 12 minutes long but there's so much, it makes you feel how she felt, the dining room feels stresfull and it's shown in such a great way. I love this

[@caoimhe6484]

‘You look ethnic’ ‘Jesus Christ’ I should not have laughed at that but i did 2:43

[@hrbheenick6162]

I highly believe the dark circles were made too much in order to reflect their disease. This is a way to represent about how they are. And I loved how they overdo it to represent this specific group with shoows unity ❤

[@rievenson8873]

“You look ethnic” “Jesus CHRIST”

[@maesmusic4087]

Sassy Potato It actually seemed like that girl had adhd or something like that, which would make sense why she would be blurting out things like that, or tapping her foot, etc

[@katehills5402]

Mae’s Music those are symptoms of withdrawal. She’s in there for drug addiction.

[@mollybrolly3523]

@@katehills5402 also symptoms of adhd

[@wheatbreadenthusiast]

My heart goes out to anyone in recovery. My friend was in recovery for 4 months when I was 9, my mom had to explain to me what ED’s were and it was downplayed so much. Short films like these make me realize how hard it is and if you have an ED you are so strong💗💗

[@revelmao7469]

'v for vendetta' MY V IS FOR VENDETTA THOUGHT THAT I'LL FEEL BETTER BUT NOW IVE GOT A BELLYACHE

[@Dragonn6667]

I had to go down so far to find this comment lol

[@charlsw2773]

I love Billie but I also love the film so the song wasn't the first thing that came to mind 😅❤

[@DieLøwinWølf]

Billie!

[@josietriplefive]

This is exactly what I thought too!

[@leoheywood2120]

YASSSSS

[@izakopec5662]

alot of people are saying that the dark circles were a bit much, but I don't think that they were. I feel that they're more symbolic of weakness, and that creators of this film wanted to over-exaggerate them to make a statement. I think they correctly portray the sense of death that the girls are feeling, and they bring out more emotion in the viewer as well.

[@anonymous1-00]

Nobody: Not a single person: Sarah: *IM NOT DONE*

[@swesswe]

@Sofia-Cristin Panayiotou jesus CHRIST

[@gay4wayne265]

I don’t have an eating disorder but I understand how she feels. Seeing the food but not wanting to eat it despite knowing you should. The feeling of being overwhelmed by all the other people eating and looking down at your own plate and feeling disgusted with yourself for being ungrateful.

[@disgusting2208]

This was outstanding. Made me tear up a bit.

[@nohandlenotnow]

Christina same! The end was so sweet!

[@jessssssssssssd]

Christina same

[@niabell4066]

Christina a bit

[@watashiwanoodlethenownow504]

Christina ~ Same especially because I have gone through it Love your profile picture btw

[@avaann1254]

That’s what happens if you have an eating disorder for so long you get tired and weak.

[@lillithjones3787]

I NEED THIS TO BE A SERIES. IT WAS SO BRILLIANT. SO DIFFERENT. IN ONLY A FEW MINUTES YOU COULD ACTUALLY SEE DEPTH IN THE CHARACTERS!!! PLS GOD

[@ivoryeverlasting8670]

Im in eating disorder therapy and it really sucks. we aren't allowed to talk about why we are there or talk about weight, calories, ect. If we don't finish our food, It carries over to the next day or we have to drink a shake with calories, protein, and other stuff in it. But this film is very accurate

[@soggycereal882]

+poomsae rocks how did you you manage it because i’m Inpatient right now and once I get out my parents will probably monitor me and it’ll be hard to get away without eating

[@viktorijasrebrenova]

it's not healthy to lose weight like this..

[@ilana6105]

@@viktorijasrebrenova ofc it's not healthy, people with ED's already know that. it's a -mental disorder- which means it's not just a way to lose weight (it sometimes isn't about the weight but the control it gives you).

[@daisyf-c3716]

This made me cry because for once the feeling of being stuck between choosing recovery or death was actually mentioned and perfectly portrayed.

[@Javernoss]

Fuking hell this one is soo good. Lord no one deserve to have mental illness. So heartbreaking. For anyone that is fighting any of illnesses, pls keep being strong. You will win.

[@elliecahan4880]

Disturbed_Zombie You couldn't have said it better. I'd like to say the same. Thank you!

[@oforlikelalune1506]

Honestly I don't wanna recover rn. But watching these videos are nice.

[@kutiek4323]

Oforlikelalune that is exactly how I feel

[@D_skeptic]

Nobody ever does... until you emotional exhaust yourself, push your body to the absolute breaking point, and/or your disorder begins drive away the people you love most. Basically, I started to want recovery when I paused, took a look around, and realized my entire fucking world was on fire and I was burning with it. For what it's worth, I hope you do want it at some point. I'm legitimately pretty damn happy today.

[@idontwannabehere1577]

Plz recover ik it's the hardest thing ever bc I've been thru it I love u so much even tho i don't know u but u are so worthy and beautiful and skinny if u want someone to talk to I'm here okay? Just give me ur Snapchat or anything :)

[@aloauinger]

I know right

[@factualfuck922]

rightttt

[@honey-maren]

Does this remind anyone of “To the bone”

[@isobelpalk5642]

Wendy Horsfield nah ‘’To the bone’’ is better

[@honey-maren]

Isobel Palk true that true that

[@pimmelchan9370]

To the bone is an unrealistic, horrible made movie so no

[@leaf111]

i actually prefer this

[@arlyn6310]

Pimmel chan it’s not unrealistic at all.

[@anima89]

11:19 I know this scene all too well. I spent 4 of my birthdays in clinics to fight anorexia. I'm so thankful to be almost here and healthy. I wish all those who fight anorexia a lot of strength and all the best.

[@amelie2792]

i am very proud of you, and i wish you all the best!

[@PasiHatGrasi]

This is the most wholesome "family" meal i've ever witnessed haha

[@amberdevaul4282]

I love that old person (sorry idk her name) she is so caring.

[@gigi4266]

cassie.

[@denaebuchholz9831]

This is pretty much exactly how it’s like in a residential hospital for eating disorders. Save for the upbeatness of the girls. We’re all really tired and crabby all the time. Also not everyone has has tubes and NOBODY talks during mealtimes. In fact we almost always had to eat at our own tables unless we got phased up.

[@mgal6234]

Can confirm. I was inpatient ten years ago as a restrictive anorexic. Made friends with two other girls who have since died. It’s devastating. But yeah, we were always pissy and much more quiet.

[@cai3886]

God, that sounds like it would make recovery hell on earth. Wouldn’t they want to inpatient to be a little distracted while eating, just so they didn’t have to analyze every bit that went into their body. Ugh.

[@melaniegreene1197]

I had a very different experience in residential. We all talked and played games at meals, and it was definitely hard and lowkey miserable, but we all made friends and joked around and tried to make the best of a bad situation. I miss resi sometimes.

[@mgal6234]

Melanie Greene Wow, we weren’t allowed to speak during mealtimes and had to finish within a strict time frame. We all grew to love each other for sure, but the staff seemed to frown on friendships. This was in 2005, though. It was exactly like the documentary “Thin,” and I was even in Florida like they were, same year it was filmed, just a different facility. Maybe things have changed for the better.

[@melaniegreene1197]

@@mgal6234 Wow, that sounds awful. We definitely had to finish within a certain time frame (30min for meals, 15min for snacks,) but we were definitely encouraged to talk to each other and to staff. Sometimes the staff were the funniest ones at the table. I would hate having to sit in silence, and I can't really see the point of that rule. And I feel like staff would've been super concerned if they saw a patient seeming to not make any friends. We "weren't allowed" to maintain our treatment friendships once we were discharged, but everybody ignored that rule. This was in 2017 and again in 2018, in Massachusetts.

[@kendra_39]

Why do I feel like this literally doubles as a tragic lesbian love story

[@AshaSara]

HONESTLY

[@madiicantsleep]

Rachel is so fucking cool

[@writingisfun9842]

I love this idea. Continue your thought after a year.

[@user-bj6ht4ks2v]

I have been to treatment for an eating disorder and I would say this is extremely spot on. Although, I would like to see someone who has bulimia and is normal or skinny weight (and add someone who is a big bigger.) Also, the dark circles around their eyes is not what all people with eating disorders have, it can happen but that’s more of a stereotype - that you have to look sick to be sick or seen to be sick. This film is an outstanding film and should be seen more. ❤️ Specially with the ending made me real sad. I realizes that after getting out of treatment, I was so scared after months because I thought that I may not get another chance and I would be really sick to the point where everything falls apart and possibly leads to death. The only thing is that the film did trigger me a lot but I’m glad this is out there to show the reality that treatment isn’t a walk in the park 😢

[@randomwisdom5766]

Nathan L they did have someone that was bulimic

[@hyper-lux3386]

yeah the dark circles were a little much but when I was in treatment for anorexia I had dark circles

[@kissbabette]

Nathan L I have a eating disorder I hate eating in front of others, it’s so scary to me. I’m not underweight but I weigh myself every day!

[@user-tv3lr1ib2w]

Babette Porceddu weighing yourself everyday is a very toxic habit and you should try get out of it as soon as possible if you want to recover

[@kissbabette]

crying teabag it has been 2 months since I lastly saw the number on the scale, my therapist told me to stop looking at the number on the scale. But it’s so hard for me especially when my mom leaves the scale in my eyesight in the bathroom, it is such a trigger and a lot of the time I ran into my moms room crying and screaming at her that she has to trow that thing out.

[@unerklarlichwaffle4869]

I know how that feels I was in a mental hospital for my 14th birthday.

[@desireenicole3506]

unerklärlich waffle I was in a mental hospital at 14 too, for 54 days, home for a day, in another for 12 days , home for a day, in another for 20 days, transferred to another from there for 97 days, transferred to group home for 6 months, where I turned 15, transferred to another group home for a year and a half, turned 16, and while in second group home- hospitalized in same hospital as my third 3 times and once in a different hospital. Each of those four were a week and I was in crisis 10 times:( I haven’t been in a hospital or group home since October 12, 2018. I’m 17 now. Bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. haven’t cut since in 16 months besides twice, haven’t attempted suicide since July 2, 2017, take old prescriptions sometimes. Still, I feel like shit. I hope you are doing better and are more stable:) good luck and stay strong 💙 for yourself

[@yakkun4930]

I was in one for my 15th. My parents embarrassed me so bad-

[@zephyr4648]

Desiree Nicole I’m really glad you’re recovering well stay strong❤️

[@deleteforevr]

unerklärlich waffle i hope you’re doing a lot better now

[@abbyhuss7625]

Can anyone with experience in mental hospitals tell me if this is a good representation? Are they like houses like in the film?

[@avescan114]

I liked the dark makeup. It was grim and eating disorders are grim and not pretty. It made the whole film have a darker undertone.

[@valerietaylor1124]

I remember when i went to treatment the 3rd time and I hadn't had a full meal in years. I thought I was smart enough to hide food and give excuses. They kicked me out, sent me to the hospital and gave me 2 weeks to live. I had a heart attack but survived and still healing 18 years later. God is my saviour. Bless you all

[@paigeh524]

I started to cry when she said it was her birthday 😥