Life as an Autistic Teen (Autism, ADHD and Anxiety)

Ellie is diagnosed with autism, anxiety and ADHD. While all her peers are getting jobs and boyfriends, she just wants to watch kid cartoons. Ellie wishes she could be more mature, but all that stuff just seems so boring to her.
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[@sekrasoft]

A colourful person in this gray world. She must be a perfect friend for everyone.

[@snowypaw101]

Yeah most of this world is gray but I try my best to make people laugh and my parents as well and it feels great when they do laugh :D

[@Gustavo-lu4pp]

Absolutely

[@lawrup]

She going to be friend zoned a lot even by the Jock's

[@samuelaustin2972]

"A colourful person in this gray world." I couldn't have said it better myself.

[@milowalles775]

What a depressing comment, dude, go to a psychiatrist

[@Intreppidity]

I was diagnosed with autism, ADHD, and anxiety. Ellie is truly lucky to have such a supportive family, and she seems so sweet/full of life!

[@veto1087]

@@The-Arsonists_7 omg same yayyy i love these personality traits uwuu

[@Ybmtez]

Y’all are not alone love your self and every obstacle you’ve over came 💯

[@Intreppidity]

@@veto1087 they aren’t personality traits

[@Sdoddi]

Something that confuses me is that there other children who are labeled “autism”, but they don’t use verbal language .

[@Intreppidity]

@@Sdoddi it’s a spectrum. Most people only see the black and white. The autism spectrum is more of a grey area, as no one person with autism possesses the same criteria as another. Also, looks can be deceiving. Even though someone may not be verbal, it doesn’t mean that they aren’t capable of understanding language.

[@ScorpioFortuneTarot]

"I dont want to annoy people with something they dont care about". This sentence says so much.

[@Cytotokyn]

Most underrated comment!

[@latenightcake5881]

Its a good thing to think about, alot of people dont know when to stfu

[@ScorpioFortuneTarot]

@@latenightcake5881 and some of those "a lot" of people may have mental health disorders. So don't purposely be insensitive, try be nicer to others and maybe they won't have negative self thoughts like this, that do not assist in their mental well-being.

[@liminalb1rds158]

Can relate even if you don’t have any disorders

[@IGNATI]

@@ScorpioFortuneTarot everyone could have mental health issues. some of those could involve sensitivity to talking or social anxiety. ignoring others' needs can go either way.

[@abrahamdiaz3648]

My girlfriend is autistic and she's exactly like her. I adore her and I don't want to change her point of view about the life and I'm never going to press her to make anything that she don't want. We are very happy together and I couldn't imagine being with anyone else.

[@djsaintmusic7819]

I’m an autistic woman and married to my favorite neurotypical. It makes me happy to see this comment!

[@abrahamdiaz3648]

@@djsaintmusic7819 Your husband is very lucky to have you, congratulations! I wish one day to marry my beloved Krista.

[@djsaintmusic7819]

@@abrahamdiaz3648 I actually have a wife but thank you anyways!

[@PyroMoon]

@@djsaintmusic7819I have adhd lmao, but I find autistic people very cool

[@djsaintmusic7819]

@@PyroMoon on behalf of autistic people, thank you! You’re cool too!

[@SoyChaiLatte91]

I love her energy❤️ she’s so bubbly and friendly and just shines.

[@jannesfriedrichs1563]

Bubbly😁👌👍

[@devonhedinger4132]

Bubbles from Powerpuff Girls.

[@JoMcD21]

For real! He should do another interview with her. She seems like she would be absolutely _owning_ life!

[@Lobo-ig4pd]

I love her mind. Ellie is perfect girl. 🌞

[@obblestone5209]

And I am pretty sure she can raise one eyebrow! She is so cool :D

[@samsonizy]

This girl is special, special in a way where she's better than most people I have ever come across in my life.

[@parisp65]

Ditto ‼️😊👍❤🧡💛💚💙💜

[@arandomguy842]

Yes. Most people are so mean and dull whereas she's so uplifting and sweet. Having a person to always remind you of the bright side of life in their own special way must be amazing.

[@zfert1890]

i hope she's read this comment

[@colleenshaw1607]

This is why we need more autistic people just being themselves.

[@PhoenIXPhantasies]

Thanks 💜 That's what I always say when people talk down on autism. We're actually better humans than NT's.

[@eva_pruiett]

I love how open and honest she is. I wanna be her friend. She seems so relatable. “Everyone needs to lighten up. Get colorful.” -Ellie

[@rosiebaybie6245]

She’s a genius and a bean! Get this girl a KZbin channel!

[@nealmccoy5727]

She seems 100 times more aware and intelligent than most people her age.

[@SuperCybertiger]

i have the same diagnosis as her and an IQ of 137. Thats something that happens often parallel with this diagnosis.

[@sonicmaths8285]

​@@SuperCybertiger There is no correlation between (Asperger-)Autism and IQ. Those people, independent of their IQ, are just more conspicuous. Hence, people with higher IQs and those disorders are more likely to be diagnosed and tested (which is a standard procedure when diagnosing someone with something neurodivergent). People who are highly intelligent, but don't have any disorder, are less likely to be tested. I have an IQ a bit higher than that (I also have evidence, but that's not the point), but I wasn't primarily tested for my IQ, but because I have OCPD and comorbid OCD, which made be more prone to being tested and conspicuous. Just for further clarification: you generally said that intelligence and autism or linked whatsoever, which isn't true. If one takes your comment literally and out of context, then yes, a diagnosis and IQ testing go hand-in-hand.

[@Raven-pr6vd]

Amazing that you know ''most people'' and how they are and their age.

[@Hiro_515]

​@@sonicmaths8285As far as I am aware, there is currently a correlation between both fluid and crystallized intelligence with aspergers. I'm wondering where you got the info that disproves this?

[@sonicmaths8285]

@@Hiro_515 My gosh, there obviously isn’t one. Through common sense and some (proper) research you will arrive at the same conclusion. Also, you seemingly don’t understand statistics, so let’s look at that purely speculative phenomenon closer: Suppose there exists a “correlation” (mark/highlight this word), then this doesn’t mean just because you have Asperger’s you automatically are more knowledgeable and intelligent then the average person. It would just primarily show us that there exist people who also are intelligent and have Asperger’s. If otherwise, then we have the situation as I have already mentioned above. Correlation isn’t causality, which is assumed here, but this isn’t true at all. Asperger (or autism in general) doesn’t imply intelligence in the least. There exist way more Asperger-people with average IQ scores then there are otherwise. It would highly interest me where you have found your information proving this ridiculousness.

[@skyofthelivingdead]

From one autistic young woman to another: never change, Ellie. More people will appreciate you for your ability to be your truest self as you get older, and you’ll learn to read the room and pick up on social cues more. I learned that with age.

[@SyrianSoaper]

im a 38 yr old female who wasnt formally diagnosed til my 30s ive had the complete opposite experience. unless ur nonverbal everyone expects you to have that same secret file she mentioned in the beginning. people have no parience or apprecitation of people who learn differently

[@PhoenIXPhantasies]

@@SyrianSoaper It's because we're "high-functioning" so they expect way too much of us. They don't see the side we hide from the NT world. Where we get tired, sad and burned out.

[@thelastbison2241]

@@PhoenIXPhantasies Ouch. NT rational in the personality test? I think she is actually more interesting than most people but less well understood. What is so great about living your life as a cog (breeding, getting fat, and dying without understanding the world or anything; she is very creative but sadly, she doesn't have the support system to channel that creativity into something productive or meaningful besides art drawing which has no value. But, many people are overlooking her flaws because she is a thin white girl who has been groomed well. The comments would be completely different if she was an obese black teenager in the hoods.

[@skyofthelivingdead]

@@SyrianSoaper it’s a shame you’ve been treated that way. I’ve met plenty of people who appreciate it, thought not until adulthood unfortunately.

[@pimp.named.slickback3928]

where and how did you get your diagnosis?i really wanna gett tested but im afraid my parents and family wil just make fun of me nd tell me its a wste of time

[@Cristina-Ortiz]

I absolutely would have been this girl's BFF if I went to high school with her! I hope she never loses her shine. She has such a fun and bubbly personality ☺️

[@saaramohamed8921]

omg same! its true she doesnt have to change herself to be dull

[@karewchannell6033]

Me as an autistic adult wanted to be her friend so baaad

[@AlexandreG]

Why there's gotta be always these kind of people in the comments throwing around BFF sounding like charity? She probably wouldn't want to be your friend, all kids are the same and you were most likely no different of all of her school mates, stop trying to get praise on youtube comments

[@therealmarkzuckerberg]

@@evennoiz It’s not our fault and if you tell us to stop doing something that we don’t know is annoying we’ll do it

[@Nick-dx2pt]

@@AlexandreG who hurt you????? You must not have had a good childhood to be behaving this way 💀

[@gracedonnelly2571]

I'm autistic as well, and seeing her be happy and not afraid to be herself makes me filled with Joy. I've dealt with a lot of self-esteem issues and isolation from the world because of my diagnosis, but I'm slowly learning to "feel like a rainbow" again to put in Ellie's words, and videos like these help me to reach that feeling♥️

[@Hellohihey670]

You are beautiful just the way you are 🥰 Don’t be ashamed of your personality! God loves you like His own child ❤️ I’m glad the video helped you

[@gracedonnelly2571]

@@Hellohihey670 Aw thank you, that's very sweet!

[@laceandribbonsviolin]

I’m so glad! And I love your name🤗🥰

[@私は自閉症の人です]

I'm autistic as well

[@eleegee]

Omg. She’s just like me. I legit almost cried when I read the description because I was like, wow - that’s me. I’m 16 and I still play with dolls, just like she still watches cartoons. Like her, it feels like there’s something I “missed”. I’ve had the exact same experience with the girls in school doing things like smoking, getting jobs and boyfriends, and me just standing in the corner being like - did I miss something? Hope this makes sense. I don’t know. This was just such a powerful video. I feel less alone now. Thank you.

[@mrtrollnator123]

Don't smoke you'll regret it

[@LynxPlaysYT]

Smoking is a horrible life long addiction that will haunt the user, same goes with alcohol.

[@LynxPlaysYT]

⁠@azimpremji1514Agree speech therapy is very important and improved my speaking a ton but one year they left so now I slip up on some of my words and now I have an accent. When I play online games people always think I'm from another country and they always ask if I'm French or assume I'm French, I find it funny.

[@adinugroho382]

Hey im on my late 20s and still watching anime. Nothing wrong with that

[@notredamecoltsfan]

Same. I'm 19 and I'm currently watching Disney Junior

[@petitmeowmeow]

Her joy is infectious!

[@Shivayoudestroyme]

Autism isn't contagious please don't spread disinformation on this youtube channel. What's next, vaccines cause autism? Please go be a jerk elsewhere. Thanks.

[@dantaylor333]

She should have her own youtube channel, she is brilliant in front of the camera

[@rissadingram4548]

She has star quality for sure. And as far as autism goes I’d like to just show this or her to everyone I’ve hear make an ignorant comment like when a family member told me my son was “too smart” to be autistic when we had some concerns. He’s finally speaking and more than likely has sensory processing disorder and yes he’s very intelligent and just a joy to be around but I can’t stand the ignorance and misinformation. And I’m not trying to be negative but people on the spectrum are so unique and there’s so many different levels and different personalities and strengths and quite frankly they’re beautiful souls , too bad some see it as a negative reflection on them. I want to say well you’re not that smart so don’t worry no one thinks he’s getting any intelligence from you anyway 🙄🙄🙄

[@dantaylor333]

@@rissadingram4548 It reminds me of what my mum said, so many of us are on some level, we are all unique. I went for an aspergers assesment because of some sensory overload issues and my score was only 2 points below the amount needed for a diagnosis of asd, 24 when 26 is needed, but I have spent 40 years convincing the world that I am like everyone else I have got too good at it maybe. Life is a mixed bag. I am sure your son is a joy and I hope he likes being unique

[@hypnotoad28]

@@dantaylor333 I think a lot more of us are on the spectrum than most people would imagine.

[@AndreyGuild]

She does actually, its called prepareyourchairs unfortunately she doesn't really upload videos maybe she'll read these comments and do it more Or maybe she's not 18 yet so comments are disabled and she doesn't know how awesome she it

[@yepitsme1979]

@@AndreyGuild I just spoke to her and she is on board! 🤩so yay!

[@coreypetersen4407]

I love this girls entire personality. I wish everyone in the world had her attitude and positivity!

[@simonamayaprice]

as a fellow autistic individual, i deeply relate to Ellie's experience, and it's great to see people like us represented accurately on a popular youtube channel :)

[@diversitycandle5708]

This girl is absolutely beautiful. Inside and out. Never change Ellie

[@angelreilly8312]

What Chris said about once she's out of high school she'll find people who embrace her awkwardness, that's exactly what happened to me. Even though I didn't get diagnosed til I was 24, it still fits.

[@DetroitMicroSound]

She'll have crushes pestering her, night and day. She probably already does. When I was her age, I would have thought she was the cutest girl in school, and probably would have made friends with her immediately..

[@nikosucksatskating]

Same. People love talking to me now, which is a huge change from the rejection, fights and bullying that I received throughout all of elementary through high school.

[@bedhead-studio]

I got diagnosed at 26 and I still have no friends

[@nikosucksatskating]

@Alyssa Mello you could definitely try finding similar people. It's hard. But worth it.

[@bedhead-studio]

@@nikosucksatskating I'm trying

[@frankbpook9370]

Smart, intelligent, happy, funny and open. What a nice person.

[@kairu5607]

So true, she’s great!

[@cop-doc601]

Better than most people

[@CrazyPolarBear82]

I like the bubbly vibe I get from her and she is pretty which makes me think she will be fine. You aren't annoying, you are just different and trust me there are people out here in the real world(not high school) that appreciate that.

[@reyana83]

As a mum of daughters with ADHD/high functioning autism. Thank you for bringing awareness to the matter . Its a hidden disability and a lot of girls go undiagnosed.

[@yepitsme1979]

Thank you momma! That is exactly why we did it 🥰 hugs

[@flameepidemic4839]

Shes actually so pretty and has a nice voice and nice humor. Feels like my friends little sister id love to be friends with her! She seems amazing and has my energy!

[@DGneoseeker1]

Teletubbies though...

[@K-pop187]

@@DGneoseeker1don’t judge ppl. Autistic ppl are often drawn towards acting and doing younger things. It doesn’t change anything about her

[@laylajewelyanne7829]

@@DGneoseeker1 what’s wrong with that???

[@Jillickle]

@@DGneoseeker1 I love kids shows, I am a kid myself. Have you seen the 40 yr old adults liking bluey.

[@Nick-dx2pt]

@@DGneoseeker1 genuinely what's wrong with that????

[@mypersonalaccount4934]

All of the comments are saying that she is wholesome, but we can't overlook the fact that her family is wholesome too! She has very kind and supportive mother, and her younger brother is also awesome. Good self esteem starts from good family.

[@TerranceBhS]

Absolutely!

[@yepitsme1979]

Thank you! We have always let her be HER! She is the best. Everyone LOVES ELLIE!

[@oliviamatthew4516]

@@Emolga6274 Tons of amazing people come from the Moron religion. The leaders may be corrupt, but most of the followers of Mormonism are solid. :p That said, tons of geniuses are autistic leaning. Not all of them are over dopamined fireballs of psychosis.

[@jianlisa4885]

Exactly!! Her family is amazing!! ❤️

[@katerose8]

@@Emolga6274 you do know and understand the autistic spectrum correct? Maybe not? It’s a whole spectrum with so many varying levels and can be shown differently between the male and female genders. A lot of autistic people are very very bright intelligent people. You can look up famous people with autism who did or were apart or very big things.

[@mylovemachine]

She is so joyful and funny. She should have her own youtube channel to cheer us all up.

[@CovertExpertiseArtiMarziali]

To be honest, she looks and sounds like a freaking genius.

[@pripyat.sadboi8092]

she acts normal. idk is she really autistic. Shes like a 20 yr old that acts like a kid and very jolly

[@punkgrl325]

@@pripyat.sadboi8092 That's extremely common for those on the spectrum.

[@hlogilehlogonolo5438]

@@pripyat.sadboi8092 I swear if the title didn’t say she was Autistic I wouldn’t of realised

[@NAVEENCHAURASIYAA]

Nopee

[@CovertExpertiseArtiMarziali]

@Ryan Alex the way she explain things and how she confront everything with such creativity.

[@jadenyuki4117]

I came back to this to say how much I love this girl. Her and I are exactly the same in so many ways, she’s so sweet and she’s gonna be such a wonderful adult who makes the world a better place.

[@stewartmatthews1551]

Very true

[@ploopybear]

ya I was diagnosed with the exact same 3 disorders and this comment section is pretty awesome

[@legxxhunter8372]

You a girl too?

[@corpmobb4134]

@@ploopybear I genuinely wish you were my girl

[@ploopybear]

@@corpmobb4134 thanks I'm a dude sorry. also I think the having 2 brothers is a big part of it

[@KirtysCuriosities]

I'm recently diagnosed Autistic/ADHD/Anxiety/PTSD at 32 and I feel like I needed to see this video. I see so many similarities between myself and Ellie. Although I'm incredibly relieved to hear of my diagnosis (after years of guessing), I've had moments of darkness and I've lost my enthusiasm. This gives me hope that I can get that fun, enthusiastic girl back and still be a rainbow.

[@monetknight1424]

same here.

[@marisabrenner7752]

Nice to see some representation.

[@theothertonydutch]

Fight the good fight. Being aware is what a lot of people are afraid of, and many people dismiss a diagnose as a "label". But it actually helps to give a vocabulary to problems that people experience. That's why we have diagnoses. Not to label people, but to help people.

[@LaykaSnail]

Almost the same here but CPTSD, also diagnosed at 32. It is a relief to see how girls now receive the diagnosis, and therefore the correct support, at an early age. I have met other women also diagnosed with autism and ADHD + complex trauma in their thirties and our life stories are similar. A good thing is that we are not alone, you are not alone. I empathize with you from a distance and encourage you to take off your masks to be your authentic and wonderful self. I live in Lima, Peru.

[@ionfaimosiu5072]

@@LaykaSnail where did you go to diagnose yourself?

[@wvaquerano]

She is so beautiful and smart. Congrats Mom, you’ve done a great job!

[@Dranamolous]

4:35 To anyone that wants to know what Autism is, she gives the best explanation I have ever heard. Autism is one of the most difficult conditions to define and explain and she nailed it.

[@BETORAMIREZ664]

It's funny!!! Deep depression an anxiety kinda feels the same way when making the simplest decision like changing lanes when driving or paying for groceries at the register.

[@AlexFromnic]

That was a horrible explanation that was just not knowing the answer on a test and feeling self conscious about it

[@jonasscheuer7639]

Being autistic in a neurotypical world is like being a penguin trapped on land in an ostrich farm. All clumsy and overwhelmed while the ostrichs run around elegantly. Now switch the scene and put the ostrichs and penguins in the water.

[@brickalmonds]

@@AlexFromnic it was a metaphor for social interaction

[@AlexFromnic]

@@brickalmonds Yeah. Not autism.

[@nataliemanis203]

It breaks my heart how focused she is on confirming to the world and “doing things right”. You don’t need to change a THING about yourself. When you grow up you can create a world that confirms to you, instead of you feeling like you need to conform to the world! You are special, you are unique, and you are a rare find. Don’t ever let anyone take that away from you ❤️❤️❤️

[@laceandribbonsviolin]

I never thought about making a world that conforms to me! 😍🥰❤️😍I think I’ll go do that now.

[@ducdashot1239]

its always important to love and accept yourself but not changing yourself and trying to make the world conform to you is an optimistic but naive ideal. the world wont conform to you but its important to not erase everything that makes you who you are, dealing with autism is all about finding a middle ground

[@jacquelinescourageousworld3848]

Natalie 💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️ ❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚 You put it in perspective for a lot of different people in the world 🌎 today.

[@InDieTasten]

​@Emularis I completely agree, and would like to add that it's always a balance of both. In this interview, it's barely noticable that she has a special condition, apart from some strange contradictory statements. But I assume it's because she's already worked so hard on trying to fit in. Also changing the world around you isn't simple if you aren't accepted in the world. It might get easier with time, idk. But I do hope she doesn't conform to the boring lifes of so many people and forgets about the bright and colorful spirit most people push away after school, because that's not something "adults" do.

[@88heisenberg88]

That's a dumb ideology.

[@wubba-lubba-dub]

The only "problem" this girl has is that she's in high school and is dealing with trying to conform to all her peers' expectations. And those expectations are predicated on shallow social constructs formed in naive, young minds. Once she escapes that constant influence, she'll realize that there's absolutely nothing wrong with her, and that being herself is the greatest gift she can share with everyone. I love her.

[@thereaper2762]

Totally agree! She's an individual, she is herself, just let her be. She's so sweet and would be a blast to be around. Unfortunately someone has told her her whole life that she's different, somethings wrong, and that in itself changes the brain. But I think she's awesome. She will go places

[@fbiagent3998]

As a person in highschool, high schoolers are so judgmental. It's like a competition everyday going to school to be popular or trying to be cool and act like someone you aren't, specifically American highschool.

[@thereaper2762]

@@fbiagent3998 You are correct! But have you tried other countries high schools? They're the exact same. Also, everyone is judgemental AFTER high school, but trust me, you will find a point where you wont give a crap anymore and THEN you will be free and happier than ever. People told me I'd be lucky to have 2 real friends as an adult, and they were right. My 2 friends don't care what I do or say or how I act they stick around and don't care about what's "popular" and everyone else will use you then ignore you, sooo screw em! Remember these words and come back to say "Hi" one day

[@dethkon]

How do you know any of that? Are you her friend IRL, or are you just writing fan fiction about a person you don’t even know?

[@Realifesaiyan1]

I completely agree. I was a male version of her. I drew a lot of parallels with the way she is and how I grew up. I adapted but it takes time. You build confidence and skills over time. It’s not easy but everyone has their own struggle. She different but I don’t think she has a “learning disability” or autism. I hope she understands that although she has a different way of seeing the world it’s a gift not a hinderance.

[@literallyfrankjaeger]

I feel so bad for her because her family don't listen to her when she's talking about her interests or when they just tell her to shush. as a neurodivergent person, that is one of the worst things ever for me. I hope she has friends who will listen to her talking about anime :D

[@folv6631]

I think they care, but they also want to help her develop the basic level of control and social awareness that helps her relate to others for her benefit. I love marvel super heroes, always have. But as an adult, I am aware that it would be confusing to just start spouting off random marvel facts at my job or during social events where other people have dozens of different interests that don't pertain to the current event we are attending. Everyone has interests, sure. But not every event is a time to talk about your interests. That's just normal life, and I am glad to hear they are helping her adjust to that so that she doesn't run into complications later in life when she meets new people who don't know her (who will be far less understanding in most cases)

[@aurayukisora]

Yeah it can be unfair and lonely sometimes. To just have your special interest hushed up. And then what if you never are allowed to talk about it? Why can’t we have more of a balance at least.?

[@jamesmcluvlee]

Feel bad for yourself

[@electrothecat07]

I feel that nobody in my family except my dad and grandma understand my interests. My brother even said I'm obsessed

[@DarkenedAndrew]

She’s so cute, and is honestly 1000% cooler than the big majority of people I’ve ever known.

[@emcohnway]

Please don't infantilise autism

[@chumbue6537]

You say that as if you spent anytime talking to the people you've "known"

[@hhshum1238]

it gonna be so much fun if you "only" hang out with kind of us for a day or two. Meh, you gonna learn when you meet one. I guess all ADHDER know what I was referring to.

[@LSK2K]

Hub material

[@marcuhsmancias3236]

@@LSK2K ayo 😳

[@ArgentinaPrimermundo]

I could listen to her for hours and not get tired. Her face, expressions and way of looking are captivating

[@sarahnawaz6925]

There is literally nothing wrong with her ,she doesn't need to feel like she need to improve herself she is already amazing

[@houseis]

Yea it seems like she has aspergers not autism. My friend whose autistic can't really talk to people normally like she can

[@rk8276]

@@houseis that’s why it’s called Autism spectrum … it’s literally a spectrum from mild to moderate. Everyone is different.

[@xxphhhxx6921]

She does need to improve

[@TyRiders2]

@@xxphhhxx6921 on....

[@TerrickSmith2005]

@@xxphhhxx6921 on what?

[@maxipadi42069]

What she said about just wanting to have the right answer really teared me up. One of humanity’s biggest problem is how we constantly say this is right and that’s wrong or IM right and YOURE wrong. It’s a terrible mindset. Thanks again Chris 😊

[@amadeusasimov1364]

Why do like anime? "It's cooler versions of kid shows, with swearing and cursing and super powers." Yep, that's the best dang anime summary I've ever heard! She's fantastic! I hope as she gets older, she keeps embracing herself and learning to enjoy the friendships of those who truly care about her. She definitely is a shining rainbow of life, and I hope she keeps building that confidence. The world needs more beautiful people like her!

[@sirmoony5633]

You sure? I mean, any kind of animation are not all made for kids in mind! They are just a medium, not a yin-yang genre! LOL

[@rodripaez6439]

literally

[@quanleandinglean6950]

@@sirmoony5633 wut

[@sirmoony5633]

@@quanleandinglean6950 Oh, it is just art! You're probably confused! Ohohohoho! LOL

[@quanleandinglean6950]

@@sirmoony5633 i am confused, but what is yin-yang you were talking about?

[@eswan8900]

Another girl like me. ❤️ I describe autism very similarly. It’s like taking a test that you didn’t study for and you struggle to know the right answers while everyone else passes it with flying colors. Also “organized chaos” is so accurate.

[@wolfbanesons]

Organized chaos is the best description I have ever heard 💀

[@acolourfulbrain2168]

a) I wish this video had been there for me when I was in high school so so long ago, when I was struggling to feel belonging. b) Would love to see an update interview with Ellie! She is just pure joy and delight.

[@Zoe-zd7]

I love her 🥹 She's so kind and funny and cute - she's really helped me shift my perspective to see how truly beautiful this world is, and also how mean people can be about people that are different. I love her view of the world, her admirable growth mindset (I myself struggle with trying to improve and she's really inspiring), and I hope she never ever changes 💗 I would love to be her friend!

[@PomsNTomsMom92]

Seeing the effect Chris has on people is fantastic. Inspiring.

[@YaNoSeNiQuienSoy]

¡Sí! Verlo me hace pensar "ser empático no es tan difícil ¿verdad?

[@angiefrancis8633]

Ellie is an amazing person! I also have autism/aspergers and anxiety and I can definitely see myself in her. I’m super talkative and I’m really awkward around people, there are so many things that she talked about that I relate to.

[@christopherhubbard256]

I have Autism.

[@OldManSpoots]

If she never changes, the world will be a better place. She makes my heart feel full.

[@LT-qt5xj]

as a therapist with autism, adhd and anxiety too, I feel you so deeply Ellie! and hope things are better for you now, that you attract the sparkling rainbow energy you put out. if you'd ever like a penpal/older sis figure in your awkward army, do reach out xx would be so happy to exchange letters and good vibes. with love from singapore!

[@minochanel]

She seems pretty normal. She looks so confident and happy. I think that she had a wonderful family.

[@mfriedrich2012]

What’s really cool is she seems genuinely happy, and happier than most of her teenage peers.

[@8lackKing]

Managed to put a smile on my face with this one. Great personality 🙏

[@brentjohnson7044]

This made me smile SO MUCH. Ellie's metaphors are astonishingly insightful.

[@DemonicCheezit]

When I look at her, I see myself. I’ve been diagnosed with everything she has, and her personality matches so much with mine. I’d be friends with this person.

[@wolfbanesons]

Same

[@ΝικΒου]

Me too

[@saishuu.u5717]

Same

[@BillCipherandFreddyKreugerFan]

Same

[@sebas4951]

Same

[@pumfeethermodynamics3286]

When she switched from talking about that PBS kids show to a fly that got stuck in paint I couldnt help but laugh. That is so relatable. Normally autistic people will be happy to ramble about an interest for a while but when you also have adhd, its very easy to get distracted and jump between special interests.

[@DonnaMayStanish]

pumfeethermodynamics3286 - Exactly 💯

[@seblivedash]

I'm glad comments are back, I've been waiting for this a lot, I just wanted to say I really hope every special human being that has been interviewed in this channel is doing great and also everyone else! Love you all!! 👍👍👍 Hope you have an excellent day or night 🌃

[@julianspada]

This girl is so beautiful and wise inside and out I hope she finds true supportive people in her life even if it doesn’t end up being her family

[@HoshPak]

She's so adorable being herself.

[@europh]

Fr

[@b_f_d_d]

for real though

[@PositiveAlgorithm-ef8hw]

Shout out to the amazing parents and brothers too! I bet they encourage her to be herself

[@bigboypal]

I'd like to thank this girl for starting my journey to get a diagnosis. My brother has much more severe autism and my family didn't pay attention to my peculiarities as they would've otherwise in part because I seemed fully functional in comparison. When I was diagnosed my family vehemently refused to accept the diagnosis, and that's what has happened in a way every time I tried to ask help for my peculiarities, but knowing I'm not alone and that Asperger's doesn't imply atrocious maladjustment to everyday life like I was led to believe really got me through. Once again thank you so much.

[@stephenelcock7082]

Your story is so similar to mine, and it stopped me in my tracks. I'm so proud of you internet stranger! My younger brother has very severe autism and because of that (and all my parents' limited attention going to him) my symptoms were just sort of brushed under the rug since I comparatively was "normal" to quote my mom. You're not alone, and I always love coming across other people who understand this struggle. Currently my parents and my therapist won't believe me since "I make eye contact and am not super quiet and having meltdowns constantly". It's ridiculous. But this gives me some dash of hope

[@yepitsme1979]

Thank you! This is exactly why we did it! Love you all!!!🥰

[@darinherrick9224]

Not sure how old you are but I've got Asperger's, my wife is ADHD, I'm 39, and right now my wife and I are playing Hyper Light Drifter together. So I want to assure you that there ARE people like you out there who understand you and will accept you as you are. When I was a teenager people thought I would never get married, never hold a job, never be successful in life, because my aspergers was just too severe.

[@samanthaadams3351]

I was diagnosed this yeah when I was 36. I’m so freaking happy to see a girl like me who dgaf about what people think of her. She’s amazing. I wish I had a sibling like her or her brother

[@XX-tn2fs]

What an absolute treasure just like everyone on this channel and our boy that runs it. These are angels in the flesh.

[@Madisoneil]

My husband has autism as well, and I love it about him. He is so goofy and different, I love how he thinks about things. We give each other different perspectives on life. This girl makes such similar silly jokes and brightens the day the same way my husband does! Would love to have this girl in my life, anyone who does is so lucky!

[@johnnyboy-ws3we]

I myself have autism

[@bathory168]

¿Tonto? ._.

[@miahammonds525]

I love how Ellie is able to embrace her awkwardness and is not afraid to admit her true self to the world. I think it’s safe to say that we could all learn a thing or two about her. ❤

[@static_Tricolor_camry]

She's got the best personality, I could hang out with her all day long and never get tired of her talking. I'm actually Anti-social, so it's hard for me to keep a conversation going I struggle with communicating with people like a normal person I usually ask questions more then actually talk about stuff. When it comes to cars I can go on, and on about engines and different modifications.

[@ignaciod06]

Same! I really stuggle talking but when it comes to cinema and movies i love talking and i can go on for hours.

[@AlejandroDiaz-js7jg]

yea I can relate as well. In fact, thats why I chose shyguy from super mario as my main pfp and things like that. Because of how introverted and anti-social I am.

[@lambdalambdalambdaa]

You're full of sh*t lol. Trust me. Have a kid and then you'll learn.

[@AlejandroDiaz-js7jg]

@@lambdalambdalambdaa uhh who are you talking to?

[@lambdalambdalambdaa]

@@AlejandroDiaz-js7jg the OP

[@panicrev555]

She's adorable. She'll do just fine when she gets out of high school. Once she figures out her creative genius she'll bloom.

[@cvshflogang5894]

9:02 - beyond profound and I hope all people can adapt this thinking. She’ll be a fantastic person in whatever profession she chooses!

[@MagnoliaPantherWoman]

I grew up trying to be "normal" too, and my family pushed me to be. As an adult I began to learn that being myself is best. I am still becoming more and more myself. You don't have to be someone else's version of "normal" or "perfect." People want different things, like you said, and no one can people please them all. Wishing you all the color and joyful expression you desire. Hugs and shine on! 🤗 🎨🌈✨

[@зимняя_душа]

Me too. I'm 18, and just discovered I have autism. I used often to act like I was normal, as you said, and to fit in character that was not me. Now, I finally have the courage to be myself 😊

[@snowypaw101]

Although I don't have autism, I was in a primary school that did not let me feel like I am myself. Now i'm in secondary school and I can finally feel happy and be myself!

[@зимняя_душа]

@@snowypaw101 that's amazing

[@anjarsulaiman3766]

What is normal?

[@blackmetalcumbia]

@@anjarsulaiman3766 behaviour rules enforced by society

[@eurekavstheworld]

I love her so much I could watch her all day and never get tired. Ellie, you rock.

[@CEO_FADeD]

She's just absolutely beautiful and adorable in every way. Never change, miss Ellie 🥰🥰🥰

[@NDVN101092]

This girl is so intelligent, she brought life to everything. I wish I have a friend like her just to listen to her talks. Bless her!

[@Ducluong2511]

yeahh, in vietnam girls is too im lặng, họ nghĩ rằng không nên nói nhiều khi bạn chưa quen 1 ai đó, họ ngại khi chia sẻ bản thân mình, ngại thể hiện cảm xúc, họ suy nghĩ làm thế nào để không mất giá. I mean they think a lot of thing when they talk to stranges

[@XY-ep8uz]

As someone diagnosed at 22 it’s so good to finally know why I feel like this and where my difficulties come from. It affected my relationship with my fiancée and caused me some hard times at school growing up. Being an artist and working as a cook on the side, I can use my creativity in a less restrictive environment. I can be myself but also I can be told clearly what to do and what not to do. I love working with understanding people. I wish the best of luck to anyone with ADHD and I hope you find a job you are actually interested in because that’s crucial for you. Cooking and photography and cars are my hyperfixations so I work as a photographer and as a cook while I spend my money to work on our car. Being able to benefit from these interests makes work life very efficient for me and reduces the feeling of burning/boring out, that you are probably just as familiar with as I am

[@watchingthebees]

This was the video that made me realise I am autistic and ADHD and then got professionally diagnosed. I’m exactly like Ellie! (Although I also struggle with PTSD). Thank you for having posted this, it literally changed my life

[@christopherhubbard256]

Really? That's neat with how things like that happen sometimes.

[@reneemontes4082]

I'm the same aspergers syndrome ptsd anxiety adhd I thought that's all I had as a kid because I had to take medicine for adhd

[@millennial.]

Can I ask you how you got professionally diagnosed? Were you an adult when you got diagnosed?

[@cleliaoconnell3705]

@@millennial. You can absolutely get diagnosed as an adult, if you're thinking about it for yourself I suggest you try to get in touch with a therapist who specialises in autism spectrum disorder, adhd, etc. They are the ones who will be able to diagnose you properly ^^

[@watchingthebees]

@@millennial. I had just turned 18 so technically an adult but not really, I got diagnosed by my psychiatrist that I already had, I had a previous diagnosis of BPD that I got at the age of 13 (I don’t think they can diagnose a personality disorder that young) but my new psychiatrist didn’t really agree with it (and I also had some doubts) but then I mentioned it to him about autism and he asked me a bunch of questions and stuff for a long time and said “yes, you’re autistic level 1” and then redirected me to a neuropsychologist that tested me just to be sure and stuff. The ADHD came later with my full neuropsychological assessment. Idk if that helps, I live in Brazil btw

[@jessicakeskemety22]

My son is autistic and my stepdaughter is (I personally feel undiagnosed Autistic) and it’s so nice to see a mom that loves her child for who they are, and also SO nice to see an autistic daughter who says she appreciates her moms help-because I always worry I’m pushing my son to be someone that he isn’t!! Always appreciate these videos and blatant honesty from people who want to teach others, and know that these are beautiful BEAUTIFUL people that deserve kindness, love, and inclusivity.

[@mariacb1992]

I feel like we could've been friends if we were the same age and at the same place. She's great.

[@Nemokiddy]

I feel the same 😁

[@ratoftouille6934]

right lmao i want to watch some anime w/ her

[@coloradostatesenatorsteven7443]

Face the wall

[@Airwave2k2]

No you wouldn't

[@ratoftouille6934]

Airwave2k2 ?

[@Jesse-wy9pb]

I'm crying! She gives me hope that my son can improve and learn to cope and even thrive in society! And rainbows are awesome! ☺

[@mr.10dollars72]

how old is yer son ?

[@replicant8532]

Hey, my son is 4 and is autistic as well. I love him to death and this interview gave me a little bit of peace of mind and hope. I wish your son all the best and I hope you find strenght in you necessary to give him what he needs to thrive. God bless.

[@ared4824]

@@replicant8532 I'm a teenager and I can guarantee you that even if I have many friends I would love to have a friend like the girl in the video, so if your son is gonna be like that just know that there are many people who will love him as he is

[@rinreborn7364]

Hi mom

[@yas-per]

Tbh autistic people don’t ‘improve’ and forcing them to act neurotypical is extremely harmful and traumatic

[@nekojuan8260]

Honestly, she has the ability to explain and express her feelings properly to anyone. She's also a cheerful girl. I find her cute ❤

[@Waxsner]

This young lady has a bright future ahead of her. Charming and full of cheer. Well spoken and thoughtful. Confident and very pretty. And a solid family around her. She will do just fine in a world that could use a lot more of her spirit.

[@kseniahksenh]

I am a boy with autism and I relate SO MUCH WITH HER I really wish she could be my friend

[@maeborowski1315]

SAME

[@maeborowski1315]

@@CandyMan2001 it is, bc the way girls are raised forces them to mask. but that's not always the case

[@gina5914]

I‘m 22 from Germany and I keep coming back to this video bc this girl brings me so much joy! She has such a wonderful personality and is so fun to listen to! This interview could be an hour long and I would listen to her the entire time. Girl, from The bottom of my heart I hope you‘re doing well! You‘re perfect just the way you are 💜

[@citoesqueleto91]

Wow, she's an incredible girl!!!! So wise and full of joy, I learnt so much listening to her words, we need more people full of positive energy like her! Keep going and don't let other's people ruin your amazing and charming personality!

[@cannedbees8974]

Okay but I seriously feel like me and her are the same??! Everything she talks about (especially organized chaos, liking kids shows, feeling awkward, wishing to know what she’s doing, expressing herself with outfits and just over all being a glass-half-full person) is exactly how I feel all the time! It really meant a lot to find at least one person out there who thinks and acts just like me; I have ADD and severe anxiety (and while I’m not diagnosed with autism, a lot of my friends/close family do tell me I seem to be on that spectrum) so I definitely see where the things she talks about are coming from. I’m super happy that I found her story, and I hope to hear more about her one day to see how she’s doing :)) /gen

[@johannyrivas9607]

​@AbdulRahman-lv5pjwhat is that? herb name?

[@danika9411]

​@@johannyrivas9607 He probably means this stuff that is in brokkoli, sulphoraphan I think it was. People with autism seem to have a deficiency, but so far no one knows why.

[@clarissacuellar1047]

I relate to Ellie so much. I also have autism and I feel the same way about neurotypicals. I love the way Ellie presents herself and I would love to be friends with her.

[@fabiolizak]

That advice you gave her about high school and feeling awkward was really sweet, it got me tearing here. I think its so important that people like Ellie exist cause they defy what we just take for granted, as a society. All the stuff that we believe we should or shouldn't do, the things we just accept the way it is and when someone ask "Why? Why this should be normal and that shouldn't?" we realize we never asked ourselves that and that we have no answer other than "I don't know man, it was already like this when i got here."

[@bernadettejoseph2627]

My son is 16 and was just diagnosed and you have really helped me understand him better. You are a rock star and I want to say THANKS. I love this! Stay authentic!

[@karahonaker]

How did he get diagnosed?

[@smj.cr3ates]

Oh she’s such a dear. I love how she gets what she does wrong, yet she still brings it into a bright mood. I like her!

[@JOlsson01]

I just feel happier after watching this. (A second time). Ellie's positive attitude and bright personality is infectious.

[@psypherdelic1382]

You’re exactly what this world needs!! So precious!!

[@I_scribbles]

Ellie is awesome! She seems to be literal sunshine brightening everyone's day. Everyone needs an Ellie in their life. It must be heartbreaking to see her get upset. She is an absolute beautiful person inside and out. Theyre a lucky family.

[@Handler1300]

I wish there were more people like her at my school, everybody is so concerned about stuff that doesn't matter. its a breath of fresh air to see someone who doesn't fall victim to that . ❤ From Australia

[@MegaLadyv]

She sounds like me and having adhd you have this level of enthusiasm that neurotypical people don’t get 😂Don’t ever lose that about yourself! Thanks for sharing

[@SuperCosmicboy100]

hey buddy im a american white boy can we be friendz

[@albertotrigosbueno5547]

i find this girl fascinating, i was like that when i was 10-16 years old, and later on adhd meds after diagnosed. But later you get depressed and you stop being like that only for a brief time i can be like that and not happen often. Because most people don't react to that very well and you feel bad everytime that happens. I wasn't as cool as this girl but same energetic smart etc

[@theoneeyedfool]

I love everything about this. Ellie is a legend. Just hearing her explain herself is such a joy. For the record, I’d also like to know what would happen if giraffes ruled the world. I also want lore about Kevin the fly. Never stop being you, Ellie. The internet loves you. ❤️

[@maegand1791]

Hear, hear! 👏

[@katlov3r536]

If giraffes ruled the world I would be a pet to a giraffe 🦒 it would be kinda funny! And yes Kevin the fly!

[@FallenActual]

honestly she seems normal to me if not more mature than most people her age. Edit: didn't realize how many likes this comment has gotten thank you to every and as well to all the people commenting nice things. Edit edit: love how the comments got so Salty over a genuiene comment, just sad 😔

[@Pr1est0fDoom]

Yeah, it's like Chris said, once she gets to college she's gonna be fine.

[@Rose-zh5xg]

@@kceyz yeah... I think she's far from dumb, but people like her don't think the same way as most and it comes off as annoying and people that are uneducated about autism may think she's coming off as an attention seeker... Some people seem to think it's all about IQ and academic intelligence, you can be intelligent and not understand social rules, which just makes it even more difficult for them to fit in

[@chaomaster11]

Every autistic child has heard "mature than most people her age" lmao... Nearly a trigger (not seriously) at this point!! I don't wanna be "mature," I wanted to be my age. :(

[@lucasfinato8300]

She's genuine and smart, most girls at her age are pieces of arrogant stupidity

[@chaomaster11]

@@lucasfinato8300 complaining that teenaged girls are arrogant while being the most arrogant trash sack himself, very classic incel

[@user-tl8so4ry3r]

The support her mom has for. She truly understands her and meets her where she is. It's truly so beautiful

[@MAGNUM05]

I'm 29 years old and autistic. I have high functioning autism. I was only 2 years old when I was diagnosed. So, I've been dealing with autism for 27 years and I don't feel bad about it. I'm just being myself as I should. God bless you, Ellie. I wish the best for you.

[@eleegee]

Hey, heads up - please don’t use the terms “high functioning” or “low functioning”! They’re outdated and offensive to many autistic people and imply that those with more (for lack of a better term) severe autism are somehow wrong or dysfunctional. Hope that makes sense!

[@beckyvenus30]

May I ask what stage you are? My son is 3 years old with stage 3 autism and it’s hard to believe he’ll ever talk soon.

[@mrtrollnator123]

Kudos to you my guy stay true to who you are

[@CCAmes-je9lt]

I’m in university now, and I found this video at a time when I hadn’t ever met a single person like me. I have ADHD and ASD, and it’s caused me anxiety. Thank you, Ellie.

[@Ultrasilvam]

I’m autistic with ADHD and anxiety too, you’re not alone!

[@captainprice3715]

no autism but i do have ADHD-PI……shout out to all my autistic people

[@mollerbt]

fuke the normies! lol. I'm not sure if I have adhd or autism or what, but I'm definitely different and absolutely suck at anything social. XD

[@BenVanAmburg]

I recently learned I have Asperger's so you're not alone at all

[@dethkon]

You can see the campus Psychologist for medical treatment of all three of those problems. Please do, if not for yourself than for at least for others: My first very first University roommate had ASD and ADHD. It caused ME anxiety, because he was incredibly annoying and inconsiderate. He never cleaned, didn’t go to class, and would stay up all night in our shared room watching anime on our big TV (a CRT with no headphones; this was before flat-screens were popular). I failed nearly all of my first semester classes because of that jerk, and I ended up having to switch roommates.

[@yeska420ne]

"I do wish I could be a little bit more mature and think about stuff, but it's so boring" she seems cool af n super chill

[@Coentjemons]

I wish this was available when i was younger.... the way she explained how her mind works, is really close to mine... She's lovely.

[@prodigyx1089]

This charming girl seems normal to me. Although her attention span is all over the place, I think that she can succeed in life if she continues to be herself. The only thing that I would recommend to her is to start a KZbin channel or something so that she could contribute to society whilst supporting herself. God bless everyone.

[@ploopybear]

PrepareYourChairs, although only 7 videos

[@yepitsme1979]

She has one, I will talk to her and see if she wants to start back up! 😎

[@MrSoso1050]

girls with autism are normal

[@AC-eg5uu]

@@MrSoso1050 well no

[@carysrose725]

calling an autistic person ‘normal’ is not a compliment

[@YEAR-1-RELICS]

She's the most perfect person I've ever saw. Wish I knew some one like this. We'd have tons too talk about.

[@amazingamity1770]

Same!

[@gudmonke-1082]

Of course

[@Dranamolous]

She has a point…What IF giraffes ruled the world instead of apes?!?!

[@Graysett]

Buildings would be a lot taller, and a lot more like tents I think.

[@Dranamolous]

@@joeh858 Not in the colloquial sense but biologically humans are classified under the family Hominid which is a classification of “great apes”.

[@MagnoliaPantherWoman]

I was thinking the same thing. It reminds me of Becky Chambers' Wayfarers series, especially book 4 "The Galaxy, and the Ground Within" that has a giraffe-like main character among others.

[@Ricardoslips]

Pointless thing to think about. Will not help any problems out species is facing.

[@MagnoliaPantherWoman]

@@Ricardoslips Ah, but creative breaks, silly humor, imagination, and fun help fuel the people in the cause. We get some of our best ideas after downtime or rest and relaxation.

[@yank.tasaka4701]

Ellie, you are just amaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing girl! Keep being who you are and do not let anybody take off your shine, because you are such a star!

[@kitty8788]

I loved this interview so much I had to come back to leave a comment. My best friend has autism and I love her so much, your creativity and beauty reminds me of her thank you for using your voice to speak openly

[@yepitsme1979]

Thank you so much for coming back and commenting! She loves reading these! And you and your best friend are AMAZING💯💯💯🤞🏼

[@Moderator.]

She can be classified as "Pure human" I wish I could be her friend forever!

[@eveningstardraws_]

her fashion sense is awesome ! im in the process of possibly being diagnosed with autism and i relate to her so muchhhh. this video brings me comfort. thank you mr chris !

[@psychedlicsouljam1995]

I wish u luck on your journey 🙏 ✨ ❤ remember you are not your diagnoses, its only a part of you. Live life to the fullest ❤