surrendering to God....my story

[@xyqueriastone]

I have a serious concern here, this year I’ve definitely felt him trying to pull me closer but I can’t find myself being able to submit for so many reasons . One is how you said he will bring you to rock bottom until you have no other choice but to come to him but am I the only one who finds that manipulative and controlling? Image a man who tries to make your life a living hell until you pay him some attention. Would you want anything to do with him or would you file a restraining order? I’m not even being funny I’m serious because there’s so many things that don’t make sense.

[@journeywithkiki]

hi! first thank you sm for sharing this in the comments and lemme just say i completely understand u especially the part where u mentioned that you find it manipulative and controlling. i would first say that know God is not like man. WE as humans manipulate and control, and satan and his demons feed off of that. Satan wants us to think of God in a negative light so bad. when God allows us to hit rock bottom one reason is to humble us. we as humans have a prideful, sinful, self absorbed nature where it stops us from being able to submit to such a holy God. it almost is intimidating. it’s then where we have to learn to come out of ourselves and set all of that aside to set our eyes on someone who we are no where near worthy of and glorify Him. as crazy as this sounds it also helps us see Gods love in a better light because anyone who saves u from rock bottom (bc he will) deserves every ounce praise. we see how much He rlly loves us like no one ever has or can. it’s not God making ur life a living hell. when i speak about the rock bottom situation i more so mean he ALLOWS us to get to that point so we can choose HIM and nothing or no one else. we can be so stubborn that our life can be going up in flames but we will STILL seek help in every other area, person, thing whatever then God. when He saves u from that place it brings such a supernatural feeling of being in awe of God. and THAS where we need to be. it’s the best place to be. the process is absolutely painful for most of us cause setting pride aside and taking things out of our own hands is almost abnormal for us. admitting we need a savior is intimidating. but it’s true. All He wants is for us to get of that point of knowing it. we may never know the full purpose but it’s not always intended for us to know. that’s where u just need to trust God and believe in his promises and that he has our best intention at heart. in His Will is the safest and best place any one of us could ever be. it’s less of us and more of God. once that change happens in your heart you won’t even have those same questions anymore! cause TRUST me i was in that same place as you. “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." ( 2 Corinthians 12:9) crazy to hear but it’s actually when we are at our weakest He does His GREATEST work in our lives 💗💗💗 hoped this help love!!!

[@lassondraarmstrong7316]

@@journeywithkikithis was such a beautiful and Holy Spirit led answer sis ❤

[@kimberly-vi2ru]

I'd rather have God manipulate me than anyone else 😂 because He is good, and He loves me, and knows better than me🤷🏾‍♀️ usually you end up understanding why and then you thank him for it at the end😂

[@thatsdestiny.]

I also use to think this way in wondering why we have to hit rock bottom to get closer to God but I read that might be the only way God can get to you. When we are happy and enjoying our lives, we dont make time for God. We dont give him praise. We’re too busy on this high and living in our ego to realize the relationship or lack thereof we have with him. But when we hit rock bottom and have no where else to turn, most people turn to God. Once they build a better relationship with him, trust him, be grateful for the things he’s blessed us with, our lives turn around for the better. How many testimonies do we hear of people saying how they were in the darkest moments of their life and God pulled them out of it? I never hear people say their lives were going great and they got closer to God because of it. It’s the lows that bring us closer to him and then the highs come.

[@xyqueriastone]

@@kimberly-vi2ru that’s a nice perspective to have

[@18lumumba]

SHE´S BAAAAAACK....🎉🎉🥳🥳Praise the Lord

[@journeywithkiki]

🙌🏾🙌🏾

[@deborahbx_]

Love this vid, so calm and filled with truth! Also, you look beautiful sis!!☺

[@journeywithkiki]

ugh you’re so sweet!!!!!!🥹💗💗💗 thank you so much

[@delightinYou]

You inspired me to start a prayer jar TODAY! What a beautiful reminder. Jesus, I trust in you!

[@journeywithkiki]

YESSS🎉💗

[@sinaimulamba3252]

3:40 - Yes! The part where you mentioned humans being self-sufficient by Jackie Hill Perry is something I totally see, especially in the West. From my experience as an African, and things I'm aware of in some African countries is the people have a tendency to cling so much to God because life is tough and everything they aspire and ought to acquire they can only receive with God; thus there's more dependency on Yahweh. Yet, as an international student in the US I see why some people here may not be so dependent on God, because there are so many options and alternatives, everything is there and life is good - why need God eyy? (btw this is just an example). And yes! We need to walk so close and submitted to God, like there's no other choice, but Him, literally "without God I will die", "all I have is because of Him" and everything that concerns me must submit to Him. This will keep us in a posture of surrender. xoxo loved the video Kiki. ❤❤

[@journeywithkiki]

mmmmm wow this is a interesting takeaway!

[@kikisimon83]

your story is the exact story I had 2 nights ago and I had such a deep cry and I think you called that purging. Literally everything your saying, I really understand. Today was the first day I went back to church. wow...

[@therealzoe06]

this is so timely. i've been thinking about how i haven't really gone 'all-in' for God. thank you for this video! i got some inspiration to make a prayer jar. God bless you💜

[@journeywithkiki]

💗💗💗💗

[@Shan-2024]

This was beautiful, thank you for sharing how your journey is going and the encouragement and advice you gave it felt as tho I was learning from a older sister, God bless you, can’t wait for future videos 🙏🏽

[@ariielkm]

I relate soo much, I think I’m going to do the same thing with the jar 🥺 I’m on a rollercoaster of emotions one day I’m on a high and some I’m a low low, but I’m not letting that stop me from trusting wholeheartedly in God because truly he is good ❤️🥺🙌🏾 Welcome back sis 🩷

[@journeywithkiki]

you definitely should! it has helped me SM!!💗💗 praying for you!

[@cerenasejour]

Amen surrendering to God is giving him my worries and knowing he will take care of me🦋

[@Je_Dion]

I was randomly scrolling and you came across my timeline. I so needed this and I thank you. You are gorgeous, by the way 🤩🙏🏾🍃

[@journeywithkiki]

awe yay! and thank you sm!💗

[@shykemajae]

I constantly have to remind myself that God is not like man. That point was so good!!

[@merabwerimo]

I feel better now. God bless you.

[@journeywithkiki]

🥺💗💗

[@accordingtodaye]

Makes so much sense! Lately I have been feeling spiritually dry as of lately. I am in a transition season and the last month has been hard. I lost my job last month that i had been at for almost three years, and it's just been hard. I have no income, money has gotten low and still no job. Even though I have been applying, I am not getting anywhere. I'll be thirty in april of 2024, and I have a very hard time trusting God. I have been on this journey for the last two years, since reddicating my life back to jesus. i grew up in the church and got baptized at 7-years old but I did not know jesus i just kenw of him. I have reall been working on my relationship with the lord and he has been pursuing me my whole life, but when I moved back from Los Angeles in 2017, being 23-years old thats when things started to shift around my 25th birthday. I could just feel him chasing after me, i was so dead in my sin, guilt , shame all of it. So, being in this huge life transition, is hard. He has stripped me of many things car, job, friendships over the last 2-3 years its been really hard.

[@journeywithkiki]

hi, please pleaseee contact me - [e-mail] I relate A LOT to your current situation and I would love to talk and help you through it! also I would love to keep you in my prayers as well. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@odionosariemen3189]

No matter how hard it may be focus on God

[@mitchellemoka306]

Really needed this message. God bless you sister in Christ.

[@journeywithkiki]

God bless you!!!!💗

[@ems4202]

This came at the right time. God bless you sis ❤

[@whynotnae]

Literally missed youuu.. welcome back❤

[@journeywithkiki]

awe missed u too🥺💗

[@LcgaloreTV]

You delivered so many messages in this video so gracefully ❤️

[@journeywithkiki]

awe thank you sm🫶🏾

[@Finestgirleva]

Thank you for sharing ❤

[@graceaib]

It’s good to see you on here again 🥳💕

[@lillypouvi6579]

yayyy u posted !!

[@journeywithkiki]

💗💗💗

[@rachelsantime5986]

Refreshing video which will encourage and uplift many ❤

[@micarlalazarus_TBOB]

Stumbled across this and it's the exact same space I'm in wow.

[@yshstar]

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing. God bless you! Praying for God to continue to give you Joy as your devote your life to Him daily.

[@journeywithkiki]

wow thank you🥹💗

[@Naomismithzoe]

God bless 🙏❤❤

[@princessmanduma2891]

I love this take and the jar idea, thank you for your wisdom!

[@journeywithkiki]

You are so welcome!💗

[@torrialexandra1390]

aww this made me so proud. I’m so happy to see that you’re trusting God for everything, as the rest of us are as well❤️. The safest place to be is in His hands. Keep pushing girly, He’s got you. This was such a good word.

[@journeywithkiki]

yes, thank you 🥹💗💗

[@s_douglas]

Amazing, Thank you so much !! God Bless you

[@05a7u9w3]

oooo im so happy ur backkkk🥳🥳 been needing to watch ur videos during gcse exam season 💞💞

[@robernisham.3387]

Yayy ☺️ welcome backkkk!!💗

[@journeywithkiki]

thank you sisssss💗

[@robernisham.3387]

💗💗💗

[@blossomibudeh2204]

Thank you so much for this! New subbie. I am excited for more

[@journeywithkiki]

yay thank u!💗💗

[@brianacrespo6378]

Related so much ❤️

[@ayanfevese]

Great to see a video from you again! I'd been thinking a lot about where you'd been recently and now here's a video from you! Awesome!

[@journeywithkiki]

lol perfect timing!!!

[@awosikaolatokunbo9320]

Wowww kiki, the prayer🥺, also I love how you emphasized consistency

[@oyinkanalese99]

I can relate to this video so much, in terms of all the inner battles and turmoil 🥺.

[@journeywithkiki]

ur not alone!💗💗💗

[@prettyfungirl9337]

Your video was great and I like your makeup 😊

[@journeywithkiki]

thank you!!!

[@Allieredeemed]

I’ve been wondering where my sis has been for a minute now. You were missed ❤️❤️❤️

[@journeywithkiki]

🥹💗

[@Marla721]

This is good. Thank you kiki❤

[@journeywithkiki]

ofc !💗

[@DebbieAkan]

Glad to have you back, we missed you❤❤❤❤❤

[@journeywithkiki]

missed u too!!!!

[@quaytheeartist]

Girl not Jesus taking me thru a whole deliverance session in my bedroom while watching this 😭😭😭 I’m just over here sobbing and laughing in complete awe 😂

[@journeywithkiki]

we can cry and laugh together then girl LOL💗

[@neilaek]

please make more videos!!! glad you’re back🤍

[@journeywithkiki]

definitely will! attempting to do every week since i have some free time for now :)))

[@chloerockelle]

Ok Fed Hammond !! I love that songggg

[@journeywithkiki]

yessss!!!!

[@Srrc2567]

Love that song - the one you sang at the beginning 🙏🏾

[@journeywithkiki]

it was stuck in my head all day! lol

[@katieb3929]

I got a septorhinoplasty, for cosmetic and functional reasons. Days after surgery I was so heavily attacked by guilt, shame and regret, especially fear. I had to have someone be with me at all times bc I was loosing it. I now feel so broken hearted for doing something irreversible, I keep playing scenarios in my mind of canceling the surgery, I feel like I actually prefer my birth nose and my heart aches. God will pull me through but it’s so hard to see the light

[@journeywithkiki]

i got a septoplasty a little over a year ago! they asked me if i wanted to add a cosmetic procedure to straighten up my nose cause my nose is not straight also bc of my swollen septum but i only said no bc of the money 😭 i def would’ve said yes if i could afford it cause that’s still something im insecure about! so i totally get it. don’t beat urself up over it, it could be emotionally exhausting. you’ll get through this just keep praying for God to give you peace about it. 💗

[@katieb3929]

@@journeywithkikithank you so much for replying and the reassurance ❤️ God bless you!!

[@odionosariemen3189]

God loves you no matter what just trust Him❤

[@katieb3929]

@@odionosariemen3189 ❤️❤️

[@mijahburns94]

Thank you ❤❤especially for prayer!

[@journeywithkiki]

ofc !!💗

[@shespaula8048]

I have been so drained not having time to pray not reading but im working on getting their again

[@jp16635]

Thank you ❤

[@raw.andunfiltered]

Mam thank you.

[@Mario-Ugonna]

Loved it so much😊. You old than me with a day 😅 12th Dec my code.

[@journeywithkiki]

omg twinsssss💗 (kinda) happy early bday!

[@Noname2002-d8z]

Missed you sooo much !!❤

[@journeywithkiki]

💗💗

[@chimerenwaegbu]

Subscribed!

[@chloerockelle]

Finallyyyyy

[@mk-gfg]

We have missed you sis !! Amazing word

[@journeywithkiki]

thank you!!

[@yemalee005]

It’s been a long time !!

[@journeywithkiki]

i know!😭

[@MissBoatemaa]

Missed you

[@StaceyMurungweni-nr4ei]

Everything is going bad for me rn I’m 17 people be treating me bad I feel like God wants me to go closer to him ❤️Trials and tribulations,spiritual ware fare being told my spirit doesn’t want me to have friends

[@journeywithkiki]

God is definitely tugging at your heart, just continue to follow Him and trust Him! praying for you 💗💗💗

[@saiyahhh]

Kiki 🥺!!!!

[@ridwandesanta5298]

I’m a Muslim man and yes life is weird like that, also you’re beautiful, have a nice day

[@journeywithkiki]

lol yesss, and thank u!

[@unholyconfessions]

You’re such a great speaker! This was very edifying ❤️ Where did you get your prayer jar?

[@journeywithkiki]

Suwimut 3 Pack Glass Storage Jar with Ball Cork Lid, 17oz/30oz/40oz Cork Glass Bottle, Cute Decorative Glass Canister with Airtight Wooden Round Stopper for Spice, Sugar, Salt, Tea, Nuts, Coffee Beans a.co/d/44n2z6J Thank you!!!!!!💗💗

[@_dijzhane]

Subscribing!

[@journeywithkiki]

yay!! thank you!

[@daveniellesdiary]

I love your necklace! Where did you get it from?

[@journeywithkiki]

thanks! i got it from the m jewelers

[@AnnieWalters24]

Good to see you kiks❤

[@Izm20225]

Hi🤗 I hope you see this but I don’t know if this makes sense and I don’t know if I have the right perception of God but it feels like a chore to read my Bible sometimes and I really struggle and feel guilty and always end up going on my phone or something and it’s like everything I read completely leaves my mind and I can never remember my prayers and it always ends up in me feeling like I fail to even come to God. Do you have any advice on how to just focus on God and stop being distracted all the time ?

[@x.0.x.]

Whenever I surrender to God he either completely ignores me or sends me 5-10 steps back. It's hard to have trust in the Lord. Any advice or help with this?

[@journeywithkiki]

what i would recommend bc i don’t know what’s going on between ur relationship w God only you do, but i would say to do a self reflection and instead of looking at the things u think God may be doing that you don’t like, look at the things that YOU may be doing that GOD doesn’t like lol. Ask God to reveal to u ur secret sins, and faults you weren’t even realizing to begin with. when i did that He opened up my eyes to A LOT. and from there my walk with Him has changed tremendously. Know that God WANTS u to ask him to reveal to u ur faults bc that’s the first step to rebuilding and a reconnection w him cause after that comes repentance, forgiveness, etc. 💗💗💗

[@ariii8281]

Yayyyy❤❤

[@SanelisiweSoni]

Hello 👋🏽 you're so beautiful 🥰😘💞

[@journeywithkiki]

thank you😢❤

[@Joseph_Charles-q6o]

Kiki join the church choir 😂

[@journeywithkiki]

LOL just make me the worship leader atp

[@silvias2828]

What's that on your forehead????

[@journeywithkiki]

ummmm idk? 😭 just the light reflection maybe

[@Daughterdaughters]

Heyy!! I seen somebody recommend you on tiktok 🩷🩷

[@journeywithkiki]

wow so glad you’re here!💗