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Fear of non-existence to pure simplicity || #darknight #spiritualawakening #death
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[@SimplyAwakeLLC]

Thanks for this, I'm in the oscillation now and am grateful for the pointer that it can and will be over.

[@gilbertlujan1220]

Yes I know exactly what your aware of , most disturbing in a way ! But of course it is what it is , I learned this fact as well when I was at a very young age , from trauma , through the drama of violence my step father unleashed on my mother and I , I realized this what you are experiencing , I truly understand it but at the same time I don’t so I learned to surrender to what is , and now see the beauty in all things good or bad as if they were real ! It is that all there is. !

[@marksmedley8967]

Profoundly grateful for these videos and sharing of the journey. Speaking only for this person, sorrow in the 'letting go' comes with recognition of a past life poorly lived. Nothing wrong with the realization, or the sorrow. Rather than judge, observing and letting go ... 🙏

[@marksmedley8967]

As sorrow dissolves with the (former) personage, an experience of being fully alive emerges...

[@spindragon]

Suzanne I really appreciate your transparency, innocence and wisdom. Thank you!💗

[@eslof]

The suffering is a double-edged sword. It's not just the experience, it's also responsibility. The responsibility to do better, to make up for it, to prevent it. The responsibility to figure out the right way when you have been shown the wrong way. I work in engineering and what's been evident to me is that no one really knows what they're doing, everyone is winging it best they can.

[@michaeldelisieux5252]

Exactly! You’ve said literally what’s going on here. After an apparent period of blank, I am back with a vengeance: fear. It’s seen but can’t be avoided and it hurts no one.

I watched this for the second time tonight and I got a blissful feeling as if it was spoken to the me here. 😊 Almost like too good to be true feeling, only that it is beyond truth or untruth.

[@littlerunt111]

this is completely lonely going through this as im 18 no peers to talk to.

[@danriffraff37]

Wow Wow and more wow! Thank you Suzanne...You seem to say exactly what I needed to here.....As I continue to somehow spiral through all the shit that has been hidden for so many years the feeling of being alone and loosing everything is so immense so hopeless and I hear your voice your words and there is a resonance to what you speak of...Can feel the rest.....Feels in a way that I am in a place now which I always feared going to but Im ok with it...Whatever needs to happen is happening.....Feels like surrender coupled with running away as you say but all is well...Much love Suzanne ❤

[@higherrezinance91]

🤲🏿❣️

[@maktheweirdo]

I'm so glad I found this video. I've been in a really bad existential crisis for over a month, and I honestly feel like this cured it. Ever since I was a kid, I've had really bad anxiety and a crippling fear of death. The very thought of losing everything and being gone for eternity made me panic. I always felt like I was running from it. I used to put so many things on such a high pedestal and attach so much meaning to the trivial. As I've gotten older, I started to learn more about the world and everything beyond it. It made me feel so small. I felt like I, nor anything else mattered because it was all going to be gone soon anyway. But now I can safely say that this video helped me gain a better perspective. I shouldn't just spend my life living in the fear of the unknown. I should just live, and accept simplicity. Thank you so much.

[@RebeccaWorters]

I’m sooo tired of going through this. It’s so frickin uncomfortable. Thank you for the encouragement and letting us know it’s possible. It seems to feel less and less charged.

[@macparker3549]

Hi, Rebecca, In my experience, I find again and again that when I hit what you are describing, it’s (almost?) always because I’m resisting something. And if I can bring greater acceptance to whatever I’m avoiding or fighting against, it usually softens that frustrated/tired of this feeling. Often it’s hidden or unconscious, but if I slow down enough to find it, I find a softening and relief, and the urgency to be somewhere other than where I am fades. Don’t know if this will be helpful, but wanted to share in case it can bring a softening to you, as well. 🙏🦥🔥🫥

[@mantas9827]

the tiredness is part of the problem, don’t give it much thought

[@pozzarefds]

@@mantas9827 resisting something what though?

[@WonderingAboutThat]

Oh I very much relate! Ugh it's just excruciating.

[@Hi_how_r_u_]

I'm tired of this and i'm not even awakening XD So you're doing great

[@spiritfilled5758]

thank you young lady i can so feel what you are sharing and I'm very much ready to let it all go and simply be!

[@PRPlathXavier]

Fear of loosing what I am , what I think I am, has always been a problem on the way....that is life! Thanks for your words. Its crucial to share and expose your/our experience, not that it changes anything of what is essential, but it changes the relative.

[@aliasbrunch]

My Ecuadorean Evangelist mum just came into my room while this was playing and asked me what Suzanne was talking about. When I told her that she has probably reached enlightenment and no longer feels a separate self, but only life, her response was 'ay que pena, pobresita' :)

[@winonafrog]

😅

[@MarcP589]

Thank you so much Suzanne. Everything you say rings true . The energetic fallout the body here is deepening rapidly. Its horrible at times, so good to hear from someone that's been through it

[@tkallanga]

It is true... It feel like i loose my mind at first... I wish everyone can experiance this....

[@karl_diamondeye]

This video fits me like a glove today, thank you.

[@cherylchild]

It's also very weird when all this happens and you were never actively seeking awakening. From the way you describe it, it seems this is what is happening to me. I am married to a man who has been seeking this all his life and makes it look so painful and disappointing I decided consciously to turn my back on all of this. Now I feel that I'm both dying and going insane at the same time.

[@unbrokenspine]

I love your madness rooted laughter and your hats.

[@steveny18]

Hi Suzanne. What I have been finding is that there is not the need to psychoanalyze the conditions. The fear only occurs in the narrative. I have been finding meditation is allowing that to drop away. Then there is only presence as silence.

[@andrewhussey8702]

Wow ! Love your Ivy background and your appreciation of that also.

[@hadardhumezbiagi1342]

You talk about it so beautifully ❤️, thank you of expressing it in such clarity of words 🤗, the me drops and then there is in lovenes 💕😊

[@janhokke413]

My god I love you, Thank you, wonderful 🌈🌈🌈.

[@beautythebotox2534]

"You just melt away'... Stunning. Simply stunning. 🙏💙

[@anglikai9517]

The sufferings previously are so worth it, compared to the "freedom" attained. It is the ultimate blessing !

[@kjyshawn]

Thank you Suzanne. I see cleary there's no time. I feel like normal seperate person while I am on my casual life. I feel very same as you only when I focus on making it clear again. Future and past disappear but I still feel 'the I' looking at it when it's out of future and past. I understand that there's no 'I' , no object and no subject in there without time. I am convinced that there's nothing 'I' can do for now. I just think I could try making myself more clear with it. You are a huge insperation to me. Than you again.

[@macparker3549]

Hi, Suzanne, Yes, I can feel that this is possible, as you say. Some moments it even seems inevitable. And your simple, thorough, personal/impersonal description of “going through this” is a great companionship as this “me” goes through its own dissolution process. Thank you, truly. 🙏🦥🫥

[@tjprieur]

It's a shift from seeking to observing and maybe even playing in the world in a way that resonates with the flow of things.

[@stoicafanel]

I adore those gifts,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[@andrewforrest108]

There is 100% resonance here with what you are sharing Suzanne. Thank you for reiterating, so clearly and directly, what many 'radical' non dual speakers (Tony Parsons, Jim Newman etc) have said for the last 2 decades or so....that the apparent separate 'self' loses everything, yet that which is apparently 'lost', is totally unreal anyway! Leaving deep rest. Leaving peace which passes all understanding. Leaving unknowingness, boundless timelessness, unconditional love, childlike wonder, spontaneity and absolute freedom, for nobody.❤

[@LuiGrande]

I feel you Suzanne. 100%. Every time I watch your video (I've watched about 100 of them, but this is my first comment) or I listen to my favorite music and meditate, I melt away. I've read that it's extremely rare to stay in that liberated state for longer time. That you keep sliding away from it consantly. But when I experience it, that's where I want to be. That's my home.

[@richardlenz2655]

Dear Suzanne, we understand you very good. Sometimes your mind goes blank. This is also the new time/ future. The message is anyhow during the break, when the understanding can drop in. Thank you very much for your honest teachings 🤭😋🥰

[@fscottcahill143]

Marvelous!!!

[@davidsisson1488]

Thank you Suzanne,This is a great interpretation of what Jesus meant when he said you have to lose your life in order to find it 🙏💜🕊🦋

[@Ron-rk6iz]

We live in a real world in a real body, all of that is there for a purpose. People can space out all they want in the reality of the Universe, that is a reality too, however we have to come back in the body and play the game of duality not matter what. We only should learn how to surrender as Human beings to the Soul and to live according until our time is up in this material world, then follows the infinite.

[@MaxMetrault1]

Lovely, Suzanne!

[@Brittle_buddha]

I love you so much. Just this. So good ❤️

[@WildSatsang]

@16:54 cracked me up! "the gift of nothing" HAHA! It's the gift of nothing from no one.. to nobody. HAHA! The unfoldment of this mystery is endlessly beautiful 💜

[@LotusPoet]

Wonderfully expressed and so honest. Thank you 🧡🧡

[@jtkdmd6266]

Hi Suzanne. "You have to put aside the alienation, get on with the fascination, the real relation the underlying theme."- RUSH (Limelight)

[@mmehendale3624]

What do you mean by limelight? I was told by something I was in the limelight. The state of being in fascination?

[@jtkdmd6266]

@@mmehendale3624 "Limelight" is a Song and the Lyrics were written by Neil Peart (drummer) from the group Rush.

[@mmehendale3624]

Right on 👍

[@brushstroke3733]

@@mmehendale3624 Old school stage lights were called "limelights". The Rush song was about people wishing they could be famous, celebrities, stars, and they're advice to such people - to all of us - was to forget about the seeking the admiration, the adoration, the validation, and to get on with what we're doing with real interest. In other words, love what you do, and forget about everything else.

[@kalagya]

.... you just melt away... how beautiful... however can't seem to let go of the last straw on the camel's back... since 25 years... the mind and body interfere... thank you :)

[@MrDesoto33]

The focus of your speech and profound thoughts make for good listening. Namaste

[@stillpoint6478]

"You just melt away." 'I' want to disappear quickly....seems like more torture..slow torture. 🙂 Thank you for this message. This is something I've feared for years..I feel it keeps me stuck

[@sahamal_savu]

I'm glad you mentioned the crucifixion, "My God, why have you forsaken me?" The life of Jesus is a powerful story about awakening if taken in a mythological context rather than how most Christians interpret it. Adyashanti's book "Resurrecting Jesus" is a great way of looking at his life, it helped me finally begin to understand the bible. Thanks again for these videos, your words are much appreciated ❤

[@glauben19]

This message is wonderful! Thank you so much! I am so scared of my emotions of been abandoned. Where do I start? I am petrified 😢😢😢

[@christinegorman3629]

Wow. Needed to hear all of this tonight. Thank you for sharing your experience. Helping me to understand the seemingly endless suffering. The loneliness and pain. Feeling like there isn’t any more i can possibly give but then another layer surfaces to be released. Feel like I’m going crazy half the time but at the same time there is a deep knowing that there is nothing else to do but keep going. That this is just happening and my body/mind is along for the ride. It’s so hard to understand but then I realize it’s not supposed to make sense to the mind. Can’t. Never will. Feels terrifying but there’s no turning back. Nowhere to go. (Which ugh…dealing with practical, every day basic life/work shit…) So taking comfort in your words and hope that I soon can feel some of the peace you’ve experienced. ❤

[@PRPlathXavier]

I needed your words, thanks.

[@trevorfurness5695]

Suzanne, if what you say is coming from a place of truth, then the world has already changed. Let's share this reality together, here and now.

[@WildSatsang]

Beautifully put! Just came across your videos. We should sit together sometime 💜

[@Rome372]

the cognition no longer desires

[@nikosalexopoulos6542]

"This is the end of you my Master" "Don't try it"

[@michelracicot2337]

Hello Suzanne ! 🔥

[@gaming_with_jem]

So true ❤

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

another wonderful message. Thank you Suzanne 🙏❤️ I’m looking forward to the video with your friend who went through this with you. If the person is gone completely after the hard times of peeling off all the layers of the suffering of the person, there remains just the wow! I hope that means there is still the ability to enjoy for example a sunrise or delicious food, or looking at a flower. There doesn’t need to be a meaning to anything, no explanations, no understanding. That’s what here is felt. But here is a fear of loosing the ability to enjoy colour, form, taste, sound, sensation. BUT nevertheless the me has to go 🙏❤️

[@thevajrabrimo]

💜

[@highlanderes]

We are born as separate, with 1. the task of existing as the unique individuals that we are, and 2. the urge to find happiness. We seek happiness in things, achievements and with other people. No more seeking, no more seeker. Happiness as peace was found.

[@christinaforras]

Destroying the 111 comments. Opened at 6:11 and there were 611 likes. Strong’s Greek 611: to answer (apokrinomai) 😊

[@siripatc28]

i'm glad it's not just me

[@tim2269]

"What a relief."🙂

[@trentdoyle8752]

Thank you Suzanne. This video is soo relevant to what is happening here right now. It gives a glimmer of hope in an ocean of hopelessness

[@uk1simon1]

Thanks Suzanne 🙏

[@eslof]

The reduction of seeking is attention. Seeking is external, attention is internal. Seeking is an illusion, the ground truth is the choice that we have of what we pay attention to. No matter how far down, unless you're dead you are paying attention to something. All we really have is the inside where we decide when and why to collapse the waveform of our subconscious; while the outside is consistently conformed.

[@aquapurity]

Thank you so much for your beautiful thoughts here. I’ve been suffering and this helped me and gave me hope that I can find happiness again. It was what I needed to hear.

[@Daves2024]

Thank you for sharing. I have experienced and basically come to the same truths you are expressing here. All except I have not been able to perceive all as love as you have seen and mentioned toward the end of the video. How did you finally get to that point? I know there is no simple answer to that question.

[@zahreenasimone7303]

I am starting to get this-a little at a time. You as well as others are a big source of support and understanding. Thank you.

[@NatashaandMisha]

This is so so difficult.

[@UC241]

Everything perceivable perishes. Even space?

[@premganga8822]

🌷

[@carolinedekeyser4053]

🙏💃

[@IAMLove33]

🌞🌞🌞

[@primalplasma]

Can't we go through it slowly and gradually? Like you live on this planet one lifetime, then you reincarnae in a planet with a higher fibrational frequency, and so on, and so on, until you gently reach "nothing?"

[@rosa-boom-nonduality]

💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗⚪

[@brettadamek4501]

Did you see the movie Everything Everywhere All At Once?

[@nurpinner8502]

🙏❤️

[@anemandaane5183]

When you say there is no time - you clearly are existing in time - do you mean no past or future projections? Is it that time doesn't move like the inhabiting entity would have felt it does

[@Jack-xc2ys]

Well thank you for offering discourse, though it might detract. I find other perspectives can bring contrast. There would be no definition without contrast, the constant rate of changes would not be so unchanging if it was not being sensed. Even sensuality itself is defined by it's ebbing, flowing, stopping and starting, it's modes are defined from one another. The truth of the moment passed is unchanging, the truth does not need to be known to be true. What we are sensing and sharing💗depends entirely on the unchangeable past.

[@addiepoulson1430]

I just want to be friends with all of you

[@richardrallo6605]

😬

[@almoskosz7848]

Hi Suzanne! Thank you for your insights again. I’d love to hear your thoughts on derealization and how to let go of it and accept this world as it is, because it is

[@nelsbrown3674]

Is this just the despair one feels as one realizes it is not real? Do people wake up without such suffering?

[@evabickerton3856]

Curious, does one go through this part you are describing and maintain a 9-5 job, own business, raise family, be part of society, funcion as part of community stay married? Also as you get to that state is your vibration high, for there is clearly difference between experiencing peace and being exhusted, letargic, sad. 🙏💓

[@dansmith8174]

Ha...You 'suzanne' have insight, and the attempts in explanation of processes, are good.. lol, I think better than what most could do, including myself. Because people cannot free themselves of concepts/reality belief learned as an infant. Society solidifies the perceived reality in the individual; which as you realize, is fabrication..... and here you and me are... timeless and precious.... Some believe their is purpose.. IMO there is some truth in that, based upon observation with behaviors of/in all organisms from simple to complex, and the symbiotic association a human organism depends upon with all these things. :)... Why do humans exist?.. especially if they repeat simplistic rituals that mimic the simple organisms, some of which do not even have a brain structure.. Funny how human's depend upon so many things and simple life forms to exist, yet the simple forms of life do not need humans... in fact with the society we have now, they would do better without.😮

[@cherylchild]

Is it possible to free ones self from the concept of time without awakening?

[@anemandaane5183]

When you say there's no importance does that also mean there is no joy?

[@ubuntuber1619]

🙋🏻‍♀️➰🩲👃🏽💕🏃🏽‍♂️...🧎🏽‍♂️🦽👨🏾‍🦽.. umm Suzanne's No duality smells good.

[@macparker3549]

Just listening to this again. Priceless guidance. Thank you. 🙏🔥🫥⭕️🦥

[@DesertNebula]

8:37 🥲💕

[@pairadeau]

This some real talk right here yo.

[@atz6212]

If it's your innocence that I'm drawn too. Then that's okay?

[@FRED-gx2qk]

Good Lass 👌

[@ericmcclanahan5938]

Depressed or deep rest. 10:00 Pun intended???

[@macaroon147]

Lol what about if I lose my partner though what about sex I wanna know lol like I wouldn't want this if it means the end of my relationship (not for me but the affect it would have on my wife)

[@shawn6306]

the only thing i don't resonate with is you and most say i don't exist because i think that i do exist i am real i'm not fake illusion at all but i do agree i won't get this we don't actually know anything what this is that it just is

[@mast3r346]

do a vlog on new york

[@georgesvan]

Thanks for nothing...

[@robertoromerro]

Interesting thoughts. But i can't watch now until the end of the video.

[@rationalmystic5]

Most of us use headphones while watching your videos .....PLEASE GET A BETTER MIC WHEN RECORDING OUTDOORS....the wind noise that is captured is too distracting and some of the words get muffled out by it. Love your work ma'am . Wish you well. Cheers.

[@narakthedestroyer]

Ma'am will you please adopt me...i want to be born again again n get raised by you...

[@Emre-um8sv]

Suzanne can you contact me ? reply if you can

[@cosmicgliderBruce]

🌞🌅🤽

[@catherinesoubre1804]

❤