Through darkness to the light

[@wolflarsen3447]

Absolutely relate to things feeling like poison. I used to be really into health/psychology/self improvement and now when I listen to it I just feel dirty. Everyone is so sure of themselves, so much ego shining through, even if it appears humble.

[@essense7482]

Yes me too. I just do the same things but keep it to myself. There is no one to heal/help. There is only what is. Keeping it most peaceful and just letting things the way they are without any resistance to the egoic world is beautiful

[@ketwals2723]

Even this Ego thing is a complete ill- ussion= nowhere 2 find= just Nirvana or Samsara.

[@JW-ku7nn]

Its like watching myself. Appreciate you openly sharing for the sake of all

[@yishaishasha8690]

I have the same feeling , only she is more beautiful 😊

[@thisawareness2342]

Really appreciate your communications Suzanne. It provides a bit of a 'handhold' in the apparent traumtic tumult of the dismantling here. Love and blessings from the UK 🧡🌺🧡

[@Rob_TheOne]

Grieving your own death at the cemetery, how poetic. I just died myself. Seems strange to say but true. Maybe we really are dead and just don't know it yet

[@redsol3629]

Aurelius says something along those lines. Live like you're already dead. Like you've already disappeared.

[@dgodiex]

@@redsol3629 “Think of yourself as dead. You have lived your life. Now, take what's left and live it properly. What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness.”

[@redsol3629]

@@dgodiex

[@ItApproaches]

Can't be dead, if there never was a you. Though an idea can appear then be dropped and forgotten like it never popped up to begin with. We are but the same. Our character, our life, our everything...a thought. A belief. Hold onto it or let it dissolve away. Ask oneself why do I want to be a character so badly? Doesn't make much sense for an idea or thought to want to be an idea or thought....it has no say in the matter. What is, is. That is, calm nothingness.

[@PuppetMasterdaath144]

Quick! React! EMERGENCY! ALERT!

[@TheAbundanceVibration]

Life is meaningfully meaningless. And it is what it is. That’s a lot of love.

[@darrenyoung4509]

I just wish we could spend more time collectively practicing what we teach than teaching what we practice.

[@TheAbundanceVibration]

It's a very slow process in the 3rd dimension. Our best days are in fact coming though, even collectively.@@darrenyoung4509

[@davidjones7493]

The story was meaningless.. then the character in the story became a dad.. the worry- ing that follows.. how does one still the mind with a toddler about?

[@abrahamabraham9942]

😀

[@bamboobutterfly7566]

Finding this channel, I am surrendering to life, real life. Thank you 🙏🏼

[@Axito2]

Presence takes care of everything 🙏 presence dissolves suffering by not getting rid of it ❤️ Love.

[@darrenyoung4509]

I just wish we could spend more time collectively practicing what we teach than teaching what we practice.

[@Sang-Je]

When everybody I loved died. I found the only value in life is what you add to the glass of humanity and not what you take from it.. even this world has an expiree date.

[@anglikai9517]

Thank you for your unconditional love.

[@suzanne-chang]

Thanks so much Anglikai ♡ Much appreciated as always ♡

[@therelapsedcatholic7513]

So beautiful to hear this kind of thoughtful reflection ♥️

[@marksmedley8967]

The generous sharing of your journey has transformed this life, and the lives around him. These spirits, and their energy, continue with you wherever you may be. With much love and gratitude.🙏🏼

[@carlhammill5774]

My hope is for others to have their own individual out of body experience (OBE) so you can see for yourself that your not your body at all. Once you see this then things like guilt, regret, trauma no longer have a existance in your being because you know they were never yours to begin with. My heart goes out to those still struggling with their attachment to the body. Eventually, I believe we end up in same place and all of this was just a unique ride.

[@essense7482]

The meaning of life is just to be alive. Energy cannot die, you can't destroy what's infinite. Just as we are ♾️

[@benhudson4014]

,,,,,,life is meaning,,,,,,son of Hudson,,,

[@ItApproaches]

There she is. Back from somewhere, and yet from no where at all!

[@samlotusblossommoon]

From no-one to no-one, glad you're back! :)

[@ItApproaches]

Changing to a new location eh? Curious indeed. I'm still in the same location where "I" died. Though I have no desire to travel or traverse the board game. I understand the lack of interest in returning to the old characters friends and family. There is a drawback to that. They want you to be the "you" they assume, to fit in their life without realizing that whatever they want you to be, you aren't lol.

[@macparker3549]

Just occurred to me while listening that this is like my favorite expression of “reality TV.” Such an awesome documentation of transformation, awakening, death, falling away - whatever the hell we try to call it. So sweet to watch “you” in all the non-phases of this, always sharing openly, doing your best to describe the indescribable. It’s always been obvious how ineffable it all is, how you could disappear at any moment.🫥🌻 How you were/are simply sharing, never pretending to be a guru, never pretending there was or could be anything here to grab onto. Exquisitely, perfectly ungraspable. Watching this felt like watching you walk into freedom. So lovely. 🙏🔥🫥⭕️🌻🦋💜

[@annemarieslee7720]

oh Suzanne, this makes so much sense, thank you for this. It has been so enormously difficult to make sense of things, of life, of how to make decisions. I am still in Scotland (moved back and forth from Holland after Dave took his own life in February) and it has been so difficult to find a place to stay. Renting cottages (I know... beautiful too, such an adventure and nature is so so beautiful here) (I am from Rotterdam and living in villages by the sea is so good) and constantly adapting. Also before Dave died we moved all the time. Since nov. 2019 I lived in, really, 35 different places. It now seems the rollercoaster is coming to a stop (but I could be totally 'wrong' about this), with, probably, a place of my own this week in a place that I l0ve and where i've lived and worked before. The loneliness, grief, desperation and total despair have been HELL. I have a strong body, but it seemed like electrical currents were spinning through my whole system, sometimes it felt like burning so so hot and I just didn't know how i could continue living (though never suicidal). It's not Dave and his death, although it is too, it really is losing ALL control, nothing to hold on too.... except.... as from the first moment I arrived in Scotland.... this LAND, the rocks, the sea (I swim everyday and the beauty is beyond words, the water, the colours, the tide, the saltness)... walking and swimming keep 'me' going. Thank you so much for sharing your path, I hope one day we will meet, and who knows. Always welcome here in Scotland (once I have that house!!! haha) xx Good luck in your hometown!

[@danielaquacinella1567]

I was hit by your comment as I'm going through hell since my boyfriend ended his life almost two years ago...and also for me it's not all about his death even if there's not a single day that I don't think of him and miss him deeply...but the hell it's also about the suffering I've been trying to numb for years and years. I was living in Scotland for 8 years, in Glasgow and for a while up north in the Highlands close to Findhorn... I loved it so much...There's something very magical of nature in Scotland and I'm glad that the place is somehow supporting you ❤ By reading your sharing I felt less isolated and if you ever want to talk in pvt I'm here x

[@targetfootball7807]

That IS one of the most beautiful cemeteries I've ever seen on video. 😢

[@theUnmanifest]

An alternative way to interpret (less prone to confusion) is that It's not that you don't exist, it's that the sense of being someone separated was a construct of sensations and thoughts that accumulated over time, and that sense of being someone was never us and never really anything of substance. It's not that nothing exists, it's that nothing exists as the sense of being someone separated believed it was. 🌈💖

[@Jack_Parsons-666]

Yes, There does seem to be a lot of "something" happening... an infinite variety of "something"

[@ericgomez8599]

I often don’t understand what you say because I haven’t experienced what one could call awakening or realization, but it feels nice to hear your perspective about everything even if I can’t fully comprehend that liberation

[@davidjones7493]

It’s not far off.. think of the space between thoughts.. widen that gap a little, just sit quiet for fifteen minutes..

[@yourunemployedfriendat2pm]

love this comment @@davidjones7493

[@sakura-hw1zi]

Truly appreciate your presence here ❤

[@TanyaGarner]

Awe its so good to see you back! Loved spending my Saturday morning with your beautiful light!💖🤗🥰🙌🙏

[@TheDasherlad]

Dying is pivotal... it finishes the fear... nothing is that important anymore... watchfulness of its guises continues... we're addicyed to suffering experiences... thank you.. best love

[@rjfax704]

Your videos always bring me out of playing along, strange to be able to forget what doesn't need to be remembered

[@kimtaylor4480]

Fair thee well dearest Suzanne and thank you. ❤️

[@zahreenasimone7303]

Thank you.🦋

[@roycohen.]

It's good to know I'm not the only one who felt like it was getting harder as "time" went on. You also look like you lost a good chunk of darkness, Suzanne, hope all is well with you and glad to share this process along with a stranger on the internet.

[@ItApproaches]

It's not about losing the darkness because light is somehow better or desired. Both light and darkness are the same thing.

[@LofiMagick69]

What is “darkness”.

[@ItApproaches]

@@LofiMagick69 Half of the equation.

[@buddhasdojo9368]

I hope my message finds you in good health, peace and calm dear. 😇🤗☁️ My heart goes out to you my dear, hopping that the great Absolute unknown will unfold your return back home safe and sound. May your presence shine light and comfort through compassion and love to your dear ones. Keep your pure heart and beautiful light as always. 😇🙏🌺🌹 Your channel is a miraculous blessing, a torch for this heart here. ❤️💖 From heart to heart, from love to love, take care my dear, may your "way" be blessed. I'm so grateful and thankful for everything. 🙏😇☁️💕💝

[@SchoolofScarlett]

Thanks for this. “The next right thing” I get that. Its a completely different way to live and it feels like a free fall most of the time and at the same time it’s perfect. ❤

[@unsettled-w5u]

"The bad news is you're falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is, there's no ground." - Chogyam Trumpa

[@ralphluthy6695]

Beautiful...respect🙇🏼 These walks remind me of the dance of lord nataraj witch face of form is washed away by eternal waving energy, dancing lightfooted upon this heavy old me, shaking the drum of time in one hand, burning it with the flame of eternity in the other. Namaste and much love

[@redsol3629]

Say much without saying anything.

[@davidjones7493]

@@redsol3629 it’s symbolism

[@redsol3629]

@@davidjones7493 It's chaotic, unfocused.

[@indef93]

This video came up in my feed over a year ago and I was terrified and confused trying to feed my curiosity. I completely forgot all about this until half a year later I was cornered into a crisis and awakened and it all went by at the speed of light. No one here anymore LOL. 😂❤

[@kundaliniandnonduality]

A truly beautiful sharing.

[@vincentsikora6552]

Listening to this, I thought that I love you and my body shivered, wetting my eyes. Thank you!

[@kf1559]

Truly an interesting Soul. Im going through my own struggles, which is fun. What you've inspired me to do, is to find a friend similar to you to talk to. I know that Im not alone in my adventure, there are cool people out there with genuine intelligent discussions on these matters. Thanks for that. Best wishes on your journey. From Scotland.

[@janewanes]

Love you Suzanne thank you!

[@hannahlily11]

That was s lovely walk

[@florin7255]

this is basically what is happening to me right now. I’m just pointing out “my finger” on the world map.. choosing a destination with the purpose to never come back to my actual living city. I feel internally like I lived thousand of years and yet my heart it is like that of a newborn baby. I feel intensely “the new” shielding me from getting into the old patterns again. Like my soul is taking the lead and with all my being I’m guided towards something better. Much much blessings to you and there is no fear when we choose ourselves from the bottom of the heart but only long lasting happiness and fulfilment.

[@Arahansannihilation]

I watched a few of your videos more than a year ago. Fascinating, how KZbin recommends you again out of the blue. I will check back a year from now unless KZbin keeps recommending your videos then I'll just keep on clicking on them.

[@thelastbattle189]

If you aren't careful these concepts can become another form of nihilism do what makes the mind happy. Acceptance of the entire self is whats necessary the mind is your ally not your enemy.

[@sergioschiavone4404]

I agree, it keeps you from becoming strange and alienated from this world as a result of meditation

[@thelastbattle189]

@@sergioschiavone4404 Yeah these concepts are not meant to be rationalised by the mind. If you want to learn how to become spiritually aware the best way is to observe nature and children. That's why Jesus said you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven unless you are like a child. Last time I checked children are not apathetic and they do not overthink. They play and have fun having my daughter has been the greatest gift on my journey.If anything she is my guru I call her Buddha baby lmao 😂

[@WaddupBoi]

ignorant. what happens when what makes you happy goes away? you suffer. then you cling on to another thing that makes you happy. it goes away then you suffer again. you're stuck in the samsara

[@Jack_Parsons-666]

​@WaddupBoi what was the original purpose of samsara? Or is it just some cosmic accident that was never really necessary?

[@nadadragonfly5111]

Exciting Time to be here on Earth 💎Allow Allow Allow♾️

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

so this was the last talk from this beautiful cemetery. I feel grateful that you’re ok, I was worried about you a little bit because of the long break of videos. Wish you all the best for your new old home and hopefully there is a lovely cemetery too. ❤️🙏

[@1947william]

Thank you so much for your videos that elevated your audience to share such an exalted privilege of intelligence show and talk as if to your deepest confidant and most intimate friend. I t is such a privilege to spend time with you

[@rajha_]

Thank you for all your sharing. Appreciated the walk and the cemetery farewell. Reading those words on the monument lit up a smile. Enjoy the next unknown! ✨

[@WingZeroSymphonics]

Remarkable moment you have shared with us. Once again it would be epic on wide screen. What sort of attention makes for such insight? Not many have broken down the life process as general as what is seen here. Along walking down the road, the camera angle could make it seem like an infant is being carried in a sack of some sorts. That sort of attention is comfortable and open to the wonders of the world and it could be lost on many of us. Time makes attention feel like its letting go of something which we have accumulated here. Perhaps, our generation can see that with a letting go of this deep nature we can attend to the worlds problems more adequately and carve out a new world for future generations. One that contains the freedom to look 👀.

[@inesbudihaci5819]

Follow your deepest truth and also,remember,whatever This Is,its a celebration of Joy and Love. So,allow There the opposites to unfold naturally,its a overall flavour of sadness,grief,loss which have their place but,lets remember ,Joy&love ,peace are ,seemingly in manifestation,energies in their purest forms. I wish you Joy,Laughter,Love,burdened Suzanne Is No More.❤

[@Sookhi_]

Best of luck with the move Suzanne. We look forward to seeing the next place you find to make your vids. x x

[@ben_y.]

Thank you Suzanne. Fresh and raw, as usual. Best of luck on this next step of your journey.

[@FRED-gx2qk]

Good lass i feel your pain hope you get thru!🥸

[@joshtheegotist]

this is like the best nondual video i have ever heard.

[@off6848]

Search Ken Wheeler metaphysics

[@soindifferent_]

How do you find yourself dealing with work and the other things of this world. How do you stay grounded? How do you enjoy life coming to these realizations. I’ve been thinking and going through this “indifference” since I was a youth. It has its ups and downs, I’m curious to hear what you think.

[@durwhat]

As it is. Thank you Suzanne.

[@jebidiahkorn]

I know what you meant about the podcasts. They become superfluous after nondual awareness.

[@neverokay8]

This kind of youtube content is becoming so rare and I love it so much. Just a person talking to a camera about what's going on in their head. Thank you for sharing your words with us.

[@TheBuuks]

This journey is very interesting, at first I didn't fully vibe with what you were saying, now it's resonating. I understand death and I can see my persona dying everyday

[@dikbutkis2041]

Exactly !! Speaking does not usually help everpresent no born no die

[@soundsgoodunplugged478]

So Long Suzanne … 🌈 May you go forth & expand w/all that beautiful essence & brilliance that is you + may we all reach for same👈 This (last?) vid has helped me tremendously to allow for my release /death, ..perhaps because of its potential finality. Thank you for all that you are, give & have given🙏💚

[@ItApproaches]

She didn't say this was her final video, just no more at this cemetery.

[@yasmeenbusinesscoachingbus1919]

Omg your back ! Love you 🥰

[@novessel6822]

I was kind of listening to this in the background. And I just loved the part at 30:00 where you just walk around with all that background noise. It felt very serene and very in-line with the information you're conveying in this video. Put a smile on my face :)

[@hempfu]

thank You Suzanne for sharing what all of us sooner or later go through in an infinite variety of expressions . I would summarize this as follows : the reality of You , appearing as the person , only concern is to unify through the character whit this reality ; to do so it will bring to the surface any form of separation veiling that reality ; this recognition moment to moment shows You what is necessary to let go off ; the shift is the knowing of this process going on .

[@ajaysh73]

God bless u

[@hempfu]

the world must go through big changes seeing so many young people teaching in the field of non-duality ...

[@UC241]

Whatever you in physical form do, I wish you the best possible outcomes.

[@stevegunn9971]

It's videos such as Suzanne's which should make the dissolution of self a much easier process, if you will. I hope that to be the case with me! Thanks, Suzanne!

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

HEAVEN!!!!! (Can wait till another day??) Cause there ain't no (reason to leave??) The world is a stage (where we all can play??) Another fine reason 2 LIVE!!! -- n' Heaven Can wait?? Every thyme say something it's knot-truth ;) thx! ~Yui

[@off6848]

Constantly playing the game and trying to live is undesirable ultimately

[@Jack-xc2ys]

Good diet is mindfullness of center. Here is well wishes for your change.

[@dikbutkis2041]

In the mountains of az - nature know ! There is no container ! Love u pal

[@benfraser4317]

No production, no cessation, no escape.

[@premganga8822]

🌷

[@johnjacquard863]

Consciousness pushing to a point of experience is like the tip of a pencil and living a life is drawing a picture. There is play in the relative. It can't make intelligence type sense but it is play and creative when the aggregates come together.

[@mehriravel5619]

your explanation is simple and understandable thank you,

[@kbach53]

Suzanne I miss you 😢 . Are you coming back 😅 ? ❤❤

[@RARDingo]

I keep dreaming of my own execution. There comes a point in the dream where I have the choice to resist or accept. I choose to accept & wake up feeling empty, like I'm not transmitting anything in the subtle energy spectrum either. Taking up the burdens of the day through habit, I long for this death each night.

[@gilbertlujan1220]

Yes ! I totally understand ! What you will experience is that it will always come and go , and it will alway remain that way no matter how hard you try , but that’s just it , that’s what I learned if there’s such a thing but just accept it all , and flow with it just feel the beauty in it and yes even the not so beautiful , it’s just beautiful for what it is much love ❤

[@XenosFiles]

You often attribute your suffering to the opening of the void/dissolution of the ego… but your identity is so wrapped up in spiritual seeking that your sense of isolated self is being reinforced this ‘progress’… your loss of ego might fee real but it is only theoretical… if you are truly distancing from the mind and ego, it cannot hurt, because suffering IS the sense of isolated self fighting for something better… the only way to end your suffering is to give up on pursuing happiness, give up searching, give up hoping… if you cant give up and die (really actually die) right now, then you still have some mission you need to explore, so just focus on that until it’s finished… when you are ready to truly give up on yourself, you can come back to the path

[@ItApproaches]

A great personal suffering to the character is required to kill the ego and realize you are nothingness.

[@dgodiex]

Off topic but "you" look gorgeous in this video.

[@dadamager3000]

I liked the cemetery tour, I had no idea how big it is

[@yishaishasha8690]

"Love ❤️ is the answer , and you know that , for sure ! Love is a flower , you got to let it grow ". John Lenon

[@אביאיתן]

Love you from israel thanks you

[@adrianagnew9473]

❤️

[@worldisamazing9679]

All the guilty u feel is a game played by maya , which pushes u to live a normal life , like all the other people

[@donuteater7774]

Thanks for saying this. I struggle with this a lot.

[@benedictcarrizzo3967]

What do you mean by a “normal life?” You can hold a job, have a partner and hobbies, and be compassionately awake.

[@donuteater7774]

@@benedictcarrizzo3967 I think the key is feeling pressured to live a certain "normal" life. Not that it's bad to if you love that.

[@off6848]

@@benedictcarrizzo3967hobbies no. What is the point of hobbies when you’re awake there’s no need for entertainment or curiosity you simply do what you’re summoned to do knowing that the answers are already within

[@sandrag8656]

💝

[@robmichalowski9005]

💖💖

[@MK7of7of7of7]

I told a friend recently "I just want to walk around without my shell on" I wasn't ready, but its ok. I was already ready just waiting to happen. Something like that. It is.

[@helmerkappert5152]

Thank you for your sharing Suzanne!

[@Cassandra_Loveday]

The thing you’re looking for…is inside yourself.

[@michaelcox1145]

Much Love to you on your journey

[@dikbutkis2041]

It would be cool to have a friend that knew. And who cares !!

[@Gidget_O_B]

I hear the El and the Metra Train! I’m going to guess Chicago 😊

[@wrathofgrothendieck]

I was born in the darkness you merely adopted it…

[@darren65ish]

❤❤❤

[@janhokke413]

Heyy Suzanne, missed you, thank you for sharing, you have a talent to put things in words compact and clear. I wish you a successful moving house, love you, take care 🥰.

[@dikbutkis2041]

On who's behalf are we upset sad or angry? Game over !

[@blackpearl1t]

Yep ty

[@vesaversion298]

The tree will be preserved for future generations.

[@christopherwhalen9493]

God. You have awakened and become aware of yourself. The only truth is God, the source of all creation. Not in any Religious or traditional sense. If you are empty, you haven’t embraced the truth. God is in you, it is you. Fill yourself up, embrace the truth that is. Accept God and put it above you for it is the source. It is you. Basically get down on your knees and pray and you will find your place, meaning and peace. God bless you. Anything will become possible again and it always was.

[@ItApproaches]

Is no God, keep on truckin.

[@LoneStarGemini]

You’re so articulate. Don’t succumb to profanity.🌹💙🙏

[@4ntifreez]

this is what my brain processes, though putting it in words like you do makes me dizzy.

[@dikbutkis2041]

Clump of thoughts n emotions and beliefs - disapates and we r surprised with what remains - t h a t our true nature ahhhh to arrive to arrive to arrive.

[@cprauss7254]

That cemetery is huge

[@redsol3629]

You are the same one, these feelings come from you they don't come to you.

[@muller9494]

I would love to see you join the @nondualdevotion brothers. You're lovely.

[@Aquaticphilosophia]

I’ll join!

[@deni0404]

I ❤️U