Through darkness to the light

[@JW-ku7nn]

Its like watching myself. Appreciate you openly sharing for the sake of all

[@yishaishasha8690]

I have the same feeling , only she is more beautiful 😊

[@essense7482]

The meaning of life is just to be alive. Energy cannot die, you can't destroy what's infinite. Just as we are ♾️

[@benhudson4014]

,,,,,,life is meaning,,,,,,son of Hudson,,,

[@Sang-Je]

When everybody I loved died. I found the only value in life is what you add to the glass of humanity and not what you take from it.. even this world has an expiree date.

[@targetfootball7807]

That IS one of the most beautiful cemeteries I've ever seen on video. 😢

[@bamboobutterfly7566]

Finding this channel, I am surrendering to life, real life. Thank you 🙏🏼

[@marksmedley8967]

The generous sharing of your journey has transformed this life, and the lives around him. These spirits, and their energy, continue with you wherever you may be. With much love and gratitude.🙏🏼

[@ralphluthy6695]

Beautiful...respect🙇🏼 These walks remind me of the dance of lord nataraj witch face of form is washed away by eternal waving energy, dancing lightfooted upon this heavy old me, shaking the drum of time in one hand, burning it with the flame of eternity in the other. Namaste and much love

[@redsol3629]

Say much without saying anything.

[@davidjones7493]

@@redsol3629 it’s symbolism

[@redsol3629]

@@davidjones7493 It's chaotic, unfocused.

[@wolflarsen3447]

Absolutely relate to things feeling like poison. I used to be really into health/psychology/self improvement and now when I listen to it I just feel dirty. Everyone is so sure of themselves, so much ego shining through, even if it appears humble.

[@essense7482]

Yes me too. I just do the same things but keep it to myself. There is no one to heal/help. There is only what is. Keeping it most peaceful and just letting things the way they are without any resistance to the egoic world is beautiful

[@ketwals2723]

Even this Ego thing is a complete ill- ussion= nowhere 2 find= just Nirvana or Samsara.

[@stevegunn9971]

It's videos such as Suzanne's which should make the dissolution of self a much easier process, if you will. I hope that to be the case with me! Thanks, Suzanne!

[@kf1559]

Truly an interesting Soul. Im going through my own struggles, which is fun. What you've inspired me to do, is to find a friend similar to you to talk to. I know that Im not alone in my adventure, there are cool people out there with genuine intelligent discussions on these matters. Thanks for that. Best wishes on your journey. From Scotland.

[@hannahlily11]

That was s lovely walk

[@MK7of7of7of7]

I told a friend recently "I just want to walk around without my shell on" I wasn't ready, but its ok. I was already ready just waiting to happen. Something like that. It is.

[@LoneStarGemini]

You’re so articulate. Don’t succumb to profanity.🌹💙🙏

[@novessel6822]

I was kind of listening to this in the background. And I just loved the part at 30:00 where you just walk around with all that background noise. It felt very serene and very in-line with the information you're conveying in this video. Put a smile on my face :)

[@1947william]

Thank you so much for your videos that elevated your audience to share such an exalted privilege of intelligence show and talk as if to your deepest confidant and most intimate friend. I t is such a privilege to spend time with you

[@ajaysh73]

God bless u

[@judithbreastsler]

I know what you meant about the podcasts. They become superfluous after nondual awareness.

[@Arahansannihilation]

I watched a few of your videos more than a year ago. Fascinating, how KZbin recommends you again out of the blue. I will check back a year from now unless KZbin keeps recommending your videos then I'll just keep on clicking on them.

[@FRED-gx2qk]

Good lass i feel your pain hope you get thru!🥸

[@premganga8822]

🌷

[@benfraser4317]

No production, no cessation, no escape.

[@TheBuuks]

This journey is very interesting, at first I didn't fully vibe with what you were saying, now it's resonating. I understand death and I can see my persona dying everyday

[@neverokay8]

This kind of youtube content is becoming so rare and I love it so much. Just a person talking to a camera about what's going on in their head. Thank you for sharing your words with us.

[@johnjacquard863]

Consciousness pushing to a point of experience is like the tip of a pencil and living a life is drawing a picture. There is play in the relative. It can't make intelligence type sense but it is play and creative when the aggregates come together.

[@danielmulhern5959]

❤

[@dikbutkis2041]

Clump of thoughts n emotions and beliefs - disapates and we r surprised with what remains - t h a t our true nature ahhhh to arrive to arrive to arrive.

[@dikbutkis2041]

On who's behalf are we upset sad or angry? Game over !

[@gilbertlujan1220]

Yes ! I totally understand ! What you will experience is that it will always come and go , and it will alway remain that way no matter how hard you try , but that’s just it , that’s what I learned if there’s such a thing but just accept it all , and flow with it just feel the beauty in it and yes even the not so beautiful , it’s just beautiful for what it is much love ❤

[@worldisamazing9679]

All the guilty u feel is a game played by maya , which pushes u to live a normal life , like all the other people

[@donuteater7774]

Thanks for saying this. I struggle with this a lot.

[@benedictcarrizzo3967]

What do you mean by a “normal life?” You can hold a job, have a partner and hobbies, and be compassionately awake.

[@donuteater7774]

@@benedictcarrizzo3967 I think the key is feeling pressured to live a certain "normal" life. Not that it's bad to if you love that.

[@off6848]

@@benedictcarrizzo3967hobbies no. What is the point of hobbies when you’re awake there’s no need for entertainment or curiosity you simply do what you’re summoned to do knowing that the answers are already within

[@muller9494]

I would love to see you join the @nondualdevotion brothers. You're lovely.

[@Aquaticphilosophia]

I’ll join!

[@dikbutkis2041]

Exactly !! Speaking does not usually help everpresent no born no die

[@dikbutkis2041]

Divest from the "world" step by step and enjoy!

[@4ntifreez]

this is what my brain processes, though putting it in words like you do makes me dizzy.

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

Yui complete Yui

[@tokyod-man5182]

Yeah I did the same thing. I left for a few years and came back and most of it was just chatter crap!

[@vesaversion298]

The tree will be preserved for future generations.

[@TheMidnightBandit]

Meaning is just a justification for any behavior under the guise of purpose. It's eye-opening to gaze upon the void, but do you want to continue this way? Is this practice meaningful? If so, I wish you continued success. I'm ADHD and have to have some sort of target goal in my life, or the boredom becomes unbearable. I stumble upon this lack of meaning. I live to create. I live to expand. I live.

[@TheMidnightBandit]

Also, my beautiful senior cat needs love and attention. That's my main driving factor.

[@UC241]

Makes me wonder where you may be traveling too?

[@allygolding3647]

All the best with your move Suzanne. Do you also feel that even though your emotions are pretty neutralised the pay off of feeling inner peace is worth it? How do you feel each moment of the day... would you describe it as calm regardless of what is happening? I do understand you feel the sadness and shitty energy but it passes through you rather than sticks, right? Is the pay off worth it... OR...if you could would you go back to being Suzanne but without the trauma energy returning with Suzanne?

[@Nardz024]

😺🌹

[@JG-qy6fe]

Differenciating between one's own " internal psychological drama" and what is "reality" inspite of ones existance on earth would be a good start. 😅

[@Yuulander]

Nocturne podcast by Vanessa Lowe is a really good one, nothing else really resonates podcast wise.

[@julierawlins5984]

Why always graveyard setting?

[@amirrastgoo9711]

Do you answer questions?

[@shawn6306]

I do resonate that everything is real and not real simultaneously when you said it is and it isn't but at the sametime i don't resonate i competely disagree that everyone we expereince is an illusion and we are an illusion not real because there will always be apart of me that i also think that i think everything is real and we are real i don't think we are actual fake at all i really do think that most of us are actually real and most things we expereince is actually real 100% still i do agree that everything we expereince are not real illusion but i also think some things we expereince are real and most of us beings are actually real organic actually do exist and most beings are not real that don't exist that's how i see it in my point of view perspective perception on it

[@Im.finite]

Hey, love your videos. I am starting a new channel be would like ton interview some awakened people, would you be interested in dialoguing w others who have greed to the project, basically casual three way interview, discussion, sometimes friendly debate on questions we can decide upon that most benefit the general audience of seekers and befits the uniquely rich experiences, skillset so to speak of the person. So far we have about 15 people.who are interested in sharing and dialoguing w each other on film, on trauma, shaowwork, the spiritual path in general, personal wisdom, and values such as compassion and honour, devotion, truth, coirage, freedom, their interpretations. If this is something you feel interests you, wonderful and I will send you more details.❤ Example of a q could be How would you advise a seeker in balancing the art of effort vs surrender or letting go etc But open to discussion ans being edited

[@Im.finite]

Or another q might be What do you think the saying that if you don't have it yet its because you don't want it enough, How responsible are we for our thoughts beliefs emotions and desires given the unique make-up of each entity Art of balancing self forgiveness and self discipline? Thoughts?

[@ItApproaches]

You got some lacking spelling my friend lol. And half the stuff you claim to cover exposes those apparent 15 enlightened nobodies are just phonies. Almost no enlightened nobody has any interest in drawing attention to "themselves" or their character as it's just a headache, a waste of mental energy, we just do what we do, and nothing more, nothing less.

[@liliesofthefield777]

Non-duality is depresssing there is hope in Christ

[@davidjones7493]

Sir/ma’am Jesus said “the kingdom of heaven is within.” That’s advaita We are not of this world

[@JG-qy6fe]

In India we burn the dead, so that they dont ressurect. But allows for rebirth. 😊

[@off6848]

Everything has meaning and meaning is cheap, essentially worthless like a penny Lack of meaning is what everyone is searching for hence everyone incorrectly trying to label everything meaningless it’s just cope

[@ronlynn8530]

Stay away from teachings of non duality it is a poison.

[@jameslu680]

heartbreaking

[@dikbutkis2041]

Deeper depth lol

[@bananas4077]

All I hear is regurgitating of outdated philosophical ideas from men dead hundreds of years ago and of course if one resonates with it it must be what? Self-validating? I don't know and I don't care. Using para-religious terms "empty" "meaningless", "energetic", etc. That somewhat still gave some FORM of meaning and that's it, forms meaning and ok? That's it.

[@thistoo]

I would encourage you to take some time to live life and to more deeply embody before teaching others.

[@off6848]

Being embodied is ultimately undesirable Opposite of enlightenment, animal trap

[@Rob_TheOne]

Grieving your own death at the cemetery, how poetic. I just died myself. Seems strange to say but true. Maybe we really are dead and just don't know it yet

[@redsol3629]

Aurelius says something along those lines. Live like you're already dead. Like you've already disappeared.

[@dgodiex]

@@redsol3629 “Think of yourself as dead. You have lived your life. Now, take what's left and live it properly. What doesn't transmit light creates its own darkness.”

[@redsol3629]

@@dgodiex

[@ItApproaches]

Can't be dead, if there never was a you. Though an idea can appear then be dropped and forgotten like it never popped up to begin with. We are but the same. Our character, our life, our everything...a thought. A belief. Hold onto it or let it dissolve away. Ask oneself why do I want to be a character so badly? Doesn't make much sense for an idea or thought to want to be an idea or thought....it has no say in the matter. What is, is. That is, calm nothingness.

[@PuppetMasterdaath144]

Quick! React! EMERGENCY! ALERT!

[@thisawareness2342]

Really appreciate your communications Suzanne. It provides a bit of a 'handhold' in the apparent traumtic tumult of the dismantling here. Love and blessings from the UK 🧡🌺🧡

[@dragonton4455]

Was your personality this dry before awaking? Every video iv seen you make is you talking about you you you, what you feel what you let go of how hard it was and how your feeling now, then you say i can't explain. Then sure enough you go on explaining more of what your feeling and what you felt, followed by you saying nothing matters. Your energy comes across as depressing. P. S. Why would an enlightened person film themselves talking about themselves while being low key sad with a splash of depressed?

[@ItApproaches]

Changing to a new location eh? Curious indeed. I'm still in the same location where "I" died. Though I have no desire to travel or traverse the board game. I understand the lack of interest in returning to the old characters friends and family. There is a drawback to that. They want you to be the "you" they assume, to fit in their life without realizing that whatever they want you to be, you aren't lol.

[@TheAbundanceVibration]

Life is meaningfully meaningless. And it is what it is. That’s a lot of love.

[@darrenyoung4509]

I just wish we could spend more time collectively practicing what we teach than teaching what we practice.

[@TheAbundanceVibration]

It's a very slow process in the 3rd dimension. Our best days are in fact coming though, even collectively.@@darrenyoung4509

[@davidjones7493]

The story was meaningless.. then the character in the story became a dad.. the worry- ing that follows.. how does one still the mind with a toddler about?

[@abrahamabraham9942]

😀

[@Axito2]

Presence takes care of everything 🙏 presence dissolves suffering by not getting rid of it ❤️ Love.

[@darrenyoung4509]

I just wish we could spend more time collectively practicing what we teach than teaching what we practice.

[@theUnmanifest]

An alternative way to interpret (less prone to confusion) is that It's not that you don't exist, it's that the sense of being someone separated was a construct of sensations and thoughts that accumulated over time, and that sense of being someone was never us and never really anything of substance. It's not that nothing exists, it's that nothing exists as the sense of being someone separated believed it was. 🌈💖

[@Jack_Parsons-666]

Yes, There does seem to be a lot of "something" happening... an infinite variety of "something"

[@thelastbattle189]

If you aren't careful these concepts can become another form of nihilism do what makes the mind happy. Acceptance of the entire self is whats necessary the mind is your ally not your enemy.

[@sergioschiavone4404]

I agree, it keeps you from becoming strange and alienated from this world as a result of meditation

[@thelastbattle189]

@@sergioschiavone4404 Yeah these concepts are not meant to be rationalised by the mind. If you want to learn how to become spiritually aware the best way is to observe nature and children. That's why Jesus said you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven unless you are like a child. Last time I checked children are not apathetic and they do not overthink. They play and have fun having my daughter has been the greatest gift on my journey.If anything she is my guru I call her Buddha baby lmao 😂

[@WaddupBoi]

ignorant. what happens when what makes you happy goes away? you suffer. then you cling on to another thing that makes you happy. it goes away then you suffer again. you're stuck in the samsara

[@Jack_Parsons-666]

​@WaddupBoi what was the original purpose of samsara? Or is it just some cosmic accident that was never really necessary?

[@nadadragonfly5111]

Exciting Time to be here on Earth 💎Allow Allow Allow♾️

[@annemarieslee7720]

oh Suzanne, this makes so much sense, thank you for this. It has been so enormously difficult to make sense of things, of life, of how to make decisions. I am still in Scotland (moved back and forth from Holland after Dave took his own life in February) and it has been so difficult to find a place to stay. Renting cottages (I know... beautiful too, such an adventure and nature is so so beautiful here) (I am from Rotterdam and living in villages by the sea is so good) and constantly adapting. Also before Dave died we moved all the time. Since nov. 2019 I lived in, really, 35 different places. It now seems the rollercoaster is coming to a stop (but I could be totally 'wrong' about this), with, probably, a place of my own this week in a place that I l0ve and where i've lived and worked before. The loneliness, grief, desperation and total despair have been HELL. I have a strong body, but it seemed like electrical currents were spinning through my whole system, sometimes it felt like burning so so hot and I just didn't know how i could continue living (though never suicidal). It's not Dave and his death, although it is too, it really is losing ALL control, nothing to hold on too.... except.... as from the first moment I arrived in Scotland.... this LAND, the rocks, the sea (I swim everyday and the beauty is beyond words, the water, the colours, the tide, the saltness)... walking and swimming keep 'me' going. Thank you so much for sharing your path, I hope one day we will meet, and who knows. Always welcome here in Scotland (once I have that house!!! haha) xx Good luck in your hometown!

[@danielaquacinella1567]

I was hit by your comment as I'm going through hell since my boyfriend ended his life almost two years ago...and also for me it's not all about his death even if there's not a single day that I don't think of him and miss him deeply...but the hell it's also about the suffering I've been trying to numb for years and years. I was living in Scotland for 8 years, in Glasgow and for a while up north in the Highlands close to Findhorn... I loved it so much...There's something very magical of nature in Scotland and I'm glad that the place is somehow supporting you ❤ By reading your sharing I felt less isolated and if you ever want to talk in pvt I'm here x

[@RARDingo]

I keep dreaming of my own execution. There comes a point in the dream where I have the choice to resist or accept. I choose to accept & wake up feeling empty, like I'm not transmitting anything in the subtle energy spectrum either. Taking up the burdens of the day through habit, I long for this death each night.

[@therelapsedcatholic7513]

So beautiful to hear this kind of thoughtful reflection ♥️

[@soindifferent_]

How do you find yourself dealing with work and the other things of this world. How do you stay grounded? How do you enjoy life coming to these realizations. I’ve been thinking and going through this “indifference” since I was a youth. It has its ups and downs, I’m curious to hear what you think.

[@samlotusblossommoon]

From no-one to no-one, glad you're back! :)

[@indef93]

This video came up in my feed over a year ago and I was terrified and confused trying to feed my curiosity. I completely forgot all about this until half a year later I was cornered into a crisis and awakened and it all went by at the speed of light. No one here anymore LOL. 😂❤

[@TanyaGarner]

Awe its so good to see you back! Loved spending my Saturday morning with your beautiful light!💖🤗🥰🙌🙏

[@TheDasherlad]

Dying is pivotal... it finishes the fear... nothing is that important anymore... watchfulness of its guises continues... we're addicyed to suffering experiences... thank you.. best love

[@jan-martinulvag1953]

Ego speaking

[@kbach53]

Suzanne I miss you 😢 . Are you coming back 😅 ? ❤❤

[@anglikai9517]

Thank you for your unconditional love.

[@suzanne-chang]

Thanks so much Anglikai ♡ Much appreciated as always ♡

[@roycohen.]

It's good to know I'm not the only one who felt like it was getting harder as "time" went on. You also look like you lost a good chunk of darkness, Suzanne, hope all is well with you and glad to share this process along with a stranger on the internet.

[@ItApproaches]

It's not about losing the darkness because light is somehow better or desired. Both light and darkness are the same thing.

[@LofiMagick69]

What is “darkness”.

[@ItApproaches]

@@LofiMagick69 Half of the equation.

[@buddhasdojo9368]

I hope my message finds you in good health, peace and calm dear. 😇🤗☁️ My heart goes out to you my dear, hopping that the great Absolute unknown will unfold your return back home safe and sound. May your presence shine light and comfort through compassion and love to your dear ones. Keep your pure heart and beautiful light as always. 😇🙏🌺🌹 Your channel is a miraculous blessing, a torch for this heart here. ❤️💖 From heart to heart, from love to love, take care my dear, may your "way" be blessed. I'm so grateful and thankful for everything. 🙏😇☁️💕💝

[@Natasha-oy5pw]

Girl, You need Jesus!

[@carlhammill5774]

My hope is for others to have their own individual out of body experience (OBE) so you can see for yourself that your not your body at all. Once you see this then things like guilt, regret, trauma no longer have a existance in your being because you know they were never yours to begin with. My heart goes out to those still struggling with their attachment to the body. Eventually, I believe we end up in same place and all of this was just a unique ride.

[@ericgomez8599]

I often don’t understand what you say because I haven’t experienced what one could call awakening or realization, but it feels nice to hear your perspective about everything even if I can’t fully comprehend that liberation

[@davidjones7493]

It’s not far off.. think of the space between thoughts.. widen that gap a little, just sit quiet for fifteen minutes..

[@yourunemployedfriendat2pm]

love this comment @@davidjones7493

[@JustOneWillingSoul]

HEAVEN!!!!! (Can wait till another day??) Cause there ain't no (reason to leave??) The world is a stage (where we all can play??) Another fine reason 2 LIVE!!! -- n' Heaven Can wait?? Every thyme say something it's knot-truth ;) thx! ~Yui

[@off6848]

Constantly playing the game and trying to live is undesirable ultimately

[@rjfax704]

Your videos always bring me out of playing along, strange to be able to forget what doesn't need to be remembered

[@dgodiex]

Off topic but "you" look gorgeous in this video.

[@danmoord375]

As form, you are a young woman, and I am an old man. Alignment of our stories would seem unlikely under these circumstances. What is significant though, is that you are what is being provided. But as you pointed out, there is no real meaning to anything I say.

[@off6848]

It’s the opposite truly Everything has meaning which means meaning is something cheap essentially worthless like a penny

[@_Sp4c3y_]

Didn't watch the video but you're cute

[@sakura-hw1zi]

Truly appreciate your presence here ❤

[@SchoolofScarlett]

Thanks for this. “The next right thing” I get that. Its a completely different way to live and it feels like a free fall most of the time and at the same time it’s perfect. ❤

[@progressthroughpain]

"The bad news is you're falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is, there's no ground." - Chogyam Trumpa

[@Arygo87]

You know the song Metallica -Fade to black right ?

[@johncarr2333]

You appear joyless. That is not a part of non-duality. Your words don't mean anything...but they also don't not mean anything. If you are joyless, then there is one step left.

[@soundsgoodunplugged478]

So Long Suzanne … 🌈 May you go forth & expand w/all that beautiful essence & brilliance that is you + may we all reach for same👈 This (last?) vid has helped me tremendously to allow for my release /death, ..perhaps because of its potential finality. Thank you for all that you are, give & have given🙏💚

[@ItApproaches]

She didn't say this was her final video, just no more at this cemetery.

[@vincentsikora6552]

Listening to this, I thought that I love you and my body shivered, wetting my eyes. Thank you!

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

so this was the last talk from this beautiful cemetery. I feel grateful that you’re ok, I was worried about you a little bit because of the long break of videos. Wish you all the best for your new old home and hopefully there is a lovely cemetery too. ❤️🙏

[@New_Whirled_Man]

Everyday I wake up dead and make the choice to live again. I guess it's part of the mystery.

[@WingZeroSymphonics]

Remarkable moment you have shared with us. Once again it would be epic on wide screen. What sort of attention makes for such insight? Not many have broken down the life process as general as what is seen here. Along walking down the road, the camera angle could make it seem like an infant is being carried in a sack of some sorts. That sort of attention is comfortable and open to the wonders of the world and it could be lost on many of us. Time makes attention feel like its letting go of something which we have accumulated here. Perhaps, our generation can see that with a letting go of this deep nature we can attend to the worlds problems more adequately and carve out a new world for future generations. One that contains the freedom to look 👀.

[@lesudesu1620]

would you say you're able to express more authentically after enlightenment?

[@davidjones7493]

“Not becoming better or worse..” This is like what Paul Hedderman says.. you start to lose interest in the story.. David is fascinated with India.. really curious where Suzanne went.. He’s like you thinking enlighten- ment will “happen” in India.. maybe he needs to go to a holy place but it’d be bhakti yoga. not advaita.. but that love of guru/deity might “lead” him back home

[@bananas4077]

You are surrounded by the grave of others, would it be better listening silently to the ones who walked before you, the ones that gave you the access, the comforts to wallow into a pit of.... This is all so performative to look at. I hope KZbin doesn't recommend me this shit again.

[@ItApproaches]

There she is. Back from somewhere, and yet from no where at all!

[@kimtaylor4480]

Fair thee well dearest Suzanne and thank you. ❤️

[@wrathofgrothendieck]

I was born in the darkness you merely adopted it…

[@oil77057]

get rid of the demons that have been successful in capturing your psyche. banish them to the dark space, and let light flow into your mind. Stop saying the same things over and over, seek God, ask him to take charge of your life !! LET GO !!

[@christopherwhalen9493]

God. You have awakened and become aware of yourself. The only truth is God, the source of all creation. Not in any Religious or traditional sense. If you are empty, you haven’t embraced the truth. God is in you, it is you. Fill yourself up, embrace the truth that is. Accept God and put it above you for it is the source. It is you. Basically get down on your knees and pray and you will find your place, meaning and peace. God bless you. Anything will become possible again and it always was.

[@ItApproaches]

Is no God, keep on truckin.

[@Sookhi_]

Best of luck with the move Suzanne. We look forward to seeing the next place you find to make your vids. x x

[@kundaliniandnonduality]

A truly beautiful sharing.

[@rajha_]

Thank you for all your sharing. Appreciated the walk and the cemetery farewell. Reading those words on the monument lit up a smile. Enjoy the next unknown! ✨