talking about eating disorders while sitting on my kitchen floor at 7am

Ben is back this week to discuss social media's influence on the prevalence of eating disorders. He opens up about how the images he saw on Instagram growing up morphed his perception of himself, his nightmare stint in modeling, and how he formed an unhealthy relationship with working out and food.
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[@saraS187]

I had an ED and it angered me so much when she called it a thinking disorder. It was so hard not to punch the screen. An eating disorder isn’t a thing you can think away.

[@kalcy9987]

I don’t have ED and I also almost punched my phone (you put this very well btw)😊

[@HiHi-lt1cb]

Omg same, I also had an ED and it made me so angry that she said that ٩(╬ఠ༬ఠ)و

[@alliexcx5576]

@@HiHi-lt1cb omg that emoji is so adorable!

[@blair131]

no literally same. as someone who went through one literally last year (and still trying to recover) it made me so mad cuase how are you gonna tell someone what their disorder is especially if you have never been through it. anyways i hope youre doing better now

[@sofia-wn2xv]

I feel you. I don't have an eating disorder but I am diagnosed with ocd. It irritates me so much how some people don't seem to understand that I can't just "stop thinking about it" or "relax". Gladly I have been on meds for 4 months and am doing a lot better. Wish you the best.

[@oliviajdemeyer]

Thank you for speaking on this. My eating disorder actually did kill me(literally- they had to restart my heart) but yet here I am 13 months into recovery. I found this really helpful and I thank you for this

[@kylieshaye6562]

That's so scary, glad you came back ❤ congratulations on your recovery

[@xoxo.sc4rl3tt]

thats amazing bby, congrats

[@kajsiabmelia]

hey bb i know i’m late but congrats have a good recovery

[@gwynethmartin8420]

i’m so proud of you and glad that you are still here with us!!❤❤

[@sierralewis]

i’m very late but congrats. i’m so so so proud of you!

[@charleyyroses]

i love ben so much. not only is he so funny and entertaining on his main channel, but he can also talk about serious topics and share his educated opinions about them. he seems like such a genuinely good person

[@SeleXna]

yes i agree

[@xiikers]

exactly!!

[@alexiswhitfield1796]

Ikrrr

[@rubytbhhh]

right

[@JESUSLOVESYOU033]

Jesus Christ loves us unconditionally+eternally!He cares for us so much that He sacrificed Himself on the cross for our sins!God is so good!💗✝️❤

[@loxsver3336]

i struggle with an eating disorder. It feels like the only thing in my life i can control. I've gotten better, but it isn't "cured" yet. If ur struggling with not just an ED, but any mental illness, you're not alone. there are sm people who care about you !! I care about you. I love you. Im so proud of how much you've accomplished. :)

[@taeraeofsunshine]

[@alyssamay8812]

I understand where your coming from I've been suffering from anorexia for 7 months now

[@Ellies_edits]

:D

[@garfield-guy]

i’ve been getting a lot better about eating, and i wish you the best

[@sirayaoftheweek9607]

thank you!

[@drea.spinslights]

just spent two hours crying about the same thing and i came across this episode and felt way better. thank you ben

[@sofia-wn2xv]

I hope you are doing better 😊

[@Izwizz245]

I love how Ben talk about real things. Like this is my comfort zone. This is very serious things and people go through it and it’s so good to talk about. 😭He helps me a lot through a lot of stuff and hopefully helps other people. Love you ben❤

[@St4rz_dy1ng]

I developed an ED at a very young age because when i was 7 my family always said that if I kept eating that much I would be the size of a house by the time that I was 13 and I almost never ate because of that and I still struggle with it but to anyone else that struggles with them it’s not your fault you’re not alone and it’s gonna be okay

[@LayanHaddad]

I am really sorry you had to go through that 🫶🫶

[@St4rz_dy1ng]

@@LayanHaddad

[@eylul5967]

Had this exact thing said to me a couple times when i was a slightly bigger kid as well :( shits tough

[@LayanHaddad]

@@St4rz_dy1ng Hope you become better 🫶🫶

[@august_unidentified]

I know exactly where you’re coming from, I developed mine at the same time and it was a terrible year of my life mentally. Thankfully I’m far out of the initial issue but it leaves the lingering thoughts of how much have I eaten am I eating too much and other things that brought me down. Thank you for sharing and I wish you luck on your recovery and I’m sorry we had to go through it we’ll get out together :)

[@Brx125]

I also obsessed over my body when I started starving myself. I body checked frequently everyday and was happy seeing my stomach because my ribs could poke out. I wasn't healthy physically or mentally, and I was proud for the wrong reasons. Even if I was skinnier, my brain kept saying I could always be even more skinny. I'm still struggling, but I do eat on weekends. School environment makes my disordered eating worse. I hope I'll be able to repair my relationship with food in the future. This episode really felt like a reflection of what I've been feeling. I'm thankful you shared this, Ben

[@EF-kk3vh]

I’m glad you’re making some progress, best of luck on the rest of your journey :)

[@missyyourbesti]

I'm so glad you noticed that the lifestyle your having is not healthy. I pray the best things for you, and for you to be physically and mentally well. Please tell a trusted adult. (A parent, family member, a teacher/s etc.)

[@bloodygusherunicorneye6639]

Same and i was only 9 :((

[@coffeetea8639]

growing up on the internet i was rlly into gacha life where EDs and poor mental health is romanticized allot in of animations so i struggled with an ED from a very young age I've gotten better and since learned to manage food, exercise, and weight in a healthy way but it never really goes away so ty for sharing ur story ben it made me feel less alone, luv u 🫶

[@LIZGUARD__0]

REAL SHIT. i was a gacha kid too and that’s possibly led to my mental health spiral… but congrats on doing better!!

[@raindown4965]

I’m actually stunned at how much his story resembles to mine. The pool and gym fitting rooms, doing the 10 minute workouts even the pescatarianism it’s almost the exact same. It all went downhill after high school for me because I was in charge of my diet. Then depression happened and made me realize how useless starving myself was. If it’s not going to make me happy in the end what’s the point of all this. It’s a tough journey but it’s, in a sense, comforting to know that you’re not alone and other people did struggle with this. I blamed myself so much for doing this to my body and I still sometimes do because of its long lasting effects but these videos make me realize EDs are not that uncommon. Thank you for talking about this.

[@liv236]

As someone who has struggled with eating disorders, thank you for being so open. Hearing other people talk about what they have gone through is a reminder that none of us are alone. Thank you💛

[@userk7dy]

growing up on the internet being so young can be SO damaging. i’ve had an ed since i was 10, i was never even obese in the first place but i almost died last year because of my ed. i always thought i had to be “skinnier” than i already was, and i always thought that i would never be “skinny” enough. i feel like my ed will never actually go away, like it’ll always just be lingering around with me. people always romanticize eds and it actually makes my blood boil. they dont know how it feels which hurts. don’t really watch your vids a lot, but you spoke on this topic so well. so many people don’t really know HOW dangerous and damaging ANY eating disorder can be.

[@supergrannyep1411]

Thr balance between serious topics and entertainment is rlly good here

[@vlp7]

Talking about eating disorder is a serious matter but it's Ben who's talking about it **Ben's evil laugh**

[@lydia1678]

The fact that i broke down watching this in between your words really got to me when your said your body was made to keep you alive that was a strong word for someone who's been destroying it i needed to hear that

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

Keep being strong 💛 I hope you will get better and i don’t know what u are going through but God loves you and don’t give up! Life can be hard but it’s more than the outside don’t let your fears and insecurities get the best of you God looks at the heart ❤️ Hope you have a good day, i know my comment is random but i felt like replying

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

oh and when i said fears and stuff i didn’t mean to put aside the struggle of ed so i’m sorry if it seems that way but nooo! i’m sorry if i worded things wrong but i didn’t mean anything like that! I just meant that in an encouraging way not reducing anything down to just those feelings and I hope this makes sense 😅

[@marianalover69]

ben talking about a serious topic with his funny voices so it isnt too depressing cus i relate a lot but its really got me laughing😭🤚

[@platysus]

Don't feel bad about watching ab tutorials, I used to watch tutorials on how to fly and how to become a bird.💀

[@meowcrowave]

dayum 😭😭

[@soldejaneirolover]

HELPPP💀💀😭😭

[@cyan_the_uranian]

Birds are cool though

[@kate.1791]

did they work

[@platysus]

@@kate.1791 no😭

[@cocosfilms]

thank you for being so honest and talking abt the reality of what it actually is. i’ve only told 2-3 people and every time they have either ignored me / laughed at me. i thought i had pretty much recovered until a friend (she knew abt this) made a comment about my eating a couple of weeks ago and i haven’t been able to get it out of my head since. videos like these always help and it makes me feel alot better hearing about other people’s experiences, so thank you for being brave and opening up about it

[@minionbaiamonte]

Listening to him literally just made my day. His topics are so good and I just honestly love him as a person❤

[@captinkira3212]

I KNOW!! IT'S LIKE HE READS MY MIND

[@youaremybias2030]

He’s such a real content creator. I love him for that

[@lilyqxnn]

31:43 made me literally cry bc im aware im doing smth bad to my body but i “don’t” care.but tysm i needed that:)

[@VALAK28]

Hey Ben, completely relate to this video. But In another way, I’m currently going through horrible cystic hormonal acne, it’s all over my face, like iswtg u can’t see a single inch of my actual skin. It’s been so difficult, the bullying is unbearable, and it’s starting to spread to my back. Summer is coming up in a couple of months, and the idea of swimming is killing me from the inside out, I also have had bad ringworm on my back and legs because my brother spread it to me from his wrestling, so I have scars all over. Can’t go outside without covering up my face and whole body. I am incredibly insecure. I am glad you talked about your experience with insecurities and teen years ❤️

[@idontlikefuckgmarshmallows4512]

I don’t really know if you want to hear this but this is what gets me through, I always think: life is short. I am a very insecure person but to see my time go by and having to worry for such exterior things, it makes me a bit… idk sad? So that way I try to enjoy more the moments and try to care less about what people think about me.

[@luvusm111]

I hope ur doing ok

[@VALAK28]

@@luvusm111 I’ll try it, thanks ☺️

[@heidi5734]

my acne is the same or at least similar and i know exactly how you feel. i hope things get better for you

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

I’m sorry, I understand that it can be very difficult and damaging emotionally i’m not saying i understand fully but i care a lot and hope you get better and don’t let the bullying beat your happiness 💛 God loves you and you are fearfully and wonderfully made God looks at the heart not at the outside anyway i hope things get better for u

[@totallynotjasper]

As someone who has struggled with an ED (and who is still struggling with one) I’m proud of you for talking about it, not a lot of people understand how hard it can be. I also appreciate you educating people about it💗

[@Mialwhkoo]

This made me tear up, as a person who is trying to recover a ed since a young age i'm so happy your eating now and left the modeling agent

[@nolaseegel3129]

Dude thank you for talking openly about this topic, I feel like I do have an ED (self diagnosed) and this made me feel allot better about dealing with it. I love how you can be really funny and crazy but slow down and talk about the serious stuff in one’s life. I just wanted to say thank you and I love you and just keep up with what your doing because it’s helping me go through my life with a smile (sorry that’s hella cheesy but true) and I’m sure so many other people can attest to you helping them as well go through a hard time. And for you, Ben, it’s okay that you’re still trying to figure out your situation with this and the whole community here is supporting you and we love you so so much. Please take care ❤️❤️

[@stir_knee.oh_low]

this episode gave me so much comfort. i don't think i have an eating disorder but ive struggled with comparing myself to others for as long as i can remember. just the thing with coming home everyday and doing little workout things is something i strongly relate to since that's something ive been doing since i was about 7-8 years old. hearing ben talk about it and realizing that im not alone brought me so much comfort. ive been watching ben for about a month now and this was the first podcast episode i watched and after this he immediately became my comfort person. i think what i love most about ben is the fact that while he is a hilarious, goofy and funny person, he can also get down and talk about serious topics like this. i think thats a really good and important personality trait to have. thank you ben for talking about this and for making me and probably hundreds of other people less alone. i love you so so much❤

[@soupturn2485]

30:20 I felt this way when I was deep in my eating disorder + posting photos of myself. That perspective/concern about how it could impact other people shows a great amount of empathy and it’s uncomfortable to confront but it’s invaluable. Thanks for posting.

[@vivitronn]

I had an ED. And yes, it's corny, but knowing I'm not alone really helps me push through. I agree, it is a daily struggle. My heart goes out to those in more unfortunate situations than me.

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

You are never alone ♥️ keep being strong and God loves and sees you. He sees the heart and I hope you get better and im sorry you had to go through it because i understand it’s a struggle ;-; Have a good day

[@spontaneousarts6959]

Hi ben, im a 16 yr old girl in the UK (sadly zocdoc isnt available in my region) and i really enjoy your content! I just want you to know that you and everyone is beutiful just the way they are and nobody should be feeling this way. I also have an eating disorder and this was very validating as i also have an unspecified one (which is also a possible diagnosis which means you dont fit a certain set of symptoms to qualify for the set eating disorders but its still just as serious) it was fairly easy to see you were quite nervous opening up about this and im proud you had the courage to share this with your fans to spread awarness and fight stigma. It hurts to see how so many people including you are suffering with these unfortunetly prevalent issues. Youre very inspirational and always remember if things aren't going well that you have family, freinds, fans and your dog who unconditionally care for you!💖

[@savanadawg]

Ben I am so proud of you for speaking. It’s rlly hard to talk abt it. I was bulimic when I was very young. I got better but then I turned anorexic. To anyone who struggles, we are here for you ❤️

[@katier7409]

ive been struggling with eating for almost a year and its difficult for me to reach out to anyone in my personal life, so its making my attempt at recovery unpromising, but seeing things like this really uplift my thinking about food and diets. thank you ben :)

[@AirCooledGeorge]

i always listen to these while doing my homework, LOVE YOU BEN!

[@celineee_rr]

I hate the way the vegan teacher said every disorder is a “thinking” disorder 😭😭 and she said eating disorder was the main one smh

[@grr4y]

yall r so annoying hes really talking abt his ed and yall r like "can you say hi 🥺"

[@bloodygusherunicorneye6639]

FRR

[@numbers3728]

Thank you for sharing and coming out about your eating disorder, I don’t have the courage do it so I prefer to act like I don’t have one when in reality I have a pretty bad one, coming around Christmas is when I get the most vulnerable and upset about myself.

[@shawtybae7848]

i’ve never had an ed but i’ve had friends who had and still struggle with one and from an outside perspective, i really wanted to help them bc seeing how it affects them was scary and im so proud of them for getting better and overcoming it, even though it gets hard sometimes. to everyone out there who struggles with an ed, i love you. you are so strong for fighting this whole time. if you have someone to talk to, do it. it helps to let it out and talk to someone and get advice if you want it. you will overcome it, even if it doesn’t seem that way right now. you matter and you are more than your ed.

[@wryn.is.trying]

Thank you for talking about this, the way you discuss worth and how there aren’t really that many supermodel type people in real life especially! i’ve struggled with disordered eating and body image issues, but i’m also disabled and have several genetic chronic illnesses. A lot of people discussing eating disorders imply that your body’s *size* doesn’t matter, worth is about its *function* and your health. And i’m sure that’s fine for some people, but my body will never be fully functional! It was really nice to hear a message about beauty not defining worth in a way that didn’t imply that my body was worthless anyway :)

[@Sturniolosaregoinginsane]

IM SO SORRY THIS ISNT RELATING TO THE VID BUT THE BACKROUND REMINDS ME OF THE MIMIC

[@emmamartinez9365]

thank you for talking about such a serious topic, as someone who struggles with eating disorders and selfesteem and it really helped to know that influencers deal with it to and ben is the most attractive man ive ever seen

[@emileekindasucks]

i’ve struggled with this issue since i was 14 and i’m 20 in about a week. to hear my favourite youtuber talk about something so serious and to be able to relate to it; thank you, ben. truly made a lot of us realise that we’re not alone in this and that way of thinking/living is not normal. i needed to hear this 🤍

[@madisonmontano1231]

I feel like it’s so weird to see someone attractive just in general talk about how they hate how they look but they are like the most attractive person ever idk😭😭

[@rosex4207]

thank you so much for making this , my ed got really bad in 2022,, after comparing myself to others on social media as well . even when i restrict my calories so low i feel like im getting fatter & it’s literally so awful & i feel like i’m always going to fall over in the shower & just in general i have no energy .. and idek how to stop it at this point but this did help me feel a little better, hope ur doing alright ben ❤️

[@lilyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy]

Thanks for talking about this! As someone coming from an ED it can be hard to bring up, but you did amazingly!

[@weirdestcore]

Haven't watched this video fully yet, but I really apreciate Ben talking about such topics. And being honest, his humour lights up the mood by a lot and really helps. So thank you Ben for opening up about your own experiences and spreading information about important stuff like this

[@pijjann]

Hearing this episode without any visuals on Spotify was wild

[@lilykait105]

ive struggled with eating recently for maybe the past two years and i went through a terrible breakup about two months ago and it got worse and there are days where i feel like its the end of the world. but thank you for talking about these things and understanding what people go through. i dont think you know how many people youve helped by talking about real things and just being you. youre funny, real, and overall just comforting. your main yt channel and your podcast got me through my horrible breakup and you made me feel like maybe everything will be okay. your videos get me through my bad days just because youre literally hilarious and youre so motivating and bright. i love you ben and thank you so much.

[@alannanoelle_]

Thank you for being so open about this topic. It’s something that is so normalized which agonizes me so much. With the whole “bella hadid” trends, celebrities getting their bbl’s removed, and heroin chic making somewhat of a comeback, it’s all we know by the standards of society. Being someone who has struggled, there is always help. Even if you don’t find it in yourself, there are always resources you can go to so you can feel heard or not alone ❤ I’m so proud of you

[@lerolero38]

This is the video that got me to binge watch all your main channel videos! Thankyou Ben for sharing! Im currently going throught this situation! I hope I get better

[@6ffluenza]

Ben is such a beautiful person. It’s so comforting to see people talk about their experiences with difficult things (such as EDs/mental illness) because it makes me feel more aware that we’re all human beings that struggle. The way that Ben is comfortable enough to even talk about this topic is so refreshing. I’m so grateful for him and I hope that everyone who is going through tough times with EDs/mental illness/body image issues is able to start recovering. I hope we all get to heal. I love everyone in the comments relating to this episode sm, I hope your journeys continue to improve.

[@bee5161]

Thank you for talking about your eating disorder i have a eating disorder at the moment and this rly helps me feel less alone it just makes everything feel so much better hearing im not alone thank you ben ❤❤❤❤

[@HiHi-lt1cb]

Thank you for talking about this Ben! I had an ED, and reading the comments I see that so many other people did/do too. These things need to be talked about. ❤

[@iamjosey]

sorry you had to go thru that ben, glad ur able to share it !! huge comfort

[@kemarijones1366]

It means a lot to see you making this video, especially to ppl like me with body dysmorphoria and other branching disorders from ED. thank you!

[@trashtings1136]

I really like this type of video , it feels like just sitting down and taking with a friend

[@Kawaii_shy]

Thank you for making this. I struggle with body image, and right around Christmas time is when it got really bad. I wasn't eating unless i absolutely had to, and i lost weight, and i was happy, but then i came out and talked to someone abt it and they sounded genuinely worried for my health. And i could see that my parents where starting to notice aswell (im grade 6-8) i really didnt wanna stop. But i eventually eased myself back into eating normally. I still struggle with it, but nowhere near as much. My whole life i thought i was overeating but i really wasnt. I was eating 2 meals a day +a snack or 2 and i genuinely thought i was overeating. I still do somtimes and i kinda have to snap myself out of that headspace when i get to thinking like that. Its worked so far so hopefully i dont relapse Edit: i would literally shake every time i went to eat it got so bad. I had to trick my body into thinking i was eating by chewing gum. And when i did eat i would literally scream at myself in my head because i felt so guilty.

[@nessplays]

I had an eating disorder (anorexia) at a very very young age. I just recovered and this made me feel that I do have people that think or feel the same way I did and that I was not alone on this journey. I haven't fully recovered because I don't think anyone recovering can "fully" recover yet from an ed. But thank you for sharing this story with us and be proud of where you are at right now, cuz I am

[@evapost5060]

I’m glad you are able to talk about this.. it shows another side of social media that we know exists but videos like these makes it more believable that this “ideal physique” was created by capitalism and greedy humans. I struggle with an eating disorder, and I need to be reminded that I’m not alone and you did just that. Thank you

[@aspen9051]

I love your podcasts so much! they are so comforting and relatable

[@maevelyn.]

this is so crazy to me because ben is genuinely the most attractive, kind hearted and funny guy ever to me. it's so upsetting that he's grown these insecurities when i really think he is the best guy on social media pERIOT he's just so amazing even through his 'flaws' and trauma that he's dealt with. i wish i could just give him a hug and tell him how great he is

[@sandeokiii]

as someone who struggled with an ED, im so glad he spoke about this. i started counting cals and working out obsessively, and not wanting to even eat at all. I never opened up to anyone about it and I had to get over it myself, I constantly weighed myself and cried if I didnt lose anything or if I gained anything, im slowly doing better now, so if anyone is still struggling, you can do it my loves

[@ilovefairiesverymuch4867]

ily ben thank you for sharing this ❤️ i am also struggling with an eating disorder and it’s hard

[@vasukik]

you never know how this made me feel. Im feeling so much better. To know that you are not alone on a particular situation and to have someone who can talk about it without making you feel like trash is very special to me. Thank you so much Ben, its more than just a 40 minutes youtube content about eating disorders. It really managed to increase my hopes by atleast a 10 %. And i am late but thank u again

[@xquanvaer]

Thank you so much for making this! It’s really cool to hear you talk about more serious topics- you brought up so many good points and helped me change my mindset more :)

[@e7eanor]

no matter the topic of this podcast i have always watch though every single one it never gets old ben you have been my idol for years and many to come i love how you come to talk about topics like these and your personality makes it interesting and DA BEST to watch thank you ben!

[@pawicides]

eating disorders suck, im recovering from mine and im so happy that im finally getting a normal appetite and being able to eat 😸

[@AutumnReeves887]

still struggling with a binge eating disorder and have been for years, not realizing i had it until about a year ago. we’ll get through this together

[@gabby_not_gabbi]

It's nice to know that someone can actually relate about... how it feels having ED ...

[@PossiblyCloudHead]

I just wanna thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your experience with us ❤

[@bellcxre]

this is probably the most heart to heart thing you’ve posted. I think that people should realize that they did nothing to have the body or looks they have. Everybody on this planet earth has insecurities. We are all beautiful and have a responsibility to believe that.

[@alicecarmo38]

i struggled with an ed, i started working out and eating colorful stuff like fruits and vegetables and for me it really helped, last year i depended on calories for comfort and as an escapism, now im way happier and can actually search for other ways od comfort like being productive (for me it really comforts me)

[@user-nh4oh5qb7h]

you really help me come threw and helped me with my health problem made me feel more comfortable thank you

[@demonchildsdiaper]

31:40 so comfortable

[@jordyncampbell934]

I’ve struggled with and ED since I was 12 i’m 15 now and its still here social media is definitely the worst especially TikTok video after video just of attractive people and models and people who get millions of likes just for looking like them and then I just compare and compare myself to them and everyone else around me especially with have body dysmorphia I feel like I am the ugliest person in the world like you said you felt it also doesn’t help people always make comments about my weight or looks at school it just drives me deeper into it all I really wish appearance didn’t matter but i love me personality and my humor but no one wants to get to know you unless your “attractive” or at least from my experience. no one really knows i’m dealing with this but i’m going to the gym and eating less/ little amounts and not eating snacks and stuff or foods i normally like but yea i’m glad you made this video

[@catie7466]

thank you for talking about this ❤️ i just typed out my whole story on my notes app but it's literally so long im not gonna put it in this comment lmao but it was therapeutic to write so thank you for inspiring me to reflect on it all. it helped me realize i've actually recovered and healed more than i thought. but real quick - f anyone who says eating disorders aren't an excuse for not being vegan. i have arfid (avoidant restrictive food intake disorder) and will physically gag or vomit if i eat certain things. it's a sensory issue and i can't think my way out of it. my eating disorder is very connected to me having celiac disease (autoimmune disease where even a crumb of gluten can make me sick for weeks and increase my risk of cancer) and my diet is already so restricted from arfid and celiac that if i tried to restrict one more thing i'd probably regress in my recovery and fall back under 100 pounds and starve to death. ok that ended up super long anyways lol if anyone read this whole ramble i love you and hope you have the bestest day.

[@lunamothh1964]

"Some people think they can think things away" vegan teacher: "ITS A THINK DISORDER"

[@ignoranceisurbsf]

Love that your talking on a serious subject,love you ben

[@crucialvv]

i struggled with my body image too, but eventually accepted myself. The thing is, my mom only made it worse by saying I was skinny like a stick, I literally stuffed my face with food to at least grow more thicker, but it wouldn’t work because I have a fast metabolism 😐 it hasn’t gone away completely, but I’m glad I stopped trying to change myself in order for other people to not comment about my body size :)

[@Je3xz]

Listening to this whilst doing my workout and it hits so much. I am doing calorie counting and workouts at the moment to lose weight and it’s not working. It’s making me feel like shit and I am fed up. I’m glad you talked about this Ben and very impressed since it’s so hard to talk about.

[@aaabbcdd]

dude tysm for talking about this. we all really appreciate it so much. wishing you a fulfilling recovery, if it means anything

[@mwhitley]

im struggling with an ED right now and yes a part of it is a thinking disorder like how u think you have to do that to get to whatever point wether its feeling better or getting skinnier or anything else but its not sommething you can just think away it takes alot of time to recover from and im still trying to get better after 2 years and thank you for talking about this topic you have made me feel better.

[@dixiepatterson1370]

I've had EDs all throughout life. I'm terrified of vomit so in my mind I was just like “Well if you don't eat you will not throw up” and that on top of everything else going on in my head and everything happening around me just made me a lot worse. I'm doing better so far. Im clean and so far doing decent. Thank you ben for your content!

[@chacesmith1706]

My sister has one and it tears us apart but i hope you recover just remember that all of us love you ❤

[@Beetlethemedcake]

Not gonna share too much but I thinks it's important too share these experiences so that's what I'm gonna do I had a really bad eating disorder growing up due to unknowning having ADHD missed with (obvious) undiagnosed depression. A few years ago my depression got so bad to the point where I wouldnt take care of myself at all, I would eat 2 bags of chips most days and call it a day, proper meals were only like 3 times a month. I'm still currently recovering from this since its still hard for me to eat much most of the time due to me having extremely bad censory issues and the fact one of my safe foods is literally salad (I eat it in larger portions now though) but luckily I am recovering and getting better. I know it's rare to say this but the sheer amount of happiness I feel when I realize I gained a little more weight is almost completely indescribable. I wish all the luck in the world to others who are struggling I truly hope you get better.

[@luveroza]

I love you so much Ben this video means so much to me, I’m glad you’re feeling better now 💗

[@bluealbumdeluxe]

I just got a "lose weight now" ad on this video 💀

[@W1STER1A.]

DAMN 😭

[@justarandomfrog]

my best friend has an eating disorder... this made me feel better about trying to support her

[@hyungkyun2173]

i'm sorry for u. i'm struggling w that rn and it hurts to watch this- i rly wanna help out by finishing my goal of watching all ur vids- but i cant. ❤u and i feel u.

[@theskylooksabitgray]

I just got out of eating disorder residential and hearing Ben talking about it makes me feel a lot more safe.

[@safeinyourskinn]

im still slowly trying to recover, but thank u ben on speaking abt eds bc they're very serious!

[@icantremember3972]

I’ve had bulimia for almost 4 years and before that had anorexia and it got to the point where I didn’t even see it as me having a problem because I’d lived like it for so long. About 2 weeks ago I realized I do have a problem it isn’t normal to be bulimic it’s literally a disorder and I’ve started working out and focusing on gaining strength instead of being the smallest I can be. It’s helped a lot and I’m slowly getting to the point where I’m okay with gaining weight and being able to eat to actually fuel my body.

[@bitethebrownie562]

As someone who just got out of the hospital from having anorexia (type of eating disorder) it was really hard for me to hear her say it’s a thinking disorder, I was really pissed and I’m so glad that Ben is talking more about them and spreading awareness of them, it means a lot. Thanks Ben :)

[@Kittenluvr82739]

Why does that piss you off?

[@ifart4aliving]

I love you Ben, I struggle with a eating disorder and it’s so hard. My body looks so wrong 24/7 and you really help me feel like my feelings are valid. I’m proud of you for getting through your eating disorder, you help me on my bad days, and your helping me heal everyday. Keep going.

[@Cara.s1place]

I love this guy so much 😭❤️ Ben thank you for making us laugh while teaching and talking about these kind of topics

[@peachy_cosmo]

love u ben

[@Ahhhhhhh848]

Thank you for talking about this topic Ben, I hope you are doing well💕

[@luvusm111]

Honestly scrolling through social media and seeing so many people who are pretty etc is so overstimulating and makes me insecure so its really important to do goals like loosing wieght slowly and healthy instead of trying hard to be like editted pictures etc.

[@idk12460]

i needed this

[@analeighgalindo2601]

I have and ED and listening to Ben cleared so much up for me

[@satanisreal1]

7:13 I always changed in the bathroom at my school and one day a kid in the changing room said “imagine changing in the bathroom if your insecure just say it” loud enough for everyone to hear, they had no shame in saying it

[@Ariel-ww1du]

I’m so sorry for you people at school are CRUEL

[@nedelline]

I noticed that lately I’ve been kinda hard on myself. I feel like the more I have access to social media, the worst I feel. The pressure it gives people to ALWAYS be perfect is F AWFUL. Who decided one day that not eating is normal, tiny noses are better, tiny waists etc.? Social media is a lie we all want to believe it’s normal. This affected my meals, hobbies and focus in class. If you have the same problem YOU.ARE.NOT.ALONE. I’m still working on my my meals. I’m kinda better now. If you are sitting on the table with a guilt about the food in front of you, think about how this food is helping you do the things you love whether that’s sports, whether that’s talking to your friends yk. Food is fuel! Don’t you ever compare yourself to the others. You are the sea, they are the mountains. Both of them are gorgeous, but look nothing alike. Someone else’s beauty is never the absence of your own! REMEMBER THAT! Sending you virtual hugs! It gets better I promise! ♡♡♡

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

You are so right! We are all unique and instead of accepting who we are we are hard on ourselves because we aren’t other people! And you are right, we are not alone! And I think that what matters isn’t our outward being but the inside I just want to encourage you and say that God loves you, sees you, and He doesn’t look at the outside appearance like we humans do. He looks at the heart and i hope you get better and stop focusing on the toxic environment of those types of things and start loving yourself and spreading that love to others because it’s hard but this internal struggle can be beat and don’t let it steal ur happiness and I’m not reducing this struggle at all because it is a very hard thing 😊❤️

[@Hopeinhisgoodness]

i really like ur comment and your encouragement! this is a very beautiful comment just as you are!