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Chemo #3, day 1 and 2 - have I chosen chemo? I'm not free in choosing chemo, I don't think I'm choosing from fear, but maybe I am. How does one know what to do in the face of cancer and chemo and life?
New medication, change from R-CHOP to R-EPOCH. New drug additions changes the acronym. Also, I'm wearing a very stylish "Kimo" bag to slowly infuse the drugs 24 hours a day for 5 days. My oncologist selected this change based on the fish test of the original biopsy of the mass in my abdomen. I have 2 abnormalities, people can have 2-4 (maybe more?), mine are on the BCL2 and MYC2 and it is called "Double Hit Lymphoma".
I really don't do research and for good reason - all the internet searching leads to is a sea of frightening statistics, no matter what you are searching. A 5 minute search for the two abovementioned abnormalities yielded info that I don't want swimming in my brain so I ended my research and will use the lymphoma group on facebook to seek answers if I feel I need them.
I previously shared on facebook that I am Jack's Ugly Awakening, which was misinterpreted by some as my discontent with my bald head, but that's not what was intended. Fight Club, which is not about fighting, has a scened in which the name Jack becomes a way for the narrator to talk about himself and his internal struggles - hence: AWAKENING. So, I am Jack's Ugly Awakening is a reference to the fact that real awakenings are rarely, or never, pretty. They always involve some difficulty or struggle, like cancer, or illness, or tragedy or an introspective discovery of something we don't like about ourselves.
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