That Time Your Mom Said You Got Lost At The Fair, But Didn’t. The Dubious Case of Michelle Lodzinski

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When Michelle Lodzinski couldn't find her 5 year old son, Timothy, at the local fair, the entire South Amboy, New Jersey community became concerned. But then, with 5 year old Timmy still missing, that community turned their focus on Michelle. Join us as we dive into this case of twists and head scratchers.
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[@Find-Your-Bliss-]

Mother’s Day 2024: Remembering when I was 8, my mother, much older brother and his wife and I were at the World’s Fair in NYC. My mother hid from me, and allowed me to believe I was lost. I remember being terrified. So after I was hysterical, she showed herself and proclaimed that would teach me to stay close. It taught me something else as well: my mother was not trustworthy.

[@jennifershaw4756]

I'm so sorry this was done to you. 😔

[@OMG21ization]

I am sorry your mother was so cruel. 😢

[@user-dt3rz2lz7q]

My stepfather took both my brother and l to The Royal Melbourne Show. He bought food only for himself, left my brother, at a stall and said we would be back in 10 mins. He dragged me by the hand around the entire showground. I was 4 years old, crying and exhausted. We we gone for almost 2 hours. My brother was 7 and completely hysterical by the the time we got back. Our names were constantly called over the speakers and he ignored it all. Some human beings thrive on being pure evil.

[@janetpattison8474]

It sounds as if Your mom was a sadistic in this situation, inflicting so much pain in a little kid, intentionally, is off the deep end.

[@mariapadula5017]

I'm sorry that happened. It's pretty rotten for a mother to do that. 💔

[@margiebyrne8910]

As someone who had a baby at 17 this horrified me. Once I got pregnant my only focus was my baby girl and finishing high school. My daughter just turned 40 and I could not imagine my life with out her. 😢

[@larrywakeman4371]

WOW that is commendable. I neer had children, but a relative whenI was 11-19 kept shoving her kids off on ME at hat young age- it iwas so annoying. I owuld say to my parents: I am studying they are NOT MY KIDS!!!! UGH!... Kim

[@mad9023]

You are a rare and special Momma 🩷🩷

[@Fratiani]

Good girl!!!

[@catherinecolby7369]

Is this real?

[@4evrTexan]

I had a boy, he too is 40.

[@Mithras444]

My mom tried to lose me as a very young child all the time, it was very traumatic. She was a narcissist and extremely mentally ill, but I didnt realize that until I was an adult. She used to say, " we've got to get rid of her". I was glad when she finally passed away.

[@Jvel-bq6qx]

Sorry you went through this. Someone should have removed you from this.

[@LilBafta]

Oh gods that is absolutely destroying to a young mind... the woman who was supposed to protect and love you wasn't worthy to have you... I am so sad to read this. You deserved better. Mental illness is so cruel.

[@wolfinadogsuit]

I spilled a glass of water when i was 6 yrs old. My mom made me sit out in her car all day in 100°+ with windows rolled up, stating that if i cried even once or left the car she would put me up for adoption. I thought i was going to die. And thats one of the nicer tortures my narc mom did 😢

[@Fratiani]

F these kind of parents - I can so relate!!!

[@31cats]

I never even raised my voice at my children.I love them why would I hit or scare them. I was raised by my dad a tough machinist but he was quiet and nice.I always looked up to “Mr Rodger’s “ type men that were in my life and tried to emulate them. If you don’t love children then don’t have them

[@wolfen1101]

Why leave your child somewhere while you buy a soda? You don't, you take your child with you.

[@simonenash6718]

Exactly

[@noname-jh3bd]

That tells me that she never even took him to the carnival, I think she either murdered him or had him murdered before she went

[@GrannyDi276]

absolutely❤

[@MagnoliaPantherWoman]

He could have pitched a fit or insisted. Or she made an error in judgement.

[@breeyakukowski8946]

Eh. It was a different time, tho. My ma used to leave us in the car (sometimes with the window down) when she went to do things.

[@jamesfloerke7519]

Oh thank goodness, I was worried that justice would be served. Would hate to start believing in the justice system this late in life.

[@kelleymaxwell3875]

Got a feeling she got off because she "got someone else off", if you know what I mean. Our so called justice system is disgusting. May that beautiful little boy RIP. May she pay eventually for what she did.

[@lowrider81hd]

Can’t have that!

[@CourtneyTunbridge79]

This comment made me both lol and nod my head in agreement. Its not who you know, it's who you blow... that's always been my impression in regards to some cases.

[@jakdelaney3606]

That would be funny if not so heartbreakingly true ❤

[@user-ww5ui4lo8z]

what justice ? the mother is walking free

[@tufalike1796]

so, a guy finds a shoe and brings it to the police station and police does NOTHING... until SIX friggin months later! They should have been RUNNING to that spot and search all around there ASAP! what a bunch of disgraceful losers!

[@dianeross4522]

Exactly. And they had the box to make the comparison before the shoe was turned in. She may have even moved the body after she lied about it not being his shoe. She had weeks to do so before it hit the newspaper.

[@jennifermaddy2442]

Exactly

[@rosered103]

I take it Barney Fife was at the helm of The Keystone Cop brigade.

[@ElysV135]

I am sorry but putting somebody on trial for murder when there isn't an evidence of actual murder....they should have gone for negligence or whatever, but not murder. The fact they she was set free is the consequence of putting her on trial for crime which is notoriously hard to prove. Prosecutors made a mistake there, and they should have known better.

[@ajayfacts81]

Why to do efforts when you get easy salary

[@SR-lr7he]

Literally the scariest moment of my entire life was when I was at a carnival with my kids and my youngest wandered off. She was only missing for like, three minutes, but I can still feel the panic when I think about it.

[@thomasdoyle9748]

I started panicking after about 5 seconds when I didn't see my little daughter at a church fair.

[@ts3438]

Ours happened at a balloon festival when our youngest son was only 2½. Crowded with ppl leaving on buses right next to where we were standing. Hardest moment was realizing we had to move away from the last place we saw him and go get professionals to help. A fireman found him from our description....the scariest 5-10 minutes of our lives! That was 32 yrs ago and it's still so haunting to think about.

[@Ms_Evolvez]

That panic feeling stays with you for life when you reminisce with your now older children!!

[@uly1q]

What gets me is these women are able to go on like nothing happened and either get married or have more children. They are nauseating.

[@fanaticat1]

Yes, I agree

[@jameelamohammed6855]

They days will come God Almighty will deal with them ..sad for timmy

[@hocuspocus123]

​@@jameelamohammed6855This kind of comment gets my blood boil. Why didn't this g0d of yours help this little boy while this was happening to him????????????????

[@indiabilly]

Her stepping down from the fundraising board and banning them from using Timmy’s image followed by her fake kidnapping confirms my belief she is guilty and severely disordered

[@manda.watching.YouTube]

Neither of those things confirmed she’s guilty. I mean, she’s definitely guilty. But if those things were confirmation she’d be in jail. It’s unfortunate there wasn’t more solid proof.

[@debh5780]

I still think she did it !!!😮😮😮

[@jaimemarston6200]

I know right! But god forbid you smoke or sell weed you will be in for life. But hey you can I’ll your kid and get a leaner sentence. So messed up!

[@ADayInTheLife4K]

@@jaimemarston6200 💯

[@vickythefist7062]

Weed makes you lazy .also is a gate way drug . I should know I started on weed and then ended up a smack head for last 29years

[@hrmtty]

Do I think she was involved in Timmy's death? Yes. Do I think the prosecutors had enough actual evidence (aside from character witnesses)? Unfortunately, no. Also, the fact that people cannot be tried again even if new evidence surfaces is mind-blowing. Same with cases where innocent people are found guilty and courts refuse to hear their appeals even when new evidence of their innocence has been found.

[@crimeatoz]

☝️Agree!!

[@MamaOdie]

The case should not have gone to court with that "evidence." The police didn't have enough to even go to the prosecution, and the prosecution attorney shouldn't have taken the case. I feel the mother either did it or knew who did. The tall tale about the 2 guys and the woman was entirely a deflection.

[@stompthedragon4010]

Makes one wonder about the people that makes these laws​@@crimeatoz

[@abselby]

The reason why they do the double jeopardy thing, is let's say there's a very socially awkward person (not that I'm socially awkward or anything) And they just seem fishy. No evidence but they find a blanket, they go to court found not guilty. They find a shoe... No DNA found, not guilty. They find a hairpin... Not guilty. Yada yada. That would be so aggravating, if each one of those was a different court case. They should have continued investigating. A blanket in someone's house? Someone could have kidnapped the child from the house and grabbed the blanket he was sleeping with. Is her behavior weird? Yes! But I was always told that anyone can be found not guilty at any time, but you only get one chance to find someone guilty. And you can always undo a guilty verdict -- with evidence... Even though they hate doing it.

[@CarolRLuna]

Exactly what I was thinking!

[@sashogs]

The irony that she blamed her child for her lack of a good relationship to only hear that her ex fiancee left her because of her attitude towards her own child, and that she would make an unfit mother and wife. Man made a good judgement there.

[@lauriedonnelly7134]

So… no emotion for her son…but full of smiles and relief when she gets out of prison. That’s all I need to know/see.

[@cobainzlady]

she had other kids at home.

[@shadowhacker27]

Women Privilege.

[@MinstrelSauce]

When I saw she was from NJ I pronounced her guilty

[@AWEismaschine]

@@cobainzlady Shame she buried the first one she had to come home to.

[@lastupenda3049]

The Chippendales thing has me dumbfounded. Bizarre.

[@minutewithmark7564]

I just saw that part.. totally bizarre, strange, weird and needless to say awkward..

[@whitedragoness23]

It shows you her priorities when it came to search for her son. She already knew he was deceased and wanted to party.

[@Yosetime]

That was almost as crazy as her fake kidnapping. She is definitely one who likes the spotlight!

[@Yosetime]

@@whitedragoness23 I think in her warped mind she figured it would make more money. And I think she was after that money. When they shut her down she no longer wanted anything to do with a fund for Timmy if she could not get at it herself or use it as another attention scheme. She is totally crazy!

[@tylerthompson1842]

She’s definitely a sociopath probably psychopath and nymphomaniac as well

[@katierice9247]

Can we say, “Casey Anthony” before Casey Anthony? 😢 RIP little man 💔

[@exoticalBecky_Miami]

I was thinking this is a mix of Casey Anthony and Susan Smith

[@angelalane1307]

Immediately who I thought of! Crazy.

[@floro6632]

I’ll double down with « Casey Panini »

[@Annii_Oakley_]

For real…

[@donut_life12]

Sherri papini and her use of public funds ​@@floro6632

[@americandevo]

"Stand here while I go over there to buy a soda". At a fair. Full of people. NOPE. You never let go of a 5 yr. old child's hand in a place like that.

[@souxcasa]

In the 80s you did. That's why we don't any more

[@jonny-b4954]

Not that crazy. If he's in eyesight. People are way overprotective nowadays through a hysteria and paranoia of stories like this. When in reality, it's SO rare. Let alone, when I was growing up, it was a TOTALLY normal thing. I was 6 and 7 and allowed to roam the entire neighborhood alone and nearby woods, until the street lights came on.

[@timdial5720]

Different time.

[@andsoitgoes1142]

The fact of her repeated lies, including the false kidnapping, convinced me of her guilt.

[@billhesford6098]

Yes, no reason to lie if you are honestly looking for the child you love. Why throw searchers - police - off that scent with misinformation? She did it alright, but the evidence was not there.

[@reamer59]

@@billhesford6098 It's funny how they can convict an innocent person with obviously no evidence but can't convict an obviously guilty person with no evidence :)

[@elizabethprater-hughett8021]

Poor little Timmy was never at that carnival......

[@allyw1364]

Exactly.......😪

[@divawendy]

Exactly, she is insane, she killed that little boy,, she never took responsibility for the little one always placed him in care of others ,

[@tck3041]

❤

[@czarinacourtneyal-marmont4699]

She couldn't let him even enjoy that stupid carnival. Perhaps his 1st time even. I'm sorry but who tells their toddler “wait next to this building while I stand on line for the ice cream she had promised him all day. Idk about ubut Idc any kids in my area nevermind in my care much less a toddler! What a pos! Idk how people do ish like that+have no endgame. They only “plan” /fantasize about the killing. Perfect opportunity, day further for the exact reason. #NJLaw is whack! #Nepotism, corruption, RICO, etc. All cash businesses, etc. Poor baby what kind of monster does that?!! #FLisWhack

[@cadillacdeville5828]

😢😢 unfortunately

[@irishauntie3941]

5 years for murdering her son! Shame, no justice for Timmy. 🤦‍♀️

[@tracypolselli1464]

Kids truly don’t matter.

[@chocolateprincess5612]

Ironic that he was 5 yrs old when he died and she served only 5 yrs 🤔

[@katy4714]

She got nothing in the long run.

[@katy4714]

​@tracypolselli1464 Only the ones that can be sold into foster matter to the system

[@BoHror933]

Its because he was a boy.

[@tanyakopel]

I always find it fascinating when people remember things so well from decades before. I wouldn't be able to recognize MY OWN blanket from 25 years ago

[@AlaieaChakeri]

I won't remember anything. I live day by day with a short memory.

[@TheSourceOfWit]

I was thinking the same thing, with the addition: they probably didn't remember it at all. They either thought they did or were pressured somehow into saying that they did.

[@AleisterCrowleyMagus]

Sorry but no way in h*ll were they truly remembering a blanket they saw 2-3 times 25 years ago while babysitting. The claims were absurd and if I had been on that jury the absurdity of such “evidence” to prove a *MURDER* case would have enraged me.

[@xcountryrunner9]

I think it depends on the person, some have visual or photographic memory and also things in childhood tend to stick in the memory better. All those babysitters were very young and maybe there was a story behind it or it stood out in some way. I can tell you right now there are a few blankets I can easily picture from my childhood and I haven't seen them since then. I may not remember every single detail but I could certainly describe them and if I saw them it would be even more clear. Though only seeing a blanket a few times is different though again unless there was a strong memory or story attached to it.

[@lisaprice8777]

Some people do remember things like that......not everyone's the same. She is guilty but karma will get her for what she did/let happen to her beautiful baby boy

[@popup369]

The description of the woman Michelle said took Timmy looks like a description of Michelle herself 😮

[@tanyadepoalo4312]

I thought that same thing! She was describing herself. She is a Narcissistic psychopath. The police did not do their job!

[@binder946]

maybe it was her way of mocking cops and she was sleeping with the cops 😢

[@trueheart8739]

Yes! I said the same thing.

[@fanaticat1]

Hello, Crime A-Z! Thanks for presenting this case! I went to school with Michelle Lodzinski, which was why I suggested it. We didn't hang out in the same social circles, but I remembered her as being a bad ass...meaning that she could hold her own in a fight. When I first heard about this, I immediately thought she was guilty. As time went on and her stories kept changing, it confirmed my suspicions. Would you believe that, when she was arrested in Florida, she was working as a paralegal for a prestigious law firm? Imagine their shock when they found out that she was arrested and WHY. Amazing that a prestigious law firm didn't do a background check on her. Thanks again for presenting case, you did a great job!

[@azazello1784]

Lodzinski sounds like illegal polish immigrant... Also, who in the right mind gets pregnant at 17???

[@Yosetime]

Actually I'm sure the law firm knew who she was. But perhaps they believed she was innocent or did not have a fair trial. We just don't know. But I imagine it would have been a blow them either way.

[@fanaticat1]

@@Yosetime At the time, she hadn't gone to trial. She'd been working for them for some time before she was arrested. I'm sure they were shocked by her arrest. I'm wondering how their clients felt about it?

[@MyMissingPeace]

She has that look in her eyes and the way she looks. That sounds awful. I just see it. Her expressions.

[@kimmccabe1422]

Ohh they do now! Can't even get any crappy apartment without super backgrounds. I get it too. Protects we crappy neighbors lol

[@beanwaddlers1883]

I hate to say it but they really didn’t have enough evidence to convict beyond a reasonable doubt in this case and it’s a real shame. I personally believe she’s the most likely culprit too, but the evidence left far too much room for doubt. They really dropped the ball by not showing the evidence found with Timmy sooner so as to have more solid proof that she did in fact own those items. Showing these things 20 years later to a niece with a very fresh grudge was a very bad move. Utterly disappointing.

[@friendformationbot]

i agree. regardless of the overwhelming circumstantial evidence, it would have actually been a miscarriage of justice to convict on this evidence and would have set a bad precedent for other cases going forward. the appeals judges made the right call here

[@dekklin5517]

Exactly! They won't believe rape victims when they go to court months later because it was "so long ago" but they'll believe teen babysitters memories from 25 years ago lmfao 🤣 our joke of a justice system.

[@reignman30]

That's the conclusion I came to as well. There's enough circumstantial evidence to suggest she's guilty, but c'mon man, not beyond a reasonable doubt for first degree murder. Amateur prosecutors. If I was a jury member I would've laughed at that blanket evidence.

[@heckinCHONK]

I agree the investigation was slopy. I absolutely believe she's guilty but the lack of forensic evidence in concerning. Witnesses saying someone owns a blanket is just not enough in the legal system. This poor kid deserves justice.

[@squaredcircle2011]

Totally agree. We all want it to be her, but someone is innocent until proven guilty and there was simply not enough proof in this case.

[@jazzerat]

How did they not notice her supposed drawing of the suspect was of her own face? It doesn't get any more Freudian than that!

[@theemeraldcity94]

Such a cute little boy😢. She didn’t deserve such a gift. Someday she will be held accountable.🙏🏻

[@bluedragonfly8139]

Children are the result of unprotected or poorly protected sex, they're not 'gifts' or something people put any real effort into having, in most cases. Maybe if we all understood that we wouldn't have people like this killing their kids.

[@cobainzlady]

@@bluedragonfly8139 yes they are gifts from God, and people like you just don't value them.

[@ace0spades686]

The Chippendales thing was super weird.

[@Brandoncye]

It was her way of trying to have a good time/party before she thought she would be locked up. Just my opinion

[@poetcomic1]

The first time super weird.... the second time grotesque.

[@misplacedsouthern1236]

Perhaps, but not evidence of murder, just shaky judgement.

[@SheilaV]

Shows her lack of maturity and twisted priorities. Stereotypes do have a kernel of truth but can’t be considered proof in a court of law. Sadly this woman was the personification of this very stereotype.

[@candaceralls]

😂 "she wasn't kidnapped, she took the bus"

[@latinaonangel]

😂😂

[@latinaonangel]

😂😂

[@karenshare978]

😂😂

[@phaedrapage4217]

Eh, it's a fine line really...

[@priyadharshinisivakumar357]

Yes !!!! What a shame

[@Granny_Cat_Lady]

To me the most telling thing in this case is the interview Michelle gives to the press when she is released - she does not reiterate her innocence, neither does she mention poor Timmy ... She refers to her family, but Timmy is not even mentioned, because as far as she's concerned Timmy no longer exists, not even as a memory, he was just something that inconvenienced her for the last 25 years, which is absolutely devastating & disgusting!

[@vortex6574]

Yep. And as a mother I would be he!! bent on finding the person who took my child, she never even mentioned it. She is so guilty. Pathetic.

[@chriscody1761]

I always had my kids' hand when they were young, when we were out. They never left my side.

[@katrinaoliver4167]

Right? If my son were a wanderer and didn’t stay with me and hold my hand in crowds, I wouldn’t take him to busy places Iike that!

[@christinehutchins123]

Well she wasn't trying to keep him safe, she was trying to get rid of him....

[@GrannyDi276]

absolutely❤

[@liscatcat8756]

I was 13 when the jamie bulger uk England case was on the news , it shocked me so much, that when I had my daughter at 20 I made sure never out of my sight hand held tight

[@mss1500]

So grateful for a human voice and not an aI like almost every other crime channel I've seen.

[@HumanimalChannel]

I switch off as soon as i hear AI. Cannot stand it. esp about crime

[@nono86753]

​⁠​⁠@@HumanimalChannelSame. Any channel using AI, I Immediately stop listening. Nothing like a real human voice

[@ShwintyKat]

I hope this is sarcasm, as soon as I heard this "guy" speak I knew it was an AI

[@Tracylynn62]

Me too

[@jeremystreeb1737]

This is an AI voice haha.

[@thecaptainsnark]

she's definitely guilty but I wouldn't have been able to convict her on that evidence, honestly. As much as it sucks because a little boy doesn't get justice, the next guy might actually be innocent, and it sets a terrible precedent if get to decide someone is guilty, not based on evidence, but on "i just have a feeling." Sometimes feelings are wrong. The other people in Timmy's life failed him before a courtroom ever could.

[@dianeross4522]

I was thinking in the very beginning of this video that she should of also moved to Florida when her sister did. She clearly needed the support. Even if she abandoned him and left him with the sister at least he would be alive.

[@Uapa500]

I agree.

[@l.c.7955]

That happened to Scott Peterson. And no one really cares 😂

[@inagaddadavidababy6163]

If the crime occurred today, there would be cell phone, gps & CCTV evidence that could have been convincing one way or the other.

[@androgynylunacy]

Yup that is exactly what I was thinking. Like you feel angry that she got away with it, but from a legal standpoint, there simply was not enough evidence.

[@4jesus1981]

I pray this woman never rest comfortably. She got away with murder

[@Itsabeautifulday3201]

Why did no one in this family tell her they would take that baby and take care of him? I couldn’t be a family member and see that child not being loved by her and not step up and say I will take him. I don’t care how broke I was I couldn’t just stand by and watch my nephew or little cousin be neglected. This is sickening.

[@Nola5427]

I agree with you to an extent but not to sound rude it is not the familys responsibility to take care of her child, she had options, some ppl had their kids and don' t want anymore and there is no shame in that, I am 47 I had my sweet boys who I love dearly, who are all teens and up, I have no interest in having more myself, I will cheerish the day I become a Grandma.

[@Itsabeautifulday3201]

@@Nola5427 im 41 my oldest is 26 (adopted) my youngest is 9 I’ll be a grandma in two months I totally understand what you’re saying but I still would be willing to inconvenience my life for a child that needs me to love and care for them. Through the years I’ve offered to take my two different cousins children. They were both addicted to meth and don’t care for their babies like they should. I’ve tried my hardest even promising that they can keep the money they get every month for the children. I just can’t wrap my mind around not stepping up to take care of a baby especially a family member that needs you. I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night knowing that baby is going through hell.

[@Nola5427]

@@Itsabeautifulday3201 I get it.

[@rwilliams9304]

@@Itsabeautifulday3201 Why did you feel the need to put that your child was adopted?

[@Itsabeautifulday3201]

@@rwilliams9304 to explain the small age gap between he and I.

[@CrimsonSunFlower]

She described herself in the composite drawing.

[@susanpendell4215]

Ah, you noticed that too.

[@sabrinayetley1291]

Very common, when there's no other real suspect, the actual suspect often subconsciously describes themselves! What a strange phenomenon...

[@SarahSherman-di7ku]

Right?

[@reignman30]

@@sabrinayetley1291 I thought they usually describe a black man xD.

[@carolyntankersley3475]

My thoughts exactly!!

[@amandageyman8033]

I'm sure Timmy would want to impose a life sentence on his "mother".

[@samanthafairweather9186]

That really pissed me off! 😡 She had no problem imposing a death sentence on poor Timmy! May he rest in peace! 🕊️🙏💖

[@g.borgia5100]

I'm sure Timmy would prefer to be alive

[@simonenash6718]

I don't know how lawyers sleep at night.

[@christinehutchins123]

Right? She took his life, why would he want them to go easy on her.

[@binder946]

😭100%

[@sonsosavage9987]

The defense attorney should have been charged with perjury for saying she "loved her child more than life itself."

[@krystyna89lopez]

Her lawyers should be ashamed of themselves

[@tracyboaca6687]

They are lawyers. They are doing their job just like you and I. The people you should be blaming are the police for how they mismanaged the investigation from day one. Had the investigation been handled properly, then the child would have been found sooner, and her conviction would have held.

[@AmbuBadger]

​@@tracyboaca6687The outcome sucks, but I agree-- letting cops get away with lazy police work will just lead to a world where anyone can be convicted on trumped up charges. If the cops did their job correctly all the time, it would be enough to put lawyers out of business.

[@tracyboaca6687]

@AmbuBadger that was incompetent police work. They did not know how to investigate a child abduction/murder. This was beyond lazy. The fact that the child laid there for so long was due to incompetent police work. Lazy had nothing to do with it.

[@krystyna89lopez]

@@tracyboaca6687 lawyers can deny cases. They don't have to take everyone's case

[@tracyboaca6687]

@@krystyna89lopez that isn't how our legal system works.

[@tonishelden6503]

So sad for the lack of justice for Timothy. There is a special kind of hell for child killers. Thank you for sharing this case.

[@Mws556]

Actually, there's not!

[@misplacedsouthern1236]

Someone did kill the child and sadly they got away all while the Prosecutors only focused on the Mother. This isn’t new as Police and Prosecutors have done this in many, many cases especially in New Jersey. Miscarriage of justice and incompetent Prosecutors. There’s someone out there who is guilty and may have gone on to kill others we aren’t aware of which is why no Prosecutor should ever stop looking for others.

[@InspektoraDeFrutas.]

@@Mws556 Actually, there is! Hell has different compartments for different kinds of sinners! And they’re all tortured her in different ways, and the extent of the torture is also different. Because somebody who just stole a pen from a job does not deserve the same eternal punishment as someone who murders their children, or a serial rapist/murderer, etc.… Can you get this simple logic? This is not just common sense, it has been confirmed in thousands of different hell testimonies from the children of God. ⚠️📛⛔️ 🔥

[@cobainzlady]

they should investigate that one guy who the cellmate told on though ! the blanket is generic and could have been from any store, used by anyone.

[@cobainzlady]

@@InspektoraDeFrutas. merely stealing a pen DOES NOT EARN YOU A PLACE IN HELL. and you never got your ideas from the Bible.

[@AnnaGreen-ui6dx]

My God why kill him ,give him up to family .Then to have two more kids what a piece of work.I would be in a mental hospital if any of my kids were missing.She is not a mother.

[@JulieIelasi-lt7yp]

Yeah me too 😢

[@rudra62]

Or, as a young single mother, she could have given her infant son up for adoption. Even if she'd waited a few months or a couple of years before she accepted that he was more than she could or wanted to handle. There are waiting lists for people wanting to adopt healthy, white, boys as babies! Killing him should not have ever crossed her mind.

[@sandikucia1398]

I was a single mother in 1985 and worked 2 jobs. I would have died if anyone did that to my son, and she had no emotions and then went and had 2 more kids! She wasn't fooling anyone, just a few judges.

[@Milen983]

@@sandikucia1398Judges aren’t imbeciles to be fooled that easy. Pretty sure they were bribed.

[@cobainzlady]

you are assuming she killed him. might be totally wrong. for instance that blankie is generic and could be from anywhere.

[@Carmen88888]

It is true that any young mother experiences financial and social issues. I raised my son myself, and had to do so with absolutely no family help. It was so difficult not pursuing my goals, not finding a decent partner, not having time to hang out with friends, not doing adult things, not being well rested or having a roof over our heads all the time. And so often I would be so lonely, scared, overwhelmed, physically exhausted that I would wish I were dead. The feeling didn’t stem from selfish depression, it was just the result of having too much on my plate and being denied a helping hand by my extended family AND social services when I asked for anything. But I never once thought about killing my son to get rid of the “problem”. Simply imagining him not being alive was traumatic. To have the ability to kill your own child must be severe mental illness.

[@tarot-plants-mentalmoods]

What exactly is "selfish depression"?

[@areagial]

This was 100% my life, too - all of it! I wish I had known just one person going through the same back then! I feel you and I hug you!

[@yvonnejohnson772]

My mum brought a big family on her own every one of use was wanted to and loved

[@melfarm9109]

Your whole comment is so spot-on for me, it was like I wrote it! We got through it though.

[@yvonnejohnson772]

@@melfarm9109 I we hade the best mums any one could have

[@pika23]

My mom moms sister was OBSESSED with this case. She was into true crime before it was cool. We lived in NJ and the kid was me and my brother and cousins age(her grandson).

[@heidimedel]

She didn't even hide her Psychopathy. Chippendales...vacation in the Bahamas, telling people she didn't want to be a mother, abusing the kid in front of others, making up a fake FBI agent, taking a Greyhound.....there's so much to say here. She reminds me a lot of Diane Downs. I'm glad they're both where they belong. Poor Timmy never stood a chance.

[@androgynylunacy]

Where both of who? They threw out the conviction against Timmy's mom, and she's a free woman. She spent 5 years in prison. She belongs in prison. Not free...

[@user-tv1qb6vf5r]

I also thought of Downs while watching this.

[@jannea4318]

Excepting Michelle is not where she belongs. Her conviction was overturned. She served only five years. Gross miscarriage of justice. What a piece of shit person.

[@heidimedel]

​@androgynylunacy I think I missed the last 3 minutes of this video. She definitely belongs in or under the prison.

[@InspektoraDeFrutas.]

@@heidimedel How can you miss the ending of the video? Unless you turn it off earlier, there is absolutely no way to miss it! 😳🥺🤯🙄🤔🤔 I mean, this channel is called crime from A-to-Z, and they specifically tell the viewers to watch everything including the last part! 😮😮

[@paulmarks9063]

when she's giving her statement after her release, it's interesting how she never actually says she's innocent of the crime or even mentions her son. that kind of tells you everything

[@InspektoraDeFrutas.]

Yep! Exactly. Case closed.

[@reignman30]

Yeah I cringe when they forget to mention that there's still a killer out there we need to catch. Nah I'm just gonna go home and relax. At least OJ got that much right lol.

[@peteshop]

I really enjoyed your delivery style. You don’t over sensationalize it.

[@valerielstevens4712]

Her family members enabled her behavior. I never would have believed her. If she were related to me, I wouldn't have anything to do with her!

[@hopelesslyinquisitive9839]

Shoutout to the print shop that printed the FBI business cards. WTF?…

[@kohchangfarang]

Good call😂

[@donnablack6280]

@hopelesslyinquisitive I wish I could repost your comment 😂👌

[@tufalike1796]

?? you just buy blank cards and print your own on your printer at home!

[@mistyinltown79]

@@tufalike1796 Not so much in 1994, most home printers (If you even had a computer) were NOT color, and most were shitty ass dot matrix printers with the hole strips on the sides that you had to tear off and would never tear off cleanly.....

[@tufalike1796]

@@mistyinltown79 I'm 63, I KNOW about printers back then...

[@watsonspuzzle]

What a complete injustice for Timmy. He matters. She doesn't.

[@erikschmidt476]

You want to convict her of murder simply on the basis that she is a garbage person?

[@jordannarandle]

Someone said that they saw Michelle on her own at the carnival BEFORE Timmy went missing. She essentially described herself for the composite sketch, probably because she couldn't give a description of an imaginary kidnapper. The fact they found things of hers that suggest something going awry. Her ever changing story, and then going along with a detectives FAKE story about a kidnapping ring. It's a shame that there's no physical evidence to confirm it though. She's just clever enough to get away with it.

[@markjackson3531]

@@erikschmidt476 She obviously did it. Plenty of circumstantial evidence.

[@user-ps2nk7uk7c]

How gross that anyone could hurt a little one, especially his ‘mother’. RIP Timothy 🙏🏼

[@mrsrock7641]

Lost my step daughter for 30 seconds at a safari park once…. I don’t EVER want to feel that anguish again

[@davidmartin2442]

She's as guilty as the day is long but proving it in a court of law is a completely different story. The prosecution failed Timmy.

[@cricket-bg4tz]

Yep. The prosecution and the police

[@badgyrl310]

Their only evidence was a blanket. The case was pretty weak imo.🤷‍♀️

[@sabrinatscha2554]

Sometimes there’s just not enough evidence

[@KarmicSalt]

there is zero proof she did it

[@bluedragonfly8139]

@@KarmicSalt LOL, the fact that she lied her ass off and then went and partied after he was dead isn't enough proof?

[@BriDia3]

The second that teacher walked in with the shoe and it matching the description of the poor boys (even if it was just any TMNT shoe), they should've went through that marsh area with a fine tooth comb! Regardless of her saying it's the correct shoe, considering all her previously ever changing stories. I can imagine how it drove the teacher nuts but hearing anything. I would've probably attempted to search the marsh myself.

[@thebewitchinghour831]

The shoe looked awfully clean for being out in a marshy area that long to me. Like it had recently been put there.

[@reignman30]

And why wasn't the teacher investigated? I think it's odd to find evidence and bring it to a police station. He contaminated the crime scene and the evidence. Well ofc my fingerprints are all over it, I picked it up and brought it to the police station, whooopsie.

[@g.borgia5100]

he should have not touched it but simply have called the police

[@katrinaoliver4167]

@@g.borgia5100I thought of that too, but in the early 90s it’s likely he didn’t have a cell phone on him

[@evelynwilson1566]

As others have said, he likely didn't have a phone, but also he could have just panicked and not be thinking logically.

[@gerrym.9354]

13:08 How was the first search of that area botched so badly that the 2nd search yielded the other shoe just 30 yards away from the first, as well as a skull, 11 bones, a blanket, a pillowcase, a plastic trash bag liner, a Ninja Turtle balloon, two size 6 waste bands and a shovel, that were all missed the first time? 🤔 Kudos to the concerned teacher who pushed the issue and forced law enforcement to do a deeper dive.

[@rrjohn5]

#1. She is guilty as sin, #2. There wasn’t enough evidence to uphold the verdict, which sucks for the little boy who deserved justice.

[@zombiechicken7114]

How idiotic of the police not to check the shoe box and just trust her when they already had her marked as a liar??!! Awful police work crops up way too often in cases and shows the police need a total overhaul. Better training and procedures must be put in place asap.

[@adriennewalker1715]

No normal person would leave a small child, alone in fairground to buy a drink.

[@bonnylouwho76]

I agree, I tried to keep my children in their strollers and my oldest son had a harness with a leash on it. Now you can actually wear a belt to attach the leash end to your waist. If it works for your dog why can't it work for children to stay close?

[@jesscruz6912]

This was 1991. Times were different back then. Kids played outside all day long. No ones parents followed them around all day. No one thought twice about leaving a kid in the car while they ran inside to pay for gas, or grab a few groceries. We rode in the back of pickup trucks, no seats, let alone any seatbelts, we rode our bikes without helmets. We stayed outside all day long and didn't come home until the street lights came on. Times were different. Safer back then. It was not uncommon for parents to ask kids to "stay right here while I" we listened and stayed where we were told, without worrying about being abducted by an adult. Nowadays, things are different, times are different, circumstances are different. I would never let my kids do any of the things I was allowed to do as a child.

[@happytrails3]

​@@jesscruz6912 1991 was different? Not for us. I was a kid in '91 and my mom was very in tune with paying attention. Played outside but not wandering the neighborhood. Maybe stayed in the car to wait but only with older siblings, once or twice. We were well guarded. Same crimes happen then as now, but I do agree that attitudes and awareness is more cautious nowadays. Though, you'll still find people being too carefree with kids. You'll still see kids without helmets, seatbelts, being smoked around, etc. Now, there's heavy emphasis on living with distractions every second - on phones while riding their bike, skateboard, walking, etc (adults too). And with that comes giving predators and bullies instant access to your kids. People just need to get it together.

[@TheSourceOfWit]

@@jesscruz6912 This feeling is caused by the change in reporting in media. Crime statistics show your kids are actually much safer from crime than kids in the 90s were. Abductions by strangers only make up about 1% of missing children's cases anyway. The fact that you mention the no seatbelts thing shows: we weren't safer back then, we were just less scared.

[@AleisterCrowleyMagus]

@@bonnylouwho76 her story was a huge red flag but not for the reasons you are listing. This boy was old enough to walk easily with his mother to a food stand to buy sodas. There was no stroller, etc. He wasn’t wearing a leash. The idea that he would need to be left somewhere while they are already at a big public place with lots of kids (a large fairground) doesn’t math, and that should have alerted the police right away to actually stop stuffing themselves with donuts and investigate her claims. His very high number of absences from school and insane number of late arrivals to school should have been a red flag to CPS as well. She wasn’t buying groceries or picking up dry cleaning etc that might entail leaving a younger/less mobile kid in a car (as my boomer parents did with my fellow Gen Xers). They were (supposedly) at a carnival and 99% of kids his age would *WANT* to see the sodas etc on offer and not be forced to stay alone somewhere.

[@lizwcarlson]

lawyers are so crazy because they'll say something like "thank god for justice amen" right after getting a child murderer out of prison and yet they want me to respect them

[@La_Ru-yg8es]

Everybody in the USA has the right to a fair trial, a vigorous defense, and the presumption of innocence, unless and until the state can strip this away to beyond a reasonable doubt. Defense lawyers are crucial to our system. I'm no "Rah Rah America Eff Yeah" person, but, I think our justice system is one of this country's better attributes. It's not perfect, there can be different levels of "justice" determined by a person's socioeconomic status, race, background, etc. The carceral system and sentencing laws need a serious, total, complete overhaul and restructuring. But... I'd rather be tried in a US court of law than almost anywhere else in the world. Sometimes guilty people get off scot free or receive very light sentences. Even worse, sometimes, people who are not guilty are wrongly convicted. Innocent people have been *executed* by The State, which is horrific. However, most of the time, it works as intended. The one offs, anomalies, mistakes can be frustrating for the public, but, let's not forget that it's a big system with a lot of moving parts, and sometimes, it fails. Just bear in mind that this is a rare occurrence. 👍🏻

[@markjackson3531]

@@La_Ru-yg8es Stop the excuses, these defense lawyers KNOW their clients are guilty 99% of the time, they just dont care. They lie for money.

[@1mayana1]

My son is 2 and last year it was a small children event in the middle of my little hometown. Literally, probably 30 or so kids were there in the middle of the square and I didn't see him for like 30sec and I got panicking. He was just playing few meters away from me, but my heart stopped. I can't imagine losing him.

[@dailealexander2055]

Wow, you really don't lie. There were so many points in this story that were just so utterly bizarre & out of left field that I had to keep rewinding, like, "Wait a minute, WTF did he just say?" The whole Chippendales fund raiser thing... wow. Just, wow.

[@mss1500]

Such a beautiful little boy many would do anything for a diamond like him😢

[@krissikrissi4844]

My parents ran off from me in a crowd at Disney world when I was 5. They never came for me all day until park closed. It was so strange.

[@LilBafta]

What the hell??? Did you ever ask them why? That's sick :( talk about triggering abandnment issues

[@Nola5427]

Wow, i' m so sorry to hear that! You are lucky you weren' t kidnapped!

[@jordannarandle]

What? Why would they do that, that's so weird and messed up. I agree with a previous commenter who said you were lucky you weren't taken.

[@stacey4u2luv]

I merely stopped to tie up my shoe laces when I was around the same age at the Peterborough EX and looked up and my Mother was gone. I found my way to the front gates and gave her name and mine and they called her to come and get me. I do wonder why she did not notice me not behind her or go back in the same direction more quicker as I would have only been behind her. Not the most attentive parent either.

[@surgeinc1]

That’s child abandonment and they should have both been arrested.

[@CAZWELLNYC1984]

Why did the police wait 20 years to ask people that would be familiar with things in her apartment if they recognized the blanket. That should’ve been day one after they found his remains.

[@cougar2013]

Her son was missing school a lot, which is truancy, and essentially illegal…but a bunch of her friends think, like, she’s like totally like the most like attentive mom like ever Will there come a day when we just start calling people “shitty parents” 😂

[@battlekitten4188]

Yeah we could do that now if women would start telling the truth. Women lie to themselves and to each other

[@jennifermaddy2442]

She was probably abusing him thats why he wasnt at school much

[@y.peffle2802]

I hear a lot of "it was a different time back then "

[@juli6205]

wtf how many times can u use "like" in a phrase

[@cougar2013]

@@juli6205 I was like doing it for like effect or something

[@academictrailers3010]

Very sad story. Poor Timmy. Great job on the narrative though guys - love your channel. Hope to see it keep growing. Keep up the great work. :)

[@srecko2673]

Evidences were so weak and, even there is a gut feeling that mom could have been involved, there was nothing to support the decision of the lower courts. It is scary to see how circumstantial evidence and character judging can be mistaken for solid proof of guilt.

[@wideawake8415]

If she wasn't guilty, why lie ?

[@meowmachine9147]

Exactly

[@smallies7154]

Timmy would want her under the jail.

[@MaryAnnRegaladoVasquez]

I believe that she is guilty of getting rid of her son. After her and his father broke up, she found herself "tied down" and it was hard for her to go along with the mother role. The way she treated her son by dragging him down the stairs and pushing him into the car was telling. You can see the guilt all over her face. She has black cold eyes. That poor little boy. The horrors that he endured at the hands of this piece of shit is unimaginable. May God rest his soul. 🙏

[@Edelwiess1066]

💯💔

[@Survivalguy]

I am a man and I do not have kids but if I did I would love and protect them with every cell in my body. Hell, I feel that way about my dog. Which makes me baffled when a woman who carried the baby in her belly for 9 months can just simply toss them away like going to the toilet. My own sister had 2 kids and left them both. My dad who tries but just is not a thoughtful person raised her first and her ex raised the second. They are ok as far as I know. I feel so sorry fo every child today. They have no idea the shitshow they were born into.

[@user-io8vy2zv2u]

This is my first time to watch this channel and I’m a hardcore murderino. This is one of the most intelligent videos I’ve ever watched. That Chapter has long been my favorite…but I have room for two favorites. Thanks!

[@MoogieB]

In a case like this, all I think is God knows what happened & will deal the ultimate justice. A person may get away with crimes in their life but after death is a different story.

[@artdevivre2]

Very true. Gods justice cannot be bought. Such a crime kills one's soul.

[@charrielyn1231]

Yes, good luck to her when standing before God.

[@Mws556]

Well shuks, how could God know if he's all the way over there and were all the way over here 🤔

[@InspektoraDeFrutas.]

Exactly!!! NO ONE will ever escape God’s Righteous and Just JUSTICE! HalleluYah!!! Soon, soon already… All glory and praise be to Jesus Christ my Lord!!!

[@doorguru168888]

Why did God let this happen to begin with? If it was in his plan, then why complain about the mother getting away with murder? That would of had to been in his plan too.

[@saami9606]

If she didnt want the kid, she could have given up her rights and given him to other family members. Why kill? And yes I believe she did have a hand in his murder

[@y.peffle2802]

like his father ...

[@heatherlreagan]

She wanted the sympathy. Giving him up would have made her look bad. Psychos like this care more about their image. So sad.

[@InspektoraDeFrutas.]

@@heatherlreagan That’s a good point! Sadly, true. They’re called NARCISSISTIC Psychopaths for a reason.

[@SheilaV]

Her brain is broken.

[@PryorS]

@@heatherlreaganbingo! Reminds me of Diane Downs

[@Ruthie29]

Loved the real-life footage. I subscribed within the first 5 mins., liked and now have to choose which one to watch next.

[@Flamsterette]

Thanks for the upload!

[@evonneacevedo6578]

It’s very frustrating that there was essentially zero physical evidence here. One thing that stood out, though-Michelle had planned to take both her 5-year-old child and her sister’s INFANT to the carnival? I can’t imagine being a single adult trying to wrangle a five-year-old at a public event and thinking, “Ooh, know what’d make this even more fun? Let me also drag along someone else’s BABY, who won’t enjoy a carnival at all!” I have a suspicion that Michelle‘s original plan was to use the baby as her excuse for not having her eyes on Timmy, but she decided at the last minute that’d be too much to juggle.

[@gelatinouspiles]

The "Ellen" sketch kind of looks like her

[@charrielyn1231]

Oh!!! Hmmm… kinda seems like it doesn’t it?!!

[@mickeyphillips6603]

I was thinking the same thing.

[@jonny-b4954]

The simple fact her story kept morphing, and she went along with a cop's random suggestion etc. Shows me she definitely did it.

[@IceSkater8491]

This was such a sad story but you presented it well and I have subscribed. Thanks for the work you put into it.

[@verabolton]

All I can say: Casey Anthony 🥺

[@MsPopeye65]

Shes definitely guilty!.... Disgraceful that Timmy didn't receive the justice he deserves!!.....❤

[@brittanydw1148]

What kind of disgusting lawyer uses a murdered child to encourage a lighter sentence for his guilty defendant. That is such a messed up gaslighting. Can you imagine what her other kids feel😢 Timmy deserves better.

[@erinsmith5740]

When I was little, I used to go into the clothing racks. My mom’s nerves would be shot from thinking I was missing.

[@meowmachine9147]

I loved going into the clothing racks as a child. It was so exciting. I don't remember my mom ever panicking and thinking I was missing, luckily.

[@user-mc9qh9xc6v]

I have seen this case covered elsewhere - but never the Chippendales thing. Crazy. Given the inconsistency in her stories she is probably guilty, but I don't think it is proven beyond reasonable doubt. Very good job here by A-Z 🙂

[@TaraSmallss]

Such bullshit. She's guilty as hell and got away with murder. Even if she accidentally killed him, and dumped his body she still deserves to be in prison

[@cindyburns593]

It's so hard to believe this woman got away with murdering her own child.

[@xcountryrunner9]

The fact that she first said the shoe was not his and then once the media picked it up suddenly she called in and said it was his... among her many other lies.. like WTF, that's suspicious as hell. She was uncooperative in her son's disappearance. That should be evidence though!! Guilty as hell

[@jscott8661]

She should be rotting in jail. God Bless Timothy.

[@alicepotter8165]

What I don't understand why her parents never took him.

[@pageribe2399]

There are plenty of people who would rather see a child dead than give him or her to someone else. The kid's a possession to them, an unwanted possession to be sure, but it's THEIRS!

[@pageribe2399]

There are plenty of people who would rather see a child dead than give him or her to someone else. The kid's a possession to them, an unwanted possession to be sure, but it's THEIRS!

[@LadyGreyBlack]

@@pageribe2399 Kind of like Danny's Stutzman's short life.

[@thehangmansdaughter1120]

First time viewer here. That was awesome! Subscribed.

[@crimeatoz]

Welcome, we're thrilled you're here. Thank you for watching!❤️

[@valentina-gracemaclean9736]

I love your content so much I straightaway liked your video and subscribed ❤

[@loua1519]

The fact he disappeared immediately preceding a planned outing means to me she killed him unexpectedly in anger. But kill him she did.

[@pippa3150]

You are such a great group of people who really care about the victims. And your narrator has the best, most genuine voice. Thank you for your wonderful channel!

[@zombiedoggie2732]

She's guilty. No mother would act like she did if their child goes missing.

[@Montresor64]

I feel like the ball was dropped so many times. From the searches to the blanket to the nj supreme court. What an injustice. This woman just walks free. I’m disgusted.

[@chrismartin5450]

Can’t believe they brought charges forward on a blanket??!!! Perfect example of why they need to wait. As much as we hate it….so sad for Timmy😢

[@reignman30]

I agree but it had been 25 years already and unlikely they were going to have a better shot. They threw a hail mary and actually completed it, but it went under review.

[@katrinaoliver4167]

Would have been different if they had questioned people about the blanket at the start, not 25 years later

[@justkaren7858]

Disgusting !!! Our laws have failed this little boy -RIP Timmy ❤️🙏❤️

[@joannahampton5979]

It wasn't the laws it was definitely the lack of good evidence.

[@whitedragoness23]

They could of investigated the found shoe since he was last scene with it. The issue was the killer was controlling the narrative. That’s why they need to investigate more despite listening to the killer. Because sometimes the killer is the one talking to police

[@bluedragonfly8139]

How did our laws 'fail' him?

[@pdarkow1]

That woman got away with murdering her own child by using the system. There was no justice in this case.

[@texasray5237]

The double jeopardy law should not apply in the case of reversals on appeal.

[@zazzifizzle]

I think she suffocated him while he was sleeping. She just wasn't ready to be a mother, much less a single one with little to no physical support. When the sister was there she could cope because she got lots of breaks and time for herself. From the day the sister moved away, the poor boy's clock started ticking.

[@StephanieSeon-Miller]

"She just wasn't ready to be a mother 🥴" She had ready BEEN a mother for five years. She cared more about herself.

[@JulieIelasi-lt7yp]

​@StephanieSeon-Miller some people aren't supposed to be mother at all this scumbag woman isn't a proper mother at all 😢

[@cobainzlady]

that's just you, there was NO evidence to convict her of that or anything else. Generic blanket, 25 years old memory of her ENEMIES, former friends, after they had read about the case and formed opinions. The Cellmate CONFESSED TO THIS . did cops investigate him? NO.

[@deborahpacheco2799]

How sad that it took newspaper publication to make the cops act.

[@rachelpadilla9368]

Another great case. Good job 👏🏻

[@farmgirl4007]

Defence attorney: “ I’m sure Timmy would not want to impose a life sentence on his mother.” Nobody: Why not? She imposed a DEATH sentence on him!!!!! 😡😤😡🤬😤😡😖😖 These types of statements piss me off!!!🤬🤬🤬🤬 How dare he think he can be sure what a child would ‘want’ when that child had clearly been ABUSED by the person he loved more than any other and then that person broke his trust repeatedly, only to kill him because he was an inconvenience to her!?!?!?!?!?😡😡😡😡😖😖😖😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬

[@meowmachine9147]

That type of comment is always meant to guilt and manipulative. It's profoundly gross.