The 5 Types of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)

[@Psych2go]

Have you personally dealt with PTSD or know someone who has that could benefit from this video? Please consider liking, sharing and commenting to help raise awareness!

[@roguespartan5868]

does being forced to wear a to-to by your sister count as PTSD?

[@medievalshadows2836]

@@roguespartan5868 do you like it? How long has it been going on for? How come you let her? How come she wants to?

[@keiron.4612]

Yes me I have PTSD on medication abuse at home but nobody to turn to I just live with this life

[@kristinawalton8642]

Is it weird that I think I have 4 and 5 because of different events

[@steele_heart77]

Yes, I have several traumatic events that stick out to me but am only getting a diagnosis now.

[@alinw-n7t]

Suffering from several mental illnesses is literally hell on earth.

[@Psych2go]

What mental challenges are you dealing with? Did you want to share them?

[@justalpha9138]

@@abigailbowen4200 That's tormenting. Just know that you are so far from alone. Talk to someone if you feel like everything is going to sh*t. Even if it's someone as simple as your best friend.

[@abigailbowen4200]

@@justalpha9138 Thank you so much! I honestly needed to hear that.

[@justalpha9138]

@@abigailbowen4200 I wish that I could have gotten this advice earlier on

[@justalpha9138]

@@abigailbowen4200 Oh, and no problem! Other people happy makes me happy too! :)

[@Ray-yy8zi]

i hate how some people think that emotional abuse is not as serious as any other abuse.Sometimes it may hurt even more than physical abuse

[@harleyquinn5774]

Emotional abuse has been studied through brain scans.

[@pluutoop]

Absolutely

[@rasmusgreen6254]

I’m interesting in hearing your opinion although I disagree in most situations, have you experienced physical abuse at the same level as emotional abuse? I experienced way more emotional abuse but the physical abuse I experienced has impacted me way more even tho it was only a small portion of the abuse I experienced

[@Queenbree469]

@@rasmusgreen6254 I also dealt with both, and from my personal experience, emotional abuse hit me harder than physical abuse

[@hooman141]

@@Queenbree469 same here . I am abused mentally and physically. Both of my parents do that to me and my other siblings. Especially my mom, she is the main abuser in my family she got lots of personality and sometimes i freak out when she is laughing bc you know it sounds kinda creepy

[@jerry1dc]

I told my aunt that my mom was very abusive and she said well your mom did go through a lot. Like so? There’s never a valid excuse for abuse. Never

[@Marcus-gw4bb]

My dad abused me verbally and physically throughout my entire childhood. When i was ten, my dad beat me so hard i got bruises all over my arms and the next day in school my teacher asked me what happened. I didn't know how to lie back then so i told her. She called my father and later that night i received a scolding from him. Fast forward to just recently, I talked about this with my mum and she said the exact same thing as what your aunt said to you. That my father has been through a lot. So that justifies how he treats me?

[@nicolasamontes5843]

Am a mom and maybe I don't know how to be be a good parent my husband scolds my kids and hes harsh with them he has never hit them but he s voice is very strong and harsh when he talks thats why I tell my kids he had a tuff child hood wich means he doesn't know how to be nice because they never treat him right I agree is no acuse for abuse but at least you know the your parent was always abuse and he doesn't know normal again I know if he would go more extreme on them I would definitely wont make and excuse if I know hes irrational I tell my kids I don't know whats wrong with him let me talk to him..

[@PichuDude1999]

Same. I was emotionally and verbally abused growing up; I was also threatened, when I moved out, if I ever cut contact, that I would be hunted down. I keep having nightmare and flashbacks. Even though I'm in a different state, I'm still scared they're gonna hurt me. I feel bad for complaining, considering my mother was Sexually assaulted growing up & my whole family went through alot of abuse. I feel like I don't have a right to be upset. :/

[@fairymairah]

This is why I never believe that Family Members are important! no offense! plus my family is probably Worse than yours !

[@fairymairah]

@@nicolasamontes5843 your husband must be lucky to have a wife like you! Because my Family would accuse me of being mean on purpose and it made me feel Bad! Except when they do it's not mean. They're just like that !

[@Sims2freakazoider]

I have CPTSD and never thought I was "traumatized enough" for what I went through to even be considered in that category for the longest time. I've gone through a dozen or so therapists/psychs and I feel like none truly grasp the depth and severity it holds over my life. They treat me like I just have "the blues" and never want me to talk about my past, only the present. I haven't been able to work a "regular" job for almost a decade. I think I have BPD or a dissociative disorder as well, but nobody other than my closest friends and family believe me. I was also just about to hit "cancel" on this comment because I assume no one cares but i'm just gonna hit submit now cuz f*ck it EDIT: I'm so glad this comment I made from over a year ago is still helping people today! Since then, I've found an amazing therapist, been diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and am now going to weekly DBT (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) classes as well as individual therapy, which is more trauma focused. My therapist has been an absolute life saver, she has made me feel valid, seen, and heard, which is what I craved so badly as a child but never received. I can honestly say I am doing 200% better than I was when I wrote this comment. I hope someday you find someone to listen to you and validate your experiences. You ARE valid and your feelings matter. 💜

[@TheA-Hoopers]

You shouldn’t have to think about hitting cancel. It’s good to express yourself.

[@luchirimoya]

I understand how it feels to be ignored by doctors or even people around you, or to be told you're faking. I don't know you personally, but I believe you. We believe you. You are valid and your issues are real. I hope you find a good psychiatrist soon

[@VikVelaz]

I have past childhood trauma that was inflicted by respected members of the community and whatnot.... of course most of my so called friends were unsure or just thought I was lying outright..... gosh that was fun ...NOT!stay true and please don’t cancel, this help soo damned much ty ty and another thank you

[@AK-bf2ho]

Thank you so much for posting this!!! This is literally what I'm going through right now. When I was told I have PTSD and depression, I did not take it seriously (one of the reasons was because I was treated that way by my parents. Where my problems where never real enough for them, and that I just liked to exaggerate it). I really appreciate my therapist I'm working with right now, but I've faced the exact same problem of them not wanting to talk about my past, only about my present. Left me feeling once again like past trauma dosent matter/is not important, and I'm relising all this now because I read your comment. It's something I will definitely have to bring up with my therapist, because I don't think they relise how hurtful this specific action of thiers is. Thank you for becoming a part of my healing journey by posting this comment! ❤

[@tramfan78]

Same here. What I experienced is so rare and weird that others simply can't accept I'm not joking. Even my own parents act like they understand but their actions say otherwise. I don't have any friends, and i keep pushing away nice people, because of the severe social anxiety it all inflicted on me. I'm very insecure, barely talk to others, do anything to avoid conversations about this topic. Group projects at school literally freak me out. Sometimes my classmates bring over random people to talk to me but they don't realize that only gives me even more panic. Honestly I've been suffering in silence for almost 5 years now because when it happened I was only 10 and didn't understand a single sh*t. I only told my family about it a year ago but they just make fun of me - the emotional violence in this family just makes it all worse. The depression that comes with it all is the worst; I've lost all motivation to keep going. I've had suicidal thoughts for almost 2 years and I've attempted it too... because i don't even remember a time when i didn't constantly feel this pain. It's sad to think about how compassionate & friendly i used to be.

[@liv-uu1fi]

Does anyone feel like their trauma isn't valid enough? I've gone through many events and my dad's an alcoholic. I've had nightmares of my dad hurting my mom or me but I feel like that isn't valid compared to people who have gone through worse. Edit: Thank you all for the support and comments, I read every single one and I've definitely feel better everytime I learn that another someone feels the same way I do. 💗

[@hime_magink]

Any type of suffering is valid. Have you seeked help ?

[@liv-uu1fi]

@@hime_magink The first time I seeked help was from our school counselor and she gave my mom services but my mom never really tried to help. When my parents divorced, she took me to a doctor and I had to fill out a survey but I've never actually talked with a therapist or have gotten diagnosed.

[@liv-uu1fi]

@@hime_magink If you mean child services, then no. My dad has never hurt my mom or me, not really anyway.

[@lara-pw9tj]

Going through that sort of pain, violence, and chaos seems pretty valid to me! Sometimes I also feel like my fear and pain are invalid, and I think that comes from being gaslighted by my abusive parents for as long as they’ve abused me. And then it feels hard to articulate and other people who haven’t gone through the same thing don’t seem to understand, so that reinforces the feelings of my pain being invalid, and feeling ashamed of feeling and reacting the way I do. I didn’t even understand where so many of my feelings and actions were coming from for a loooong time. Don’t second-guess what your mind and body are telling you!! Your experience is more than valid! I wish you all the best ❤️

[@liv-uu1fi]

@@lara-pw9tj Thank you! It maybe have something to do with gaslightning and my friends around me constantly told me that I have a great family when they don't actually know anything about me and it really is invalidating. I hope you don't feel the same way anymore like I do. 💗

[@ghostburgers4284]

I hate how PTSD has affected my personality. People just don't wanna be around me anymore and I'm so alone that it hurts.

[@namratarana7563]

It sucks. It really does. Especially whe ppl don't get you and start blaming you.

[@HumbleWorldTraveler]

That’s me as well. I’ve been mistreated in the military and reassigned where mistreatment initially hit hardcore. It’s hell trying to fight through the memories, not trusting the ppl nor the doctors who have been controversial at times. I’ve learned just to shut up and stay to myself

[@Forevermonet]

If you need someone to talk to I can give you my socials or number. I know it’s hard to go through it. I went through it alone for six years and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

[@centralprocessingunit2564]

@@Forevermonet so youre looking for money? i know a lot of psychologists just want money.

[@Dendoi_]

@@centralprocessingunit2564 lol

[@NoNONo979]

My grandpa had ptsd. My grandpa was a navy ww2 veteran. I remember when i was 7, we were walking to the store and a plane flew over us. I remember looking at the plane in the sky, then i found my grandpa on the ground ducking and shaking. He passed away a while ago, but I’ll never forget that. R.I.P grandpa

[@NoNONo979]

WindyWolf101 My dad also went to Iraq during operation desert storm in the gulf war

[@lana-gn1kb]

@WindyWolf101 My friend's dad served in Afghanistan for two years and came back, had horrible ptsd. He talked less and it was about four months after he got back that I actually heard him speak. Still has horrible anxiety, depression, and ptsd, but he's getting better, slowly and he's the sweetest man alive. Soft spoken now and I can barely hear him when he speaks, but still a great guy and I've always wished the best for him.

[@lovelyoppomist-imstillhere7630]

Mine was also a decorated war hero who died when I was 3 years old. I had brief dynamic with him I heard of some things later down the road and it just made me lose a lot of respect for them.

[@basquehound1999]

No No my prayers go out to you and your grandfather. R.I.P.

[@reaganmorrison681]

As a child of a navy veteran. That's actually something they teach family members. When they come back from deployments ur supposed to leave them be cause there physical body is there but there mind is still there and ur to give them 4 or 5 months to adjust and realize there able to relax at home

[@AnjeloValeriano]

As someone who suffers with extreme severe anxiety I can totally relate to her. I would stop eating for days at a time as a punishment. I worry a lot about my life, everyone around me and pleasing everyone. It's absolutely crippling, so glad she got the help she needed, lovely young lady it's so sad that society has 1 in 3 people suffering mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help

[@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU]

People need to realise that people with anxiety disorders have oversensitised nerves, it's not a simple case of manning up and getting over it.

[@steceymorgan814]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about how mushrooms and psychedelics treats anxiety, but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

[@Jennifer-bw7ku]

Yes, doctor Greg mushroom I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@steceymorgan814]

Please, how do I reach doctor Greg?

[@steceymorgan814]

Is he on the internet?

[@kingrat0005]

PTSD is literal hell on earth. Everyday is a struggle.

[@lilybelle7344]

Very true, I’m sorry for what you’ve gone through, it must have been so bad but, you aren’t alone, I know you know that but, it sometimes helps to remember that you’re human ✨

[@thereugo8900]

Yes, it is! I haven't been able to find help. Family members don't understand. I also suffer night terrors to the point feeling like I'll never escape them. Peace to you 🙏.

[@barbararexroad5897]

And to make it even harder to deal with, many of us have friends and family that don't believe us, turn their backs on us, or even try to convince us that whatever happened to us was our fault.

[@lilybelle7344]

Barbara Rexroad you ok?

[@dovee1]

@@barbararexroad5897 oof I resonate with that. Told my mother (she's not old but due to ongoing childhood trauma I can't call her mum like I literally can't) about my PTSD and she said I didn't have it and I was horrible for doing this to her.

[@not_it2749]

Ptsd From child abuse is hell Having to be reminded of the certain family member makes you want to end it all

[@shaymary5247]

Exactly. I grew up in fear of an alcoholic parent dying when they passed out drunk. They'd get mentally or emotionally abusive at the worst when I became an adult, but the fact a diff fam member died in 2009, & this parent's alcoholism cont had fuqqed my head up so bad that I've attempted my life in ways most females would never dear think of bc I was so desperate to get out of what felt like Satan's emotional torment chamber.

[@fattyMcGee97]

Outlive them and crash their funeral blasting obnoxious happy music - leave a big fat turd on their grave. Outliving them is winning.

[@Scrumpy358]

Yeah.. I hate it, its hard to let it go......

[@shoku3100]

Yup. I can hardly look my father in the eyes anymore..

[@lillywilcox9673]

I completely agree, being sexually assaulted by a family member up until October 2019 and then having to see them every day and act like everything was ok was legit hell, I've survived three suicide attempts

[@theHelianthusCorps]

Edit as of 2022: I wanted to be completely honest and let y'all know my Borderline dx was replaced with a Dissociative Identity Disorder one (it can mimic as well as be comorbid with bipolar, bpd, aspd). I'm glad I could make you feel less alone in the interim

[@firdosshaikh1111]

Got both of them 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@williamnicoll3794]

I have ptsd and emotionally unstable personality disorder x here if u need to chat

[@mayorofsimpleton5674]

Same. Wish you all the luck in the world ❤️❤️❤️ We can get through this shit

[@Littletownnn]

Mildly Manic I feel you sis 💕

[@MommaBear413]

Same here. Complex PTSD, BPD and severe depression and suicidal ideation. :/ feels nice to be validated

[@stephieg]

I was bullied my entire time in school. I had repressed the memories of that. The memories returned all at once due to a life event and gave me PTSD. I also have other mental illnesses as well as medical issues. Life is hard. Some people say that bullying just makes kids tougher but it really does affect people for their whole lives.

[@Im_Iconic-Youre_Ironic]

Exactly, if it wasn't a few set of youtubers and games, I would not be alive today bc of bullying and family trauma

[@hunnybSue]

The worst bullying I had was at the hands of my parents and siblings.

[@Im_Iconic-Youre_Ironic]

@Brad H Yeah I agree, not long ago, I had a resurgence of a lot of messed up memories that were repressed. A friend of mine loves to call, she's extremely extroverted, and for the longest time since I was 14 to 16, I hated calls, I hated having to call anyone, answer anyone, and when I was trying to figure out why, 3 memories of the time I got groomed came to my head, and it all made sense, I'm completely scarred when it comes to calling. (One doesn't count as that was in a game when I was like 11 or 12)

[@SkyIsTheLimit298]

I totally agree with you, that is what made my PTSD become CPTSD, no one at school trusted me, I was the chased, the scared, the loner and quiet wolf kid and home was the birth bed of all my traumas, no escape

[@jeanag3279]

The people who say bullying makes people tougher are usually bullies.

[@alvashie1510]

It’s hard to open up when I keep getting the “it’s been 4 years just forget about it” edit: I didn't know there would be much response from this... I was worried to read them all thinking I was getting hate from what I said. When I finally did read your comments... my heart felt warm...thank you... :)

[@Whoisthatns]

Alvashie people can be real a-holes

[@lauraska95]

Sorry you experienced that. Undealt trauma can still hurt years after. I hope you find the kind of people you can open up to ❤️

[@patiencewallace8453]

I hear this way too much it sucks.

[@Captain_Ravioli7321]

mm yes lemme just thanos snap my trauma with the snap of my fingers because its sOoOoOoo simple to get over a horrible event

[@kelseylee1805]

Ive had the same its been 5 years since my ex best friend raped me and after a week my once "friends" said that for the rest of the 3 years i was at secondary

[@mialite7959]

There are many kinds of War. Some are fought on the battlefield and some are fought in the home.

[@gloriaperez7136]

Exactly! I still have flashbacks of my psychologically/ narcissistic abusive marriage. Been divorced almost 6 years and I’m barely now a more healed person. I didn’t understand my alcoholism and timid behavior till I decided to become sober over a year ago. Keep going y’all, there will be better days ahead.

[@thephoenix1601]

Some inside our heads

[@ellieengle7480]

Pixie lite most are fought in the mind

[@sarafetty1300]

I agree. I'm an abuse survivor both childhood and young adult. Its taking along time to see my problems and I'm still trying to cope. I pray for anyone dealing with these issues.

[@singing115]

Some are fought inside

[@dredgenforlife6871]

When I was little, around 5, my cousin and siblings began to sexually, physically and verbally abuse me. If I ever tried to fight back against them they'd beat me and then my cousin wohld essentially use me as a sex doll. This went on till I was around 8 and the only reason it finally stopped is because we moved to a different state. Once we moved my parents began to fight and I was more of a daddys boy and took his side. My mother hated that and constantly got drunk of high and beat me. Many times I'd have marks on me and not change in front if peers because I didn't want people to worry about me. Normally I tried to act like I was always happy but at one point my parents started fighting, dad left the house to calm down. Mother started hitting me and beat me till I blacked out. When I went to school the next day I was sent to the counscelors and told her everything that had been going on. Now my parents are getting a proper divorce, me and my dsd moved back home and my cousin went to prison for child abuse along with other crimes. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Major Depression, and other conditions. Right now I'm 14 going on 15 and a lot of it still heavily affects me in terms of flashbacks, insomnia, trouble with relatsionships, etc. Going to therapy along with other methods really helps. Anyone reading this comment, show this to another person who's been through things and let them know things do get better. You just have to keep pushing foward

[@ravenpatronus9431]

Although I'm sorry for your struggle, it's nice seeing another 14 year old in the comments. I have really bad anxiety so I dont know anyone else going through the same thing as me.

[@alohawhy]

I'm sorry, you'll overcome this. Lift your burden to the Lord. 🙏

[@rachelcaprari4422]

Tommy Evans thank you for sharing your story. You're very brave. Keep fighting 💜

[@selifiaib1657]

You surly had it tough.. God bless you my child, may you find love and support by amazing people, may you grow wonderfully to be an awesome human being .. and spread love and hope to others.. Thank you for sharing your experience.. hope you are doing well~

[@tammyedwards4635]

ThanQ for being a brave young man. As a survivor of sex abuse wo JESUS I would be in hell for killing the perp. Stay strong. Trust GOD for healing.

[@Jennifer-bw7ku]

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

[@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

[@elizabethwilliams6651]

Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@twinfred3160]

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

[@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU]

Is he on instagram?

[@elizabethwilliams6651]

Yes he is. dr.sporesss

[@smrk2452]

She didn’t mention recurring dreams and nightmares

[@mysmirandam.6618]

Yes night terrors

[@Psych2go]

Yes, flashbacks and nightmares are important symptoms. Thanks for mentioning it.

[@katecooper3410]

One thing people don't talk about is how the recurring nightmares turn into regular dreams. I've got that and it makes me sick

[@christalis2730]

The brain behaves like a video recoder..it kicks in when we try to relax...playing the same thing over and over again... its horrible..I know..

[@AmandaAWBY]

I get those too and night terrors from abuse lost of parents people ‘s hurtful words etc

[@kestalami]

having ptsd for multiple reasons is awful. it's like everywhere you look there's a trigger no matter what and you're in a constant state of panic.

[@EM-zt4ul]

Yeah :(

[@ethereal_musik]

Thank you!

[@ijustwanttosleepnow]

Have you tried EMDR before?

[@kestalami]

@@ijustwanttosleepnow no what's that?

[@ijustwanttosleepnow]

Kestalami I would look into it. It’s a technique therapists can use that has been clinically studied to help people relieve their suffering from PTSD. It’s helpful because it doesn’t involve drugs or talk therapy. It uses techniques that activate the subconscious mind to unfreeze those moments and allow the brain to work through them.

[@blackpinkluv9869]

PTSD isn’t just for war veterans, remember that (I’ve read all the comments and I’m sorry for what everyone has gone through. It’s such a shame that people’s loved ones won’t understand all because those pp aren’t war vets)

[@hejochh0pp]

THANK YOU

[@mossnmolasses2245]

I have ptsd and my mom doesn’t believe me because I was never a war veteran 😒

[@Theannaloid]

Remember PTSD is Post-Traumatic STRESS Disorder, not Post-Traumatic SOLDIER Disorder Sending good vibes

[@no-md2ub]

i got it from being in the hospital and not knowing if i would leave alive/in one piece

[@TPGNATURAL]

@@mossnmolasses2245 I suggest if you believe you have PTSD see a Mental Health Professional who can give you a diagnosis. If you want to also go to The National Center for PTSD, and you will see what is said in this video has lots of problems.

[@michaelmarshall9705]

I have been struggling with PTSD for most of my adult life. My PTSD came from a rape that I endured early in my military career by a follow soldier that was questioning his sexuality and then I got no support from my command structure. I have been job hopping because of trust issues that come from this situation on all levels.

[@katiee4367]

i hope you do better i cant say i understand, or have been through the same thing but ill support you and help you through this if i need to, ii hope you can find a way to trust again.

[@godschild8995]

I am so sorry to hear that. I have to say that with everything I have gone through in life, both the good and the bad, I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE SO CLOSE TO JESUS CHRIST NOW.. HE HAS BEEN MY SALVATION AND HOPE. I AM HEALING. STILL COPING WITH CURRENT HEARTACHES AS I PRAY AND FELLOWSHIP WITH OTHER BELIEVERS.. GOD BRINGS HOPE.

[@kayhigton275]

Its hard a lot if the time, prsd as affected my life in many ways, I pray for peace of mind, can't sleep very well. Its difficult to put to words.

[@ogeegonesoon8549]

Rape is something you don't exactly get over,,,,I have to leave because it just started talking about it ,,,,, trying to move on.

[@PotentialTechniques]

Jeez that sounds terrible.. I hope things are getting better for you now.

[@PowerMatrixAnime]

War veterans deserve all the respect they get for facing the terrors of war and fighting their PTSD over and over.

[@Psych2go]

How was your day?

[@PowerMatrixAnime]

@@Psych2go Great! Thank you! You?.

[@moonpriest8016]

The government certainly underestimate the mental health crisis of veterans, I feel like they need free mental health treatment since they fought for there country and the only thing they get is trauma, now that’s unfair.

[@ladymopar2024]

Thank you! I have this type of PTSD I also live with night terrors I have medication the helps me. People that don't know I don't understand what you've been through don't understand it and just tell you to just get over it that's the frustrating part is you can't just get over it. I was over in Iraq in the 80s I see on the news now that always should go back over there and that just sets me off. People don't understand that there is pain and hurt that belong in this area of PTSD

[@xijinping4418]

They deserve more. Especially from the governments that put them there.

[@viktorvikinikfiki8607]

I dissociate really hard due to childhood traumas, and it really interferes with daily life, especially when my triggers are so sensitive

[@brittttany]

I'm sorry to hear that you went thru trauma in your childhood; me too. no one should go thru abuse of any sort; ESPECIALLY not a child!! always know & never forget that you're a warrior + survivor! keep it movin & improvin! 🤗 xB

[@ethanmanby6182]

Viktor!!! Виктор!!! VIKINIKFIKI tough scene

[@domtron8873]

Do you have derealization disorder?

[@anastaciacomunista]

I used to think I just entered in a state of mind where some part of me hid inside my brain... I learned recently that it is dissociation and I'm shook because I do it for more than 10 years...

[@viktorvikinikfiki8607]

domtron88 I have a dissociative disorder

[@harleighsutherland1320]

It feels like it’s never going to end, I’m so tired of it....

[@haveagoodmourning]

Please stay alive

[@Dendoi_]

@@haveagoodmourning it doesnt get better, you either make it better or nothing changes

[@haveagoodmourning]

@@Dendoi_ then make it fucking better but don't die

[@Dendoi_]

@@haveagoodmourning except you cant make everything better

[@haveagoodmourning]

@@Dendoi_ not absolutely everything but little bits DO improve over time, unless you sit here like this and seem intent on convincing OP to fucking commit suicide, in which case no it doesn't get better anywhere near as easily, because you insist on it not doing so. While mental health is something that takes a wholeass struggle to beat, I've dealt with mental conditions myself and can tell you with certainty that my worst spirals were when I was determined to stay stuck in them. Nothing will be easy, I'm not gonna sugarcoat that, but at least fucking try, because I believe in you and you can do this. Seek help or therapy if you need it

[@jassejayden.9210]

Complex ptsd (speaking from personal experience) haunts you like a ghost. It’s terrifying. Keeping faith as hard as it is in such times of darkness really does help tho. If you read this and are suffering don’t be scared to reach out, I know it’s hard when you think everyone’s out to hurt you or bring you down, but in that effort of reaching out I believe holds the key to opening the door for the healing to take place. Your in control, please remember that ! Keep your head up people, love you !

[@williamshaw8106]

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[@TheJorgieVerse]

Thank you for that. I’ve had complex PTSD for a few years now. Sundays it gets really really hard. Some days I really really want to give up, and I run out of reasons to keep going. But I remember all the things I really want to experience, and sometimes that helps. I remember all the goals I set for myself, like writing, a book, or writing songs, or learning to play guitar. But man, I really wish my aunt understood sometimes. It’s called complex for a reason you know? Sometimes I don’t even know how I feel.

[@jasonschmidt3225]

As a child, I lost my only friend when she passed away. I’ve been dealing with that for about ten years now. My heart goes out to anyone dealing with things like this.

[@lovelyoppomist-imstillhere7630]

I'm really sorry you lost them this way. I lost mine because of a long battle of going threw trust issues, family trama and betryal at the hands of both our families.

[@Emurensis]

My best friend just died about a month ago in a car crash. My heart goes out to you.

[@jasonschmidt3225]

Sara Emma thank you much my friend. My heart also goes out to you. It’s a long journey of healing and making peace, but I assure you it is also beautiful. If you need anything feel free to reach out to me on any of my socials (insta/twitter: @yungevvo)

[@lucjo789]

Jason Schmidt I lost my grandparents at 15 and just stopped looking after myself partied and drank a lot that’s been 20 years now and I lost 3 more people and thought I didn’t deserve to be happy thought out suicide a few times but just plodded on existing and got into care nursing, residential, mental health and now learning disability to help others

[@Lilasartroom]

I am sorry about your loss... I lost my friend last year due to depression it hit me like a truck and until this day I miss her a lot

[@monsteraddict2176]

I was sexually assaulted by a family member when I was a child. I pushed the feelings down and now almost nine years later I’m trying to cope

[@dilly_dallier1966]

I feel weird wanting to talk about it to someone, but. I feel like it would lead on and cause more drama if I were to try and get therapy since they may talk to my parents about it. I was looking for someone who had the same experience, and I'm sorry to hear I'm not alone. I cant even explain the person but because they are always around, always talking to me like any other way- I keep wondering if I had made up the trauma or if it was just some anxiety hallucination I do things such as staying distant from friends because I'm scared someone is going to come "too close" to me. I also struggled with general emotions and I mostly just star off to space. I mean i recall it everyday because whenever I see them, I rethink what happens and I immediately try to walk away from them I was wondering if you have a similar thing? I have never spoken to anyone about this but in recent years I've been noticing it more and more in the way I act (I also have relationship issues, I have never fallen in love or even cared about crushes ect) Stay strong! I wish you luck in trying to recover. Its hard.

[@LeNoir2411]

Same here.. i was abused sexually by several family's close friends and relatives, since i was 5 till 14.. I'm 24 now ,but it doesn't go away .. I've somewhat comes to term with all that but I'm already far gone.. i just live for the sake or surviving ,i think .. I don't even know

[@LeNoir2411]

@@dilly_dallier1966 no you're not alone.. there's a lot of people like us out there, sadly.. i tried telling someone i thought i could trust when i was in highschool but she silenced me :( i was devastated,and had breakdown few years later.. so my lil advice here is, go for professional help or authority, if it's too much, remember this, only tell someone you really trust and sure will help you, will choose you over other matter, this kind of person is rare from my shallow experience at least.. but this is delicate stuff so , something will definitely break.. i hope you're doing okay, stay strong there

[@monsteraddict2176]

@@dilly_dallier1966 ya know ever since I’ve allowed the emotions and memories in I can’t even look him in the eyes even in the photos in my room. I’m also sorry to hear I’m not alone in going through this, I also sometimes feel like I just made the traumatic event or that I’m MAKING trauma out of something that wasn’t traumatic at all. Even now it’s hard to let in the emotions and the memories for me, I’m so So SO sorry that they are still around. My sexual assaulter comes for holidays and dinner occasionally, I don’t see him often. I couldn’t imagine having to see him everyday and remembering what happened. My therapist told me to write out what I remember in a journal and it’ll help me come to terms with it but when I started to write it down I broke down crying and I had another ptsd attack (idk if that’s what it’s called, I had a bunch of rapid flashbacks and I had almost a panic attack with it), my mom knows who it is and honestly I’m quite ashamed of who it is..... mostly because most of my friends that I’ve told say things similar to “oh my god, that’s absolutely sick/disgusting” and at the time I had believed that it was also my fault (I was so young that I didn’t know how wrong it was, I mostly just thought it was like a normal secret) so I’ve grown ashamed of who it was

[@monsteraddict2176]

@@LeNoir2411 I’m so sorry! I know this doesn’t mean much right now but just know that it definitely was NOT your fault in any way shape or form. Idk if this will help or not but my therapist told me to write down everything that I remember currently and three emotions I felt while writing it or if I remember how I felt while it happened. I know what helps me is self-care. I take time to do a skin care routine, put lotion on, put a little bit of makeup on, do my hair, etc. after a shower...... then I try to take a moment to look in the mirror and pick out at least three things that I like physically about myself and three things that I like about my personality (when I first started doing this, I started with picking one different thing everyday. After it gets easier move up to two and so on so forth) another things that helped was finding out what the voice in my head was telling me (like that I’m worthless, stupid, ugly, etc) and I wrote the opposite of each on its own sticky note (like that I’m valued, that I’m smarter than I think I am, and that I’m pretty/beautiful) and eventually I began to believe it.

[@vintervn]

0:47 normal stress response 1:51 cormobid PTSD 3:00 acute stress disorder 4:00 uncomplicated PTSD 4:36 complex PTSD

[@Little_Rat1]

Thank you :3

[@runningsrage5895]

Thanks!

[@PotentialTechniques]

Sorry if this is bugging me putting this here, I'm just hoping i can help even one person maybe by what I'm learning about getting through tough times after PTSD and with C-PTSD and depression etc.. I'm not sure if this will be useful for you to know or anyone you know who is going through tough times to know, but I've had a lot of years of dealing with getting through trauma/ptsd and C-PTSD, I'm not fully recovered and I'm not an expert but I've decided to make some videos to say about things i find are good to do, or are good to avoid, to get through tough times faster, you can get to them at my channel by clicking the circular profile picture next to my comment here or by clicking on this link, I'm hopibg me talking honestly about the things I've been through and things i find help to get through tough times and crisis can help you or someone you care about to find ways to get through trauma and tough times faster as it is horrible feeling so bad so i wanted to make videos to try to help people get through those tough times faster than i did so i hope what I've done on my channel helps in some way to make life better for even one person it will be worth me showing how broken i have been, if me being honest in my videos helps you or anyone to get through a tough day or to better times it will be worth the risk of criticism by some I'm hoping! Please don't delete this comment as I'm just doing my channel to try to help people who are maybe feeling lost or overwhelmed to find ways to see that it's possible to get through the tough times and I'm hoping that me talking about what I've found helps will help people find ways to make tough days and crisis easier I've done a short video on things i find help to get through emotional crisis more easily which you can find at my channel or by clicking this link kzbin.info/www/bejne/l33ToKiPrZmfgJY on KZbin (takes you to the video on my channel, It would mean so much to me if it helps even one person so please don't delete or report this comment I really hope i can help in some way, even it's by giving you a laugh at my scruffy hair some days! Best wishes to you and anyone going through tough times.. I hope things get better for you really soon.. It IS possible to make things feel better, it might take time but we can get closer to how we want to feel even if it feels impossible at first.. Good luck folks! Wishing you speedy good recovery for anyone struggling with tough times.. Best wishes from Rolland

[@rockroops9662]

Thank you

[@haffibesti3300]

yeah thats me

[@TheGirlFromMiamiFlorida]

i actually have C-PTSD and yes, they are correct- i have other mental health problems also diagnosed like severe depression, social anxiety and generalized anxiety. and through my trauma i developed a panic disorder, but im here to let my fellow trauma junkies know that- you arent alone, and we have the ability to overcome our past. i wish everyone the best on their journeys, and im sending yall lotsa love ❤❤❤

[@anxiety_defender]

but it's so hard to let any of that go, idk how this is possible

[@SamiraLopez20]

Could you tell me what i could have? It may not be a big deal, when i was 5 to 9years i was rape. When he first rape me I start to have nights Terror. I would see things and my stepdad would whoop me instead of my parents comfort me. I don’t speak about another abuse I went through. I like to sleep with a night light. I feel like something is coming for me when I face the was especially cuz that’s what I experience facing the wall. The only was I would stop crying is when I slept with my little brother. Even tho I would see things but it wasn’t as bad as every night alone. Growing up I always want to sleep with my brothers. I couldn’t alone even now that I’m 20. I always look for them.

[@shiroangel01]

thank you you 2

[@heyitsevie]

When people look at you and say "they're just shy". Or "its just anxiety". But no, no its not. Edit: if you're going to comment anything negative, please just keep it to yourself and move on, as you have no understanding of how others feel or what they have personally experienced.

[@nimanixo]

Aryana Rose right like I know this ain’t truly me

[@FlyFreely8272]

Or they say, It's not that serious. Get over it. Excuse but Yes, it's very serious.

[@Anna_Stetik]

@Fly Freely That one pisses me off so much. "Get over it. It's time to move on now" - Oh really? Cause I can just filp a switch and "get over it", huh? People are so uneducated.

[@FlyFreely8272]

@@Anna_Stetik It's alright to be pissed off. They have no idea how deep the hurt is, especially when you gave your full trust.

[@cocoa261]

i have anxiety but no one believes me.....idk if i hide it well or they really dont know what it is

[@randomvideos7295]

When you're triggered by something and you don't even know what the trigger is or why you've been triggered, it is so isolating. No one can help because you don't know what's really wrong

[@Psych2go]

Do you currently journal? Sometimes, that can help.

[@randomvideos7295]

@@Psych2go yes I do, which helps. Thank you. I would have to journal every single minute of every day

[@randomvideos7295]

@@Psych2go and lack of sleep. It's exhausting.

[@bigfanofthings4553]

I completely understand this. I had an episode at school and almost cried because some kid was frustrated in guitar class, then all of a sudden i felt like curling up in a ball and crying. I still have no idea what really caused it but that kid makes me uncomfortable now.

[@heliotype9591]

Woah...that was just me yesterday I’m sorry my dude I feel u

[@vishisht4224]

I was sexually abused by my neighbor when I was 5. I'm 18 now and the memory keeps coming back and I also have anxiety. I dont like being watched, being vulnerable, sharing my feelings and absolutely cant handle being touched. I've never been in a relationship because of this. I like the idea of being loved and embraced but can't engage in any physical touch. I remember when my longtime crush held my hand I immediately pushed him back. We both were confused that time but I guess I get it now. I have ptsd... Edit: 10 months later, I think I have depression and I don't know for sure but the symptoms are there. I don't want to be the person who's 'asking for attention' but I just want my feelings to be validated. People say that sometimes feeling sad isn't depression, and for me, I have a diary which has a question prompt for every page, and it's been 3 years of me writing it and whenever it asks, 'when did you feel like you were on top of the world?' I just don't know the answer. I can't remember when I was last happy from the core, is this normal? I'm just not happy and motived to do anything, to read(which I loved), I can't concentrate, I don't even want to eat, this pandemic is worsening my situation even more. It's my birthday in a month and I'm thinking of deactivating my social media so no one knows and also telling my friends that maybe I have covid so they won't visit me. I want my birthday to go unnoticed but still I crave for love every day. Idek why I wrote this here.. Let's just hope that there'll be another edit here that would speak of me getting better Edit: This is a year later after my original comment ig, I finally went to a psychologist and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I kind of knew at this point but didn't want to self-diagnose. I have a couple friends I share my feelings with though, one of my college friends is also suffering from depression so I finally feel understood by someone. My social life after the pandemic is a disaster and I'm desperately trying to figure it out. I don't know why I keep updating

[@bluebunny2154]

I hope you’re working your way through this trauma with a specialist and I wish you all the good that exists in this world

[@ellie0043]

sending love and hugs

[@vishisht4224]

@@bluebunny2154 Thank you for the kind words but I can't afford any therapy(financial crisis) and nor have I told about this to anyone. I'm recovering by myself and I've gotten better but some days it all comes back into the mind and I feel suffocated... But I know I'm strong enough to get through this..

[@jimenao.g.8601]

Hey, I just want to say that I love you and that I understand because I’ve been through the same thing myself. What helped me slowly get better was talking to someone about it, I talked to my mom and saying what happened really helps. Of course there is a lot more to it than just that, I mean I myself have major social anxiety and depression, but talking about it kinda makes what happened smaller and insignificant. I hope you feel better soon. 💜💜

[@ellie0043]

I was to hmu on insta or facebook my facebook is Eli White and my insta is elilw05

[@ShySkill]

I watched a lot of messed up stuff on the internet when I was 13, because I was so curious the curiosity got the best of me. I'm slowly getting over the things I saw and its subsiding more and more every day. I think ill be okay after this, but for any parents out there, make sure to monitor what your kids watch everyday so they don't end up watching something they will regret.

[@SillyS1m0n]

My Boyfriend* has ptsd to I’m trying to educate myself :) He was bullied really bad in elementary school so I’m trying to support him the best I can Edit: 2022* damn this comment blew up. It is heartwarming to see all the comments and I wish everyone here well. My now boyfriend (we're both ftm), have been on the road to recovery. There have been many ups and downs through this and it's so important to remember that recovery isn't linear. No matter what i've been here to support him and we've been through thick and thin together. :) [to clear up any pronoun confusion when i made this comment we both used she/her pronouns but we now both identify as male he/him]

[@porthard5951]

Good on you m8....bring her up don't you go down bro.

[@coggzi5865]

Hahaha this is gold 😂

[@dearnobody2637]

That is super sweet, I wish the best for you and your girlfriend!! PTSD is no joke, so it's great to hear that she has a girlfriend that cares about her so much. I loved the first response by the way, bro... XD

[@mel4114]

You’re a great SO for that

[@meeks4004]

She also has identity issues..

[@sarahargintaru1445]

two questions: 1) why is this is my recommended ? 2) why wasn’t this recommended earlier ?

[@mac9737]

Hutch black well then

[@a_diamond]

With as many people walking around with PTSD due to wars, me-too, violence, and the many things that most people might never realize is happening behind closed doors, PTSD is very common. Knowledge is power. Even if you don't have PTSD yourself, chances are you know someone who does, even if they never told you about it. Understanding it might help everyone manage it better .. I hope videos that raise awareness show up in absolutely everybody's list...

[@KeeperOfKeys22]

Conspiracy theory. There may be people in positions of power who lobby helpful info into obscurity so they can profit off us.

[@KeeperOfKeys22]

More nutral explanation. We live in a society where there are 1000s of variables at play and information such as this gets lost in all the noise.

[@KeeperOfKeys22]

The most positive POV I can muster. Fate/destiny thought this was the proper time to present you this information. Now that you have the life experiences that relate to this you are more likely to be able to empathize/be patient with people who have gone through the same thing.

[@kyleboddie9301]

When I was 9 I watched my mother died from a heart attack. I’ve suffered from nightmares and flashbacks, but this video helped me understand it. Thank you

[@breezy8105]

It's so helpful to be reminded that you're not alone. I was raped 4 years ago and have a hard time registering what happened within that year and a half of taking him to court. It's nice to know that my lingering feeling/triggers are validated. Thank you for everything you put in to your videos. Much love.

[@Ilove_cats9_]

I am so sorry. You did deserve that.

[@itzlolgicalmeh1012]

@@Ilove_cats9_ ... Wat....

[@gyo6094]

i feel you ❤️ i was r*ped last year and for a while i felt so incredibly isolated and alone but i know now that how i feel and the way i’m recovering is still valid and that i’m never going to be alone and help is always there somewhere

[@st4rfright]

@@itzlolgicalmeh1012 they mostly meant didnt but had a typo...at least i hope

[@queenmary2452]

@@gyo6094 I'm so sorry 😔 stay strong ur amazing 💞💞💞

[@osse1n]

Create a calm environment where you can heal and give yourself time, don't rush the recovery.

[@Psych2go]

What do you suggest for creating a calm environment? Any visuals of how that would look like?

[@NameName-lv1ik]

First of all, no Secondly, bold of you to assume I can comfortably exist in a calm environment.

[@MrJohnDoe2525]

@@NameName-lv1ik 🖤

[@keiron.4612]

A calm place to heal do you think a calm place heals everything

[@lmichellewright]

Meditation is VERY helpful, but unfortunately not the cure. It takes a holistic approach to cope day-to-day. Even while practicing many tools, I look forward to the day when I (cross my fingers) have no more symptoms of C-PTSD.

[@zhenarts8517]

I shake and get paranoid when hearing loud noises.. And feel so sad and cry I don't know what it's called.. And I can't recall why

[@kendraholte1215]

YOUmeko I’m the same way. People tell me it’s because I’m l an overly sensitive person... but I just have a feeling that it’s more than that.

[@victorfortes4334]

I cant be in the living room of my house because the echoes trigger me, i know exatcly how you feel

[@daniducks3573]

That's an exaggerated feat response, I also suffer from loud noises, makes me shake, my heart races and I wanna just run and hide. You aren't alone.

[@justtdoiit]

Sensory processing disorder?

[@dribbeldiejustiz]

Same but i realised its BC of my older sister that Always screamed and teased me in childhood

[@carlosgallegos1265]

was heavily bullied and rejected during my childhood & adolescence and it has crippled me in almost any way possible.

[@cancelledchannelofaretard1750]

same here i basically live with it now thinking its my fault

[@carlosgallegos1265]

guilt is the worst thing about it imo, I hope you can get to cope with it someday!

[@flame4555]

let’s be friends

[@carlosgallegos1265]

I mean, I'm open to talk if any of you want to share smth or need a friend, uhh, posting personal info here is probably not the wisest idea but look for cegalleta on Instagram :)

[@helloimbored762]

Same, ive been dealing with it since i was 7, so i didnt even realize how serious my problems were

[@ebee9683]

Whenever I think about my traumas I literally have to catch my breath. I’ve had so many nightmares and stuff that it’s so hard. I’m getting help and I want to encourage everyone else to as well.

[@mrsdianna31]

I get emotional flashbacks, where I experience the same emotions from when the trauma was occurring. It's very strange to suddenly have these emotional thoughts that your conscious brain knows are not true, but you are caught up in the emotion.

[@debbielough7754]

Yes - I get those. It's very rare that I get actual flashbacks. I get emotional ones all the time.

[@Starry_Night_Sky7455]

This! Yes, I hate that I actually understand what you mean. You can be having a safe normal day but you are hit in the gut with a fight flight dread sensation as if that past trauma is about to happen again, or you suffer physical sensory memory of what happened.

[@aimer_la_vie4056]

Ive recently been getting this- more so when i talk about childhood to my psych. Its frustrating because its such a strong, physical feeling as well as an emotion- yet its so detached from normal emotions too

[@keziasymcox3894]

Lol same, I also have completely blocked the first 11 years of my home life, got some school memories tho lol

[@w13rd_g1rl6]

same this happens to me everytime I try to talk about my past; it feels horrible

[@thedudegrowsfood284]

Staying away from people works for me.

[@prismleigh500]

Me too..i isolate myself and I don't care who thinks it's sad..its not to me.

[@TsukikoLuna26]

so long as you are ok with that, enjoy!

[@shaymary5247]

Sad to say, I agree. That, or to temporarily be involved & never get & stay too close, like school or work.

[@shaymary5247]

@@prismleigh500 It's a safety, defense mechanism. I do it in lg bout phases.

[@prismleigh500]

@@shaymary5247 me too. I'm on a month long retreat, I plan on staying away awhile. No one understands it but I simply have to isolate myself this long to decompress

[@13beaches46]

Not diagnosed w ptsd, but when I was 10 my “sister” died in my bed when we were asleep. I used to have terrible panic attacks whenever my parents didn’t pick up the phone and I couldn’t sleep in my bed and I hated being in my room. I’m 15, doing a little better now. Stay strong guys 💓

[@Quazima115]

Im sorry you had to experience that... I hope you'll heal eventually. Stay strong

[@irislafleurie8276]

Im sorry you have to experince that, i hope you heal❤

[@lucky1u]

That sounds pretty stressful , hoping your wounds pass over time .

[@jinseng9304]

Bless you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼💕

[@tofujelly]

Omgoodness! I'm so glad your doing better!!!! *warm hugs*

[@onyxlotus7126]

I was diagnosed with depression & C-PTSD after years of child abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, being betrayed by people who said they cared for me, street/sexual harassment, physically assult & my son being killed. For me, I'm numb on a good day. A good day for me is nothing bad happening to me. I've had nightmares galore, flash backs etc.....& all anyone can say to me us "oh, just get over it" or "if you've had all these issues in life it means you're the problem." So, I don't even bother to talk to others about anything that I've gone through cause all people do is invalidate me.

[@shaudaeyoakumify]

My son passed away while he was sleeping at five months old. Ever since then I have dealt with PTSD. I don’t like large crowds and used to be very outgoing.

[@drewb805]

S.A.Y Yoakum I’m really sorry that happened to you. I had a psychotic episode and I’ve never been the same person I once was so I understand how the event has molded your feelings towards certain situations. I hope you can recover :)

[@wildwillow1945]

S.A.Y Yoakum I am so deeply sorry for you loss. I pray for healing for you. ❤️

[@Psych2go]

Sorry to hear! Are you currently seeking therapy or help of any sort?

[@newera5238]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss I am saying the prayer right now into my head for you sis.

[@shaudaeyoakumify]

drewb805 thank you so much for this. I really appreciate this more then you know ❤️ I truly hope that you get to a secure and happy space as well. Things do get better just not always when we want them to.

[@thiccsoups73]

This is a genuinely positive and helpful comment section

[@sanramoncali]

I'm so sorry. I pray for you to get relief and a turnaround from these circumstances.

[@pxl9365]

@@sanramoncali🤣

[@lizsaldana9142]

Idk if someone's gonna read this but I feel I have to tell someone. My father abandoned me when I was born, went to 10 schools in many cities, had an abusive and manipulative step father who even pointed at me with a gun, tried to commit suicide several times, got diagnosed with scoliosis, gone trough necessities of basics like food, had to drop ALL my activities, move to another country, have anxiety attacks, but when I hear from people who have lost their houses or lost someone I feel like I have no reason to be sad, my emotions are invalid and I'm disgraceful. Idk what feel anymore. If you made it till hear thanks, that means a lot 🥺❤️

[@fioridipesco]

Whatever you experienced is completely valid. There is no "better" or "worse". We all experience different trauma events and they affect us in such different ways. I support you with all my heart and I hope you're okay. 💗

[@amym5062]

What you’ve gone through is deeply traumatic, and in certain ways even harder to heal from then something like losing a house (Which can be replaced). I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with so much suffering, and I wish you the very best ❤️

[@skyrevin6906]

Look, I know that hearing about what bad things others go through makes it really easy to invalidate your emotions. Trust me I've gone through it myself. But you have to understand that no matter what else, you are an individual, a person, who goes through things and the way that you perceive them is your perspective, and yours alone. You can't compare your experiences and the mental outcomes of that to other peoples. And I just want you to know that your emotions ARE VALID.

[@angie4662]

I really relate. It's the kind of thing where you feel as if you haven't gone through enough to have PTSD or anxiety or depression or something along those lines because what you went through wasn't 'as bad as others have it'. How your body and mind process what you've gone through is unique to you. Hope you get better! ❤️❤️❤️

[@siiiriously3226]

oh, dear. I am so sorry that those people treated you so shitty! thas sounds absolutely horrible what you had to go through! and: that's one trauma response, dear, to invalidate our own feelings. because we have learned to do so to survive. I still struggle with this a lot. what helped me (forgive my unsolicited advice! 😉if you are not into it, pls just skip it! ) was listening to self compassion mediations from Kristin Neff (there is one 3min.self compassion break I listen to 4 times a day... 😅they are free to download online! ) and also watching LOTS of videos on yt from people who went through the same or similar things who validated my feelings. (like Lisa Romano)also... fb groups of ppl. with your kind of issues (like cptsd may be a good start for you if you are not diagnosed with anything more specific, I joined those and it helped to read other ppl. experiences, similar and different to mine) it's a journey.. also: have you taken the ACE - questionaire? it's far from perfect, but it's one of the most popular studies on trauma. there is an easy and quick 10 question long questionaire (can be found on Google) that determines your Ace score. after I did that, I felt hugely validated, that the things I experienced were, even in scientific research terms, very traumatic. it does leave out many other things, (like moving so often, for example, which totally is traumatic in my opinion, especially if your primary caregiver relationships are shit and you dont have any secure attachments) and focuses on primarily big T trauma, but whatever your score may be: your pain and your trauma is valid.

[@adamcase2230]

Since I was 13 I was in an abusive relationship where I had to carry the weight of my partner telling me about being sexually abused and prostituted on a weekly basis at times. I could never leave because they would self harm or try to commit suicide. I could never talk about it because of the threats listed before. I had to do things sexually that made me sick, and I watched them self harm. Lies, constantly being cheated on, fear of attacks, fear of harm, bogged me down since I was just in 8th grade. This is four years of complex trauma that ended when I was 17. Its been four years since than and I still have made no progress, but I'm always trying. Always keeping going forward cuz thats all we can do. Keep your head up, keep going, be nice to yourself. Love yourself. You're fucking strong, you're still alive, you're still going, and you're a better person because of it. To any that read this, I'm sorry that you had to endure it, I am truly sorry. I understand. Its agony, its anguish and terror and horror and utter repulsion. But you are fucking strong. Don't compare your suffering to others, it's how it effected YOU that is important. And it isn't your fault. Peace and love, A

[@Tryxzy]

It's sad that people like that use their likely made up mental illnesses to their advantage while people are actually suffering from these. It's gross

[@LUINEITOR360]

I just don't know what I have... I just wanna cry, I'm not strong enough

[@Catpurins]

U got this bro, stay strong✊

[@geoffwalker11]

EMDR dude!!!

[@triplerushhd4799]

Also, crying is a release. An expel. Not a weakness. Like taking off the heavy armor after battle. You’re just vulnerable. Just find a place where it’s safe to do so.

[@nataliamilewska9028]

I don't know what's with my feelings too, so I know what it feels like when you want to live a normal life but you don't know what to do because you feel worried about your mental health. But remember that we are all in this together. One day we find an aswer which will make us feel safe and understood. Everything's gonna be alright. I think that you are so strong because you are here and you are trying to make yourself feel better. I don't know nothing about your mental health but I believe that you can handle this and be happy in the future. Have a great day and don't give up, please. I believe in you 🙌🏻

[@u.s.a.198]

Stay strong... hard moments and times always pass!

[@eastonbolen4563]

I feel like I’m struggling with ptsd but sometimes I think I’m just lying to myself to make myself feel better. So it starts to make me wonder if I’m actually a bad person at heart.

[@eastonbolen4563]

I don’t like sharing how I feel because I hate putting that weight on other people. I should be able to transmute that energy on my own so I can help more people around me

[@Thatscrazyyourecrazy]

Talk to a therapist privately. I was in denial for a long time but I fit every symptom. After going to therapy I started getting myself on track.

[@wowie7568]

This is paranoia

[@Heygjrl]

Your not always remember that

[@Spherexx._]

God, we're so alike- i don't like telling others my problems because i'd be putting my own issues on their mind, as they might even be suffering from something too. I just like to read what other people say about their problems and help them, i usually don't say much about myself. I don't even know if my trauma is valid.

[@DetachedClavicle]

my step mom traumatized me when i was 8 (dont want to go into details). its been years, and im still living in the same house with her, having to see her and talk to her every day. its virtually impossible to heal when youre constantly around the person that hurt you. its like picking off a scab every time one forms. if you keep picking the scab off, the wound will never heal

[@siennahopkins4288]

I am sorry you must endure this. You're not alone, I'm in the same situation. I really hope that you'll be in a better situation as soon as possible, do not force yourself to do anything you don't want to, including talking to her. I hope someone is there for you and that you can have a way around communing with her. I really hope you can move, or she moves, or that something good will come and help you. I'm truly sorry, you deserve better

[@CRONKYPIGEON]

And then it doesn't heal properly and turns into a scar. Sorry you have to deal with that. You don't deserve that pain. Nice pfp by the way, looks pretty snazzy

[@VThree3]

I was in the same situation but recently moved out. Please do so as well. I feel a lot better now.

[@direwolfnation8960]

Yes I know all about that~even now,

[@katiee4367]

i hope your doing okay now, but always remember to accept the past and change the future. and i will support what you need

[@trinity4783]

This lighthearted tone makes it sound so easy and yet so hard at the same time

[@alyssatheawkwardskat7364]

I'm starting to think that I have PTSD because I start crying uncontrollably when someone yells at me or even around me. My parents yelled and fought around me for years and they both wanted me to be on their side. My dad would get mad and yell at me over really little thing like trying to walk around him. I also get really nervous when I think someone's going to yell at me and I never really thought about it untill now. I know that I have social anxiety and I'm really skittish and I always blamed it on my years of being bullied.

[@babygiraffe2609]

im the same way, not even when i think someones gonna yell but even when i need to adress something, lke with my teachers ill feel the need to just breakdown. its incredibly frustrating

[@kayralynn5226]

@@babygiraffe2609 YES. As someone with diagnosed PTSD any kind of confrontation at all leads me straight into a panic attack and into dissociation. With anyone. I can't speak up for myself most of the time, no matter how little the thing. I will put off the confrontation as long as I possibly can.

[@kayralynn5226]

@@babygiraffe2609 YES. As someone with diagnosed PTSD any kind of confrontation at all leads me straight into a panic attack and into dissociation. With anyone. I can't speak up for myself most of the time, no matter how little the thing. I will put off the confrontation as long as I possibly can.

[@faithkarenbabao6335]

Me too

[@kallieboser4786]

Omg that's me

[@6AXL66]

When I was 3, my mom had Lupus; she died in her sleep while she was holding my older sister and I. When we woke up, rigor mortis set in and she was stuck gripping my arm. A lot of traumatic things have happened in my life, but this is the one memory that terrifies me and haunts me the most. Thankfully, after more than a decade of trying to get a diagnosis to fix my “problem”, I was diagnosed with ptsd and adhd. I still suffer, but it’s bearable. ❤️

[@slimthuggamothafucka2909]

I'm very sorry. I hope things get better for you. You are a strong soul and I wish the very best.

[@jennazamora8488]

I want to give you a big hug. ♥️

[@rainyalice2890]

Wait what is lupus

[@msjackson652]

❤ as a lupus sufferer Im sending love and healing your way.

[@msjackson652]

@@rainyalice2890 its an autoimmune disease that attacks your own healthy cells and destroys all your connective tissue. It attacks all your organs and often ends with organ failure. I suffer from it, it is horrendous and causes extreme pain and fatigue. There is no cure, just medication, such as chemo, to try to manage it. Not enough awareness for this disease 😢

[@FelixTheForgotten]

This is legit asmr. Was worried but now I have achieve a calm grounded state. Thank you

[@KelleeYouPersonalOracle]

Can you please tell me what asmr stands for?

[@ophiliac4536]

@@KelleeYouPersonalOracle audio sensory meridian response

[@nullinvoid1415]

Her voice is helping me calm down today from a bad sexual trauma nightmare.

[@oliverows]

Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response

[@laneatkinson6441]

@Dj Bond I believe you.

[@isawataihou7916]

Here it is a case of PTSD due to bullying. The constant intrusive thoughs and memories, all that rage and hatred, plus the revenge desire... Fifteen years I took to heal it. Fifteen.

[@seanodwyer4322]

tai- where the heck you are at moment. Auckland city can be war zone

[@milestogo4042]

How did you heal it? Please answer. Friend of mine is going through this bad and not healing.

[@HumansOfVR]

*_Woah the voice is so smoothe_*

[@Etuffly]

Life Progress - a channel for introverts Yep. I could listen to her and fall asleep. Very soothing

[@Psych2go]

Glad you love her voice! We will invite her back to do more :)

[@pasteldreams5413]

@@Psych2go Please do! She's been my favorite narrator so far ^^

[@veronika9279]

She speaks with so much love and compassion that my eyes teared up a couple of times.

[@gbeana81]

I usually love psych central and psych to go. I have recommended a lot of the videos to my students but I have to say I’m very disappointed in the information in this video and the attached reference. I don’t blame the person who created this video. It’s clear they got the information from the existing article. I reviewed the reference link in the description. There was no reference cited in that original article. I’d love to have an actual reference for the information. I get that psych to go is owned by psych central and this is a video adaptation of that psych central article so linking that article as the reference for this video makes sense but there should be a reference in the original article. I’m genuinely curious to know where the 5 types of PTSD came from. They are not in the DSM or any peer-reviewed medical or mental health related literature that I’ve read in my years of studying to become and working as a counselor. The information provided does not match the DSM-V description of or criteria for PTSD. PTSD is PTSD regardless of the nature of the traumatic experience that caused it. There are no different types of PTSD listed in the DSM for combat, rape, family issues, childhood abuse, or any other type of traumatic experience. The person’s PTSD symptoms are based on their unique response to the trauma, not the type of trauma they experienced. So saying that different types of trauma are associated with different types of PTSD is misleading. Acute stress disorder is not PTSD. It has similar symptoms as PTSD but the symptoms do not last longer than a month. If the symptoms last longer than a month, it cannot be considered accrue stress and is likely PTSD. “Borderline antisocial personality disorder“ is not one disorder. There is borderline personality disorder and antisocial personality disorder. They are two separate disorders and not necessarily associated with PTSD. One is far more common in women and the other is far more common for men. One is strongly associated with childhood trauma while the other is strongly associated with conduct issues in childhood. They have some similarities but have very nuanced differences that research is showing may be related to differences is gender norms and expectations. I’m genuinely sorry to be that person with the long critical post, but I’m seeing people in the comments self diagnosing based on the information in this video with no idea that the information is incorrect (or at least not accurate for diagnosing and treating PTSD in a clinical setting).

[@_Obey_]

Interesting, thank you!

[@gbeana81]

Cyan Walker you’re welcome!

[@doloresdelcastillo252]

gbeana81 Thank you for your information.

[@gbeana81]

Michael Felix thank you! Im curious, what country do you live in? I’m always interested in what the literature says. It’s also interesting to learn how different countries operate in treating mental health. Being in North America myself, the DSM is the “bible” in the field. That is because insurance companies will not pay for treatment of any mental health condition that does not have a DSM code. No system is perfect though and not all counselors agree with how the DSM is broken up. There’s always room for improvement and perhaps some countries can learn from methods used in other countries.

[@doloresdelcastillo252]

gbeana81 I also live in the United States. I am a History teacher not a psychologist but I find the subject very interesting.

[@Lilithsgrave_]

Welp the 5th one is probably the type I have my ptsd is due to childhood issues and I also have other mental issues

[@sleepysystem1989]

Me too

[@knucklesfieryheart20]

Same

[@metalfan4863]

Same

[@RubikalCube]

Same here

[@Elliassss]

Same

[@xaliash1841]

I’ve had ptsd since I was eleven, and it has impacted my life so dramatically-I can’t be around men without being even slightly nervous, tho the more masculine they are the more terrified I get.

[@jager896]

I totally understand that as I feel like that Eileen

[@unstoppablewildflower]

I understand. I struggle with this a lot. I have had PTSD since age 2 so I don’t remember life without it. I’m grateful to say though that in the past few years or so I’ve been able to start healing my relationship with men in general, so please know that it’s possible.

[@summero-my5in]

Me too. I’m friends with men but only bisexual and gay men who aren’t masculine presenting. I didn’t do it on purpose. I just happened to notice it after some years

[@asvt321]

What did a man do to you? I’m curious. I’m a male, but not really masculine 😅

[@xaliash1841]

@@asvt321 All I will say is this: public abuse.

[@karimahroyal9057]

i literally suffer from so many mental illnesses that i feel inhuman like im disconnected from reality ugh i hate this bro i just want peace :(

[@yolobro983]

Look up the holistic psychologist she’s helped me so much so far too cope with my illnesses and too live a more freeing life ❤️

[@idk._.7368]

I know how you feel

[@Sem-sl8vk]

Same tbh

[@delaney9383]

Understand that.

[@alicxchristina2307]

I can definitely relate

[@sleepyhappiness]

"depending on the severity of the event" actually it depends on an individual person's resilience (actual term used), which is why when two people experience the exact same event, they may be affected by it and react differently. Resilience in a person depends on multiple factors, including past experiences with stressors and literally the amount of stability a person experienced/was given growing up. This is why it does not matter how "severe" an event was and why professionals in the field frown on the "my experience is worse than yours and therefore I have more 'real' trauma" because it doesn't matter what triggered your ptsd when it comes to the severity of your reaction, what matters is resilience (not to say the actual event doesn't matter. Of course it matters). Anyway I had to but in with this comment because 15 seconds in and I'm already having issues with this approach.

[@Kayenne54]

I think coping strategies for these issues was mentioned early on in this video. (as another video to go look at). What still surprises me is how people think little kids, babies, won't be traumatized by traumatic events. Children are like emotional sponges, and even if an event isn't directly involving them, but parents or people around them, they pick up on the emotions. Ask any parent who's feeling normally stressed, how the kids react and act up. I don't think we humans fully understand how delicate we are, emotionally. Especially when discussing "abuse". Folk look for bruises or bones broken, and completely ignore that emotionally, it might take years to get over being screamed at or constantly blamed for events beyond one's control. And the abuse doesn't even have to go on for years to make a lasting impression. If it feels traumatic, it's traumatic. Being taught how to be resilient, or given strategies to cultivate that, would help a lot of people.

[@cacatuamiseravel9207]

I agree with this so much,the reason i never talked to anyone about my problems for years was because i thought people would think i was being too sensitive since i felt my problems weren't that bad

[@vevamoody8922]

What do you do when your complex trama was by mental health & every medical places that should have helped me didn't . my life matter to not 1 of 5 places. I was a pain patient 28 yrs opoid criss in Al i was discharged 4 life calloradal damage . i was in wds from 80 a day of oxycodone for 6 yrs. I took my meds as directed. Its been 2 yrs. I havent been back to pain man. No replacement opiod treatment. My wds were apparent. I decided to live for my children. Been 2 yrs I havent spoken of any of the events to any dr. Or spoken vebally at all. Omg i have so many dignosed besibes chronic pain w irrseable injuries adhd high blood pressure dignosed 13 yrs ago w dep. Sev. Panic dis. W agrophba insomnia. Only rx i take is lyrica. Take it to get 2 or 3 hours sleep a night. Off label . any help will be appreciated . god bless

[@soomi5667]

Veva Goocher I hope the best for you 💞

[@vevamoody8922]

@@soomi5667 I hope we all can figure out how cope .. Im at a loss.. Oh forgot im a survivor of d.v thats how my injures happen then i find out 24 yrs later i duff nar abuse.. Idw to know anyomre .. Its unreal over 2 yrs now.. I had 4 month's that was great i was on nat. High them ptsd.. Lord please give me a little break.. Thank you lord.. Amen.. I pray for all suffering from anything debilitating god can will deliver you as he did me.. I refused to give up or in.. So here we go .. Insomnia in full swing .. Does it ever get better . 2 montns im going on 3 hrs sleep a night... Dkw 2 do.. Please keep me in your prayers send good vibes .. Black cloud been fiowing me foe yrs ..

[@cbcbdhdjjsjsvsbdhsbsbshh9357]

My mom almost died in my arms. I can still remember the exact date, the time, what I was doing and everything that happened after that. Worst night of my life.

[@Psych2go]

Sorry to hear :'( That must have been very intense. How's your mom doing now?

[@clairecarlia-jones5979]

Sending you lots of love💖💖💖

[@dyanasbdoriginalchannel1492]

my condolences, that happened to my best friend

[@cbcbdhdjjsjsvsbdhsbsbshh9357]

Psych2Go she’s doing a lot better. even though she does have some struggles, she still gets back on her feet :)

[@sasha3010]

@@cbcbdhdjjsjsvsbdhsbsbshh9357 It's because you have been there for her. I wish you a lot of strength to get better as well.

[@rilkennedy]

my official DSM-5 diagnosis is PTSD but i have been diagnosed with CPTSD. it’s hard dealing with daily stigma from society and even from yourself. some days you feel so empowered and like nothing can bring you down after you’ve over come so much but other days are an extreme battle. you feel so isolated at times, like no one will ever understand. it’s also even harder not knowing someone with the same diagnosis because then you don’t have someone to just reach out and talk to, someone who will get it. to anyone who is struggling with PTSD or C-PTSD, you are not alone, you are loved, you are wanted and YOU WILL HEAL. everyone’s healing journey is different and healing is not linear but with the right support system (family, friends, healthy coping mechanisms, therapy and or meds, etc.) you can take back the power that has been stolen.

[@temporarilymoved1459]

My dad has PTSD from being in the army. He fought in the Iraq war. Luckily he’s still here, I’m so proud of him.

[@hoyaticinspirit4eva547]

Your father is a brave man. Hope he gets through it :))

[@takiyacollins5022]

Same here! My dad served 28 years in the military as well and he was in Iraq too!

[@karlalatagan3517]

Tell your dad that we are all proud of him

[@takiyacollins5022]

@@karlalatagan3517 I told him and he said thank you!

[@Moody__Mango]

Opposite!KO 💝

[@ky024]

Haha PTSD is literal hell. Even if it’s mild it’s still absolutely terrible...

[@Psych2go]

How are you currently coping with PTSD?

[@ky024]

Psych2Go right now I have a therapist, but I’m getting medication soon to help as well. It’s hard but I’ll get through it :))

[@kittencookiecronch4493]

It is.

[@mysmirandam.6618]

Mild can be more dangerous because they rarely seek treatment

[@joemoment-o1275]

@@Psych2go constant in a horror movie.... I hate waking up because it's just another day of pain. Now reminders of pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. Pain

[@Nyxide]

I have complex ptsd as well as depression and anxiety.. I love your videos so much. They give me so much clarity ❤

[@awildtrans7849]

I’d rather not share my story but i hope everyone else seeks help and remembers that they are important and loved!

[@ethereal_musik]

And you!

[@awildtrans7849]

@@ethereal_musik thank you!

[@Hey_yeah]

I respect that And I hope that life is better now for you And for anyone else who suffered from ptsd

[@katscott2217]

I’m almost 30 and I was just diagnosed with Severe PTSD Disassociative subtype. A lifetime of trauma and I’m just now putting myself back together. I’ve been in therapy for six months, I’m in a relationship that’s been going strong for six years. My husband is nothing but supportive and loving. I just wanted to put this out there. There is hope and eventually things get better.

[@elariamiranda4334]

I needed to see this. I am in a relationship with someone suffering from PTSD and wondering whether or not it will affect our marriage.

[@patson420]

thx for you this comment 🙏🏽

[@lafilledargile]

It's been 1 year since you post your comment. How are you know ? Hope you're alright...

[@katscott2217]

@@lafilledargile it’s very kind of you to check on me. I’m on medication, a mental heath management routine, fitness routine and I’m getting plenty of sleep along with the right nutrients. Very little symptoms these days and my marriage is thriving thanks to my therapist and Dr. Gottman’s books. My condition no longer rules over my life. It’s just a backseat passenger now.

[@danibaird4995]

I was kidnapped and raped when I was 16, I was locked in a hotel room for two days before I was able to escape. There aren't necessarily a lot of things I see that trigger me when I see/ hear them. But when I'm put under extreme stress for something else I start to have flashbacks, like when people yell at me or hurt me. Idk anyone else?

[@lana-gn1kb]

Yes, although I have childhood trauma. My brother, he's nine, he has it the worst because my mother always beats him the most. I think he already has ptsd and all that stuff because he has almost nightly night terrors and sometimes I find him in my bed sleeping because of it. I get flashbacks when my friends start getting rowdy with me but I have a lot more triggers. Like, a woman yelling angrily, a child crying, that sort of thing. I get triggered when people yell at me, too, I once had a teacher yell at me because I wasn't paying attention or something and I had a full-blown panic attack in the front of the class and had to run out.

[@danibaird4995]

@@lana-gn1kb I'm so sorry that has happened to yall, please reach out and try to find help. Not sure what your beliefs may be, but I'm praying for yall and your sanctuary. Stay strong ✊

[@kizzyclarkson1746]

We've been emotionally and physically abused since we were 4 years old. We would get yelled at if we did anything wrong. It was so bad that we became a system. Our trauma is scattered throughout our alters so I don't know how often we get flashbacks but I know some times. One was when our psychology teacher walked over in our direction. He had his hand up to turn something on. We immediately put our arm up to defend ourselves. We excused ourselves and managed to get outside before having a full blown flashback. Our school never realised but the teacher did. He told us that he wasn't going to ask any questions but to tell him what we weren't comfortable with. It was so sweet. Sometimes, if you ask someone to not do something, they don't do it. Hang in there hun :) -Helen

[@ijustwanttosleepnow]

Have you tried EMDR before?

[@alexvillamor2931]

I was raped by my grandfather at the age of 6 and lasted until 10. I have CPTSD and BPD. I have the same tiggers as u additionally whenever i’m seeing my grandfather (we never fought so he’s just around and only three person knew about it, my bro, mother, and auntie)

[@MatthewLacrette]

I’ve had so many traumatic events happen to me as a child I’m now learning are effecting me as an adult. I find even if you aren’t visually reliving an event in your head you can very much so feel the effects of it from whitening a new one. Very thankful for all your videos 🙏🏾

[@invisibleman4827]

I was never formally diagnosed, but I suspect that I maybe had PTSD. I was sexually assaulted by a girl in school, and at the same time I began overreacting to things, avoiding the opposite sex, depression, panic attacks, cutting myself, difficulty concentrating at school, college and university, constantly afraid for myself, angrily lashing out, nightmares, crying fits - especially when I turned 25, stressing out inwardly over triggering stimuli, self harm, it's only 20 years later that I've started to feel happy again.

[@btsarmybd1330]

Hope you are doing well...and thank you that you didn’t give up...

[@invisibleman4827]

@@btsarmybd1330 Thank you.

[@invisibleman4827]

@Jamie Lavender Not been formally diagnosed but I suspect as such.

[@doodoodoodle]

I'm sorry something like that happened to you... Im glad to hear that you're beginning to feel happy again! I wish you the best in life

[@invisibleman4827]

@@doodoodoodle Thank you so much.

[@choirunnisak888]

I defeated 80% of my PTSD after 15 years, I tried to forgive everyone, accept myself and love myself, but sometimes I can't stand my anxiety

[@寺前里音菜]

good luck defeating the rest of it 💕💕 I'm proud of you and supporting u!!

[@lovelyoppomist-imstillhere7630]

Your brave. I use to feel that No one would give a damn about me if I ever did got kidnapped, rapped or killed? I got touched inappropriately several times by a family member and an exmanager's own ex husband of an apartment complex in San Jose CA in the 90s on the East side of town off Monterey Road. He grope me when I was 11 and was trying to distract me when playing a p.c Game I couldn't understand why I was going threw this all over again. After he touched me he went to go into their master bedroom to masturbate. I use to have play dates with their younger sons. The ex husband who touched me had an older son from any other woman.Our manger finally heard about it but by the time I said something it was too late! My mom went insane when I finally told her what happened. She got upset with me for not telling her about it immediately afterwards she called up our manager over it the same day. Of course she believed me but my point is sometimes it can be difficult to come forward. When I went threw that I felt embarassed. Humiliated. Numb. Socially and emotionally withdrawn all at once.

[@ghostkillerreyna]

Keep fighting that PTSD!

[@ijustwanttosleepnow]

Have you tried EMDR before?

[@Ayn00n]

Try doing ONLY things you like. That helped me with anxiety. I stopped seeing people causing it, doing things causing it (those "must's" because of others, society, "everybody should do that way" etc. reasons and not my own wish or need) and organized my life in a way I like. Ten years later I love myself, I turned my hobby into my job, I sleep regularly... It feels good.

[@storona3999]

When I was 5 I was kidnaped, after that I stopped talking for a year, wouldn’t sleep and eat, my grandma had to feed me till I was 8. I have no memories before age 7. When I was 18 I was kicked out of the house and spent a whole year sleeping (like a bear). When I was around 20 I had to leave my family and my country due to civil war, I became emotionally unstable from incredibly happy to mourning sorrow and insomnia, after 4 years I had an emotional breakdown and had to change a country. At that period I started noticing memory loss. Parts of my life are just missing.At age 24 I lost a baby and development agoraphobia, my memory situation getting worse, my personality started to change, withdrawn socially and emotionally. I built a happy bubble around me and locked myself in it for 7 years at some point I felt like a fish in an aquarium, I started to see life just passing by and I was an observer. I have 3 dogs (they are my babies) which i had to leave 3 years ago, i am suffering from strong separation anxiety even though i know they are in a great family and I can video call them anytime. I did what was good for them and I would do it again because it’s right, but it feels like losing a child all over again. Every day. The pain never stops, I just got better at dealing with it. I have suicidal thoughts but I’m too lazy and too responsible to to actually act on it, so I don’t get bothered by them. However, i don’t want people reading this to feel sad and. During these times i had the most wonderful people around me. They never made me feel like there was something wrong with me. I don’t know how to explain it but they were what I needed and they helped me and supported me and encouraged me. I really feel as though i should not be complaining about the bad things that happened to me because i was fortunate to have great people in my life. Yet, I am 35yo, i have memory problems, i have panic attacks, eating and sleeping problems (i am keeping a routine diary so I know if I ate or brushed my teeth) my emotions are on a road trip in Europe, some times it’s a nice peaceful valley then mountains and then it a tunnel to England - dark and never ending. I am extremely jumpy. I wish I never came to existence and if there is such thing as reincarnation I want to be a rock in space. I don’t know if this classifiés as ptsd and if not, then what is it? Stay safe and take care!

[@margicates553]

Ayiluy Reyem I’m so sorry you are in pain. 💔 What happened to you is terrible and not your fault. I hope you’re getting the help you need. I get suicidal thoughts as well, but after a while it became too much to bear and I biked into traffic. I highly recommend the book “ the body keeps the score” and EDMR. It’s not your fault. Your brain is trying to keep you safe. 💗💗💗

[@wanderlust2894]

Hello i home you’re safe I am really sorry you’ve gone through this much challenges i can only imagine that pain but at the same time I am really proud of how you could beat this up and how you didn’t let yourself drown that is just amazing you are so strong you’re definitely one of the strongest(if not the most) strong person I have ever seen (even if it just in the internet on a random comment) and I am really fascinated by your strength and power. Thank you for sharing your thoughts I hope futur will be better , you are loved❤️

[@storona3999]

margi cates hi! I found the best things me that works for me: - if I don’t have time to deal with upsetting situation/emotion I just park it for time being and focus on what I am doing at the moment and spend this energy to complete work, project, deadline. Once it’s done I feel much calmer and relaxed to actually focus and deal with my emotions. - if I am overwhelmed and my emotions are over the roof, I just let them out: if I feel like crying, then I cry, if I don’t feel like working, I don’t work. Most importantly, I allow myself an hour to wallow in whatever I feel, embrace it and actually enjoy it. I know I have no control over the feelings, so I’ve learned not to feel guilty about having them. They are natural and part of me. I’m dealing with them how I can, but it works for me and for the past two years I feel in balance with myself. Ps. It’s like periods- nothing you can do about them, so why not watch a movie and enjoy some ice-cream:) I hope you will find your way too and will feel happy. Pain might not go away but hopefully some days will be less hard than others!! Lot’s love!

[@storona3999]

Wander Lust hi! Oh thank you. I really don’t know how to reply to your comment ( in a good way). I am speechless (and shy) My wish for you is to live your life where you can only imagine others pain but will never have to experience it yourself! Stay safe and please take good care of yourself!

[@ViviThegreat]

Omg, you’ve been through so much..more then me actually and I’m only a kid, hopefully you heal from all the things that caused you soon..

[@izzyo-o239]

I was emotionally abused by my parents, every day I have to relive that in my head over and over again. Emotional abuse is just as important as abuse in general. I do suffer from anxiety and an antisocial disorder.

[@dirty9358]

I am a german War Veteran. I served for 6 years and was 10 months in Mali. I have experienced death and saw how children got abused or died. I have/had Comorbid PTSD. I still have flashbacks when i see a group of people or cars moving fast towards an object, but i mostly recovered. My point is that if someone who dont belive in himself and cant do shit managed to recover you can do it too. Just believe, dont give up, give it time and talk to somebody.

[@favnged]

I’m actually scared that I have PTSD. I grew up in a toxic family, my uncle being a really bad alcoholic, my weed trauma, my mom and dad divorcing, my other dad leaving and taking my siblings, my mom becoming an alcoholic and spiraling down into homelessness, just a simple tapping noise getting louder and faster even triggers me, hearing the word ‘anxiety’ makes me have panic attacks and my small depression that scared me to death because I don’t want to die and be suicidal, my 19 year old meth addict cousin tried hanging himself in front of me when I was 7, my other uncle throwing a huge tub at my stray dog which killed her, I don’t know man. I thought everything was normal for me when I grew up, but I realized that it isn’t. It really isn’t I’m free to talk to because I’ve been through it all over the past years, I’ve seen it all. I know how it feels and I’m here for you, come talk to me if you struggle with this. Small or big, I’m here.

[@eatshite]

Zalera hey I hope you’re doing good today :)

[@lisamontgomery99]

I hope your ok I cant imagine that I feel so bad for you and you dog and siblings let the people who hurt you meet karma.

[@TheBakingGirlShow]

Bless u

[@moka_dotz3149]

I’ve been through a similar situation

[@amierasyaqilla2314]

oh my god.... I'm so sorry for you

[@ironwolfthefirstandonly1224]

I’ve dealt with mild PTSD surrounding angry parents that I’ve done a lot of work on. I can say even mild trauma, with the right circumstances, could leave someone frozen in place by fear. PTSD is no joke.

[@oliviaidk709]

this is what im going through, my father has anger issues and whenever he raises his voice or i see a dog leash (as it was used as a substitute for a belt for "punishment" once) i remember back to these past experiences. often at night when im alone with my thoughts ill be paralysed and feel the same emotions i did then which i believe is an emotional flashback. though he is a supportive parent, i can never forget those memories. even in mild ptsd it can mess you up

[@PUBG_Syko]

Hi. Firstly, thanks for your channel. I randomly came across it in my searches. I suffer from depression, complex PTSD and on top of that ADHD, these often send me into manic depressive episodes. Your vids has given me lots of insight. Thank you.

[@anns1921]

Reading the comments here it is sad and heartbreaking at the amount of hurt people have had to endure. I am praying for each of you to find your way through whatever you are dealing with and for God to bless you with an abundance of healing, comfort and peace. You are each worth more than you will ever know.

[@blessedsoul949]

AMEN

[@madisonmorris97]

Thank you

[@fetijajasari9522]

AMEN!!

[@laidgrlz]

Thank you so much. It means alot to me and the other people that have endure so much pain. Thank you.

[@anns1921]

@@laidgrlz You are very welcome! I am praying for you to receive healing and a sense of peace that you more need and deserve. And thank you so much for the kind words. They are greatly appreciated. May God bless you, my friend!! 🤗

[@Bumblebee-eu3gb]

hi my name is arora i suffer from depression, and ptsd from being raped when i was 3 and being verbally abused from birth till i was 11 i am 13 now so the wounds are still sorta fresh but i think i am slowly getting better. ps: i love this channel

[@pineapples2145]

WHEN YOU WERE 3?! I hope you get well.

[@jaemarie9311]

I am 13 and in a toxic parent relationship too

[@Eroticfishtoy]

Holly fuck you life before wasint good im sorry i hope your scars heal

[@icystarrs]

Take Care 💕💕🌸🌸 There are good ppl on this planet.

[@kelleybright3113]

Hi I'm I'm Kelly I have been abused since 1997 I just figured it out it's not me it's my brain

[@alexmcdonald4707]

I'm just tired of feeling afraid. I'm tired of it all. I'm not a survivor but I sure as hell am not a victim...I'm just a mess.

[@fabiennemarquis3894]

I know where your coming from. Makes reality seem like hell

[@joycegeb2765]

Me too!

[@AncientOne222]

Orissa McDonald have you ever tried Energy Healing? I am a Energy healer I help people release soul trauma that is stored within their body causing energetic blockage, I teach people how to communicate properly with their bodies from an indigenous approach if you are interested you can find me on Facebook @ Nashoba Energy Healing read the reviews to get a deeper understanding.

[@bicuriousdirtbikeboi2594]

You’re right. Don’t strive to be a survivor. Strive to be a THRIVEr

[@nancyking-hoffman146]

You never know how strong enough you really are until being strong is the only choise in life your given🤔💡

[@vastbigbubba]

Thanks for making this video, this is probably THE MOST informative video I've ever seen about PTSD

[@n8thegr8585]

I have no idea what it even must feel like to have any type of ptsd but, anyone who suffers from this, bless you all.

[@dianebrady6784]

Thank you Nathaniel.

[@fedoramcclaren4294]

Thank you...

[@Sunset553]

That’s so kind. Thank you

[@kristaogara2349]

I'm terrified of men especially when they get annoyed because as a child my dad would have extreme fits of rage that had me hiding. To this day I'm scared that if I annoy a boy they will try to hurt me but I am getting better with the love and support of my boyfriend

[@kayralynn5226]

Me too, friend, me too

[@slimthuggamothafucka2909]

I never knew hot to describe it or understood exactly why until reading this. Thank you so much.

[@michaelmckague6839]

As hard as it was to go through that the intense rage you experienced from those men, all of them started this life as babies and innocent and learned that behaviour. They also weren't culturally allowed to express sadness which only gives anger as an outlet for stress. Hopefully as humanity shifts from a barbarian perspective of self we can start to become more self aware and deal with emotions in a healthier way. If it was acceptable for men to feel sad these traumatic events could have been lessened or negated entirely, I'm sorry you had to experience that but as much as you may want to blame your aggressors it is a cultural and social issue. They turned to monsters because everything around them was influencing those actions. I'm not excusing thier behaviour, I just found relief against my aggressor by accepting he was taught to become the monster that hurt me he wasn't born a monster.

[@CyberusSuper]

Hey, can I hug you?

[@isabelsierra6539]

me too :( and my ex would yell all the time which would make it worse and he was very toxic which made it all worse

[@dustofyth4433]

"complex PTSD" My past social anxiety caused by the constant feeling of burden my parents put me through almost my entire childhood mixed with racism from school: my time has come

[@dustofyth4433]

@thisautumn bleedstoo thank you for worrying ❤️ I'm fine rn

[@avab8561]

Xuan Sofía Xia aw I hope you’re doing ok. I have the same thing going on too-

[@kailanburgess1196]

I hope and pray for all people suffering with this be healed and just enjoy life......The most beautiful gift of all

[@kailanburgess1196]

It is not easy. I know the feeling

[@komiyama4344]

Xuan Sofía Xia I hope that’s professionally diagnosed and not just self diagnosing since you said “my time has come” . Please don’t self diagnose

[@faespirit5706]

Usually, I don't share much with people. However, this video inspired me to open up a bit. To be blunt, I have complex PTSD with dissociative disorder. For well over a decade I have been seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist. For awhile now I have been in remission for DID. Took me a time to find a therapy/therapist that worked for me. The whole "you have to try on a bunch of shoes before you find the one that fits". Mindfulness therapy has assisted in my everyday life. Retraining how I think and react has played the biggest role in healing and managing symptoms from PTSD. Seeking help can be difficult, but, it is truly an act of bravery and the biggest step to healing or creating a better life. Those of you who too have sought help; you should be proud of yourselves. Keep on healing. For those who haven't; you aren't alone, and I hope that you find it in yourself to take that step. The journey can be difficult, but, the voyage is one that is well worth the trek. ❤️

[@andrewsherrillmusic]

My complex PTSD ruins any chance of a romantic relationship. Imagine never being touched and knowing no one u want to ever will. Because you just can't act like other guys.

[@idk._.7368]

What happened?

[@MA-di9zh]

It will change when you go through therapy. One day you will be able even if it takes more time

[@angiebays976]

i feel the same way just for chicks ..i cant keep a man cause of my issues iv been alone for a while now n ii sometimes just think why cant i just be a normal girl ..😓

[@javayehenry1143]

i feel the same way.... all my relationships that ive had fell apart because of the feelings and things im dealing with..... I now have a fiance and it started off great but then i dont know what happened and out of nowhere i feel like im just lashing out at him and blaming him for something that feels like that its me. were going there a patch right now, i haent told him everything deeply about how i feel and am.... I don;t want to lose him for how difficult i am but i also dont want to make things worse for him. Hes in prison and everyday i feel like i need to keep my head above water just to make sure hes alright everyday.... it may be different but the feeling i get.... i feel like i won't ever be able to fully be close with anyone for pushing them away unconciously sometimes. i just want to be better.....

[@angiebays976]

omg ..iv really been trying to find a better way for myself because i know i affect how my children see the world ..so i really do believe its negaticve self talk self doubt self contempt/sabatage ...really we gotta start being good to ourselves for our kidsor just fam ...even if it feels stupid wierd awkward ..its better thn beating urself up just say hi imagine believe until u really believe u are loved ,happy ,succesful ,respectful calm beautiful smart able to carry conversations with anyone ,and assertive!!!! thts wassup ...take hold of ur life right now ...it takes 30 days to create a habit ..just think a really good thought imagine it in ur mind every time negative words flashback memories anything ...u gottta fight for you .. if u do t try ..its only urself to blame ...i cant be any harder on myself ..not any more i cant live miserable any more i cant quit on my kids so im so brave ,helpful,kind. im a fighter iam healthy emotionally growing right nnow ....thank u for listening anyone ..be blessed be happy be good to u ..😳😆🤪

[@xstxnxrjpeg]

As a borderline with complexed ptsd I can say it’s true, but please everyone in here remember we are stronger than our trauma. I believe in you all 💕

[@Cocobeez]

Same. I’ve experienced it since I was 12 and now I’m 27 and finally getting help. It has been so difficult, especially my social life

[@addisonarcher3089]

Thank you. Saying we are stronger than our trauma means the world to me thank you

[@xstxnxrjpeg]

@@addisonarcher3089 no problem, it’s something that I know a lot of us don’t believe but it’s true. You are strong and worthy, I believe In you and you can do absolutely anything, don’t forget that okay?

[@addisonarcher3089]

@@xstxnxrjpeg thank you I wont forget!!

[@sanya3398]

@@Cocobeez yea I have all this horrible pulling . The body keeps the score (a book I recommend)

[@BullockVivi]

My husband killed himself in June 2018, it was the most traumatic event of my life considering I had been living in a really situation for 5 years due to caring for his needs. I strongly believe I have acute stress PTSD, I forget things all the time. I sometimes cannot carry a conversation without asking “what was I saying “ million times. I had to take a leave of absence from school with only two semesters left to graduate simply because I could not remember anything I studied. I am a dancer in a semi professional company and for the last two years I just have struggled to memorize choreographies , I feel like Dory from finding Nemo sometimes, the difference is that I have always been the queen of memory, I used to be able to memorize long poems, pages of books, acting lines, and now I just cannot remember. I have improved my mental and emotional health a lot with both pharmacological and meditation treatments. I feel happy, I feel confident, I feel that I am healing, but when you mention memory problems as a sign of this specific type of PTSD it opened up my eyes to something I have never thought it could be related to losing my husband and PTSD. Thank you for the video. I am a subscriber now and will watch more about it so I can keep healing and improving.

[@flame4555]

Mia B i’m sorry 🙁

[@biscuitpocket7283]

Mia B I'm so sorry for what happend in June 2018, please be strong & blessing to you for good health & peace in your life.... 🍪pocket.

[@anythingibro3929]

So sorry sweet heart

[@jnellyedts]

Glad you’re doing better 🙏🏽❤️

[@Aqua0410]

I saw people telling their stories on the comments, so i wanted to shared mine. Ever since i was born, i had lung problems (basically i to this day i still do have 1 lung and a half) I was never a normal child, my parents fought a lot, my dad verbally abused my mom (and still does), my brother used to beat me up and annoy me. Because of this, i had no friends, i was always mean to people because i thought they would hurt me too. I started getting bullied because i liked stuff that boys like (im a girl) and because i wore glasses. The only friends I had betrayed me, told my secrets to everyone, and started bullying me later too. I was 14 when the suicide attemps started. I felt alone. Even when people had good intentions I was always scared and pushed them away sometimes. I was getting self destructive, i got a bf and he started abusing me too, beating me up, trying to rape me.(we were only 15...) When i broke up with him, he told lies to everyone about me being a 'slut' etc My brother had just attemped suicide for the second time and now i had to deal with false accusations, bullying, my father still abusing my mother. I was almost pushing everyone away, cried every single day blaming myself for all the stuff that happened,cutting myself, tried suicide. Lucky i had my bestfriend there all the time, and my mom, that helped me get out of that situation. To this day, I still have scars in my heart. It hurts a lot to me seeing someone suffering, to the point i cry myself to sleep because it remembers me of what i suffered. I get angry very easily, and have multiple stress attacks trought the month, because i can't deal with too much at the same time. It affects people around me because i get explosive. and i'm still trying to fight it, im not used to having friends that really care about me. Whatever you are suffering, you are not alone, you have always someone to talk to. ps: in the corona times, my dad literally told me he didnt care about me dying because i have to (since i got lung problems).I'm 18, 18 years of hurting but life is worth living.

[@selbiernepesova4132]

you are strong based on what you had overcame. your story broke my heart. wish you everything amazing!

[@Aqua0410]

@@selbiernepesova4132 Thank you a lot

[@pelviselvis3421]

Thank you very much for sharing! You are so wise and strong already, an old soul probably. I have no doubt you are going to do amazing things in your life. I hope you know, even though I don't know you, you matter to me and I can see your beautiful light! Let it shine!!!

[@candymaerollon1681]

Hey you know what I also have mental health issue and what i do to cope. With it is by doing arts.. Although i still doubt myself about my arts.. I told myself that even i am not really good at it I will continuously improve for myself.. Because i love arts. Try to find something you love i think it will help u a lot 😊

[@selbiernepesova4132]

@@candymaerollon1681 ya, you can overcame your trauma via finding your passion and curiosity in something.

[@wesleyt2896]

I was in a narcisstic relationship 9 years ago, I was mentally, psycically and sexually abused, and stalked and threathened when I went no contact. I went through therapy, been in a mental hospital twice and on meds. I have been on the brink of death and I recovered very well, but I still suffer from nightmares, flashbacks and panic attacks occasionaly, and being very insecure.

[@katk6538]

I feel your pain, I also dealt with a narcissist, I left this relationship a year ago went no contact. I had to leave my entire life to escape him I lost everything, the abuse was out of control .Still dealing with severe flashbacks and ptsd , feeling insecure and less than is still something I’m dealing with everyday. These types of personalities are so destructive , they will ruin your life and feel nothing and move on like nothing happened and take zero responsibility.

[@Dgbygvg]

I understand your pain. I hope you are left alone and good luck on your road to recovery. Last year was a hell for me, I have met so many narcissists (managers, doctors, friends, etc) and have gone through painful events. I hold resentment for the freshest events but the old events are fading yet a speck of resentment lingers. I have climbed my way out of them and kept them at bay. I work with a few or maybe some at work but I keep to arm's length and speak out if necessary. Adults that bully younger adults are the worst and must have no happiness in their own damned lives. Good luck to you and to everyone.

[@cyndivearnon6673]

Wesley T I can definitely relate...I was molested at4...physically, mentally and emotionally abused by my mother...who raised me to believe if it didn’t exist in our house it exist in the world...raised in an all white neighborhood being a black kid during the 60’s...hooked on diet pills at 14 and due to my isolation food became my best friend..very naively got pregnant at seventeen...went to Long Island NY by myself at 26 weeks pregnant because I was too far gone to legally get an abortion in my state...after 10 years the guy I got pregnant by tried to kill me Valentine’s Day 1982 only to find out he was discharged from the air force with a personality disorder (psychsoid manic depressive)...marriage a crazy guy who I thought was just crazy enough to protect me from the first guy...went to shelter 4 times before I got the nerve to leave... now it was me and my kid living in isolation because I couldn’t trust anybody...thought I was finally getting my life together and went to various training programs to become self sufficient including college...my ptsd haunted me... at this point I didn’t know if I was afraid of success or failure but went through years of self doubt or self abuse...got pregnant at 41 I couldn’t abort because a couple of months prior I miscarried and heard the doctor say “ I only got part of the hand “...needless to say I also suffered from clinical depression as well as anxiety throughout my life...was present when my first son was shot and killed during a home invasion...currently I am 65 and I let my shit destroy me ... I got into drugs ( marijuana, pain meds and pills ) you use whatever it takes to take the pain away... the only thing that has been a constant in my life is I refuse to abandon ship... my mental health issues consumed me and allowed me to miss out on life...you’re young enough to take heed... this is a cautionary tale ... don’t fall victim to your mental health ... just to mention I’ve been inpatient several times documented suicidal once and currently in therapy

[@amberpasta9379]

I understand much of everyone’s struggles in this thread.. at first it wasn’t so bad but near the end it was like that mask came off and the real him finally decided to show himself... I stopped eating, I was suicidal, I blamed myself for everything (he convinced me that it was my fault), told me he hurt me because I didn’t give him any other choice, he would leave and just keep coming back just to lie and use me, I wanted to make excuses for the things he said and did... I just wanted to believe him because I would tell myself I loved him.. now I’m afraid and it’s been over a year since everything happened I still cry, I still have nightmares, and I still fear he’ll try to come back... even his new girlfriend is trying to contact me to this very day she found my insta and Snapchat... I fear she’ll find my phone number or my address.. sometimes I think I should have gone to the hospital when I thought of going... but I guess the worse part is just accepting it and realizing that I’ll have to leave with this the rest of my life... but all I want is to be normal again

[@everydaygetsworse5708]

I was super insecure even before my trauma happened lmao

[@lisavanlithmaurus8211]

My husband killed himself in front of me and I haven’t been normal since

[@paulcooper5748]

That would be hard i hope you are getting the help you need to cope with that.

[@papyacoconut]

Oh my god, that would have been so traumatic for anyone. I hope you're coping and getting better from that horrible experience.

[@poncandn1]

so sorry!!

[@AimieNeish]

Sorry about that, please consider therapy. ❤️

[@littlemissemila1818]

That must’ve been mentally scarring. I strongly recommend therapy for something traumatic as that.

[@Diamondvega1]

I do have cptsd,chronic psychosis,anxiety disorder ,depression ,Our childhood ,teen years is something that as adults have to face and overcome the rest of our lives EXTREMELY HARD WORK ON THIS..I battle every days

[@samcu1379]

I have ptsd the pain seems to never end. There’s so much injustice

[@porthard5951]

Yep...so much pain so much trouble In the world...bless up and stay strong

[@shaymary5247]

It's as if it manifests...

[@Starry_Night_Sky7455]

Wow one more comment I completely, sadly, understand. 🙁😠😠😠🙁 You cant really go all vigilante. But I love when these sting operations catch molester trash red handed with a spot light as they try to scatter away. Love when they get caught.

[@faithcrisis2138]

I have complex PTSD, accompanied with depression and anxiety. My journey to a healthy self has been worth the battle and I'm working more everyday to heal from my past trauma. Getting a diagnosis and help through therapy and proper treatment has made a world of difference, and it allows me to be better for my family and myself

[@nicolasamontes5843]

Someone recommended emdr a few days ago please tried

[@m9rcelin3]

I’m so proud of you ... I know we’re strangers .. but I really am proud of you it’s really hard but look you’ve made it through so much .. you’re worth it :)

[@debbiecondelario8460]

I've been laid off since March due to covid I know I need help but no funds I can't really say on here what happened to me it could damage others to know something like that exists in our world I still can't wrap it around my head my spirit dies more everyday I pray to God that he lets me off the hook if I accidently lose grip cuz I can't cope with my life anymore I want to but I just can't get my feet on the ground

[@starcatcher7297]

Hello, I also have Complex PTSD. I also have mild depression and anxiety. Being honest here, everyone that battles though this inspires me. I hope u are staying safe, during though these troubling times. (yes i know im commenting late but idk) Have a great day/night.

[@thatdumbravegirl]

I appreciate this video, im in a psychiatric hospital right now for ptsd related to military sexual trauma and I also suffer from complex ptsd, borderline personality disorder, severe anxiety, and severe depression....this video really makes me feel less alone and is great for educating my family

[@youngspannny4411]

I hope you are okay. Stay strong my love ❤️

[@adrisv14]

Thank you for sharing this, I feel like understanding my mental illness helps me out when seeking help. I have a few types of ptsd. I grew up with and alcoholic dad who used to beat me up and be very verbally abusive throughout most of my life and into my teenage years until I finally moved out at age 17. Before I moved out, adding up to the horrible abuse at home, I was raped by my 25 year old neighbor when I was 15 after he had offered to “help” me. After the rape i started cutting myself cause I didn’t know how to deal with the stress, the depression, the guilt, and humiliation I felt and I couldn’t tell my dad cause he was drunk most of the time and I was afraid he was going to react the wrong way. My mom was a great help but she was living out of the country I’m from and communicating was difficult. When I was 18 my life-long best friend with whom I grew up with (since we were babies) died of sickle cell anemia in January 2016 and in July 2016 my older brother was tortured, beaten, and shot to death by corrupt policemen in Honduras that had offered him a job as an informant and he denied. Everything had really added up for me in such a short amount of time and I honestly feel grief and pain everyday and I feel like I have ptsd for each of those things separately. I have horrible nightmares and even nightmares about having nightmares. I’ll sometimes dream about my dad beating me up, other times about my brother dying, sometimes about my best friend, and most of the times about my rapist. It is truly a struggle but I’m doing my best to get better. This year I started therapy after I finally spoke up about my dad being abusive and about the rape and im also addressing my grief. I had told my dad about me getting raped when I was 15 and he was so drunk he didn’t remember me telling him until everyone else in the family knew just a couple of months ago. This is a new journey towards recovery for me and I’m motivated to go above and beyond to get better.

[@TheNetherLord5240]

woah. i wish you the best moving forward.