The Excitement & Anxiety of Announcing “Play The Game” // 23.07.01

[@didde-vr3731]

You know what they say "the first pankake always gets mesed up"

[@tkno8984]

"Feeling cute, thought I'd upload." Matt's best saying ever.

[@triciahunyady6711]

Keep sharing your faith. Love hearing about it.

[@randomlyreese]

You would make a fantastic youth pastor.

[@Distanttravler]

Am I the only one just now learning about this? I’m so sad I missed this

[@kurtisperry6524]

"I don't want your performance, I just want you" was very beautiful

[@uphillradio]

🎯

[@sebastiannunes6940]

It might have underperformed but the people who watched it really enjoyed it

[@KrisLab]

12:50 Boom! The Holy Spirit bringin’ truth! That. Is. So. Good. I even needed to hear this ❤

[@lastnamefirstname8655]

such a fun game! thanks matt!

[@MaryGraceRu]

My faith isn’t based on scripture, I don’t consider myself Christian. But the “I don’t want your performance” part hit close to home. For me it ultimately comes back to not being good enough. The sole question of “What do you want from me?” pushes in that direction. We do our best hoping to receive a reward that for us, humans, is based in the capitalistic and very material world. And when the reward doesn’t turn out to be material, we can’t process it. The video underperformed - but what did perform? The system you have set up - works. The rules, the boards, the interactions with the audience are working. Second video is now out too and it’s actually very fun. What else performed? Community, the people here and on Overkill channel and on the Discord. Which is an amazing thing. You performed! Your vision is actually inspiring. I can’t explain in detail, because it will bore people, but what you’re doing gave me a vision for something I’m working on. (Film production related). Your idea, gave an idea to me - it becomes a ripple effect. And I take it forward, doing my best inspiring people in my waking life. At the end of the day, God (in my world - Spirit), won’t give us what we think we want. But it will give us what he knows we need. After all the changes, hard decisions, experiments, you’ve fostered a community. It’s niche, but it feels like home to most of us here. That’s what I think is important to remember. Personally, I’m moments like this, I turn towards gratitude. Looking at things that I have and continue to have in the nearest future and thanking the universe for letting me be here and allowing me to be a part of this world, this process and the possible future that we can create. Sorry for rambling. You’re doing great 💕

[@BeesKnees1234]

I do miss Dope or Nope, it’s how I found you and was my fun channel that brightened my day. I understand your need to find new roads to drive down but I do hope maybe one day it will come back in some capacity.

[@natinanat2238]

I don't want $10,000 , I want Dope or Nope back, it is the one thing my 9yr old son and I would sit and laugh together with more than any of the other crap on you tube :(

[@ericavero23]

HAHA, that's my issue too, usually I would always be like a pick me person, or like trying to be the person who can do everything be a good person but taking it far which it isn't good. I always pray to god as well but mostly I go for a mother figure, im a catholic, La virgen de Guadalupe, she is my pride and joy. she is the one who actually helps me a lot because I see her as my mother figure the one female I can trust and rely to from the spirts to her like idk that's my side of my story to share out! I love this conversation of you and trying to find yourself im 22 years did horrible things that I don't wanna repeat. I too ask for help from god to her, even my guardian angels. you're doing great Matt! I've seen you since 2015 thank you for the long journey.

[@MrDonkeyKIng77]

Have greatly enjoyed these chats, it's has helped think about my own life and walk with christ, hope they continue

[@Chishi420]

Matt Im not religious I basically dont believe in anything but how you speak to us regarding your faith and how it affects your life makes me feel like i should try to rebuild what i lost long before. Thank you Matt. You shouldn't beat yourself up too much. Youre doing great man:)

[@Steffey2009]

These last two vlogs were things I needed to hear. You have wisdom in you Matt, and I thank you for sharing it. Those big emotions are ok sometimes. You have a big heart and big ideas and I am grateful that I am one of the people that gets to see what comes from that here through KZbin.

[@ethanbarlow9135]

"I don't want your performance. I want you." Great stuff and so grateful for a God that loves in this way.

[@Any_beth]

Watching and this verse came to my mind: "and let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart." Gal 6:9 Don't loose heart. Don't fall into the trap of "ahh, it's not working in the now, I need to change" change is good. But don't let the enemy use that against you. Everything in its season.

[@dparton15]

Your journaling is so powerful. More powerful than you know. It's so rare now days to see someone so open with their faith, and even more rare for people to share their struggles with their faith. It's awesome hearing your struggles and knowing that other people (including myself) are not alone in their struggles. Keep on doing what you're doing, you're a blessing! Let go, and let God!

[@Spellboundinc]

When will we be seeing the new App for the Overkill Channel?

[@karigenbenavides5466]

Sometimes I have that feeling of where or when does God want me with my gifts and talents. Sometimes I let the enemy have a seat at my table and I don’t even know it. I am praying for the Lord to give me wisdom and to lead me to the next step in my life right now . I just got terminated from job today and I am on my knees praying to Him to open another door to another Job that is better for me. The enemy has no place at my table right now.

[@alyssaabeyta04]

The constant noise and voices in my head telling me to do this, say that, or don't do this, don't say that, have also been something I've been battling immensely for the past few years, but has pretty much worsened in the last year because of being a senior and picking how the next few years of my life go. When anything happens, the voices start up and it honestly feels like the movie Inside Out, only I can hear the little emotions bickering about a situation and I'm just stuck until one takes over. I'm preaching to myself now, but what I think needs to happen (at least for me) is leaning more into that What Would Jesus Do mentality. "How would He react to this? What should I say? Who would He trust in?" and capturing those emotions. Ultimately, putting trust into God and His direction in my life. He's given us the Holy Spirit for a reason, and He's come to be guidance and a helper. Being a type 1 I want everything to work out, and I want to be in control of that thing working out. But looking back I've realized that if I had been the one to choose the university I went to, it would not have been the best way to go. I can't be in control, because I do not ultimately know what will happen. Sure I can, like you said, do a ton of research and plan everything out to a tee to control it, but ultimately I can't control weather, or sudden car troubles, or a sudden health problem, or a scholarship not pulling through. Now if I was doing it myself, that type of stuff would've rocked me off of the flimsy platform I was on (my own understanding), but the whole thing about Jesus is that HE is our rock and our foundation. He didn't guarantee no storms or no adversity, but He did promise help and guidance through those storms to bring us out to the other side of them. That really has helped me quiet the voices. It reminds me of the song "I Thank God". "He picked me up, He turned me around, He placed my feet on solid ground". When anything I do seems to fail, ultimately He's the solid ground we're on and nothing can shake or fracture that

[@PosterEdge]

I just rewatched this video. It hits very differently now. I hope you are doing well. I continue to pray for you and your family. Thank you again for everything.

[@BOOST_sounds]

6:00 he took that comment and made it official 😭😭

[@livvhas3447]

I’m quite enjoying your flowery words and big emotions, Matt. You’re making me see myself and how I react to things in a different light, in what I think is a very good way. Thank you for that. Also, as an aside, those glasses are a great shape for you 😊

[@dylanbose]

Excited for you as you read that book! The author is my pastor, and hearing that message for the first time really impacted my life. Praying God speaks to you through it!

[@scribscrib]

Be still and know, Matt. Be still and know. Faith>works Jesus wants a relationship not a religious zealot. Progression as an idol. Wow never thought of it that way….

[@Megatron_Hunt_Life]

You want this to work and have the excitement to make something new is really great and really cool. I am here with you 100% but other's out there may have to work up trust again? I feel you are on the right path.

[@aceofstearns]

I feel that because you've done all of this before surrendering your body/mind has formed a habit and ecosystem of feelings and expectations. We know that the enemy wants you to take all the credit for everything, and dropping on a dime, doing a 180, and giving all the glory to him after doing KZbin and working for yourself and being in control will not only cause just our natural body to want to revert back to the highs and lows of expectant living, but also we know the enemy will try and try again to pull us down. Also, maybe it would be easier to try and step into a new character if you feel like the old you is coming though too much. There are things I've truly loved that because of my faith and wanting relationship with Jesus, those things had to go away. They aren't objectively "bad" things but I feel like I've abused them or used them in such a manner that it instantly pulls me back down, so I've walked away from them and invested in who I am now.

[@TigranAbgarjan]

Matt, the great composer Johann Sebastian Bach once said: _"The aim and final end of all music should be none other than the glory of God and the refreshment of the soul."_ This applies to every form of art, including KZbin videos. As long as your art fulfills these two criterias, it will be wholesome and good. If your content glorifies God and entertains the people, you as a believing Christian, will automatically be happy and satisfied, too. I understand that bills need to be paid and stuff, but if you are in a mental state, where you get angry because your freshly uploaded video "underperformed", you will never be truly happy spiritually.

[@felicity_mafua]

He does want you. He wants all of us ❤ He has taught us to help others come into Him. You may not realize it but you are doing just that. Our performance or should I say gifts are for us to help us help others. Thank you for being you. 1 Peter 4:10 “As every man hath received the gift, even so minister the same one to another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God.”

[@sniperlif3]

If your faith was all mighty, you would never fail. The problem is that you are not the only person going for the same faith endeavor. You are fighting all others for the same love from your religious entity and there is not an unlimited supply (as that would ruin the world). You can try as hard as you can, but at the end of the day (normal day, not end of life), you are what YOU make it. I am not religious, but was early on. I believe that a person can do good if they want to, but I do not believe in doing it for someone/something else besides gratification or self satisfaction. I do not want to blame or ask for help from anything. What I do with my life is my choice.

[@skyyevermore]

It brings me such joy hearing your walk with God. When you said you kept "trying" to do this and "trying" to do that, my first thought was, stop trying. It made me smile hearing what God spoke over you. Keep wrestling. You showing God you are serious means He will be serious with you. He's not afraid of hard questions. Just come with a genuine heart of wanting to understand. This is only the beginning, friend! Also, I know the author of the book you mentioned. I haven't read it yet but have been meaning to! Louie is so amazing and kind of inspiring me to read it now!

[@journeyofemmajoy]

Matt, this means more to me than you could ever know. Thank you for sharing your struggles and documenting your thoughts. I’ve been going through the EXACT same emotions with the need for control. The funny thing is when I finally think I got control and fixed a situation, that’s when it all falls apart. I didn’t even really the pride I had in my heart until you verbalized it. Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. I really feel like these videos are like getting advice from a big brother in Christ lol. Please keep sharing your journey. Here’s to more flowery thought and big emotions!! ❤

[@nightshadeisis2263]

It is clear that you worked on this in detail and for quite a while, dude. This is gonna be good. :)

[@luisgabrielpacheco4195]

An spiritual book that really helped me for prayer, and whenever I felt I was closing myself for perfection was "The way" and a good one for embracing the cross and keep going understanding failure and problems was "forge" both are from St Josemaria and are my go to whenever I need a clear advice

[@captainplayshonkai7768]

Waiting for v10_🌸flowery thoughts🌸.mp4

[@Dannosaurusrexx]

July 1st thing? Never heard of it….. where’s the money?!?!?

[@sydneynicole08]

Matt, you have come such a long way in life. Watching you be vulnerable and share your deep feelings and struggles with us is something that we all cherish. What you're doing now... taking risks, producing amazing content, and just experimenting is going to all be worth it. Seeing how happy and nervous you were to release the July 1 video was such an important moment. While it may have let you down on performance, you are making amazing content that brings magic to our lives. During our hardest days, and even yours... this is something to look forward to. Performance is important, but it isn't everything. The process and the enjoyment you and everyone else gets out of it is everything. God bless ❤

[@thefarmingpenguin]

I just want to say thank you so much for making these videos! I have been struggling with a lot of similar stuff(depression, anxiety and adhd) and it really helps knowing that there are other people out there that are dealing with the same things that I am One thing that has helped me is reminding myself that I am improving even if it doesn't feel like it or physically doesn't seem like it's getting better

[@BlLK_BALK]

I personally struggle with control/inclusion, and through my Bible app, I found this plan 'Killing Comparison'. Every time I come to a place of frustration because of the lack of control or feeling included, I am reminded to ask myself, "Why?" Why do you feel angry/frustrated? Why must you be in control? Why must you be included? All of the why questions I can think. It takes sometime but after discussing it with myself, the tension, the silent tension, that has been building up throughout the day melts away. It is a repetitive cycle but I've found more peace doing this

[@raquelwilliams4697]

Sometimes our carnal state of mind plays itself the moment when we face a moment of defeat like but you did the right thing remembering the word of God and reflect and silenced yourself and He answered 😊

[@budda2081]

Matt always remember Jesus loves you

[@coreygray1872]

Hey Matt this what came to mind after watching the video and what came to mind for me as well cause i was starting to feel frustrated that i spent too much money and needing to fix my truck which it will be and all these other thoughts started to run through my head, and i was starting to feel like i had failed and i felt like i was losing control over everything, but anyway the scripture that came to mind was Psalm 46:10. "He says, Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." You are doing good bud, keep up the good work. God bless.

[@dailyrefining]

Matt, it's great that you can reflect on your thoughts/emotions resulting in you running to the Lord. Always remember that the Lord has a plan and all works out for the good of those who love him. Have you ever read the book gentle and lowly by Dane Ortlund? It was a book our church read for their reformed summer men's breakfast a couple of years ago. My husband suggested I read it and it has really helped both of us. It's on audible as well as print. We are praying for you Matt!

[@KrisLab]

Yeeessss…not leaning on our own understanding is such a hard thing to do. The verses that I’ve been holding onto are Hebrews 11:1-3. “Faith is the substance of things hoped for. The evidence of things not seen….” Even when we can’t see what will happen in the end, as God’s children, He has our back. Faith is our proof. Much love and keep on keepin on.

[@hannahbrown9485]

Hey Matthias,This is a great song I just heard and it touches on what you were talking about. He just wants you, and your identity is found in Him. This is a journey my husband and I have been on for years now and honestly still learning so much about this. God has spoken those same words to us in many different ways and very similar ways as He spoke to you. Praying for you and your family. Have you thought about a small group or just a safe space to talk to other believers about these things? Just a thought,maybe you are already doing that 🙂 God bless you! kzbin.info/www/bejne/mKeugoCjeNyNl7c

[@thatzoegirl992]

Okay so I really struggle with some of this stuff- as someone who already feels behind in life I am so confused about what will happen when I leave uni etc. and careers, where I want to live, what I’m going to do. In terms of control, the key thing is for me in terms of anxiety- you are not afraid of the thing happening, you are afraid of not being able to handle whatever happens. And you will be able to handle whatever happens. As you are strong and for you the lord will help you handle what happens you just gotta fight your brain to tell yourself that In terms of the video I know you can’t lean on us in some respects but don’t be afraid to let us in to help where we can!! And in terms of videos remember that you were at this point before in terms of views and it got better. 863 was great but dang the stress on all of y’all 😅 The days of social media have made us put so much into number values and for you more so as this has been your career for so long. Remember the algorithm and KZbin is a mess sometimes and all you can do is keep striving and keep adapting until you get back into the flow of how these systems work ❤

[@imxlnt2]

Don’t let them tell you any different about studying up! School taught people to study

[@Topplenaut]

I have a piece of advice, and a related story, that I have picked up in the past few years, that might be helpful in shaping your mindset. You yourself will have to figure out how to apply them personally, but maybe they will be valuable as food for thought. One of my favorite pieces of advice to give people is that sometimes we are so focused on trying to get to where we think we need to be, that we are not paying attention to where God is trying to put us. Take a mental step back, don't think about your goals, or what you think the path ahead looks like, and just pay attention to the nudges and the little things outside of your control that seem to be pushing you in a direction. Forget where you have put yourself. Where has God put you?Think about where God is calling you to be. Listen for His voice. Study up on what God's voice "sounds" like. Last year, I was in a job that was very stressful, and had a lot of problems. I knew for a long time that I needed out of it, but I didn't really know where to start to look, or how to find a new job that would be a good fit for me. I was feeling uncertain about my career direction. So I just kept riding it out. In February of last year my supervisor suddenly moved to a new job, and that meant more pressure on me. Kept riding it out. It was rough. In autumn, some new things happened that reminded me of my need to change jobs, and I had a conversation about it with a friend. The very next day, my former supervisor randomly texted me. We had kept in touch but I did not hear from him often. Out of the blue, he texts me and asks, "How much money would it take for you to change jobs?" I follow up on the open position with his new place if employment, with his personal recommendation attached to my resume, and a few months later I leave the stressful job. Right after I leave, the two people who were maintaining the last remnants of stability and order at that company also make their exit, for the same reasons I did. God knew when it was going to be time for me to be out of there, and He started setting up the exit path way back in February of 2022, and now I'm in the best job I've ever had. I am where God put me, when He put me there. I'm just along for the ride. I'm not driving a car on whatever roads I think I should take, I'm just riding the wave and keeping the board balanced while following wherever the wave goes. I don't know how much of this made sense, it's late and I'm tired... But hopefully it was valuable to someone.

[@Joahha61]

I feel like your performance is ok yo worry about sometimes because it is what determines if you can supply your family with your needs. I also think there is a difference between performing well and perfectionism. Big fan of watching this journey matt and I a super excited to see how everything turns out. Very inspiring to maybe reflect on my own life more.

[@uphillradio]

You said you’re done giving the enemy a seat at the table. I feel like the truth is the enemy attacks us by taunting us. With whispers and using those around you who are not on board with, Christ. Being a Christian means we’ll suffer til our last breath in this reality. So we’ll have many days of feeling unworthy or perhaps lost. But confusion comes from the Devil. It is not of God. As brethren’s we must encourage each other and pray for each other. This is the way. God bless, Matt 🙏 One day at a time.

[@matt.mp4]

I agree, what I mean by giving him a seat is "listening" to him. I've been listening to him. Yes, he will attack as long as Im alive, but I dont have to give him space anymore.

[@Beanie5524]

i can only inspire to be this introspective, I feel like it takes me such a long time to get to the root of my emotional battles and overcome them

[@bulbsoneclan9951]

Hey! Do you miss dope or nope? Have a g1!

[@sqishyboi]

Matt, You are doing a great job keep it up. I love your videos, and you have never disappointed. I would love to be as much of an inspiration to other as you have been for me one day. Keep your head up. We all love you, and we are here for you.

[@Pugsy-gc9bf]

love the game and the vlog, may be too young too win but i love voting and finding it out regardless. Love anything you do.

[@RabbitsFunWorld]

The Subject 4 Podcast channel has changed its name.

[@marcossrojas2085]

I'll keep commenting free Bryan because I think it's funny

[@sharbean]

What are you praying for? What are you saying and thinking when you pray? Jesus gave us the model prayer which includes 'Thy will be done'. I know I have prayed 'scenario' prayers, telling God how to make things work. Instead, I need to pray, "I know You're going to make this work out and I'm eager to see what You're going to do. Let me be a help and not a hindrance. Please give me inspiration in word and deed so I can participate in Your plans" It's a heart and perspective issue, i think.

[@marcossrojas2085]

Free Bryan

[@acursedhope]

You can put emojis in file names now? Sick

[@imxlnt2]

Matt Motivation

[@janetcoplea]

All I can say is God's got it. He's got your back.

[@Grawpy888]

yay

[@FortniteGameZone-i7g]

july 5 today matt the first of juky passed y u realeasing these so late?

[@dyronbarro9968]

Remember, this is more meant for him. Also, a good chunk of time between him filming and releasing gives him good security along with some free time so he isn't constantly working and thinking, "Oh, snap! I didn't upload today." Just have the mindset that this isn't really a daily vlog and more for something to do when he wants. No hate, just want to clarify so you don't get upset every time he posts a video that is days before he actually uploads it. God bless

[@panpuzzlethedj8262]

First comment!!! Keep up the great content

[@annettebeveridge6321]

Hi Matt

[@ash-hq4zn]

meow

[@hosseinbardshiry]

I mean its just ADHD