The Fitness YouTuber Who Went Clinically Insane

[@meetbythecreek]

His “friends” exploiting and putting this man out on the internet while he’s clearly struggling is not being addressed enough.

[@byunniq9060]

Yesss. Disturbing asf, but anything for clout nowadays

[@lukehanlon3814]

@@byunniq9060 yep I’ve got no simpathy for the man at all…what he did to women was sick and not something that people should do for clicks,it’s the most douche bag thing I can ever imagine doing and for people trying to use the internet for clout or to influence someone??? His family are the worst for actually letting someone stream his bullshit

[@Dockhead]

he went to LA, what do you honestly expect?? its a fucking poison pit of the most degenerate souls there is. literally the hell of earth for sad empty money striving content creators, and when life fails people want to become influencers and actors...

[@whyamitriggered4721]

@@lukehanlon3814 it’s not that deep😂 I thought it’s clear they were paid actors

[@Ihearthaley]

yes i agree, but it wouldnt have gottan attenion and he wouldnt have gottan help if it hadnt gone public

[@manisrevenge]

My heart breaks for him. The part where his "friend" admits he never called him while in the psych ward but Connor was the one reaching out. They mined him for online content without helping him This video didn't address his fake friends enough for me

[@sammymobs3889]

You can’t reach someone while They are in a psych ward lol

[@snifferrr]

@@sammymobs3889 ive had multiple friends in psych wards and been able to contact them but they were in for a different reason than connor so idk

[@papayani6446]

@@sammymobs3889 mental asylum is not a prison in most cases.

[@TGREAT1]

True

[@sixfeetundertheradar6080]

It’s crazy.. idk what I would’ve done if none of my friends had called me during my stay at the mental hospital (10 days)

[@TrashComments]

This is honestly sad and scary to see his mental state decline so rapidly. I’m glad that he got the help that he needed and his fans are congratulating him on changing, it’s a huge step in the right direction

[@stn6408]

his divine protein shakes are fire tho

[@gamin546]

Yup, kinda wished other youtubers that got into drama got some help too and went in the right direction.

[@hazyviews999]

Never go full Jim Carrey

[@youreprettygood2603]

It can go real fast and happen to anyone at any time, it's a combination of near infinite factors from life experiences to your environment, small things we often dismiss as non consequential that slowly accumulate until they overwhelm you. I for one was perfectly fine in January 2017 but started to have suicidal thoughts for seemingly no reason in April of the same year, went to see a psychiatrist in June and sent to a mental institution in October. I was diagnosed with clinical depression with self harm tendencies, I'm still taking meds and seeing my psychiatrist to this day, trying to live in a normal life and all you know.

[@kritizismmusics9737]

As my dad said. Some eggs were made crack. And boil. Poor bastard

[@Merthalophor]

"We called every day... or rather, he called me every day" is saying enough about how good a friend and person this guy is.

[@BagboyGrubbin]

Man that part was messed up! I thought I was the only one who caught that, he said it so normal too, you can tell that’s not a friend at all.

[@ScourgeGhost13]

There’s privacy laws in psych wards that prevent someone calling in without the patients permission. That could’ve been the situation

[@Merthalophor]

@@ScourgeGhost13 no reason to correct the statement "we called every day"

[@Jakedrawart]

Most involuntary psych wards take away phones and only allow the patients to call at certain times

[@evadecaptcha]

@@Merthalophor He said "I called him every few days". The reason to correct it is if it's inaccurate. It doesn't necessarily mean anything beyond him misspeaking and correcting it.

[@nefariousgrey]

A lot of people don't realize that serious mental health issues can suddenly trigger in your early 20s even after a childhood of no noticeable symptoms. This poor guy had to have it documented online forever...

[@beewest5704]

Drugs play a huge role. If you have family history with mental illnesses especially with psychosis stay away from weed, psychedelics & drugs. You are vulnerable & it can be just be what tips you over. Seen this alot when I was working in a ER as a RN. I hate how I regularly see shrooms being promoted on Insta & Tiktok as tools for enlightenment while for some ppl it can change the chemistry of their brains forever.

[@mentos93]

@@beewest5704 even weed. Too many people think its all innocent..

[@beewest5704]

@@mentos93 My bestfri3nd was in her 4th year studying to be a doctor she smoked weed to help her relax & it triggered a ful metal break. We will never know if it was maybe laced with something. She never had any signs but her moms brother was schizo. She is still in & out of mental hospitals & now not able to look after herself.

[@anyaw340]

Yes, some mental disorders almost always present during that stage - such as schizophrenia. I know of someone who was completely "normal" up until about age 21. After that point, he was never the same - seemingly for absolutely no reason at all. He was eventually diagnosed with schizophrenia. Now, at nearly 50, he is a stereotypical homeless man who talks to himself while standing outside of a Dollar General. He's never been compliant with meds, so no one can help him for any extended period.

[@DNCT]

It wasn’t him. It was the Ayhousca! He was taking the most mind bending drug every 2 hours! That’s what did it

[@liltroglodyte5830]

What’s truly sad about this is how people that called themselves his “friends” took advantage of his severe mental health crisis pretending to help just to secretly film him, berate him, and use his downfall for content. What a fake world that content creation is, people idolize that job, id never want it.

[@Jasmine02x]

I found it quite hard to watch tbh, I can’t imagine treating any of my friends this way

[@RapidShotzZ]

Agreed, 💔 i hope he gets better soon and if I were him I'd be more careful in the future choosing friends.

[@PAAYNE]

Same as Tim (Avicii), He's friends & manager didn't care for him at all and was only after the money & "internet fame". It's so sad people can this, mindblowing but people do everything for little internet cloud/fame.

[@iTsEfFiNsTePhh]

I thought the same damn thing! 🤬Like who tf claims to "care" about someone and to be their "friend" but films it and puts them on blast for the entire world to see then fake cries on camera.. stfu 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@nagashtheundyingking4404]

i think people want to just sitt and game and get money for it that type of content stuff but don't realize how much stress having people watching your every move is

[@abdullahbabar5529]

Didn’t follow the drama? Not on the internet much? Don’t worry, in around 15 minutes you’ll be caught up. This is a rare talent. He can make a 15 minute video feel like a full, comprehensive documentary and it’s awesome!

[@yoshzlac2429]

Truthkzbin.info/www/bejne/p6XRdK19jraAfa8 🤣

[@Dev-fm5pz]

@YeaMan bro at least spell page correctly 💀💀💀

[@Drainhair]

Seriously!

[@kemmyexists]

Not talent hard work

[@tuelzalt]

I think its because the music lol

[@jbaby007]

Psychedelics are known to exacerbate schizophrenia in those that are susceptible to it or have family history. It seems he may have experienced this but eventually found a way to manage it. I didn't even know you could consume ayahuasca that often and still get effects. That's insane.

[@cosmicsugarbunny1832]

Glad I wasn’t the only one that felt weird that his “friends” were making videos about him. No caring person will record their friend in a manic episode and post it online for millions to see! I’d be embarrassed if my friends did that shit to me…

[@ntl9974]

They're not real friends. In my case I helped my friends to start making money independently, about $2k/week on their own. Be a real friend

[@jillianhubert6931]

Yep. It made me angry watching them use him attention. Posting videos of the state of his house, his video calls etc

[@xPorsum]

They're "LA friends" people in SoCal are like this.

[@jillianhubert6931]

@@xPorsum that's so sad :(

[@tomstickland]

Influencer eat influencer.

[@ethanlbp2391]

It’s really sickening that his “friends” recorded his apartment as he was breaking down and losing grip. It’s amazing to see he’s doing better and I wish nothing but the best for him.

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@EEEEEEEE]

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[@ethanlbp2391]

@@EEEEEEEE fr that’s exactly what I was thinking

[@MrLordRiz.]

@@EEEEEEEE faxxx

[@Zenith_Nulls]

@@EEEEEEEE fr

[@TBAG]

damn i forgot about this guy. if you are gonna cover fitness youtubers, you HAVE to do a deep dive into Rich Piana. his story is literally insane. everything from his crazy over the top body builder / influencer lifestyle... to his tragic death and afterwards his disgusting ex wife that went after his money after he was gone. i think it would make for an interesting video

[@b3anz07]

here before 50 likes

[@tumezu2807]

hello mr epic gamer

[@Obi_01]

Yeah the fitness niche is pretty entertaining. I'm working on a video of Mike O'Hearn

[@blazingstar9638]

I remember when he died, but didn’t know about the wife thing. Woah

[@dxnixble]

Fear God u

[@AaronsTalks]

Thank you! I used to watch this guy. Scary the direction that he went... Good to hear he didn't harm anyone. All these fake friends are disgusting narcissists doing anything for a view.

[@ismael8926]

2 things that didn't get mentioned nearly as much as needed: - his "friends" basically milked him at his worst and admitted they didn't even try to help him, as shown with the guy who didn't call him once in the psych ward, and the other 2 who just saw him have a psychotic episode and told him they would go back, just to never actually do it - the fact that this man posted his address online, and quickly someone called for help for him just shows how much he was apreciated by his community

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@monhi64]

The psych wards I know of are basically outgoing calls only so that’s not weird. Plus we don’t know the full story, I’ve had friends have psychotic breaks and like at a certain point you just have to separate yourself from them. There’s nothing you can do and being together is potentially dangerous or incredibly draining at best. This guy was just calling his friend all the time to tell him he’s god and how enlightened he was, like how would you react in that situation. You have no idea how frustrating it can all be for the outsiders too unless you’ve been in it. I just had to separate myself until they were better because they thought I was in the FBI and after you spend hours trying to explain how you’re not it gets rough

[@jonescrusher1]

@@monhi64 If someone's clealy having a mental breakdown you do something to help, not just run away.

[@rajhanstaviyad]

@@jonescrusher1 I agree with you, Friend in need is friend indeed. At least you can meet his/her parents to explain the situation and go to a psychologist with him if you genuinely care about that person. But practically speaking, Mental instability is not a fever that's gonna disappear next day , it's gonna take years so you have to be patient + pt lose their social reputation and status so they become less beneficial (it's hard to get job, partner for pt) + if you respond once they approch you again without caring about time or place + they are unpredictable(they may do wrist cuts , may attack you ) so you always have to be careful about how you talk to them. In short, they require high maintenance so it is obvious that they are left alone to suffer if they don't have family or very close friends.

[@ashes2ashes394]

Maybe he could only make calls and not receive them…..

[@aniyahbrutus1110]

I love his “friends” exposing and humiliating him on the internet instead of privately helping him. Those friends are gross.

[@Walrus101]

@@AntiHumanAntiLifeAntiMusic Hurt your friends for clout 💪Come on, it's 2022. If you're not on that grind, you're wasting time

[@Zzz2x]

‘you’re a lot smaller than me’ he was always jealous and always wanted to say that. but idgaf about this connor guy because he was using minors and exploiting them, probably abused some. disgusting

[@imrxinz]

@@Walrus101 bro 💀

[@Walrus101]

@@imrxinz Bro?

[@imrxinz]

@@Zzz2x Who?

[@julianicole6871]

This entire situation is so sad. I couldn’t imagine broadcasting my “friends” mental health issues to the world for views. He needs actual help, not people just trying to use his downfall for their benefit.

[@dprfail]

just keep your comments to yourself no one wants to read them

[@runescaperzzz]

Welcome in 2022 where people treat eachother like trash

[@Fly40]

@@runescaperzzz It's just a prank bro-

[@austinlee9463]

No one was trying to do any of that Jane conquest was not a “friend”she was practically a random bystander he hired for a prank video online when they met in person she realized his mental state and got him a mental health professional the only reason she made a video was because Connor had a picture with her in it claiming they were getting married and misinformed people on social media started attacking her calling her a whore and a gold digger so she had to make a video addressing the real situation and the two guys that he was calling about the world wide zoom call was just a couple of fans that he invited over to help clean his house for a couple days and then left when he started to threaten to kill them nor was Derek from more plates more dates it’s a mens health and fitness channel he’s never met him personally he makes a lot of reaction vids Connor gave him some content for a couple days that’s all. Patrick lyons and Brett maverick had nothing but love for connor in there videos but after he posted videos about being god and killing himself to achieve enlightenment they where basically trying to put out the fires connor made for his sake. My point being this is a very complicated situation and you can’t fully grasp it in 17 mins but by no means is his friends using him for clout that’s a completely misinformed assumption.

[@CowDudez]

SUNNYV2 IS TRASH 🗑️ AND I MAKE BETTER CONTENT 🔥

[@jimmy_x557]

Influencer friends are either awesome for $ or the worst people ever, airing your dirty laundry. In this case literally

[@TheRealGuywithoutaMustache]

Connor went from being people's inspiration for their fitness journey, to being a divine protein shake connoisseur. It's kinda sad to see someone fall off so quickly.

[@krenzzyy]

hi ur here again

[@kyori_shiyo]

dam, im early on a jsgwam comment.

[@iche9373]

And that's why the ancient Greeks invented Tragedy so that we can feel compassion with all the falling protagonists.

[@MeisoKun]

Yeah

[@b3anz07]

Here before 100 likes lol

[@InvestmentJoy]

So sad. Unfortunately KZbin fame and money introduces stress that many don't understand. Wish this guy all the best in the future

[@WaywardSoulsandRowdyCrowds]

He flew too close to the sun, I have a friend who was never the same after taking mushrooms and mixing with other substances.

[@LuxFuxx]

That's the thing with psychedelics. They show you some incredible things, some people never come back from their trip.

[@WaywardSoulsandRowdyCrowds]

@@LuxFuxx I have two other friends who said they would never even try LSD because it's semi-synthetic, after taking heroic does many times they are now addicted to meth. Psychedelics can be a powerful tool to help with trauma among other things, lord knows they have helped me. But like Alan Watts said "Once you get the message, hang up the phone."

[@LuxFuxx]

@@WaywardSoulsandRowdyCrowds oh, I'm definitely in a better place because of them. I'm who I am because of them. But I have had a small peek behind the veil, I know how consuming it can be.

[@normanatomic2614]

He is God, as much as you and I are. To think is to be, I am therefore I think. There is nothing but consciousness, what he truly achieved was a God state but it wasn't paired with grounding and the inner work needed to be able to handle said truths, so he went "insane"

[@RealMikeGibbs]

It’s really sad that his KZbin “friends” didn’t have his best interest in mind. They low key recorded him for views. I hope the man gets the help he needs! 💯✊🏻

[@tylertiangco4831]

@@sn3akydna314 how is he bashing other people. He’s literally just making documents about KZbinrs

[@Minegirl0609]

@@sn3akydna314 They're literally documentaries over youtubers without much bias, if any, found in them. I wouldn't call that "embarrassing", more informative if anything. It's not like he's insulting them every other sentence or something??

[@thebidstar26]

@@sn3akydna314 i agree with you even though people will say its just reality and the person he's talking about's progression but he literally makes money on letting a wider range of people know peoples downfalls which can be interpreted in many ways. The people he makes the video about can bounce back and use these videos to show the public perception before they changed, but this channel does seem to be about one type of content so you can't be overly mad but i cant run a channel like this personally i don't even care about other people life's like that and i can't get over the owner of this channel being paid for these videos to me it's very strange, i mean if he contacts these people before he makes these videos even then i still don't know what to feel. imagine being Connor after his yt friends blasted him and then waking up to a video from someone he doesn't even know.

[@randyross5630]

I'm not watching this Video, I don't participate in Destroying People (unless they work for the government or personally come at me), I hope this Video is in good spirits, has his back and blasting those that blasted him and set some sort of record straight... I know this is a Sick World and you are all Mostly Sick! As a Pseudo Male Hermaphrodite with Sewn Up Ambiguous Genitals, I know you are all awful and evil people, I get to see all your true colors, and you are all Ugly on the Inside, you are all Insane! The Fact that you people each and everyone of you, Don't understand how Evil, Awful and Insane you are disturbs me, your average IQ is 98, and the World is already too complicated for you, "Mental Health?" How often is that Chemical Health or Pathogens Swelling the Brain! God Save US from you, and put my kind back as the Priest Class and Administrators, because we'll sort this Sad World Out! For not just our Brain's are Bigger, but our Hearts too, and our Souls, we are more than you, but currently ruled by our insane lessers.. look at you, entertained by someone's Fall... But such things pain me to my Core! I'd say I don't understand, but I do! You Petty Homosapiens!

[@DuffmaneB]

@@sn3akydna314 I think a better word would be exposing. It's hot content rn showing the negative impact of internet fame and losing it etc.

[@Camis419]

Your content is addictive. Straight to the point.

[@Scorch428]

WHERES THE FILLER???

[@danielshimmin3438]

Hate that I got your reference there.

[@FoulMouthFishing666]

The fact that his “friends” used his downward spiral for views instead of actually trying to help is sickening. If my friend was in that bad of shape and called me with that zoom call shit saying he wanted us to come back, I wouldve gone back and taken him to a rehab, or get ahold of someone more capable of making that happen. Shit friends that let their friends mental state decline to the point of suicide and then cry about it on social media are the worst type of people period.

[@queenkys0122]

no fr when they ended the call and everyone just goes “OMG” whilst recording, that’s the most disgusting thing, guess there are downsides to having other well known friends

[@FoulMouthFishing666]

@@queenkys0122 that was the exact moment that made me write this comment. Absolutely sickening!

[@alliekat85]

Who needs enemies with those friends?

[@billygoodman2777]

My wife's got a dick 😣 she hid it in her armpit from me for 5 years 😖 Why?! Why why why?!!! Why would she do this to me. Seriously!? Now I have to get divorced man 😔 If anyone has been through something similar, please get back to me

[@TRYPH]

He probably has a substance induced psychosis, so he needs to be in an psych ward.

[@PyramidsofGiza369]

As a mentally unstable person,asking for help is already a big step. That was disgusting how those people just recorded him as if he's an alien or smth. They really thought they did something smh

[@hamishriches2004]

bro it was all an act check out his youtube channel stg he was acting

[@PyramidsofGiza369]

@@hamishriches2004 you have no idea how depressed people act,dont you?

[@acidbatherr]

And then being around people who truly make you feel like nothing doesn’t help either.

[@clarencecreek9260]

As someone who is also mentally unstable, this is when you discover who your real friends are, cause after a mental break down you become useless and usually a burden to people to loved ones, and if they can't get anything from you they just ghost you.

[@machineelf9459]

If I accept the toast become muffin cake

[@mosley3485]

That clip where he's calling his friend while clearly experiencing a psychotic episode and asking them to come over, then they hang up and go "OH MY GOD" with the caption "we didn't go back" is honestly really sad. What the fuck kind of friends are these?

[@ovvierazones]

Yeah that was the saddest, weirdest thing ever. I was like surely I've missed something here, so kept rewatching, listening closer, even did a bit of googling but nah, these people are just the absolute fucking worst. These "friends" of his are fucking pathetic and revolting. I'm completely disgusted by their actions, although unfortunately, not particularly surprised. I swear, 99% of heavy social media users suffer from personality disorders. They're vapid, narcissistic, selfish, greedy, fake validation seeking attention whores.

[@crashedforeigncar]

No friend. No friend at all. Mentally crippled rattas

[@assesseddavid2895]

Yea that clip really pissed me off :(

[@GamerSapss]

Having dealt with something like this online where someone was leveraging suicide over me, I can get their point of view. If you are not equipped to deal with a manic episode like this, it's highly uncomfortable, especially if you have no clue what to do and fear you might be making it worse. What they should have done though is get in contact with someone to help with the situation, but not everyone is easily equipped to just "go back"

[@notyourbusiness1352]

I wouldn't go back to a crazy person's house. Not knowing if he's gonna harm u or not.

[@AlexHyena1]

I've been through a manic episode and ended up in a psych ward before and it does feel as though you are trapped to being just a viewer as your cognitive function deteriorates; nothing makes sense & you cant think straight, and all the while you're questioning every little detail. Glad to see another victim of this make a recovery

[@Denni55]

His mental decline is crazy, but the way his "friends" blast it on social media for the world to see is even more crazy to me. Then again, he was also doing it himself. Idk, personally I'd get help for him behind closed doors.

[@antnation747]

Yah that one guy who was like “I’d call Connor everyday, or rather he would call me…” and granted idk if ur allowed to visit people at a psych ward like a hospital but like you couldn’t even call your friend to check on him?? He had to call you? Thats one lame sorry ass excuse for a friend. Connor really needed some real friends. Seems like everyone was just using him for clout and it’s sad.

[@Lukane01]

yea man those "friends" are trash

[@Oguh608]

He was mentally ill at the time so him putting it online isn't strange and kind of out of is control. It's so weird for his friends to just put even more stuff online about his mental breakdown.... His friends used his mental issues for clout...

[@DanielLopez-sh2pp]

Her personality brought him more attention then it was worth.

[@llamapie24]

That guy seemed alright, I think he meant Connor would call him to manically ramble about enlightenment still

[@sneakyguy4444]

That defeated look of his mother, sitting there...she knows there's no point trying to argue. Sadly I reached that point with someone I cared about, where psychosis overcame them. It's tragic, for everyone.

[@Flutterbyby]

Don’t give up on that person - my BFF recovered from psychosis after treatment at mental clinics. Took some time, but she now excels in whatever she puts her focus to. Much stronger than me mentally too.

[@incoherent-marbles]

Obviously a person cannot be forced to stick with treatment. But I work at a psychiatric hospital, mostly on the highest acuity units (that treat people suffering from severe psychosis), and I cannot count how many times I have seen people be admitted in the state he's in, often much worse, and within 10 days of proper medication management they, for lack of a better way of putting it, totally return to reality. They'll still have some symptoms. But those delusions and hallucinations can absolutely be controlled with the proper medications, but ONLY if they're monitored by a qualified and experienced psychiatrist and only if the person takes their medication as prescribed.

[@theonef570]

Time stamp?

[@theonef570]

@Hudson Hamman What use is that information when you don't give me a time stamp.

[@Pheonix_Fobid]

@@theonef570 you look through the video until you find it???? hes told you what part it is so skim through and find it lol

[@mjatt]

It was sad to see a few of his friends abandon/mock him once he started struggling with his mental health. Really glad to see him doing better now, but man... really lets you know how quickly people can turn their backs to you.

[@vglycorpse2001]

Not only did they leave him, their videos seemed to be laughing at him/mocking him a bit, just them laughing and going "woahhh crazy" at his mental decline is just cruel and sad. This is why mental health/illness needs to be taken very seriously by people as a whole, especially for men.

[@mjatt]

@@vglycorpse2001 Agreed. Male culture/relationships definitely lack that feeling of support/openness. It really is an under-represented social issue.

[@naru2k4]

Bro them just holding their phones at him while he was having a breakdown was so sad. That's even more insane in and of itself actually. If I were his friend, I'd be so devastated and distraught I wouldn't even THINK of pulling my phone out. I'd just stand there and it'd haunt my train of thought for a good while. Wtf is wrong with them

[@Dockhead]

@@mjatt the tiny exposure you see on a video does not total the whole outcome of what happened, i bet a lot of them tried to intervene and give advice, and he disregarded it or diverted it and thus they became tired of it. dont believe a video or clip totals up what is what.

[@fellascallmethedrink]

@@vglycorpse2001 Ngl the Mario enlightment thing that he posted on his IG actually made me laugh because of how random it was, but it's still pretty fucked up how his friends are basically treating his bad mental state as a joke and are just making fun of him. Those are some fake ass friends. I just hope he's doing better now 🙏🏾

[@Valstein0]

I've gone through similar things. Shrooms made me think I was destined to figure out the secrets of the universe and spread them to people. Years later went through a mania and almost destroyed my life and everything around me. Thank god I wasn't a KZbinr at those times.

[@MariaCaterina2012]

Absolutely sickening behavior from his “friends.” He clearly needed help-not your camera in his face.

[@piinkraiin]

They tried their best. i watched most of the connor murphy content and the authorities couldnt do anything trust me his friends tried getting him help but you cant force someone to get help. connor kindly denied it and went upon his business

[@Shewas-kathybates]

@@piinkraiin reacting to his behavior on camera and filming him without his knowledge isn’t help.

[@dprfail]

@@Shewas-kathybates yes it is

[@kingsiah5103]

@@Shewas-kathybates exactly you don’t have to film it for everyone to see, then react to it??? Shady

[@ironking76]

They weren't helping him. They were making money off of his decline.

[@iclark2400]

His close “friends” are pathetic. I remember this guy he had an incredible physique, I wish him nothing but the best. Get well soon Connor and time to get some new friends.

[@BritanniaRule]

I know pretending your there to help clean instead make a video revealing the mess of his apartment when hes having a mental brake down to show the world. People suck

[@xKouture]

He looks the same if u check his KZbin. His physique is still there 🌚

[@eldiablo4160]

Right?! Why are they recording him? Be there for him.

[@alishathehistorynerd9726]

@@eldiablo4160 schizophrenia is horrifically illuminating. You find out just how alone you are in the universe & how unfathomably malice the people you once considered friends are.

[@mparagames]

@@alishathehistorynerd9726 you might have a point, but holy that's a creepy way to look at things

[@Alice45894]

I love how his "frends" are publically exposing him online because that's exactly what you need in your darkest hour, people telling the world your personal issues so they can get some clout/attention and framing it all to seem like they care. Parasitic fame hungry narcissists is what they are.

[@ZacTBH]

Could not agree more. Scum of the earth these people.

[@blackwersus]

Social media in a nutshell

[@thirstonhowellthebird]

The truth is he at one point was probably above his “friends “in success and they were silently, secretively jealous. When that happens people like to trash you and say terrible things about you especially when your life falls apart because that’s the only way they can then feel better about themselves. It’s really pathetic how weak and insecure people really are in the face of someone else’s success and only through their downfall will they be happy. He’ll bounce back but not with any of those people, losers!

[@eggstonjackson119]

To be fair, he didnt turn out all too great him self, glad he is recovering though..

[@eggstonjackson119]

@@thirstonhowellthebird Or maybe it was just critique of his substance abuse and insanity, no one before seemed to hate him, not before he went total cocoo..

[@alex.is.lame.]

Hopefully he's doing well and honestly I hope he dumped those so called "friends" who were literally exploiting him for internet clout.

[@somberstricken4424]

Some good friends he's got there. "Hi guys Connor is having a hard time he's my friend and I'm worried about him. So let me tell you all his personal info and embarrass him instead of helping him privately." These blogger KZbinrs are the worst.

[@fefelarue2948]

With friends like these…

[@theoutsiderjess1869]

Yes he has a problem but the way they exposed his house really bothered me

[@x-x9595]

@@fefelarue2948 … u don’t even need enemies

[@devinplayseverything3764]

Exactly, thank you

[@bruhdon4748]

Yeah fucked up and barely friends

[@MarshalNey13]

The fact that we as viewers know what Connor's filthy apartment looks like and how much shit he's doing just goes to show that this guy needs better friends. Can you imagine your best friend bringing a camera into your house when you're at your worst in order to make a youtube video? WTF kind of fake world do these people live in?

[@sixfeetundertheradar6080]

I’m in a depressive episode and if my “friends” offered to help me clean only to video tape and post my depression mess I would feel so so betrayed..

[@tecsmith_info]

I believe they call it "L.A."

[@limbo1081]

None of them who filmed ever said they were his friends. They straight up said they met him recently and felt they should help.

[@markhoitsma4468]

@@sixfeetundertheradar6080 exactly, and im in the same boat. Wishing you the best, we'll overcome this!!!

[@sixfeetundertheradar6080]

@@markhoitsma4468 thank you so much, I just started getting prescribed ketamine treatment again so hopefully it works out. I hope you’re able to heal and no longer face depression 💜💜💜

[@DeviantMotives]

I am a psych nurse and most males start displaying psych issues between 18 and 25. Although a person can start having psych issues much earlier or much later. If he was really taking that drug that often, then it’s more than likely drug induced psychosis

[@fishy2sea]

I can probably agree with you that it seems to be a Drug induced Psychosis, Coming up to 1 year of not being on medication from it everything he was doing was very similar to how I was acting or how my mentality was. I would say the Manic Episode is his mind questioning everything but with no real substance or process of information to tell him he's wrong, paranoia onset is something I'll never understand with a manic state as your not really depressed over your thoughts, just lost with no answers. (@deviantmotives, I'm am fine 4 years later, the hats off to you for pursuing a hard job and many thanks to anyone doing it)

[@FM-jo1jh]

100% ayahuasca abuse-induced psychoses.

[@BitwiseMobile]

I just commented above regarding this. Ayahuasca is a life changing experience, and it should be done very sparingly. Many people do it once and that's enough to experience what they need. My neighbor, who I grew up with, started taking LSD in high school. He got up to 5 hits a day, and he went clinically insane after a year. He spent almost a month at CMH. Afterwards his mom sold their house and he moved to Arizona. I lost contact with him after that, so I have no idea how he fared in life. He showed absolutely no indication of insanity beforehand, and I actually thought he had his s**t together. Well a year of dropping 5 hits of acid a day will take a toll on anyone.

[@friendzoned4990]

@@BitwiseMobile after your first 5 doses of lsd wouldn't hit you the same as it did in your first.. your body quickly builds a tolerance to lsd so after the 4th day of taking lsd he'd feel little to nothing by that time..

[@BitwiseMobile]

@@friendzoned4990 That's probably whey get got up to 5 hits after awhile. He didn't start dropping 5 hits at a time, I assure you. Also, I misspoke somewhat when I said "every day". I should have said he was up to 5 hits per dose, since he wasn't dosing every single day from what I understand. He told me, before he went batshit, that he would dose 2-3 times a week. When he was at his worst though I have no idea what the cadence was. I assure you though, he did not start at 5 hits. It was probably because of that tolerance that you speak of that he got up to 5 hits before he lost his mind.

[@MarksWorkshopcrft]

Sunny I just want to let you know you’ve earned my subscription because I’ve been watching your videos so much and out of all the “documentary fall of KZbinrs career channels”that there are I love yours the best because you don’t overdramatize the controversy you let it speak for itself by showing the clips in their entirety

[@emmaceleste3512]

The people who filmed his house and him while he was having a breakdown are everything wrong with this world. No empathy. What the actual fuck. That was heartbreaking

[@jaysteele3188]

Honest to fuck :(

[@ItsDdvdd]

Agree, that was gross of them. That stuff should not really be for public consumption. I gotta ask though, have you actually had a friend go through a mental breakdown like that? One of my childhood friends was diagnosed as schizophrenic in our late teens. The unfortunate reality is that sometimes there's just nothing meaningful you can do to help. At the start we gave it out all, bought him a bike for transportation, housed and fed him whenever he needed etc. Encouraging him to find work and stay on meds. He required us to do ALL of it. He lost the job after 2 weeks for stealing $15 a few times, then got pissed at us for telling him he needs to stop doing that kind of stuff. Ended up getting kind of aggressive and with my younger siblings it just wasn't cool to have around the house. We kept the garage open with a futon and stuff if he ever needed it but he was no longer welcome inside. Once he was out on his own he got hooked on meth, showed up high as fuck, smoked in the garage a bunch, vandalized stuff with legit Schizo drawings. Just sad seeing a friend go through it. Keep in mind this was not linear decline either, peaks and valleys galore where I thought he was going to recover countless times, and within a month he was back in the garage incoherently mumbling to himself. Anyways my point is no matter how much love you give the mental illness will trump it all. It fucking sucks, but it's the truth. Unless you're a qualified psychologist you may as well be speaking two different languages. And if you do end up trying, it's a full time commitment. You can't take proper care of yourself, work full-time, and take good care of your sick best friend. The best way you can help them effectively is by leading them to the proper means of help, just hope your areas social support system isn't a nightmare.

[@emmaceleste3512]

@@ItsDdvdd I have had several friends and family actually. And I would never put their suffering online

[@richardcarroll9864]

ikr, i h8 those people

[@NoodleAnimations]

you mean him?

[@Koofy]

Mental Health/Fortitude should be worked on as seriously as your body. I remember watching him back in high school, thinking he was this perfect guy who has this perfect body and can get all the girls he wants. This was very humbling to watch, I’m glad he is doing better ❤️

[@nickynicky009]

:0

[@Human_traain]

Koofy!!!

[@ryan.1990]

Ironically I think that's why he tried Ayahuasca

[@ConspiraciesUnveiled123]

yeah, its like his mental health brought down his physical health while they were both at an all time high also hi koofy :)

[@newfam3]

It’s weird to have a Roblox youtuber commenting on something else but oh well

[@why1997]

The only crazy thing about this is that no one got this man help sooner. He's clearly going through a psychotic episode and everyone just seems to want to make content out of the situation. I also can't believe that the video they made together is still up, I wouldn't want anyone seeing me like that and it just seems in bad taste. They knew exactly what was going on but still decided to upload a video of someone in their most vulnerable moment...

[@kinseybruno5920]

Couldn’t agree more! The phrase “in poor taste” falls short

[@kayleebowman608]

This is also the only thing I could think about in the ladder half especially

[@chikipichi5280]

He was already getting and being offered help. It just wasn't working

[@kaderen8461]

@e think about yourself for a moment. You, an unfeeling bot, have decided to post a presumptively harmless comment on a video, which is about the spiral into depression and insanity by a man, in real life and time, on a comment that talks about the whole seriousness of it all. You are not the circus, you are the entire comedic industry. To anyone who read this entire post who isn't you, thank you. Lol bye

[@mandi_]

I agree :(

[@helenawing1689]

This breaks my heart. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder. At time where I have been manic I was convinced that I was a “node” of the universe and that I was able to see both dimensions of the universe while not existing in either, but the middle ground. I told my dad that I was so powerful because no one existed in the middle ground but me so I am able to tell when the rapture will happen and I can save people but I won’t be affected because I am in another dimension. I didn’t directly say that I was god or Jesus but what I was describing was similar to that. I’m also a college student, and about a month ago during a manic episode I told my professor that I didn’t have to do my assignments or graduate because I had a million dollar idea and was going to be rich anyways. I was so convinced that I wrote up a whole business idea and called my dad telling him it would save our family. Then when I got put back on another stronger antipsychotic I realized my idea was SO flawed. The fact that his “friends” were exploiting him and making fun of them makes me want to scream because it describes everything that is wrong with this society and it makes me realize that a lot of the world is going to think of me the same way as these “friends” thought of him😔

[@ximena1832]

Honestly the most terrifying part of this story its how so many people failed to help him, they didnt care, they didnt help with the attention…they saw him go downhill and their best idea was to record pretty much everything.

[@snooganslestat2030]

Like people filming traffic accidents instead of helping or getting out of the way. 🙄

[@chaddompierre5779]

I think the people around him cared. Their sentiment seemed sincere. I get mildly manic myself, and my family members can't really do much for me when I get manic.

[@bigbearkat2010]

Watching this video it felt like his buddies were using his mental problems for click bait

[@augyisadogy9729]

Trust me, you can’t help a person like that. He turned insane and he liked it, there’s nothing you can really do at that point

[@chaddompierre5779]

@@augyisadogy9729 I'm sure in retrospect he didn't enjoy it. Mania gives feelings of euphoria, not necessarily his enjoyment.

[@dejausser]

Never heard of another case where someone doxxing themselves actually worked in their interest but this guy posting his address online & enabling people to direct emergency services to him and get him into psychiatric care as a result may genuinely have saved his life!

[@balentay]

And isn't it wild how literal strangers ended up showing more concern to him than his actual friends did?

[@cosmiceyness]

shits crazy

[@cosmiceyness]

just goes to show how much the gym community cares

[@iruleatgames]

They didn't "direct him" though. They kidnapped him. Big difference. While he definitely need the help, without the voluntary element, we risk falling into a police state where any detractor of a group or system can be labeled as "insane". This is already happening through federal directives and through some states active participation. It is unsurprising this incident occurred in LA.

[@ColonelSandersLite]

@@iruleatgames I understand what you're saying but people in the middle of a genuine psychotic break are literally physically unable to think coherently and rationally. My dog is more capable of understanding and consenting to medical care than people in that state are. I worry about things along those lines too. Abuses have happened in the past and, no doubt, will happen in the future. That being said, reality is sometimes messy and there is no perfect solution. If you find an unconscious man bleeding out from a leg injury on the side of the road, do you apply a tourniquet even though he is physically unable to consent? I'm pretty sure the vast majority of people would say yes. It only gets into a morally grey area if he wakes up and decides to take it off. Is it ok to force him to keep it on if he believes it's an anaconda trying to consume his purple? I guess there's a personal call to make there, but for my money, I would say yeah, it stays on.

[@lovechafes]

Drug induced psychosis needs to be waaaay more widely discussed

[@NicksterNOC]

He took various hallucinogens and had the basic realizations everyone gets: "The universe and everything in it is one, you are God and God is us, etc." And those realizations are correct. nothing he said was wrong. However, not everyone can handle those kind of realizations and it can tear your mind apart. unfortunately he started ranting about it in public and the sheeple hospitalized him.

[@maloneaqua]

100%. The problem is that the public healthy system can cause just as much trauma as it can treating people.

[@datboyrains5657]

@@NicksterNOC he abused it, that was the problem. ayahuasca is not a toy, and abusing that every 2 hours is extremely bad for you.

[@jamesdrake4271]

@@NicksterNOC bro he was psychotic

[@sekhmet7774]

@@datboyrains5657 You cannot take ayahuasca every 2 hours, clearly that is not true. Ayahuasca is dmt and maoi inhibitors taken orally, which will put you on your ass and out of reality for a good few hours, you simply cannot use it that much. Maybe he was smoking dmt every few hours, which is possible since you only be out for a few minutes, but still there was probably other drugs involved.

[@feyyfey]

Taking Ayahuasca every 2 hours is wild!!! No wonder he started acting schizophrenic! That stuff is unbelievably strong. Taking it only once can completely change your entire personality. There are lots of stories about this psychedelic online.

[@tonimarx6405]

Yup, doing mass amounts of psychs can mess up anyone's mind. I did DMT for about 3 months straight and ended up in a specialised hospital ward. It took me at least 4 years to get back to my normal self.

[@simonelemer6623]

I really don't believe he took Ayahuasca per se but DMT. Pure DMT, which is smoked and has an effect that doesn't last long, like 15-30 minutes. Ayahuasca is a mix of 2 plants, one containing DMT and the other an MAOI inhibitor (its a vine plant), which after ingesting a long brewed mix has an effect that last up to 4-6 hours and is more personal and encountering kinda the same "presence"(Aya), while smoked DMT is kinda random entities. Also for Ayahuasca you need specific jungle plants and knowledge how to brew it and also the ritual is done in a jungle with a hopefully experienced guiding shaman.

[@mikearnold1429]

Saddest thing of all of this is how many of his alleged friends cashed in on him, he was clearly in an awful place publically and privately it must have been even more obvious, and yet they took it as an opportunity to earn

[@moneyobsessed]

everything has a price, friendship too.

[@Warrior_Flare]

This Micah dude is pissing me off and clearly did NOT care about filming him while he was on the phone with him. -_-

[@AKDHFR]

@@moneyobsessed maybe their friends wanted to help but affraid to step boundaries, usually their parents should know his manic but clearly they didnt so their "friends" help using video for support, usually having a friend who is manic clearly can be overwhelming for us too help from close ecounter bcs he might break aswell.

[@PopyNation]

@@AKDHFR nah bruh they just wanted some cash shmoney

[@PopyNation]

@@AKDHFR afraid to step boundaries yet post a whole ass video for the world to see 🤣🤣

[@matthewclark1529]

This is legitimately one of my worst fears, ending up in a place where I can’t tell fact from fiction. On the outside, where’re left dumbfounded by his crazy, psychotic god complex, but I can’t imagine what it feels like to be in his shoes, believing that you’re the one who is enlightened about something and that everyone else isn’t.

[@o_ycreP]

yep, my biggest fear by far.

[@leuxdaprophet6204]

this is my reality. AMA.

[@salteadog33]

It is absolute misery.

[@davidosullivan9817]

I was there before from to much drugs, I can't describe the hell it is, there's a voice in your head 24/7 and your fighting it, it was very hard to win

[@victorgreer3199]

I had a bad trip on something I smoked one day and it happened to me in my shower while I was all alone. I never smoke again but sometimes I feel those thoughts coming back inside my head and it’s a scary thing.

[@crancelbrowser5478]

Interesting how all of his "friends" released videos of themselves talking about his mental health and filming things about him for content instead of just talking to him and being concerned.

[@boman1074]

yeah especially the part where he called them and asked to come back and they filmed it

[@Shewas-kathybates]

@@boman1074 that was disgusting

[@Stackondat]

you're only seeing the people who did post about it online though. the thing is, other friends who dont do that, and are just concerned with him, you wouldnt see so you feel like they arent there

[@marcuscross8051]

We don't know that ALL his friends did that, since any friends who didn't do that we wouldn't hear about.

[@su2004]

That's people for you, they always have to make it about themselves.

[@Kris4K925]

I've met so many people that think psychedelics are the answer to everything. That it "kills your ego" and makes you a better person. And ad years go on I look back to check up on these people, and they are in a constant downward spiral, this reminds me of so many people

[@horatiohuffnagel7978]

Most of the time people who do drugs more than once in a blue moon have something going on inside that they can't cope with. I stayed away from most psychedelics, have done shrooms, but I knew my brain couldn't handle it. If your in a bad head space your going to have a bad trip. Sure you might learn one of two things but it's not solving anything. People who drink alot same thing. They're upset at heart about something. I'd say now most stoners that blaze all the time are still finding something to numb out what's bothering them. Only way to fix it is to stay clean, eat good, exercise, have a good you can enjoy and some therapy. I've done all that and it helps way more then any drugs can do.

[@LexNuno]

They can be extremely helpful and beneficial if you have done some inner work prior to taking them. they are simply tools, it's not the fix all ppl expect it to be. Combined with therapy, meditation and other forms of mindfulness, it can absolutely change your life in the best way possible, but we know people don't use these tools proactively 🤦🏼‍♀️ it's like giving a chainsaw to a 5 year old

[@MinussyChan]

i find it insane that the man literally had to doxx himself in order to get help. not his friends, not his family, he had to literally say his own address in a youtube video for someone to arrive and help him

[@ceton1843]

i dont judge them though. not even proffessionals are always able to react appropiatly when treating someone with psychosis. Getting help for someone in a state like that is incredibly difficult because they often dont want it and they dont have the priveledge of ebin in an observers persepctive like us which make it damn near impossible to differentiate between illness and that person.

[@MinussyChan]

@@ceton1843 i suppose you are right but i think it is less about how hard it is for them to get him help, i think they just did not care. in every single clip where his friends were on screen they looked like if they much rather cared about the content they made with him than actually being concerned for his health

[@11202]

@@ceton1843 you're all throughout this comment section saying drivel like this. Just say you wouldn't be a terrible friend to people with mental health and move on. Nothing to change in person though just keep acting the way you are in person so everyone with these issues knows you're worth little more than being an acquaintance to anyone.

[@eminemfan50098]

@@ceton1843 you're all over this comment section, going out of your way at every opportunity to show how horrible of a friend you would be, got it. Professionals are literally trained to handle people with disabilities such as is. The ISSUE is the blatent fact that not a soul lifted a finger to help get him proper attention or help. Not his family, not his friends. He had to literally DOXX HIMSELF just so someone would help him. This has absolutely NOTHING to do with "professionals not always knowing what to do" or whatever bullshit you're spewing now. The fact that you are trying to find any excuse to justify the fact that you're also a piece of shit friend who wouldn't lift a finger to help anyone, is honestly pathetic bro

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@LeoHope]

Who in their right mind would film their friends when they’re at their lowest? I hope he’s doing well now and is finally surrounded by people who actually care about him

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@rain-cb3ze]

A lot of sick people, I’m Austisic if and I had very awful ’friends’ I was crying and harming myself in front of them and they laughed at me and recorded , some people just have no sympathy

[@taniaferrante4889]

my husband...I have severe mental health issues and I often have mental breakdowns and he will film me and follow me around so he can "show me how crazy I am"

[@3mm4hgtl]

@@taniaferrante4889 please divorce him

[@immeeaa]

@@taniaferrante4889 you should divorce him, he's going to make you worse. I hope you get better. May God bless you and the ones who you care about

[@ImTheMarchetti]

As someone with schizophrenia myself, I feel for this poor man. I went through a delusion for close to a year and a half where I thought I was the Doctor from "Doctor Who". Schizophrenia is a very real and serious illness. This poor guy suffers from it worse than I do. I was fortunate enough to be diagnosed early on and get medicated fairly quickly. It still sucks to have and it makes my life a real struggle, but I'm thankful that it isn't as bad as it could be. I hope Connor gets better soon 🙏

[@eggstonjackson119]

I think far most people have had a bit chuunibyou disorder in their life once lol..

[@abbasmousa699]

Can u explain how it felt being the Doctor?

[@ashleythompson1994]

@@abbasmousa699 😂

[@scintillam_dei]

See my video proving that psychiatry is pseudo-science, and a scam.

[@tecsmith_info]

You're doing a great job. Doctor.

[@HowieRaps]

The fact that making a donation can allow you to use "Dr." Is actually most insane part of the video

[@a.r.4822]

Nothing new tho

[@LeoLeeGaming]

Man. This is one social media star story I really sympathize with. Even during his mental break, the dude is being genuine and wanting to help the world. Didn't seem to have broken any laws, done anything damaging to others... just being crazy nice. I don't understand why his friends and family didn't get him help sooner. I hope he is good now.

[@OverRule1]

Or maybe he is addicted to getting attention and millions of views and pulls stunts like this to get lots of views. If he really was micro dosing every 2 hours that will eventually make anyone go insane because the barriers of normal human consciousness are broken down causing him to think crazy thoughts and believing it

[@super-sizedmcshizzle6235]

@Mathew Ok

[@jaycarv1710]

​@@OverRule1 Ok Mathew

[@shikeridoo]

He's slipped into the psychedelics craze. They're usually harmless and nice crazies.

[@negatron5514]

@@OverRule1 and his friends are enjoying this. They're getting content of him instead of getting him help.

[@chrisloydmas8499]

Notice how all his homies showed up with cameras and their help consisted of documenting him and posting it.....that's what you call friends

[@Gamingtv23658]

It's terrible, isn't it?

[@macdaddynick1751]

They were never his friends

[@AgonizingDemise]

I really think it is gross how all those youtubers talk about him on their channels instead of helping him. I hope he manages to get back on track and mostly that he finds happiness.

[@ceton1843]

i kinda wanna be on your side but have you ever tried helping someone with psychosis? Its damn near impossible. Every doctor and social worker will advise you to leave them. theur condition tears the people around them and themselves down and there is not aaprpiate support you can provide.

[@leandra8161]

​@@ceton1843 but it was still their choice to exploit his psychotic episode on their youtube channels. Im not saying that they needed to step in and save the day and fix it, but you dont go onto a public platform and show thousands of strangers videos of his messy apartment and a paranoia/delusion based facetime and laugh at it. He was in a breakdown, they were shitty people. (source: my time working on a psych ward with a primary population of people with paranoid schizophrenia and people with Bipolar disorder)

[@AgonizingDemise]

@@ceton1843 I'm just gonna believe you for the sake of the discussion but even if that is true you and you can't help, doing the opposite and actually using your friends declining mental wellbeing to get interesting content and grow your own following is just not acceptable at all.

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@blk7747]

he's back doing bangers

[@maha-tg7df]

I went through something similar and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My psychosis episodes were similar to his and they were really scary

[@max3eey]

But his was an act and you're a wacko

[@manks5491]

its terrifying how truly fragile the human mental field is. from hereditary conditions, bad genes, traumatic experiences, and whatever else causes this shit, its pretty scary man. amazing video as always, Sunny

[@Werewolf.with.Internet.Access]

Dude and even if you avoid ALL of that, one bad conk on the head and there you go. Human mental thresholds are bullshit…

[@havocmg]

Thats why psychedelics are not good for you. What benefit do psychedelics provide that cannot be attained naturally?

[@woahblackbettybamalam]

Worst part is hes right about Musk and Rogan. I wonder if he is a paid shill like Alex Jones or Russel Brand

[@skinnybuggo]

Hereditary

[@yeng1855]

@@havocmg Have you tried psychedelics before?

[@MLGLOL80]

I miss the old Connor Murphy, he was a huge inspiration for me and my friend, it's sad what has happened to him and how it took over everything good he ever had. I wish we could help him

[@JB-rl8ki]

He was kind of a dick, but I would never wish mental illness on anyone.

[@lukehanlon3814]

Maybe think about who are your idols more…says a lot about you

[@michaelbrinks8089]

He was making a ton of $$$ by just walking around with his shirt off going, "Hey girls check out my body".... Part of me thought he was a cringe douche, the other part thought it was a great hustle. Tons of money & 304's by just walking around with your shirt off.

[@lukehanlon3814]

@@michaelbrinks8089 yeah…trying to get rich and girls for nothing….is that all ya trying to accomplish? See what his shit did to you? You obviously have a mental condition if you think that shit😂 I hope you don’t hold a gun licence

[@TheReaper002]

He's been uploading again and he seems to have come off the ayahuasca, looks like normal Connor Murphy shirt off vids.

[@orlandolopez6947]

The closest person to me went through a mental spiral JUST like this. It hurt me like no other situation thus far. Never in a million years did I realize someone like this person could lose their sanity. Truly terrifying

[@llamapie24]

Likewise mate, much of this was uncomfortable to watch

[@S0L12D3]

Yes my bestfriend went through this exact same thing and it was very hard to grasp the truth of the situation because many of the things he talked about were actually sensible and logical, however, other conversations became very negative and just very wrong. It’s unfortunate and I feel for you because i am dealing with the same thing for 2 years now

[@zixzizia1066]

How do you help them?

[@supadoopstudios]

@@zixzizia1066 u cant help someone convinced with the spirituality deep dive, sad thing is he might be true, when you see the shit u see on psychadelics its hard to not think these things. they have to want to help themselves, sometimes they will click and be like this isnt me and get scared of who theyve become. I don't think he went psychotic or schizophrenic unless it was drug enduced temporarily. I thought these things when I did these drugs, they open you up alot

[@rottingoctopi]

@@zixzizia1066 just get them medical attention any way you can, lie to them if they are delusional, call up the hospital beforehand to let them know what they're dealing with so they can prepare staff so there is less of a wait time.. it only gets worse when you are in a manic and psychotic episode. They are very damaging. I had the same thing happen to me around the same time as him and you really have to put in a lot of hard work to recover from an episode like this. A lot of guilt, shame, confusion as to what is actually real because you can't trust your own perception.. and if the person is bipolar (like myself) they will often go into a deep depression following such a high. Just be as supportive as you can and just give them time. Finding the right medication is key

[@kazukiohara9535]

I know this has nothing to do with the video but, I really like your voice and all your videos are really easy to follow!! Keep it up, they’re amazing😄

[@MoSamuels1]

Been waiting for you to cover this. Glad he’s doing better and back to his usual self

[@jay-d8g3v]

Another cringe worthy fitness idol lol

[@itsjcdog8086]

Hey mo Samuels.. could you help me get back into my usual self? I want to be a UFC fighter

[@Onzure]

@@jay-d8g3v what's with all the negativity and hate of someone simply saying it's glad he's better and for this to be covered?

[@gommoolabajobir8687]

@@Onzure just trolls

[@ujfujf422]

@@Capistic2 sound a bit insecure there mate

[@shadowfox2084]

His poor parents... I couldn't imagine having to watch your child go through this.

[@AxxLAfriku]

WHAT THE WHAT??? i am over 100 years old and still making youtub videos? oh yeah baby. why? because i am the ultimate youtuber. woo woo woo you know it dear sha

[@chrisddr3]

For real, it’s a good thing that he seems to be recovering tho

[@hunterq4202]

I had a friend who went completely psychotic and I always wonder what it’s like for his family. It’s also wild to think your old self can die. I had another friend who had it happen and we even used to talk when younger about how one day we could lose our minds and not even realize it

[@blank1778]

@@hunterq4202 psychedelics will do that if you have underlying mental illness even if it’s never shown before especially if abused

[@marianocardenas3440]

@@hunterq4202 have you spoken to that friend recently?

[@mvmusic8467]

Seeing the actions of his so called "friends" trying to exploit him in the public eye while he's literally losing his mind left me feeling legitemately disturbed. If any of them see this I hope youre burning in your own selfmade hell of guilt, you deserve no less. Ive had people close to me betray me or turn their backs at my lowest but never did any of them secretly film or try to showcase the situation in the public eye, thats one of the scummiest things a person can ever do.

[@runescaperzzz]

Exactly my thoughts. Make KZbin vids instead of helping the dude

[@Mack98421]

@@runescaperzzz Progressive demoralization and rationalization of bad behavior turns a lot of streamers and social media people into sociopaths. Monkey branching, backstabbing completely heartless sociopaths that would sell their mother for a bit of fame.

[@Sockren]

its ok to give update videos but holy fuck these dudes are insane

[@herewasbob7650]

Which youtubers were exploiting him?

[@AskAW]

He doesn't have friends. He has colleagues.

[@WaddyYT]

Sunny, you have the greatest channel for real, whenever I see someone interesting ect I instantly search *down fall of "insert name"* and you always have a video ready 🤣

[@piratelilac4255]

This is just so sad, that poor lad. The people secretly filming him at his lowest then posting it online, shame on you!!

[@CowDudez]

I EXPOSED SUNNYV2

[@MsXtines]

I wish him the best. His “friends” are pathetic.

[@MUSTAFA_SALIH_since1998]

I agree, the way that they are just talking about him on KZbin behind his back is so wrong

[@MsTinkerbelle87]

Yeah imagine if the poor guy offed himself right after the world zoom call? “We didn’t go back” YOU ASSHOLES 😤

[@tttcloud7285]

They are not friends in any shape or form sadly… I never heard of this guy previously but I have absolute sympathy for anyone suffering mental health bless him !

[@valjean2036]

They arent his friends they are trying to get veiws...very sad i feel more sorry for the ppl doing that then him.

[@tttcloud7285]

@@valjean2036 you feel more sad for the meant to be friends which are definitely sad by the way than the guy that’s had a complete mental breakdown 🫤 !

[@SubmissionComedyClub]

His "friends' exploiting him is so sad. He cleary needed help. Coming from personal experience, I know it can be extremly hard to help someone especially if they don't want help or have declined mentally to a point they make no sense. Exploting someone in that state is such a pathetic and inhuman thing to do. I wouldn't be suprised if these same 'friends' got him into drugs and other substances that lead him to this path.

[@necrobomb5792]

They are no his friends obviously!!

[@ntl9974]

It's california

[@papayani6446]

They will say they did it for him to help him.

[@TGREAT1]

Those aholes used him and never wanted anything good for him

[@christophernoble76]

when ive met people like this irl, it's been so surreal that i felt like i was crazy myself. actually terrifying, they're always really intense and you can tell that they completely believe everything that they're saying and thinking, their thoughts are so rapid and alinear, all over the place. i hope everybody like this gets help, they could be a danger to themselves and others.

[@max3eey]

It was all an act lmao you fell for it

[@MrMonster99]

This whole ordeal really hit home for me man. In 2017-2018 after I had graduated high-school, I started getting into psychedelics. At first it was once here, or there, doing magic mushrooms with some friends, but after having an experience I thought was "profound" I began to firmly believe that psychedelic drugs could unlock parts of our brain that have been locked away, and I, myself could achieve enlightenment, and become a better person. Next thing I knew, I was buying DMT and LSD on the deep web, and having trips all the time. After each trip it was like a small piece of my brain had been replaced with a fresh, new piece of brain, like switching out colored lego blocks if that makes sense. Probably not.. But anyways.. I decided to purchase a sheet of 200 acid tabs online, and they were double dipped (AKA double the regular potency) and one night I ended up consuming between 5-8 of these tabs all at once (I dont personally remember how much, this is based off of what my friends recall from that moment) .. but that night is what broke me. I had become obsessed with connecting everything in life, so I had this large text document on my computer I would spend hours typing into, shit like.. CAT= 4 LEGS = DOG = ANIMAL = LIVING = HUMAN = BLOOD = LIFE = GOD = ETC. I drew these big large scientific looking venn diagrams to try and convey my messages, wrote on the walls, and at one point I even dumped all of the exercise supplements, alcohol and vitamins I had down the sink because I thought the fucking sink was connected to my body, and if I cleaned out the pipes, it would make me feel better.. I ended up staying awake for 4 or 5 days straight, and nomatter what I did I could not stop these intense thoughts from rushing through my head like an endless current. It was like I had unlocked every secret to the universe, and everyone was blind to it but me. I felt as though life was just one big mathmatical equation, that I had cracked, and I needed to explain to everyone what I had seen. The only problem was, that I had SEVERE DRUG INDUCED PSYCHOSIS, & my thoughts were complete nonsense and couldnt have been explained to any sane person. I ended up getting fired from my job, spent a few months in a psych ward, basically perpetually paranoid and in an endless state of fight or flight, thinking everyone wanted to kill me. After I had gotten out of the mental hospital, unable to properly care for myself, or work, I started living with my grandparents. It took me about 1, maybe 2 years to start feeling somewhat normal again. To this day, large parts of my memory are blank, and my memory in general isnt as good as it used to be. But at the same time, if not for this event happening, I would probably still be doing drugs all the time, working a shit job, and getting nowhere in life. Not only that, I never would have realised how incredibly loving and supportive my family is, and what a great safety net I am so lucky to have. Right now, I'm the most successful i've ever been in life so far, and I'd like to think it was because of that experience. TLDR: The only life changing epiphany drugs gave me was that doing drugs was a terrible idea.

[@nathansteele4358]

I’m glad you got out of that pit, I’m glad you’re successful and I hope Connor gets better He seemed more down to earth in his new video but is very much still in denial kzbin.info/www/bejne/Y6C5poGOm8ammrM

[@chilledllama8830]

Thanks for sharing your story, it opened my eyes a lot because i have a friend who has been going through the same phase the past two years, gone to psychewards, lost many friends, not working and sometimes brings up weird universal topics like you mentioned. Im assuming he must have done crazy psychosis drugs and sadly he still seems lost and no sense of control. Nonetheless bro im glad you pulled yourself free and fought for your life back. Wish nothing but the best for you and in life. Its these type problems in life we all encounter that end up making us stronger and learning something to our benefit. Cheers bro

[@candaceoutofcontext]

Thank you so much for sharing! I think it’s amazing that you feel that you are in a better place now, and that you look at it as a learning experience!

[@Pattyboytheking]

Dumb story.

[@nathansteele4358]

@@Pattyboytheking you’re the worst

[@LeoArmada]

Sunny can just dig up the most interesting and unknown stories as if it's nothing, which is hard to do, since almost everything a video can be made about, is, already made, especially the topics like these.

[@YosuaNangin]

Connor Murphy is kinda big tho

[@omogenews]

Truthkzbin.info/www/bejne/p6XRdK19jraAfa8 🤣

[@omogenews]

Truthkzbin.info/www/bejne/p6XRdK19jraAfa8 🤣

[@adammaggid9037]

if ur into fitness u know this one

[@JesuslovesMoney]

Not really

[@Zeverinsen]

*Bruh.* I've never heard about this guy before, but I hope he's doing well now.

[@chris_1988]

Same here. This was scary and sad to see.

[@jordysavage3363]

I watched his whole meltdown last summer in real time. He’s doing better now!

[@PapunaOfficial]

i think he is doing okaish now

[@Zeverinsen]

@@PapunaOfficial That's good to hear! He seems like a poor soul who was just fucked by circumstance and his life just tanked.

[@phantomnite]

It does seem hes doing better these days which is a relief.

[@Quaxlabax]

my little brother had a psychosis too.. induced by marijuana.. It's the most scaring thing i have ever seen.. A person you know so well thinking he is understanding the universe and thinking he is god..

[@dm2836]

I feel so bad for his parents, that had to be terrifying listening to your son rambling insanity and having to sit there and try to just hold it together for him. I think as his mom I would have burst into tears.

[@toadssugar]

I dont as much. Why didnt they do anything to help him?

[@thehwguy4293]

@@toadssugar I mean, they probably don't pay much attention to the internet?

[@bingusslingus7020]

@@toadssugar We don't know what they did, it isn't fair to speculate without evidence. It's very possible and probably even likely that they did everything they could; not everything is documented online.

[@toadssugar]

@@bingusslingus7020 thats true but its still weird that the guy wasnt put in a mental hospital before he was forced to by police also something i should've clarified is that it was assuming they just stood around doing nothing

[@toadssugar]

@@thehwguy4293 dont feel like copy pasting what i said just look above But for your comment i do have something to say: If they werent aware what he was doing then we have no reason to feel bad, because they didnt know what was happening to him

[@multiyapples]

I genuinely feel bad for him. No one should go through addiction or mental health issues and have terrible friends.

[@Elle99-o6g]

Welp happens a lot. Ppl just laugh at you, that’s the real world. Then when they go on a killing rampage they wonder why no one was empathetic towards them.

[@cobalt7781]

This is not addiction, this is something extremely serious where he is taking it because it makes him smarter but in turn makes him inable to communicate

[@annjepsen1621]

​@@cobalt7781 I hate to break this to you but exercise is absolutely an addiction in his case

[@williamowens2063]

what about his friends seem terrible to you? it seems like they reached out and tried to help him on multiple occassions

[@grownfungus]

@@williamowens2063 This was my initial thought reading this comment, but filming the dudes trashed house then a private phone call where he's speaking nonsense is a little messed up

[@artzzdrawzz7460]

God damn. Never have I wanted to give someone a hug so much in my life. I'm glad he's doing better now. Shame on his friends for not helping him when he needed it most.

[@gjeraldh2989]

That's what happens when all ur friends are content creators that can't wait to get home and film a exposé on you.

[@alexlents4689]

@@gjeraldh2989 Clout-chasing corrupts your morality

[@BlutoToMars]

I agree wholeheartedly. I just felt horrible for him watching this. I really hope he can turn it around and remain clean and be a beacon for hope to others going through the same things. and, or, maybe be a deterrent to trying these drugs.

[@Svoorhout85]

He should really have a word with himself about wether these people should be considered "friends".

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@AllofJamesSorensen]

The weirdest part of this whole video is how he managed to get Tiger Woods's contact info... 😂 11:49

[@kawakami7972]

Wow no one is really there for him.. his “friends” were sharing such personal and disturbing things so publicly, when he is obviously not in the right mind to stand up for himself. Anyone else sense something so wrong about that?

[@CowDudez]

I EXPOSED SUNNYV2

[@bluebird6533]

Yes that is extremely disturbing. They made content out of his lowest point it's disgusting.

[@pouetpouetdaddy5]

all staged

[@ntl9974]

California people

[@jessicacopper111]

Hi Kawakami. I feel uncomfortable seeing my fiance. When there is a lot of water on a cup or the sink is running and my partner is talking saying certain words then those words needs to be repeated or else I feel they float on the water and when dumping that water down the sink hole or bathtub then when turning the sink on to wash hands, I feel the water is contaminated, especially when forgetting which words needed to be repeated! Which type of diagnosis would that be?!

[@naturenerds520]

why tf is this all so public, these "friends" are litterly vlogging him going mad. Never seen such horrible people. I wish connor the best

[@alladreamwedreamed]

A friend would maybe call the guy's mom or try to get them to a doctor or therapist. A sociopath pulls out a camera and youtubes it.

[@troutsofinsanity]

@@alladreamwedreamed Exactly!

[@blackwersus]

Social media brings out the worst in people

[@mancave10369]

If you mock mental health issues, you deserve them.

[@FleaOnMyWiener]

It reminds me of the Chris Chan saga

[@alepan2801]

For those who don’t know, he has left behind all the weird stuff and is now back to to a somewhat normal fitness channel

[@purgenta]

what do you mean by 'somewhat' normal?

[@airfryer.]

@@purgenta check his channel mate.

[@yoshzlac2429]

Truthkzbin.info/www/bejne/p6XRdK19jraAfa8 🤣

[@yoshzlac2429]

Truthkzbin.info/www/bejne/p6XRdK19jraAfa8 🤣

[@mehdin7520]

What like suggesting everyone drink their own sperm for protein? Is that what you call normal?

[@davidg5965]

Man this is so sad, I'm 24 now and I was a super meathead about 4-7 years ago and this guy was always on the top tier when it came to physiques, I guess we all go through something that makes us stay out of the gym, I wish him nothing but the best

[@jewel8425]

Poor guy, he seems like a charming, self aware goofball honestly just wanting to help people out, that declined mentally from stress & drugs, regardless of his few good points. Watching others exploit him (H3H3 is so gross, & his peers are terrible) is simply heartbreaking. I hope he's better.

[@su2004]

Just say that you want his kids

[@deki9827]

@@su2004 your name seems pretty correct.

[@su2004]

@@deki9827 yeah, it definitely wasn't intentional

[@OmegaDonut]

h3 is the antithesis of health and exercise id never take his opinion seriously on anything fitness related

[@TheZINGularity]

Drugs dont cause schizophrenia but some of them sure do trigger them if you are predisposed to it.

[@Azazagoth]

Connor is someone that I most likely would never hang out with in a social setting but it’s impossible for me to shit on a person who is struggling with mental health issues and the absolute hell of addiction. Thanks for putting together a non biased review of Connors well being. Good on you for just showing the facts and letting the viewers come to their own conclusions.

[@bashtinator]

When he said: "I achieved, fame girls and money and that made me depressed" i instantly connected with that. I never had fame ofc, but after 10 years of struggling to improve my life, getting a decent profession, climbing up the career ladder, achieving financial stability and starting to have more success with girls i felt very empty and depressed. It took me another 3 years to realize that we are all different and what most of the people consider success its not necessary what success is to you personally. Success is finding what makes you happy and doing more of that rather than forcing yourself to chase what society thinks success is and value yourself based on other criteria of happiness and success. once i accepted that i was able to reach out for help and started improving a lot. To anyone having the same struggles please stop whatever you are doing and reach out for help. Talk with family and close friends, or just get a therapist or fins some support groups online to talk about your feelings. Being alone and feeling not understood in this kind of situations will make you spiral down into madness. Take care

[@nomadicadi]

Thanks for sharing this man, needed to hear this

[@mossy2571]

I think that’s exactly what I’m going through now. Hard to stop after coming a looong way. Dedicated more than 10 years of my life to this road to “success” which is designed to destroy me

[@bashtinator]

@@mossy2571 There is another road to embark now. Slowly transitioning from what we currently do to what we actually want to do with our life. Coming to the realization is half the work imo. Stay strong and find a good support system to help you with the transition. If we were strong enough to come this far doing something we don't really love, i can assure you we are strong enough to reinvent our life once more. At least for me now feels like the easy part of life is starting. All i have to do now is focus on myself, and at least i am in a good place financially to do it. Not everyone is lucky enough to get to this point and still be (almost) sane. Stay strong brother, we are all gonna make it!

[@jessicacopper111]

Erison. I feel uncomfortable seeing my fiance. When there is alot of water on a cup or the sink is running and my partner is talking saying certain words then those words needs to be repeated or else I feel they float on the water and when dumping that water down the sink hole or bathtub then when turning the sink on to wash hands, I feel the water is contaminated, especially when forgetting which words needed to be repeated! Which type of diagnosis would that be?!

[@bashtinator]

@@jessicacopper111 I do not know. I am no expert whatsoever, just a guy struggling with his own mental health. Please talk with him or family so you could find an expert on the matter that could help you. Do not postpone mental health issues as they escalate really fast.

[@ParabolicGains]

I can't imagine my "support structure" and "friends" all "saving" me via public youtube videos

[@vesselkin]

I've seen someone close to me go through something similar, it's terrifying to see a person you've known your whole life become so psychotic that they become like a completely different person. I can't even begin to imagine how it feels to experience a manic episode first hand. Also, fuck his 'friends' for exploiting a mentally ill person for clout, doing that to anyone is gross but doing that to a person who thinks you're their friend is some next level evil shit. Legit made me feel sick when he was begging them to come visit and they lied about coming over.

[@JustAnzia]

I been mentally I’ll for many years, had a total psychotic breakdown in 2019. And it’s definitely a terrifying thing to see that his “friends” exploited his mental health for views, while you become a totally different person it’s still not ok to exploit.

[@kaizo0055]

Yeah the facetime where he was begging them to come back and that he would give them all the money in the world was sad because you could tell how distressed he was. And then you hear his friends talking to him with a mockingly sarcastic tone and find out they never even go back. He was very clearly in distress and it’s messed up that his “friends” didn’t care enough to go back and ensure he was safe/okay.

[@dickartist]

mania itself isn't all too bad, usually just a lot of either reckless or productive behavior and a little less sleep, but when you don't sleep at all and psychosis hits, all hell breaks loose. for any fellow bipolar peeps reading this, remember to get adequate sleep by any means necessary. if you can't, then consult your doctor immediately so that your medication may be adjusted.

[@quimbyyyyy5425]

​@@dickartist and avoid heavy psychedlics without a conversation with your doctor first!

[@brendancronin3796]

Yes it is ...it's like there minds have been invaded and you feel so powerless..it's a terrible thing .

[@AYJ]

Not gonna lie, I started working out after looking at connors physique, this is truly saddening to see such a huge influence go down like this 😢

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@ben2808]

Jesus Christ loves you.

[@ajeenius7437]

@@ben2808 I think of him more as a friend.

[@ax3226]

@@ben2808 Jesus was a Messenger A Prophet that was born through a human women! That’s all! God is One and only, God has no sons no partners no trinity! Trinitarian Christian’s are following the way of the devil and are pagans!

[@ax3226]

How’s your body now?

[@pobster88j94]

This is super sad. He seems like a genuine dude who just lost his way. I hope he finds peace and joy away from social media. You can tell he has an extreme, sensitive personality.

[@tommoya7452]

lets go champ 🫡

[@bulletsauce]

Uhm, no. He didn't lose his way, he got very sick. Like terminally ill sick. Psychiatric illness, something we dont understand very well yet and is arguably more scary than cancer.

[@teharthe]

This video is sensationalist garbage. Conor was never really insane. He talked at length about spirituality, nondualism, about metaphysics. He debated people, including Vegan Gains, Cosmic Skeptic, Matt Dillahunty and others. He was articulate in his beliefs. He called himself God from a pantheist perspective, but according to that everyone is God. This video conveniently does not show the substance of his beliefs. He was unhinged, but he kept tabs on reality. His unhinged nature is hard to understand for normies. It's a state of childish wonder, a state that goes to the core of human experience that we repress and ignore via social bullshit. That wild, wild state. That beautiful boiling blood filled with whimsical excitement and ectasy. Euphoria. And what is insanity really? To me, insanity is reductiveness. I see plenty of people being reductive without "acting insane". Someone who acts wild is not necessarily insane, but free. To me, your reductive ass is insanity, regardless of how much of an obedient boy or girl you are to the norms. Conor, at the time when he was "insane", was one of the most unbridled and amazing people I ever saw in my entire life. He indeed started being reckless but that was not the crux of his spiritual journey. And an ignoramus like the one who made this video who superficially skims stories and makes stupid edgy " documentaries " on them, while ignoring the heart, does not know that. Yeah, his friends were trash. We've seen this with Etika, another great human being. Everyone abandoned him when he was just a raw human.

[@Monkforilla]

He does not seem genuine at all, in fact it seems like every time he was on camera before he went “crazy” he was just putting on a smile for the camera

[@Manganization]

@@Monkforilla I don't know if you know about Etika, but Etika was pretty fine until the moments he was not, and it got hard to tell if Etika was joking or having a mental breakdown, until one moment when he was completely and unusually calm and sudoku'd. It sucked, and I will always remember that day. It's not always easy to tell if someone is genuine or not.

[@charliebrooks9269]

I live in a town where pretty much everyone under the age of 30 uses psychedelics and I’ve definitely seen a lot of people go through the same thing he did. It’s fixable by getting sober and grounding yourself but it can definitely fuck u up. Don’t take drugs if your heads not in the right place

[@LIVEMETRIX187]

exactly dude, but he most likely had a underlying mental issue that brang him into psychosis, this is not a normal occurrence with psychs

[@DPSFSU]

I feel bad for the kid. He poured his heart out and his "friends", these DoucheTubers, just air out his dirty laundry for views. Get some help, keep it private and stop looking for someone you can easily exploit. Disgusting people.

[@tomclayton9881]

They're so gross.

[@ΤΙΝΜΑΝ]

DoucheTubers? that’s like 90% of the platform

[@momkid90]

Yeah seriously, his friends are like lmfaooooo Connor talking funny, quick record it for the tik tok!

[@farhanrafi8481]

Was just about to say! his “friends” were exploiting this horrible mental breakdown for content.. you can tell they were slightly amused when retelling the story. very disingenuous.

[@snooganslestat2030]

For too many people these days life is about attention & clicks.

[@age_of_reason]

With friends like these you don't need enemies.

[@dsweet5859]

So true

[@Titanic-wo6bq]

Him saying 'I used to be so happy as a kid'... That hit me way harder in the gut then it should have... I relate so much, I remember being so happy being a young child, but I just feel like as I get older I get more and more depressed. This had no reason to hit me so hard.

[@davidortiz3094]

Because reality is often disappointing. While many children live in they imagination.

[@DoDgeSwaG]

Delete social media and watch how much more of your life you gain back that is being stolen from you by big tech companies. You think those drugs fucked Connor up? Nah it was social media

[@alexlents4689]

@@davidortiz3094 Also most people are nicer to kids than adults

[@AYVYN]

Thankfully I was miserable as a kid

[@vulturett]

real

[@jary2988]

Please do an update on his recent IRL streaming in Thailand and arrest. Dude has somehow descended even further into insanity

[@tomastheboss5939]

Not only are his "friends" exploitating his breakdown for views, but they are also constantly smiling and laughing when talking about situations as if it's something to laugh laugh about . I found this video hard to watch, Well done Sunnyv2 for raising some awareness, helped change many people's perspectives on people having a rough time .

[@PopyNation]

maybe cuz those ain’t his friends

[@musicforbands]

We as a society are a few steps away from dark eldar societal structuring

[@angelagiv2426]

A person just does not change I am sure his friends put him in his food / drink psychiatric drugs and this is what made him go crazy, unfortunately from a psychiatric hospital he will no longer return to normal because there even more destroy the person so there is no such thing friends! A person should be selfish and keep himself from "friends" friends it's all interests

[@one_smol_duck]

While it disgusted me that they exploited him for views, smiling and laughing while witnessing or recounting something devastating is actually pretty normal. Many people laugh or smile when they're uncomfortable. Especially if that's what the people around you are doing. Doesn't excuse them exploiting his mental state for views, though.

[@SurferFN]

Sunny is the perfect KZbinr to watch while eating

[@-Blitzer-]

Agreed

[@voduz999]

this ratio is perfect 🥶

[@tree4508]

yea lmao

[@TareqGamer]

what a strange coincidence i just happen to have some food right now lmao

[@inventorofsexreal]

Agreed

[@24flyingcats84]

One of my friends had severe psychotic episodes in the past, and I can't imagine even considering filming him in that state. It's exploitative and cruel. Really sad to see his descent into madness. I hope he's alright now.

[@24flyingcats84]

@ASH 🦄 Aestheticz I guess, but his friends could have just made a video explaining what was going on rather than filming him.

[@JimboJuice]

@ASH 🦄 Aestheticz Viewers aren't a part of his life, his content is a part of their life. They don't need anything.

[@devingentry9263]

man i used to watch all this guys videos all the time man i’ve seen this before but man it’s still so wild man

[@rockroden]

In highschool I heard a friend say "someone who smiles that much cant be sane " this stuck with me

[@timeittakestoletgo1687]

The whole issue about mania is that it *doesn’t feel negative*. I have a feeling he wasn’t “addicted” to psychedelics, but that his use of them triggered a vulnerability toward psychosis and possibly bipolar type 1. I’m bipolar type 2, and my partner is type 1, and I can assure you that he certainly thought he was god too.

[@nicoleouellette4066]

That sounds like a fun relationship lol!

[@michaelhernandez7978]

Can I ask what that dynamic is like in your relationship? My GF and I are both addicts, and it's interesting to learn about these things.

[@freeffree4133]

Yep.

[@xpeanutxxoobutter9404]

I'm type 2 and my dad's type one. You guys are lucky to have eachother but it must be hard for sure times.

[@Looshfarmer]

My aunt has bipolar and the religiosity is very similar to what happened to her before her diagnosis. Especially staying up for 6 days writing a book on happiness for his family. Sometimes people choose psychedelics to try and deal with something they’re already struggling with. I agree with you, that genetic susceptibility esp for males under 25; can accelerate the behaviours that may already have been ready to come out.

[@AboveAverageNPC]

Dude I followed his breakdown in real time. It was heart breaking. Absolutely wild ride. So glad he's back to normal now.

[@sweetfry]

You can call it what you wan't but he's probably happier and better in his life, regardless of this harder portion of it, than he ever was before it.

[@MortSociety]

He will never be back to normal in this insane world. His reality will never be the same. He can wear a mask to cope with his life but deep down he knows its all a lie.

[@sweetfry]

@@MortSociety Thats a ridiculous assumption based on some notion that there's any problem with there being a difference between him before and after. There's nothing inherently wrong with what he experienced because it likely made him grow and understand things about himself and the world a lot more than if he had never gone through the experience. Trying to paint this experience as "bad" is pretty mindblowingly naive.

[@GabeShootman]

yeah I remember coming across him during his breakdown after not really seeing him since his peak fitness days. He was posting these weird public "hug vibration meditation" with all these random people. I really think it was just the drugs talking...

[@ripvanced]

@@sweetfry he was on drugs, that 's why he went psycho... not hard to understand...

[@LongWii]

😂 at 9:04, when Jane said, "This is what I saw," the video cut to a Dove Mens body wash😂