The Midnight Gospel: A search for meaning

[@FilGelabert]

This is the most important video I've made so far, hope you like it.

[@prajwaldas1682]

and now i know what to watch tonight, thanks!

[@LaNeona]

I appreciate that you made something easy for me to send along to others that explain some of the fantastic, profound moments of that show. It helped me a lot.

[@neshuneshuification2609]

I totally see how much it affected you, We constantly live in a denial, trying to ignore this tremendous existential crisis, and we try to get high and forget that the problem is even there, to put a blanket on it, but is not going anywhere if it isnt getting worse. Since when cartoons a transformed from a light distraction from life to bluntly fleshing out whats wrong with society, dealing with trauma or plain fucked up stuff? We no longer can get away from what we dont want to face, because its fucking everywhere! Anyone who aspires to write a meaningful story is very conscious that they want to bring people in with the cool light and colors get high and they will stay because of the existential dread and crisis that will end up put in the table, stating uncomfortable truths and to ask wtf are we gonna do with this? fricking creators are bringing their own emotional trauma to the table trying to therapy themselves through it, trying to heal themselves and hoping that they don fuck you up in the process, more so, hoping that this resonates with you and maybe you heal a little bit too. Creative process is a hard and messy job, and so is life, but both are cathartic if we put effort on it.

[@bazar_historias_peludas]

Fil I love your video, was amazing see the resume of one of my best series! I enjoyed most too the episode # 8. Was full of feeling and thoughts about my life. Thanks for the resume! ❤️☀️

[@christinemichellle]

Honestly this show helped me so much. When I found out I was 7 weeks pregnant after being told I probably never would be able to have children, I lost my big brother. I went through so many emotions and felt guilt for being upset and guilt for being happy. Than a few weeks after I had my daughter I had hit hard with grief, I was having the worst guilt and depression I had ever experienced in my life. One night I was up late nursing and I came across this show, I had no clue what it was and it helped me so much. The part where he asks “how you can’t avoid that heartbreak so what do you do” and his mom said “you cry” I had to rewatch the last episode several times because I was crying so hard

[@caleb1rshelton]

It should be a crime that Netflix didn't renew this show for another season. Probably one of the most impactful adult animated series ever made.

[@am-180]

i think its for the best- what more appropriate ending could you ask for?

[@Dino_Mommy]

​@@am-180I think gems like this are left better having only one season. We're lucky this was ever allowed to be made in the first place. It's a shame more studios aren't promoting projects like this

[@dramaqn3032134]

People can change anything, maybe we can all manifest it back or comment @ Netflix for its return. Especially because im just learning this was a show.

[@ezostew]

@@dramaqn3032134 imma manifest it to not return. Lets see who wins.

[@NachoManRanchSalad]

Let's not forget Bojack Horseman. Or even Kotaro Lives Alone 😢

[@BurningWaterpark]

my mom passed away and a few months later this show popped up. it really resonated with me, made me super sad but also gave me an entire new outlook on everything

[@aliasofanalias7448]

❤

[@lindboknifeandtool]

This came out when my mom needed the transplant, I wanted to watch it with her but didn’t get to it in time. It’s comforting. You’ll be okay. It’s hard not having a mom but what eventually comes is a source of strength beyond what you could imagine.

[@newwrldmagazine]

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[@FilGelabert]

[@shuddabinswollode]

i feel ive been so caught up in my own life im either obsessing over how to improve myself and the world or absolutely dreading getting out of bed and wishing for the end. dont know what it all means but this video helped me gain a little perspective again basically i need therapy and your videos are good

[@FilGelabert]

It's a balance, and it's hard to find for real.

[@creamking3569]

Sounds like u got good motivation u probably just need to sleep longer

[@PollenTheCosmicFae]

I watched this series when my own mother was terminally ill with the same cancer as Duncans mom so it obviously hit very close to home. I couldn't watch it again because of how much the last episode affected me and even now I cant help but cry. Its really all i can do. And the death of my mother made me so scared and aware that the people in my life are going to die and I'll never be the same. They take a part of you with them.

[@lizbethcortez3349]

I've lost a lot of people, and they do take a little piece of you. The cool part is that you have the option of keeping a little piece of them too, and any change they made in your life or lessons they taught is those little pieces reminding you they loved you

[@caitlyn2580]

I'm so sorry you lost your mother. I hope you have found a supportive grief village of people who really understand what it feels like and means to lose someone like that. My father passed away 3 months ago, and for me it's surreal and dark. I also connect with the idea of being scared of losing other people in your life now as well. There's so much I'll never get to say to him now.

[@graefx]

The show came out right when lockdowns and everything seemed to be reaching a peak. I watched the last episode as I was packing from getting evicted. Hit me like a truck. Hadn't talked to my parents in 7 years.

[@FilGelabert]

Hope things are looking brighter for you now.

[@brycesayers-kwan5707]

This show changed my life. I was absolutely broken when I heard it was cancelled

[@ash-vf5bs]

it was a limited series he has his other podcasts, i loved it

[@wrensey_YT]

"You Cry!" Has the power to make me go into baby mode every single time

[@zwllms711]

Every… single… tiiiiiime

[@madi6880]

Yup, just unlocks the flood gates lmao

[@IchBinWirklichNichtSchwul]

let's cut to a commercial

[@Thevoidconsumesall]

This show came to me when I needed it. When I had nothing. Then an unnamed friend spent every day with me while we watched this show. That was years ago. I'll never forget those few weeks as long as I live. Damn, do I need a savior like that now.

[@neptunesplan3t]

This video was magnificent. I had forgotten about this series because I watched it when it first came out. At the time, I didn’t quite grasp what it all meant. Now lately I’ve been in a desperate need for something like this, a need for an acceptance of death and a peace of mind of some sorts, and I’m so glad this video somehow came in my recommendation. I understood everything clearly even with my monkey ADHD brain, and I commend you for that. Really good video you’ve made.

[@aliasofanalias7448]

"Monkey!" - Duncan Trussel

[@Excalibur250]

My ADHD and probably a few other factors would probably keep me from taking in any important information with all the stimulation on the screen. It's kinda too much. A breakdown like this is kind of nice, so I can actually digest what's being said, but it's still really difficult for me.

[@neptunesplan3t]

@@Excalibur250 If you *really* want to understand what the show is presenting, watch it twice. Watch it where you’re only listening to the show, and another where you focus on the visuals. In which order is up to you. If you want, watch it a third time and focus on both things and not worry about what’s going on because you already know. I wouldn’t recommend binging it three times in a row, though.

[@kamikazekhaya]

When my mom passed a while back I stumbled on this show.The day she died I was consciously present, I decided I would apply my knowledge of these broad, complex concepts. And this show showing up right after affirmed it for me. I accepted things would probably only get worse but that was fine, cause growth and understanding would come from it. I cried so hard when I watched the episode with Clanceys mother, and it was the most cathartic moment of my life.

[@weeOstrich]

I can't believe You don't get milions of views yet. The quality is very high, they're not empty and always leave me thinking about them for quite a while. I really love what You're doing and I wish You all the best! Thank You!

[@FilGelabert]

Thanks Mac!

[@w0lflux]

Being a big Duncan Trussell and Pendleton Ward fan, I absolutely love this show. My boyfriend and I have watched the whole series so many times over, both with psychedelics and without. The laughing, crying, and learning to understand the human condition is what makes this show so beautiful. The show was made with so much love and I often think about what a shame it is that Midnight Gospel didn't get approved for another season.

[@beccaroberts2369]

Can I ask what your experience was when you watched this with psychedelics?

[@TheACproduction]

@@beccaroberts2369would like to know too

[@GeraRod_97]

To be honest, your video is exactly what I needed to watch. Basically a reminder. I started watching "The Midnight Gospel " back when it came out during the pandemic and the lockdowns and at that time I was going through a fucked up phase and I was a mess, but throughout each episode I was watching, somehow I understood the message it was giving, so a month or two after I finished watching the series, I had a complete different perspective on life, and it actually helped me, I started living better and better, up until last year in which most of the time I was outside almost all day and night, met alot of people, somewhat good, mostly all of them were just negative and toxic, being with them and hanging with them all the time throughout last year changed my perspective and I started going downhill, loosing my self, completely forgetting my peace of mind and the person that I once was. Today after watching your video, I started feeling this feeling that I once had and what i thought was already long gone. Now I feel more in peace, and I regained that different perspective once again and it feels good.

[@benjaminbelleville887]

Rarely do you stumble across a video like this, a gem. Midnight gospel has been one of my favorite shows for a while and your breakdown helped me understand it in such a deeper way even making me reflect on my own life and choosing to be more present in this moment. Hope to see more like this

[@spookypaladin4667]

The line "You cry." was the one thing that broke me down to my roots. I can't explain it, but it tore me apart. I've spent all my life hiding emotion, praying nobody ever sees me distressed or in pain because they'll take full advantage. But it's a lie. I'm allowed to cry, or feel weak, I'm allowed to be a human. So are you.

[@dannyo7421]

People often get mad at me for how I handle death. One of my uncle's died, my 95 year old grandpa was diagnosed with cancer, and a family friend passed away in the last week or two. My family is feeling it hard and was sort of confused at my lack of... Sadness. My understanding of death is why. I also understand pain and that I shouldn't feel frustrated when faced with it or try to avoid it. Running from sadness and pain damages more than the initial hit. It doesn't feel good and it's not supposed to. Acceptance is key. Giving up that hope is key. You aren't going to always be happy and it's not wrong to be unhappy. Letting yourself feel that pain and grief is what will set you free to live happily. Death isn't an end and it's not as negative as people make it out to be. It's the next stage. It's not the end. Everyone will experience it. Death is certain and there's no point in spending time and energy on grieving over it.

[@ivyswhatever2869]

I recently binged this show, didn't even know about it until recently. finished watching it last night and, wow. this show is special. I had already converted to buddhism before finding the show, but everything in it just allowed me to become more mindful and deep in buddhist beliefs. that last episode, feeling the energy within you, is what helped me experience true zen and true silence for the first time since- I don't even know. this show is truly one of a kind, and I love it dearly.

[@Kloutrous808]

It’s channels like yours that truly make KZbin wonderful. Not a huge audience but still putting out great content that you are dedicated to making and sharing no matter how many people you reach. Really, thank you.

[@archen5098]

I've never really commented on a video before, but this video was truly special. It was a rude awakening on a lot of things that have been surfacing through my mind lately. The Midnight Gospel has been my favorite show for a couple of years now, but your analysis has offered a whole new perspective on things that I've missed out on my watch-throughs. Thank you for this :)

[@jasonmenchaca2091]

This is a well made video. He honestly deserves more subs and recognition. Need doing your work Fil, your doing great!

[@FilGelabert]

Took me 3 re-edits, but I'm glad it finally worked lol.

[@cygnusx1_]

24:18 This whole part made me cry and heart ache. My mum passed away from cancer almost exactly 2 years ago and I will forever remember having this exact thought process in the lead up. It felt unfair, and I still bawl my eyes out when I think about how that must've felt for her. Like you said, it's trying to comprehend the end of the movie. I could really feel your own struggle with that concept and i deeply connected with it. To this day the only thing I find that helps is what the show says: you cry.

[@thesabdog]

I’m currently half way through watching The Midnight Gospel. Fil I promise I’ll come back and watch this as soon as I’m finished 😅

[@vobz321]

You better m8

[@toxicspoder]

Can’t believe they dropped this show when something like Big Mouth has 6 seasons 😭

[@truonehaggy]

It's incredible how this video doesn't have more views. Amazing analysis and likewise how amazing how you opened yourself and show your vulnerability cause deep inside that's the key to acceptance, showing one's vulnerability.

[@ramonabailey8197]

:( must rewatch. If you're into podcasts, I highly recommend duncan trussel family hour. Truly a mixture of humor and touching subjects of varying degrees. Duncan has me laughing, crying, and really considering things over all with the amazing guests he brings on. I'm not crying..you are.. ;^;

[@vexayen1675]

I've found that the last episode actually really helped me with loss of my father in April. It really stuck with me in a positive way.

[@CanaLost]

Watching this while knitting is a type of feeling that gives me relief that there’s a good outlook on some scenarios that we as people struggle with. 10/10 would share a similar extesential crisis with a youtuber again.

[@Michaelroni-n-cheese]

Man... was watching yhis as background noise and immediately started crying when the summary of the last ep started playing. This show broke me.

[@BrandG.]

I was reluctant to qatch this video because i watched the series just after my dad passed. The series ripped at my heart in a good way, but one i was very raw too. Every time i see vlips of that last episode it kind of breaks my heart again. Im typing this sitting on the edge of my bed listening to my tears hit the hardwood floor. Nicely done video review.

[@tryctan2399]

man how didn't i find this video sooner. thanks man, you made me want to rewatch the show

[@TehDanxorz]

Anyone willing to be emotionally vulnerable these days deserves all the support you can get. I'll see you space cowboy.

[@TotallyShr00m]

Dude Midnight gospel is such a great show bro. I rewatch it so often and I always cry on that last episode with clancy's mom

[@matarnold1371]

the opening 30 seconds had to be the most revoltingly accurate truth i refuse to recognize

[@TheEpicSheepGod]

that griing on world of warcraft moment fucked me up when i was tripping tbh, and i didn't know what was real for a minute

[@literallydoing4425]

I like that you accept your imperfections, and unlike the usual guests on this stage called KZbin, you act as yourself. I like that.

[@rootedm00n]

incredible video! this show has been on my mind since forever and i love the way you spoke about it also the ending oh wow had me bawling my eyes out with “you cry!” and then car seat headrest, great video!!!!!

[@nuggetwins9106]

Beautiful video bro I really needed this

[@rndmprsn161]

amazing video, omg the last scene always gives me goosebumps

[@emperorlelouch5696]

Really great video. The Midnight Gospel is one of my favorite shows of all time and I really appreciate you sharing your experiences with the topics talked about in the show and how it's impacted you as a person. The last episode really hits different and made me cry when I first watched it. I hope things are much better now for you seeing as this video is 2 years old now, but as someone who's gone through hurt and pain like losing a loved one and life's experiences I just wanted let you know that things do get better and if we keep holding on to the past we'll never feel a sense of relief.

[@trentbarker4205]

I just want to say thank you so much for making this beautiful video. I wish everyone the best!

[@truenavybluez_1173]

I'm so glad I subscribed, i forgot I did but man this video was perfect timing. Thanks for content dude. 👍

[@cortezfilms8511]

You just gotta embrace it you know. We can’t run away from the pain of death. It’s there and we gotta feel it and cope with it.

[@lucramichiamo]

This show is amazing. I really love it. I rewatched it two times, and it felt like a blast. It really made me discover much of myself as a person. If it wasn’t for this series I wouldn’t be able to be curious and more attentive to my emotions and feelings. It was kind of a sworn friend that really cared about who I am. Thank you, TMG.

[@koolkel00]

22:54 I feel like I was left alone a lot in my formative years. My dad had to work and my mom was too depressed and exhausted to give me much attention or time. My older siblings left me out of things often, and I was left alone. I think that might have turned me into a very lonely person. And all of my weirdness and things I do is just a cry to reach out to others. To find anyone that might make time for me. And if I found someone like that I would finally feel like I belonged and was apart of the world. It's led me down a painful path of trying to please others, staying around toxic people that only hurt me, and it's eroded my mental health significantly. I'm still in that place and I'm trying to find my way out. I liked that this video gave me a reason to really think about the significance of how my younger years defines my current struggles.

[@aliasofanalias7448]

The suffering episode is more particularly about the suffering of the ego. I think the green man is the Freudian concept of ego, the guards represent the superego keeping the ego in check and the orange man is the ID. The ego is dying over and over again because it isn't letting go. The prison represents the mental prison your ego keeps you in and he breaks out when he stops obsessing about the suffering of the universe, the guards let him out when he plays the spoons because it showed he was no longer suffering, then he sheds his ego and joins the net of consciousness (Indra's net). No more prison, no more ID, no more ego, no more suffering, just conscious existence. This is just my understanding though and I may have it wrong as you could say it wouldn't explain the orange man killing the guard.

[@KMF451]

Absolutely one of my favorite shows and thankfully I found this channel as well. Amazing retrospective on what this show is. Keep up the good work dude and I hope to see more of your videos soon.

[@freakface1234]

Don't get me wrong here, with what I'm about to write. But as someone who has watched this entire series many times, there's far more deeper lessons to behold. Episode 3 is by far my favorite episode. Damien Echols is an interesting person, and I highly recommend checking out his books. To write off the episode as just, paying attention and being present, doesn't do the episode justice. Being present is an overarching theme throughout the whole show. One can take Clancy's neglect of the simulator as one such lesson of not being present. Clancy is too obsessed with getting ice cream for Daniel Hoops so he ignores all the cries for maintenance and just wants to do what he wants. Off in lala land, not being present. I love that you made a video for this series, hell I wish I had the time and effort that you had for this. I know this was made almost 2 years ago and hey who knows how you perceive the show now. Life only ends when your done with it, this video serves as a great stepping stone for how your mindset once was in the past. Thank you for making this video on The Midnight Gospel, regardless of the difference in our perceptions, it's still a great video!

[@SparktheYoshi]

the thing that always hit me hardest with this show was the mantra "be present" stop running from your problems, spend time with the people you love even if it hurts or you have reasons why you don't visit them often (family drama, past trauma, etc) none of our time on this planet is given to us freely and we may never know if tomorrow is actually tomorrow for us

[@nathandoris4097]

After bed rotting and searching for meaning in life, years of trauma and wanting the world to just stop, I realize this whole time I’ve just been in search to understand “what was I meant for?”. I can sit here and spew beliefs about the meaning of life, but at the moment, no one necessarily knows that answer. Life goes on around you regardless of whether or not you decide to be a part of it. Anything in excess can lead to obsession and a loss of your identity, including pondering controversial topics like discussed in the show. Introspection is great, and it can help give you a more educated outlook, but people for some reason still require human connection. That’s why I related to this show a little too much, you see what happens when you don’t balance yourself with the present. I’ve learned that “meaning” something is subjective, you’re never going to get a straight answer regardless of how many people you talk to. It’s up to you to reflect, interpret, and use the knowledge you hold in any way you find personal meaning. I’m tired of sitting and ruminating on what lessons I’ve learned from my past, I want to use the present to make for a better tomorrow.

[@madisons2117]

My grandfather was my best friend when I was 5. I would sit on his lap and just talk with him all day, though I cant remember the conversations. He let me drink his special pop, I was the only one allowed to sit with him in his shop while he worked and he never got annoyed by my annoying questions. then I went back to my moms house for two weeks. When I came back everyone was sad, my dad kept going off to talk to my grandmother until I finally followed and overheard him asking her how he was supposed to tell me something like that. She noticed me and told him that it was now or never. He looked so sad, so hurt, like he wanted to scream and rage but instead he bent down to my level and told me. Then my dad waited, he was scared. I didn't cry though. I guess I didn't quite get it then. I didnt sleep that night, and the ones after werent much better. Life got a lot harder without him there to help. No one else ever had the answers like he did, no one had half the patience either. It's been 23 years and he is still fresh in my mind. the sounds, the smells, the feeling of sitting on his lap and drinking faygo red pop with him. I don't think I've ever truly been myself than the way I was with my grandfather.

[@DieboldTSZ]

After my first daughter passed away i went to a friend He say me down on his couch Gave me 14 grams of mushrooms Put this show on And said just watch this Ill be back I watched the whole entire show He came back i cried We talked And after that i was better it was the most profound experience this show spoke everything i needed to hear and i was at such a heightened state that i HAD to receive it I will forever love this amazing show it did a lot for me

[@trustyenriquez]

Thank you for making this video Fil. I’ve watched this show a few times and I never really understood it until after watching this video. Wishing you the best brother! 🙏 Knowing we’re all gonna die one day gives so much more value to the time we do have being alive.

[@dullxdaggers]

watching because i saw your youtube community post about it, these are my favorite types of vids from you

[@uroboros_8563]

This show is criminally underrated.

[@XcapSupa]

this is such a great video. It deserves more views. And this channel deserves more.

[@virtueofabsolution7641]

15:00 this isn’t “abandoning hope” so much as it is acceptance and it’s a concept from the Five Rings where it talks about being caught in the rain and instead of running to escape it understanding that you are already wet anyway so why bother? Just accept being wet and learn to enjoy new experiences.

[@PhilMeachem]

Great breakdown and video essay on a show that tries to explore the meaning of life and death. Good job 👍

[@1coffeeplease.825]

when i watched midnight gospel second time, i didnt watch animation just to be more focused on talking. i recommend it

[@mariya1748]

Thank you for being vulnerable, this video was magical. It helped me a lot to understand the main themes of the tv show

[@rolloooo]

this video helped me a lot with the things im dealing with right now ! thank you so much for your effort in creating this piece of artwork ^-^

[@avery3741]

You are truly a beautiful soul. Thank you for your willingness to be vulnerable. On the internet of all places! That takes courage. I love Duncan. Will have to watch this show.

[@JoeGess]

Episode 3 and 5 always resonated with me. Every single rewatch I picked up on something new. What a great show.

[@kiki___.]

i binged the show whilst tripping on shrooms with my best friend and its safe to say, and it changed our whole perspective on life an brought us closer together.

[@nco6893]

this video is ridiculously good, we need more content that shows fil tho, the last scene is so fucking good

[@FilGelabert]

Appreciate the love, I'll show my face more next time to keep y'all happy lol

[@menosproblemos6993]

I'd guess the basics of the bird's definition á Buddhist Meditation is that you yourself is still, while paying attention to change. (you don't have to follow every every drop of rain to enjoy the rainbow -kinda thing) The rest I think is thoughts about the concept of nature in general. Nature's changing. It contain emptiness (I myself think that there is no emptiness, but there's stuff we're not noticing) "The dream of your life" seems like a metafor. Waking up from that dream could well be just another stage of existence .. Kinda like coming back to your view of the chess board after being in thought of a move to make, and then leaving the chess game, and leaving your house, and meeting another person, and spacing out together etc. etc. etc. "Layer on layer" of "Realities". I DID once take a break in where I was going, to give myself a little intermingle for if I'm shown my life flash before my eyes when I die - I thought to myself: "So now you've died. The teenage years was a bit rough, but it turned out fine. I hope you have a good rest of your continued life. And so do I ^^" ...Giving myself a "I forgot I left a dollar in my winter jacket pocket. Thanks me!" ..But my favourite self surprise so far is waking up hung over and realizing that drunk me left me a gift of a full bottle of water, so I wouldn't have to lay thirsty. I

[@FoolishFal]

After watching the last episode, I cried harder than I ever had at any show, game, or moment from a Virtual view. After crying my first thought was to hug and see my parents just because I waste so much time without them

[@jamesklark6562]

12:55 the way I interpreted this was to sit with the fact that the universe and our understanding of it is fluid rather than static, and in sitting with this concept that static understanding (the dream) starts to erode away opening you up to an ever evolving model of reality and an understanding that you're not in control of it but you are in control of how you traverse and react to it.

[@JoseSerrato0420]

Great video, and did not expect to hear Sober to Death at the end. 💓💕💔

[@IsThereAnyMore]

I absolutely loved this show, and this video. Awesome!

[@FilGelabert]

Glad you enjoyed it man

[@menosproblemos6993]

You get used to not having the person around anymore, when they die. When they where alive you didn't always hang out. And you still don't when they've died - More of that. The lack of them is filled with more of the rest of your life. Grieving I think is kinda like defogging a window, so you can see what's on the outside (of yourself) again. I had the thought that my mother (who's alive) might have been dead for an hour. I've lived a good life during that hour, watching this good video (among other things). Death in itself isn't that big of a deal. I think the pain is to want to meet someone but you're not able to - Again and again and again and you slowly get used to it. I'm super curious what it's like to die though. Though I might as well live my life until then. Because life is random interesting as well. X D

[@sadpapertowel1504]

at 4:00 when you said the last time you got angry was cause your roomates cant keep clean an a place you pay way too much for, that's exactly what i was relating to when i watched this episode and felt that to the max lol

[@_Tipic]

You know, you made me feel a little better. Thank you.

[@xpeng190]

I binged watched this show on 220ug LSD and it was the best thing ever. They tackled a lot a major subjects. I’d recommend it forsure.

[@yolobird7707]

This was a great video, thanks for posting.

[@heyfreakazoid8175]

This show was a huge game changer in life honestly. My dad actually passed a bit after i finished the show and I wanna rewatch it so bad, but I know I’m gonna bawl my eyes out and idk if I’m ready for that again

[@royhamuy]

Just watched it now Fil. The video made me connect with you on a different level. I didn't know this show but now I might give a try. Thank you

[@yahirlo6313]

Yo Fil the vids are getting better and better they are really good!!!

[@hollyk7052]

I’d like to rewatch since being diagnosed w ocd and doing the work, so much of my world was limited by avoidance!!!

[@zrakonthekrakon494]

The animation is what makes this show, the combined pallet is the experience, it’s not just the dialogue

[@jamesharris3988]

May have to rewatch this series, love the video- nice and zen

[@nargen5419]

I loved watching this stoned. It was so weird and calm. Its a real shame that it ended.

[@nathanaelashnonmusic2615]

To become what you are, you must come out of what you are not. Be still and enjoy this moment. You never know when it's going to end.

[@fwfbreal]

Wow this video was really deep, i think this is now my favourite video by you and will be for a long time

[@FilGelabert]

Yeah, felt personal for sure to make this.

[@Rose-ef2cm]

I absolutely lost it when I realized Death was Caitlyn. I LOVE her KZbin channel so much, been a huge fan for many years now. I could not be happier with this casting choice.

[@randomname5580]

Real og’s know that this is a reupload

[@FilGelabert]

#balconylife

[@phage_x]

@@FilGelabert 😂

[@neshaunfoster3160]

This show was such a bizarre timing of episodes for me. I was in the midst of seeing two women and I would watch this show at their places. One, she would sleep through most of the night and the one time she woke up, it was a episode like halfway through the season that was just wild and very different than the rest of the episodes. She thought I was a complete weirdo for watching it when out of context she woke up to see what was happening on screen. Then I’m at the other woman’s house and we’re laying around watching this, mind you, she just recently lost her grandfather like a week or two before and we watched the episode in which he’s having final conversation with his mom towards the end of the season. And she starts crying as the show is hitting her as the themes resonate. I just found it so wild to this day, that one person saw me watching this and thought I was a loon. And the other got something cathartic from it. Loved the show though. Universe works in mysterious ways.

[@gknip0]

Lovely topic and video, all around perfect.

[@sirebendle7312]

Fil you better have a million subs by tomorrow these vids are so cool

[@miab-p6874]

20:32, lucky. I'm 19 and I already have 4 people who are dead in my family, including a brother who I didn't get to know. Even though I'm surrounded by death, I'm not sure I've accepted it, since thinking of dying still makes me feel sad and I'm not indifferent to death. I don't want to die, is that a symptom of not accepting death? It's just that I don't "don't mind" death, I can't not care. Acceptance seems to mean you are ok with it and it doesn't bother you at all, like "eh whatever, I don't mind". Am I intellectually/spiritually "inferior" for not being indifferent to death? For not being indifferent to life like Dr. Manhattan? For caring about all that I have right now? No matter how much I cry and process my feelings, I don't feel like things have changed. I'm not ok with my death. How can I be ok with it and not mind? I remember when I was 4, telling my dad I didn't want to grow up because that meant I would grow old and die. I already thought of these existential questions at the age of 4, I'm not lying, I'm being very serious, so I'm familiar with these sorts of questions. It surprises me to see that people only start asking them as teens, or how kids don't even think about death, and that people see it as something so distant that it's like it will never happen. I never saw it as distant, I always thought of it as quite close. Maybe that's why I'm afraid? Am I wrong to feel like this? P.S. I'm an atheist, so I don't believe in esoteric stuff or theological beliefs.

[@weeOstrich]

I think people rarely start questioning death until they have someone close to them die. I have friends who have never even considered it and are late into their twenties. I wouldn't say that acceptance of death is the same thing as indifference, it's just realising that it is inevitable and being alive constantly scared of dying won't make Your life any better. If You do not find peace in religion it might be a good idea to read into stoicism. For example the Meditations of Marcus Aurelius can show a very accepting, calm view on everything that happens to us. One of the thoughts i really like is this one: M. Aur. Med. 4.49. I won't paste the whole thing but it is really easy to google it.

[@FilGelabert]

No one is indifferent towards death, it's still a scary thing. It's something we don't control so it can be scary, definitely doesn't make you intellectually or spiritually 'inferior' by any means.

[@crystalplanet4377]

the car seat headrest at the end of this video really made it

[@nahyar]

Awesome video, man. Really enjoyed the review

[@fieldingjames6808]

That was amazing dude. Felt I was there with you

[@rezennO]

We are blessed to see this man on the grind🤩

[@FilGelabert]

Trying to 😂

[@llLastll01]

I’ve struggled with my mental for so long, and this thought occurs to me While watching this around 25:00 min mark, that I’ve been preparing myself mentally for my own death for basically my whole life. Some days I even have asked for it. I don’t think I struggle with the dread of inevitably dying like most people do. It’s a part of life and a welcome one. My largest struggle with death has been with the suffering of life, and the suffering of losing loved ones in my lifetime who I never expected to die. I guess It’s a lesson to all of us. It’s the meaning of life. To accept death’s warm embrace

[@maribsuarez]

8:45 Let it be known the end skit for this episode is the funniest, as the character speaks about attaining feats of great magic and miracle, then ascends to this king kong-ified version of himself... all to beat up his old friend whose wife he slept with. Like the priorities make this character really funny by the end of the episode.

[@oahupuppy6903]

I think I'm in the midst of a mental breakdown so I think adding a little spice (existential crisis) to the mix by watching the midnight gospel the first time will really make things interesting!!!

[@oahupuppy6903]

i dont even remember writing this haha. I'm doing better now, but I think I'll give this show a watch anyway. i hate when people say "you'll understand when you're older," because what they really mean is "you'll understand when you've experienced what I have." her death destroyed me for weeks. months. i understood death before but I hadn't experienced it so close. it was made real while everything felt unreal. when you experience a death, you have so much emotion and feeling and memory and thought and you don't know what to do with it all, but there's nothing you CAN do with it all. you have to sit with it. you have to care for it. you have to care for yourself quietly, and sometimes loudly, but always care. never stop caring. i cried watching this, but it's different now than it was a few weeks ago. it's tears of true empathy, because after so many years on this earth I finally understand this truth now, as everyone must eventually. it's ok to cry. it's good to cry. don't hold it back. let it go when you need to, take care of yourself, and you'll be ok. the only way out of the dark is to sit through the night and wait for dawn. it's a beautiful Misty morning when it comes.

[@rojoajax4441]

Well done. Just really well done

[@leonardoislas3756]

Hearing car seat at the end made it perfect

[@colleenflower333]

This was very well done