The Road To Happiness: Overcoming Depression And Living My Dream Life

[@thetomwardshow]

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[@thetomwardshow]

Did you like this solo video? If so, what else would you like me to talk about. Let's make the next one a little lighter.

[@tjofa]

Love the vulnerability and learning who is behind this brilliant mind! Thank you for sharing!

[@ladyannik]

Tom, thank you for being real. You talking unscripted may feel strange to you at the moment but know that a lot of us need to hear the raw truth. Know you’re helping someone take that one step forward they might not been able to before now because of your words. Don’t stop being you.

[@camachito510]

im only 2 mins in and already relate to this video on a bunch of levels. thank you for sharing tom

[@slartibartfast6723]

Love it. I’m here for your personality. Keep ‘em coming!

[@JULIANA-rb2hp]

I haven’t finished your video yet so I’m not sure if you touch on this, but what advice would you give someone with a partner or a friend who is struggling with depression?

[@jackiehawkins5480]

Hey Tom - thank you for promoting medication & therapy!!

[@thetomwardshow]

I worked for me, so that's just my experience and I wanted to share it.

[@emylou815]

This was one of my favourite videos from you! Its valuable to hear about your experience. I think you have a gift for storytelling even more than interviewing!

[@thetomwardshow]

Wow! Thanks Emy, I never considered myself as much of a storyteller. So, thank you!

[@carrielynch177]

I’m 46 and I know what you mean about no one talked about it. I too struggled and at 18 had a suicide attempt. Thank god I made it. Thanks for sharing.

[@thetomwardshow]

I'm glad you're still here!

[@mcadams518]

Me too. Now I'm 55 i had several more after marriage and kids. And the shame never leaves for very long. Like how could I do that?!

[@daniellesevolution]

Everyone like 👍🏼 this video! Let’s push Tom’s story to the world 🥹

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for the boost!

[@LizLaenger]

I already did before you mentioned it. It truly was something I could absorb/ needed to absorb. Grateful that he shared. Most people don’t have that kind of support. That’s ok. This is support too.

[@lucyportia4811]

Thanks for being so vulnerable with us Tom!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks Lucy for watching!

[@DigitalCheezBrgr]

I feel for you on this one, Tom. I struggled with serious depression as well.

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, it's no fun. A lot of people have asked me about my story so this is for them. If it helps one person, then it's worth it.

[@sheshenq]

I was so captivated by this video. You really are a great storyteller, Tom!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thx so much!

[@mudkipmillie5216]

Depression is the worst thing I have ever been through, glad we’re both here. ❤️

[@mudkipmillie5216]

Also now that I’m further in, medication saves lives ❤️ love your positive message

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks. I'm glad you're here too! @@mudkipmillie5216

[@Daisy43612]

Wow, congratulations on recovery. Your wife is a rockstar and I’m sure an amazing person. I hope winter is kind on you this year and the years to come. Thank you for sharing Tom!

[@thetomwardshow]

10 year anniversary tomorrow. She’s the best thing that ever happened to me

[@Undeaddopehead]

Depression is no joke and it sucks to deal with. I'm glad your dad did that cause he likely saved you. Sounds like a great dad to me.

[@thetomwardshow]

For sure! He dropped everything and drove across the country to rescue me.

[@Undeaddopehead]

@@thetomwardshow I'm with you on not ever wanting my kids to have my mental health problems but if they do I'd like to think I'd be like your dad. Amazing story Tom thank you!

[@NoraSalas]

Saw the title and instantly clicked. I need this video today. Thanks.

[@thetomwardshow]

I hope it helps Nora. It does get better. Trust me.

[@NoraSalas]

It really did. I’m in the waiting room of psychiatrist office right now lol. Adjusting medications takes so much patience.

[@thetomwardshow]

Good luck! And be patient. I know it's easier said than done. It took me years to get the right blend of meds. @@NoraSalas

[@ligers424]

Thank you for putting this out there. I live with bipolar disorder and when I was young I felt so alone, isolated, and like no one could ever understand what I was going through. I did make an attempt on my life at that time. But we all deserve help and there's so many people going through mental health issues we are not alone. I love talking about it now and helping others as much as possible treatment and finding yourself is possible we are all worth it!

[@thetomwardshow]

Well thank you for sharing your story! How is your mental health going now? Better?

[@ligers424]

@@thetomwardshow Much better! It is an ongoing struggle but I've come such a long way and been on such a journey I know for certain I can get through anything and I will be ok. Just started new meds that are doing wonders for me after a particularly hard month of rapid cycling but ready to keep living my best life and only strive to get even better

[@JoyJoy-pj4jf]

@@ligers424u took medication from which year and are u still taking it?? How is it?? How old are u now?? U took therapy??

[@sav2040]

My mother is in her late 40s and said that no one ever talked about mental illness and because of that she made sure to communicate stuff to me while I was growing up so I was lucky that when I struggled with depression and ocd heavily at 23 I knew a lot about it and didn’t have the stigma around it and had knowledge on it. The road is never ending with mental illness but luckily tools are becoming more accessible

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, I'm glad things are so much more open and people are accepting of mental illness and want to help others get better.

[@Tyfarns]

I relate heavy to ur story. Depression turned my 20's into groundhog day essentially. Doing a lot better now and grateful for everyday

[@thetomwardshow]

I'm glad you pulled out of it. I completely wasted my 20s too. But if there's a message in this, it's that it can get better if you have the tools and put in the work. And it doesn't happen overnight. But it can get better!

[@marrec92]

You’re so real for this Tom!! ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks. If it helps just one person, then it's worth it.

[@jessem737]

Happy you're still here with us Tom. Dr. Drew would be an interesting guest to have on the show.

[@thetomwardshow]

Good call!

[@worldprincess5531]

27:45 When I feel numb I get sick days from work, as many as I need (I'm not from the US) Some people give me shit for it, calling me lazy or accusing me of taking advantage of the system. I used to believe them and feel worse about myself (on top of already feeling less than shit) Now I appreciate my self awareness and take my time to feel better first and go back to work later.

[@thetomwardshow]

You've got to take care of youself first, That's the most important.

[@worldprincess5531]

32:27 It has taken me YEARS just to start living my life. I never thought I'd be able to enjoy taking basic care of myself. It started with brushing my teeth at night. Some days I could, some I couldn't. Stretching on the bed because I didn't have the energy to get up. Going on short walks. Getting a dog boosted my recovery so much, because I wanted to take him for a walk for his sake, not mine... Today I enjoy getting regular showers, taking care of my hair, doing my nails, going to the gym... I'm so proud of myself for going to the dentist. Small, normal things for regular folks, huge deals for me. I still get depressed sometimes but after years I can say I'm finally living my life, on my terms. Thanks for the vid!

[@thetomwardshow]

Congrats! And I completely relate. When I'm super depressed even the most basic tasks seem monumental.

[@SanKissJuice]

Were you able to work?

[@roldyclark]

Lost my sister to mental health issues last year. Thank you for sharing your story Tom.

[@roldyclark]

also shout out South Jersey!

[@thetomwardshow]

I'm sorry for your loss. Mental health issues affect all of us, even if we're not experiencing them ourselves.

[@undamaged-destiny]

This video is so relatable. Depression and suicide is one of the hardest things to overcome. I’m struggled with it since I was 11. Music was like my only light at the time. So cool u had a job at a venue. I bet u have seen soo many cool bands. I feel like I hit rock bottom so many times and came so close to losing my life and I would somehow snap and just slowly dig myself out of it. Like death and rebirth of myself. I was my worst enemy. I started working out back in 2016 for the first time. Lost 80 lbs in less than a year and I literally just listened to Britney Spears like I did as a kid. She was like my Kanye. Lol Her song “Stronger” literally would have me working out in tears but I did it, then I found my boyfriend and I have been so happy and blessed. Never thought I would be this happy in life. I have been in a little funk lately after my knee surgery but even just hearing your story reminds me that I will pull through. Everything will be ok. 💕 love ya Tom. Great video! ☮️

[@thetomwardshow]

You're making me start to cry. I'm glad you lost the weight. Getting healthy physically will actually help your mental health to. It's just one of those tools that we have to keep our mind in the right space. How are you doing now?

[@undamaged-destiny]

@@thetomwardshow aww you are a gem Tom. Thanks so much for sharing your story. I know that sort of thing is never easy to talk about. It really does help. Sometimes I felt just useless but giving myself things to do like work out, hobbies, taking care of something like a child or a pet, even cleaning or cooking can even be so therapeutic. I’m doing great! Like u said, I have my moments. You get in your head and it can get bad but I just voice it to my boyfriend or a family member and they help! Hobbies help! My cats! Lol 💕 life is beautiful! So glad we are both hear today! We made it. Never let go of your dreams. Also you gotta make a video on music! Favorite bands or type any concert stories? 😄😄 would LOVE that.

[@mildred1741]

Thanks for sharing your story, Tom. I also like to bask in the glow of my light therapy lamp for hours 😅

[@thetomwardshow]

Haha. Glad, I'm not the only one. I keep that thing cranked at 10 and leave it on for hours too!

[@emma40405]

Thank you for sharing this story with us Tom. It's great to get to know you more, not to mention it's really inspirational to hear it does get better. Thank you 💖

[@devkeith]

Dude… it’s uncanny how every detail was everything I’ve gone through. Thank you so so so so much for talking about this.

[@thetomwardshow]

Wow. Sorry to hear you’ve been through the ringer too. How u doing now?

[@devkeith]

@@thetomwardshow great!! My spouse is amazing and super supportive, and I’ve finally got on the right meds. Definitely takes a while to get the right meds figured out. But 1000% worth it.

[@derschredderer2284]

Of course we're still here!!! Thank you for sharing ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

You guys are the best!

[@troglodyteape7295]

We're all supporting you Tom, Tomily.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks! You guys are the best!

[@blakeanderson5011]

I was already rooting for you but now… I’m absolutely on your side. This video shows so much brutal honesty and acknowledgment about your struggle. I like to live my life with the virtue of honesty being first and foremost. It helped me out of very dark times that I could absolutely relate to. I have bipolar II and I spent damn near all of my 20’s living in a similar fog to yours. I’m almost 30 and I’ve spent the last couple of years being afraid/embarrassed to TRY. I’m in the process of overcoming that right now. You’re an inspiration Tom, I sincerely mean it when I say I hope the best for you.

[@mandi4794]

I loved this one. So glad you're still with us and we get to share in your journey!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks Mandi!

[@Dontbestingymark]

THIS this is why I’m watching

[@Topota_Madre_]

Stop yelling at Sooooniiiiic!!!!!!

[@kell.r7524]

Thank you Tom… a good friend of mine has Bipolar, and he was tragically a victim to self harm. He survived, but will never been the same. My heart goes out to all of the mothers and daughters who’s loved one must balance this volatile illness. My uncle had Bipolar. He passed away this year; because he refused medication for so much of his youth, his relationship with my family was so tragically strained. My girlfriend had bipolar too… she has mostly happy days. But sometimes she goes into manic episodes… it fills me with so much worry and anticipation. But the people around her all bring her back to the ground. Support systems are crucial. And equally so is awareness. Thank you for being so honest with us… I’m sure everyone appreciates it a lot.

[@thetomwardshow]

Wow, seems like you’ve been surrounded by a lot. One thing I forgot to talk about was having a support group. Ur so right. It’s so important

[@PixelPenguin87212]

Notification squad here 😎

[@thetomwardshow]

That's great you guys are getting notifications!

[@CarsonGreeno]

You are so captivating! How do you not get more views?!?!

[@obi234]

Tom, you are a treasure. Thank you for opening up like this; hopefully it was good for you to talk about it, because it sure is great to hear about how people overcame their struggles like you have.. Much love, keep staying strong!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks!

[@lissaw4]

I love these videos from you, Tom! I, too, have suffered from severe depression, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorders, self-harm, multiple suicide attempts, and got into a little bit of legal trouble in my earlier life. I've also lost several loved ones to suicide, have many loved ones that struggle with addiction, and lost many to addiction. I had an extremely violent, abusive, and traumatic childhood - I'm also a survivor of CS trafficking. I was finally removed from that environment by CPS when I was almost 16. Once I was finally in a safe and more stable place... my mental health and severe PTSD just spiraled absolutely out of control. I was unable to function at all, due to constant flashbacks and all the other PTSD symptoms. Which, of course, only makes the depression and anxiety even worse. The medications that I was on, worked in the sense that I at least stayed alive for that day (sometimes, that's the best that can be done, while you work towards healing.) The only thing that stopped me from continuing attempts and ending everything, was the guilt over having people find me and completely fucking them up mentally for life, too. The week after my 18th birthday, I decided to enter a therapeutic residential group home that specialized in DBT and stayed until my 19th birthday. That decision genuinely saved my life - I wasn't magically fixed and still greatly struggled daily, but it gave me the reliable and safe support system that I desperately needed to move forward in getting healthy. It also opened up a variety of other treatments and programs that could help me succeed. I then entered a small program that organization had, which focused on individualized needs for transitional age adults living in their own apartments/homes, until I was 25. This program gave me an amazing therapist (you could see once or twice a week, depending on your needs), a psychiatrist, different groups you could attend, you would go do things with staff members up to a few times a week (like get coffee, have lunch or dinner, run errands, go to the movies, or an activity that you were interested in - which is immensely helpful when you feel alone/without healthy support, struggling to get out of the house, or never really had healthy relationships around you), they celebrated holidays and big events, etc. These 2 programs helped to save my life. For the rest of my adult life, I've continued to go to weekly therapy, see a psychiatrist for medication, and use light therapy. I still struggle throughout the year, but life is 180° from what it once was. It's so difficult to find a great therapist, the right of therapy, the right kind of medication, and work with your evolving needs... but it's 100% worth it. I just wish there are more individualized therapeutic programs for people to easily access. Your story is important to share and will help others - even without you ever knowing. We need to continue to normalize that humans just go through immense struggles at times. As well as, having a healthy life often requires lifelong support and work. I, personally, believe everyone could benefit from therapy; no matter what you've been through. Much love to you and your family, Tom. Keep up all the amazing work in life and career. ❤

[@lissaw4]

Also, as someone originally from South Jersey, I knew I recognized some Jersey in your personality lol.

[@thetomwardshow]

Lisa that is an incredible story. You've had a lot to overcome and it's amazing to see that you've come out the other side. You're an inspiration.

[@Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa369]

Holy shit what a story! Really was not expecting this video but I really appreciated how open you are with all of this!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for watching it!

[@doomgrim99]

I've had a very similar path in my life. From Illinois too. Still struggling. Thanks for the video, it helps to know I'm not the only one.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks Ryan. And hang in there. I hope things get better soon!

[@Spoove626]

Hell yeah tom I recently got diagnosed with depression and It’s been hard to deal with so it’s good to hear your story

[@thetomwardshow]

Sorry to hear about that, It's not fun. But it does get better, trust me. As long as you're putting in the work, it will get better.

[@stevnated]

Thank you for sharing. I have suffered from depression since I was a child. I'm now 55 and I've never been able to get out from under it completely. It's a huge waste of your life. Please don't procrastinate in getting help.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for sharing. I always thing of the number of hours of my life that I've just played in bed, depressed, unable to do anything.

[@zach.0]

I'd love to see Tom talk to Dr. K.

[@thetomwardshow]

I actually reached out to him a couple of months ago. It wasn't a good time for them then but I should try them again.

[@zach.0]

@@thetomwardshow I really appreciate this video and I can relate a lot to it. I've been depressed for most of my adult life. And I just don't really want to do anything. And one of the worst things about a total lack of motivation is it prevents any actions that would help itself. I get hugely stressed out by just thinking about doctors or insurance or telling someone about my issues. Thank you so much for being so open, you're a very cool dude.

[@SaveKenneth]

Rehabcrew checking in. Nothing like a good trip in the mental hospital, the socks are worth it!

[@thetomwardshow]

Haha. That's funny. Only people who've been there can laugh at this.

[@catharinel07]

Tom, THANK YOU! For your vulnerability and honesty. I can truly relate. I had my first bout of seasonal depression a few winters ago and it hit me like a ton of bricks. It's so nice to hear someone speak so openly and freely. There's nothing worse when you're in the thick of it than hearing "It all gets better! Go take a walk!" It's a lifelong battle but hearing your story is so up lifting.

[@thetomwardshow]

Haha. That's the worst. Like, go take a walk. Go workout. You'll feel better. Haha! It's like I can't even manage to brush my teeth, so how am I gonna do that?! Haha. So funny,

[@Topota_Madre_]

Damn it Tom! I kept choking up the entire video. All I’m going to say is you’re truly inspiring and gave me a push too keep working with my Dr. in trying to figure out my broken brain. TOMILY!!!!!!

[@thetomwardshow]

Hopefully it helped you a little bit! And good luck on your journey.

[@curtisisaverage8817]

I feel you Tom. For years I was battling my depression with anything possible including meds but nothing was working. But after my life just started going further down hill than ever before I went to the doctor again and finally got diagnosed with bipolar depression and now that I’m medicated I can really tell the difference. Love watching you man and glad I can relate to someone else :)

[@thetomwardshow]

Curtis glad you're doing well. Yeah, I just think bipolar depression was something that just wasn't talked about a lot, so a lot of people were misdiagnosed:(

[@mitye9899]

i loved this episode. you solo is super entertaining! i would love talks about fatherhood / things like that. also, would love to see a harry mack interview

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks! This was kind of a dark topic and a solo one so wasn't sure it would do well.

[@ElizabethBiddell]

Going through a really bad depression right now. Trying different meds and got a therapist appointment soon. Thank you so much for your story. Really needed this today 🙏❤️

[@KitKat24235]

Thank for sharing your story! I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for a while now and this reminded me that I’m not alone in the way I feel and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

[@thetomwardshow]

There are lots of people like us out there. And there is a light, I'm telling you. No matter how dark it gets, it will get better if you're taking the right steps.

[@lain7262]

Ive always struggled with multiple mental illnesses! I hope you’re doing better now 💕

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, it's the worst. But I've been pretty stable for a couple of years now. And that's a long stretch for me, so I'm really grateful.

[@elizabeth5193]

Tom, I am deeply touched by your story, and so impressed by your courage to be so honest about your struggle. You are an inspiration to so many others who are also suffering with depression, anxiety, and other mental health issues. Vulnerability is a strength, not a weakness that society has claimed, and you are such a great role model of the tremendous strength, perserverance and resilience that people have to heal and overcome their pain. Always wishing you happiness and peace.

[@thetomwardshow]

Elizabeth. Thanks so much for the kind words!

[@theNihilisticEngineer]

You’re kindness is infectious! I’m so impressed with how far you’ve come and your wife sounds like an actual Angel ♥️

[@thetomwardshow]

She is an angel. Best thing that ever happened to me

[@GooseAdvocate]

This was awesome. I appreciate inspiring stories that show the true nature of the struggle. Too often we get "go to the gym and you'll fix your mental illness". Thanks for your transparency, Tom!

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, I hate that. It's like I can't even manage to brush my teeth today, there is zero chance I can force myself to get to the gym. And I'm a workout fanatic.

[@Tergieloo]

I love the solo video. You’re a great personality to watch. I’m so sorry you went through all of that, I’m glad you’re still here ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks. Glad you liked it! I'm getting used to these solo one. I def will make more:)

[@ashleyroman9483]

I admire you so much for not only being able survive but to tell your story. I've been a subscriber for a few years and when I heard about the H3 situation, I went and watched it. I can't imagine how it felt for you to hear all that was said. I'm so grateful it turned out for the better and that it's led to a resurrection of your channel and your confidence, but people really should be careful what they say. Words have great power, especially to those that are going through quiet battles. My heart goes out to you and anyone who has to go through life constantly having to battle their mind. I hope tons of people hear this and can atleast take one thing from this, to be kind because you never know what someone is facing. ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Ashley thanks so much for being here for years! And for staying with me. It means the world. Thanks!

[@adisonlemmon8112]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Tom. I really relate to when you said that you can’t do shit when you’re in your lows. Hearing that is really validating because I’m always like, “Why can’t I pull myself together?” Recognizing that it’s easier to work on improving myself when I’m out of my lows really helps me too, so thank you for sharing how you experience self improvement! FAMILY ❤️

[@87holdfast]

Thank you so much for sharing. I'm sure I'll rewatch this. I have dealt with anxiety and depression my whole life. Meds helped, exercising, eating healthier, counseling, and talking to others. I'm going to look into the light therapy..... Appreciate you!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks! I hope it helped.

[@peacelovelight27]

I cried watching this entire video. It hit so hard for me. I have had depression since my teens but I somehow always tamped it down, refusing to believe that I wasn’t strong enough to beat it (plus, as you said, no one talked about depression in those days). I was able to get through law school ( although I almost had a nervous breakdown in the process), married my “high school sweetheart” ( who was in medical school to become a surgeon), I practiced law for almost 8 years (crying every morning on that same train from Marlton, NJ over the BF Bridge) and when he finished med school, we had the most amazing life - ON PAPER! And yet I was miserable. Had my kids , loved every moment of being a mom and at 50 years old, when my four boys were all finally old enough to allow us to start focusing on living our life again, my ex left us and moved into our Florida apartment with his 30 year old gf. I tell you all of this to say that all of the depression, anxiety and rage that I thought I had successfully tamped down all those years came bursting out with such ferocity that there were days I literally could not breathe. And like you, everyone around me said “If you would just _______, you will feel better”. And I would scream back “ Do you think if I could just ______, I wouldn’t do it in a second???” Anyway, I am now 61, single, all my kids are grown, happy and thriving in their careers. I have tried every anti-depression cocktail known to man and, like you, I get a short “honeymoon” period where I think it might be working and then , BAM, the depression strikes back even harder. I am presently trying Ketamine Therapy which seems like it might be working a bit. But I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story bc so many of us suffer alone in silence. We try to put on our happy face at all the right times, but that depression is like a thief in the night, stealing any progress we try so hard to attain in our waking hours. I think you would be amazed by how many people would crawl out of the woodworks to have the opportunity to discuss these issues and all of its ramifications with not only like minded people but also with anyone who could offer any hope of helping us to live a more “joyful” life ( I truly do not know if this even exists anymore). And don’t get me wrong - I am very grateful for many things I do have in my life. I have just resigned myself to being “one of the luckiest saddest people I know”. Sorry for the novella but it felt really good to let some of this out. I think that you could be great at running a channel that helps real people with their depression. You are just so relatable and likable. But no matter what you do, just know you had a positive effect on at least one 61 year old woman today. Thank you for that.

[@thetomwardshow]

Reading this made me cry. And what's with that train?! Why's everyone crying on it every morning. Haha. But seriously, I think joy is possible. It's never too late. I've been there. No medication is working, you're in a black hole that you can't escape, etc. It took me literally years to find the medications that worked for me. Just don't give up! Keep trying. It can get better. I hope it turns around quickly for you. I want to see you happy again! Good luck.

[@peacelovelight27]

@@thetomwardshow Thank you so much for your reply! It made my day! Thank you not only for being so real and relatable, but also for giving us something to look forward to every week. I LOVED your interview with Patrick Bet David. Keep doing what you do - you definitely have what it takes!! 💙🩵💙 PS: Just went to buy Time To Level Up t-shirts for my boys. Shipping was $49!!! What’s the deal with that? Where are they being shipped from? Don’t man to complain but I think they are a great concept t-shirt (Got them all the “Seek Discomfort” t-shirts) and I wanted to support you. Just wish shipping wasn’t so high. Oh well!

[@artheaux666]

Tom you are amazing. This was brave of you to share

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for watching!

[@jesboyett5183]

Hey Tom, thanks so much for this video! I experience bipolar 2 in a very similar way (exhausting depression with spells of agitation instead of hypomania) & it was really validating & encouraging to hear your story.

[@thetomwardshow]

I'm glad it helped. I know when I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I couldn't find like any videos talking about it.

[@rollinstrummin]

Thank you for sharing, Tom!! This is a very relatable story that happens to so many people of all walks of life. I know that this will be helping some folks that really need it. FAMILY

[@thetomwardshow]

That's the goal. If it can help a couple of people, then it's worth it.

[@mollago]

My new favorite part of the H3 podcast, since I've become a member, is Tom which is why I'm here. Great stories and lessons you talk about. I can see myself benefitting from what you talk about and I thank you for that :)

[@juliank3534]

Tom i really like this solo video. I would watch more ones. Peace and love.

[@megankeathley6382]

Leave an honest review, guys! Smash that like button! ❤

[@chetzar]

So cool of you to talk about this. More people should be this candid about their mental health.

[@thetomwardshow]

Candid or insane for sharing all this?! Haha.

[@chetzar]

Haha but seriously I guarantee you have made a difference for some people with this video. Great job @@thetomwardshow

[@hyunaglazer]

Listening to it right now and i appreciate how direct you are Tom, gonna be watching the rest now!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for watching! It has a happy ending:)

[@hyunaglazer]

​@@thetomwardshowexcited to see it through then!! Though u mentioned getting hit w depression during fall-winter season, I totally understand it and I'm wishing you the best of luck since we're coming up soon 😭!

[@BirdsRNotReel]

I appreciate your candidness in this video. Can't wait to see what comes next! Thanks Tom.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for your support!

[@Stirlingggg]

felt this so hard! I'm finishing my MA but it seems like every week something else emerges that gets me down. I'm up to 1 month each therapy appointment it's too expensive but I'm just trying to survive until I submit!

[@thetomwardshow]

Hang in there. Have you tried some of the online therapy places? I've heard good things about a couple of them. Still not cheap but more reasonable.

[@aspirationalbum1982]

thank you for telling us your story... we love you even more now and are more invested in your success! we love you bald king

[@thetomwardshow]

Haha. Thanks for the kind words

[@meheritasenorita1124]

Even though I like listening to your podcasts, there is something about this content that I love. You have a great way with story telling and hitting the details and without losing attention. You’re life/depression story is sad and raw but also inspiring. I’m 24 and feel like i’m so behind compared to everyone and don’t have my life together at all. But seeing you today chasing your dreams with a beautiful life and family really is inspiring. Thanks for being vulnerable with us! Keep pushing with the podcast content Tom, you’re def on the right path to find your niche!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks so much for the kind words. And good luck on your journey and don't worry about not being where you want to be. Life isn't short, it's actually long. The average life expectancy in the US is around 78 years old. So, you've got time. I didn't get sober until I was 27.I didn't really start a career until 29. I didn't start podcasting until I was 38. So, you got plenty of time to figure it out. Good luck!

[@inicity5009]

feel you bro

[@andd124]

This is my favorite tom episode . i watched the whole thing . tom you're a great story teller and i hope all the best for you.

[@thetomwardshow]

Wow. Thanks. That means a lot.

[@emilyhardage3996]

You're a great story teller Tom and your hard work is admiral. Loved the solo episode!

[@Nintendrugs]

THANK YOU for sharing this Tom, it's been a rough couple days so there's tremendous hope in hearing this kind of stories and knowing things can and will get better. Looking up to you so much, keep believing too!

[@thetomwardshow]

Keep putting in the work when you can and slowly things will eventually start to get better.

[@pistachiopistachio3822]

Thanks for sharing this. I also have bipolar 2 and went through a similar situation with meds-- great job advocating for yourself w/ the psychiatrist 👍

[@thetomwardshow]

You stable now? When I finally figured out the right meds and dosage I was stable to the first time in my life.

[@babyscorpio7496]

WOM, YOU ARE WORTH IT.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks baby!

[@stinkybac0n10]

Tom I relate to you so much. Thank you for sharing your story. It helps to know others go through so much and came out the other end well adjusted.

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, this video isn't about me. It's just a way to show people going through it that I had some really dark movements in my life, for sometimes long stretches, and came out of it. And they can too!

[@adverseadventures]

Tom - love the honesty and vulnerability on here. I've had my own struggles, and I always appreciate hearing about peoples personal journeys. Happy you made it though the worst of it and I hope you continue to have success. Its helpful to hear about your coping mechanisms and what worked for you. Thanks for sharing, looking forward to the sobriety story

[@AlEx-xu7xy]

Thanks for sharing Tom ❤

[@trueMAXIMUS]

tom, your story nearly made me sob. i'm currently going through a lot of what you went through. it's so hard, i feel so alone and afraid and sad and tired all the time. and that makes me angry at myself, so it's a viscous cycle. you are such an inspiration. i fight so hard every day to make it through, and hearing your compassion for people like myself who are in the throes of depression really, really warmed my heart. thank you for sharing your story. you seem like a really good man.

[@thetomwardshow]

I forgot to mention how tired I get when I' m depressed. All I want to do is sleep. I'm usually a light sleeper but when I'm depressed I can go to bed at 8 and sleep till noon and wake up and still be tired. And when you're like that, you can't force yourself to do the healthy things to get out of it. Like go to the gym, taking a walk, showering and cleaning up or getting out of the house. I know exactly how you feel. Hang in there. It got better for me when I started working at it. Showing up for therapy. Trying different meds until I got it right, etc. Sorry you're in the middle of it:(

[@trueMAXIMUS]

@@thetomwardshow genuinely, thank you. i'm really trying and it hurts when people think i'm just being lazy when the reality is all my energy goes into just staying *alive*. i'll work to be better, just like you! baby steps still get us somewhere eventually, right? keep goin' at it, tom, you've got a whole community of people rooting for you!!

[@1zinn]

This was a great episode Tom. I'm a new follower, but I will say that you don't have to have a rigid show design and only interview people about business. It's good to have some curve balls every once in a while like this that doesn't make things feel too repetitive and shows how dynamic you can be

[@thetomwardshow]

Thx!

[@Eeeeeeeeeels]

You are a massive inspiration Tom! Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing your story, it shows true strength!

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for liking it!

[@sineadyoutube]

Love you, Tom! I feel like everyone has dealt with depression to some degree or another. And it’s so important that we hear each other’s stories to know we aren’t alone. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing ❤

[@kaylaranta2784]

Thank you for sharing your story Tom ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for wanting to hear it!

[@imaDUCKIE11]

As someone who has also done the work it's so hard to stress how important it is for us to dig into ourselves deeper in order to be able to pull ourself out of that hole

[@thetomwardshow]

Yeah, you really have to look at yourself in the mirror and get honest with yourself before you can begin to grow.

[@imaDUCKIE11]

@thetomwardshow so true man♡♡ I understand that we alm have our journey to get there but I too wish I could say or do the right thing to make others not only see it but feel and understand it

[@rochellesweet4775]

Thank you for sharing

[@maxcrumpler-haynes9628]

Tom! This video was awesome. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I related to so much of your journey, I'm currently working to overcome my own battle with depression and addiction so I can follow my dreams. Seeing you pursue your dreams is an inspiration! With all of this experience with mental health and addiction I was wondering if you'd consider incorporating more questions about those topics into your interviews? I'm sure there are tons of successful people who have struggled with mental health and addiction, and I would love to hear about those experiences. I feel like those types of conversations are so much better when the interviewer actually has experienced those struggles themselves, mental health is such an epidemic right now that I think there is a real avenue there!

[@thetomwardshow]

Max. You're right. I bet most people I sit down with have experienced at least depression at some point of their life. It's a good idea to start weaving some of that into our conversations. And good luck with your mental health journey. It ain't easy,. Trust me I know. But it does get better if you work at it.

[@justKayla-]

thank you so so much for sharing - this means so much to someone who is so very stuck in that survival mode. Our stories are similar, and I really needed to hear this right now. I have my professional team and im putting in the work, but wow it is incredibly hard. Thank you for reminding me there is hope and there can be a future.

[@thetomwardshow]

Well, you're already ahead of the game. You have a professional team helping and you're putting in the work. It does get better. I hope it gets better soon for you:)

[@nolanhanna]

Tom! This is so important to talk about! I think what is so important and resonates so much about your story is that mental health is a life-long journey. Getting help, getting sober, getting a job, changing our lifestyle, getting on the right medication; these all help push us along the path but there is no end to the work that must be done every day to live a happy and healthy life. Thank you for sharing your story Tom! Your fans are rooting for you, keep it up! Family ❤

[@rosecloud]

Tom, this didn't feel long enough! Thanks for being so open and honest about your struggles - I know this will make someone feel less alone.

[@thetomwardshow]

It was 35 mins! Haha. That is long enough. No one needs an hour solo video from me.

[@rosecloud]

@@thetomwardshow It's more to say you're a good storyteller, and I could listen to longer solo videos!

[@scottforg0t]

These are my new favorite! Thanks Tom! #girldads #wardheads

[@thetomwardshow]

Haha. Rn it's between Wadheads and Tomcats.

[@sockenfresserin]

Thank you so much for your honesty. From who you are now I would‘ve never guessed that this was something that you were struggling with at some point in your life. You should be proud of the person you‘ve become. It‘s not easy to tackle Depression. You‘re an inspiration.

[@thetomwardshow]

Thx!

[@jennyfromtheblock668]

Your story is incredible and i am so happy you are doing better. Als a teen/early twenties i was very depressed. Your train story resonated with me, i would cross the street hoping a car would hit me and it would be over. I also resontated with sleeping all day. Thank god i have the most loving mother in the world. Slowly but surely i got better and now i am 28 and havent felt like that in years. I hope everyone out there who is struggling wont lose hope and i am sending all my love to those who suffer ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for the kind words Jenny and I'm glad you came out the other side!

[@stjoco]

Great video! I also am bipolar and experience the similar depression vs. Rage dynamic. Really came to a head after having our baby this year. Apparently sleep deprivation is a major trigger. My psychiatrist and I have been tweaking things and I’m finally at a place where I’m getting through days and weeks without any big swings. Thanks for sharing, you helped me consider some other ways I can address it, like clean-eating and journaling (I’m the same where I forget what I’ve gone through by the time I get to my session.) Great job getting yourself out of that. It’s not easy!!

[@thetomwardshow]

Stacy. I'm glad you're in a better place now! And you're right about sleep. I forgot to talk about that. That's probably the number one thing I can do for my mental health. If I don't get quality sleep, I'm a wreck.

[@stjoco]

@@thetomwardshow thanks, Tom! Family! Keep up the good work :)

[@sadiestaerkel7950]

Tom! This content is so good! This is something so real that so many people can relate to. Keep up the great work. You are seen, heard and appreciated! 💗

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for your support Sadie!

[@-_C-C_-]

This is really inspiring. New subscriber, excited to catch up on all that I've missed. :)

[@stephhcentino]

Started tearing up immediately after you mentioned how hysterical your mother was after your suicide attempt. The fear of breaking my mom’s heart has kept me alive at my hardest times. So glad you’re still here, Tom. Thank you so much for making this video. 🫶🏻

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks Stephanie. Yeah, seeing my mom that day was the worst! But she was just out here last weekend to see us and the kids and we had a great time. She tells me all the time how proud of me she is for getting out of the darkness. She's the best!

[@daniellesevolution]

A book that is helping me now is The Presence Process by Michael Brown It says that our first few years of life cause an emotional imprint on us that just repeats until we integrate it into our life now. To integrate, We feel the emotion in our body and just stay with it. The resistance/running from it is what actually hurts. And it seems to make life bearable for me even with my worst times. I hope this can help someone else😊

[@roxyhart5692]

I really appreciate this video. I also have bipolar type 2. I was in therapy for a total of 14 years, with maybe a rare 2 year break before going back. Started going as a teen, got my bipolar diagnosis at 26, I think? I'm 33 now and it took years to find my medical cocktail that helps, as well as being able to actually conceptualise what therapy taught me. Haven't been in therapy for 2,5 years now, and have felt great. However... These last 6 months I've dealt with a lot of suicidal ideation, deep depression and major fatigue, so I've reached out to my psychiatrist and therapy is probably upcoming. Anyway. Just very refreshing to hear this from you, thank you so much and I'm proud of everything you have accomplished

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for sharing your story. And glad you found the right coctail early. Sorry, to hear that you're going through the depression again. I'm glad you're doing therapy again. I hope you pull out of it soon.

[@annie94816]

Thanks for sharing this with us, great video and great advice! ❤

[@thetomwardshow]

Of course Annie!

[@NostalgicMannyy]

Great video Tom, thank you for sharing with us ✊🏽

[@thetomwardshow]

Thanks for watching and being interested in my story!

[@betsymurphy7102]

Hey Tom, your bipolar 2 symptoms sound just like my boyfriend who is currently struggling through the depression med process. We would never have thought he had bipolar due to lack of mania/euphoria like you said. Obviously he will talk to doctors and professionals about it, but this could be really massive in helping on his mental health journey! Thanks so much for speaking on this. Wom! ❤️

[@thetomwardshow]

Well I hope he can figure it out. The mediation trial and error is the worst! But once you get it right, you can live a pretty stable life. And good luck at the docs! There are questionnaires to see if you might have bipolar 2. Check them out online.

[@shelleyfierce]

Depression, addiction, etc… are you me?! Love it Tom thank you for showing how mental health can happen to anyone.