The Silent Struggle: Don't Suffer Alone

[@granthill7930]

I have depression...the first step is to know you aren't feeling right...with the help and love from friends and family. Then was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes that didn't help matters. You keep at it mate....we all have so much to live for even if it doesn't feel like it...we are loved and wanted.

[@stevemarruk]

Thank you for share.

[@wormscratcher]

I have had depression also , nothing worse . Very true you need to push yourself out of it . I am so happy that men are beginning to talk about mental health .

[@stevemarruk]

That’s all I wanted to do in this video was to let people know we are all together don’t feel alone my chat is always open to you all.

[@Carme99]

Stumbled across your channel through a recommended video. Thanks for opening up, more people need to be open about their mental health, nothing weak about it at all hope you’re doing better now 💪🏻

[@cDayz]

Dont put yourself down. I, like many others, really enjoy your you & your videos. Thank you for sharing, I don't have so many bad days now because I decided to cut out Twitter, Facebook & avoid news in general. I'm a lot happier now because of these changes.

[@stevemarruk]

Thank you 🙏

[@terrythewelsh]

I’ve been where you are, was diagnosed with PTSD due to Army service (falklands war 1982) I have my good and bad days, more good days lately thank god, stick with the program and take care of yourself ❤

[@stevemarruk]

So sorry to hear that Tel and thanks for sharing we are all in it together

[@richardw5179]

Well done for talking about this. As a sufferer of anxiety and depression i know how important talking is.

[@stevemarruk]

Thank you

[@ianpiggott]

Hey Steve, no worries mate, we’ve got your back, been there got the T-shirt and now it doesn’t fit anymore, keep up the great work and keep practising the Dad dancing😳

[@stevemarruk]

Thanks Ian means a lot

[@montymodlin1]

A fellow sufferer here , well done for reaching out , for me it was the hardest decision But one that opened a door to a new chapter, Sending hugs to you and yours

[@stevemarruk]

Thank you

[@I_Was_Chrispy_Kreme]

Great video Steve. Let me just say I love you and your channel. I'm glad you are getting the help you need and thank you for raising such an important point

[@stevemarruk]

Thanks Chris means so much to hear that

[@marcosgilson3578]

Always here for a chat brother. Only down the road in Colchester

[@stevemarruk]

Means a lot and thank you

[@davidbarnett8199]

Good to see you back. Depression is a bad thing. Only tip i have is when i get low, i step away from the internet and other stuff, find something simple and that i enjoy doing and just do that for a little while as helps to reset my brain.

[@stevemarruk]

Great advice Dave

[@lenellittsthegame2k0]

This took a lot of courage Steve mate, depression is horrible i suffer from it myself i know what it's like when those demons in your head get going etc. I think more men need to talk about this it is not weakness or anything to be ashamed off, depression is a serious illness and can be fatal for some too. Glad you're on the way up now mate it is a long tough journey but i'm sure many will agree with me we are all behind you all the way.

[@stevemarruk]

That’s means a lot and thank you 🙏

[@leemason666]

Very brave of you Steve to share with how you’ve been feeling. Proud of you buddy. I’ve suffered with Depression since 2015 and was in a really dark place after my Nana had died. I got that bad that I ended up in a situation where I was stood on a motorway bridge as didn’t want to be here anymore. It was a cry for help and was talked down by a police office who saved my life. I got the help that I desperately needed and managed to turn my life around for the better. It made me reevaluate what was important in my life and what wasn’t. Thankfully I have a really good support network with my family and friends. I was in a job that I hated and everyday felt like Groundhog Day. I honestly didn’t think that I would get better. I ended up having a career change and got into the world of IT and last year I flew out to New York and married my partner of 21 years. Now I’m in a much better place and honestly I’ve never been happier than I am right now. Yes I have my down days but I spot the warning signs so make little changes to look after myself. Just take it one day at a time buddy and I found that making a diary really helps too as you can set yourself little tasks each day to complete and also write down how you feel each day and how you feel at the end of the day. By doing this you can then see progress. I’m here for you buddy. You’ve got this 🙏🏻

[@stevemarruk]

You Lee are an inspiration thank you for writing that I hope others see this and know they are not alone.

[@harnett100]

i vave had depression i was sectioned iv learnt that tallking is good.

[@stevemarruk]

Sorry to hear that but yes I agree

[@MrTrevorbush]

Well done my man. Very brave of you to open up like this. Maybe now you’ll do a ring doorbell review 😂

[@stevemarruk]

Lol 😂

[@GAZ77780]

I know where you coming from I've got persistent depression disorder

[@stevemarruk]

Sorry to hear that

[@Eva_H]

I got diagnosed with BPD in 2017, I would also consider myself a high functioning BPD, mental illness is not fun and games both for the person, suffering as well as family if you have any and others around you. I have gender counselling once every six months and I tend to bring up my BPD quite frequently in session, at least I have recently. I also have cerebral palsy and that exacerbates my BPD because it’s this constant battle between my body in my mind, yet I’ve managed to live on my own since I was 22, I’m almost 37 now.

[@stevemarruk]

So sorry to hear that but it a so good to say it out loud and know we are not alone.

[@Eva_H]

@@stevemarruk don’t be because I don’t know what I’d be without it to be perfectly honest, I can’t see a world where I’m not borderline. People may ask me Steve, do I feel I’ve missed out on relationships as an adult and the answer is no because I won’t make my mind split, it’s too much of a risk. I have at least one friend that I talk to on a regular basis and buy regular once to twice a day and we’ve been friends for going on 20 years at this point. I edited my previous comment, so you may have to go in for re-read, just in case you didn’t read the new edits. Glad you’re better now, just remember to be mindful and mind your surroundings, especially if you think you can go through the mill again.

[@stevemarruk]

@@Eva_H I did read you previous comment again... so sorry to hear and it only takes one good friend we dont need 100s...

[@Eva_H]

@@stevemarruk let’s be real here Steve, you can pretty much count your friends on one fucking hand like F me on a Christmas cracker, S the bed 🤣 Do you still have a physical media collection in your home? If so, have you tried Plex and what did you think of it, I only ask because I like it.

[@xinam]

Stiff upper lip, old chap. Carry on carrying on. That’s all we can do.

[@stevemarruk]

Sure is buddy

[@paulmayo5739]

Get better soon and there is nothing wrong with admitting you’re struggling and getting help for that. Get back to making the tech videos and move on from the negativity!

[@stevemarruk]

Thanks Paul means a lot