The Story of Ulillillia: The Internet's Strangest Gamer

[@haramsaddam238]

Uli is the perfect anti-lolcow. He’s odd, but not malignantly so and is actually a well meaning person at the end of it all

[@adventarchivist5789]

Couldn't agree more. He's the kind of person who you'd really want to see their viewpoint of the world. I honestly can't think of anyone else who could think of colors in hexadecimal format!

[@AbrasiousProductions]

we need more lolcows who are just weird and not egregiously evil.

[@addemup8645]

You could say something similar about Blaze the Movie Fan... unless he did something I didn't know about

[@gratermccheesy9650]

@@AbrasiousProductionsThey wouldn’t be farmed for laughs as hard if people didn’t lose all sympathy for them.

[@AbrasiousProductions]

@@gratermccheesy9650 good point👍

[@brafya]

uli. drama free, in his own lane, degreased and comfortable. bubsypilled and focused. master of the elements and the mindgame, conqueror of mirrors. he's the best.

[@Mind_Idiot]

I just started the video and as soon as i read "degreased" i fucking REMEMBER.

[@fredthefish6640]

What a beautiful description, no one person could've said it better. Bravo 👏👏👏

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

Someone deagressed could relapse, but wouldn't count on him booking his uploads. At least for now.

[@Larry]

Ullilila not having completely bat sh!t insane parents unlike Chris chan, who actually wanted to help him overcome his social inadequacies, are what made him a much better person than Chris.

[@snowbunnie1113]

Chris was always self righteous, greedy, obsessed with sex and blamed everyone and everything but himself for his problems. Uli is kind of like a reverse Chris Chan. He’s an odd guy, and he knew that. He never tried to start a war with the internet or exploit his e-fame for girls and money. He never took the trolls bait because he was just too busy living his own life. People liked to mess with Chris because, as bad as some of the trolls were, Chris himself is hard to pity. Uli is a strange guy, but a decent person. People didn’t want to make him miserable.

[@ptrd4111]

I wouldn't call Bob insane unlike Barb. One was a generally normal person with hobbies while the latter was a manipulative bum.

[@OG_McLovin]

Bob and Borb were horrible parents and pretty awful people overall. They had no business raising kids. The Dimensional Merge will correct the timeline.

[@berniekatzroy]

He's also not like Andrew Ditch.

[@RennWickam]

COME BACK TO US LARRY, WE MISS YOUR VIDEOS

[@jessdrewthis]

Ryan’s mom passed away today. A Facebook update was relayed through the Ulillillia Archive channel’s community section. The channel owner stays in touch with him and shares life updates with his permission.

[@xymoriintus]

That's not your business to share on a public KZbin channel comment section wtf is wrong with you

[@noyou1357]

Blah blah blah

[@PriceMcgee]

​@@noyou1357 youre annoying

[@kalypsothefreak9717]

Oh fuck that really sucks

[@rileylagerstrom9843]

thank you for this comment, i appreciate it very much

[@zerazerazerazerazerazerazera]

He deleted his youtube channel because he hated Google Plus.

[@susejtsirhc4202]

Based.

[@baconlabs]

Oh, God, I still remember those days, very relatable sentiment

[@theneighborskid3179]

I mean that's understandable

[@Calvin_Coolage]

Gigachad move.

[@GuyInHisOwnWorld]

Me and him would be quick friends.

[@KahnKoyote]

"He had his name legally changed to Ryan, because he just likes the name Ryan" Absolute Chad energy

[@thbiggeststeve]

Absolute Ryan* energy.

[@PeterPimmelig]

Actually it's Ryan Evan. Evan is his third favorite (second is Melissa) and Adrian is his fifth (fourth is Karen).

[@Haaaawaiian]

Why is KZbin asking me to rate this comment. This is funny lol

[@mintypotato777]

Ryan means "little king" or something like that so quite appropriate

[@Ryzard]

As a Ryan, HOLY BASED?

[@Busterdrag]

Honestly Uli is an inspiring tale. Neurodivergent but fully self aware, odd and quirky but wholesome, not afraid of personal improvement and even gamefying the process, insanely creative and intellectual. He overcame his biggest phobia. That alone is inspiring to me. Bless his soul.

[@doomv.5]

That’s why I like king cobra

[@hellhound5307]

very well said

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

I mean gamifying the shit out of his blue water fear could be an indicative on why he spent so much time on bubsy. Or maybe he just got a good strike on clues.

[@eldrichnemo9312]

Not me getting teary-eyed learning about a man who learned to live with his OCD-related phobias and even overcame some by finding out how to live with them. I hope he has some kind of support after his parents pass

[@tsar389]

He's living a good life currently, despite losing his mother

[@heetheet75]

This guy lost weight by degreasing his pizza with paper towels. Don't diss the Uli.

[@peterpop-off]

THIS IS THAT GUY?

[@trevorsgamingroom5284]

Wait are you serious?

[@xord6286]

I had a classmate who would do that lol

[@charmandyorton006]

He did it. He Out-Pizza’d the Hut.

[@Gabbycatty]

i do that because the grease makes me feel sick lol

[@jello2679]

i love that you're more respectful than most "lolcow" youtubers. this channel isn't fueled by contempt, but by genuine curiosity & interest - and it's so refreshing

[@ColonelKlink1965]

He also doesn't make his videos dark and melodramatic with the black corners in the video. He also doesn't just put on walls of text that he then reads even though you can read them yourself. Like, I hate it when these people just read their slides like it's a bad presentation in school. And also, his thumbnails have no wojaks, besides the Geno video that is.

[@deltaknight2764]

Wait till he talks about Andrew Ditch, AKA the Poopsquash. That man genuinely is disgusting. Not just because of the poo-poo pee-pee stuff, but morally too.

[@xord6286]

@@deltaknight2764 it can't be worse than pamperchu can it?

[@deltaknight2764]

@@xord6286 He poisoned his family's food and drinks for attention. He fakes autism even though he does NOT have it and has the GALL to say at one point that he doesn't want to be autistic anymore. He refused to turn off his oil defuser even when it was making his mother on oxygen suffer and the policeman ordering him to turn it off. He's entered and has been kicked out of so many medical establishments because he isn't being treated how he wanted to be and/or he's just insufferable. Whenever someone is against him or refuses his absurd requests or defenses, he throws a massive tantrum and bleats out that the person in question is "'busing" him (abusing). And he often enacts self-harm during these tantrums to either add on to the act of being a big manbaby or give himself injuries to blame on whoever is opposing him. He desires pity and attention all the time, but he's just a reprehensible "man."

[@erinbrady9444]

I think a big part of it is that MM is autistic himself. There’s a humorous understanding to how the people he covers operate because so many lolcows are ultimately just autistic people navigating the world in the way it makes sense to them. And that understanding can make a huge difference. I’m glad more neurodivergent creators exist openly now because of this

[@demetreasandrews]

He's the actual completionist. Has Jirard ever maxed out the score in any mario level? I don't think so.

[@PrizrakNO]

He only maxed out the charity fraud lmao

[@Stephillpotten]

Jirard doesn't even degrease his pizza. What a fake gamer girl!

[@ColonelKlink1965]

Nah, he only maxed out the hate towards himself.

[@juliannocartagena2007]

HA! You can’t 100% what Nick 100%s Jirard!

[@TheSherriea1]

​@@PrizrakNOLmbo*

[@xWhackoJacko]

Big shout out to his parents, man. Seem like really sweet people. Nice to see, because I couldn't see Nick thriving or being very happy without that kind of support system. 🙏

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

Couldn't imagine Uli being Uli without the parents effort. Besides he seems to have it all sorted out. Just remember that nowadays someone like Uli would be unthinkable unless you were on real Autistic terms. Something he's not!

[@joemichigan4945]

He is an odd fellow, but he steams a good ham

[@splitsee2526]

god fuck it follows me everywhere

[@Sapsche]

He's from Albany?

[@GuardsmanGreg]

Delightfully devilish, joemichigan4945!

[@SZF123456]

I made it, despite your algorithm

[@GrassTroll]

degreases a good pizza*

[@jakefoley9539]

Ulillillia is basically the mirror inverse of Chris Chan, right down to the fact that his home was destroyed by water while Chris's was destroyed by fire.

[@giggig6703]

And that Chris did it by accident and with Ryan it was out of his control.

[@LateNightTableCo]

Chris- Obsessed with getting a girl friend Ryan- Literally wants nothing to do with relationships as he sees them as a net negative.

[@giggig6703]

@@LateNightTableCo Chris doesn’t care for real girls anymore.

[@mosshivenetwork117]

That's... Extremely interesting.

[@KOTEBANAROT]

Every internet weirdo is christ chan -adjacent to you people. Like, to the point of delusion almost. Thats not surprising that you keep making up fake "connections" to justify loving or hating every guy who posts weird

[@The1SunshineFeeler]

His fear of stairs definitely came from Castlevania

[@socialwetwork5643]

truth

[@opalyasu7159]

What a coincidence. My fear of ledges came from Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn 😂

[@JacobJohnson-lh4gx]

we talking about the Castlevania NES games right? right? hahahah

[@kingbash6466]

"My old enemy. Stairs." -(Po, 2011)

[@grunkleg.2934]

Castlevania 3 specifically

[@pawlstothewall]

OCD is the reason I stopped playing grindy video games in my teens. In FFVII, any time I got a new party member, I HAD to max out their limit breaks before I was "allowed" to proceed in the game. This involved countless hours grinding against low level enemies. It took all of the fun out of the game, but I couldn't stop. I finally quit RPGs after playing FFIX, because I had to press the X button at every position in every walkable map, in case there was a hidden item. I couldn't finish anything. I always had to leave no stone unturned. Anyway, I'm treated now and doing fine.

[@ashleyhellsan2039]

this guy is literally the reason i'll never have the top spot on the bubsy 3D 100% speedrun

[@eliotguerin192]

But Uli is a completionist, not a speedrunner

[@SECONDQUEST]

Yeah he's not about going fast. He's about doing weird stuff. Uli has an obsession with large numbers, bubsy has a coordinate system, he likes to make those numbers get big. That's basically all he does.

[@DaBandOFunnies]

And with that attitude, you never will 🙄

[@DOC_951]

He doesn’t speedrun… there’s no reason you can’t have the top spot if you actually made the effort

[@charliekelly735]

You never covered the fact that he can tell whatever the hex number of any colour just by looking at it. Insane.

[@herekongato]

Thats incredible if its true

[@NicDoesDumbThings]

​@@herekongato it's true, he used to have a massive section on his website explaining how he did it. If I also remember correctly the novel he wrote included ridiculously complex descriptions of characters/settings that all included hex codes.

[@BinglesP]

@@NicDoesDumbThings I write and draw things, a lot including concept art and in some way involving those types of associations, so I can relate to that on a way admittedly-less-impressive level. I even have a sort of similar weird talent in remembering the flags of countries because of watching stuff like Drew Durnil, my parents talk about it to others like it's a party trick lmao Edit: Emphasizing WAY less impressive level, because I am not trying to compare my talents to his, I am expressing why it is universally a powerful aspect of the mind that can happen in various ways on various levels. I am sorry that it came off that way, I was in no way saying I am at his level nor was I trying to imply that.

[@joshuamason8992]

@@BinglesP stop tryna jump on his props smh

[@joshuamason8992]

@@BinglesP flags is a really easy one, not looking at colours and knowing the exact hex number lol

[@Vladdislavv1]

"You can't avoid grass" You just challenged a couple thousand redditors worldwide

[@Leon-mn8eo]

a couple thousand? lmao

[@garadak7.]

redditors are the cvcks of the internet

[@PoleBrotherhood]

@@Leon-mn8eo All of reddit lol

[@argentumsound]

@@Leon-mn8eo Are you shocked because it's too hi or too low?

[@kingsizeblues616]

@@argentumsound hello

[@rushnerd]

I clicked this video expecting a "lolcow". What I got was actually inspiring. I wish he was stable enough to have some sort of game dev job remotely. He would be seriously impressive if he could focus talent like that.

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

Bro with so many car tdriges how he wouldn't have a dev job under the place. He was equipped.

[@zlaychou]

He is the goat - He got super good at parallax just because he likes math - Pretty sure at least one of the weird things he discovered while zeroing in on a game ended up being used as a legitimate speedruning technique - Wrote a book (or 2 ?) no one gets years ago and still makes money from it - Went from a guy affraid of water that only went to a few spots near where he lives to a guy taking vacation on a island, alone, where he then took a boat trip with other tourists further away from the coast to swim and visit and loved every second of it. - Isn't affraid of working low pay jobs with weird hours to not be a hindrance to the people around him. He's the guy you just want to check on to see if he's doing good, pretty sure most of his patreons aren't even there for early access to his games or to speed up the process but just to give him money, his only real issue is that, while the early game and midgame of "creating something" has him hyperfocused on a project, the endgame part often seems to not interest him that much so he'll go back to playing games usually until he starts a new project, but he's aware of that so he's probably working on it like hedid with water. Oh and also, MagicMush didn't say much about the pizza degreasing part but it' takes a good part of his time, one time he bought 3 or 4 pizzas in one go and I'm pretty sure the degreasing process took an hour and way to many sheets for it not to be an ecological disaster. It's also always cheese pizza, he doesn't eat meat and I don't think it's political or because of animals, he just stopped eating meat one day and never went back. A true legend.

[@deltaknight2764]

I think the meat thing is the reason why he's so skinny.

[@100organicfreshmemes5]

@@deltaknight2764 True, most meat is very fatty.

[@EvdogMusic]

A university's Mathematics Faculty needs to hire him

[@lindboknifeandtool]

It’s cause bubsy is probably made of meat

[@lindboknifeandtool]

@@100organicfreshmemes5it’s not even only that, it’s that any protein that isn’t used is turned into fat. It contributes a lot. To eat excess protein from plants is very filling and hard to do.

[@EvilDead7836]

I believe Uli’s obsession over Bubsy rather than Sonic is the reason he didn’t go down the average low cow path

[@MrPek-fe9fp]

Facts. Chad Bubsy enjoyer vs virgin sonic enjoyer

[@Zero-fg2tm]

Yeah they never changed the color of bubsy’s arms

[@evanomalley4095]

@@Zero-fg2tm Very true. Now we need a Bubsychu

[@colonelscoobysnacks]

W MASTER SHAKE PFP

[@dacypher22]

Honestly, I feel like Bubsy is a lot safer path to walk than Sonic

[@JoeyJ0J0]

Ulillia is a cool guy, just wants to eat degreased pizza and play Bubsy 3D. He's harmless compared to other internet oddballs

[@MrTheil]

And make his own video games

[@cherrycordiaI]

He's a total sweetheart.

[@lindboknifeandtool]

Cum podcast

[@Philip_Taylor]

The way he walks up the stairs was just too much though, I almost fell over.

[@PandaPelley]

it's nice to see how much somebody can grow into themselves without thinking they world hates you all the time

[@Gibboner13]

That clip of him swimming in the blue water and talking about him overcoming his fears was actually really heartwarming

[@thedungeondelver]

I know him. Or rather, I knew *of* him. He was a featured site on Portal of Evil once upon a time (that site was run by future Valve employee Chet Falizek, by the way). Uli found out about us finding out about _him_ and signed up and would talk to us. My friend Repomancer, Eric, was the 3d programmer for Mechwarrior II (the one from the 1990s). He and Eric became close, and Eric wanted to help Uli with a video game Uli wanted to write. At that time, Uli was obsessed with making it run at exactly 30fps. Uli was a genuinely sweet guy and - I swear I'm not making this up - would give us all friendship grades. Being nice to him and not using foul language got you a higher grade (I got a mid-high grade as I recall because I really liked him, but I tended to have a pretty loose posting vocab). I like hearing about him from time to time. It's like getting a postcard from an old friend.

[@jimdaily737]

MW2 was a fucking great game

[@motorbreathjz]

thats soo wild..

[@BayardTarpley]

Oh my god, I learned way more about the world than I should have from poetv.

[@anonamatron]

I think he had an account on Something Awful way back when for the same reason. I think people definitely STARTED OUT wanting to find a Chris-chan type, but quickly figured out that this guy was not someone to troll. Probably something Chris-chan should have paid attention to a long time ago.

[@thedungeondelver]

@@jimdaily737 It really was. I wish I could tell you a tenth of the stories Eric told me about its development. Some of them hair-raising! But back to Uli - he and Eric really got on well.

[@alexrexaros9837]

I will always remember him as the one guy Encyclopedia Dramatica genuinely respects and tells you not to mess with. Maybe there is some good in people.

[@sully-coco]

He's a sweetheart. Always makes me feel good to watch videos on him especially when they aren't mean spirited, he's true eye bleach around these parts. I don't support the trolling of most "lol cows," they're all people with issues at the end of the day, but anyone wishing Uli harm is genuinely a disgusting person.

[@diegordi1394]

That is one hell of a crown to wear.

[@Pennywise12528]

Last time I saw it, his page had instructions on how to request a copy of his book for your local library. Gave me feelings I can't quite articulate to this day.

[@y-tiplex]

@@Pennywise12528 did it include how to avoid potential mirrors? (genuinely curious)

[@dannywapbang]

MEANWHILE... my page (which I initially created as a joke and rewrote to be neutral) got edited by a guy who said I LIED ABOUT SOMEONE'S DEATH TO BAN EVADE!! Then when I started editing myself into articles thinking I was a lolcow, they added a section saying I was asking for attention, WHEN I WASN'T!! Thankfully, the negative edit didn't go past the opening paragraph and some categories. I've moved on from the death thing (Basically, I was RPing on a site that was notable for having idiot admins.)

[@mariano1196]

You know what really sets apart Ulillillia from other internet eccentrics is that things wounded up pretty alright for him, considering this Channel's track record.

[@tarkelson2457]

Hes wounded??

[@beefkd]

@@tarkelson2457 not sure if non native or trolling what he wanted so say was that things WOUND UP pretty alright for him past tense of to wind up which means the same as things ended pretty alright for him

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

He probably got an insurance payment without the bubsy record. But could be really get paid on a base such as Tube? Maybe the parents got their cut and everybody shutted their mouth as he vanished from space

[@chameleonedm]

His eye movement at 5:03 is WILD. It appears he can perfectly visualise that sequence from the game

[@AluminumFusion22]

His hometown getting flooded probably didn't help him overcome his fear of water, which makes him actually overcoming it all the more amazing. He seems like a genuinely fascinating guy and genuinely nice person.

[@jumpmadmadness1222]

I see a man who is free and happy. I somewhat envy his innocence.

[@2sseth]

you think a man who's entire world is caged by his irrational fear is free and happy? how pathetic is your existence?

[@elijahstuffs]

Also quite intelligent and creative for sure!

[@catalyzerr]

dont baby him, innocence? what innocence? you dont know the guy.

[@NoName-rl3fh]

​@@catalyzerrit is on display. To assume the inverse would then need as equal a display.

[@Mavrick-p8d]

@@catalyzerr Your raps are terrible

[@danielvictor3262]

This guy is probably the only one who was dedicated with somewhat a respectable article on Encyclopedia Dramatica. Him overcoming his fears of water and that video of him swimming in the blue sea is so inspiring: if Uli can make it, anyone can.

[@Kukadin]

I remember that, the article talked more shit about people that thought he was the same as Chris chan than it did him

[@dannywapbang]

In contrast, my article (I went by Sonbreezie then) said I lied about someone's death to ban evade!! In reality, I was just playing a character who I wanted to kill off on the old CLG Wiki (which has been replaced with AVID... for good reason); this guy who edited my mock article had only seen the comment I made about it to CooleyBoy10's deviantART profile.

[@OfficialAshePenndale]

26:40 this message made me cry. I have autism and severe anxiety/ocd so I kinda mourn the life I could’ve had if I was “normal”. But I’m trying my best to be an artist and game dev myself, so I think I’ll be okay. Eventually.

[@Zack29810]

normal people are way less creative than people with mental illnesses and stuff. all of the best musicians, comedians, writers, etc. are mentally ill in one way or another. so don't sweat it too much, man. you aren't alone and also, this means you have the potential to create something really awesome one day. weird/abnormal brains produce the best art. it's always been that way.

[@OfficialAshePenndale]

@@Zack29810 Update: I made my comment during a rather awful mental episode, and revisiting this video to see his reply made my day. I often worry that I'm falling behind as a human, but I guess I don't have to fill the mold to be loved or make a mark.

[@Miukaya]

Don't ever let yourself think that way you get to have a different view on life others can't and it leads to new forms of creativity. You only become less of a human when you give up on yourself. Have fun in life cause even if the clouds are heavy they will clear away.

[@DjDeadpig]

3600 hours in Bubsy sounds really strange out of context.

[@NotGalaxsu]

I thought it said in my bubsy

[@DissonantSynth]

This is super childish of me but I read it as "buSSy" and had to do a double-take

[@soapgaming4903]

Sounds fun

[@toasty_mann]

It sounds really strange in context

[@ColinJoesseppiVEVO]

Freaky Bubsy 👅👅👅👅👅

[@taste5728]

If Uliillia was obssesed with books instead of video games, we would have to library of Alexiandra standing once again Just without the stairs

[@HealthGage0336]

I'd take that as a compliment myself

[@wolftitanreading5308]

With a fear of dog ears

[@reiangossling6395]

Considering the types of books he's written, it would be a library full of stats and color codes

[@darkjapan]

I mean if he was dedicated to writing game guides I can imagine GameFAQs having a lot more guides for obscure games.

[@lotus_flower2000]

As someone was OCD, that is a thought I have often. I could of been great..but instead my brain decided to memorize every episode of the original Teen Titans; and if I forget sometimes I have to watch it again.. I don't even like it anymore but obsessions aren't always based around whether you like it.

[@reecemysocksoff]

25:12 - seeing him overcoming his fear of blue water to THAT degree is genuinely heartwarming

[@TheBrickWhisperer]

character development

[@noice__]

I think the video should have ended with that clip, it's kinda poetic

[@GERMENDARIALOR-xn1xd]

He probably never saw blue water before. Remember he was on high dosage of Pizzas Tissue. Couldn't imagine someone being afraid of Blue Water as Uli.. .

[@EnlightenedLazor]

I was a subscriber, I watched his Disgaea videos as they came out. I didn’t even play Disgaea or know anything about the series, I just really liked how informative his content was. Even today I’ll still go watch his Ultima 3 videos, thank goodness someone archived them

[@mob_boiii]

bro would actually dominate the runescape scene

[@Shawn-td7pk]

playing runescape while watching this video... u right.

[@chanceosaurous]

@@Shawn-td7pk same lol Vardorvis just slapped me

[@kanizzymillhouse8527]

Yes! I was thinking that throughout the documentary. He reminds me of Lynx Titan in many ways.

[@Itssomeguy2020]

he likes math to do weird challenges in games and you cant in rs

[@mob_boiii]

@@Itssomeguy2020 uhh runescape is full of math AND weird challenges

[@glorbojibbins2485]

"In his mind the chains are off and Nick is free..." Fuck yeah, Nick. Fuck yeah.

[@joshshrum2764]

He’s beginning to believe he’s the unchained one.

[@jafulton89]

unburdened by what has been

[@her0n722]

Nick is an inspirational force of nature

[@hatman44]

Hell yeah!

[@AmazingRebel23]

Wish he was free and in my area, he cute asf

[@xadek821]

I’ve never seen anybody describe something in a book and when refering to the color basically write the color code so the reader can put it into photoshop and get the exact color the author envisioned. He’s not weird, he’s like next level compared to us, while playing a class exclusive to him.

[@RSLucid]

The self-awareness and way he handles his issues is inspirational, legendary even. Unironically a pretty cool guy.

[@zachb8012]

I think he's self aware because he's not autistic. He doesn't behave or think like a lolcow sperg. He's his own man, no labels.

[@MEMETV1]

Completely agree...inspiring

[@yesiyahh]

totally agree he is the boss

[@garthshark119]

It's what happens when your parents are supportive of your issues, but don't baby you about them and encourage you to work around them

[@CatManThree]

Uli is an icon and an idol for anyone with social and mental disabilities. Sets the perfect example of how you can always rise above your challenges and better your life.

[@WocklessGamingforAnimeMoms]

I think he's morelikely Schizophrenic and untreated than autistic the more I think of it. That being said I don't think the average mentally disabled person could ever do this. He wsd clearly more intelligent than average and honestly probably could get laid for having done all this. It's fucking cool. Severe Schizophrenia but he was clearly happy and healthy. Like very cool bohemian artists vibes.

[@WocklessGamingforAnimeMoms]

Like there is no way this guy was intellectually impaired at all. He was trying to explain things that seem beyond normal human comprehension. Severe Schizophrenia though yeah.

[@CatManThree]

​@@WocklessGamingforAnimeMoms He has a severe case of OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), not schizophrenia. OCD is a disability a person is born with which results in their brain being wired very differently. Their brains lock onto and obsess over specific things which extends to specific things they enjoy doing, irrational anxiety triggers/fears, and habits. All of which can severely impact the person's life socially and in terms of supporting themselves depending on how severe the case is and what exactly their obsessions become. In Uli's case, his primary obsession is mathematics and the deconstruction of very specific old games. His anxieties being the things related to dying in games, which grew subconsciously through his obsessions. Having a mental or social disability does not equate to being intellectually impaired. In cases of stuff you're born with, it more often deals with having an abnormal brain which learns and processes things in a abnormal manner. Also schizophrenia is a severe disorder surrounding a person's mind losing its grasp on reality and becoming drastically deluded with nonsense. Terry Davis is an example of that, albeit an untreated case of it.

[@asteria9963]

A friend of mine suffers from schizophrenia. Uli is not one of them. Not even close. And I'm glad he isn't.

[@lotus_flower2000]

​@@asteria9963that's kinda a different kind of disorder..

[@MarkHandlesFeatureBroke]

I have a Uli in my life (literally his name is Nick) and he's the most wholesome dude ever. He teaches karate, plays guitar/bass, and has beaten every dark souls game multiple times. We played Catan last night using cards instead of dice. Love that dude, never gotten a single bad vibe or ugly moment. People are truly built different.

[@Chico01232]

i also got an Uli in my friend group, he is an expert in roguelike games and got the rest of the group into DnD, also the most fun person to be with that i've ever encountered.

[@MrTheil]

Your friend sounds like a badass.

[@rocknmetalultima]

Honestly, this video hit me in the feels. He seems like such a great man, and you did a wonderful job making a great video on him!

[@zeropolicy7456]

Uli's guides are absolutely legendary. His Final Fantasy guides are nothing short of masterpieces.

[@heypistolero]

The man who lost a ton of weight by implying dabbing the grease off his pizza with a paper towel. He's a legend

[@badicusvibesimus182]

DSP has outlived so many content creators, I'm starting to get the feeling that at the end of all things- it's just a singularity of DSP being bad at video games.

[@FillmGeekOfDoom]

No, there's plenty of games Phil is good at and he's had genuinely solid LPs in the past decade. His only real negative is him immaturity, though he's worked through a lot of his flaws the past nearly 20 years and is trying to do better.

[@SECONDQUEST]

​@@FillmGeekOfDoomdude cranked it on stream, no coming back from that.

[@Zanemob]

@@SECONDQUESTPoor guy didn’t know. Why hold it over his head? Did you want some? So weird. Still hearing about that.

[@The_Haruspex]

When you die all you see (whilst the Earth slowly floats away in the background) is DSP's disembodied head floating in space, saying: "Banned, banned, banned, banned. Gone. Forever."

[@thecuza9716]

Since AAA game studios are now literally designing their games with him specifically in mind, you might be onto something.

[@wj11jam78]

If this guy were born in the 1600s he would have invented calculus

[@someirishguy1662]

Uililulia is cool as hell, insanely intelligent person

[@mups4016]

We don't laugh at ulililia, we laugh WITH ulililia.

[@SOOWOOGEE]

fun fact: on the Ulillillia thread on Something Awful, chris-chan was discovered for the first time

[@Lucien_M]

You mean SA1?

[@rikałøłe]

@@Lucien_M SomethingAwful.

[@sanyokk8024]

OMG I thought about a different kind of SA and got scared-

[@iamthew1zard]

no fucking way

[@DOC_951]

Sexual assault?

[@Iced-Tea]

This guy is genuinely one of the coolest and most interesting people ive learned about.

[@piked86]

Uillilla is a treasure. Glad he's doing well. There's a channel that uploads videos for him now that puts a layer between him and the wider internet. I first came across him about 13 years ago when KZbin recommended me one of his pizza videos. He was teaching how to degrease a pizza properly.

[@scottpeltier3977]

That’s smart of him to add that layer. Most cows downfall is overexposure to their fanbase. This fella not only has an extremely positive follower base but also has an extra safety precaution. He is a genius

[@The_Haruspex]

@@scottpeltier3977 He isn't a lolcow though... a lolcow is a malicious individual who often deserves to be in that position, he deserves nothing of the sort. He's literally just living his life and utilizing the internet in the same way millions of people do, by documenting what is interesting to them.

[@TheOnlyPedroGameplays]

How does that safety net work? Do his fans curate content for him to watch? How does he ask for things?

[@piked86]

@@TheOnlyPedroGameplays I think he posts the videos to his Facebook which is private and the videos are uploaded to KZbin by one guy who has permission. That's my understanding. I could be wrong but I know for a fact he's doing much better and has overcome many of his worst fears. I think he's still afraid of mirrors though.

[@yurifairy2969]

​@@scottpeltier3977 Calling him a cow of any sort is an insult. He doesn't deserve that. He's just eccentric.

[@TheArceusftw]

Honestly, after Pamperchu, we all needed a pallet cleanser. Honestly, while Uli is certainly a weird one, he still managed to pull himself up by the bootstraps, and at least managed to become a semi well adjusted individual.

[@joeberryman3563]

I think you mean a pizza cleanser.

[@espighty]

Partly? I'd say he is fully well adjusted. Given the obvious severity of his OCD, it's unrealistic to expect him to ever meet the neurotypical standard of "well adjusted", but for someone in his situation, he seems to be doing very very well. It's nice to see.

[@MrPek-fe9fp]

​@@espighty well said

[@solidoptimus0129]

I was expecting him to be another weird lolcow but I was surprised at what he has done and how chill he is. He had a rough life but he kept perservering. Mad respect to him.

[@DrL00se]

At work listening to this and the beginning of the video fully made me think I was crazy when you used my actual notification sound effect twice in the first 40 seconds.

[@lemond2007]

9:42 "You can't avoid grass" Oh, you think so, huh?

[@takjel1585]

*Flies away*

[@ColonelKlink1965]

Touch Grass™

[@desuretard8654]

NYC

[@iamthew1zard]

all you have to do to avoid it is make a League of Legends account

[@xluispx4477]

Big Green doesnt want you to know this little secret:

[@windscar15]

Uli is probably one of the only lolcows I’ve ever interacted with personally. I commented on one of his Bubsy 3D videos and he gave me a lot of info on how broken the game truly is. That man can dissect that game to its code.

[@Jazm-nj2de]

The way he writes all his game fever dream shít so professionally is odd but so interesting at the same time.

[@Jazm-nj2de]

and he's how I learned how to convert from hex to decimal

[@metalmaid6411]

This guy is an inspiration. Doing the things he loves and pushing forward through life despite not fitting in anywhere, and self improving constantly along the way. I kinda envy that drive and determination of his.

[@nublarrex5690]

Uli swimming in the blue water made me genuinely happy. I'm so proud!

[@lionheart6176]

this was weirdly heartwarming mush, i am an autistic man that grew up in a scarcely populated town as well and got into video games to live out fantasies...now i have actual friends and a job. uli is relatable and even sort of respectable.

[@itsrainingmelons6202]

Working with what he’s got. It’s the best any of us can do

[@asteria9963]

I am an autistic trans person who grew up in a poor and toxic environment. Some of it will never leave my system, and yet I still managed to get married and have a child. We're a weird family, and people certainly judge us, but we don't care. They're just angry at themselves in a roundabout way.

[@shroomer8294]

21:31 The way he describes Knuckles as purple and then goes on to give a f*cking hex code. That just melts my heart. It's such an adorable innocent thing that the average person would never even think of doing. I love that little detail.

[@Silver_Roll]

he's got a whole page on his website about 'numeric color names' eg. hex codes & how he seemingly prefers them, you really gotta respect the dedication to it! (also calling that behavior "adorable"/"innocent" comes off as very infantilizing, i know it likely wasnt your intent but just as a word of warning!)

[@DOC_951]

@@Silver_Roll 😂 there’s always one of you

[@nunyabizness6376]

​@@DOC_951lmaoooo I was just gonna say that

[@LouSassoleSledgecock_III]

@@DOC_951who even cares about this mental loser 😂

[@Silver_Roll]

@@DOC_951 googoo gaga

[@IrisCorven]

This is the first video of yours I've stumbled upon. I intend to watch the rest while I work today, cause goddamn - you managed to break down something I've followed for years into such a digestible, fun form. Ryan really is a great dude, whom I've had the pleasure of talking to a handful of times over the past two decades. It's nice to see so many folks exposed to him and the oddity/wonder that is his life.

[@Minority119]

Mush was down on one knee the entire video in awe of the autism power level

[@LateNightTableCo]

Uli-son…I BOW!!!

[@ChokingHazaard]

Uli's moving to Florida was the best thing to happen to him. He grew passions for things outside of gaming, made real friends, got a fucking drivers license and achieved a level of independence that's so far past what he would have gotten in Minot. It's a real shame the pandemic set him so far back.

[@BuzzingGoober]

​@@HoxMouseAs opposed to what other state numb nuts?

[@goop1512]

@@HoxMouse aww cope harder weirdo

[@billymkj2763]

@alaskandonut you know him irl????????????????????????????????????? yeomg

[@Naltddesha]

@@billymkj2763Yeo Ming

[@ReviewBigCheese200]

Whats so bad about Florida?​@HoxMouse

[@Infovorousness]

In another age Nick would have been some kind of obscure mystic who’s writings and mathematical formulas people would still be trying to decrypt centuries later only to be completely wrong on every single point

[@giggig6703]

Now I’m starting to believe the voynich manuscript was written by some autistic guy.

[@johndiddilyjoe6258]

A modern-day alchemist.

[@snowflakepillow8697]

wait is his website lost media now?!

[@FoulUnderworldCreature]

@@snowflakepillow8697 It's all backed up and his vids are backed up too.

[@snowflakepillow8697]

@@FoulUnderworldCreature By his consent?

[@r.c.christian4633]

Bro clearly is a case of business in the front, party in the back. Great guy, the best!

[@Whaccd]

This is the perfect example of how people can own their weirdness to a point where it comes back around to being cool again. I absolutely consider this guy an inspiration.

[@topcat59]

I’m honestly happy that the Internet didn’t rip him a new one just for being himself and actually enjoyed his weird behavior.😺

[@1ztype343]

because most of the internet related to it, hard handle to hold, but gaming loser (but Uli actually is smart, and strangely talented unlike most of the subhumans that dwell the web)

[@drcidd8153]

@@1ztype343 Like a wholesome terry davis without the god complex.

[@Meilk27]

​@@drcidd8153so a totally different person

[@DoritosBurger]

You would have to be an evil person to bully a harmless individual just because they’re different.

[@drcidd8153]

@@DoritosBurger Did you just get here? I ternet is and always had been filled with evil people.

[@erotion316]

Ulillillia's powerleveling guide on Disgaea 2 and Final Fantasy XII were like a bible to me. Those are one of the most comprehensive, detailed guide I've ever read.

[@OyVeey]

Yeah. I read his FF12 guide way back in the day, years before I knew anything about the guy, and I could tell just from looking at it that he was built different

[@altrimnell]

You are awesome for this. It kinda hit me in the feels. Thanks bro!

[@MrBenMcLean]

De-greasing a pizza actually makes sense to me. Not as a fear or phobia or even as a health precaution: Some pizzas just have too much grease. That's a real thing.

[@silverphoenix684]

Stone cold steve Austin did the same thing with his burgers and pizza while on the road and Mick Foley said (in his book) that he would take the greasy paper towels and pour the grease back onto his food. 😂

[@f.b.l.9813]

yeah, the Shakey's place near where I live seems like they dunk the pizza in oil before serving them....

[@smokeygreeny4488]

Yeah..... Lol everybody knows.

[@trinketmage8145]

Does it make more sense than eating foods with less grease in them to start with?

[@justincohen4823]

​@trinketmage8145 well yeah, salad has less grease than a pizza, but he wants the pizza

[@DuranMK2]

"Today, we live in a world where people would demand the entire world stop for them, and just them. Everyone has to stop everything they're doing and cater to them, just them. But Nick here? Nick was different. He never asked anyone to take down anything or get rid of anything because he hated it, he just stood there and took it, and found out his own way around these phobias." So in other words, this guy is a fucking legend and everyone should strive to be like him, facing their fears head-on and finding ways to deal with their problems in life without blaming or inconveniencing others, as opposed to the pathetic loser approach of bitching, moaning and playing the victim, demanding everything be changed to suit them. Adapt, improve and overcome, be a victor, not a victim. Hell yeah, that's a mindset I can get behind.

[@LateNightTableCo]

I think it’s also as a result of the time he grew up. Older generations were about helping troubled people adapt to society as it existed. Today, we try to reshape society to adapt to those people. We used to take people with OCD and teach them how to cope with their struggles. Nowadays, we educated people about OCD and expect them to make exceptions for those people.

[@reganbeazley5810]

Honestly, as an autistic person, I'm a lot like him. I'm not fond of scary things, fast rides, ect. But I just choose to not do that stuff, and let those who do enjoy them... well, enjoy them! It'd be rude to take away something that people want or need.

[@UserName-hb7hw]

I have OCD too, it was insane hearing he has it too, holy shit. I also love Disgaea.

[@exotic1405]

I don't know if I have OCD, but it is weird to hear a guy have very similar thought processes to you for the first time

[@YourOwnDa]

@@exotic1405this guy is also obviously autistic, so there’s that too

[@joshshrum2764]

I think i have partial OCD I think but i have learned how to deal with it, and change my mentality so i don’t get as triggered by things that aren’t the way i want them to, though admittedly since I have a no walking disability so i can’t really fix things so it’s a little self imposed funnily.

[@UserName-hb7hw]

@@joshshrum2764 One thing i learned through my experiences is that OCD is not about the bad result itself, its simply about feeling fear, if you dont fear something, your brain you find an excuse to turn that into a paranoia, even if it makes no fucking sense. I constantly find myself having to rationalize bullshit fears so they can stop bothering me. OCD is not something i would wish on my worst enemy.

[@crushbeast29]

I read the thumbnail as "3,600 hours in bussy"

[@lShishkaBerryl]

I work at Costco and every time I grab a slice I also grab 4 napkins to "degrease" the pizza on the way to my car 😅 He's not wrong, I'm probably getting rid of 200 calories lmaooo those bitches get soaked!

[@urphakeandgey6308]

I struggle to believe "degreasing" your pizza does much, if anything. Majority of the oil/grease will be absorbed in the dough and even then, most of the calories are probably coming from the bread, cheese, and sauce.

[@Zizumia]

Same! My dad always degreases his pizzas so I just did it too. For the longest time I thought it was what you were supposed to do to pizza 😂

[@wintergreen1436]

Costco pizza is super greasy so I don't blame you Still delicious tho

[@professor_mystery]

I always degrease my pizza because as I get older I’ve developed this cool stomach thing where it feels like greasy food doesn’t digest, it just sort of sits there and feels gross and heavy

[@johnbunson389]

I don’t mean to be rude but what a waste of tissues. Clogs sewage systems and piles into landfills. Maybe just don’t eat pizza if you’re concerned of calories. S

[@StarPani]

Mush baited me into checking out a cool guy, thinking it was going to be that insane Michael Jackson furry who made that one failed Space Funeral fangame

[@pipeline1419]

WHAT? WHAT FAILED SPACE FUNERAL FANGAME WHO MADE IT?

[@StarPani]

@@pipeline1419 Some guy called SqrlyJack who never takes their meds and always finds themselves in trouble. There's even a video about them, so you're in for a wild ride. The game is called Super Space Funeral 4: Deluxe Blood Red Version & Bubsy.

[@StarPani]

​@@pipeline1419 Some person who never takes their meds and always finds themselves in trouble called SqrlyJack. There's even a video about them, so you're in for a wild ride. The game is called Super Space Funeral 4: Deluxe Blood Red Version & Bubsy.

[@MrJMB122]

Same

[@StarPani]

@@pipeline1419 Someone named SqrlyJack who never takes their medications and always finds themselves in trouble. There's even a video about them, so you're in for a wild ride. The game is called Super Space Funeral 4: Deluxe Blood Red Version & Bubsy.

[@SuperfluousMoniker]

I'm a big fan of Mario 3, so I'm going to break down Ulillillia's statement about "maxing out the score in the first level." First of all, the score counter goes to seven digits, so a maxed score would be 9,999,999. The best way to get points in Mario 3, especially if you're locked to a single level and can't use the time bonus from finishing levels, is doing chain stomps. Stomping 8 enemies in a row will net you points that increase like so: 100, 200, 400, 800, 1000, 2000, 4000, 8000. After that you will start getting 1ups, which do not award points. There are a limited number of enemies in 1-1, and the only decent opprtunity to do a good jump chain is off of the green parakoopas toward the middle of the stage. These guys will respawn, but not if you fully kill them. If you leave them in their shells and leave the screen, or even kick their shells down the nearby pit, they'll come back. But if you kick one of their shells into another for example, that one will not respawn. However, you could always fly up to the pipe you can go down near the end of the level, when you come out the other pipe all enemies will respawn. There is a 1up available in the stage, so running out of time and lives, eventually getting a game over that would reset your score to 0, is not an issue. In conclusion, this is possible to do and would probably take several hours, but not a ridiculously long time. You can get 8,500 points from a 7 chain stomp pretty easily (without killing any of the paratroopas which would result in lost time), jump back left over the pit and return and do it again, all pretty quickly. You'd have do do that around 1,175 times to max out the score. That's doable if you're dedicated and a little crazy like this guy.

[@KasumiRINA]

Thanks for explaining! This video also mentioned getting to level 999 in Disgaea 2, which is basically just ordinary run in a game heavily focused on resetting levels and grinding all over in New Game+ I feel like the videos like this try to make these things look weirder than they are. But in many games getting a Platinum is much harder and absolutely casual players got plats for kicks. Not saying it's easy or diminishing Nick's achievements, just saying this isn't even weird, just some of self-imposed challenges you can find on KZbin, GameFAQs or even IGN.

[@adambourne5523]

Godspeed you beautiful person, may al our endeavours be rewarding to you

[@justSomeOthaGuy]

5:24 the whole point of Disgaea is to max out everything, it has a really long post game too so it's actually pretty normal lol For any of those wondering, he's playing Disgaea 2

[@hi-wm7tb]

i was about to say this lol, you can max out the levels on a character fairly quickly if you know what youre doing. granted 70-90 hours to get to that point might not be "fairly quickly" to everyone

[@jimbajamba9887]

I remember him specifically grinding levels on the first stage for a very long time

[@Bell.-]

I don't see many people talk about the Disgaea games very often anymore, so this was a treat

[@Enmaphy]

Disgaea 2 is also my first Disgaea where I got a character (obv Adell) to 9999. It has been pretty easy since 3. And yeah, the story stages in disgaea are basically just a tutorial lol

[@hikariyagami4005]

First Disgaea game I played was Afternoon of Darkness. Honestly, Disgaea made me so desensitized to grinding that I'm surprised other people can't stand it.

[@johnnyboy6788]

When you mentioned he was scared of the letter p I joked out loud saying “what like doopliss?”, And then you showed him right after you said it and that caught me off guard in the best way possible.

[@blueberry_cola5790]

Trust me. It gets good after 3600 hours.

[@ColinJoesseppiVEVO]

Average RPG Fan

[@Rat_Fบcker]

average Warframe playtime

[@DeathByAnvil]

mmo players

[@blueberry_cola5790]

@@DeathByAnvil tru

[@Flunkussy]

@Rat_Fบcker As somebody with more thank 2k hours in Warframe, I can confirm this is true.

[@Kramerica962]

He is still around on Facebook. Surprisingly he is way more independent these days, he even goes camping on his own and swims in the ocean. Watching him become independent over the past decade despite his issues has been inspiring as fuck. If a guy like him can find the strength to get out there and try new things you can too.

[@CharlesFitzgerald-pm5uk]

That's so true.I am going on holiday on my own next month, I'm a bit scared but I'm going too go for it

[@dreioo8759]

​@@CharlesFitzgerald-pm5ukhave a great trip! Enjoy and take a photo or two to have as memory

[@stevenscott1479]

Just learning about this dude and I honestly want to cry. He's living his best life while I sit here and play Skyrim in my underwear

[@hiruluk]

That's amazing, thanks for the update

[@stuartshaw6904]

This Guy is 100% on the spectrum and major props to him as well for overcoming some of his issues.

[@SeSmokki]

I have nothing but respect for this guy. Dude has strong mental issues, but doesn't let them hold him back from reaching his potential. I also suffer from OCD, so I can relate to his phobias and rituals.

[@McFwoupson]

Yeah i was gonna say those phobias sound very much like OCD

[@whodat1884]

"Doesn't let it hold him back" >is a grown shut in who lives with parents and is scared of water.

[@maxwellpaynewell5305]

​@whodat1884 finish the video next time. He's overcome his phobia of water, and he runs a successful patreon page which funds his lifestyle and his pursuits in game development. He's accomplished more than a lot of people his age, all while living with a mind that most people could not accomplish those things with

[@PapaJoJ]

@@whodat1884 >doesn't watch more than half the video >starts making false assessment of said person in video

[@whodat1884]

@RotaryPoweredRX sorry you feel deeply connected to a shut in, I'm sure he's stoked you defend his honor online. He'd thank you, but he's too busy degreaseing pizzas with paper towels.

[@BugsyFoga]

“What can possibly go wrong “ - Bubsy

[@doukzu]

5:30 I love that he says he's reached lv.999 "for the first time" in that game

[@doukzu]

Also keeping a dream log like that is so cool actually, I try to keep a dream log because mine are so out there so it's just cool seeing someone go above and beyond. Sometimes they're worthy little gems and it's fun to read about a dream I completely forgot happened.

[@-.bella.-]

level 9999 actually lol and also i dont think you know what disgaea is but you can reset levels and level up to 9999 again ( and thats kinda the whole point of the game )

[@doukzu]

@@-.bella.- oooh okay thank you for the context! The way the clip was played it seemed like a way crazier achievement

[@philipearakaki]

​@@-.bella.- yup, and its somewhat Doable in the later item worlds, its not harder than say, taking a pokémon team to level 100

[@lukashenrique4295]

@@philipearakaki his strategy of cloning lv 9999 golems, I tried it for a bit, don't remember it being better than Dimensional Hall honestly, since the first game only has one clone panel not two or three at the same time like in later games but I know he plays the PS2 ver that only has COO, so could be a bit better I guess, just not as fun killing 1 mob by 1 every turn :p

[@nebula0024]

Very interesting! Regarding his games, I really like the parallax effects he's produced in those. It really gives them a sense of depth and scope, because it goes *way* back!

[@UnbreakableArachnid]

That clip of him in the water at the end is so wholesome which is something I’d never expect and yet very heartwarming

[@mytheoryofmind]

Buying the book off of amazon DOES NOT help Nick at all. I saw him talking about this on facebook.

[@Cyberfan2167]

Damn,that's a bummer, how so though?

[@GarryGri]

How? Dosn't he have the rights to it?

[@Senriam]

@@GarryGriAmazon publishing takes an absurd amount. You basically get pennies. Source: am self published and formally published through Amazon. Self publishing is the way to go.

[@fk3239]

I love the dude, but I don't see that book getting published outside of an extremely one sided deal like that.

[@hajarmdn4883]

@@fk3239self publishing is a thing and in this case it would pay more.

[@MeatMonsterMan]

He suffered being a fan of Bubsy, so we didn't have to... Damn... 😮

[@xord6286]

The Bubsy Critic.....

[@dicapriodelorean2888]

honestly I think him being a Bubsy fan made him ascend to the level he is now

[@Raggsocka]

That's a few levels above "dying for our sins".

[@breadslice9184]

It's refreshing to watch a video on just an interesting, cool, and chill guy instead of someone to hate or fear. Thank you for sharing Ryan to your audience. This was delightful.

[@viljamtheninja]

"Neurodipurrgent" I LOVE that you actually implemented the terrible Bubsy puns. So many love/hate memories from playing this game as a kid before I knew enough to realize what a terrible game it was. 12:35 That pizza grease looks like a fish. Just an observation. Overall impressions, this was a genuinely heart-warming video and I enjoyed the positive attitude. Fascinating guy, and genuinely impressive to see a guy with such weird issues and phobias toward the end swimming in the bluest water I've ever seen. Sure, it's part of the internet, but anyone who harasses this guy deserves to have their balls removed (and if they don't have any, surgically implant balls on them just to remove them afterwards).

[@olimarfunk]

Game boy version went hard and I will die on this hill

[@TienShinhan-o7x]

In regards to the “mind game”, it’s embarrassing, but I do something similar where I have a world constructed in my head that I “zone out” to. It has consistent lore, characters and locations. I think it started when I was younger as a way to help me to go to sleep, but I think I understand what Mr. Nick is trying to express.

[@An_Actual_Rat]

If you haven't already, you should probably try some artistic medium (drawing, writing, music) to depict it. That stuff is great fodder for expression.

[@TheBrickWhisperer]

I have that too, they have their own languages and religions, basically my interests blended in LOTR / Avatar: The Last Airbender style worldbuilding. been doing since I was like 11, im now 22

[@RosesTeaAndASD]

I thought it was just an autistic thing and that I was the only one. Yay! We're just all creative people🫶😁

[@JJFBlaster]

I do this, too, and I don't know how to stop.

[@dsdork9028]

I have a world too. It’s something I like to imagine whenever I like to go for walks. Deep lore, crazy characters , savage beasts you name it. It’s probably in it. Lana x Maggie for life!

[@Stephillpotten]

What a coincidence I was thinking about how Ulillillia did IRL minmaxing before "looks maxing" etc. became a thing this morning

[@archieblue2801]

I'm glad I stumbled across this video it was entertaining & really intriguing & the fact it didn't end up with Ryan (another oddball internet personality) being a creep, pdf file, scammer or some sort of psychopath but actually a morally decent human being that minds his own business & shares his passions & thoughts online to those who want to listen was an absolutely welcome & refreshing conclusion. He's still weird af but in a quirky way where he seems harmless & intriguing with no ill intent.

[@MrDN83]

The end scene with him in the blue water talking about it put a real big smile on my face.

[@DimmyJimmey]

10:42 He's going to SCREAM if he gets P rank in Pizza Tower

[@yeetman1344]

a story of man who played so many video games he devoled the ability so essentially Lucid daydream is not what i was expecting

[@Valstrax420]

Being able to lucid dream on the fly, wow that's actually incredible. I've never had one my whole life.

[@richarddavis8863]

​​@@Valstrax420I used to get them from my late teens to mid 20s, I miss them but I also used to get sleep paralysis but I don't miss that at all. They were definitely related somehow

[@Valstrax420]

@richarddavis8863 I've gotten sleep paralysis once in my entire life and It was when I was around 14, I was able to forcefully move myself and touch the dark entity taunting me, to which it disappeared and I've I've never got it ever again.

[@richarddavis8863]

@@Valstrax420 yeah it's terrible. I used to try to drag my fingers into my mouth to bite them to wake up. Usually didn't work and made my fingers sore the next day lol. Once my mom's dog ran in and woke me up when I was moaning and I was so grateful

[@RexyIsLiveYT]

I would have never known about this guy, he seems like such a delight! Thank you, and Thank you Ulillillia too.