The Struggle of Self Condemnation

[@shirkiahbull]

i can totally understand whoever wrote this question. ruminate over sin or a disturbance, check socials and think that every statement that being made we conform it to what we are spinning about and think, “This is confirmation!!” 😅you’re not alone, God is with you and isn’t a taskmaster that’s over your shoulder yelling all the time. it takes time and patience to re learn who God is as a loving father to us❤️

[@CharlieBass5]

Fair enough, I am very impatient. I spent so long in the gutter, thinking that God wanted nothing to do with me. I knew God existed because I was spared of situations that had very bad results. I knew it wasn't luck because I would have won the lottery at least once. I couldn't understand why. Someone informed me that God loved me, all of a sudden it clicked. I found DeJesus because I have no understanding of the "HEART". We're to love God with all our Heart, Mind, Soul, and Strength. This is where I'm at a loss. I see Matthew 24 clearly and I'm approaching 70. I don't want to be one of the "Depart from Me, I never knew you".

[@CharlieBass5]

@@Callumxfisher I know I'm out of touch with the whole of me. I'm trying to accept that I have a heart and soul, apparently these are tools. I'm to love with God with all my heart and soul, I don't know how to connect to them. I have a strong aptitude for mechanical things, I can see how a vehicle engine works, I've had my hands on the components, they're tangible. Heart and soul are no where on sight. I KNOW there is a GOD, I'm to believe in Him, I don't understand believing vs knowing. Yes I'm a head guy, this is part of all of my problem, overthinking is easy and I don't know any other way.

[@tonypino5415]

I think victory in the Christian life all comes down to surrender. Which feels impossible when you have trust issues to begin with. But I recently heard a prayer I would like to share that helped me. "LORD I'm willing to be made willing". I don't want to waste my life in bondage. Whatever it takes I want to surrender and let Jesus live through me.

[@shotgun6160]

For so much time i thought i was alone in all of this……yet here we are

[@NikoFinn]

Ironic thing in my experience is that when you have ocd and chronic anxiety it tells you, by fear, that God cannot be so good and gracious and loving through His Son, that you must personally suffer a bit to be accepted or do some work in legalism to experience God's love, but that legalism is exactly where bondage is. Law was given to show us how sinful we are, our sin issues get worse when we focus on our issues and elevate them. Freedom is found in God's grace, love, in His Son. Just the loving process in grace, step by step, is what gives us freedom in Christ from obsessive thoughts also as God changes our minds and stabilizes us. I do live in a whoooole lot of fear-driven life. I'd really wanna be love-driven. With fear is always condemnation, perfectionism, and disturbances, and pressure. In love is understanding, grace, process, and pressure is off so you can take your time to just be you

[@charlabarnett6274]

You have taught me that I have to unlearn, learned behaviors. "Who told you that?" Shaming, Blaming, Criticizing, Judging, and Condemning. Regret and guilt. None of that is from God. It is Legalism grooming.

[@thatlittlelight2420]

I definitely relate to God's grace feeling too good to be true. Like it's basically impossible 90% of the time in my head even though I know it's true.

[@elysehenderson3598]

Mark, this is PRECISELY my struggle. I’ve dealt with condemnation for many years and it has morphed into Real/False Memory OCD. What I find interesting, is the idea that I’ve adopted that tells me I’m alone in this journey. Clearly this is a somewhat common issue (There is nothing new under the sun” Ecclesiastes 1:9). I’ve sought God about this issue on multiple occasions, but I know things will turn around in His timing. Thank you (again) for ALWAYS bringing a very bright light to our situation. May God continue to bless you!

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

Oh please pray for my obsessive inner critic. It's killing me inside.

[@leonas3840]

Brother I am having the same problem but when I finally couldn't take it anymore I confessed my all and worst sins to God! Then I had to forgive everyone from my heart.

[@miggy2g]

🔥 helpful teaching right here

[@Itskate12345_]

I want to give whoever wrote this email a hug, I can relate so deeply to this.. I pray you find peace that only God can give in Jesus name and thank you again Mark for speaking truth!

[@stever507]

I can relate to everything your saying here. I analyze everything I say and do. Then I wonder how people interpret my words and actions. I will ruminate for days and sometimes weeks over it. God! Please help me control my tongue by the power of the Holy Spirit which leads to life Please transform my heart and give me wisdom . Teach me to hold my tongue, to speak with love, and self control.

[@stever507]

I’m also an expert in worse case scenarios

[@douglasgarcia777]

Thank you no greater love than that of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ 🙏🏼

[@CakesDontLie]

This was right on time. I thank the Lord He is using you to bless others.

[@BohoHobo948]

Thankyou for this. You've explained the self-condemnation process so well. I've fallen into the trap of rehashing my past sins over and over again. I still feel ashamed of things I've done - but I know Jesus has forgiven me - and I know His sacrifice and perfection is enough to cover all my sins, past, present and future. What a mighty, wonderful, loving saviour we have. I am very thankful to God for the gift of His Son.

[@loriwelch9015]

What helps me when the past comes up - I remember the Scripture- “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” ‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5‬:‭17‬

[@angies8146]

Amazing ! Yes after 5 yeats no contact 25 years of therapy decades as a Christian Jesus you’re right ! Sometimes the guilt of protecting myself comes as condemnation. Thank you for speaking Gods truth ! You are a blessing

[@sarahm3614]

This is sooo appropriate for me today! I have the disease of rumination.

[@EYMmusic]

Much love, thank you Mark for all that you do.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

This condemnation is dreadful. The dread of condemnation is even more scary. 😢

[@PPP-uc9my]

Hi Mark. I came across some of your videos about a year ago. I'm not one to attribute divine intervention as an explanation, but I couldn't have found them at a better time. You've been a tremendous help. Thank you for your work.

[@olympia.i_rea]

Excellent and extraordinary explanations on self condemnation as well as including your resource library on this topic! 🌟

[@megaboss8172]

We don't have to feel condemned. Because we have not been condemned because we belong to Jesus he loves us so much and is not judging nor condemning us because he loves us and we are not judged nor condemned because we belong to him were saved by his blood and grace. He loves us so much. And when he died on the cross all are sin guilt and shame is taken away because Jesus found us and pulled us and saved us. were his sheep and his forever🩸✝️

[@Tyrus919]

Much needed sir. Thank you 🤎

[@Feathers_and_rivers]

Great video! Thanks Mark

[@JanetElevating]

Love your podcasts Jesus! Whew, this is a tough way to live. I never thought that there are people who live like this. Wow makes me wonder about some people I know.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

This was a great one! It's still a journey. How's it going your way Pastor Mark?

[@1975Godmade]

I’m so glad this was chosen for you to speak about. I could have wrote everything she said❤❤❤ onto being healed… thank you so very very much to you both !!

[@iseeyou5791]

GOD BE THE GLORY, GLAD TO SEE I AIN'T THE ONLY ONE WITH GHIS EXPERIENCES. THE RIGHT VIDEO AT THE RIGHT TIME

[@tatianaG]

I thank God for you. God bless you so much.

[@histiming144]

Omgosh, thank you so much for this post.

[@richellepeace4457]

I don't need to do it myself, God reminds me what I'm worth. I keep being a scapegoat in things beyond my control, he allows it and I'm never vindicated. Most of this has been by his other children. This has been my life, he never vindicates me, its a!ways just remains words on a page. Lack of belief, yes, repetitive disappointments do that. It is obvious I'm an afterthought.

[@NurembergSwampWater]

Yes, this is a big one for me.

[@CharlieBass5]

In my mind my whole life is big REGRET!!! I'm probably missing something here but so what. I see a dilemma, we can't fix ourselves but we have to do the work to get any kind of results. I'm the one that cause all the problems in my life by my choices, The responsibility is all mine for the work to be done in order to make any changes. I'm the problem so how can I be the solution?

[@heavenlyrealmreverb]

Whewwww Charles!! You summed up the same thing that I've been inquisitive about for years! We need our minds to make the changes but how do we use, for the better, THE SAME THING that torments and beats us everyday? How can we "solve" the problem with the problem (mind)?

[@CharlieBass5]

@@heavenlyrealmreverb Yeah man, we're missing something. We solve the problem wth tool that is the caused the problem. I have made bad choices all my life. I need my thought process to become unstuck from this way of thinking. I have no confidence in the way I think, at 68 most of those years have been bad choices. I call this a normal function for me, more app to make bad choices than good one. Just being honest here.

[@annec988]

@@CharlieBass5 I'm 65 and have lived my whole life, it seems, making bad choices, mistakes. Living in constant worry. Struggle with dealing with all my failures even though I know God loves me. OCD/guilt/rumination/depression/anxiety. Trying to control. Exhausting! I love God and I thank God for His grace in reassuring me that despite everything I have messed up I am still loved. Amen.

[@CharlieBass5]

@@annec988 I've known that God existed most of my life. Long time ago I decided that God didn't want anything to do with me. I had started smoking, drinking, and lusting after some of the girls in my class. I went down hill from there. I was baptized around the age of 7. Raised by my seemingly religious grandmother from the late 50s until her death in 1968 in North Carolina. I was sent off to reform school, tried to join the Marines at 17 while in Oregon. I knew I needed to be fixed, so joining the Marines I thought I would be sent to Vietnam to be killed or cured. The parent's consent go lost in the mail. At 18 I joined the Air Force. Long story short, out of the AF after 18 months, got married from there I continued to shot myself in the foot. Stopped drugs and drinking 2010, the reality of what God had continually was obvious. The problem with that was I didn't understand why. If I was God I would have gotten rid of me a long time ago. Someone told me that God loved me and that started this insanity that I'm in now. How do I love God with all my Heart and Soul when I don't know what they are. This is my dilemma. Sorry for being so wordy.

[@CharlieBass5]

Since God let's me do me and I've done it most of my life, I don't know how to get out of His way. I can't let go of control.

[@discountplumbing7855]

Wow amazing

[@misaelvidrio]

Hello Mark, I appreciate the content! Could you maybe break down some scripture to reinforce the liberating power of Grace. I was studying this tonight and just feel if ANYONE should have a guilt free life or should be Christians. But often times it is exactly the opposite. Thanks again for this work. 🙏

[@JuniesWorld14]

Wow! 🤯

[@TAQ2Music]

i love your videos so much but i am so overwhelmed. I don't know where to start. I know you have a ton of resources but I am unempoyed with no income. even if i had funds i don't know what i need to start with. I feel so hopeless. I don't even have a pastor or church family to help me through this.

[@histiming144]

Hi Mark, thank you for all these amazing videos. How can questions be submitted to you and Melissa? I looked for an e-mail address on the website and did not see one. Thank you so much.

[@marktdejesus]

markdejesus.com/questions

[@tomb7545]

What if the condemnation does not come from the past but on the contrary, from the lack of feeling guilty about something we did in the past.There was a time in my life (years) that I stopped going to church (I felt I was left to my own devices with my problems, the consequences of leaving my abusive husband) I understand I was rebellious but it actually made me feel better about myself. Now that I'm trying to get closer to God and make things right, I often hear this voice in my mind that I'm selfish, I just want to be with God because there is noone and nothing else left, that I don't feel bad about committing sin, I'm just desperate. It makes it very difficult for me to read the Bible, listen to worship songs or even go to church. Cause the sad truth is that anxiety often starts when I try to be with God.

[@Atiannaaaa]

God’s love is steadfast and unfailing, he is the same forever. He will never draw you away he longs for you to draw near so he can draw near to you 🫶🏼. He loves you and doesn’t condemn you, but satan is the accuser of the brethren trying to accuse you. God bless you sis keep drawing near 💗

[@ploomb1180]

That part about going to God because you've got no one else to turn to, I'm still there and have had those same thoughts crop up. For me, it felt as though I was just using God and perhaps you may feel the same. But, what I've come to realise, and have started to remind myself of through God's help, is that He wants us to turn to Him when we're in that situation and rely on Him like you're doing. And through time, you'll naturally want to stop sinning through spending time with God and loving Him to the point where you hate sinning for many reasons like how God doesn't like it. Plus, you'll even go to Him when things are looking up in life and you have others as again, you'll have that love for Him. Perhaps you've resolved this issue now, but if you haven't then I hope this brings a little comfort to you. I'd love to hear as to whether you've overcame this problem or have atleast started to as I have, or if I've misunderstood/read incorrectly then I'd love to give an ear. Not even to try to offer my solutions, but just allow you to vent to someone.

[@JoeBenson-ig5cw]

People like me are scared to go to God sometimes as we are scared He ll show us our shortfall, what we should ( or should not) have done. At the core- this is a law-based/ works- based mindset which comes from the devil. The truth is - Goc loves us Unconditionally and I suspect THAT is what He wants to tell us.

[@jessicarowling]

I miss joining lives

[@christyvelez2851]

Hi Mark, Do you offer counseling?

[@jewishbride5010]

Praise God for victory over evil, praise God for setting his people free of abusive circumstances! In accordance with this word and romans 2:1, romans 8:1, john 3:16, 2 corinthians 6:14-18 I bind one condemning another to know condemning oneself while binding to hell every desire condemning another and therefore oneself in my life, the lives of my family, friends, colleagues, neighbours, acquitances, opponents and the body of Christ, binding to hell every unequal yoke and common share with anyone lacking to know one is condemned because of condemning another while lacking the freedom of desiring condemning another, in the name and blood of Jesus Christ, amen and hallelujah, glory to God ❤: "You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things."

[@debracoffman4218]

Mark...do you have any teaching on oppression? .

[@CharlieBass5]

I'm just trying to get close to God and can't seem to make it happen. The last time I was in church on a regular basis was before I was 12. How do you deal with those that are like me?

[@kermkerm]

Hey Mark, I need some advice. I have some pretty bad religious OCD, and it’s really hard to explain and I don’t know what to do. I have an intense fear of being condemned and not being able to be forgiven because of evils. I want to do ERP, but I’m scared that if I say things out loud it becomes serious.

[@maggiep265]

That's the first time I had come across the word "rumination". Does that mean a negative, condemning way of thinking over and over again something we've done wrong in the past?

[@marktdejesus]

Check out my videos on rumination

[@arrenjaymeabel946]

How can i avail the book?and how much?

[@Grateful964]

😢🙏

[@pigjubby1]

What happens when the worry becomes real?

[@bryonyweir1291]

what if you're not saved and struggling with this? I'm constantly worried of commiting unforgivable sins

[@JoeBenson-ig5cw]

The only unforgivable sin is the sin of Unbelief ( dont believe Jesus is the Son of God: dont believe His payment on the cross paid for all your sins, dont believe He rose from his grave ( tomb) 3 days later. The Good news is God offers Salvation as a free gift of Grace by faith at any moment in time you have breath. It saves the soul; removes the guilt; and puts your mind at peace. It's a beautiful thing.

[@flowbossandre]

You are saved when you say outloud to God that you believe in your heart that Jesus died & rose again to save you from your sins. Romans 10:9 if you openly declare that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. If you believe that you're ALREADY saved by Jesus

[@Anonymous-uz4pg]

I’m like Esau I ran out of repents if you have a habitual sin you csnt get out of it’s over right?

[@BlackOmEga_2099]

I believe that happens when you die. After you pass this world there’s no more chances left to repent

[@JoeBenson-ig5cw]

No it's not over- Paul said in Roman's 7 that the Good he wanted to do- He didn't do. AND THE EVIL he didnt want to do- he kept doing it. He- maybe like you-- was in a personal torture inside his spirit- and lamented- "Who can deliver me- who can save me from myself!?"...and then came the answer Roman's 8:1- there is therefore; now; no condemnation to those in Christ .

[@elysehenderson3598]

Mark, this is PRECISELY my struggle. I’ve dealt with condemnation for many years and it has morphed into Real/False Memory OCD. What I find interesting, is the idea that I’ve adopted that tells me I’m alone in this journey. Clearly this is a somewhat common issue (There is nothing new under the sun”Ecclesiastes 1:9). I’ve sought God about this issue on multiple occasions, but I know things will turn around in His timing. Thank you (again) for ALWAYS bringing a very bright light to our situation. May God continue to bless you!

[@n8branim]

Thanks so much! Hit home. Have you read "Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinner" by Bunyan?

[@elysehenderson3598]

@@n8branim I’ve not read that book, but am more than willing to look into additional resources for help. Thank you for the suggestion! ♥️