THE TRUTH ABOUT MY WEIGHT GAIN | AN OPEN, HONEST CHAT ABOUT MY FEARS

[@siennakay3922]

this randomly showed up in my home feed and as someone who previously had an ED i think videos like these are so important ♡

[@HollyGabrielle]

i think they are too 💚🙌🏻☺️

[@matthewdubeau2802]

For a second I thought you meant erectile dysfunction until I realized the context of the video lmaoooooo In all seriousness, hope you’re doing better 👍

[@user-lm6jz6gr9q]

as someone who previously had an ED I think videos like these are triggering. but each to their own I guess

[@helenmcnair4284]

@@HollyGabrielle I think that the removal of some of your old content should be strongly considered. I posted a comment a couple of years ago to say that your were clearly demonstrating orthorexic behaviours. So many of the content posts over the years have been to demonstrate what your version of healthy meant, when in fact a few of us could see many red flags. One issue to consider - in addition to the usual Influencer role that your clearly enjoy (and why not, absolutely) - is that you achieved a place at a leading university to study biology, which could be viewed by some as lending a more weighted credence to anything that you discuss that could be termed biological in any way. You have also discussed on many occasions your interest in nutrition and studying nutrition which again could lend credence when you are discussing food behaviours, to anyone going through an impressionable phase (regarding food) in their life. There was the video about oil in diet in which you took the trouble to add sources that backed up your viewpoint, calorie counted WIEIAD after your calorie intake had been questioned where you started eating your mum's vegan icecream to make up calories at the end of the day (you didn't appear to be impressed with it, and it looked like you were trying to make up calories). And so many more. As your main following appears to be late teen and young adults who could be looking for affirmation of their own thoughts and behaviours around food - it would be understandable to think that they may have found solace and approval in your old content that may or may not have been healthy for them. I would strongly suggest that a thorough re-appraisal and potential removal of some of the most obvious content be considered.

[@epochabi]

I have an ED but my antidepressants and anti-psychotics have made me gain weight. I've gone from a size 6 to a 10-12 in the space of 3 months. I'm so self-critical and never go outside anymore. Ive been forced into recovery and its truly mental turmoil. This video is amazing, thank you so much for it. i just want bodies to be normalised again.

[@HollyGabrielle]

i'm so sorry to hear you're going through this abi, and i can totally relate to the feelings of your body changing! recovery will take time but if you're following professional advice, then they'll help you find yourself again. trust me, it's a tough tough journey but things will fall into place! stay strong ✨💚

[@cheche2174]

Hi Abi, I understand from the opposite spectrum. I have an overeating disorder to put it simply and I am critical of my body and others are critical of my body too. Every day I get reminded that I should be ashamed. We need to remember though that there is a lot more to us than our bodies. We are amazing and strong women who will overcome this: there is nothing ‘wrong’ with us. You’re so brave and just keep going. Every day is a new day. Sending so much love and hugs.💜☀️🙏🏻🌻

[@Thefitty]

@@cheche2174 thank you for sharing that you come from teh otoher spectrum. I can relate to your experiences!

[@work-in-progress]

I've been watching your videos since 2018, and your growth since then is so admirable. I'm Indian and here fatphobia is so normalised that random strangers feel the need to force their opinions onto others with 0 empathy. I'm not obese, but I'm a UK size 14, which isn't considered healthy in our society. Fatphobia from others including my parents genuinely put me in a very toxic spot from a young age. But I'm gradually accepting myself and relearning that eating healthy portions and exercising is about one's well-being and not just weight loss. So thank you for sharing your journey with us, it must be very scary to be so vulnerable on the internet, I respect your authenticity and resilience so much! 💛

[@HollyGabrielle]

ah this must be so incredibly tough! but as you said, it's *not* just about what you look like, it's so so much more about how you feel 💚💚💚 sending positive vibes your way ✨

[@anumeghabhowmick3063]

✋ it's been very difficult for me. My insecurity is actually a such a paradox. On one hand, I've been teased and dragged about how thin I am. And I get it, I've always been thin. So I've always wanted to gain weight. Then another side of me looks at social media and I wonder just how much weight will be too much for me. And I've realised, and actually you've been a big part of me finally coming to this revelation. That as long as im healthy and I'm happy with my body, weight gain won't matter to me :) Thank you so so so much for all you've done because it's impacted me too

[@kaitlynbryson]

Very relatable

[@HollyGabrielle]

this is so amazing to hear and so so true! what is healthy for you, will look very different to someone else! thank you for sharing 💚✨

[@sistersasmr3477]

One of the hardest things for me was going through "puberty" essencially after years of being underweight, etc at 20/21. There is no one to relate to, unlike when you are a teenager. So this video was very helpful just to feel less alone!

[@giuliavola_writer]

Hi Holly. I've waited a few days to watch this particular video of yours and now I couldnt be more happy to have watched it. I struggled ( and I still struggle sometimes ) so so bloody much with weight gain and food and my body image that I was kinda scared to hear what you had to say about it. You had me in tears. happy tears! Im so proud of you, of me and of every single person that have been struggling and has recoreved now. We are all unique and wonderful beings. Please enjoy yourself with all your love. Loads of love to you Holly and to everybody reading this. We've got this.

[@ellaroberts2336]

Thank you for having the courage for making this video! You have made many important and very open videos lately which will help so many people! We can see that you have changed and grown so much lately. ♥♥

[@HollyGabrielle]

no worries and thank you ella! your support means a lot to me 💚

[@sarareynoso1380]

I’m so glad you’re sharing this. Thank you! I have suffered from this since I was a child as you said. And I think it’s time to make it less of a tabu and share it more so that we can save more children and people from this :)

[@holliesweet6736]

I often look at pictures of me this time last year. I was skinnier and this makes me not want to eat. I feel guilty after eating unhealthily but I'm trying to be strong, thank you for sharing this and telling me it is ok ✨

[@Trainerlife8805]

I appreciate how you articulate so many of my thoughts. I’m 54 & you’re having a positive affect me. Wisdom is ageless☺️ thank you! (Rewatch this vid of yourself in a few decades, you will be an encouragement to yourself😉)

[@DemetriPanici]

As someone who stopped being a full-time student-athlete, I often struggle with any sort of minor weight gain mentally. Great open and honest conversation!

[@HollyGabrielle]

thanks for tuning in!!! 🙌🏻

[@DrAllyGreen]

When my friends were pregnant their biggest fear at the beginning of their pregnancy was gaining weight - it was heartbreaking to hear that at such a special time in their life that gaining weight was consuming their thoughts - and this was before social media - I can't imagine what it's like now with so much pressure on women.

[@HollyGabrielle]

oh wow and i agree, i can't imagine the pressures now! 🥺

[@DrAllyGreen]

@@HollyGabrielle I've just seen a book in WHSmiths called clean and lean pregnancy! It's just so wrong!

[@tv-ep5gl]

@@DrAllyGreen and cruelty towards your unborn baby 🥲

[@priiiiii1]

I'm in recovery and these are some reminders that really help me deal with weight gain:- 🔹Embrace what your body can do! 🔹Extra fat just means extra protection from this world! 🔹You were never supposed to be the same size for the rest of your life. Bodies grow and change! 🔹A healthier you is definitely a happier you! 🔹 People love you for who you are and not how you look! Feel free to add more guys!

[@HollyGabrielle]

i love the positivity 💚🙌🏻

[@vishakhasingh7132]

As someone who suffers from PCOD from the last 5 years, I can assure you that weight gain takes a toll on mental health and self image. I was 5'5 and 50kgs. I used to be soo confident in my body but due to PCOD and heavy medicines I gained 28 kgs. I started hating the way I looked. That double chin, stretch marks, EVERY THING! I already suffer from depression and anxiety and 'self hatred' joined the family. I didn't want to go anywhere because people would constantly point out- oh don't u look healthy! I hated everything about myself. I know this sounds dramatic, but it's so true. As I started going to therapy because of my depression and anxiety and weight gain impact (on mental health) I started loving myself more. I can't change the fact that as long as I have PCOD, weight gain will be the first and major side effect of it. I have learnt to embrace it. Thank you Holly for sharing your story.

[@ioannazachou362]

Thank you for being so open and brave about opening up on this sensitive and very important topic!Great work Holly!🥰💚💚

[@HollyGabrielle]

no worries and thank you! 💚💚

[@ninamaurer4140]

Thank you for this! Your videos are truly incredible, real and honest and I’m so great full and thankful for everything you have been so open to share 💓 you are incredible and deserve all the best x

[@DD-hb9gr]

🙋 I gained 10 lbs in the last three months (pandemic, extended family at home, finishing a thesis, stress, dealing w heartbreak) and it’s so easy to get into a negative thought cycle - still thinking through it all. Thank you for making this video 💜

[@helena003]

Tank you so much for this i struggle with anorexia and bulimia and seeing my body....I hate how thin it is and malnourished but my mind fear weight gain even though technically I want it (to get my life back to be warmer to function etc.) its just such a mental battle and needs to be talked about more. Self love and appreciating what the body does and fuelling it is such a big part and I have to remember not to let the ED side of my brain take control as it is illogical to want to be unhealthy and comes from a place of self hate

[@mathilden7955]

I've recently had such realizations, your video feels so validating 🥰🥰🥰 thanks for opening up, Holly 😌

[@HollyGabrielle]

i'm glad you're finding yourself again 💚💚💚

[@PhoebeJones]

Thankyou for being so open and honest about something that effects so many! 💖

[@daily_hee_5]

This very honest! Thank you for sharing such hard stories

[@Namikaa2003]

I relate so hard with the part about being worried about what family members would think about weight gain. Ill be completely honest, up until a few years ago, I too was kinda engrossed about thigh gaps and would find myself noticing if people I knew had them. Looking back on it, my oh my that was such a weird trend😂 I feel we should teach to children that it's completely normal to gain weight when we get older and that it's not always something negative.

[@HollyGabrielle]

feeling judged by others, especially your family, is so tough and yes . . . the thigh gap trend is so ridiculous!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@benjaminazvipelj3915]

Holly thank you! I see myself in you. You are such an angel for us

[@HollyGabrielle]

this is so kind - thank you! 💚

[@JoanaSilva-be3un]

You look the same though, but as you said, the most important thing is that your health is better and your body is functioning normally now

[@SamElle]

i used to be terrified of going into recovery cos of weight gain. It honestly stopped me from getting better for a long long time

[@HollyGabrielle]

it held me back too, but i've now just allowed my body to grow with me as i mature ✨

[@Trainerlife8805]

Agreed!

[@cheche2174]

What an amazing young woman you are Holly. Sending so much love and gratitude 🙏🏻💜🌸👏

[@davidthescottishvegan]

Holly is such a brave and courageous person for making this video and thanks👍 for making it. Yes🤚 I have had weight gain , usually when I have mentally I haven't been feeling my best which leads to me not eating the healthiest foods. Love 🥰this video and love 💕beautiful, gorgeous and lovely Holly.

[@zziniko]

Thank you so much for talking about things, that are so important!!!

[@charlotterose2989]

Your videos are so helpful... thank you ♥️

[@Emma-hi5cv]

Thank you so much Holly! You help so much people with your video ☺️

[@camillasecchi5626]

just thank you so much for this video❤️

[@kevincorcoran7632]

Just having read the comments before adding my 2 cents worth and it's clear to see how you are, yet again, positively touching the lives of Holly Nation!👏🤗😊🌞 Thank you for sharing your celebration with us Holly and after having gone through some recurring health issues in the last week or so, I watched this video through tears of TOTAL joy for you!!! From the time I first found you and traveled through Oz with you, you have always been in control of individual bits and pieces of your life, but one can achieve very little satisfaction with just some of the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle. Physically, you look FABULOUS Holly and you now have such a constant GLOW that I put on sunglasses before clicking on your videos😎 but, more importantly, you are glowing from the inside too and oozing pride and joy and self-confidence for what you've accomplished and how that has allowed you to find all those missing puzzle pieces which have allowed you to create a truly BEAUTIFUL picture of YOU!!! Well done Holly and keep up the good work! 👍👏 Stay happy, stay safe and keep being the Holly we ALL love💖

[@Ella-nz6yy]

🙋i do... It's pretty difficult to find a balance... But i try to exercise (for being more healthy) and try not pay too much attention on the weight. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤

[@HollyGabrielle]

it's definitely not about what you look like! ✨💚

[@stuartkeylock4199]

I am so happy that you have opened up I love to see more Vlogs I love to see 2021 Vacation ones and how is your week been

[@beckysblurredperspective]

0 secs in and ... 🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️ Now having had watched this video, I relate to literally everything u mentioned to do with your fears. I'm stuck in the rut of this mind set. I'm starting uni next week and nervous with how I'm going to cope

[@deec6535]

My hand is up. I danced, rode horses, and swam competitively until university. Then I studied and basically nothing else. By senior year I’d developed anorexia. Graduated and moved out and that somehow was enough to get healthy. Joined the military, then went to medical school…and packed on pounds as I worked 80, 100, 120 hrs per week in residency. I just ate to suppress my (depressed) feelings starting after a bad breakup and continuing into med school and beyond (and to try to stay awake working those ridiculous hours). I’m trying so hard to get healthy again now. I just want my clothes to fit, to be comfortable being active, have my hubs be not grossed out by his wife. It’s hard. But I love running, and always have. If I can stick to a good running plan, cross train, and eat well to fuel my activities, I’d like to run a half marathon (if my posterior tibial tendon will allow that distance). Maybe now is the time I get my stuff together and finally get fit. A deployment in 2013 ruined me. I lost 15lb starving on deployment, and came home and ate EVERYTHING. I haven’t successfully lost a pound since then. (I’m

[@noura.Ah.ja_]

welcome back 😍

[@DD-hb9gr]

“Everyone’s healthy looks different” 👏👏

[@chloetunnell6767]

Have you ever considered sifting through some of your old content (back from your Cambridge days) where your mindset might not be a good reflection on the direction your channel is heading in now? I know some of your previous food related videos could be damaging to those clicking not knowing that you’re reflecting and growing 4/5 years down the line?

[@helenmcnair4284]

I think that the removal of some of the old content should be strongly considered. I posted a comment a couple of years ago that Holly was clearly demonstrating orthorexic behaviours. So many of the content posts over the years have been to demonstrate what Holly's version of healthy meant, when in fact a few of us could see many red flags. One issue to consider - in addition to the usual Influencer role - is that Holly had achieved a place at a leading university to study biology, which could be viewed by some as lending a more weighted credence to anything that she discussed that could be termed biological in any way. Holly also discussed on many occasions her interest in nutrition and studying nutrition which again could lend credence to her discussing food behaviours to anyone going through an impressionable phase in their life. There was the video about oil in diet in which she added sources that backed up her viewpoint, calorie counted WIEIAD after her calorie intake had been questioned where she started eating her mum's vegan icecream to make up calories at the end of the day. And so many more. As the main following for Holly appears to be late teen and young adults who could be looking for affirmation of their own thoughts and behaviours around food - it would be understandable to think that they may haved found solace and approval in Holly's old content that may or may not have been healthy for them. I would strongly suggest that a thorough re-appraisal and potential removal of some of the most obvious content be considered.

[@rarb1912]

Love you Holly ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@commonhuman9033]

You are the most amazing Human, so honest and inspiring …. You are genuinely glowing right now and ensuring others are finding self love …. It shows great courage to not be negative and judgemental when talking about recovery and you’ve done this so well We adore you ❤️

[@pothikkobi1437]

am just fallen for her earrings 🤩

[@TheKeyMargo]

It sounds to me as if you feared growing up rather than weight. You used weight as a way to hold onto adolescence…….no period, no relationships, etc. i think you are now coming into your true self.

[@HollyGabrielle]

very good point, and i think they both go hand in hand!

[@shannondaly5055]

I think they call it Peter Pan Syndrome 🤔

[@silvialogan9226]

I am never happy when I put on weight because I cannot fit my clothes and they become too tight on me. What can I do to lose weight very quickly and fit my clothes again?

[@sofiadanila2005]

buy new clothes that fit u

[@crisscross897]

I don’t know if anyone can relate but for me personally the hardest part is comparison. The amount of energy wasted on comparing how much I eat to how much my family members and friends eat is insane.

[@pricutie1747]

🙋🙋🙋. Yep I have n somewhat still do, but have gained weight n accepted it as well.

[@thedeidremovies]

I just completed a study on eating disorders through my university. They provided lessons, coaching, and skills to help me live a healthy and HAPPY life. So many university students struggle with eating disorders and I’m so glad you were able to share this message to your audience. You’re the bomb, Holly 💕

[@nurliebe14]

thank you!

[@rukmaniraman121]

I love you a lot but l partially understand your language because my English is not good,you are amazing and please keep motivating us,I'm from India

[@yourstudybuddy5420]

I woke up, look in the mirror today got so many things i wanna change and everybody got something to say but that just who we are .

[@AhmetKaan]

*"The person who wins, is the person who wants it the most."* This changed my life.

[@Stefan-vz7op]

Atleast keep the copy and paste to one per video dude. It is getting obnoxious

[@jkjeon8512]

I love you so much 💕💕💕

[@henaimtiyaz4189]

A great lesson for the so called people who consider a particular body size to be beautiful.

[@polinkamalinka7343]

💚💚💚

[@MyArnette]

I was so skinny in ballet and at home they called me olive oil Popeyes gal. So I was taught skinny kid skinny adult, my mom hated me being so skinny (God bless her) that she did take me to Dr. for shots to gain weight, you shouldn't see me now😥😥

[@vishakhasingh5295]

🙌

[@fearuck9058]

U really are strength for me holly💜💜

[@harryjamessmithmusic7762]

Period.

[@kevincorcoran7632]

NOT FUNNY DUDE!!!!!

[@v.mishrasart43]

Very nice👍👏😊

[@AhmetKaan]

*"Discipline is doing what you hate to do, but nonetheless doing it like you love it!"* ~ Mike Tyson

[@alexs.3383]

🙋‍♀️ Really happy for you to have made so many mindset changes to be healthier & more at peace :-) Your story is very important. In my case, it's so upsetting how much time is spoiled with fretting over my weight, health, & appearance :-/ As the 'disordered' thoughts carry on into adulthood it all feels like a big distraction to what I actually want to do with my life. And even if I recognize the irrationality, it's still difficult to overcome the mental block

[@HollyGabrielle]

oh my gosh i feel the same! i've spent so much time just worrying about my appearance, food and weight etc, it's crazy!

[@fanny.in.french]

But Holly you are still super super small... I have gained 20kilos between the worst of my ED and now and it is the worst when you try on the 4 different sizes of jeans that you have and none of them fit... 😪

[@AugherAndy]

Winder if you will crave sex etc now? Like gain a libido

[@bridgetteboodoo4483]

👋

[@hoaluu907]

🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️

[@HollyGabrielle]

💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

[@afrinamin3400]

🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️🙋‍♀️

[@grachoderunwiderstehlichen]

so what ! 🥱 i have had written months ago switch into Technic and all your "soulstorming" blow away ...Holly what is about your Bike how many miles are on the clock? Running come on you are not alone London is full of Feet-Movers -try to do something which is rare and "new" inside your Curiculum-Vitea Ms. Do you have tools -yes tools ,a workbench where you design your instrument (do not forget Dancing is with Rythmus a instrument and not only focused at Body Problems!) -Good luck (you are not empty in your brain ) BMI 18 is great no doubt!

[@Kfjfjdndjxhdjd]

double hands up

[@HollyGabrielle]

legs up!!! 😅😅

[@_kristy.xx_]

Never been this early

[@liangyuqing1420]

Sorry I just cannot help noticing the little black ear in the left lower corner. Okay, focus!

[@jadelauren2269]

Yep life really is too short to not listen to what your body wants - speaking of which... time for some chocolate :D

[@Hero-k8o]

what is your real name🤔

[@martab5733]

🙋‍♀️

[@HollyGabrielle]

thank you for being brave with me ✨

[@jamescharlesl7662]

Investing in crypto is the best way to earn financial freedom....

[@johnsonmark1360]

Without doubt crypto is so money making

[@larryjonathan1710]

I could invest in Crypto but always got confused by it’s volatility in nature

[@fergursonwatt1309]

That won't bother you if you trade with a professional like Mr Donald Marshal .

[@smithmalon8377]

Trading crypto with Donald is life changing moves

[@edwardkenneth2088]

☎①⑧④③④⑧①⓪③⑤②

[@rheyaretanyainwonderlandfa2497]

💨me!

[@dearbody8839]

Hi Holly! I experienced the same passing from an ED to gain weight (8kg in 4 months!) without explanation and not voluntarily , it was scary and more scary to not know the cause of putting so much weight in short period eating the same amounts and doing the same amount of exercise , doctors didn’t found causes cause my blood análisis are perfect and my period is back. I follow Jessica ash wellness (I highly recommend u) and apparently after strong restriction body tent to do so storage fat for safety... (in my last period being underweight I started intermittent fasting to lose more weight cause felt like I was gaining , regret so much doing such a thing because I think that is how My body end up reveling ) I am now heavier but more athletic than ever I started running to lose a bit (never happened but instead gain much resistance) and also I feel better mentally know that I research a lot about diet culture / fat shaming/ skinny shaming etc. 💭Diet culture sucks Also the worst part is what you say when you start putting your old clothes that doesn’t fit anymore or fit different (I agree is better to give them to other people or take them away ) is triggering

[@giovanamatosfranco7648]

🙋🏻‍♀️

[@harithabg1756]

🙋🙋🙋🙋

[@tylerelfling7727]

👋 weight gain, weight loss, muscle gain or loss, my genetics are a gift but also a curse 😂

[@mysmallstudycorner]

Whenever you upload videos like these I always get a little surprised that you struggled so much with these topics, I have always looked at you and never thought that anything was wrong with your body and even liked it *That sounded kind of creepy, but I don't know how to properly word it*

[@alexismundy5893]

You are beautiful too Holly

[@elbaghdadi1983]

hi babu

[@shailikakanojia3774]

I love you

[@sm-os5fq]

Handsup

[@shailikakanojia3774]

✋

[@franciskabalogh5114]

🙋🏻‍♀️😅

[@kamya_29]

Firstttt

[@akramshaikh4309]

First view

[@ritadiwan6919]

✋

[@dorasdodo]

🙋‍♀️

[@rachelrobins1161]

🙋🏻‍♀️

[@krupadnjya6995]

✋

[@LittleVenator]

🙋🏻‍♀️

[@MrPivot1233]

🖐️🖐️🖐️

[@Andi_Mue]

✋

[@reneleanor9231]

🙋‍♀️

[@jeningles]

🙋‍♀️

[@annaundchristian4047]

🙋‍♀️