The Villain In My Head - Tonee Ndungu

[@missarcastic4215]

My Mr So and So was Mr Karuiki..... a couple of degrees later and he’s still running his mouth in my head about my being inadequate. I pray for the day I wake up and not immediately think of all the things I don’t do well....I needed to hear this today. Thank you.

[@ShitawaBah]

"When we deny our stories, they define us. When we own our stories, we get to write a brave new ending." Lovely story.

[@beyondtheeye9244]

Wow

[@dianahirungu9464]

Tonee you taught me in teens church and you had the most profound effect on my life! You called out the leader in me and I hold on your words to this day. Even in your brokenness God used you to bless me and mould me. Thank you for sharing your story! You are truly are one of the most amazing people I have ever known and the best teacher I have ever had.

[@cirumuchemi2910]

So it's not just me he impacted till this day. The level of confidence he helped bring out of me is parallel to none.

[@kiringakabaka6776]

He really was one of the best teens class teachers. I hope he can see that he did a great job with us. We also worked in the same building years later and he's is still so hilarious

[@maryannsambigi2548]

Great lessons there! Serious topic told in a hilarious way

[@kristenmukami3185]

I am crying,I can relate.The Mr. So and So could also be a Mrs So and So and they sometimes show up as bosses,parents,partners.May healing be our portion.

[@itsjuliam]

So completely true!!! May we heal and heal well

[@AlbertMakambi]

You're also here???? Great minds think alike :)

[@winniewekesa6187]

So true. Especially on bosses, I never knew a stranger I met in a work place could break a person but they do. May healing be our portion indeed. Love and light all through.

[@Furaha-kg3yj]

I'm here 5 years later! That was so enlightening! I enjoyed the talk Mr Tonee!

[@simoofficial6092]

I really needed this talk. Thank you Tony for sharing this. I watched your interview somewhere and I did not know that you have such an amazing story.

[@sankaracaroline671]

You’re an exceptional human ... you’re eloquent in every way... from the cats to your superhero T-shirt to Plant sap to Mangu ... to start-ups and the wilderness of fundraising... Society thinks it knows... toxic masculinity is what we call men we can’t decipher while in true essence it’s really human toxicity that’s the issue with society right about now. I have loved your story, and how you’ve told it... I would read a book you’ve written ... Godspeed!

[@donariungu7240]

"When we deny a story it defines us, when we own it, we can write a new brave ending" I love this! Reasons I am not missing the next engage! All the best Tony, you're doing great!

[@gracedesinger7374]

This is so powerful

[@teddymugambi]

:)

[@wanjausam]

Tonee, I have met you before and I think you are brilliant. I, however, didn't know you suffered ADHD and Dyslexia a condition I also have. Teachers need to be enlightened about this condition. About Naivasha boarding, I know the school and my Uncle Mr. Wanjau was in that school. I suspect he is the one who took you through hell and I apologize on his behalf.

[@MistaOscar]

It would be nice if he apologized himself. To Tonee and the hundreds of (broken) men who passed through that ...! Have him watch this, to better make him understand what profound effect, one year of his cruelty had.

[@edgarm7521]

#@Sammy, Wanjau beat me up so many times while in that school that I have lost count. But again he taught me well. Say hi to him for me.

[@vincemulatya1946]

Sammy, your uncle really broke us. He happened to be my class teacher way back in 1993. New to the school, I will never forget how he caned us pre-crime. There was a mural being drawn using coloured chalks at the blackboard behind the class. He punished us as a warning of anyone thinking of rubbing it. This was my first encounter with psychological torture that took me over a decade to reformat to a normal young man. 18 years later I visited the school to make peace with self

[@mrarntoh]

@Sammy msafiri, unfortunately Mr. Wanjau was my so and so 87-92, He was my class teacher in 90 to 91 I reckon, he hated me and used to beat me like a burukenge, pole don't feel bad about my comment but we're all still finding ways to forget and heal out of NBBPS. It was a hell on earth surrounded by Nguna the tall thorny cactus fence that Tonny Ndungu used to write Superman in his arm.

[@TheNicktoto]

Naivasha Boys Boarding Primary SChool was quite tough then but we hacked through. cool six years class of '06. thanks for sharing this.

[@Serromusic]

This will forever move me!

[@prodkang2597]

fr!

[@carolkipsanai1075]

One of my favorite Engage talks

[@vivngarega9421]

BEST EVEEEER!!

[@hannahkinyanjui2336]

Funny, raw and sincere, master story teller, rarely do our men open up to struggling with these kind of issues, this is a NY bestseller, start writing the book bro, and the sequel...we salute you!!!

[@rebbymwawasi932]

Humorous, eloquent, engaging. It is my best.

[@estherkuria3170]

My favorite!!!!

[@divineflow2288]

A great story well narrated.. I can sense the pain of a brilliant child who was not affirmed. Our Parents of yester years were just doing what they thought was best to raise their kids but m glad nowadays we know that children learn in different ways... Especially the very super smart ones.. Tonny you are amazing and probably if you never went to that school you could have never achieved all that you have.. The experience called forth the great person that you are today.. Humbled to meet the brains behind Kitabu.. Kudos!

[@zikiimusicKenya]

Naivasha Boarding was the beginning of all my troubles, i thank you for telling it as it is! Class of 00-04

[@wanjirutaiti5603]

Listening to Tonee remind me of how misunderstood children are and how teachers need to be educated on different conditions that children may have and how to try and identify them. That Mr. So-and-So must have had his life in a mess to take it out on those kids. I think the experience that Tonee went through definitely made him stronger than he may think. With or without the Superman t-shirt he is great. I am also glad he has allowed himself to be him and not pretend to be something he is not. Great talk Tonee.

[@jajawachu549]

Oh my God. I'm a mother of 3 boys who is completely broken. I cannot afford to break them too. Thank you for sharing. I totally identify. May God give me strength to keep the correct focus.

[@jajawachu549]

@G IThanks. That's my prayer. His resilience is admirable

[@achibabs]

Broken and unbroken BUT still standing tall and doing amazing things.... You go Tonee!!!!

[@kiriupipe]

Tonee, you were always a phenomenal guy, even in campus. May your star never cease to shine. May God bless the work of your hands.

[@Limbitina14]

I've watched a lot of engage talks but this is the only one so far,that's worth hitting the like button.His honesty and self awareness is refreshing.Many of us need to figure out our inner demons and deal.

[@lucywambui1013]

This is all I needed to hear at the moment.... Am really struggling with this person seated on my mind and I believe this story has made me realize my worth and am now strong to fight my fears

[@s.zarita7726]

This is among the best Engage Talks I've listened to coz of how raw you are to admit the imperfections and resilient enough to keep fighting everyday. Thank you for sharing your life with us!!

[@TimothyOtieno_]

What a great story Tonee!! I remember interviewing you for a story about your Kitabu app back in 2016 for KTN News and your charisma just stood out! It was one of the easiest stories I ever edited. More power to you man!! God's blessings and favour in all that you will continue to do on this planet earth.

[@leahndinda1611]

I juju juju OK

[@shikohkamau3471]

I find myself going back to that particular 2016 story you did because it still is super inspiring and relevant to date.

[@Ladyfaithke]

Every time I want to re listen to this story ,my heart breaks.

[@babu25455]

I love Tonee. He's such a great orator. Especially when you listen to him in person,oh boy!

[@annemwaura3910]

why i am crying This was so amazing .Tonee Hugs...God will heal us in this journey

[@meenmohamed20]

So emotional.Another reason to be compassionate and gentle to our boys and give them the Superman T-shirt.Break down and own it,you're a hero.Loves and hugs your way.

[@norahogonji]

I keep watching this because it feels like you are telling my story...

[@aliceo9529]

Exactly my feelings... Every bit of the story is my life

[@connie7192]

At one of my jobs in Kenya that i hated i got the previledge to meet Tonny and work with Kytabu for afew days and it was great. He is a good person.

[@githunjoroge2365]

Every day their mission was to break us. I too went to that school for six years. Violence that was meted out on us in the name of discipline. 'In understanding be men" was the school motto. In some 'mind' the harsh conditions were to mold men. I think it killed the man in the boy but by His wounds we are healed.

[@joywanja8026]

Amen. Indeed by His stripes you are healed Njoroge. I am very sorry about the experience you had. Never let it define you. Sending you love.

[@Rhenadhis]

This was heart breaking and comical all in one. My heart goes out to the child who still lives in Tonee, scars and all

[@danfordabuti4591]

I always come back to listen to this story...

[@LuomamaTed]

Thank you Tonee your have helped me so much today I had somebody in my head and the helpness has been eating me

[@teobaldpamba1891]

I listen to Tonee and all i recall is naivasha was no joke... Tonee, you are talking from the Heart. I can relate. This is among my favourite talks.

[@EngageTalk]

Thank you for watching. Seems you also have a story 😃

[@evelynnjogu6516]

My heart goes out to you and my brother and every other boy who has gone through Naivasha Boys

[@winnieahero4932]

Everyone I know who went to Naivasha Boys is broken...my brothers included

[@marymbugua-gachiengu6385]

You tell you're story so beautifully and you are absolutely hilarious... Keep going Tonee despite the brokeness within us we must move forward.

[@_M.K._]

This was so timely. Thank you!😊 "When we deny our stories, they define us. When we own our stories, we get to write a brave new ending."💜

[@vanessatuitoek7298]

So engaging! A story well told. Sense of humor....top!

[@wambuimburu5623]

Tonee thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s very encouraging. I’ll make sure my kids watch it. One of your cousins is my best friend. Your family consists of not only some of the most brilliant, but also very warm and kind human beings. I wish that teacher in Naivasha knew what he was trying to rob of the world of. But God is good you’re still here changing the world! I am super proud of you for your courage to tell your story!!

[@rmusonye-smith8033]

Phenomenal. I thoroughly enjoyed this talk, the self deprecating humor, the pain, and the affirmation-there’s nothing more to add!

[@suekay4681]

Tonee you are a guy I would loooove to meet!! you have turned your "weakness" into a strength Mr. So and So never saw coming! and that is some Superhuman strength! this is a show of brilliance! Thank you for your story. I have watched Engage videos for a while now, but I am forever changed by you!!!

[@254fm]

Great listening to you Tonee. I remember you from our Mangu days. May you continue to flourish. Well done 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

[@kavutym666]

One of the best speakers i ever listened. And you taught me something coz I was broken and I break others in the process. Time to face my demons and fight them. Thank you Tonee, excellent talk

[@collinsmutisya7001]

It's 2022 and I still listen to this since it was uploaded. It's a challenge killing the villain in our heads. We live to try another day.

[@nissanjoroge]

Watching this, reminding me of my nephew who we just realized has ADHD , he is 8yrs. 8 years of being misunderstood, being the hyper kid, the bipolar kid. Thank you for being so brave, for the courage and the will to share your story. Thank you, and the 600 others..

[@ru85wanjiku]

Yes I am a parent and my son has ADHD.Oh I really need that kitabu, to help me help my son,and any support group to educate on how to deal with such kids/persons.

[@moniquegin8840]

This one is super emotional, am glad you able to live one day at a time.You are special.

[@hilderwanjiku6269]

Your story tells stories of many, the villain in my head, sometimes i manage to tell it off, sit it in a corner but how it creeps back and manages to cripple me is just creepy.... Thanks for your story

[@Luwizi26]

Loved loved loved this one..... And identified with it. Thank you for sharing. We'll Done Tony!!!

[@kay0kello894]

One of my favourite Engage talks!Tonnee you are brilliant!

[@anthonykariru9950]

Tonee Ndungu Well done! What a phenomenal story. So glad to have met you and family. You are all such lovely human beings. God Bless You.

[@stylesk8343]

The audience in your head.....is all you need to beat..great needed this

[@wanjikunganga277]

Sometimes we dont deserve to go through certain things in life... But that's life

[@growwithnungari4920]

poo

[@isabelomolo8853]

Fantastic. Funny, Eloquent, Smart, Inspiring and Uplifting. Keep fighting to unsit that person who tells you that you are not enough. You are Enough.

[@ln2542]

WOW!!! Tonee you are a genius!

[@patiencewanjiru5612]

Beautiful story... You are amazing Tonee would love to know more about KYTAABU and be part of it

[@mamakisan]

He's amazing

[@silviakirehu4126]

Amazing talk. Thanks Tonee. I totally resonate with what you've said. I know people who are stuck at unbroken because of traumas untold and unfortunately traumas caused in school by teachers. Scars that are stuck with them. Truly sad.

[@makokhamusaa6554]

He is am amazing speaker and storyteller!!!

[@jamhurikongo2758]

Nailab is the word which just got me, I got it bro....talking less of yourself but you are an inspiration...

[@rebeccamusyoki8039]

Spot on Tonee...... Keep talking n especially to men out here who need to hear this

[@quinndavid9932]

Amazing talk. I can relate so much with what he talked about, Everyday is a struggle but we opt to be strong,

[@evelynngithiiyu9331]

WOW @Lynn Ngugi this is a good one, we need to learn more from him # KenyansInTexas

[@wanjirukabiru5225]

Wah!articulate, very smart, relatable! You will heal!

[@ln2542]

Very impressive!!!! You've got what it takes .... reach for the stars. God will lead and guide you and give you the strength to keep going and doing exploits!!!!

[@a.nasongo3152]

Powerful powerful story ❤️

[@AIChildStudies]

Tonee -thank you for this gift of sharing the depth of yourself...such an inspiration!

[@MsXtines]

What an amazing Engage Talk. Your reminder to strive for self actualization is admirable.

[@itsjuliam]

I went to university with Tonee. There was absolutely no way of knowing what he had been through, even that September of 2001. He looked so happy and energetic. Wherever he was there was always laughter, sometimes to the point of tears.

[@CoolkenyanInisrael]

A standing ovation for Tonee ....that's enlightening. Great narrator

[@sk.walter.m9186]

Go go Tonee,very engaging.Thanks for your story. God bless you.

[@sansm6297]

This is the greatest inspiration story I have ever heard! Thanks!

[@joanthera]

Am now very hopeful and watchful in wisdom of my son with ADHD just turning 6 years. Kuna kasmartness Ako nako kako TU level ingine. 🤣 Thanks Tonee for sharing your story

[@halipoa6828]

What an amazing orator! Just fabulous. I propose he starts his own podcast.

[@lilianchybire9610]

My emotions are all over the place listening to Tonee ... I had never thought that way of some toxic men 😥. I have to intentionally unseat some people/things in my mind. Great talk Tonee !

[@amalwarsmw5228]

it's the most relative talk i have ever listened to

[@fatmahussein1238]

Great l love it keep strong Tonee Ndun'gu

[@deearacemarg450]

Well said most us went through hard times with some teachers.who instead of helping us grow they broke us.Thankfully we have come out of it and very successful. THANKS TONEE

[@raychune]

Everyday we are broken and unbroken.....we have to be broken to be unbroken, such a moving story!

[@marcusmuriithi]

I feel with this homie I have forgot the many guys who put me down through my life by forgetting and forgiving them.

[@janecmuturi7621]

Wow... As a person that went through boarding school...i get you. Too bad I didn't have a superhero T-shirt...

[@millicentkahia3824]

Great man Tonee. U r strong and you will unseat him.

[@evanskinyua1549]

BRILLIANT

[@MugweruShevvy]

gave a true definition of myself.......... its always a new day to define yourself

[@steveykimson3158]

What a story teller? You're amazing gentleman "so proud of you that u managed after all God bless you

[@Blurrybianca]

Ah this narration was funny. I'm glad you are still with us Tonee. Good job kicking out the villain over and over again

[@susankamau7951]

One of the best talk ever

[@susanab8792]

Tonee you have done such a great thing to bring this into the open... God bless

[@LoiseKenana]

You are amazing love your story

[@EngageTalk]

[@serahmsonkamau]

This is an amazing story!....and the way he tells it.....Thank you Ndung'u

[@johnjimngugi6053]

A well articulated speech. They should edit that verse in the Bible that says"teach your kids the right ways while they are young and they wont deviate from them" they should change that to"do not speak hurtful or breaking words to your kids for they affect them for lifetime" Am glad you have been broken ,unbroken but still very strong

[@samkimani5426]

Inspiring narration Tonee. The influencers one meets on life's journey can either build or break but one must choose to overcome. God supplies the strength to overcome

[@emanuelodhiambo1215]

Great content one of a kind,thanks for sharing that

[@christinemumbua656]

captivating from beginning to end. great narrator

[@ChristineROdera]

On the days when I 'unseat him', I will try to remember the steps, so that I can practice doing it again...

[@bumblebee4280]

This is profound.

[@missrosa4857]

Tonee you are amazing. May you slay that dragon of Mr. So&so!

[@bensonwambugu1147]

THIS IS MY LIFE. THOSE EXPERIENCES ARE THE SAME AS MINE

[@stephenkinyua8768]

this is very engage talk thanks Tonee for sharing this i have watch this more than once

[@Ndondiafrika254]

I always got picked by my mom because I was the thinnest and could not get 'big' like my brother. I am 32, I still eat junk and try to be big. I am a perfect 70 kg 5.9.

[@freedtoservewithjanette2458]

Frank Moch just find a place in your heart to love who you are

[@jaymutiso2217]

❤️

[@cecilliachi]

You are amazing Tonee! Thank you for telling your story

[@stephenmaranga8937]

"Kambondia" It was one crazy journey being in Naivasha Boarding till class 8..(6yrs) #IHacked

[@dk4647]

NBBPS

[@esthernjenga1556]

Great story Tonee ndung'u... I remember meeting you at Wazimba foundation..

[@sheblessed750]

thank you for sharing your story. I wish many people would be as self aware of the negative voices in our head and overcome them. Great voice and narration too