Green Beret shares combat stories, struggles with PTSD and how to overcome them. *GRAPHIC*

[@Tanemis]

I deployed with this man. He is legit one of my heroes

[@brotherjoll1802]

god bless him

[@broadside8326]

@@gawgaw6941 for nothing as always...

[@fuxu247]

@@gawgaw6941 how many dead at the world trade towers and how many other innocents dead at the hands of those animals,take your hippy shit pack it up and move over there with them

[@authenticdreamerz39]

@@gawgaw6941 how’s he stupid? You’re a fucking idiot, if it wasn’t for them, you wouldn’t be sitting behind that key board saying that bs, fuck you, tofu fairy🖕🏽

[@ulyssesnone4601]

I hope you are okay tanemis.

[@badgerbait8351]

My dad was a retired Marine who did a beach landing in WWII at the age of 16, two tours in the Korean War and Vietnam in 1967-68. When he got home he retired and we moved to a non-military town. He went from a violent life to being a dad working at a lumber mill with non-veterans over a six-month period. Dad was difficult to live with and we never got along until years later. Never realized what his issues were until much later in life after I served, though never to the extent he did. It took him a long time to find peace, which in his case was through faith in his savior, Jesus Christ. Something he really never had before and it changed him! He had so many regrets. One takeaway I had with my service is that our current veterans experience the care and quality-of-life because of what the Vietnam vets were subjected to, and subsequently, took action to ensure we were taken care of. Sure, more could be done, but we have so much more than dad and his comrades did. RIP. Love you, dad.

[@giovanniecastro2864]

amen, god takes care of brave children. he works in mysterious but he doesn't make mistakes.

[@mahalko5820]

Brother, I'm an Iraq war Vet with 16 sustainable woungs, that includes PTSD and TBi. When you've experienced all that, the only thing that will keep you going is your kids. They are innocent and the love of the father can sacrifice, they sometimes will provide all financial things and not say anything about it, it is because, He is loving his kids sideways while dealing with ptsd. Heres my story Why Im not vocal to my family including wife because I lost custody because of ptsd for months and I fought for it. I was hearing my custody case for 2 years and I realized that Im just loosing money paying my lawyer and I finally gave up, I told the Judge That Im willing to give up custody for one condition, I told the Judge to sign this letter to my son. He then ask me whats in the letter, I told him it is my goodbye letter to my son, so he can read it when he grows up (he is 2 yrs old at that time) The Judge read my letter. My son, I know at 2 yrs old you wouldnt understand my letter but when time comes you will understand. I fought really hard to get custody until I have no money left but it seems like they dont want to give me custody because of ptsd. This is signature and name of the judge who took your father away from you. I saw the judge reading it in tears and he said I will give you custody. Everybody in court started crying, it is very emotional moment. Sometimes when the enemy has no heart, use your heart to beat the enemy. #Iraqwarvet #ptsd,tbi

[@badgerbait8351]

@@mahalko5820 Well done! Our children are always caught in the crossfire of the world's insanity. God's mercy and love truly are the answer.

[@georgecoull1883]

Your Dad was a amazing human, American patriot and hero.

[@bipslone8880]

@@georgecoull1883 You don't know him

[@weareone7916]

I know this man because of jujitsu, but I never knew any of this I’m just speechless

[@jasonh6711]

same... his was the 1st JJ gym I ever stepped foot in and havent stopped training since.

[@weareone7916]

@@jasonh6711 I’m happy to hear it he’s a good man

[@mrpiccaso6517]

You mind saying where it’s located at if you think that’s to personal that’s okay tho scratch that say what state first so I know if I’m even in the same state you don’t know what crazy type of people would read where it at and go there so

[@mrwiseegg8472]

@@mrpiccaso6517 You know he said where its located in the first 30 seconds right?

[@killphantomb170]

Humble as fuck

[@thomassilas8610]

This dude is a real warrior. I’ve had the opportunity to train with him. Outstanding jiu jitsu professor

[@deemac5711]

Caaap

[@jaxfang]

@@deemac5711 he’s in McKinney Texas where I used to live, wish I could go back to be taught by him.

[@Ionkno12]

@@deemac5711 you try enlisting in the army

[@Amazonuser1717]

@@deemac5711 your first day on the internet bud?

[@bipslone8880]

@@Ionkno12 You might be sent to invade a country like Iraq and become a war criminal.

[@glenndanzig2617]

My buddy Dan was an IED specialist in the Army. The things he saw messed him up so bad. He took his own life a few years back. Rip brother, see u on the other side

[@davidoftheforest]

fuck, that's awful. You'll see him again

[@glenndanzig2617]

@@truthasareligion9472 ok nerd lol

[@truthasareligion9472]

@@glenndanzig2617 You heard some f46 in the military call people nerd and now you use it and think you sound cool. Both yalls wives were getting fucked while you werent home.

[@gileswood-gmanwood4573]

@@truthasareligion9472aweeee

[@3455esgyi]

@@truthasareligion9472you are detached from reality and have a lack of morality and remorse

[@keribailey6193]

As a kid I remember running thru the woods with my uncle chasing the enemy. I thought it was a game we was playing. Didnt realize it was an episode, they really didnt give a damn back in the day. Glad yall are getting treatment and putting out more awareness. Yall def deserve more than what this country has provided

[@purplebirdm1258]

Was he in Nam? Because that shit sounds so familiar my friend had an uncle like that but they would play “camper” he said. You could’ve tell his parents were too fond of him hanging with his uncle but he was such a good man and always felt safe to be around

[@keribailey6193]

@@purplebirdm1258 I think it was nam.my papaw jimmy also served and from the small details he told me, I couldn't fuckin imagine the shit they had to go thru

[@WorstCowboyEver]

Took me 12 years after my last deployment to actually acknowledge and accept my mental health issues. I've never felt better.

[@hippoboy9793]

I just recently accepted it

[@WorstCowboyEver]

@@hippoboy9793 good for you bro 👏 💪 there's no shame in it.

[@Delfi1900]

Sad thing is that most people will never fully understand PTSD,, not even your physiologist!!! Unless they suffer from it.... 🙏🏻🇺🇸

[@thewhorenextdoor8268]

Almost all the people suffer from PTSD at some point of their life,

[@danielliu6502]

I had ptsd from eating donuts too fast and I saw an earth quake on TV

[@kilakr13]

Not ptsd.... Called bitch blood

[@jameslove1162]

@@kilakr13 obvious troll is obvious.

[@jasonwood3197]

My dad was 10th in Massachusetts he fell 75/80 feet he had ptsd that he never accepted...

[@ayrtontroches5784]

The amount of meds he was taking alone could mess you up... So much respect

[@realaussiemale567]

That’s half the problem with the medical industry, whether it be in defence forces or everyday life. Doctors are told to prescribe whatever they feel is necessary. They get a kickback on prescriptions written and big pharma make $Millions.

[@ayrtontroches5784]

@@realaussiemale567 it never fixes the issue either. They're just legal drug dealers. I mean sometimes meds are necessary but doctors should never intend for someone to be hooked on meds for the rest of their life

[@malarkeygaming4838]

You see struggle in he's eyes even when he speak about most normal things for us... This is what war does to people, it makes a machine that cant find he's own place in any other place then war... My grandfather's survived WW2, they could not sleep sometimes for 5/10 days, no drinking no eating, always having a weapon next to him, waking up middle of night screaming, crying everything at the same time... horrible... they could not find peace anywhere... i do not wish PTSD to even my worst enemy... Sir thank you for telling your story to us, could not ask for more motivation at the start of 2021. Thank you for your servise Sir ! God bless you.

[@Sampsadioz]

Imagine what happens in chigaco, there dying more people in streets tha these iraq wars combined. Its in the city, i am from finland i just cant belive how it feels. 6 year old girl wishes to be alive at end of the year. Thats fucked up

[@ferguson8143]

Yeah as the one of the biggest deal for me was when I ended up going back to civilization and got a job and soon realized how fucking boring and mundane and no excitement being back in civilization and had to really make sure I stayed on task and not seeking out some high adrenalin risky behavior or even end up going behind my family's back and find myself back in the recruiter office

[@carrieadcock1250]

Amazing. My dad was a Battalion Sergeant Major in the Special Forces. He was my step father but he raised me as his own, and that is who I call dad. He often took the role of two parents because my mother was ill and struggled severely in many ways, often gone for most of the time. Jimmy Hale was his name. He has since passed away and I will forever miss him and owe him my life. He was the most impactful family member I have ever had. I only wish that I had spent more time getting to know him before he passed away. He had a purple heart due to two serious injuries in his upper thigh. He continued to serve after his injuries for a while. I believe he retired when he was around 58-60. He was also a registered nurse back here in the states. If there is anyone I admire and strive to be like, it's my dad. Rest in peace to all of those lost in battle who struggled severely with PTSD and other mental health issues. You are truly adored and deserve so much more praise and recognition than what you get.

[@aaronconstantine1292]

🫡💯🥹

[@martyfinnerty8605]

Every time I watch such a video my tics, my shakes, my tears, they don’t take long to appear. I know watching them, and this video especially, will take me out of the game for the next 30mins but I need to. When I see ANYONE brave enough to tell their story to the world: military, emergency services, civilians, when I see such bravery it makes me feel proud. Not for my diagnosis but there are those out there brave enough to make people aware and to demystify this curse. And that is my word for it, my curse, no one else’s. 15yrs. 15yrs of ego, male bravado and a fear of showing weakness. 15yrs of avoiding my feelings, of knowingly ignoring family and friends advice…and Karma brought all of it back at once. Everyones experience is justified. There’s no comparing who felt what the most. Suffering is suffering. 6 months on, and I am 1000% better than I was when my life instantly exploded. I still suffer anxiety but thankfully not enough to keep me back. There have been occasions where anger seemed to possess me and again, if not for family and friends things would be different from what they are now. I apologise for ranting but please, if you are suffering, if family and friends are vocally concerned, even if you think yourself something isn’t right but you don’t want to say anything PLEASE SEEK HELP - YOU DESERVE IT. I am but a faceless commenter; apart from my immediate family and a few very close friends I don’t talk about this. I’m not brave enough like my brothers in these videos. But if you’re reading this and you know…you think…even if you just wonder if you may have something going on up in your head please go and talk to someone. I am living proof of what not to do. My marriage is being held together by the love of my wife, my teenage daughter has witnessed her dad cowering in the corner of her bedroom crying but also seen him turn into a violent monsters. And close friends, who saved me from ending it…I thank them by putting them through all this. Your family and friends deserve so much better. YOU deserve so much better, and it will be better if you seek help, chat with your closest ones, even call a charity. That Green Beret had the courage to tell his story to the world, it gave me the courage to write this to anyone that needs to read it. You’re not alone, ever. We all got your back.

[@dianeweaver8442]

Thank u for ur service sir, and I am proud of u for at least telling part of ur story here. I have lived the life of ur daughter with my own Father, was it hard and psychologically emotional for us…..yes, but I still would not change a thing about my Father and am truly proud of him for joining the army when our country needed him. Vietnam Vet, the Big Red 1 ❤❤. His Bless U!!

[@socalrcr]

😭 this poor guy. He clearly has been through hell and back. I'm glad he made it through.

[@aaronconstantine1292]

Ya

[@shannonnunn]

Your brain biologically adapted to the life threatening environment you were over exposed to... Your brain was dumping so many stress hormones and stress signaling proteins that the receptors on you neuronal cell surfaces had to reduce the number being expressed. Large numbers of receptors allow an attenuated response that is varied upon the level of threat. Due to the severity and continual exposure, it was safer for your body to be in a heightened state of fight or flight no matter the level of threat. When the receptors reduced their numbers, the brains response to stress hormones loses its capacity to deal with the stress in a multifaceted manner that is dependent upon the threat level. It becomes an all or nothing response that can trigger the fight or flight response in a more robust manners in a shorter period of time which improves survivability and response times in life threatening situations. Hence the capability to slow down time during a fight and process information and threats at a much higher capacity. The trade off comes in trying to change gears back to normal without going all out in a civil situation that triggers the stress response. Nothing is wrong per say... It is a normal biological adaptation to exposure to life threatening events. It takes a long time to regrow the receptors, retune the mindset and to let go of the trauma. First step is not harboring guilt for the way you over react. It kept you alive and served a purpose. The second is to not try to cover the raw nerve with a bandage by consuming alcohol or self medication. The third is to learn to ground yourself, practice mindful breathing and learn to catch your triggers before you act out instinctually. Become mindful of your warrior state of being, acknowledge and value it as a tool and learn when to pick it up and when to set it down through practice and mindful effort. The best way to regrow receptors is through support and human contact with caring compassionate people and dogs. Dogs will show you how to be gentle, compassionate and get you out of fixated mindsets by having to care and nurture another living being. Reduce stress, find a release. Hunt, fish, shoot competitively, find a partner who you can trust and talk with. Allow yourself to be honest with your state, acknowledge and accept where you are and figure out a plan to march yourself out of the war in your head and into one of self acceptance, healing and growth. It takes a tough man to face his demons. Those that do can go on fighting for their brothers in arms by providing support and making sure no man is left behind. You are not alone. God Almighty is with you. Reach out and ask for help. God bless our soldiers, every last one of you!

[@buxadonoff]

Your comment is a gem

[@Yodasstuff]

God bless our soldiers. Amen.

[@ajstephenson5583]

Thanks for the info! God bless.

[@shannonnunn]

@@ajstephenson5583 God bless you brother!

[@berrymakokenya765]

HOORAH

[@ggdebv344]

No one understand the pain until they've been through it.

[@Diddley-js6lf]

My father Inlaw was my confidant but he has passed away, so now I suffer because I have nobody to talk too. I wasn’t in the Military but I did my time of 23 years in the Fire Service, never been shot at but had to deal with everything from babies to seniors with so much carnage day in and day out, I retired in 2013. It didn’t effect me until about a year after leaving that I started to not sleep, emotional about some if the simplest things even the tv I will tear up very very easy, I was on oxycodone for a few years from Cancer so when they took me off then I couldn’t mask it anymore so now I have to deal with my feelings the best I can. What keeps me going is my three little Grand Babies I feel I have to be around to protect them especially in today’s world. So for the moment I have been able to cope enough to get by but my thoughts are when they grow to a point I am no longer needed then what. I guess time will tell. My Prayers are with you Brother and God Bless You and all that serve Our Great Nation abroad and at home. America is indebted to them all.

[@meechydarko8738]

Keep reading the Bible brother god will take care of you

[@hankrodriguezhill7029]

Man isn't made to suffer, your not alone

[@mikesmith7880]

god bless ever need an ear let me know

[@Bruce-rm2xu]

Keep it up !!!!

[@meechydarko8738]

This comment made me cherish my relationship with my Father kiss and hug your loved ones guys

[@tylerbstudt]

I needed this. Thanks brother. Just getting started back with the VA. I hit rock bottom recently. Still dont understand it. But I know that I am not right.

[@BROTROLIN96]

You'll get through brother just keep grinding and searching for those answers to put you at peace. Be easy

[@noahboschman7495]

I know not everyone’s religious, but God is always there ands he’s comfort in your darkest hour.

[@LP3me]

@@noahboschman7495 for sure, it’s hard to convince people that faith in God will help bring you out of a hole and into a positive mindset in life. It was the faith in God that has brought me out of rock bottom and now living a good sustainable life. God is good, join a church , read the Bible, listen to Christian music, it all helps. Take care.

[@BURRITOBOY]

Stay solid man thank you for ur service

[@ryanhughes9397]

God bless you!! Jeremiah 29:11. For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.

[@warmothgmc]

Firstly, thank you for your service. I’ve never served in the military; but, PTSD really hit home for me today. A really good friend of mine committed suicide this morning by shooting himself in the head. I’m basically speechless. He just had re-upped in the National Guard again and moved to a new town with his wife for a new auto mechanic job. He was deployed to Qatar with the National Guard on his last tour a couple years ago. I just never saw any signs. I just saw him a couple weeks ago. He was my room mate for a couple years. When I got the call from a friend who is an army vet, he said he knew of some issues and tried to reach out to him for some help. I’m just numb and sad. Met with a bunch of buds tonight to remember and celebrate his life. It’s just surreal.

[@slainbyblind]

My youngest brother was a 2/75 Ranger for 7 years and has also struggled with ptsd.

[@toliverreano4390]

Keep these videos coming. Their voice and stories need to be heard.

[@NEO_Trojanmuldrop4]

Respect Brother. Takes a brave man to not only go to war, but to come home and be able to talk about it, and also admit that they need help

[@Its_Esoteric]

The music definitely isn’t helping but I can feel this mans pain through the laughs he’s using to keep from crying.

[@hccarder]

Listen to The Spirit not the ego... Regardless of what his beliefs are, this man shows enormous strength by turning away from his ego. Humility is a sign of great strength. ...

[@jeremyrenfro5867]

I haven’t found the help yet and I’m chasing that rabbit hole and I can’t find a way out. When he talked about that really bad night, I know exactly what he’s talking about ...

[@markk2060]

Stay strong my friend. No matter how dark it seams, there is Always a way out! I think the "meds" can compound the problem significantly and getting off them can be extremely difficult but it needs to be done. Talking with someone you trust and giving yourself time to heal is important. You are not alone in your struggle! Take it day by day and you will get better. After struggling myself, I found this is what helped me pull through. Best regards..

[@shannonnunn]

@@markk2060 you guys need to exchange numbers... No shit!

[@amonk97]

Hey Jeremy, hang in there brother! Talk to a battle buddy or friend. Praying for you and all Vets struggling 🙏

[@allywolf9182]

Jeremy Renfro- ❤ praying for you!

[@jo444]

I hope you found some help. Your life is important and you matter.💜🙏🏽

[@paradoxinmotion]

"i was still perceiving all threats as life threatening" ... thank you so much for sharing your story

[@TRspeaksTRUTH]

Most of em are.

[@jjustjoking2116]

Thank you so much for your service sir hope everything get better for all our vets and active service members 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

[@LK-bz9sk]

I always watch these people sharing their post combat battles with the demons. We forget about the cost to our soldiers too easily. These scars are deep and these men and woman need our empathy and the support they ask for 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@hardroad8236]

Thanks bro I just needed that. I'm getting help

[@ckoritko]

Do it, brother. Whatever you came through, you got this.

[@thelocokid5589]

If no one believes in you just remember I believe you can change for the better.

[@dutton420z]

You got this 🙏💯💯💯

[@tystick4785]

ALL FACTS, Ive been out for 7 years and i still cant sleep at night cause im on guard waiting for it to jump off... and for 7 years nothing has threaten and i still find myself prepare for a tic.... watching this scares me cause i know im not crazy cause he describe exactly what i go thru...how did you get out of that mood or are you still like that and jus know how to deal with it. the family im around still get mad when i flip out time to time cause they have no understanding so i dont feel right to talk to any of them. i feel im boxed in in sure its just the ptsd.... Life is tough living with this... and yes ive done everything from some kind of shock therapy to counseling and nothing worked. im on 100% va disability cause me and people dont get along.... id give it all back if i could just get back to how i was before the army. So i understand battle!!

[@SweetUareDesi]

Well thank you for your sacrifice and service ❤ I’m a ten year vet 😊

[@huskytail]

Very often the road to recovery is to give to others. To take care of people is most often than not to take care of yourself. I am happy he managed to get some mental relief and mostly to give to others what he found. Those guys do a difficult job few of us can do.

[@rumpleforeskin5698]

Thank you for what you did for our country. True American hero.

[@Smooth_JaY__]

This man is true to his core,like I am to mine. Damn man... Struggle is real for sure.

[@aaronconstantine1292]

Yeah

[@jimchumley2982]

I was extreemily close to my brother Bobby was adopted into our family as an infant. He served in Nam and came back in the 70's. I watched him deal with PTSD but was there for him as a brother. He taught me to be tough growing up and taught me how to use and shoot guns. Bobby passed away in 2008 on Mothers day. Do not wish to share more about him in writing txt. Bobby was a decorated hero for bravery. We played alot of sports together. Like I said I miss my brother alot.

[@steventhomas2936]

Sorry for your loss man my condolences homie 😢💐

[@RUHI4]

Completely understand where this warrior is coming from…As a 9yr USMC Vet (Jan/98-Jan/07), being alert and vigilant is a constant!

[@JadedGLORY2689]

I need to go pay my respects to this warrior since we both live and work in the DFW. I could never relate to you but I've fought my own battles and demons so that makes us brethren in that aspect. May God give all the men and women out there suffering from their demons, some solace and some peace. Peace is something I cherish so highly.

[@cherishadams1926]

Active Duty Sailor Checking In...Thank You For Your Service🇺🇸**we go through things that only we can understand

[@lloydratliff2246]

Roger That.

[@houseofoddity]

This man deserves all the help and support available. He fought for his country and it breaks my heart he deals with this daily. You are an example of a fighter and such a brave and courageous man. I’m British but I want to thank you for fighting for freedom and Liberty. God bless you sir. ✌🏾 & ❤️ XOXO

[@aaronconstantine1292]

💯🫡

[@ifuaintfirsturlast7551]

Thank you sir for your service. As well as all of you who serve/served. 🇺🇸

[@BRAVENEWORDERFILMS]

God bless you and yours. Thank you for your service.🇺🇲

[@aaronconstantine1292]

💯

[@rooster72886]

Never give up man I myself struggle with ptsd I wish you the best in recovery though not everyday is beautiful we make the best outta the worst.

[@guybsonsa]

Thank you Alan! For your service for this Country on and off the mats!

[@Geebees93]

Happy Veterans Day to everyone. It's hard out here trying to keep pushing after hitting that low. Never give in to your demons.

[@theateroftheabsurd2168]

His honesty about his level of training(elite soldier)and still humbly express this was new to me is very impressive 👏

[@KevinDiazx11]

Thank you so much hope as the next generation of sf we make you proud !

[@josephhertzberg2734]

Adderall and ambien can really mess you up. I know he was doing the best he could and I'm glad he saw the way out of that cycle. Seems like a great guy

[@andyturbo]

I have been taking Stillnox (ambian is the US brand) nightly for four years and hasnt had any negative effects..

[@eniggma9353]

This gave me profound insight into gunfight related trauma reactions. Thank you sir.

[@martintierney28]

Thanks for sharing my brother much love 🤟

[@harrisoncunha9381]

My uncle on my dad's side was drafted into the Vietnam war. He was a man who hated violence (not a Hippie though). He wanted to be a conscientious observer, which he got to do for a time as a chopper gunner. Instead of aiming, he chose to miss his shots. However, on one mission his chopper got shot down. His crew was killed and the Vietcong were closing in on him. All he had was his M16, sidearm, and knife. He left the jungle that day with empty guns and a bloody knife. He had a confirmed kill count of (I forgot the exact amount) 21-23. A few he had to kill in hand-to-hand combat. He has never been the same since.

[@thisiskal6267]

went Rambo on them

[@uhhdsrujndueujgsy2759]

make a movie

[@Nymbvz]

Cap

[@unapologeticallyconservati5881]

@@Nymbvz use real English

[@bestjobieverhad9584]

I had a good conversation today with a man I met at work. I've gotten alot off of my chest. Very good guy. Helped out alot

[@gabrieljohannson6777]

Men need to talk. Having men like this come out and tell others how to get help and why IT ISN’T WEAKNESS to talk about events. Respect to all.

[@MMccloud]

This man is a straight up warrior and a world class bjj blackbelt. I’ve known Alan for several years and words can’t describe the amount of respect I have for him. He is one of the few people who leads by example.

[@blankblank4091]

I didn't realize how young you are, you are a marine, I here and see your demeanor, can't miss a breed of all your own. God bless you young brother, non of my families will speak of such. You are brave for facing and confronting your monsters, I'm still waiting for family to confront their own demons. But in the meantime I can still help others.

[@1rukie]

Thank you for serving 🇺🇸🇺🇸✝️✝️

[@repetemyname842]

Thanks for sharing, Alan, and we are grateful for your service.

[@dianeweaver8442]

I would like to start off saying that I am PROUD of u for being strong enough to admit u have a problem!! And thank u for serving for us and our country. It is truly not fair what our soldiers have to endure when they come home bc they sacrificed themselves for us. My Father is a Vietnam Vet, part of the Big Red 1, who just came to terms with his PTSD last year, and we were told that they themselves don’t notice there is a problem. I have lived with this issue for well over 45 years, so I understand, but would not change a thing about my Father or what he did for this country. I thank u all!

[@davidtrani190]

While pouring out my heart in frustration and repentance over the great accumulated burden of regrets of my life that was filled with terrible experiences and deeds that I never imagined nor desired that I would ever have, the Spirit of the Lord spake forth from the sainted woman whos presence I was brought under conviction through, and she roared out without forethought; "God Wastes Nothing!" Our Great God and Savior give us peace my Veteran Brother. That has been over 30 years ago and the enemy is still within and without, but by Grace thru Faith We have assurance of overcoming victory at the end of this great and heart-rending mission. God be with all who receive this word of truth.

[@MZ-bl6wg]

Thankyou for stepping forwardand being honest,, it and demonstrating that a legendary warrior even needed help. I went to weekly therapy for 2 years straight by my own choice because I have 3 angels daughters as. Single dad an fi had to fix myself to not EVER have my babies sitting in bed at night in tears wondering why I chose to leave them. THAT thought has changed everything.

[@ShaunsJeep]

10 years as a ground punder 4 deployments. I learn we all need help . I met one of my best friends a few months ago and never served a day in her life.I woke up one morning not feeling great and messaged her brother. I late found out she took her life. The last few months have been rough. We all need to be looking out. Glad you are doing ok brother.

[@ShaunsJeep]

Aria we miss you honey..

[@imjustheresoiwontgetfined3890]

You will get through it God is in your side

[@c-459]

Stay OFF the Booze Brother...I’ve been dealing with The Chit since Dec 4 1968 from My Time across the Pond...Godspeed too Yah 👍🇺🇸

[@hall2912]

Thank you for your service and I am truly sorry you had to suffer in silence or own your own at all! Thank you 🙏🇺🇸

[@madeinbih1]

Man i love how you told your story. I would love to sit down one day with a guy like you. I grew up in the war as a child never fought. But i always felt like there so much unresolved mental things i never have got no answers.

[@artothewanderer9517]

Thank you guys. More of these stories need to be shared. Very appreciative to hear this.

[@jburr247]

Thanks for doing the video, can't explain how good it was to see Alan open up and share about the struggle.

[@WarthogGhost]

Nothing but love!

[@shortbrownguy]

Al, great to see you making big things happen! I went through a nasty period of depression, addiction, etc., and if it wasn't for people smarter than me forcing my hand to get help, I can honestly say I wouldn't be here today. Keep it going Brother. DOL CT sends.

[@Flooozeee]

Thanks for sharing your experiences brother.

[@Flooozeee]

@@gawgaw6941 DERP

[@tonyb456]

great to hear you speak. clearly there are other military like you struggling in the same way, and police officers as well. thanks for your honesty.

[@baxterscientific]

Thank you for your service brother. The army retrained your mind. It is a process to retrain your mind to be what people call "normal" and be at peace. That is all we desire as humans on this earth. Peace of mind. Keep moving and you are making the world a better place.

[@saileshnatenatesan8495]

Thank you for your service, Sir 🙏🏽🇺🇲

[@revelations4990]

Thank you for your service brother take care of yourself. 💯💯💯💯💯🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸💯💯🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

[@vieuxacadian9455]

Thanks for Your candor Sir , You commitment is greatly appreciated . I am Ex USAF '86-'92 . I ride in support of Patriot Guard Riders , I support Mission 22 and WWP , I also have My own initiative I call " Flags for Families " on Memorial Day .

[@MikeySee563]

Guy is an absolute Hero.

[@stevenblack9324]

Thank you for sharing your story. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to recognize and follow through with the need for help, but to talk about it publicly is special.

[@luismedina4369]

Thank you for your service from a behalf of a vietnam era vet

[@ifassnacht]

Updated numbers on the We Defy Foundation: 788 approved training facilities, 1190 total scholarships awarded, and ~600 athletes currently active. It’s clear that former military members still need a community to be a part of that supports them. Jiu Jitsu is the vehicle that connects everybody in the We Defy Foundation. Thank you, Alan, for all that you’ve done to make people’s lives better through the struggles and demons you’ve faced.

[@iBoiYoTV]

Like I've said before on another video, I give mad props to all the brothers and sisters who can talk about their story. Im struggling to the point Im having trouble leaving my house. Hope my military familys doin alright

[@frankcicero4444]

Thank you for your service to our great country , never.forgotten

[@spokelseX]

Brother, thank you for sharing your story. Remember you are never alone. Semper Fi - USMC

[@FineTouchLLC]

This is why I have so much respect for ww2 vets, they go threw hell and back and still carry’s themselves like nothing happend, no excuses nothing.

[@djjon1388]

Go and touch grass

[@Krook3dd]

This is a real warrior. So much respect.

[@couriebrinsonj2552]

Don't forget who u are , don't loose your self,I have so much respect for you and people like my dad an gunny Yates.Do things like fishing , and things to make you happy .I hope you the best in life ,my hats of to u._ girl from Jacksonville NC .

[@jesusfernandez-eh8cx]

I miss my brothers...Im so useless here at home....I feel empty but obligated to live....I need a purpose.....

[@mattchew69er]

You're brothers live in you, you're sacrifices and theres won't ever be forgotten sir, I can promise you that.

[@gamerevolution173]

There's a lot you can do at home. Have you ever thought about going back to school, volunteering, etc.?

[@notagoodidea1014]

A please call someone u trust or someone from a unit. U protected us! Real Americans will help you thru it. God bless brotha

[@chadman2275]

we leave our souls out there on the battlefield protecting each other and sometimes we fail and we lose people we care about you do have a place here in the world and your not alone

[@Looneytokk]

This guys is a true hero

[@seafoxangler2172]

Makes you feel like every threat, is life threatening ... . You got this man, you’re not alone.

[@victordasilva5255]

Thank you sir. Buy you a beer in west palm....all day.

[@marc2397]

Yeah, I had a problem with this for many years. Sometimes it doesn’t affect you for years later, I just didn’t realize what it was I had a problem with nightmares....real type nightmares. Waking up in a cold sweat. After many years, it got better, thank God. I was not in war, I fucked up, got drunk one night, and committed a crime. I woke up in jail, facing 2 potential life sentences. My father was the Green Beret...that’s why I’m watching this. I have a lot of respect for these guys. My father was among the first Green Berets, joining 10th group in 1962, he never had a problem with PTSD....the man was invincible I thought. He is buried at a military cemetery at Ft Campbell, Kentucky.

[@thebuss3204]

You’re a good man. Thank you 🙏🇺🇸❤️

[@QuillyTheKid]

one hell of a story! thanks for your service and for sharing your troubles. rock on brotha!

[@thephenomenal2056]

Love and blessings from India to the warrior ❤️🙌🇮🇳

[@meisterkaas]

HERO. Great respect,

[@kelofduty2683]

thank you for sharing

[@torrancetorrance9438]

Stay alpha, stay mentally positive, keep grinding, don’t hustle, don’t eat👌👌💯💯, may higher superior bless you

[@rae2737]

This probably sounds dumb but I just want to give him a big hug and tell him I understand from a perspective of watching my uncle that was in special forces in Vietnam deteriorate into someone we don't know but we will always support. I will never understand what it's like to go through what you guys have been through.

[@Aonepj517]

God bless you man 💯💯💯

[@Je3perscre3pers]

I wasnt SOF but this is a prime example of how being drugged constantly by the VA fucks you up more. On ambien, I slept walk on deployment and it made me even more terrified to sleep. Because if you sleep walk during a rocket attack, you are fucked. I waited 10 years to really get help and it feels like its too late because of the law got involved. But im alive now. And still grateful even tho im suffering. Life is so beautiful and destructive. Its my favorite duality.

[@georgecoull1883]

Post a disclaimer that this is for education so you can monetize. Thank you for sharing this warrior's story, our boy's only get a spotlight for the wrong reasons and they deserve and have earned respect

[@loganoneill8671]

It's so true about others not knowing or understanding. The only time I feel like I can be myself is around other Brothers. Otherwise I'm whatever I have to be in order to "blend in".

[@berrymakokenya765]

Shoutout to vigilance elite .. they got these type of videos on the roll

[@DonutVIP]

Damn..just damn. His story is crazy, really wanna talk to my grandpa who fight along side the US during the Vietnam War but I know his PTSD is real, he has nightmare to this day

[@davidmack6283]

Thank you. The transition is hard. Keep up the good work.