Our Fertility Journey: Episode 1

Our first addition to a new series. We have been filming this journey for such a long time, and it feels good to finally release the first episode. This journey is dedicated to everyone going through the hardships of fertility. You're not alone in this. We're here for you.
-The Perkins
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Andy Huang, M.D. - Reproductive Partners Medical Group, Inc.
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[@gabriellareneelugo]

This is why you’re one of my favorite youtubers. I suffered a miscarriage 5 years ago and remember reaching out to you and you actually taking time to reach back out to me. I still have that screenshot saved on my computer. I will never forget it. I’m typing this as I’m carrying my 5 month old baby boy in my arms as he sleeps. It will happen for you too. I know it. Praying for you.

[@kaylieramos]

Gabriella Lugo I’m so happy for you! May your baby boy & you always be safe ❣️ I’m 21 & was told I might have ovarian cysts so I’m very scared for the future but this gave me hope

[@valeriaroa7426]

Omg reading this makes me so happy 🥺 congratulations to you and your family 💞

[@delyxoxo]

Reading this makes me so happy. Congratulations!

[@Sdb4byyyy]

Such a blessing 🥺♥️ so happy for you!

[@trinitysativa]

Gabriella Lugo I am crying this is beautiful

[@nicoleaviles331]

I hope people stop commenting that they expect at the end of the series you’re pregnant. It’s not fair and it puts more pressure on Desi. Let’s just send her well wishes and love.

[@xiomaruugh]

I was thinking the same thing, like my immediate reaction was I hope this series ends with her being pregnant, like how amazing would that be, but seeing everything she's already been through. She's been through so much and she's choosing to be vulnerable with us when she really doesn't have to.

[@carolinaroman3170]

🤍 yes

[@emilyotremba3807]

this>>>>

[@mixed_beauty]

I think she is! The last part was recorded between july and September from the last year. I’m really expecting good news, they have been through so much that really made me cry. I’m gonna be very happy if I’m not wrong! God bless them❤️

[@CassandraGonzalez]

Nicole Aviles amen to thisssss!! We’re lucky that she’s sharing it all with us ! Just keeping them in prayers!

[@karo5b]

This is WHY I STOPPED asking couples when will they have a baby or ever get married. You don’t know what’s going on in their relationship...you never know.

[@mrspokitstheriot477]

Also. It's just no one elses business. If you're not involved in the making or carrying of said baby, it's not your concern. So dont ask.

[@angelbby0592]

And also because it’s just rude to even ask a woman if she is or not.

[@shaidabunyat9357]

Preach sissy

[@policewifey1741]

Yes! Thank you for no longer asking couples this. My husband and I have been together for 13 years and had a horrible miscarriage last year that no one really knows. When people ask us this, it hurts so bad! I don't want to openly tell people we are having problems conceiving because it's no ones business and I don't want the added stress of people asking about it and "have you tried this or that." I just wish people wouldnt ask this question at all.

[@crystale5625]

Yes! People asking me why I don’t have more kids. It’s so messed up obviously it’s because I can’t .

[@Jacammua]

Do not ask a couple “when are you having kids?” Or “why haven’t you yet?” You have no idea how much they could be going through.

[@aliciar2644]

Jael Cameus or they just don’t want to have kids and that’s okay too 😇

[@classicarah]

I use to get so annoyed when I got asked this question. I knew I wanted to start having kids at 30 years old but nobody believed me in my 20’s and would keep asking why I wasn’t. My husbands friends would make fun of him saying he couldn’t have kids. Once we had one at 30 they all shut up.

[@luvelyme07]

Jael Cameus totally agree! I never ask a couple when are they having kids bc you truly don’t know what someone is going through.

[@shadesoffamily]

Hate when people do that!!!! Like think before you speak!

[@AnyoneAccount]

Alicia R that’s not okay and is for pathetic losers

[@MakeupLau]

Dear people, please stop commenting about « the finale must be them announcing a pregnancy! ». What if they aren’t? Could you imagine them going trough the comments? They must feel so pressured already, please stop. Desi & Steven, I’m sending you all my positive energy. As a women with endometriosis, I’ll surely face some problem with fertility. Thank you so much for sharing. You guys are so brave ! ❤️🙏🏽

[@Rareisbeautiful]

Perfectly said!

[@brookebixler1040]

Well said!! I'm so glad you mentioned this, because it's very important that we don't let Desi & Steven feel like they've let us down!

[@gladysmenchaca8536]

Yes! Thank you so much for saying this.

[@beautyfab8047]

Well said ✨👏🏼

[@mautiakay]

This! Maybe they don't even have a final episode yet. Maybe they just thought with all of this footage piling up they might as well start to share it. Or maybe they are expecting. Either way, this series is valid and helpful.

[@fimcyouthservice]

The “ I need to shake it off before Steven gets home “ hit hard ! Most will not understand you don’t want to get their hopes up as much as you do, SO we test in secret and don’t say anything unless good news . It’s such a lonely period !

[@ThePerkins]

🥺😭❤️

[@elizabethgregory]

:( awww

[@fimcyouthservice]

The Perkins thank you for sharing ! 🥰

[@monkleyface]

Definitely. My husband was so broken up over our miscarriage that it was hard for me to show my own heartbreak. It’s not that he wouldn’t have been supportive and comforting, but I just couldn’t add my grief to his.

[@abarby777]

Thank you for sharing such a personal and emotional experience. Sending hugs your way and hope this journey ends with some babies very soon. Like you said timing is everything, God will send your babies when is the right time I’m sure. You’ll both will be such loving parents! Wish you the best, love you guys

[@RenataGoodley]

People can be very cruel. 5 Years ago I had a stillbirth to our daughter. 2 years ago we adopted a beautiful boy from Hong Kong. People ask "Why don't you have kids of your own?" I found it so rude. You never know the whole story.

[@arisofi95]

Renata Goodley OMG cant believe someone could ask that?! How horrible

[@iramakhtar4070]

I'm with my husband now coming to 10 years, I was raped before him by my ex, had no choice but to have an abortion as I was never going to marry him. When I married my lovely husband still with him presently 3 miscarriages in my marriage. Now iv got endometriosis and cant have any suffering monthly, people ask why I dont have children being married this long a decade, they say if wasted time they dont know my story or pain iv been through physical and emotional people never think before they speak. I may never have a baby of my own in my arms making me feel less of a lady unfulfilled they make me feel. It hurts when people look and ask. My arms are empty and my heart broken but people judge before knowing anything about what's happened and happening, all based on assumptions. I prey to God maybe a miracle happens one day for us or we can adopt a child if not will just have to have many cats and become a cat lady. As it can be so lonely deafening silence in the house.

[@msp-wo6dw]

Omg this is so horrible for you and for this little boy... some people don't get what the adoption is about

[@lauracovi8664]

Renata Goodley i wish more people who could, would consider adoption. The suffering children (of any age) of the world need caring & loving adoptive parents like yourselves. Adoption is such a beautiful mutual gift.

[@fshonuff]

I was adopted from India in the early 80’s to a Caucasian family. I say that because it’s quite obvious that I look nothing like my parents and my brothers (who are biologically my parents). The questions and comments kids would say to me, and even adults to myself and my parents were and still are atrocious. “You aren’t your parents REAL kid”. Or to my parents, “how can you love a kid that isn’t really yours?” 🙄 then there was the time my dentist made a joke to my mother while I was getting my teeth cleaned..”her dad must be the mailman”. People have no tact, and no respect, and have no concept of love. Bless you and your child for the family you have found in each other! The adopted community is so special and I’m proud to be a part of it.

[@andreaalcala5451]

Who’s here in quarantine after she just announced her pregnancy on ig!!!

[@RockabillyChaCha]

What?!?

[@attractivebb8426]

me

[@cristianatavares391]

Me!!!

[@cristianatavares391]

Im so HAPPY

[@cristianatavares391]

Emily i think they anounced at the same day cause it was on mothers day on insta and here it was too

[@bellav5761]

STEVEN STARTED TALKING AND I CRIED WITHIN THE FIRST 10 SECONDS

[@anoushka-1095]

Right!🙏🏼❤😭

[@jenniferautry9315]

Me too!

[@lizpena1008]

Girl my 6 lash extension are GONE!!! 😭😭😭 they deserve so much 🥺

[@adrianaguzman8986]

Same 😭

[@Cubanita_Foodxplora]

Same here

[@Ramzz3g]

This is why I feel as a society overall we should stop asking women questions like “when are you planning on having babies?” no one truly knows what goes on behind closed doors. Praying for you and any other women that are struggling. ❤️

[@misztori]

E R I C K A THIS!!! 🖤🖤😭😭🙌🏽🙌🏽

[@beautyfab8047]

Yes 👏🏼

[@badnameC]

couldnt agree more! also, not everyone wants kids, like myself and i wish people would stop asking because there are so many reasons behind it

[@brookewatson9531]

Yes!! This needs to be said!! 💜💙

[@crissalvino]

E R I C K A sooo true!!! 🙌🏼💖

[@Dink_13]

When Steven said: “she’s gotten better at needles though.” My heart sank and the flood gates opened. I love you, Desi.

[@fawadzoori8338]

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[@Dbubblesss28]

I’m a Fertility Nurse here in So Cal and I appreciate your openness. People don’t talk about fertility issues due to shame and being vulnerable but So many women struggle with this. You will get pregnant and your miracle baby will come 💜 All of this suffering will soon be erased with the pure joy of your baby In your arms. Good luck on this journey!

[@iloveyourvibez]

Dbubblesss28 hiii!! Fertility nurse here as well in OC. Totally understand what they’re going through! I feel for them! Sending lots of love!!

[@adeelaa6104]

I couldn’t agree more. I hope this changes soon.

[@taings1]

Thanks for comment, I have been going through this long journey and still hoping a little one after 6 ivf tries.

[@kikivonmolsa]

I am not ashamed, but people who don't go through years of infertility treatment just can't understand

[@carmvalencia2168]

“I need to shake it off before Steven gets home” really hit home. I’ve taken countless tests behind my husband, it’s hard enough to be disappointed, feeling “broken” and to see it in your husbands face too I just rather not. Desi don’t give up, I’m 37 years old and after almost 10 years of trying and nothing I was finally able to get pregnant, I’m currently 34 weeks. It’s was a long lonely road but it was all worth it. You too (and so many others ) will have your happy ending. Have faith. You’ll get there too!

[@liltiggergirl316]

Congrats!!! I struggled as well and I’m currently 6 weeks. I know I still have a long way to go but I have faith. All in his will 🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@erika_velazco]

Congratulations! Wishing you a happy & healthy delivery ❤️

[@debbie12346]

Congrats!

[@carmvalencia2168]

Jessica Rodriguez congratulations Mama! It’s all in his will. He’s the one who got me through it all. Praying for healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby.

[@carmvalencia2168]

Erika Velazco Thank You!

[@suhir5210]

Those of you who say I hope she announces her pregnancy at the end of the series have to realise that if she isn't, your expectations could be hurting her.

[@mrs.cardenas3178]

No, it's just what we wish for her.

[@suhir5210]

@@mrs.cardenas3178 of course everyone wishes that for her and none of us wish it for her more than she does for herself. This is the equivalent of " are you pregnant?" Or " when are you going to have a baby?" I guarantee you that it hurts her if she hasn't gone numb from hearing it so much. I know it's just good intentions.

[@suhir5210]

@Enormous Dixahalv you can also apply your " solution" to hate comments too, but then those who want to communicate with her cant. Maybe the comment section would provide much support for her. I think the easiest thing to do is keep such comments to oneself. Problem solved.

[@hanifanifa]

@Enormous Dixahalv shaddap jerk

[@suhir5210]

@Ashley Elle oh I know . It's not malicious at all. The good intentions are there. It's just that she wants a baby more than we do for her. Infertility makes you feel like you're faulty and every time you get a negative test , it's soul crushing. You're already disappointed in yourself ( even if you know its not your fault) you don't need to fell like you're disappointing your viewers too. I'm 100% sure she knows you have only good intentions.

[@jessicacruz2012]

Omg, this really raises awareness to me. To think about asking couples “why don’t you have any kids yet?”. It’s not something we think about.

[@melissaruvalcaba6530]

"Do you know how easy life would be if we could just stop our thoughts" I FELT THAT

[@angelasmith1674]

As a 36 year old woman who hasn’t found “the one” this hits me in a different way. I hope you and Steven get blessed with your rainbow baby soon.

[@MD-jr4qc]

Totally feel you on that one.

[@thriftinasse]

i hope you get blessed with "the one" darling, stay positive :)

[@melissastephen4853]

I know that it doesn’t really help, but you are not alone. I am 35 and was going to leave the same comment. Hoping it eventually happens for us all.

[@ZeeZeeOni]

Yeah, I felt this!

[@luvShante]

Whew sis this hit me in my soul, because same! It breaks my heart to see Desi go thru this, but thank you for sharing your story! I’m sure you’re helping thousands muster up the strength to continue!

[@wendyministro6353]

There isn’t a pair more deserving of such a miracle more than you guys! I just started watching this video but I wish this journey ends with the miracle you’ve been wanting and a life of happiness together. I know the joy of having babies and the heartbreak of a miscarriage and im going to be sending you nothing but prayers to you in this journey! Stay positive! 💖

[@elizabethgregory]

Same!! I feel for them so much.

[@chelseasoto6753]

Amen!!

[@hayleyl9667]

Took me 6 years to get pregnant naturally and now I'm 3 months pregnant!!

[@thedoubleyou8247]

yay so happy for you , i hope you have a safe pregnancy and a healthy baby💕

[@savannahbernie5835]

Who’s here after watching their Birth Vlog w Ocean, 😍😭❤️

[@louisemailey2963]

Me

[@briannampnelson]

Steven is a caring sensitive strong KING to his QWEEEEN

[@dianas5788]

* QUEEN

[@krbk26]

I think that was intentional

[@briannampnelson]

Kr Bk lmao thank you it was 😂

[@classicarah]

He’s amazing,they’re both blessed to have each other.

[@Van_M]

I’m praying that you have the opportunity to become a mother. I tried for 10 years. I went to four different doctors, did multiple fertility treatments, cried a lot, took a million pregnancy tests, had every kind of emotion. Nothing worked. We couldn’t afford IVF so we had to stop. It never happened for me. I never got pregnant. I hope you find something that works for you and that you find peace and happiness.

[@silri7248]

Van M sending love 💓

[@riley101ify]

I am so sorry to hear that. Sending hugs 💓

[@cynthia1542]

bless your soul.

[@xoxo247.]

💕 sending you love Van!

[@momcatx2]

It's not fair how expensive IVF is. There are so many deserving, potentially amazing, should be parents out there. Sending ❤❤

[@myong2206]

WHO’sS HERE AFTER THEY ANNOUNCED???🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺im literally crying im SO happy for them

[@Insanepie]

Bro you have nothing to do with their life

[@TaniasMakeover]

@@Insanepie leave her be, you know nothing about their journey.

[@GretchenV95]

Not discounting Steven and his own strength through all of this but maaan... the strength of a woman is unmeasurable. To go through all this and still film videos, still go to events, still do your job.. I love you, Desi. ❤️

[@jaspergamil2322]

‘The PAIN that you’ve been feeling, can’t compare to the JOY that’s coming.’ - Romans 8:18 Sending Prayers & Positive vibes Desi & Steven 💕💕💕

[@laurastanfill210]

I agree in Jesus name. Amen. ❤🥰 I love you, Desi and Steven. Hang in there. Joy will come in the morning!

[@alisab3683]

Jasper Gamil AMEN 🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@CarmenCherie93]

Amen!!!

[@kariiiinaxoxo]

Amen❤️❤️

[@evamakolle]

Ameeen we pray in Jesus name !!! Keep the faith.

[@Karishk37]

I started crying as soon as it started. This is truly the side that no one ever talks about. I had a miscarriage also and not until after it happened did i find out that miscarriages are super common maybe even more common than pregnancies. Desi, I keep you and your family in my thoughts. Your dream family will happen for you.

[@bobbiemarie5866]

Karis Aguilera I did too. I feel like Steven is such a great partner and so supportive

[@neva9414]

I was in the same exact boat as you. I wasn't aware of how common it truly is until I went through this myself.

[@texastippn]

Same. 🥺😭

[@simplyswede7206]

Same, I’m empathetic but I did not expect to cry!

[@LayersOfJenn]

“I’m trying but I’m not really trying” .. I felt that because I’ve said it so many times. I’m currently on my own journey of trying to have a baby. I wish you guys nothing but the best of luck ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@Lexsully]

LayersOf_Jenn me too, love! Sending you so many good vibes ❤️

[@kjchch]

I felt this too 😔 it's so true right. We made it in the end with donor eggs but my gosh it's a journey. Love your content Jenn and rooting for you and T...and these guys too of course ❤️

[@rosangeladiaz7968]

Im on the same boat..... lots of hugs for you ladies and positive vibes.... and hope one day we can come back to this post and said “Im pregnant “ I’m 💯 % sure it will happened 😘😘💕💕💕💕

[@lesleyalfaro6941]

I wish you the best of luck! Be strong ❤️

[@LayersOfJenn]

KJ Fletcher thank you 😭♥️👏🏻

[@harpreetjandu7902]

My heart breaks when I see couples who really want children, who I know would be amazing parents, but struggle so much with it, while it happens so easily for others. I wish Desi and Steven good luck with their fertility journey and hope it works out for them. Sending lots of love and positivity your way.

[@thefayemichelle]

The worst part is watching these crime shows during quarantine and thinking wow some of these people don't deserve to have kids, but then those like you said who would KILL THE MOM AND DAD GAME aren't as lucky. Unfair world we're in, really unfair. I hope they're happy in this process though.

[@SmartistaBeauty]

I cannot emphasize the value of such vulnerability on KZbin. This is the type of content that pushes this platform further. Wishing you a blessed journey

[@annajoie700]

So very well said!! 👏🏼💛

[@indhirasanchez3645]

There’s no words for women going through infertility, I have had 3 miscarriages. Im currently pregnant with my miracle baby and it took 4 pregnancies and 2 years of trying to get here, Desi I pray for you and ask God to give you a child. Im gonna tell you what my mom told me when I found out I was pregnant for the fourth time “entregaselo a Dios, put your child in God’s hands and ask him to protect his child and to let it be your child”. I hope with all my heart that you get pregnant soon, God’s timing is perfect, I know how hard it is but you got this mama💙

[@rebecamancina5214]

Indhira Sanchez i love this!

[@dollydevilish22]

The intro literally was the cutest thing ive ever heard

[@BTanny777]

I cried when you said “timing is a funny thing. the moment brought the pregnancy tests home, I started my period.” Time just sucked in for me I was like 😳😭😭😭💔

[@sophiehale6014]

Whether this leads to pregnancy, adoption, and another dog, I’m so excited to watch your journey! You’re so strong and inspiring Desi💗

[@graciann4919]

Sophie Hale i agree! whatever and wherever this series goes, i’ll be supporting you guys till the end!

[@lupita916]

My parents tried to have a baby for 10 years. They tried adopting, but did not qualify for it. After 1 failed IVF attempt, they did one more, my dad said if this one doesn’t work out, he’s done trying. Not too long after, they got the call saying they were pregnant with me. Timing is everything, I am here because of my parents struggle and journey.

[@beautyfab8047]

Very nice story ✨🙂👍🏼

[@justynawisniewska1213]

Crazy that adoption was more expensive than IVF :o

[@lupita916]

Justyna Wisniewska My parents didn’t make enough to qualify for adoption, but they were able to afford IVF because they qualified for a program that cut the cost by 50%. Also, not sure if it was just cheaper in general during the 90s?

[@yvetteserna9160]

😭😭😭. I really have taken being able to get pregnant for granted. I'm so sorry, this is such a painful video. I am so grateful for my children.

[@shelleymccain6762]

Clicked on this as soon as I tucked in my 4 adopted kids ,because " me too" We have been through many years of infertility, finally we ended up adopting and have 4 beautiful kids. Praying for you both ❤❤

[@darlene5984]

adoption! 💕 i love that you shared this, blessings to you & your family!

[@misslebnan]

Amazing!!! You’re their super hero!

[@nalinthalala6204]

Shelley Mccain oh wonderful! I clicked on it too. Am nervous to watch as I am still without child, but of course hopeful! Thanks for sharing your story. I love stories of hope and women who encourage ! Fertility journey is so hard.. but with love and support is possible. X

[@elsaperez3799]

👏👏👏 Good bless you 😘😘

[@avt30]

I’m 44 and have just had my first baby via IVF after 15 years of trying...there is light at the end of the tunnel...sending you all the positive pregnancy vibes 🥰🤰🏻x

[@jinanh2712]

avt30 congratulations!

[@avt30]

Ashley Elle Hi there...I had two frozen embryos and only one took, thankfully! I had my treatment in Spain, Alicante an AMAZING clinic called IB...very professional, 1000 times cheaper than in the UK and a first time positive !!!....if you need more info I’m happy to share....8 of us in my IVF group network are now with child or pregnant via this clinic! X

[@avt30]

Jinan Thank you so so much! 🥰

[@smarieesco]

My husband and I have been trying for 2yrs now. I don’t talk about it with anyone, so watching this video was such blessing and so relatable. Thank you.

[@thedoubleyou8247]

i hope that one day youll carry your baby stay strong and positive💕

[@tashakarua7226]

Dame here but God’s timing is the best..All the best darling ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@krystlej400]

It took us 7 years to get pregnant. I wish you guys the best on your journey.

[@vanessarubio7518]

Krystle J natural or with help?

[@NeroSilver2]

Congrats! I hope you and your family are happy and healthy! ❤️

[@TheSnowReport28]

Krystle J took us 7 years for a successful pregnancy too

[@thefayemichelle]

Took my aunt 12 and she's got two beautiful babies I get to call my cousins! So happy for you, congrats!

[@lovehoney3625]

This comment scared me honestly. I’m so scared 😱

[@alinadherrera]

I hope that this will make people think twice about asking when someone is going to have a baby. I am so absolutely sorry for you. I believe it’s all in god’s timing, he will provide when it is the best time to go through a new season

[@nicoleb4629]

Alina Herrera 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 I know ppl don’t ask to be mean but it can really break your heart with every question.

[@SweetDreamsMell]

Well said 👏🏼

[@nataliebernal1685]

It’s crazy how someone I never met or doesn’t even know I exist, made me cry so damn hard. Desi thank you for sharing your journey. I hope this series ends with a miracle you both deserve 💙

[@novatalukder832]

I watched the entire journey and I’m back here after a year because I’m starting my own fertility journey. And Desi gives me so much hope. Praying for all the women wanting to become a mother ♥️

[@autahassan143]

Hey I know of a spell caster that can help you manifest children into your womb in less than 2weeks,he helped me my sis and my aunt. He can help you with twins or triplet,he is so powerful.⏯⏯⏭⏭⏯⏭

[@SaskiasBeautyBlog]

i went through it all as well! Now i have 3 beautiful children.. we went through so much pain.. but in the end it was all worth it! i wish u all the BEST! dont give up.. at the end it will be all good! i also filmed everything on my channel

[@thearbonzo4063]

👏

[@Yaackiie]

*video starts* *Steven: “Good mor- “* Me: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@xcatiehoydicx]

If this doesn’t end with an announcement I’m going to have a talk with the big man upstairs. Nobody is more deserving. Praying for y’all!! ❤️

[@torimcclelland7613]

Catie Hoydic I was thinking the same thing! I’m hoping this ends with an announcement because my heart hurts for them so much 😭🙏🏼

[@nikasmall9824]

I'm SO PRAYING this!!!!

[@holadrea9721]

💯

[@KajinOh]

I was thinking this too, I prayed so hard for her and I know she will be the most amazing mother🥺❤️

[@ashketchum1377]

But its important for her to know that even if this doesnt end with the “big announcement” yll are expecting that it is still okay, we love her and pray for her. If her journey ends differently that doesnt make her any less amazing.

[@aznaznazn]

I struggled with infertility too. We tried for more than 2 years. Every cycle was a cocktail of drugs and injections, figuring out what would make me ovulate and what didn’t, finding the right combination of drugs that my body would respond to, the crazy weight gain, the rollercoaster of emotions, taking various natural supplements, fertility massages or “natural healing”, going through procedures to check my ovaries, altering my lifestyle... I’ve been there too and it’s so so hard. Every month a disappointment. And seeing my friends/peers/relatives fall pregnant so easily..... I couldn’t deal with it. I would cry and cry and ask God why not me too, why is it so hard for me? But when we least expected it, we fell pregnant and now we have a beautiful baby girl. I wish you all the best in your journey. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it.

[@AlissiaLatrece]

Imagine how loved your baby is gonna feel to know that you guys worked this hard for him/her. I’m rooting for you guys, you’ll be amazing parents 💜

[@katrinateramura3810]

My friend just announced she’s pregnant with twins after 6 years of trying and IVF. Stay strong, prayers to you and Steven!

[@jemsopp7125]

This is such a good documentary. I especially appreciate how Steven’s journey is included. I think people forget about the father in a miscarriage or during infertility treatments. I also love to see how you two are supporting each other. This had to be very difficult to share, but I honestly think it will help so many others going through this too.

[@LivforLu]

The video of her telling Steven she’s pregnant always brings me to tears😔

[@ddorn04]

We went over 7 years trying to have children. Multiple surgeries to remove polyps, low motility on my part, we prayed our church prayed god answered that prayer. My wife conceived on the second round of fertility shots. We had the best Obstetrician she was with us every step of the way. The second month of pregnancy she started bleeding, we thought we had lost the pregnancy. One of the three babies did not survive. It turned out to be a blessing. In the end my wife was put in the hospital, could not find my sons heartbeat, finally found it after working for almost an hour. Csection next day, they are now 15, super smart and capable fifteen year old twins. It will happen in Gods time, pray without ceasing, if one door closes another will open.

[@atmr95]

I know there’s over 3k comments and you won’t see this but I just wanted to say that this was the first video in a long time (since the start of lockdown) I’ve actually watched as soon as I saw the notification and was actually engaged for the whole 30 mins! Thankyou so much for your vulnerability and your honesty. I don’t know what you’re going through but it’s like I feel the pain you’re experiencing and I SO want this to be a happy ending for you. I want this so bad for you more than I want my own kids! I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I feel such a connection to you and your family. Desi and Steven, I send you nothing but love and hope 💞 No one deserves this more than you xo

[@christinaleask3554]

My brother n sis in law tried for 10years, in the end they went ivf but it turns out she had an auto immune that was undiagnosed that essentially prevented her from getting pregnant, the ivf worked after the autoimmune was corrected and theyve since had a natural conception Desi and Steven, you WILL have your baby, that bundle of joy is waiting for the perfect time to come into your lives Thank you for sharing your journey, I know it’s incredibly personal and you’re both so brave for exposing this raw and heartbreaking time of your parenting journey

[@lopeznayeli69]

Christina Leask do you mean after the autoimmune disease was treated? Sorry don’t mean to be a Karen, I have an autoimmune disease and they are permanent but can be treated. Don’t want people to think it can be corrected as most as very serious and painful like mine.

[@antoniag6622]

NLo i think she meant starting a treatment and goind under remission. Also there is a disease called antiphospholipidic syndrome that causes blood clotting and spontanous abortion and has got treatment

[@lopeznayeli69]

Hayley Joe yeah they all have some type of treatment. Doesn’t work a lot of the times but there are options. I knew what she meant. Just had to correct her wording so she’ll know along with others. There is no correcting an autoimmune disease, but they can be treated. No biggie, constructive criticism.

[@christinaleask3554]

NLo I understand autoimmune, my daughter has celiacs disease My sis in laws was specific to pregnancy, her body attacking the embryo as a foreign body as soon as it implanted, and yes, this particular AI has been corrected, I can’t recall the name of it but it’s done and dusted

[@antoniag6622]

NLo It is interesting though that during the pregancy the immune system lowers it’s natural defense due to the fetus (so that it doesn’t produce antibodies against the baby).

[@nataliemanukyan1671]

It boggles my mind, there’s some people that are able to have babies no problem & don’t want them or can’t appreciate a beautiful baby (not all but I speak for some) or when you hear horrific stories on the news that women don’t want their baby 😔 And people like yourself that would be amazing parents have this type of difficulties to have a precious angel. I wish you the best of luck with your journey ❤️

[@deannamarie3324]

“Have you ever considered adoption” changed in the subtitles to “...considered a dog farm,” and I think the answer to that is yes 😆

[@MissEman92]

This broke my heart. I’ve been trying to get pregnant for 4 years. Multiple miscarriages and failed IUI cycles later and here I am watching this video and thinking “Omg I know what that’s like and it hurts”. I’m praying for you Desi and for all my sisters in the world trying to conceive. You’re all queens and don’t let anyone make you feel less than for anything. Sending out all the love! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@xoxo247.]

Praying for you Eman ✨

[@davidwilliams4837]

God bless you.

[@adelabed9363]

Im forty and just took that out of my mind

[@katherinehernandez8679]

I think the level of care Desi puts into her garden and plants 🌱 is a beautiful metaphor of a mother nurturing her embryo. By no means do I want this to seem disrespectful I just thought it was so beautiful she found comfort in gardening with her dad and bringing life to those seeds...... my heart goes out to you and your journey 💖

[@robincloete]

I also watched the gardening video's yesterday, and she has such a nurturing soul. With the gardening, doggies & her family. ❤️🥺

[@danielarxmos]

Katherine Hernandez This comment > 😭😭💕

[@katherinehernandez8679]

Sam GG Sam GG I think you need to look back at my comment and realize I never used the term Mother Nature. I said DESI nurturing her plants was a beautiful metaphor to me of how she would nurture her child (embryo). Bearing children is a part of nature, and in the human species only females can carry child. Natures gender was not and is not something I lose sleep on.

[@hildelizza]

Aaww🥺🥺🥺 when Steven brought the pregnancy test and she got her period 🥺🥺🥺🥺 poor Steven and Desi really... Soooo happy that you are pregnant right now 💓💓 that's gonna be some good looking kid right there

[@albatorres3741]

I swear I wasn’t even a minute in I’m already crying. 😭❤️

[@ShantiTyree]

“Comparison is the thief of joy.” is what my mom always would tell me. What is for you is for you, and I pray and believe you’ll have your heart’s desires!

[@Yazmean97]

My mom couldn’t have children. Her and my dad were on treatment for more than 7 years. She had two artificial inseminations done and was getting a monthly shot. After almost 8 years they told her she should give up due to all of the procedures and how her body could react to it. A year after (with no treatment) I ended up on an ultrasound! I’m so excited to see what the future holds for you guys! Wish you nothing else but luck! I know you guys will be such good parents 💕

[@tatyanacouture5448]

Yazmin Mejia thank u for sharing this story. That was nothing but God girl! Your parents deserved you and vice versa. Love this 😭

[@sandesajol3994]

Yazmin Mejia xx

[@jgoncalodm]

@@tatyanacouture5448 Sorry but this is all too common on fertility treatment couples, they are able to conceive after they give up treatments and all the anxiety, stress, expectations go away. Just nature, no Aliens or Gods involved .

[@tatyanacouture5448]

Gonçalo Monteiro OR you could just accept that EYE believe what I believe and I respect our beliefs so respect mine. GOD BLESS 🥰

[@alexisbalke4200]

This story alone made me emotional, that’s amazing.

[@Ustolemymusterd]

28:00 Well I am A: a teenager and B: too scared of death to ever want a partner or a child. I find these type of videos incredibly inspiring. I loved what she said. Well I am still in the hole of grief, I struggle to want to get out of bed in the mornings. I feel as if I have lost control, but knowing that she is right, that I have control over other things in my life that I love. I should do them as I struggle with the fact that the people I love have and will continue to die at moments I could never predict. I have to keep strong, for the ones that are still alive, and control my life before I get to go meet the people I miss.

[@glyndaa8319]

I feel this so much. 10 years of trying. Surgery, treatments, pills... wouldn’t happen for us. We were meant for our beautiful little girls we adopted ❤️ reason for everything...

[@tamikaadams1341]

I don’t think there’s a couple that’s more deserving of this. My heart goes out to you both. Xx

[@carolinaleal8925]

Tamika Adams every couple that’s going in this journey deserves a baby

[@Cassienesss]

I HAVE NEVER CLICKED ON ANYTHING FASTER. I’m crying 😭💕

[@Cassienesss]

@Mario Deskovic GIRL SAME.

[@Mxp1809]

I’ve never felt like someone has understood me more. This is so similar to mine and my fiancé’s journey. I am so grateful for you sharing your journey. Thank you ❤️🌈

[@slavetotheshutter68]

3 min in. I didn’t think I could bring myself to watch this and I’m already in tears I hope the best for you two

[@45sylwunia]

This was so tough to watch because it was like watching and hearing myself. Infertility is the hardest thing I’ve had to go through. It changed me completely. I was at my lowest point mentally. Month after month year after year. It will tear you apart and you feel so alone. The emotional damage is indescribable. The obsession with test taking and evaluating every single symptom! I know it all too well. All I can say is I know exactly what your going through and although it feels like your so alone in this there is so so many women going through the same. Unfortunately we just don’t hear about it enough. But... it happened for us and we have a beautiful 18 month old baby boy named Noah! He was all worth it! The journey may be hard but the reward is all worth it. I wish you strength because I know you need it❤️

[@catherinerodas9529]

behalf of everyone: thank you for being vulnerable (you and Steven) and sharing your story!

[@briannaaranda93]

This was so beautiful, raw, emotional, and literally can help other woman going through the same struggle! I love you both for this!!! Respect ✊🏼

[@allycat91974]

I’m glad that you have eachother and your pets. They make a difference in bringing happiness.

[@maddies2317]

literally started crying ten seconds into Stevens little note at the beginning

[@emilyhernandez7809]

maddie s same 😭

[@Carolsaacount]

Omg same

[@andrealove52]

same 😭

[@wckdldy]

Me too!!!

[@MsLola2189]

maddie s same!! 😭😭 i couldn’t stop the tears they just came out and wouldn’t stop.

[@magalyazpeitia1562]

Sad to see someone who really wants kids and there’s people in the world that have kids and have them rolling around not give a crap about their kids

[@KarlaF91]

Magaly Azpeitia so true!

[@crystal96f]

😔

[@classicarah]

Sad world we live in.

[@BreannaGilbert47]

I am a fertility nurse in Oklahoma. I think it’s awesome that you are sharing your story. I hope that by more people talking about their struggles with infertility, it will remove the negative stigma that surrounds it. Infertility is nothing to be ashamed of. Keep your head up. The biggest advice I can give is to understand that infertility treatment is different for every person. Some get pregnant on their first IUI cycle and some go through 4-6 cycles of IUI without success and resort to IVF. It will happen for y’all and you are going to be awesome parents. Never give up and keep sharing your story!!!

[@veronicao967]

for a while now i’ve always seen so much light and love connected to your energy. to me, your angels are speaking to you.. so many sweet messages through out the video. sharing your journey with us is so powerful and healing, you’re showing the world divine femininity that not a lot of women or young girls get to come across. your light is shining and you are sharing that light - you are strength. your honesty and vulnerability is so grounding.. because it is real and human. thank you for being vulnerable Desi. no matter where your journey leads you are attached to so much love and light. it is already beautiful. trust uncertainty. 444 🙏🏼✨🧿

[@jenniivibes]

I was five months pregnant with my first pregnancy after trying for a year, went into early birth and had to give birth to my stillborn baby boy. Losing Ziad was so hard, especially knowing he was a boy and even planing a baby shower for the future. Doctors said I could not hold a full term pregnancy and my world shattered. With prayer guess what, my son Joeziah, my only child (I am scared to try for more) is 11 years old. Please don’t lose hope Desi. Sigue adelante.

[@liltiggergirl316]

JENNIIVIBES god is good!

[@marjorievelasco4346]

I’m sorry for you’re loss, with whatever you choose to go forward with in your life I know it’ll lead to true happiness.

[@samanthakay8392]

Xx

[@guadaluperodriguez8186]

I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this. Like you said its a topic we as woman sometimes dont like to talk about it and it takes courage for what you are doing and i thank you for that. I am 32 and Ive had a miscarriage and i am so terrified of being unable to carry/hold a baby . I also understood things happen for a reason. God knows we have trust him! And have faith. Love you and again thank you

[@ValerieCerpaa698]

The names of your sons are so touching it made me tear up! I wish you nothing but the best 💕🙏🏻

[@karizzo]

I have never seen two people more deserving of a child. I will pray that you get your miracle and more! Thank you for bringing us with you on this journey. It’s so private and intimate I couldn’t imagine how you and Steven must feel. Love and happiness to you both! 💕

[@andreamoreno5996]

Never lose hope, god’s timing is truly perfect. It would make me upset when people would tell me that because I just didn’t understand why, why it was taking so long for me to conceive and wondering what Was wrong with me, but here I am now, 4 years after a loss and was just about to start going to a fertility doctor but instead I am going to my first ob appointment. You guys are not alone, and no matter how many tries it takes it will happen! Just never lose hope! It will be worth it at the end ❤️

[@GMHARDY]

What did you change in your life? Would do you think made you finally conceive?

[@katrinwansing6012]

I‘m at 2:13 and i‘m already crying. Although I do not want to have children myself I do try to understand how hard it is for people who do want to have children to go through something like this. I pray for you that everything turns out the way you want to ❤️❤️❤️

[@danyellethompson1107]

I had 5 miscarriages n a stillborn daughter. It's so hard going through it. I'm sorry about your loss. But u 2 are so strong n God has a reason for it. But 360 days after my stillborn daughter I had twin identical girls and 3 yrs after had another daughter. Put faith in God. U 2 r so cute together too.

[@angelface14angel]

The part where Steven gives desi her “care package” made me tear up. I hope we all find a love like that... ❤️ so thoughtful 😭

[@abbyhayes634]

I just want to tell you how much love and appreciation I am sending your way. I have watched Desi for years, and my heart hurt seeing your hurt in your video last year. But I also cannot believe how strong you both are. Strong enough to go through this, and strong enough to share it. Steven, thank you for being there for Desi while you're both struggling.

[@Jazminflowerss]

My heart is with you! Be gentle on yourself, you’re doing absolutely amazing. Thank you for sharing something so personal and sensitive.

[@winnyj6806]

If I had a nickel every time someone told me “not to think about it” or “as soon as you stop trying, it will happen” ughhhh I’d be rich. I do my best to not ever say those things to a woman trying to get pregnant.

[@krystaltello5119]

I’m barley like 3 minutes in & I have tears streaming. Con el amor, todo es posible. I love you both!

[@valo.9717]

Krystal Tello girl same 😭

[@elizabethgregory]

Me too!!

[@aloonnddraa_2958]

I was the same! 😭

[@rgayaala3946]

Desi, I’ve always known you’re a strong woman. But this is strength on a whole another level. You deserve nothing but happiness.❤️

[@traciwitzberger6728]

My friend mentioned your journey to me because I’m gaining through the same thing right now. I am so glad she told me about this because it makes me feel as though I’m not crazy for the thoughts I have. Everything you have said I think and feel. I just want to thank you for putting your story out there because it makes me feel less alone! I’m currently in my dreaded two week wait after my first round of IUI. I’m so nervous for my results but I makes me feel better knowing that you feel the same things I do and that I’m not crazy for feeling them! So thank you for sharing!

[@emcharette5933]

Crossing my fingers and praying that the last episode of this journey comes with a positive test and baby Perkins. You are both SO deserving. Don't give up xoxox

[@annajoie700]

I thought the exact same thing!! 👏🏼💛🙏🏼

[@sabrinabotez4899]

I was thinking this as well!! 🙏🏼

[@_iiamdenisem]

I was thinking the same thing 🙏🏼

[@milonzekesmom]

I was just telling my hubby the same thing!!!! I told him hope the end of this series is when she says they are expecting 🙏🏼🙏🏼🤞🤞

[@jackieb5107]

I started tearing up as soon as Steven started talking 🥺 I think most of us empathize with the woman but it’s really inspiring hearing Steven point of view and how men deal with issues like this, it’s just as important as us women since they are in fact going thru the same problem. I’m soo happy for this series because I can feel there’s a baby at the end of the series and I’m praying for it. Since you Desi opened up about it in your main channel I always pray for you, I know you’re going to be amazing parents, God is good! 🙏🏻👶🏻💖

[@fashionbeautybomb]

I love how real you two are. I've suffered from a miscarriage and understand the confusion and heartbreak. Praying for you two!

[@anahimijares9300]

Lord I ask you to put peace and love in both Desi and Stevens heart. Show them you are there for them. May you guide them and lead them in every way. Heal their heart, and fill it with love. May it be your will and not their own. Help them understand what you are doing Lord. Amen! God bless you guys!! I love you guys! Don’t be disappointed because there is nothing impossible for God! ❤️❤️❤️

[@Jade_fawkes]

"I'm sorry there is no heartbeat" were the hardest most breaking words I've ever heard. It's brutal and no one should ever have to go through it! Its so incredibly common!

[@therese6659]

Omg girlll😢 those words are a dagger through your heart. I know the feeling.

[@christacalleros6782]

Agree! Happened to me twice!

[@Jade_fawkes]

@@therese6659 Im so so sorry hun xx

[@Jade_fawkes]

@@christacalleros6782 So sorry hun xx

[@vanessacastillo9925]

Haven’t even gotten past Svens voiceover and I’m crying 😭

[@deniseh78]

Me too! You could feel every word they said

[@Roxscy]

This is so emotional ... the lengths some go to start a family . I am sending so many prayers to you and Steve. You both are going to be wonderful parents someday. Sending love, strength, and courage to keep going on your journey! 🥰

[@lauradelaney5457]

This is my favourite series on the internet. So real, so raw. ❣️

[@sunnybains7638]

Wow. Such an emotional video. We had 8 years of failed clomid and iui’s. Then 5 rounds of IVF, got pregnant every time but miscarried each time, one was at over 5 months. Finally threw in the towel and August and miraculously got pregnant in September. Hang in there, I feel your pain so much. I know what it’s like to have people tell u not to worry about it when it’s all you think about. .......................... but just hang in there🙏🏼❤️

[@ameliajade5967]

sunny bains Aw bless, what a gorgeous outcome for you xxx

[@amyleigh7624]

My exact story! I felt like such a lonely failure the whole time.

[@sunnybains7638]

Thanks guys. It’s ok now cos I have a 5 year old. The journey is hard. I can totally relate to her pain. Brings back a lot of memories. I’m sure a lot of her followers will relate. 🙏🏼❤️

[@yasminageagea2810]

I’ll just tell you one thing, just like there are hundreds of thousands of people praying for you right now, there will be millions celebrating this baby with you❤️ Stay hopeful. We Love you❤️

[@LolitaTheLola]

Yasmina Geagea love that ❤️

[@Jerseygrl23]

We went through this journey for 6 years, so I know exactly how you feel. You pretend to not get your hopes up, but they are. You test every month. You cry all the time. Keep going. It’ll work in the end. My husband and I ended up doing ivf and I currently have an almost 7 week old baby laying on my chest. Ivf is hard, so hard, but it’s so worth it. Good luck. 🧡

[@lovemepurple101]

I’m 13 seconds in & already tearing up because of Stevens little speech

[@alejandradiaz4035]

Imagine after all these episodes SHE IS PREGNANT!! Hoping and praying for her! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️