This never gets easier. Vlog 803

After two weeks of trying everything we possibly could, I finally worked up the courage to put poor Peanut down.
I know in my head, it was the right thing to do... but my heart is not so convinced.
The boys are working well, and even the new boys seem to be pulling their weight over in the big barn.
The shop build is full force, with all of us helping out our plumber Mike to get the insulation down on the ground and get the infloor heat tubes laid before concrete arrives next week.
Wheat harvest is around the corner, and second cut hay needs dropped ASAP...
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[@zoebowler5664]

1.1 million people choose to watch your videos because of what’s in your DNA. Please don’t ever think that is a bad thing, the farming industry needs more people like you ❤❤❤

[@susanschroeder8021]

@@zoebowler5664 WOW!!! SANDI!!! This comment is powerful and so true. ❤️ Zoe is so right. You’ve built a community that loves the Brock’s and their DNA. ❤️ we have your back and support your decision.

[@bethlong1757]

@@zoebowler5664 Very well said Zoe!

[@elisabethrobinson4883]

Perfectly said! Love ya Sandi

[@vintagecat7249]

Also could not have said it better!! I don’t often post, but look forward to each & every video!!! Thank you so much for sharing your ups & downs. You keep it real & that’s why we love your videos!!

[@Chellees]

Completely agree, Zoe! Sandi, we love you bunches and support you a thousand percent!!❤️😊

[@heathergingrich6170]

Sandi, Peanut came into this world receiving your LOVE and empathy and he left this world the same way.❤❤❤❤

[@user-dh6bj2me5p]

He had a pretty rich life.

[@marymcmanemin4201]

Ditto.

[@jenniferstripe5393]

I love this thought. What a beautiful perspective on such a difficult situation

[@wendymarinelli6603]

Amen!

[@wendymarinelli6603]

@@heathergingrich6170 sweet goodbye to a sweet lamb! Sandi has a sweet spirit for her kids( lambs)

[@allisongoodman4806]

For people who care, it will never get easy. Thank you for caring and giving Peanut all the effort. ❤

[@bobseldestagain]

It's not meant to be easy. Caring about the least of us is what love and compassion call for in living true to God's truth. You are so loved. I am so glad you were born, are in our world which is a better place for your presence, your caring and yes, your sharing.

[@taniahansen4441]

Big hugs to you! The decisions you make should never be criticized. You are there with them and you only can decide what’s best for them.

[@dawnback5333]

I am crying right a long with you, I can't imagine making those calls, but you know that we all are here because of who you are and how you relate to those sheep. Please don't change.

[@h06anbjo]

The sheer heartbreak in Sandi´s voice when she says "It's done" is tear jerking.. I'm not gonna lie, I cried a bit..

[@DelltaD615]

Me too 😢

[@StephnieWms]

Right there w y'all!

[@Baldevi]

As did I and most anyone who watched this vlog...

[@RebekkaRN1962]

Me too 😢

[@triciacoleman808]

Me too😢

[@VipesVonHarlot]

You did the right thing for Peanut and you showed him a wonderful life full of love. He was a miracle lamb for how small he was when he was born ❤ RIP Peanut 🙏

[@meganmartin2037]

:(. I’m so sorry about peanut

[@kathyromano2736]

I am sorry about peanut you did the right thing

[@sandiekaye5241]

So very sorry about Peanut, but you did your absolute best for him. He got lits of special attention and love.

[@littleflame5530]

Sometimes, no matter how much we want them to be our animals just aren't viable. Ik it hurts. If we didn't care about them we wouldn't be as successful. Your parents raised you correctly. I love watching you and your family.

[@bevgandy6621]

@@VipesVonHarlot ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@jemimahargreaves7651]

I kept seeing the comments popping up saying people cried but I thought I’d be fine. Nope, I cried with you. You did everything you could and more and in the end you did the last thing left to stop him from suffering. Thank you for trying so hard and for showing him such kindness.

[@ahwell9984]

FWIW, the fact that Peanut was a sextuplet probably explains everything. The fact that he had as much health and happiness as he did is is a testament to your loving care. Rest in peace, little dude.❤

[@bevakathedementedraccoon]

Who else wanted to reach through the screen and give Sandi a hug? I know i did. Sandi sweetie, if there EVER comes a day when "that job" becomes easy, that will be your sign to stop farming!! The simple fact is you care about every animal you have, which is what makes you an amazing farmer. Don't stop caring! Lil Peanut fought hard, but some battles just can't be won. I for one think you made the right call x

[@aprilchapman7811]

I agree I wanted to give her the biggest hug! Also agree that if that job ever becomes easy then that is the sign to stop, that part of caring for animals should never be easy.

[@debbiewaksmonski4100]

I going to say the same thing. 😢💔🐑

[@mika72.-Bois]

Hugs from afar. As others have said Peanut knew only love his whole life. And ending his life was also an act of love too. 💔❤️‍🩹😢

[@bonnienorton2445]

Absolutely ❤❤❤love Sandi.

[@wendymarinelli6603]

Peanut knew you loved him so much to send him over the rainbow bridge. Ultimate love and compassion Sandi! I cried right along with you🥲❤️

[@kathybrandt6060]

Me too💔

[@heatherwatson7692]

You asked him if he would tell you when he was ready, and in that last video he looked up at you and showed you he was ready.

[@yazbee8736]

Bye peanut you little beauty ❤❤❤

[@wendymarinelli6603]

@@heatherwatson7692 The look in his eyes said “it’s time”.

[@nancypatterson374]

Peanut is not suffering anymore, you gave him peace. You are a special person Sandi, and your sheep and your family and viewers love you ❤

[@elisabethe8055]

There is nothing wrong about connecting to animals. Even sheep. I rather take that than people that dont care for and open their heart to animals. Sorry for your loss Sandi, it is love for the animal that you can take it out of its struggles. Little Peanut was a gem, and now he is a gem in heaven.

[@phinneganwilliam5867]

well said.

[@michaelgreenfield1150]

Absolutely the worst part of having animals... Thank you, Sandi, for trying so hard with not only Peanut but ALL your sheep. Knowing when it is time when one cares so much--it takes a strong heart... My heart is hurting with you... but a day too soon is better than a second late...

[@maggieslifeisawildride512]

For all those people who criticize out there...there are so many more of us who cry with you and feel your grief. You did what was the right thing to do for Peanut, for the business, and for you. God will bless you for this action. And we all pray that God continues to bless you!

[@Bronchitics]

Haters? Never seen haters on here.. you mean ppl that do not agree with Sandi? thats haters? interesting choice of word.

[@maggieslifeisawildride512]

@@Bronchitics I have. Not my choice but theirs.

[@alicecain4851]

​@@maggieslifeisawildride512I have seen a few, too. Really ugly. Not just people with differing opinions, but people who have gotten truly nasty and personal. I'm happy to say that I haven't seen any for quite a while. Either they got the hint and left, or someone is faster in taking them down. Either way, I'm happy that the comments are generally positive or questioning in a more respectful manner.

[@joannepantale483]

I'm pretty sure you won't find a lot of people on this channel that criticize this amazing woman or her profession. If so, just tell em to move along. 😉 👉 Eh, Sandi? ❤️ Jo

[@mayhmmaydn]

😢 farmer kid here. Your compassion and heart often find rough patches. You've freed peanut to run and frolic and popcorn thru the fields of heaven. He has golden girls to look after him. You're doing the right thing.

[@diviamichelle6031]

Wasn't crying till this comment

[@sharim]

Any of us who have pets or livestock know the heartbreak of losing them. It’s painful when they die and doubly worse when you have to make that terrible decision. Sending love ❤ and hugs from Texas to Sandi and all of you who have felt this pain.

[@catiecreighton669]

😢Never apologize for being a kind loving person. That is why we love you. The little guy was loved and that is what matters. You did what was right for Peanut. ❤

[@faithfulfayable]

Peanut is so blessed to have you as his shepherd. I cried with you when you could do no more.

[@leighwalton8190]

When Mark says you're 'goo goo ga ga' over sheep what he really means is that your passionate about caring for your animals and giving them the best life possible.

[@missangie1562]

You did everything you could and more for Peanut. I am so so sorry that you have to go through this impossible situation. I cried with you Sandi. You did what you could but there does come a time when time is not on your side. I commend you for your bravery and doing what’s best for your flock. RIP lil Peanut 🐑 🥜 ❤

[@janetteholmes]

Rest in peace Peanut, you could see the love you had for him.

[@lyndiwilson2334]

Goodbye sweet Peanut. You were literally loved by millions and will be missed 😢

[@alicecain4851]

I'm not even 5 minutes in, and I know Peanut needs to be let go. My heart actually hurts at the thought of it. I had such hopes of him becoming a wether and living out his tiny life amongst the Golden Girls. Tomato is so much younger that she really needed a younger nephew to be with her. I can see that it's not to be. Be strong for him, Sandi! He'll go back into your land and never know one minute of fear. Thank you for bringing us these glimpses of your life. Even the heartbreak. My thoughts are with you. ❤ 🐑 ❤ 🐑 ❤ 🐑 ❤

[@tiffanytupper8983]

Peanut lived his best life because of you. You are on my mind ☺️🕯💜🧡💜

[@bridgit001]

It doesn't get easier because it's not supposed to. You worked so hard to bring him into the world. And to ease his way out. You gave him so much love, care, and of course cuddles. You are so amazing. Thank you for sharing this journey with us. Love and hugs to you.

[@reginamorgan9600]

We are all crying with you. He was so sweet and millions loved him right along with you. He was so special. We'll never forget him and all you did for him. We love you!

[@christytubbs3266]

Sorry Sandi. We are crying too. We fall in love with all your sheep and lambs. We cry when you cry. We laugh when you laugh. Thank you for allowing us into your world ❤

[@joankahley8005]

My heart breaks for you. You worked so hard to save Peanut and he knew that. I cried along with you. Never loose your sweet, kind, caring heart for your sheep.

[@evanorvell8368]

He was loved, but he didn't need to suffer any more-and neither do you. It was the loving, humane thing to do.

[@ruthstabb1260]

We all loved Peanut, he not only worked his little character into your heart, he touched your KZbin families hearts too. How lucky was he? Thank you for giving him the love he deserved, from all of us around the world.

[@user-ue9ex6ec6m]

So sorry about Peanut 😢 sending you a big hug, Sandy. Thank you for not giving up on him ❤ Billy is so cute, being in love like that 😊🐑💕

[@ellieban]

The problem is not that you care about your animals, the problem is the industrial farming system that tells you you shouldn’t because it’s not cost effective. ❤️

[@daftirishmarej1827]

Anyone who says you don't care for and about your sheep needs to see Peanut's story. We all loved him too, but it was better that he didn't suffer any longer Deep breath Sandi. Big hug coming to you from the UK 🫂

[@Cheerfulcolomom]

It’s very brave of you to share the entire story about Peanut. Thank you for your honesty and being a role model about caring about your animals. Sending you cyber hugs for this emotional experience.

[@slashfanclaudianalel]

All your followers are here for you Sandi, I'm 1 of the 1 million+ that got teary eyed & felt your heartache with little Peanut. He came into this world feeling loved & left it still feeling loved, & THAT RIGHT THERE, is the most precious thing we can give all living beings. 💙 Virtual Hugs from Rhode Island! 💙

[@user-rg3nu3pk9z]

Bless your heart Sandi. You did everything you could for Peanut. You have heart and this world needs a lot more people like you. We love you and watch your channel because of who you are.

[@joanneminer7046]

Little Peanut was so trusting. Everything you did for him you did with love. Bless your poor wounded heart. It takes a lot of love sometimes to do the right thing. You lead by example as to how animal husbandry should be done. Continue to teach the world.

[@PaulaR-mp9di]

Giving love is never wasted. Being compassionate can be very hard but ultimately it is one of your greatest strengths. One of the reasons you are so loved is because you are a woman of deep feelings. You will always remember that little cutie. Bye-bye Peanut. Love seeing your whole family pitching in with the new build!

[@dawsie]

I won’t lie, I bawled my eyes out, every video I had hoped peanut would finally pounce back, but knew in my heart of hearts he was not going to survive. Sheep farming is not an easy job, but it is a very satisfying when it comes to lambing season. There is nothing worse than a Forman not relaying important information of the concrete pour date. Knowing that you are pushing to get it done for a date you have been given. He knows full well that it takes one bad store to undo all that hard work, it’s why it’s always left to the last minute to ensue that no damage happens before the pour.

[@cheripulquerio1565]

You did the right thing, for that baby. People that are negative about how you run your farm. Have no idea, how it is...unless they walk a mile in your shoes...don't judge others. You are an amazing person that only wants the best for your animals!!!!❤

[@yanniegrannie]

Oh peanut, you worked so hard and tried so hard to give him a shot. Bless your kind heart Sandi ❤ the hard part of being a guardian of our precious animals. He was starting to breath ragged at the end you know as hard as it is you did the right thing the kind thing for him

[@mariegatzmer829]

You did the right thing, Sandi. You wouldn’t want to see him / her suffering. It breaks all our hearts, we are part of the family.

[@StartAtTheEnd]

Peanut brought so many of us great joy, and he was well loved till the end. I am sure he is kicking his heels up in heaven right now. Your ethics and care for your lambs is why I watch your show. Please never change! Blessings to you.

[@donnashaban9825]

Oh Sandy, My heart goes out to you! A wise Veterinarian once told me that sometimes an animal is just waiting for you to say it’s time to let go. Peanut was ready to go, he’s been waiting for you to let go. You are an amazing farmer!

[@karenneill9109]

Poor Peanut looked so sick and sad. You did your very best, Sandi, our hearts ache with you.

[@dd3wc]

I’m so sorry Sandi … we all know you tried from day 1 … and so did Peanut! It was the kindest thing to do for him! Big hugs from all your viewers! 🙌🙏❤️✝️

[@LeilahBrewer-bx7fb]

You fought so hard for Peanut and he tried his hardest. You have ended his suffering. Anyone with a heart understands you did what was right for him. We love you Peanut, rest easy baby boy ❤

[@cosmiccoyotedog-doreenb9605]

I cried with you. It's just never easy, but you sure gave little Peanut a fighting chance. Bless you. RIP Peanut.

[@laurawilliams5363]

I am so sorry Sandi. It never will be easy. You did the right thing for Peanut. Your tears and compassion say it all for the excellent way you farm.

[@valeriemcclain9001]

It takes a strong, ethical woman to do the right thing. Overcoming your heart is the sign that this isn't just a job or income for you. You are emotionally invested in another living being. That's why you touch so many people and your followers are devoted to you and your journey. We love that you love your animals. Peanut is fine. Now Sandi, take care of Sandi.

[@joannepantale483]

❤️❤️❤️

[@karihowry8213]

You showed Peanut so much love. I think we were all invested in him. Can’t lie I cried with you. Blessings to you and your family.

[@jhutch1681]

We love Peanut. Thanks for trying so hard 💜 No judgement for saving a weak lamb, for treating him as you did, or for deciding it was time. We know you always do your best xo

[@TalkingToTheMoonGirl]

He had had enough, you could see it in his face. The fact you tried so hard for him shows him you love him, and that's all that matters, him. How many wouldn't have bothered with him? Plenty! You give your all to your entire flock. It's one of many reasons we love you. You give everything despite the odds. You did, right by peanut. xxx

[@marli8907]

I’m so sorry, Sandi. He was such a good boy. You gave him the best life he could have. Without you, he wouldn’t have known any life at all. You did the kindest thing you could for him, and he knew you loved him.

[@amyspeers8012]

Thank you for giving Peanut a fighting chance. He looked at you like he needed help and you gave him that help. The new work space looks amazing. So proud of you.

[@Fortunateone61]

Peanut looked so so sad and in pain. You did the best for him. He’s not in pain anymore. He’s in Gods hands now. ❤

[@mariaragnarsson8459]

You could see in Peanut's eyes that he was so ready for the last act of love ❤

[@IIChamp]

RIP Peanut, you're not suffering anymore and Sandi you did the right thing. He knew that he was loved.

[@pamelacarroll]

Dearest Sandi, thank you for the love and care you show for all of the beings that enter your space - human and animal! 💕

[@mandymullett1615]

As a vegan, can I say thankyou for all the love and care you show your animals

[@keeleyg2636]

Crying for you and Peanut. You did everything you could for him. You always do all you can for your flock. That's what makes you so special, Sandi. Knowing you, he was probably snuggled up in your lap and you were talking to him until he died. 💔

[@karendemorrow]

I LOVE THE NAME JR MINTS. 😂😂🤣😂

[@karendemorrow]

🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@annelord3685]

Dear Sandi, my heart goes out to you. It really is the hardest thing when you have put so much love into little Peanut. Bleess you, there is no shame in showing love.

[@jrowlove7328]

You gave Peanut the best life. You did the right thing. I know it is difficult. But PLEASE don’t blame yourself. He received more love and compassion in his short life than many lambs ever do. 🙏🏻

[@nancyjohnson8650]

Aw, hugs, Sandi! Doing the right thing isn’t always easy. Peanut only knew love his whole life, thanks to you. That’s a testament to your love and commitment to the lives entrusted to you. Keep up the great work! You inspire us all.

[@cindylaffoon607]

Don't beat yourself up you kept in touch with your vet. You do everything for your animals

[@julieperkins1904]

I’m crying with you Sandy. It just proves how much you (farmers) care about your animals. 😢❤

[@melb6862]

So sorry for your loss of Peanut, the way he looked at you just broke my heart but you did he right thing x

[@jackiechase2688]

It's hard when you know what's best for Peanut and other lambs/adults. No one wakes up thinking "Yay! I get to put down an animal." I cried along with you every time you have to make that decision. Your compassion and love for these animals is one of your best attributes. We were all rooting for Peanut to get better. If farming was easy, everyone would be doing it. You are doing great! We love you and your family. Keep your head up! ❤

[@forakermm]

It’s not a weakness, Sandi… having a huge heart is sometimes painful, but never a weakness. ❤️🐑 #rippeanut

[@iris5678]

I'm sorry about Peanut, Sandi. You did your absolute best but just sometimes they can't pull through. ♥

[@dawnfoster2873]

I’m so sorry about Peanut Sandi. I cried with you. We all loved him and please know everything you did for him from his birth to now was done with love. RIP our little Peanut ❤️🐑

[@Bmaki539]

Peanut is just apart of the farming the circle of life. Thank you for sharing the birth & death with us.

[@msvaleriah]

I'm so sorry about Peanut, Sandi. But as others have said, you did the right thing for him after giving him all the love and care you could. The reason you're so great at what you do is that you do love your animals and give them the tender loving care they deserve for what they give to us. Sending a big virtual hug your way. You're awesome.

[@MissShards]

Rip Peanut ❤ You showed him so much love and care and did all you could ❤

[@mariewintersteen7098]

Sandi, I've watched grown men sob when they had to put down a pet! Sending you big hugs, you gave it your all! RIP, Peanut! Now you can set by God at his throne!

[@zebiboots]

Sandi, Peanut had the look in his eyes that he was ready. I know it's so hard, I cried some tears for you too. God bless

[@cynthiac6110]

It's never easy when you have animals. Everytime you have to make that decision even with the big sheep I cry. You did the right thing. Peanut tried so hard. RIP Peanut.

[@trinacostar7772]

Peanut you were loved and we all cried with Sandi❤

[@SuperDianaD]

I got my shipment today!! It's adorable and hope there's many more to come. It's also such a sad day. Peanut put up a good fight and just wasn't meant to be on this earth longer. You tried your best, gave him love from the beginning and that's all that can be expected. Giant hugs to you Sandi. I cried along with you as I know most of your viewers did as well. Bless you.

[@institches100]

Peanut gave you so.much love, and visa versa. I am shedding tears for both of you. Love can be hard but so rewarding.

[@serenadedbyangels]

Sandi don't be hard on yourself or allow anyone else to be either. You are who you are! Your love and compassion for your sheep is so beautiful. You did your best for Peanut, and as sad as you are, just remember you loved him, and he knew he was loved all during his decline in health. He didn't die alone, even to the end you were with him loving on him and that is golden! 💛

[@stephaniegenova5469]

Honesty, I couldn't believe that Peanut made it more than a couple of days. I fell in love with him the moment I saw him but told myself not to get attached. Then, against all odds, he thrived. I wanted him to grow and live so badly. You gave him the best, unfortunately it just wasn't meant to be. I'm glad we got to have him as much as we did. You have my sympathy Sandi.

[@chalotteingvorsen]

Poor you and poor Peanut, he knew he was loved and treasured in his time with you.❤❤

[@jenniebowerman2600]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. You are such a kind and loving shepherd.

[@janicedove5653]

First time I’ve cried. Watched you for years. Peanut stole my heart. I will miss him. You are amazing Sandi B!

[@normarideout62]

You fought a hard battle Peanut…. So sorry Sandi ..you have a heart of gold.

[@debbies8023]

You are a caring, loving Shepard. That is why losing a little buddy is so traumatic. Because you care so much, is why I always look forward to your videos, too.

[@heidiyork1846]

I’m so sorry Sandi. You tried everything for Peanut. 💔 The compassion in your DNA is what your subscribers love.

[@pathowes32]

You were are hero for Peanut. You gave him a chance and he loved you for that. Thanks Sandi, you are a kind hearted farmer❤️

[@susanp7432]

My heart goes out to you. 😢 You provide so much love to all your sheep.

[@erintoal2018]

You did everything you could for Peanut. We know it's hard and your empathy for all your animals is what makes you a great farmer.

[@jennivamp5]

The fact that you care so much makes you a better farmer and a better shepherd ❤ even though it causes you pain, it is a good thing, it makes you so attentive and work so hard for your animals.

[@jenniferboxx8081]

Sandi… you have done everything, literally everything for peanut. You made the right decision, with love. My heart is with you. 💕 For it to be hard and have it hurt just means that you care. We all see how much you love your sheep.

[@amytowery1547]

I’m so sorry Sandi. Peanut was precious and loving. It would be really hard not to love him back. You did everything you could for him up to and especially at the end by ending his suffering. Thank you for being a wonderful loving shepherdess to your flock. ❤

[@sroyall]

You were wearing the T-shirt that I bought from you when dealing with Peanut. Every time I wear it I will think of him and honor his life and the kindness you showed him. Hugs.

[@cassie.m.0723]

Peanut got so big!! Look how much life he got to live because you put in the time and care ❤ he knows he was loved

[@sonjamotzkus4684]

Cried with you, Sandi. God took special care in Peanut’s design. Rest assured, He has been watching over Peanut and today was when He wanted him to come home. Job 12:7-10 says, “But ask the animals and they will teach you. Or ask the birds of the air and they will tell you. Speak to the earth and it will teach you. Or let the fish of the sea tell you. Every one of these knows that the hand of Lord has done this. (Even Peanut knew.) The life of every creature and the breath of all peoples, are in God’s hands.” God never forgot Peanut and you were exceedingly blessed to care for Peanut. Love you, girl🙂

[@Kaitbr]

It's the love that hurts, but you wouldn't be you without it. Blessings on his way, and yours. 💔

[@patriciablanton6243]

If you were able to do that easily and with no feelings you wouldn't be human. Your love of your four legged critters is one of the reasons we watch you.

[@lotos2980]

Oh, little Peanut made you rest in peace ❤. Sandi, it's in your DNA and you're only human. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤