I Tried 'Gender Swaying' in Order to Get the Daughter I Desperately Wanted | This Morning

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I feel like so unmotivated and just feel like out of control. Can't seem to get in the mindset zone to lose weight.I've been struggling with depression and gender disappointment for two years now. Despite loving my son dearly, I yearned for a daughter. At 44, I'm finding it challenging to cope and move forward. My heart and mind are still adjusting to this unexpected path.Honestly, I'm struggling to accept our family dynamics. Two years ago, we welcomed another precious son, but my heart longed for a daughter. I had saved some of my barbies for that moment. I love your son unconditionally, yet grieving the loss of that daughter dream. Now, at 44, I'm grappling to find closure. I have lost my motivation, believe. It's so much disappointment in my life. Feel like God was cruel to me. Didn't have the love of a mother, didn't have a father figure. My life was of mental and physical abuse and exploitation. I read so many things to help console my heart and mind yo let go of my lost grief over not having a girl. I read that since I didn't have a mother, love, and affection, I want a girl to be able to show that love to console for my loss. That's why I can't let go. Heal that void.